Day 846 What does it mean to actually live a word?

What does it mean to actually live a word? It has to do with focus, yet not in the way we have been taught in many ways. We place so much of our focus into our imaginations losing a sense of the design and expression of the physical creation around us. That physical creation is stressed because it has been ignored at the expense of projections of ideas about how things should be. When we have a medical system that determines things in petrie dishes in labs removed from the living reality, we are not working with creation as the physical. We begin to force the physical into some design determined by what? By another physical creation overusing the imagination. What was religion after all but a consequence of separation from reality causing one to believe that there is something greater outside of one’s over-use of the imagination! As I mentioned in my last blog, the way I sense it today is a form of telescoping a focus into a projection. This does look like some vortex form flowing out from our eyes. We are attracted to one another resonances, both the real essence of the person but also, and more so, the projected belief systems. Our projections are also of that which we rejected within ourselves, meaning we chase our greatest strengths which has become our greatest weaknesses. We resist values. 

Imagine growing up in a home with adults who are doing this? It would be hard for a child to counter this, even if they spoke simply a clearly. That projection would get in the way, that emotional fire-wall.  The beingness way down at the end of the tunnel of projection would be spending all their time managing their projection, attempting to validate their construction, attempting to pull everything in in relation to their construction. 

People lie all the time, yet this is visible. It has a vacuous feel to it. That is a certain focus of the body. IN our innocence as children we must see this. After all, we then learn to not trigger that which upsets that vortex maintenance.  That vortex maintenance is so insistent and lost within itself. And one can see that the core is not focused in reality, it is focused on the projection. That would look somewhat like a momentary lack of real presence, with a quality in the moment of hoping no one noticed.That would have a thinner-ness to it.  It is a lot like being able to change qualities from intense and rapid, to soft and rapid, much like playing music.  The more one masters the instrument, one begins to play with so many different dimensions of intensity and volume. being able to change from one extreme to anther is really cool. How well one knows the structures, enables greater immediate change, which is basically being able to process with ease. Our bodies and how we focus are really no different. We have simply suppressed this.

I suppose that in communicating with others, it would be allowable to completely let things go and stand within another’s total state if being, and read the narrative, the pressures the imagery. Yet one would have to know the language of symbol. Or sense the strings of association to values. I could see where this would actually be fun and not something to fear. Nothing can actually define the self but by acceptance. The demons in existence could do nothing to anyone but by allowance. The media today is simply an outward manifestation of this that I speak of. As a consequence, we are all masters of this, we have simply mastered ignoring this! That is the level of greatness and creativity within each and everyone of us as life. 

I suppose my anxiety is a consequence of my own suppression of seeing this, of living being presence and focused with an ease. 

What would it mean then to live a word? It would mean to focus to define the space and where it, as humans, focus and do not focus. It is like a form, a thing. It is visual and auditory and tangible. How do I change to protect from what I perceive as an onslaught of a threat, which can only exist if I believe that something is attempting to change my own inner projections from an overuse of the imagination. Yet, nothing can be lost that is actually of life. Thus, nothing can really be lost that is real. 

It is like playing an instrument, being both big and small at the same time. Being able to move in counterpoint and remain stable.  I remember reading the Tin Drum when I was 12. I was fascinated by the perpetually screaming child. I thought the book had an answer, but it really painted a symbol picture of innocence’s response to a life out of balance. In reality that is what each one is doing, screaming to become what has been lost. Each one is screaming as that insistent protection of an overuse of the imagination to protect a construction of protection that is also believed to be a means to an end that is as itself spread way out into time lines of values causing a disconnect from being present. It is a huge game of distraction which is basically what our media is today. And, as well,  our corporate and government administrations. Administrations built of people doing the same thing. I meet many people who say they don’t get involved in politics and go home after work to do their own thing. That is probably one is the greatest evils in the world today, too - especially in America - that exists. It is an abdication of self responsibility, it is an abdication of self as life. It is a state of ignorance, a state of suppression which will accumulate and consume the flesh just as the means of the media in itself is consuming the flesh as the very fabric of the physical. It is a mis-use of resources. 

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to fear.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to walk in a projection of mis-information, as limited story of imagery overall creating a separation from life, and stagnating a natural processing ability as such state of separation is distraction and a busyness of imagery in protection and defense of and as an awareness of an abdication of self as life.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see realize and understand that illusion of the present system, itself being a reflection of what each is being and doing within and as the very substance and the self as life.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see realize and understand that in reality all is in plain sight, within and as every small movement within the space of here, as the physical.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to fear being defined as anything, when what I am is here as the physical as this earth as creation in expression.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to take things personally, as though the projected belief of another, as a state of separation into ideas, beliefs and opinions creating wants needs and desires can have an effect upon me, when in reality nothing can define me but what I accept and allow.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to go into blame which is spite, as being lame in action, within and as self pity and guilt, as realizing I have accepted and allowed myself to participate within and as living limited information, causing polarized values, which is a form of stagnation, thereby in living a lie, the maintenance of that lie-by-omission, distracts and consumes my attention slowing down an ability to process the living reality that is me and is all around me here as this living physical creation as life manifest called earth - as was said that a “ heaven” needed to be brought down to earth.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to realize that in many ways I am able to stand equal and one in thought, word and deed to realize want need and desire as being an exposure of separation from self as life, and as that, the very beingness of self as life, wanting to become the living word, to realize one greatest strength in expression as connection with all things here.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see realize and understand in thought, word and deed, the living word and what that means in every moment here as life in expression.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to be pulled into beliefs as thoughts as spoken words of ideologies that are abstracts about things, where an end game of and as some invisible belief system with a promise of a “ more” being something out there in the future, that is “ incredible” which as a word suggests some nebulous idea of what we are as being a more as a “ cread” when this in itself is a distraction from being present in a reality where resources are mis-used to transfer wealth into digits that are accumulated into the hands of a few, as those who cannot exist without the resources being manipulated and the many hands of humans interacting with said resources, I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to realize this simple fact and within that to stand up and speak even within and as facing resonant layers of mis-information holding this illusion in place, as just as it is to clean up a home so it is to “ clean” up resonant beliefs to stand equal and one to what is best for all here in respect of life that is physical. 

What would be a living word mean? It would have to have a quality of being eternal, something so clear, with such clear intent it would be readily realized - even within facing resistances to speak past that resonant storm of scattered information that has a quality of not being ablate sustain its belief? It would either cause interest or more reaction. This means a response of a reaction would indicate a button had been pushed that upset one’s inner construction!  Thus, friction means one has upset a belief, a self definition. Simultaneously,  that distraction would  slow down processing abilities  Using words in protection and defense of personalities would dis-tract hearing stability. Yet what would each seek but to remove the veil of this to live with self honesty and self trust, to use one’s ability to focus and understand form and function to the extent one creates, within and as realizing there are no problems and only solutions! This could as well be called balance. This balance manifest as the body being in a state of homeostasis, which can be done on earth. This would require a more respectful use of resources, and unconditional support within realizing basic needs in relation to what builds and supports the physical. 

Day 653 Fearing to Let Self Definitions Go. Becoming the change I want to see.

Fearing to let self definitions go.

In walking the journey to life I realize with each step, how much I allow knowledge and information to guide me, as in myself following information without respect for the source of that information which is this physical world. Thus, I remind myself that knowledge and information without practical application is useless.

I notice that within myself I become tense. I have accepted and allowed this practice for so long it has become automated information. It is composed of inflated values that I accept and allow to personify me, creating a fear where the information by the nature of its limitation has no real constancy because it is not equal to what is real and constant, even beyond death, as the physical.

I learn through spaced repetition, contrary to what is taught within our education system, thus what I practice, as repeat, becomes who and what I am This reveals the gift of life, as what I accept as a measure, and practice/direct myself as, is a means to learning how to become equal to the physical, which is life information. A way to create, where this ability to create within myself, is to be and do that which is best for me, which is what would be best for all. It is symbiotic, where all the parts are me, equal and one. This is information as expression showing me how to be me, my oneness as my physical form, reflecting off of creation around me, as the physical. Thus what I accept and allow determines not only my own potential, it also determines the potential of life being fully lived and the way and means of becoming the creator I was meant to be.

What I do is process information around me, I can take this information and believe it is more than the physical world around me, or I can realize that I have accepted information into a mind consciousness that is separate from what is real, as the physical.

I notice physically, within my physical body, that I tense up within myself, as though it is a huge effort to ignore the world around me. And, that I suppress myself as life, as that same ability to take in information as that which built and accepted what informs and thus directs me here.

This ignorance suppresses my own fluid nature as my common sense ability, manifest as a tension  built of limited knowledge and information. I am not cross referencing what is here, as the means of me, as the physical world. 

I have to slow down and breath, and realize that with each moment, with each breath, I can assess what is here, investigate all things until I am ready to realize in thought, word and deed that which is best for all because what is best for all is what is best for me. I must know the score of the physical, and because of what has been accepted and allowed, the score of a social construction that orders a dis-order within men, as the acceptance of a mind consciousness before creation- which is the physical. What guides me is to live a principle that is a practice of the solution being what is best for all, as what is best for all is what is best for me. Thus, I move as what is best for myself, as this is what is best for all, as each part is me in another life. In this way, do I become equal to that which can withstand the test of time, equal and one as the physical.

When I become tense, within me, like this tightly wound clock filled with limited information, that is not all bad, I separate from including and respecting all life, as this physical world around me.

I notice I become what I define as feeling loopy, where I become uncertain, and then anxious. I lose a sense of stability and realize there is a movement, like a ‘ soup’ around me, that is knowledge and information composed of inflated values, that I have allowed to become larger than the physical world. Many of these inflated values were learned from the environment. During those first seven years, when my foundations as experience were being filled, were from my parents who were products of the same system, and what information informed me within the education system, and the information that is ubiquitous as our present media information. Instead of assessing this information in ways that grounded this into a practical action, I followed in my own desire to survive, acting in self interest, instead of respecting this world and making choices that considered all things and did what was best for all, as what was best for all is what is best for myself, here.

So, when I find this habit I have accepted and allowed, as moving as limited knowledge and information, I stop, I breath, I slow down, I sort out information and apply the principle of oneness and equality, as what is best for all, as this is respect for creation, as the physical which is life information.

I realize, that when I project an idea, a belief, or an opinion, I am imagining something about reality. If I spite anything, or project a blame onto an object within this physical world, I am acting in my own self interest, and in separation from life. I then create my own dis-empowerment. I can stop, I can slow down, I can self forgive my thoughts, as the measure of my information, and apply a corrective application that moves information into what is best for all, within the principle of oneness and equality, as respecting creation, which is the information of the physical world.

I can become still, like water, and listen until I have assessed what is here, and what information is being communicated - for example- and ground that form to be in line with the physical world, to be in respect of creation information as the physical. 

I can be aware of my own acceptances and allowances and know when I am allowing a tension within that is composed of limited information generating a separation from my own common sense, that I can then move out of  judgement as inflated values in self interest, and reform/transform within the principle of what is best for all, as this is what is best for self. 

Because I have programmed myself though my own acceptances and allowances, I can change that programming, within the principle of what is best for all, the principle of oneness and equality, to stand equal and one with creation, to move through the eye-of-the-needle and stand within what is eternal as what does no harm, as what is equal in creating life. This is the gift of physical life. Here can I reach the full potential of myself as life, focused with and expressing creation information. This is an action that does no harm.

One of the signatures, if you will, of this tension that is my own accepted and allowed ignorance of what is real, as the physical world around me, is a thickness within my chest area, a kind of protection and self defense, an inferiority to believing that information around me is superior, as believing something cannot change, or the information is too difficult to process and ground. Thus, when I find this measure, as a movement, being generated within and as me, that I have accepted and allowed, I stop, I breath, I slow myself down, until I am calm, and I assess the information around me, until I am able to give practical applications that direct in consideration of all things, as being the choice that is a solution of no harm, of bringing information back down to earth, practicing what is best for all, as this is what is best for myself.

I realize that the only thing limiting me is fear. And I realize that this fear is  a habit, that is built of information, that creates a bubble of energy around me, where I begin to feel loopy, ungrounded, and overall, not at ease. I can in this moment, breath, and assess until I understand the score as the measure around me, as the physical world, and become a practical solution that is beingness as the principle of what is best for all, a living principle, here.

This is my journey back to life to realize the value is life, and to practically stand in thought, word and deed the principle of oneness and equality, the principle of what is best for all, to become the same today, tomorrow and yesterday, equal and one with creation as the physical information called earth, here.