Day 853 An overuse of the imagination, a sense of loss and giving myself permission to be simple

I have noticed lately some back chat and imaginations increasing within myself. It is a movement where I suddenly find myself IN-volved in an inner imaginative playout of .. mostly working with what I perceive within myself as “ injustice” like situations. I have recognized this more rapidly and simply stopped. I can remember when I first started this process how difficult it appeared to be to stop such “ worm-hole” like DISTRACTIONS from focusing all of me, as the life that is me here, to living here, in this moment, equal to a consideration of all things, this place where I can realize that there are no problems and ONLY solutions. 

I stand back and look at the overall emotional tenure of what is existing within me as a resonant construction. I notice lately two things, and these have to do with consequential changes in my life. One is that my children are basically a much smaller part of my life, and hence a sense of being alone. Another, is some friction within expectations in relation to what I bring forward into this reality. Within this I realize that what I share is basically a very very simple thing that can have a huge impact in a person’s life. The conflict is the difference between an over-use of my imagination and the contrast of realizing the simplicity of something and relating that to its impact in allowing another to process and recognize what they are realizing and living within them selves and the greater reality around them as this physical existence. It is to say that I continue to polarize values and that itself is a distraction from realizing the simple being a means to correct that very thing I find myself once again being caught within. Another way to say this is a sense that being simple is somehow not allowed. I have to give myself permission to realize an old adage that “ if someone cannot explain something to a child, then one does not really know that of which they speak! 

It is in allowing the simple that I find I am more able to play and be patient and direct with greater effect. This, overall, a contradiction to beliefs that something must involve pain to grow, or that realizing solutions involves fighting for something, when in effect it is the opposite. I mean, the statement that realizes if someone cannot explain something to a third grader, for example, means that they really do not know that of which they speak, is an equation that reveals that real solutions are actually simple. If we contrast that to our present hyper-emotional and polarized doom and gloom generating media, we might just realize the difference and find our way back to our own innocence! 

It is as though being emotional is “ not having enough information,” and that being emotional is being in a polarized alternate imaginary inner resonant storm that is a storm in a tea-cup that has been “

 normalized” when within well known adages, the opposite of what is promulgated as normal is that which is abnormal! This would be difficult to process conceptually is one is running in an inner energetic storm of good and bad, right and wrong, less than and more than. Remember, we humans are happy when we are doing and unhappy when we are not. Doing, involves being focused on the practical. That means realizing each simple step by step movement that actually gets things done. That moves with a greater ease as the nature of real doing involves a focus that lacks distraction and tension. 

Everything is a math, even a system of distraction. Overall, nothing can define who and what we are but by acceptance and allowance. That is a huge gift in itself. 

Thus, back to myself, I realize that I am feeling, and as such distracted from being present, that I am suddenly more alone. And two, that this over-blown  imagination and state of value judgement which is a fear, is limiting a sense of realizing the simple in another area of my life. And, within that, that I give myself permission to realize the simple, which by extension opens up a realization that I am able to have fun within what I do because in effect, it is something that can be explained to a child. And, within that, I have explained this to many children and they tend to get it right away! 

The difference is like using a sextant on a ship. When one practices a correct and careful word recognition ability, one’s sextant use will more than likely bring them into a port of their choice, whereas an incorrect inner GPS building will lead their course way off of the port their choice! 

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to exist within and as me, as my beingness, as a belief that I am alone.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to feel that I am suddenly alone as my children have become independent of me.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself, as my beingness, to see realize and understand that I am the life that is here as this earth, a life that is a creation that is physical in form and function revealing itself as creation manifest, evident in a system that is constructed and allowed by all of mankind, within and as the development of religions that distract from being in consideration of all things, and of behaviors such as my own, of living in a resonant storm of charged beliefs of a more than and a less than, this in itself a distraction from being focused and in consideration of all things, as being in regard of all things here.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand that as life, situations grow and change, morph and move into different forms of interaction and communication, and as such, within and as my own life, at the moment, I am moving into a situation where I have time and space to consider what I like, what perspectives and insights as the life of me, can be and share and develop which is a gift in and of itself here.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand that I am always, in all ways, all one here.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself as my beingness, to believe that things must be complicated when in fact, solutions are by nature usually the next simple step, and that the accumulation of simple steps leads to being able to process more complex forms, which is a simple and really cool ways and means to and towards self improvement and development.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to be and come to an overuse of my imagination, within and as allowing “ righteous” and justice seeking payouts within and as my imagination, which are really a reflection of an inner fear, where in this moment i see a relationship within this to and towards a fear of being left out, and a fear of ineffective communication where I have these inner imaginative play-outs spinning in a desire to blame and spite resistances I imagine will automatically exist within and as my immediate environment, when in effect, I have walked and faced many such resistances, and brought common sense into the picture thus my own fears and reactions as such fears within myself are simply an absence of living in thought, word and deed that which is simple and most often fun and playful in relation to understanding how this physical state of being actually works.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to exist within and as my inner focus as a distraction of and as fear.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to be distracted within and as worrying and imagining worst case scenarios in separation from myself as life, as my beingness, being focused here, realizing the simple and having fun and being playful within and as that, to realize in thought, word and deed that which is in consideration of all things to regard with awe, the magnificence of creation that is life as this physical expression of form and function that us earth here.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to exist within and as an idea of what is right and an expectation of what is right being accepted, when in effect, this is a focus of distraction instead of remaining here, breathing, slowing down and playing with focus, as the physical body in its expression here, when this is visible and can be felt, where what is really huge is the physical creation of life that is here in all ways always, as this is in plain sight here.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself as my beingness to see, realize and understand that I am life and that as this life, I determine the physical state of this life within and as the very fabric of my physical body, in and as the very focus of me here, where tensions and frictions within and as my body, reveal my acceptances and allowances, played out within my over-used imagination, that is something I as the life that is me, can direct, and as such I give myself permission to life being present and focused here, to realize the simple and to have fun as inherent in being focused and present is real discovery and the living of solutions that are what is best for all, here.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself as my beingness, to focus myself within a narrow field of charged value judgements and as such to live within a survival suit as a belief instead of remaining focused and in respect of this living breathing creation that is physical, and here in plain sight.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to fear the mind.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to resist and suppress seeing the mind, a mind as an overuse of the imagination, that has not real constancy and sustainability, and therefor has a nature of being intense and insistent and then suddenly ending, where in my state of resisting and running from this and being in my own gloom and doom fear mode, not seeing realizing and understanding the patterns within and as the nature of this, to the extent I can able to stand equal to such states-of-separation realizing that nothing can define me,  but what I accept and allow, and as such am able to realize patterns and process form and function and movement, to define and realize the space and then to play and reform and ground in ways that allow self discovery as within this, there need be no self validation as the real value is realizingin thought, word and deed,  that which beings insight into who and what we really are as creation that is expressed in physical form, to realize the only choice is to exist within and as heaven on earth here, where all life is considered and respected as being the real value here. 

I forgive myself for not seeing realizing and understanding how my physical body, to a greater extent, is gifting me as life the means to understand this reality as that being who and what I am here, as I am life here.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to become engrossed in a resonant bubble of information, and instead of being focused here, realizing that nothing can define who and what i am, and yet as that I am able to stand equal and one with what is here for a moment without fear to process what consider and REFLECT consideration of all things as the who and what I am here, as I am life which is physical and in plain sight - the opposite of an overuse of the imagination that causes a separation from a practice of cross referencing all things as life, as the physical as this earth, here.

I commit myself to allowing and accepting myself, as my beingness, to focus here, to realize nothing can define me but who and what i am as life, which is physical, and here in plain sight, that what is constant and consistent is eternal, and grounded and sound.

I commit myself to seeing realizing and understanding that just as my imagination is changeable, and protean-like, so is the ability of myself as the heart of me, able to define terms for a moment and consider all things, regard all things and process a lack of information, with care and reflection in ways that build in a process of sharing what has a more eternal quality and is of equal consideration of all things here.

I commit myself to Slowing down and breathing, and realizing the small movements into an overuse of the imagination and myself existing within and as an idea of fear of loss and fear of standing equal and one to the simple to realize that the simple can be brought forward in thought, word and deed in every moment here, as life is always in all ways in plain sight here, as this earth in form and function.

I commit myself to seeing realizing and standing as that which grounds one’s focus into and as the innate ability of the life that is in each and everyone, to come forward and live in joy of the awe of creation that is always, in all ways in plain  sight here. 

Day 832 Mirroring

There was a moment this week where I realized the movement of myself as a mirroring of what is around me. Meaning, it is so visible how we mirror, as we speak that which we are allowing within ourselves in relation to a captive audience as the object of that which we stand and mirror our self to and towards. It is this tangible thing, a presence, a projection. The person mirroring themselves, as a quality in their stance of a lack of awareness of their projections. The quality is vacuous, meaning, there is a somewhat vacant look to the person mirroring what is being processed within them. Within this the listener can hide in plain sight. This could be used, to the extent one is protected from this consuming mirroring process. 

I could see where this may trigger anger, like an indignant anger and a restlessness as a fear of being pulled into the vortex of that mirroring action because it may define one and upset one’s self definition. That mirroring movement has an insistence to it. It wants validation when in reality it is the one being in that self projected mirror processing where they are at, like someone banging their head against a wall attempting to see outside of their own self definitions.

Overall, this is a state of separation from being present, because if one is in a state of self validation, which has an element of processing where one is at, or referencing what one has lived, one cannot have a focus on that which is around one, and/or there is an element of self justification within this which in itself is a form of self justification in isolation from the living reality around us. It could go both ways, where one realizes what one is doing and opens this up to process that movement within and the reality the living reality that is what and who we are in this life. Such a state can be something that stagnates, or something that can open a window into the choices one has made, to realize in a moment the degree to which one has lived within limiting self definitions at the expense of being in respect of this living physical reality.

I experienced this this week. I could see my own reactions and feel that sticky sense that I notice when that insistence in recognition for the mirroring of experience. That action of seeking both validation and on some level a reference of experience wanting some kind of closure. That closure from perpetual seeking which is ultimately to become one and equal to the living reality that is who and what we are here. That ease, that which can move through the eye-of-the-needle, or have the ability to process in the moment, to never tell a lie, and therefore, carry nothing around with one, or remember anything because the reference is always, in all ways, equal and one to the moment. The “ here”, as creation, as the physical. 

In this experience of looking at someone expressing themselves to me,I was resisting and becoming irritated, yet in that moment, I was listening to someone basically processing where they were at, building understanding within themselves. 

It pulled up another memory of this. I was in an interview. Yet, I was not speaking. The interviewee was doing all the talking. They were telling me their life story - lol, perhaps they were mirroring me in some way, as though they felt by what and who I am, that they could tell their life story! As the interviewee chatted away, I had the thought that they were doing all the talking, most probably had already hired a person for the position, and that I was basically a captive audience, and that that interviewee would continue to look disheveled even if a tailored suit was made for them! lol. I was not aware of the extent of this process, still having reactions myself. Yet, to some degree, around the edges of my own personalities, there were those cracks in the fabric of the situation where I was safe because the interviewee was mirroring ( as I call it here) and that I could basically hide. What if I had looked deeper? What if I had been calmer and perhaps seen through the veil of the mind projections humans are living within to protect self definitions at the expense of being present and in respect of the living physical reality that is life in expression?  

In other words, mirroring reveals that resonant constructions within us, as ego, that is a state of separation from reality. It is why so many children do not yet have memory, have not YET separated from being present in this reality. It is why they have no heaviness, which we could call a state of innocence. Our information as what we define ourselves as, does not fit into reality, and it becomes a weight that we carry around, consuming the body until it is ashy white and bent. What will leave the body at death, is what remains of one’s purity or innocence. What is that 21 grams that every body loses in weight at the moment of death? 

In moving as this that I call a mirroring experience, what is recognizable is that one is seeking. In being a seeker one is separated from being here, from being in a focus that is a living relationship to all life. All life being the physical, which is life in expression. One would no longer have to remember what one did yesterday or a year ago because the living story is always here, as the physical. As things are systems, with patterns, one need only reference the physical reality that is here, and understand how things are built and composed because the structures would be in plain sight. This in itself reveals creation of which we are, unless we are caught in a resonant storm of ideas, beliefs and opinions, separating us from ourselves. When we use another to mirror ourselves we are acknowledging that we are a construction that is resonant within that we are reviewing to define and to place onto this reality. We know that somehow we are not in sync with what is here. It is also why there is really one principle; to do what is best for all. This is so because with every action we take, it means to reference all things around us before taking an action. It means to realize the one choice of and as “ to do no harm.” Collateral damage, just as the term “ anti” placed before some qualifier are the present industry labels used to seed fear and doubt. It is the game of you are with us or against us. If we are busy mirroring our experiences and self validations, we are already unstable because we are seeking closure, we are seeking stability. And yet that mirroring can perhaps be a right use of imagination to assess before taking action when used in respect of all things.

We basically have a system, we participate within a system that has normalized harm. This is the side of mirroring where what is being moved within as the self, is self justification for choices made that lacked regard and respect for the reality around us as this earth. Just this week I heard in the news feed a comment that suggested the present system is doing everything possible to remove awareness of biology. We have become an anti-biology system. Yet we are biology! 

Our media systems are basically a mirroring system showing that same action. One fears one’s survival which means that there is a loss of real presence - the real normal. A normal that would lead to a life, as opposed to living in a shadow world where one is scattered into projections that require constant support. What if we recognized this and equalized to creation that is this earth and this life. Even the pop music that is a constant in the stores has a weight to it. It is of constant lament, pushing down, like a force, seemingly normal as though one is not alive unless one is living in some form of longing and lament. Meanwhile, we humans are so capable we become our parents! That requires great sensitivity to absorb a form and enact that expression! We take on forms. That means we are creative. Why not do this in relation to the living reality around us, considering all things? Would we need to self validate if we retained a natural presence? 

Given the increasing inequality in financial terms in this world today, how many are living their potential? And I do not mean the “ potential” promoted by the present systems - where one is labeled and placed into a delineation that suits a hierarchy of financial means. The present system simply mirrors what we are mirroring within us, that by degree indicates the extent to which a state of separation from the living biology that is who and what we are here exists as - that which is the means of being here. Hold your breath, and see what will remain! 

Have a look at our movies. Everything happens in the space of a couple of hours. That is not a timing in sync with reality. As we absorb everything, our children would build an inner template that has nothing to do with practical living. And we wonder why we have so many attention disorders and cognitive problems, relationships problems and violence.  The media feeds on violence and harm - it mirrors the degree of our separation from ourselves and yet it shows us how we can take in the most subtle of things and use that information to direct the self! . 

This overall, has become normalized. Meanwhile, the resources from resource rich countries flows with expediency and certainty.  A few have captured the earth, which is all of us, for a false creation that cannot and will not stand because it is not equal to creation. It exists through participation because the real power is in the numbers. It is held in place because it is accepted as a norm, when is it not normal. There are people realizing this, but like a child facing a parent, that “ parent” is so loud and such a bully, an imposition, that it appears to be something one cannot pass, when in reality, it is simply a projection. One that is visible. We know it because we hide from it in plain sight! It has no real power unless one allows one’s self to become hypnotized by it. One is facing a mirror of mis-information and believing that only that exists.  Meanwhile the living earth is being abused, the animals, that plants the waters. The earth is becoming polluted. And by extension, so are we. When we drink the alcohol ( normalized) and we eat the refined sugars ( normalized) we are poisoning ourselves! We have been sold that health comes from a needle, instead of realizing that what supports the body are the living building blocks of this earth all around us! There is an attempt to normalize health through a needle. How does that make any sense? 

I mean, we can all realize the extent of what I call mirroring here, because we have all had a moment where we realized someone was talking at us, and not really seeing us. In that moment, we would manipulate the narrative to hide our own hiding of ourselves! Thus, that same ability to absorb and learn, should we stop self validating, has that ability to see our own states of separation when we are being talked at instead of being present. We are not swayed into self protection and defense, our own self validation, in response to another self validating! We choose that movement in the moment!  We are so able to process what is moving within us, and moving around us as this life that is physical.

It is noted that thoughts move at something like 1000 to 3000 thousand words per minute. Most of us, as the average, read at about 250 words per minute. We are capable of mastering and reading many words per minute! If we caught up with ourselves, and mastered the small enough to recognize it and call it out by name, would we need to mirror our experiences as a state of hypnotic forcing of story if we were present and at ease with recognizing the living, moving environment around us? Have we lost sync with that innocence that is in children where the children do not yet have the means to express in ways that recognize what is happening within and around them and yet do not have a busy-ness with projections of likes and dislikes called personalities? It is all a math, a geometry,  and yet,  that life directing that projected mirror has become a master of something we could call deceit. That is done through practice! It means we can change, we can take that apart and come back to ourselves as life, and move to remain present in this living reality to become the creators we are meant to be because that is the nature of the essence of life within and as us. 

For myself, I must forgive my own reactions to the projected personalities because in effect, it was simply this that I call the mirroring effect of self validation, or self cross reference.  It is like a mirror that is a mirage, and like a mirage, one can slow way down and actually see it! It is not something that one can necessarily see with the eyes - which as this overuse of one sense, we humans  have overused imagination! Yet that means of separation is simply an imbalance of the tools that are life tools as that same ability that allows a child to become just like their parents! In effect, we are life, and thus we are amazing. It is why Christ ( supposedly) said, “ You can do what I do and more.” 

Day 816 Writing out where I am at.

There must be a point of closing a gap between meeting one’s zone of proximal development or path of least resistance, within what is essentially a narrow band of memorized and practiced information. Such point of real presence can be lived in every moment, in every breath.  Mistakes compound as well as what is a more correct action, as our movements accumulate and automate. The practice of real presence, of and as a greater knowing from having developed a real presence and respect of creation, here, must also be present as a cross reference that is of real balance, and this having a quality of awe and joy. Therefore there really is no such thing as criticism and we are all sensitive as the very means of this!  When, if I look at nature and what I have discovered in relation to the native plants surrounding me, I realize the gamut of taste, of qualities within eating what is considered by today’s mass monocultural food industry,  that the qualities of “ weeds” have a greater depth, much like a the layers of paint in mastery of movement in creating a painting: one has a larger gamut of measure and therefor sees greater living qualities, and can produce a more specific work.

An example of this overall is from when I allowed my children and a friend to open a gallery in my living room one summer. The three artists that hung work attracted different people. What was most revealing to me, as my own reaction, was the one student who was more on the beginner level. They painted simple imagery, of, for example, a vase with simple flowers. A very rudimentary picture. One man came in went straight towards that picture, not seeing the other images. He bought that simple vase, done by the beginner, because that was where he was at, that was his idea of a pleasing image. It fit his gamut of ideas, beliefs and opinions. This is not a bad, it simply is what it is. Even within this, there is room for insight, as some of us are geniuses once a year, and others perhaps more than once a year, yet we are all genius! That part of ourselves is more of our potential self, it is who we really are. NO ONE can give this to ourselves but ourselves. Which is awesome. If we look, in reality, we don’t really want someone else to give it to us! Self discovery is what life and living is about! Creating with respect of what is best, is in itself, real freedom.

Yet, the point in all of this in correspondence to the “ weeds” and our eating habits is, for me at the moment, a reflection of the narrow band of information we exist as from the present system that is here through the acceptance of this narrow band, or accepted frequency that is of limited information that is superimposed on reality, through the device of salt and water as our physical bodies ( I mean why are television ads so repetitive ! And, what is being souled/sold/practiced? )  - so to speak. This acceptance  creating this projection of imagery come to be a norm is yet in reality a habituation that causes mis-takes in movement and expression of that means of being creative and present in all things. It is this place of all things, being in respect of it, which is the physical reality around us, that the degree of qualities in the living world around us, is of so much more, or, of great abundance, that a moment of breathing and living with what is here, can open this that is more natural up. One must begin to realize the depth of the state of separation, as the resonant projection of and as energy from thinking, and instead to choose to become more stable and present in all things that is of a greater abundance. The focus demanded of that equality and oneness with this living reality, would naturally be of a state of greater peace, because one must be focused, which is where we are most able to be and utilize a greater haptic ability in each small movement and act. That state of focus, which has an absence of the emotional pressures, built of energy created from thoughts of value judgements causing a distraction that becomes an imagined narrow band of focus, resonant within. Focus here, the self here, being present has less pressure, from a certain perspective. Even the chemistry of the body would act differently! Being focused in this way, lends greater joy, and opens more discovery.  To slow down and practice that state of focus, allows one to realize greater patterns around one, as a greater focus ability opens discovery.  It is in the end all a math! Everything is therefore a system!

Our so called “ weeds” have a greater depth of flavor, of color, of touch, of qualities. Thus, our “ weeds” reflect the abundance that no longer exists in our monopolized agricultural food industry. This same aspect must exist in many of our acceptances come to be considered a norm and habituated.  Since we are programmed to remain within that gamut/ band of color/flavor/quality,  and it is a foundational program that has been systemized over generations by those who came before us, that one could say, creeps up on us, without us realizing the limitations of that, and how it automates as habit at the expense of the greater whole, reflects the degree of an absence of real focus in reality within so many of our actions. It is really astounding!  Everything is a system, even a system of systemized limitation, or narrow focus on selective qualities held as imagination and thus distraction from reality can be of a resonance within. And yet, we will not find happiness until we  are equal and one with all things, being focused here, which has a quality of peace, which lends a balance of a more gentle soundness manifest as our behavior. And, here, this would have a more haptic quality, as we would be of a focus here that allowed a more correct simple action in every moment! This is where we create, which is more natural. Would that not be the moment revealed in such statements as a moment of being a genius that is actually within each and every one of us as the life that is us ! Within this, and in great simplicity, would this not be what being the living word would mean? 

Day 645 What if the gift of patience? The gift of self discovery.

I was standing talking to a crowd, all the while it was as though the weight of fear was there, in each and every one,  I noticed that this sense of futility came up, and yet, I could see this and remain within moving through this, as in not only seeing this, and speaking up for what grounds and allows a more self directive capacity, the self discovery through the limitation.

And I realize that in my life, there were opportunities where I could have slowed way down and described what was happening within me, with those around me in my world.  Instead I reacted, kept insight to myself, and did not communicate openly. I had allowed a chaos of reaction, as energized ideas to define me over what was best for all. I had rejected communicating the measure of myself, and in so doing, dis-allowed the time to process through into an understanding, openly, that those around me were the same as me, lost in a mind consciousness game that separated one’s self from practical living. I allowed this, I accepted this.

It is like, in all practical measure, one cannot sort out what is not brought to the table.

Fear is really an inferiority to life, a loss of one’s innate common sense as a biological machine composed of the same things as the world around us. Our personalities are what hides what we fear, thus our personalities reveal what we reject and how we have projected ideas onto this physical world’s objects to avoid losing our self definitions that are a protection and self defense for what we believe defines us so we can survive never slowing down to realize that life is eternal, and need not waste time in survival and that our systems are a reflection of this belief in survival and not what is real as creation information as the physical. What we are allowing to define us, is a personification of values to hide our separation from ourselves as life. 

Having no real substance, this manifests as energy. Try sustaining this, and one would need a break, as it is not what allows one to stand eternally, never needing to hide. to escape from one’s community, never needing to snap and be impatient.

Thus, for myself, the choice is to become patience, to forgive myself and others, and to stand as what is best for all, using the gift of life, as my physical self, to see realize and understand what is practical and connected to reality, a physical reality, because this is what I really am here.

The smoke and mirrors of fear can only last a short time, thus I can stand in stability and calm, serenity and silence, to allow the revelation of separation as the personality gasps its last stance into seeing, realizing and understanding its own limitation- and this is what I would want for myself. 

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not use the gift of patience.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to want to rush, to run from limitation, as though the energy of others, as idea, belief and opinion could define me, when what I feared was the opposition to my own protective personification.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to fear the measure as belief, opinion and idea expressed as energy, as projected personification, not seeing realizing and understanding how this was a separation from practical living, from what grounded presence into taking that which is good and does no harm, as this is the real nature of all men on earth.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to be patient within and without, to and towards all the life around me, to move past the smoke and mirrors of fear,  into what is eternal, as myself grounding in equality and oneness with and as life here.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to fear the ghost in the machine.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to have not shared my own ghost that I accepted and allowed within myself as my physical body, to realize equality and oneness with and as life here, and as this to stand equal and one with what is eternal, as what takes that which is good and does no harm.

When and as I find myself becoming anxious, I stop, I breath, I slow myself down, I become patient, as the gift of life is right here, and I use patience to weather the storm of energy, as opinion, belief and idea rushing to shield a mis-take on reality, as life, and to see, realize and understand that ability of life to self dis-cover through the storm of voices of justification that is in essence  a process and solution into seeking and self dis-covering life.

When and as I find myself believing the game of separation to be bigger than myself, I stop, I breath , I slow myself down, and I ground myself here, allowing the mis-take on real living to rage into self dis-covery.

When and as I find myself fearing energy, as self validating of personalities, I stop, I breath, I slow myself down and I see, realize and understand the infinitesi-mal  of value judgements spinning as a mind consciousness seeking oneness and equality to and with life here and as this, I become patient, standing serene, calm, silent, breathing, forgiving myself within and without, as what is here is myself in another life, and I facilitate within this silent patience the movement out of mind consciousness energy into and through the ability of self to self discover what separates from life into what grounds self into equality and oneness with this practical physical world, as this world is the means of life in expression.