Day 862 Finding my own words. What does it mean to be of sound mind?

Everything is a math, a geometry, a form. Everything has a function according to its form. When a wild animal paces in a zoo, it is because its very form is not given license to express itself. 

The same could be said of children acting up in a classroom. The space, the venue, the isolated artificial light filled with second hand information mis-uses the form and function of the fundamental sentience of the human child. Thus reactions happen. The use of the language missing the living words that lend a more ordered expression of the form that is the human child. And, the body of the human being of water, and salt, the past is imprinted, information as experience is imprinted, and “ follows” with the child. Thus, there is an absence in an isolated box  called public schools as they are “ ordered”  today of real information, and an absence of the living forms that is what the child is a part of as this physical reality, and a resonant image of all that came before that moment from a system lacking recognition of how this all works.  This is basically the creation around us. We are ignoring how this that is in plain sight actually works. Even those playing god cannot win at the end of the day. How this creation actually works must be worked with. Plain and simple. It makes the media and conspiracy theories one and the same, because unless there is a direct relationship between the physical things of this physical living reality, time loops of information become distraction and what is real is ignored leading to an overall death. 

This also reveals the incredible and amazing sensitivity of the nature of life itself. It also allows one to realize that all the shadows within one can be let go, because they are of a past, at the moment, that is a chaos because of a lack of looking here, directly at this living earth.

This frees one from past “ trauma.” It means one can breath through what is coming up within, and then, once one is able to breath through a time-line of resonant information, one can then step in and look at the projected resonant memory. One becomes a discerner of what is coming up from within. And one can breath and at the same time, look here, remain in this living moment here. One must recognize the difference and then face the “ dragon.” lol, face what is “ drag-(ed)-on by one’s acceptance and allowance. It is to realize that nothing can define who and what one is as a form and function of and as a sentient state of being. At the end of the day, the shadows have no real power. Reminds me of seeing a demon one time, who was a man, a gentle man before I myself projected an idea ( with no spoken word) that triggered this “ dead” beings projections. They looked like these kinda whispy things jutting out in front of the increasingly angry used-to-be-a-man ( as opposed to a woman).  It was too late at that point, I already realized that sudden storm was a gentle man’s innocence behind the storm and that this “ thing” could NOT touch me. It was an absolute. 

Then why can I still be triggered, as someone did in a few months ago. I watched this storm coming up from within me and before it “ erupted” I went into breath. The essence of this within me was a fear. At the moment, I wanted to go into full combat mode, but know enough to understand that moving in that reactive and accusative way was not an option. I was too busy in that moment processing what was erupting within me to see beyond the point and realize a solution. I also realized that the triggering storm near me, was already in full swing. It had to “ come back down to earth.” Meaning, it had to become calm or it would only be fed, which was the opposite of solving the problem.

I ask myself why I went into “ shield” mode myself? There is  a " knowing"  real way to process the time-line of projected ideologies covering up a separation from innocence, that gentleness that was more “ pure.” It is visible, thus the secondary projections are a mirage, in a way. A mirage can be seen though one must change the lens of one’s focus. Yet, as it is, we humans have shut down our natural sentience, and have mastered seeing the projections. It is a zombie apocalypse, meaning we are all walking around in resonant bubbles composed of time-lines of information. We have become masters of shadow workings. No wonder the animals hide from us. Do we look like a walking “ bright light” that leaves a dirty sooty smudge in our wake? Probably. If I were an animal in the wild I would probably run and hide too. 

The idea of opening up one’s heart to stand equal and one to the projection and at the same time maintain a grounding in seeing the innocence is most probably what an open heart can do. This is the foundation of and as the statement “ forgive them for they know not what they do.” I wonder if Christ, who was a man, could actually see this. And are there others, somewhere, who are also able to see this? Is this what the fantasy of and as the “ force” is able to be and do? Is it simply a matter of FOCUS? I would say, one would have to give everything up in order to realize this. 

This point, of and as “ nothing can define me but what I allow,” was prominent in my early forties. It kept coming up in moments. I suppose I started to realize on some yet unconscious level, that things being per-formed in front of me did not have to be taken seriously. Meaning, in some ways, they need not define me, and because of that I could respond in a way that did not take such presumptions seriously. There was a noted resistance in relation to addressing what is a state of separation from reality. 

Yet, I had probably used manipulation because I was answering to the projection. All those years in school were simply a regurgitation of information - information that was not enough to really expose how all of this works. As has been said, by thirty, the energy generated by the shadow zombie separation-from-self human had already fed their life energy into the present system. I was already all used up. Life has a way of self realizing, we do in time, or standing in this space, begin to discern the patterns. Hence all the suppressive drugs being souled/sold?  Is there really any real health today? 

So many epidemiological studies recognizing patterns and yet a lack of follow through to discovered correlations. And a bureaucracy that stagnates to create a fire-wall of not-allowing-the-information into the “ records” under the guise of a “ lack-of-funds.” The perfect multi-leveled gated marketing system game plan to hold back the discernment of a natural sentience. Meanwhile, that same system demonizes multi-level marketing. We can, at the end of the day, only speak of our experience. We mirror what we allow. That projected anger, as it will always be anger because that is the consequence of a loss of self, it is so busy per-forming a projected picture show that that is all it can speak of! The words are not living words, they are polarized value judgements that are a video game, with time-lines as strings of information, all of which will not remain at death. It simply has no real longevity. It is an inner tornado, an inner constructed FOCUS - the children absorb from the parents, mirroring their environment- that defining of terms that one can get lost within, or an absence of seeing where else to go.  It has no real eternal quality. It is like a whisper in the wind, and nothing else. 

Day 626 Cat Punching and a Cup-is-a-Cup.

Cat Punching and a cup-is-a-cup.

We go to school, in a box, and we follow. We become the experience that reflects our focus and with repetition, we become what we think about. What is the model of our schools? We spend hours and hours in our childhood, in our developmental years, following knowledge and information, every day, again and again and again. Until we become the measure of this, we become, with our presence, up in that part of ourselves where we abstract things, as thinking, only. The information we receive, as we follow, becomes our lego blocks. We build things with the in-forms and walk in this world in a bubble, directing ourselves as this focus built of repetition into thinking, and we use the blocks of information imparted. Education has the word ‘ educe’ in it. this means to draw out. What is it that we are drawing out? And what is it that we draw with this stuff that we use to draw that comes from within us? Is this the ‘ stuff’ children use to rapidly learn languages? Is this the ‘ stuff’ that we are/ become/allow, and use, to be educed into a form as our memories? 

It is like playing a piece of music, one follows and follows the musical piece, as the information. If one person in the group, questions, or adds, of misses the ‘ music’ as the information in the moment in a space and time moment, all the other parts are going to react in that closed moment- so -to-speak. Of course, there will be reaction. If the music is against the grain of the music/information being per-formed- that is scribed to express, there will be a reaction. Also, to note, if something is added that actually supports the music, there can be reaction because an idea of how something should be as in following the notes exactly can cause reaction where the added expression in a moment could be beneficial. If the mind-set, if the mind is set, on one way ONLY, then the addition, after a skill is developed, will be rejected without consideration of the whole and the parts and form and function, movement and flow. Thus, things can be added. I think of Brahms here, he did not always flesh out his development sections, and playing them sometimes, over and over again, it would dawn on me that the theme was really cool, but maybe that day, Brahms was occupied with something else and was not in the mood to flesh out the theme. lol

In tandem with becoming followers of information lacking equal development of objectively looking at the measure of it, we do not understand that when we move against the information we get the flow of information having to adjust. This appears as reactions. Either this resists that change of flow, or moves with it - and here this can also move into limitations of information flow. These reactions can be a fear of a loss of outcome expected, as in a lesson that is supposed to be taught, or the loss of a momentary gain.  So, we learn at a young age when our information is a scaffold being built, that interrupting information, the song, can cause reprimand, or upset as the person getting off track, from their habituated flow, their ‘ song’ so-to-speak. If this is repeated, then we can end up judging ourselves, and fearing to cause this to happen. Now, we are not only that habituated flow and presence in thinking only, we are also fearful of upsetting that ‘ song’ - flow of information. Meanwhile. a grounding in the starting point of realizing that this is what is happening is lost. Our starting point being a man in a body, of the same as that body, that was born and started to inform our presence into the experiences we encountered. These ‘ encounters’ becoming the measure, the ‘ count’ of us. And we become the personality, the projection of this ‘ count.’

We grow up. That ‘ count’ either directs us in effective ways, or it does not. And, we are impulsed to fear addressing the informed count around us, because we have memories or counts, of reactions and believe that there is no place to go, because we have also been impulsed to believe by the numbers of others doing the same around us, that there is only one way. We go to school, and we learn. Which does happen, so it is not a lie. Yet, it a lie, a lie by omission, because the informing, as the educing being done, conditions our behavior, and the forms themselves are only  a part of the story. Some of the behaviors are not to upset the ‘song’.

Obviously, punishing the form is not the solution. Punching a cat is not the solution. It is no different than punching a cup. Punching the physical does nothing to change what has been informed. If we want to blame the system and punch parts of this physical world, nothing is being done to change  the limitations that created the frustration. The only way to correct is to reform what one is as information. No amount of anger or fear or reaction as venting and releasing via smashing the physical life forms around us is going to change that behavior. One must ‘ educe’ from within, and move against the habit, as the song within, as the information flow within, forgive it, reground it and begin to express one’s self here in respect of the physical, realizing that one’s information is like a ‘song’. One’s memories are like a song. And that song has voices in the head of blame and spite, because the limitations as the information are not equal to what is practical, and because we are taught to remain in the abstract - where all manner of ways exist to manipulate- we reflect on this information up there in thinking only, trying to sort this all out, rejecting this, accepting that, projecting the faults of our educement on beliefs, opinions and ideas, because we don’t realize through those years of transition from a natural sense of the world around us, is away from the forest, from life, and into standing in front of one tree only, and that ‘ tree’ is our accepted and allowed habits, because each participated in this, as being in thinking only. We are the cause of our accepted and allowed educement. So, cat punching is more of the same that one hates. It is using one’s greatest strength and continuing the weakness accepted. It is more of the same. The only way out, is to re-educe self.  To ground oneself back into the real life that we live here, which is a physical life, obviously, this is a practical life. How else would life be? That substance that is what is educed into a form, can be educed back into the practice of living, where a cup is a cup, and a cat is you, the same as you. Punishment cannot be a solution, it is only more of the same. The solution is to realize how this all works and to respect the physical, as the physical is life in-form-ation.  That effort of existing as the rage of an abstract mind information, is consuming your flesh, and it takes great effort. Your natural state of ease, is being grounded here equal and one with the physical.  The acceptance of limited knowledge and information only, communicated in endless abstraction only, will react when questioned, thus it is not something to take personally, it is only to stand, forgive the allowance of self being educed into this limited measure, this para-normal measure, within and without, and to question what it means with every breath, in every moment, to live here. Because here, is life, the physical. Ground yourself back into the practice of living, and pet that cat, they will give life in return, one can hear it, just listen for the purr. That purr, is ‘perfection’. 

Day 625 When I react emotionally I exist as a system of default.

When I react emotionally I exist as a system of default.

When I am not focused here, being considerate of all things as this world that is physical that I use to move within and be in expression as, I become agitated, full of friction and conflict resisting and reacting to the practice of living. I hide myself as life, from here, from looking here, because of some accumulated idea I have accepted and allowed without investigation as to what I am in this physical form that is the practice of living- which must be a form.

Emotions are often my system of default, where I separate from respect for physical life, as physical and life are one and the same, because life must have form. As I begin my life here, I live in the space of here, this physical world, and I become what I repeat because it is through a repetition of cells in various ways that the form of me exists. I can sense when I cut my foot, for example, so I am aware to some extent of these cells as they transmit messages when a change occurs. If I am not present and respecting my physical self I will not notice when a tick bites me, for example. If my memory as my experience becomes more, the focus of me, then I will not notice when that tick bites, because I have focused more on my memory that on what it is that I was before I even had any memory!

Thus, when I react and project blame onto things around me, I am not being response - able, I am not looking at what is physically here information and paying attention to what I was before I had memory, which means that what I am as a physical beingness came before memory, which means that memory is built on top of the physical as me. No wonder men lose the ability to learn, because we allow ourselves to fill up with memories that we believe are more than what we really are. That initial state was learning to sense the world, and this sense was transposed into a limited measure as memory, and then made larger than life. This is that ‘ mind’ that we are told to stop by some religious accounts. This is what makes it so difficult to change, because the directions we have accepted are not clear, are not what grounds us here in respect of the physical as life. So, we have a system to counter this lack of clear structure within, that has become a snake eating its own tale, where the lack is blamed when the lack is the cause! Thus, we circulate limitation and blame, lack and spite instead of solutions and stability. Can we remember that all the existent borders geographically, politically, financially and socially are divisions for control of each part being in default of common sense, and that the solution is to reform ourselves back into a practice of realizing that the physical is the means of our being, and that the memory at present  is a form within each that is not equal to this means of life? 

The responsibility is really with each person, because what another says, is an idea, composed of a measure about reality, and not reality, thus what another says, suggests, imposes, dictates, cannot define the listener unless they accept and allow it!  And within this, we become the measure of our repeated practice. So, if we spend our early years in a box, being the state of taking in information dictated through words that come to inform  us, as a measure of belief that becomes our understanding,  we not only become what is informed, we also become the behavior of taking in information without reflection, without having the practice of asking questions about that information. And as children, if we are already impulsed to listen to adults, we have a hard time counteracting our own behaviors and standing up and questioning what information is given to us in our schools, and the adults to not have the time because the dictates are too many to stop and consider in time, and the adult is of the same measure of taking in without time to question, so by default of investigation in a structure of time in space, it is that all measure is to limit that common sense to investigate what is real, as the physical world.

We cannot blame anyone but ourselves, because we accept and allow this and it is each part as each man that is the one that has to change this, to ground the focus of that self as that one part, back into being practical in a physical formation as what life, of course, would be! No one can to this for another, each must do this for themselves.

Thus, each must forgive the memorial as the measure of one’s past in this unacceptable system of memories unequal to respect for the physical which is life, and ground back into becoming the practice of living, which is accepting life, which is accepting the physical world. the within has to be equal to the without. the default system of unequal measure through the fault of not investigating all things instead of only memory, and focus in what does no harm to physical life information.  Our pyramid scheme that has lead to ivory towers is a system of aggrandizing one point of organization to the point on the top of the scheme that exists in separation from physical reality up there, at a desk doting ‘i’s’ and crossing ‘ t’s’ without any sense of what happens to that cell on the bottom of that foot or hoof or root. So far in sense is that aggrandized point that it moves things around on a paper world of information only, being the good student in the school, taking in the information and regurgitating it without question, just to have praise and in fear of not surviving which has come to mean having money; something we all accept and allow when we fail to stand up and realize that the power is in the numbers, of many standing together and forming something new, the same way we formed the old, through many parts as many men, being a part of the structure of what exists in a physical world. No one part is more than another, such a conceptual measure is a belief and has nothing to do with the practice of living which is a physical information practice in all common sense.

If we fill our rivers up on the land, and the rivers as the blood stream and the neurological steams with things that stagnate that flow then the machine as the system of life does not function in its full capacity. If we fill our memory, our reflection of reality, with limited forms as information imparted in abstract ways only, then our elect- rons , our elected ‘ running’ system will function in terms of that information, and if it does not match what we move as and through and with, then the actions as the directives will not fit the form as the physical that is the means of this blue print, as what a memory is. And the memory has no real sustainability, so a media that is ubiquitous must exist, to impulse its limited measure again and again and again. And this information is not equal to the physical world, to life. The nature of this must be constantly reminded, because on its own, it cannot withstand the test of time, because it is not equal to the physical, to life. Because of this, what we call heaven, as our memories, is our default system, that which must be ‘brought down to earth,’  makes sense and is of course why it was said, “ we have to bring heaven, as our inner measures, down to earth if we want to get to heaven. It is as simple as that. When I want to blame something, I have to stop, I have to breath, I have to slow down, investigate practical reality, until I am grounded. When I sense what is best , which is what would be best for all, the only solution, I become the practice of investigation of the physical and am focused here, I repeat and become the practice of being focused here, I take myself back and direct myself.  I stand as the practice that can withstand the test of time, and the scream of the default system as a memory in separation of equal consideration of physical information that is what life would be of course.