Day 616 Allowing pressure to define me. A rage of belief.

Pressure

I notice that I allow myself to believe that I am under pressure to perform. Within this I go into fear, because I go into comparison and then I begin to build beliefs about how things are moving around me. I lose myself in becoming fixed in my definitions within this world, a practical world, a world where we build neurons as we practice the same volume of belief within , again and again instead of remaining here in the practice of the measure of the physical. As I believe so I begin to think because I build my own circular logic about this world and my thinking becomes the logic I accept and allow as my judgementt.

I become what I think about, what I accept and allow. And the gift of life as myself in a physical body responds to my creation as my perspective building. If I am equal to how the physical is creation, then I direct myself here, and see directly that which does no harm.

So, it is so cool that I am this machine that builds itself via my own perception, this means that I can become equal to the practice of living which is a physical living. If I accept and allow something less than what considers the physical in what allows the physical to exist and expand then I am the limitation I create and actually program the machine of myself into an inner entity that cannot move with this living physical world, because life would form itself because this is the practice of being life in expression here. In so many ways it is overall a beautiful design.

Building the within to be equal to the without would be a natural process unless within the process one was distracted from this, as in, if one began to believe that the within defined one more than in being than in equality to the without as this physical world.

Thus the separation from the practice of living becomes evident when mistakes cause consequences that must be addressed and reordered to stabilize the physical. These consequences exist when actions are questioned and responses becomes justifications. Justifications of spite and blame, are being lame, because one is not addressing what was not considered, what was ignored or missed as one directed oneself forward via an entity within as one’s belief. Children do not have this when they are born, it is built as their experience. So much of a child’s experience the child comes to resist, which we see in teen age years as the child begins to order experience over time, and the child decides to do things in a different way, only to find themselves using their maps without understanding how it was constructed in the first place, and as a consequence rebuilding these cognitive structures to become directives that correct sensed limitations. 

It is to say that the measure within must be equal to the measure without as this physical world.

The existent system of supposed democracy touts a good but the financial structure is a form of self interest in gain of money, because money is really the signifier of a belief that that inner construct is more than physical life, where physical life is life in expression. 

I have been following the vaccine debate for a long time. Recently, in this article here, it is expressed that vaccines were created as a means of rent seeking, as a means for making profit. It was realized that the first vaccines really did not work. The immunities were not lifetime immunities. An exposure to the virus over time actually supported the immunity, like reinforcing the immunity. The vaccines were disrupting that naturally occurring immunity, and the vaccine did not address the starting point of the virus, it only tried to eliminate it through immunization.  All the while, children who had healthy diets could withstand viruses. The process of vaccines also entered viruses into  the body against nature. Vaccines attenuated the viruses by forcing the virus into all the cells, whereas the body had a natural process of dealing with the virus as it came into the body, where the virus did not enter all the cells. What happened is that that profit, that desire to create something that brought in money came before what was best for physical reality, for the physical life. It is like a construct that is against life, creating a consequence that can make a profit before doing what is best for the physical beingness.  This, overall, is really self destruction, it is deconstructing the physical world because it is through deconstruction as in moving against nature, that a profit is made. Tear the physical apart and charge money for trying to put it back together again. This is not creation, this is deconstruction for gain, a process that disrespects life in an order of seeking a gain, and then because life was not respected, trying to turn the consequences of this deconstruction all the way down the line into another gain. Slowly but surely, the physical will not be able to be put back together again.

At the moment, there is so much innovation going on, Even in my area, there are groups of people coming together to solve the food-growing problems. This is innovation in food-growing practices that are local. There is also so much innovation in energy creation systems. These things are here, there is still enough movement and the natural ingenuity of men to look and solve problems creating efficient systems that support all life in ways that, at this point, do little harm to the environment. The problem is that the money to build these things is not here, or so little that these innovations have a really hard time manifesting. And the consequences of not respecting the physical demand time and effort to correct. So all the things are going on at the same time, while behind these scenes there are laws and efforts happening to control water, for example, because that belief, that movement of gain in self interest remains and it has control of how money moves. Unless we all, the many, where the real power is, decide to change the form of the flow of money, to allow all this innovation to develop. Also, the money must flow in more equitable and consistent ways, to stop the competition point, because what is best overall must be the voice, and this needs the fear of survival to be removed.

When I go into spite and blame, it manifests as impatience and a short temper. The voices in my mind become thoughts of justification and I become distracted from reality, I have left the moment that is here. I am following knowledge and information about all of this instead of remaining here, paying attention to the only thing I can attend to which is myself in the space and time of here.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to respect the actual real physical world.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand that when and as I begin to have back chat of blame and spite, my behavior in real time becomes short fused, short tempered and I separate myself from moving here, equal and one in breath with the moment here.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand that when and a s I become short tempered as in not being patient and humble, slowing down and moving equal and one to the measure of here using my breath to regulate the focus of myself here, I separate from walking the measure of here back into what is best for all, as what does no harm and what takes the time to consider all things, to investigate myself as life here.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to become thankful for myself as life, this machine as my human physical body here, and to realize that the value is simply being here, as life, as life in expression here.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to become blame and spite, where I separate from the practice of living as a physical state of being as this is life information, and to instead of reactions based on belief, opinion and idea as the mental constructions I have practiced again and again as belief, building neurons that hold that movement as me as directives I have accepted and allowed, to within this realize that I have been given the gift of life, and to use this to see, realize and understand where I have built a belief system in separation from practical reality, from the practice of living as a physical expression of life, here as life would be, and to use this recording I have allowed that is in separation from living to redirect myself, to practice this again and again, to rebuild a mental construction equal to and in respect of physical reality, as physical reality is the means and the way of creation in all common sense.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not see, realize and understand in every moment that when I allow limited knowledge and information, or knowledge and information to become that which I respect only, I separate myself from the gift of life as the physical, a world that reveals the measure of creation all around me, even what has been accepted and allowed that is not equal in respect to living, and as such, i can slow myself down, investigate with every breath, in every moment that which takes that which is good and does no harm, thus respecting life, to create a world that is best for all here.

When and as I find myself becoming overwhelmed with being here, moving into behaviors that hide and spite, blame and manipulate in self interest, I stop and I breathe and I slow myself down and I see, realize and understand what I have accepted and allowed, what I am accepting and allowing,  that is not respecting this moment of physical creation, and I stop, I slow down, I breath, I check what I am allowing as thoughts, as the words of my own belief system construction, and I reassess, through investigating my own investments as belief, and the actual real practice of physical living here, and I breath, grounding myself here, cross referencing reality as the physical and the limitations of belief that have accumulated over time to the point where they are believed to be truths, so in every moment I regard and respect the  within and without with every breath, and I take that which is good and does no harm, and I respect that which builds a world that is best for all.

When and as I find myself becoming impatient, short tempered, I stop and I breath and I slow myself down, and I see realize and understand that which describes what is here as physical reality and how physical reality actually functions in men as how knowledge and information creates mind constructions that then determine actions, as is understood by science and the business model where what one practices again and again as belief becomes the mental system of thought as the projections of self determining the actions of self here, and thus, I see, realize and understand that what I believe as knowledge and information is what I become and as this, I can slow down, breath, ground myself here in this moment, and cross reference reality,as  investigate reality, to see, realize and understand that which is best for all, as that which considers all things, as signs of life in expression as the physical, and thus that which does no harm.

When and as I find myself becoming short tempered, as in losing patience, as in reaction to here, I stop and I breath and I slow myself down, and I ground myself within the practice of living here, to become a measure of consideration for all things, to build an understanding within as the very neurological programming of myself as life being equal and one in respect of the practice and gift of living as an expression of life information of which the physical is and does, as the physical is creation in doinginess, here.

When and as I  find myself believing that I am a mistake, and as such unworthy of life, I stop and I breathe and I slow myself down, and I see realize and understand that the past does not define me, and that the past as a construct of beliefs, opinions and ideas, as knowledge and information that I have accepted and allowed to become a self definition and so,  I stop and I breathe and I slow myself down and I see, realize and understand that which is a measure of respecting physical living which is creation in the practice of expressing life, and I review my self accepted and allowed mental construction as the ordering of myself , and I assess, respect and align the presence of myself here, to build myself in respect of the value being life here.

Day 372 Heaven was a lesser dimension, the mind is the sound of your separation.

I remember an event I had in Europe after I had I moved there. I had asked a woman a question about her relationship. I was sitting after an orchestral practice with the musicians and we were chatting away, when she had made some comment about her relationship. So, I asked a question and this woman reacted to my question as though she was incensed that I could ask something like this. There was someone else there who stepped in and said that in Europe one did not ask questions like this. So, I stopped and looked at this, and the woman calmed down and I did not press this because I went into looking at what this other woman had said to me. At the time I was really looking at such things, because it seemed to me that the “ facade” of different cultures was composed of differing measures of giving here and withholding there - so to speak. I remember practicing holding my self in socially, to not allow so much of my American exuberance to  be my facade, which is all really personification. I remember coming back to America, and my mother saying Europe had been good for me, I was more “ controlled.” which may be true, but it is not standing back and looking at all of this in totality,  and relating this to  the whole form of what we are as our accepted and allowed measures of withholding and giving as expressions, and what these “ on/off” switches of self presentation in manner and focus create and that since there is so much destruction in this world, so much disrespect for nature and water and the lives of people on this planet endure, this must be looked at in detail as what we are doing, and the effect this has on the whole.  This woman I had this conversation with was within a belief that there were secrets about her relationship, taboo intangible things that one simply did not talk about. In the context my question was probably my self validating my own self interest, also not considering the whole, so I am not saying that I was any better than this woman because I was doing the same, because I, though realizing things as character were measured in different ways, I did not exactly direct myself in relation to the whole as I had not been taught this, I only had this opportunity, having moved into a foreign country to actually live a subtle change in how we as humans present ourselves.

If we are habituated to our presentations, our personifications, imagine how hard it would be to change? And could we, do we have the spatial ability, within understanding and seeing in a moment all the differences as this without judgement and reaction? Are we mutable enough to recognize this and communicate with this in a moment? Are we developed enough, have enough understanding of this to move with it? And, do we see the whole of this enough to be able to relate this to what we have allowed in existence on earth in totality? Are we aware enough of the present system and how is functions, how it moves in detail, which means following the money, and the workings of the hands of men, to look here at the actual movement of the physical process of developing resources on this earth, to such a degree that we realize what specifically is happening on this earth? Are we aware of our within compositions and our “ without” compositions on this earth, the total “ song” orchestration of what we, as humans have allowed on this earth?  Is the conversation in our minds the voice of our “ facade” presentation, our personification of the measure of what is allowed and accepted according to culture, and our place with that culture, our role play in gender, our values systems of what is allowed to be expressed and to what degree that is allowed to be an acceptable presentation, to survive in a system of dividing resources in unequal measure via money that allows some to have their lives “ turned on and or turned off” because their values and their facade demand something more because it is fantastically believed to be “ more than’? And if questioned does the measures of self as the personification of self become  a behavior of fear of loss in believing it is threatened and reacts, when the degrees of this presentation really are so subtle and ignore the totality that being this is really just a lack in common sense? In the end if we used our common sense and stepped out of our bubbles that maintain a singular point in this terrain of earth, might we not see that our habits, as our personifications are ignorance of the whole, and that it is the being within this ignorance that is the real problem, and that this would solve the behavior of hiding of certain aspects within as the context of the whole would allow self realization that the formation of ourselves as values to turn on and off is suppression because it is limited, lacking in common sense? That our whole belief system is in separation from this physical real, able to be seen, physical world?

Is the pollution of our common sense ignorance embedded within our genes , programmed into each passing generation until we align ourselves with a common sense of this whole earth, and is the pollution accumulating on earth with our ignorant practices into some having more and others less ( which denies the fact that each of us are able to be developed) , accumulating as the within of what we accept and allow? All of it in separation from common sense? And where, naturally, would this all end? What would be the outcome of such? Obviously destruction, and then we will have to begin again, because eventually we must face ourselves as life, this gift is not going to go away, it must be faced, so we either chose to stew in our limitations and continue abuse or we stand and structure ourselves to support all life, realizing life is the value, and within this realize heaven on earth. ( Within this, within the words I speak here, I realize how much of a programmable organic robot I am, and thus how much the need for a principle that directs, and that principle is “ do unto another as you would unto yourself” which is the realization that life is the value.) Wake up. Accept yourself as life, learn to live.

There are interviews on Eqafe that explain what we are within, as our genes as our minds, and the consequences of what we have allowed within our belief systems that create our characters, our facades, our personifications. Fearing change is simply letting go of limitations ( and yes there are the consequences on earth of this system where there are those who have barely enough to sustain themselves and their fear of change is fear of not having that one piece of bread the next day, and they are so suppressed that this has become their focus, which is unacceptable and must stop because allowing this is a disrespect of life, simply through allowing a lack of self as life within being common sense of life, here)

There is the system of Equal Money, a  common sense form to get this earth in order of what is best for all, as this is best for self, as self must become in common sense with this physical world to be a real, complete expression of life, to live the gift of life, manifest as heaven on earth, where in no matter what shoes our feet are placed, we are actual expressions of life in full potential. 

There is the Equal Life Foundation that places into policy the value being life, the common sense of respecting this physical world as the means to be and allow all their full potential as life.

There is self forgiveness to slow down and breath, and realize the limited characters we have allowed that have been passed down for generations ( generating) as it is what is not aligned with life, equal with life. To stop our minds, to stop the voice of our separation and become in common sense with what we have accepted and allowed, and that we that are here in the physical have this responsibility to all. Here, to see what we have allowed , which the voices in our minds show us,  and to bring these limitations back into a common sense of life, of the whole, to equalize ourselves with life. It is like losing everything you are as your limitations only and deconstructing this to recompose yourself in common sense of the whole, which is to recompose yourself as life, which means gaining everything, seemingly like something will be lost, but it is really only a limited habit realigned back into the whole of life, so really it is like taking a very very deep breath and opening yourself back up to yourself as life, it is becoming a portal of life, it is learning to actually breath, here, equal and one to and as life here.  So, in essence, nothing is lost and everything is gained, it only appears to be a loss because one has to stop and turn off the program of the mind, which, as the mind as become so loud, and so habituated, it seems that turning off the radio as the mind, means death, and yet this could not be further from the truth. So, I invite you to turn off the radio as the mind, and see what is the common sense as self as life, in the silence behind the incessant chatter of the mind, the backchat as the voices in the head, as the limited value systems taught by those who came before us that were the habit of separation from life, the habit of ignorance of common sense of this actual physical real world, of which “ heaven” was a lesser dimension floating about two feet off the ground of this actual physical earth. Well maybe it was a foot, any way, it was a manifested cycle of separation from equality with and as life as the physical, and because of this it no longer exists, so the only choice is to align oneself with this actual physical world if one wants to learn to be life, wants to become equal and one with and as life here. Better get to work, because this is the only choice.