Day 818 Everything is a system. What is regret, pressure, and " no-force" ?

The issue of regret comes up at times. Yet, regret like procrastination is a distraction if held onto for too long. This becomes a self definition that is about the past, being projected in front of one, consuming the attention of one, that in itself once reviewed, remediated and corrected in terms of what would change a similar outcome in one’s actions, can become in itself a means to realize a state of separation from living. Living means to be here, because this physical creation is what is real, is what remains, is what continues beyond the self. The physical is creation manifest, it shows what works and what does not work. Therefore, attention is here. Doing things manifests here, as the physical. Is it not ironic that religion suggests, because that is all it can do, that there is something more? Being the suggestion of a more, without practical physical, directing focus HERE, is an illusion. One has become a relationship, a relating, to an idea created as built as imaged within. The perfect storm of control. We are happy when we are focused, completely, and doing. This has a movement of problem solving, as one is focused here. Not the best thing to promote if one wants control, or wants to play a god, or guru, or statism. This game is ultimately an illusion. 

Lately, I have had the idea swirling around within me, that instead of having what we call religion, as churches, the form of the state will become a replacement religion. This will be some invisible hand, fist, entity, that passes down determinations that the state workers will then relay, taking no responsibility for a compliance lacking in common sense of living physical reality because some guru/god/invisible-hand voice from some far off “ state” passed a set of words on a page that must be followed, and it is not my fault as I make sure all the lines on a piece of paper are properly filled in. This, a focus in a petrie-dish office distant from what is living. The goal to generate income for that pension, despite the consequences on the ground.  This, overall, an imposed entity construction determining outcomes that someone else somewhere else must change. All the while, this whole thing is made up of people. It is the collective in compliance without common sense that holds such things in place. And, as in Detroit, it can all be taken away, in a moment.  This is the hard way. It need not be this way.  When realized, the regret at following without practical investigation of the “ rulings” as measures embraced and “ handed” down via anonymous notes as words-on-a-page ONLY from a air-conditioned office ( telling in itself , remember petrie-dish environments) is not real living, and will lead to regret, potentially colored with a self pity of and as “ I did what I was told.” If we, each one, wake up, this would not exist, this compliance without investigation. And it need not exist, as I have found that often such words as “ may” are in the documents, meaning it is not suggested that one HAS to follow the dictates of the state. I saw such in the State educational words; basically, the townships can do what ever they want. Of course, the funding may not come through unless one uses the guidelines. If we look, that which is funded, is most probably not what is best. It is similar to the devil smiling. One must be given choice, because that places liability on the bottom, but the caveat is that to get this, which is an “ order” promoted/suggested ONLY, one must comply with the offerings. If one is not in a mode of common sense, and self responsibility, the storm of suggestion appears to be a more. That “ more” though coupled with “ good,” is the illusion that when followed, will lead one down the road of regret. That regret can then become a further distraction from stepping into common sense, the place of real doing, of making the choice to be self responsible, to develop awareness and presence, the kind that lend a direct focus on reality, where things get done, where one finds instead of anxiety, real happiness. This is the place where one discovers a sensibility to create. This is where one really lives, here. Let’s call it here ness, which sounds like hear-ness. This, would engage all the senses. I wonder if one could say that when all the senses are properly engaged, if that “ heart” opens up and begins to flow? Is this that has been hidden in plain sight all along, as simple as the physical body being in a synchronicity of focused engagement that opens up that heart - which spells “ earth.”? Is this simplicity and as such release, in contrast to the emotional/feeling storm of ideas, beliefs, and opinions, as a resonant construct within, something that was always here outside of the anxiety of chaos held in place through this absence of proper use of the physical manifestation of one’s self as life here? I mean, there is nothing wrong with chaos, it is simply a moment of deconstruction and reconstruction, that when done properly, would express a graceful transformation!  As humanity, we have rebuilding to do.

Obviously, perhaps, there are some so far down a rabbit whole of constructed division from real presence, that to justify that means to define the whole through that extreme, is more of the same game. In reality, -most likely, percentage wise - a greater number would choose to change into being present and focusing here, being real as a doing that will lead to happiness. The test of worst case scenario being made larger than life, is a part of an inner resonant storm of ideas. beliefs, and opinions, and will be projected by the “ state” of who stands to lose such ideas, beliefs, and opinions holding a currency of more for them at the expense of life. We are happy when we are focused and creating, and unhappy when we are not. Survival is a game of surreptitious vivacity, or superstitious seeming vivaciousness that is like a bling of a more, when that is the means of separation from being present, utilizing one’s common sense, which is sensing here. If we are able to read resonant shadows, our sensibilities must be so incredibly awesome, it is a wonder we do not realize that the full employment of them would be fulfilling, and so revealing of the incredible mechanism of creation that is the self equal and one with all that is here, that shows in its very expression that living self.  Just look at children. Before they become limiting personifications of ideas, beliefs and opinions, they learn more quickly, which means they have a greater presence. What is lost is what is more natural. Look to being in a state of urgency. That is like a raging train that can no longer see the total landscape, which is a state of appearing to be moving, but in fact is a slowing down done through accepting definition of limited information. Schools are a raging train. Such can be touted as a good, when in effect, they are the cause of greater attention disorders, which are cognitive disorders, which are mental disorders, which are the fault of the parents, because the parents experience that child before a resonant chaos of ideas, beliefs and opinions, become a projected entity from within, that has lost its presence in reality. I should know, I am a parent. I see the ideas I passed down, through acceptance from my parents, most probably for seven generations. I can blame no one but myself, and must become proactive, instead of allowing such self pitying generations to define this as that is not being the model of being present, of being the change necessary to never allow this to happen again, to not inhibit the potential of sensing the most subtle of things, the living things that are always, here, in all ways.

Real focus is making the choice to always be present, living a movement of constant cross reference to what is here, which is a movement of forgiving one’s self to what is here, respecting this physical reality, because it is life. This is a transformation out of ego, which is a mind consciousness of ideas, beliefs and opinions made larger than all things. If one accepts that state job, for example, one looks here, and only accepts that which causes the least harm - given what has been accepted - before one chooses revenue generation, for example. We all know this, and because of this there is no excuse. One knows when one makes excuses, as it always has the color of regret. That regret compounds, because what we practice, as what we allow, compounds as this is how a mastery of something also happens. One can master denial, or one can master real doing. To master real doing, one remains focused with presence, sensing what is here. Even I can notice a dog that is not moving because I suddenly realize it is blind, and because of the ensuing evening light, has suddenly lost seeing, and perhaps has a slower response time because that dog must learn to employ other senses yet unmastered, and therefor as an appear-ingly delayed response time. This indicates that we live in a huge magnificent orchestrated expression of life, where we are the most prefect math to sense this reality. It is only blocked by resonant ideas, beliefs and opinions. 

Within this, what I have learned is that every limitation of and as this, will be faced, and must be walked through.  And will be faced many many times. Acceptance of that, and one grows in faith in terms of business within this. The limitations no longer something to fear as they are signifiers of that urgency called energy and actually lend solution. We can live without ego. We can live without this resonant inner state of separation from living reality.  The physical is life in expression and what is most real. 

I remember a master cellist telling me that in order to perform in a quartet, one must have absolutely no ego. Otherwise, it cannot be done. And yet, when in real focus, in real doing, as performing, that moment of no ego, when the four are focused and present, is when the greatest joy happens. We are happy when we are focused and unhappy when we are not. Our words must become living words. Each small word redefined, refocused into this living reality, equal and one. 

Have you become a master of blame or a master of self as creator as life? Our words should be natural, as living words. This directing our incredible sensitivity as life, to be focused here, to open our hearts to reflecting creation, as life, as the physical.  It is a focus that has no quality, or value of urgency. It is lacking of the rejection of life, as the weight of regret. Real focus lacks that raging weight of limitation. Focus has its own “ pressure” in relation to what is here as ego. Focus lacks forcing something. We all know this, as we have all had moments of calm and the joy of forgiving that is that allowance of discovery. We need only employ that to all moments in our lives, to never have regrets because we lived a full employment of life as respecting all things because they are us in another life, by definition. 

Real focus lacks a pressure. It has no “ force.” One can practice that measure of focus, every day, in the small, rebuilding, to position one’s self in hearing here! It is to master the small with correct definition to realize the more complex when it appears as one expands in awareness. Yet, one must realize one’s separations and practice walking the deconstruction of them, to realize the patterns one has mastered as that resonant storm of ideas, beliefs, and opinions, and at the same time, embrace a natural ability to focus here and learn, which is the expansion of one’s awareness as the self as life. 

The counter intuitive and the systems on our landscape called Earth Day 809

The counter intuitive and the systems on the landscape transforming life

We have these health systems and these “ education” systems and these governing municipal systems ostensibly here helping order our lives. Yet, do we really look at the very fabric of the landscape as the life on this earth? It appears to me that we make the counter intuitive normal over time as we accept narratives and frameworks meant to answer to narratives that in themselves accept a state of dis-ease as being normal. Life, in all common sense will spiral into dis-ease instead of balance when narratives attempting to make something that is not normal normal over time, especially when that narrative, or math, or composition, or geometry, or situation where there is a quantum measure interacting as what this life is and does in so many ways.

Then we have this deep blue ocean of water.  I have seen a documentary that outlines the possible past  existence of giant trees. This documentary has been tied to a belief of flat earth, which I cannot say is true or not true, and do not believe that is the point of the document. What astounds me about it is the absence of the water on the land, as these supposed huge trees, that were silicon based instead of carbon based,  held vast amount of water. This would mean that the increased water levels as the oceans are because of the change/death/elimination of these so-called giant trees ( radiators?). Also, all the granite we have from these large structures on our landscape, no longer is used as much in construction. We have such a granite structure in a town here, way out on the ocean, jutting up. Locally, I have experienced conversations that in this day and age, we could no longer build such structures. lol, I could see that in a couple of generations, such a structure would become so unfathomable to a child, in its inception that such could become some kind of totem built by some alien race. I mean, through ignorance, the victors could compose fantastic narratives, and the listeners would come to accept such as a truth, when in reality, it is all practical. Meaning, it can be understood as to how something was created. As usual, the practical is in plain sight, that which is the fantastical in terms of being some form of magical thinking, is of a narrative that generates emotions through fantasy, through not telling the whole story, causing   a belief that something is out of one’s range of understanding, when it is really ONLY a set body of information  touted again and again until it is believed to be a truth.  This would be an emotional state because, as I recently heard on a TED talk, emotions show us where we do not YET understand something.  Because of a natural “ life” ability to understand, that same ability can define itself within a limited narrative and by and through lack of understanding, become emotional and in contrast see  practical applications as being fantastic and out of scope, out of range, out of synch, out of line, out of form, or in separation resonantly from real creation. This is the most perfect of social engineering opportunities! If someone wanted to play god they could! Yet, leading an unstable mass, would become a full time occupation, one that would have the leader be distracted from that practical reality thereby separating from being present in reality. I mean, imagine riding a horse running in fear. Would one be able to place attention on more than the horse for a moment. Could such a moment last a decade in another measure of time and space? 

I read this article by a person educated in science. I noticed she did not say that a vaccine cures a disease, instead it changes the symptoms. That is astounding to me, and of my own fault because I did not READ those little words correctly, and as such, did not notice how specific this woman was. This statement alone reveals that vaccines are not framed, as a time line events, to remove something, they are more to mask something. In “ masking” something, they are basically hiding something, which is not addressing something. It is not looking at why the dis-ease exists, why the need to re-balance exists in the fabric of this physical and practical reality. It is a false business model overall. It is an unnecessary manipulation of the environment. It is a smoke and mirrors game, one of immense consequence and detriment to this resource, to this fabric called physical life, where being life would be physical. Thus, we have allowed, as participated in a false story, one of which has huge structures known as hospitals funneling expression through a construct that disseminates the physical through chemical injection and that touts a narrative in support of that false business model, projecting that again and again and again until it supposedly becomes a truth. It is a very limited math. There are many speaking up about this. And, this does not mean that everything in it is bad, it means that the total action is not what is best for the environment or physical reality. 

I also recently noticed, as I gathered around a group of educators, that these educators realize that the children are not wanting to read, and that the parents are so busy with schedules that ostensibly are to inform that child, that they themselves are not reading.  I find it interesting that right brain development, which can transpose to left brain, where the inverse is not the same,  ( the left does not transpose into the right) ... that right brain development, such as music, dance, art, also states that reading or watching global movements, develops that greater capacity of managing greater measures of movements overall in one’s environment with one’s self. Meaning, one can study math formulas, but cannot transpose them as readily into developing a greater spatial sense, as transferring tasks into the living reality. It is this maintenance of global movements that opens up a greater spatial awareness of one’s living reality. Why, I ask myself? Because one MUST look at more than one’s self! One must look at money flow and resource flow, and the SYSTEMS that hold that flow and movement of and as this very fabric of and as life, that is physical on which, as which, we live! It demands a greater focus of the parts and the whole. Music, art and dance DEMAND greater presence, as does being constant in being aware of global movements, or movements and actions within the whole of who and what we are. 

If one moves to integrate a greater awareness of and as the language, because language is a math, it is going to appear to be difficult, to move very slowly, because one is changing within to a different geometry, and that changing from a set habit appears counter intuitive! It is changing what one has acclimated to and it is moving against an inner defining narrative as a set measure of values, that are in themselves a system of quantum movements interacting with one another, like  a template of values, lol, a temple of values directing the body. If one has spent years in an isolated environment, taking in information without practical application, one is going to be drowning in the imagination, which is a mis-use of the imagination. AND, that mis-use has become a “ template” or temple, of a set body of information that has little practical experience so it is a knowing that is not a knowing which leads to emotional states of being because one does not really know something for fact, one has not experienced it in living reality! 

One would have an inner template out of synch with real experience and there for feel uncertain. Remember, emotions are “ not having enough information!”  Remember, something can be formed as said as spoken again and again until it is believed to be a truth, because we are water and salt, we are of crystal forms, that can hold information, and that can come to direct us, if this is not in synch with the very fabric of this physical and practical reality, we counter intuit best practices and actions because we have a resonant template that is a false business model. One could compare and contrast this to religion, because that inner picture show can become a religion as something we RELY on to define and direct our actions. It gets pretty simple. The narrative or story, spoken and played in every superstore, is a constant, as it must be, because its lack of synchronicity is so extensive, so counter intuitive, it has no real longevity, meaning no real sustenance, meaning no staying power! It is held in place by a mis-use of resources, and a mis-use of the imagination through an overuse of the imagination, where the parts are not necessarily bad. Meaning, too much water, or too little water can be a death sentence, yet just the right amount in balance, creates life! 

I can see, where all these counter intuitive information generating white castles on the landscape, done by totems of belief, resonant within, as stories as a program of a sequence of events, generating that limited story, causing all manner of bicycle rings of emotional upset, causing inflammatory response as the physical creation attempts to rebalance, visible in an aging human losing all spatial ability,  would need to be constantly projected onto the fabric of life. I can realize why we have a schooling system that by design creates greater and greater anxiety from a lack of real measure, or effective inner template composing/building -  so well composed one makes that leap into grace as moving through the eye of the needle into being equal with creation as the physical - would, .. I can see why that counter-intuitive-to-real-life-measure would then bring forward a common-core measure of adding multiple steps to processing a set of numbers, thereby elongating it, which is like asking a run-away horse to ADD more things to process to get to a simple solution, to thereby cause greater anxiety! One is already in an emotional state that has over time compounded, and then suddenly asked to HOLD more information within to process a set of information! I mean, if that is not an example of counter intuitive action and one does not see it, then one has not taken the time to care about this reality, this fabric, this living entity called earth of which we are a sum of as the parts creating the whole. It is a game of playing with space and time, which is what false narrative, and a false business model is and does. 

A false narrative is like reading a set of directions that are not enough for one to “ put together a dresser, or a faucet for that new sink, or to inform a child to move with this fabric called earth that is physical.”  Has one ever bought a do-it-yourself object, assembled all the parts, only to find that one little piece was not placed at the beginning of assembly, the instructions lacking that essential detailed step, and having to NOT ONLY, figure out what is missing, BUT ALSO, finding it necessary to disassemble the whole, to place that one little part in place in ORDER to get that object functioning with ease, or correctly?  Imagine that sequence is your life, and fixing that problem, that lack because one did not have enough information in the “ what one followed with trust “ instructions, imagine this taking 10 to 15 years of your life to sort out?  Now, is blaming someone else going to rebalance, or resolve that problem, that lack-of-proper formation? AND, is it cool that  we, the parts, have instructed another without effectively giving proper instruction?  

If a system managed resources to build something, and in that process of instruction of the parts, children in this life, of this life were starved through lack, is that cool in any way, and would anyone want this for themselves, and overall, it was a form of destruction of this fabric, this manual in plain sight, called this physical earth? Would the faulty instruction as the sum of the parts, as the human, would moving into blame resolve that false busy-ness template within as an instruction of effective movement change through blame or would there be a need for forgiveness of that storied information to change and synchronize with the living and real fabric called the physical in plain sight, one that instructs through respect which means moving according to the golden rule that is made public notice in every elementary school, that means to do no harm? 

Because the rule of life, was placed in plain sight, as a part of the instructions, for every parent to see, can we blame any one for what instructions we accepted and allowed when the real instruction was made public notice as policy through words on the walls of those same systems that we “ trust” to inform our children?  I believe in some form or another, in every elementary school there is the golden rule. We were given notice, and yet we ignored it. We sent our children into the very systems that mis-used the imagination, like feeding our children too little or too much water, all the while, the golden rule was an instruction in plain sight on the wall, as the measure of and as “ give as one would receive,” or, “ respect all things.” 

As one moves through the pillars of the school house, one reads the rule, and then skims the truth and sends the child into a system that mis-uses the imagination through over-using the imagination in an isolated environment, to mis-inform through lack of living experience, causing anxiety and then expands on set formulas, adding more steps to an entity that already is at a loss of capacity to HOLD in a constant manner a template, a totum, of and as an instruction manual that then takes a life time to correct! 

Meanwhile, there is an ocean of water, surrounding our continents that is of the tears of formations lost to us because of a mis-use of resources. And that deep blue entity, is the means of forming a fabric of stars as life in expression in this living expression that is physical that is life. One must rebuild, realizing the joy of discipline, relearning each word, aligning each word to respect the whole and the parts, to synchronize with this life, and to realize counter intuitive templates, or inner temples of information, that are not moving in alignment with the golden rule  that is made public notice at the same time the limited instructions in the information feed about this world, are sounding all around us. It is a noise that has no real substance, and it is a noise that is counter intuitive to that self buried under that sound construct, that one on some level understands. One must decompose an inner instruction manual, taking it apart, to rebuild to be in orchestration with this living fabric of life called the physical. One must instruct one’s self equal and one to what it is that one is, which is life.  The instructions are all around us, they are physical. The rule are to move and self direct in ways that do no harm. Simple. Perhaps it is time to rescript your instruction manual. 

What is Presence? Day 807

The point of least resistance, the point of moving forward, the place of where I am at.

As what and who I am, I can always deconstruct and reconstruct. I can feel what I carry with me, as a morality of good and bad, instead of what is best for all, as what considers all things here, in this reality, a physical reality, as life, as this is what defines me, gives me license to express that/this life, here. 

Somehow, even these words do not express this. It can only be about what this means. This means of composition that functions as well, as a means of communication. I remember moments, especially when in a musical performance, at a certain point, of and as “ knowing where a person was at” in terms of personal mastery of an instrument. It is that one can remember the sequences of development into greater mastery.  If those one performs with, are in the same levels, of this understanding of the parts that lead to the more wholistic integration, there can be a sense of knowing that does not need communication as words. It is seeing where someone is at. It is an awesome point, because it is the place where one begins to realize the extent one can play with the sound and at the same time be in synch with the other performers. Each sees what the other is doing, and the other helps one to form and move, to express. 

I remember other times of the sense of “ knowing” coming up. It is as though one is open, and showing the sequences and how one is moving in this reality, as the means of expression. I would say it is of a presence more than a race to project something outward. I remember this happening at other times, in some fantastic ways that are questionable. I would say it is, from my perspective, a use of presence. I suppose this is how I came to the point of asking myself why I had no control over being able to move into a greater presence in a self willed, at-any-moment type of self willed capacity. Perhaps I had experienced the contrast too many times and in a moment caught the difference. This lead to the question. 

I also remember, within the skill of music, moving from being able to cross reference my own movement, to then reach out to the group, practicing being aware of that - the other players- and then suddenly realizing there was an audience. After realizing the audience, because I was more secure in my own skills and being able to hear the larger group, another world opened up. Always, within expansion, which is natural, the “ new” space appears scary, like a nightmare, I did not want to look. In time, the realization that I could change my sound and it has an effect on the audience. Even within that, the realization that when I focused my sound in a certain way, people listened, as though they were drawn to the sound. I realized I had to be that of which I spoke, completely present in the sound; that was when that sound drew in greater focus. In one of my past performances, a person came to me and said I had a very strong presence on the stage. That was interesting, because I had been playing with the sound to uncover just that. We are, as humans drawn to greater presence, because on some level, we all know that what is real, is this reality, is here, as this is life and it is amazing. We enjoy being with children because they are still very engaged in this reality, even if that state of engagement, is learning to envelope an understanding of itself. 

I supposed that development of interacting as music within this reality, lead to sometimes seeing in a moment through the cracks of this reality. This, probably not always so, as a belief, because I have opened this up in my world, asking or suggesting that we all have moments where we somehow “ see through the cracks.” And, we probably, if we look, have asked the same question as to why we as individuals, are not moving as this as self willed individuals. Meaning, who are we not in control of this? How and why is there the existence of moments of greater presence, that we bounce out of without being on control of this? What is around us that we bounce back into? What has automated to the extent we have lost the self will to change into greater presence that we all know is there, because we all have those moments of presence that reveal to us that ability to have greater presence? What morality, what game of good and evil are we lost within, as value judgement of which we have been told exists, from those in the past, have we accepted that veils that ability to be more present, that moment of seeing all the interacting moving parts of this world around us? And what is that which we bounce back into? Could it be a resonant veil? And does that resonant veil block that ability to commune with another to the degree one need not speak, because one senses how present one is within what one is doing here, as an interaction with the physical to the extent one begins to “ manipulate the sound” to move what is here around one, and to have a moment where myself and another are aware of what we are doing, and that is really super fun! And, that is somehow never talked about, ever, if anything after a moment like that with another musician, there is less of a need to talk, and sense of really knowing the person, a form of intimacy that cannot be forgotten! It is better than sex in many ways, it is more use of self, unless, sexually, perhaps that is more of what is supposed to happen as the expression of touch between two people, and yet, at present, such expression has not developed presence because that same resonance within directs through a morality ( an automated beliefs system) instead of correct use of presence. 

One must really understand one’s words, to the degree one need not think about then, so that one can expand, or use to a greater degree, one’s presence, self directed, realizing the sequences of the structure of creation and the sequences of the construction of a personality that by definition is a composition of a morality of good and evil instead of a respect for all things here, realizing the beauty of creation, as this earth which is life manifest. One can see this in every micro movement of the physical body. Is there this soup of weight slowing down the presence, the potential of a human, that is visible in the most subtle of movements? Why do older people slow down so much? Why have they not mastered being present, moving with ease, here? Get on board people! We have all experienced this, we know this! It is that part of us that is that presence! The cracks of seeing through this are all around us! It is what is meant by being in a state of “ only seeing the lack” composed of the past, stitched together though value judgements of right and wrong, more than and less than, good and bad. All hate is self hate, because we know! We all have great potential, and it is here. If one does not use one’s potential as real presence as being in a relationship with this reality, and instead develops a personification of value judgements as a survival suit, that survival composition occupies one’s attention and one loses one’s potential as real presence, as being grounded here, in this reality. Then one would have moments of suddenly seeing through the cracks of one’s own construct of separation from reality. One has become stuck in a morality of good and evil value judgements instead of practical application as interaction that is relating, as being in a living relationship, to what is here. One’s relationship is with a resonant construct of managing, or trying to catch up with automated value judgements ( we become what we practice!), that unsorted that is of self interest through practice or acceptance instead of realizing that one is a part, an individual in a whole that is what one is! Presence in this living reality would enable one to move with greater effect, of which the very sound of self is equal and one to the sound of what is here as this living manifested physical reality called earth - which spells heart. The resonant shadow of ideas, beliefs and opinions, block a correct use of a natural ability to be present as who and what one is in reality. As I heard said this week, “ tyranny is the deliberate removal of nuance.” 

Have you ever been in a car accident? Have you been unnerved for a few months after the accident, having projections as “ worse case scenarios” flood your being as you drive post accident? What is that “ cloud” of fear around one? Does it take time to get over that experience and the fears associated around it? Does that occupy your focus for a while? Can you read this reality if in-volved with a past jolt of fear, or could it be considered that that experience, now a memory, a state of separation from being present and here? Could such be what may have allowed the accident as it is, that one was not aware and present and ended up in that accident? Is the fear really a wake up call to the self, to remember to live here overall? 

I hear so many parents realizing their children are extremely anxious. They blame this on the system. This blame on the system is in itself an abdication of self responsibility. One parent this week expressed this when the anxiety in the child caused the child to no longer be able to move in the system. The parent expressing a lack of awareness of this anxiety having slowly accumulated. How is it that a parent living with their child did not notice that the child was becoming increasingly anxious? Therein is the problem, the parent moving on automation to the degree they did not notice what was informing the child! That parent was “ driving down a road” and not reading what was around them. How can a school SYSTEM that by design imparts a GENERAL scaffold of information, a picture about something, of information to a group also pay attention to that same limited general scaffold being integrated effectively? They cannot be what brings that general scaffold memorized ONLY into a living wholistic experience thereby filling in that outlined in the imagination ONLY template. Having that general outlined template memorized is not an education, it is a picture in one’s imagination ONLY, and it is not the whole story. Public education works when the parents are very involved, understanding this and providing opportunity and connection to practical experience where that general scaffold comes to life, because as a picture, it has no real connection to life because it is ONLY a picture. If a human body is filled with informative general outlines about things as pictures, it becomes a knowing-of-something- that-is-not-a-real-knowing. That would by design create anxiety- not to mention the demand to memorize greater amounts of information which becomes difficult without practical experience to focus one on reality. It is also a resonant picture ONLY, that is not enough to develop real license to move effectively in this reality. Each word must have a living relationship to this reality, to allow one to be in synch with the ordinary, the reality, the nuance of the small, to be in awareness, to be able to transfer tasks into reality, practically. This is what is meant by having critical and creative thinking skills, one can transfer tasks from one environment to another with supportive effect because one have developed real presence instead of being up in an over-used imagination. The parts must be in synch. The left side of the brain moving in synch with the right side of the brain. This also begs the question as to why a parent would expect a school to do this, when they are products of the product, and by definition should have mastered this and be able to lend this state of being to the children, which would mean that perhaps, the parents would not need a school to do this. If presence, real effective self willed, self directed humans were what the parents became, than that would be absorbed by the child, because that is what is in the environment.  We are products of our environment; we are not born with language and culture or religion. 

How has this come to pass as how information is shared? Is an extreme used to compare, as some information is better than none, something is greater than nothing for an opposite extreme, and thus for some, a public school general scaffold of information memorized is more ordered than that chaos from which they came. For those above the means, that imparts this that helps the other extreme, the design actually down regulates their intelligence. This being the classic “ guise of good “ from a one sided conversation as our media, imparting a story ( a sequence of movements or events) talking effect that if one looked at the whole, would realize that singular effect of a good from an extreme starting point of lack, cannot define the collective. There is more to the story. Yet, one cannot speak up about this, because the box is only allowing certain information to come forward ( automated belief systems- one cannot speak about what one does not know, or one can only speak about one’s experience which is what one allowed and accepted ). And that story has automated to the extent one fears stepping outside of that story of information, as a totem of values made larger than life via a one-sided conversation. It is the threat of “ you are either with us, or against us” scenario. This leads to accidents, which leads to moving in shadows of doom and gloom, causing further distraction, leading to greater anxiety ( the limited story causing a mis-take on reality). This becomes that ouroborous, or a snake eating its own tail, or “ coming full circle” meaning one becomes what one thinks about, what one focuses on ( and yet the design reveals the means of effective development! ). If what eventually automates within is not in synch with the ordinary practical living physical reality around us, as being in respect of what is here and what we are, we become in conflict with living, in conflict with the practical, in conflict with the ordinary. We are in separation from the living nuance as life that is physical as that which we move to create new things, of which we are the most perfect of beings to do and to live, where we participate with one another, and create, because this is where we are most happy, being haptic, living, respecting life. Imagine being so focused here, one’s movements are creative and feeling the full nuance of creation as this reality? Imagine expanding your presence into the parts AND the whole?  The anxiety in our children is really telling/showing/revealing the degree of our separation from the ordinary that contains the nuance that informs us to become a master of this life, living self willed equality with all things, developing a real presence of and as what and who we are as physical human beings on a physical creation that is by definition amazing. Look outside your window and realize the  symmetry, the synergistic quality of creation, where no one thing is more than another, and that it is a system we can understand and move into being in greater presence with because it is us, we are a part in a wonderful fabric called life. Can we " give up" what is resonant within, or rather deconstruct and reconstruct into alignment with this life? Can we, as is our capacity, realize our point of least resistance and from there, use our presence to align to this life?

I find it interesting that we have the symbols of the triangle as the "A" and the Omega as the circle. In  moment of playing with the meaning of the totems on our papers, as the symbols, I realize the symbols in themselves reveal the means. The triangle is that which moves through the " eye-of-the-needle" as the "O." It is a numbers game, a math, as when one develops one moves from the general to understanding more and more detail, more and more awareness of the parts and the nuance of the whole as the ordinary, as a composition, to the extent one master's the parts, one can become small, and large, at the same time as presence, and within this, one can close the circle as move into grace, and fit into life, as the physical. Thus, in plain sight, is given the means to the end, it is simply played with as a form of distraction. After all, even a system of separation is still a system. 

Automation is visible Day 806

I noticed this morning a subtle bitterness surrounding me. Yesterday, I had entered a home after knocking on the door, which caused a dog in the home to become excited and bark. I was told not to knock because it excited the dog and to instead, enter without knocking. I noticed a slight irritation in the tone of voice used to convey this way of entry. I realized that in the heat of the moment, a peace interrupted, I might have reacted in the same manner. I let this go, because it lead to a place that was not productive. Later I went and reviewed the moment, to realize the switch. 

Then, I noticed this bitterness that I have noticed before, become present in my own cycles of behavior that I am in the process of noticing. They are no longer as large, yet whispers of them exist.  I ask to what was I not paying attention in that moment of sorting out my own habituated behaviors of protection and defense of myself, based on ideas of what defines who and what I am.  In some ways, I could say I am more aware of a general field of movement around me, than only that of the emotional fears within and as me. It is, a change of focus, from a currency of inflamed values projecting a story of protection over a story of greater presence and consideration of all that is me here. It is coming back into the very fabric of this reality. 

I looked at the sense of dread in the last couple of weeks, and upon moving to engage with others,  this sense of “ what if” comes up. It is a question as to whether or not I can in deed, do that which I move to share with greater clarity, which is bringing more focus into the practical reality as that very fabric that composes who and what I am as a physical expression of life.

I reviewed accelerated learning techniques. One area has to do with right and left brain use. The maths, that are more detailed oriented, are left brain oriented. Music, dance, art and the investigation of global issues are more right brain oriented and have an outcome of increasing overall information processing speeds. The contrast of these physically demanding skill sets, and being aware of global movements, is telling in itself. Being aware of global movements would by definition demand a greater presence of the physical use of resources in this reality, thereby enhancing awareness of the physical use of self, just as music and dance and art does. My one son is studying art. I talked with him the other day about automation. As one masters a skill set in regards to art, as in music, one gets to a point where one notices that what one has built becomes automated and can run away with one, if one does not catch it. One must go back to the basics to ensure one does not become automated in one’s actions. This can appear to be tedious, because one has to slow down and relook at the small. That means slowing down the automated movement that can feel like a running train inside one. My son already has started to notice this, well, if he can, and I have, it is more natural than I make out here! Yet, these skill sets demand that presence because they involve physical movement and not only imaginative movement within a set framework of information. One is seeing movement in physical time and space, the medium demands it. To do, one must reference physical movement. I see global resource use and movement as something that demands paying attention to the physical reality, and thus, this is why such awareness is placed in right brain function. This is turn would build a greater ability to process information faster. One has a physical reference of a living fabric. In contrast, only referencing a set body of information memorized within, would by design move more slowly. 

When I entered this home and had a slight reaction to a response towards my actions, that caused a momentary upset of behavior in the home, my focus on my own fear of definition, was a set box of beliefs that had nothing to do with the moment- even if the emotional response to my actions could have been cared for in a more gentle manner. It does not matter. I was distracted for a moment, on a belief, and though I could see around my own limitations in a moment, my own subtle reactions were still a distraction. They were also an automation, a running away of my own ideas about me, than any real movement in being present in the living fabric of reality;  that reality that must be used in such skill sets that involve more right brain activity, such as music, art, dance and global issues. I wold say, imagine all your words being learned in reference to that fabric, instead of only a set body of information,  or in protection and defense of inner beliefs that are a mis-use of a natural ability to be present and sense the very geometry of what is here as this physical reality? 

I would think that such reference would create a more stable human being, as that same part of self that can with skill set development, be able to recognize automation, which is noticing a subtle and slight separation from what one generates within and the movement of reality around one. What is also interesting is that once one can notice this, automation setting in, one can more readily recognize it in the movement of others. It is to say, “ too late” it is too visible, meaning once noticed there is no going back. Yet even here one must be careful. The same could be said of belief systems. Which is why if one should notice this, it would cause conflict should one point this out, because in effect one is pushing on an entity - as a time line of a series of values that has rolled itself up into  a ball and run away with itself - that entity is going to have a reaction as having to self realize and slow down and rebuild. That action in itself, is a change of pace that some may see as only a sudden change in itself.  That change is not necessarily a bad, but can appear to be disruptive if one is only focused on the momentary change. Overall, developing a presence, the kind that is of the right brain being involved, would enable one to not only see the parts ( those automated events) but also the context within which such automations are moving. Yet again, this is what the physical engagement of music, art and dance, and looking at the movement on the greater stage as global movement, would by design build within the self.  It gets pretty simple. It would be the same if one generated more words, or, had a mastery of words to the degree that one could read the overall generation and the self, as a relationship between the two, because one would begin to self realize what one generated as one would no longer have to think about the words as much. This is to place using language like paint, or notes, or a movement in and of itself, and to have the contrast of how resources are moving on a global scale, and how language is both a means to seeing patterns and being placeholders of information thereby improving memory skills and what distracts one from seeing the real fabric of earth, as the physical. Chaos is really being caught in a storm in a teacup. Yet that chaos made huge, as an inflammatory story, of limited values, is the stuff of distraction. I believe Noam Chomsky has said that people are distracted through huge arguments in a narrow focus/framework. 

One of the qualities that allow recognition of automated behaviors is a sense of being incomplete, which has a nature of restlessness to it. On some level the amazing ability of the self to understand automation, is to realize that somehow one has lost a stable foundation, as a mastery of self direction. At the same time, when realized as such, it becomes visible that allowing automation within to determine the self, has no long term gain. There is a sense that the rush is simply not worth it, its promise one of a false positive. One must pull back into what has greater longevity, to what can withstand the test of time.  Probably more struggle with correcting this than we realize, because in the end we cannot but NOT notice this. And we each know when we are not correcting it. This is why all hate is really self hate. As who and what we are, we are the means of awareness, so we cannot but recognize what we are doing within ourselves. 

I can see that even within writing this out, that bitterness I mentioned earlier, is really a state of fear. It is a state of fearing to lose something, which is really a means of showing myself that it is a demand within myself to slow down and investigate what is not in synch with what would being an ease of standing with what can be held that is always here all around me, as that very fabric of which I speak, that I need not fear losing, that the uncertainty can find constancy.  It is a fear of building a mistake, instead of realizing the building of being in a place where one can recognize an inner automation running away with itself. It is to realize a faith in recognizing when one ‘s presence as placement of awareness is steady and not of an automation as being the capacity of what it means to be human. Most masters understand this, and have that kind of faith, the company of which is the realization of the benefits of patience. Thus bitterness is really where I have not slowed down and investigated the expression of a relationship that opens a sharing of being present, meaning, a sharing of being present with this very capacity within me to recognize automation. It is describing something by what it is not. Sometimes, resistance reveals a point of change. Sometimes, recognition of automated behaviors has a similarity in that one has come to a point of a need to include a greater awareness. 

The resonant stories of time and space Day 804

I noticed this morning when I woke up a wave of wanting to give up. Red flag. I decided to just move with this. I breathed, slowed down and read the story of information within me. Looking at the emotional pull. It is usually that I do not have enough information, or that I am allowing something to be greater than the practical movement around me. 

In allowing this, and at the same time, moving to name this, I remembered an incident where I accepted a worst case scenario and found myself moving into calm. I realize that there were years when I practiced a skill, and would come to the same point of not seeing a way forward and only seeing a downward spiral. In real time, I would simply start moving, and then something would open up and a direction appeared. Within this, myself not realizing what I was taking with me that was the same that caused the sense of giving up! And that, in tandem with the patterns of taking the next step being the way forward. 

At the moment, either way is a story, a time line of events, of inner movements. It is a running within that is not in synch with moving without. I find that when I want to describe something as a mathematical equation, I am talking about story, about sequence, about interaction, relationships.  After all, what is the practical but a series of steps where one does the steps in real time, enjoying every texture, quality, intensity of and about things in real time. Also, I notice that the dialogues in the political spectrum a busyness in hypotheticals. As though it is being stuck in that moment of endless worst-case-scenario as a form of entertainment, creating an electrical storm- which evidently according to neurological mapping, it what is happening in the physical body. Though, at the same time, what is unique in a child, is an expression that is of perspectives as the qualities of the living physical world around us. In some ways it works both ways, it is more to what one is anchored.  In this I remember in high school sitting at a table of coming-of-age peers and having a sense that somehow something was being lost. Somehow, a lesser form was accepted. Some walked away to find something else, and some embraced without resistance that world. These tended to be more at ease with themselves. Others fell into various stages of grief. This telling in itself. And, this a reflection, mirrored in behaviors, of the very sequences I myself could and would allow in various moments in my life. Such as the memory that came forward this morning.( lol, this morning I remember a memory of a moment of morning, and I moored myself into calm). I remember also, a sense of the arrival of a physical storm not being as stormy as I initially thought/perceived. It was as though I moved in a different time line, where the spaces around the churned up weather had great distances of space, in contrast to my reaction to the physical storm ,where the motions of the storm appeared HUGE. In music, the same thing can happen, as the notes and sound appearing to be too much, and then, suddenly, one moves into a space where there is more space! In some ways, this is a kind of statistical analysis, meaning, a form of ordering things in a different way, or changing perspective in a quantum way. Perhaps, I could do this, in that storm, because I was doing a lot of musical math, changing meter, changing time. I was also a reader, I was doing the same in reading things, entering other perspectives.  I remember in my late thirties suddenly not being able to read novels. I would pick them up and read two sentences and put them down. They appeared to have the same patterns. I called it an angle of repose, meaning a soupy balance between two choices, and the overall choice was somehow not crossing some barrier. It is a sense that something is missing some depth. I say this in the words I used, in my own senses about my experiences. I also resisted relationships, because they would turn into this thick syrup, from my perspective and I avoided that. I suppose this is from years of playing too, because when I focused on that skill, it was usually more effective when I did not have the distraction of a man, as it exists in today’s world. Somehow, it should not be that way.  At the moment, I sometimes notice people walking up to me as having a bubble of a different tempo, as though I see the soup of which I speak. It is similar to sensing the very fabric of what is here, like seeing a loved one leave, what is left also has a color, one of a much greater lightness. I have seen this before too, a dog that was put down. It happened really fast, and my family around me, they did not notice. At that point I had promised myself, in relation to my husband that I would no longer remain quiet about all of this. I knew it would be hard, very hard, but nothing was going to stop me. NOTHING. Basically, Desteni is the only place I have found the most accurate descriptions of all of this, and without that, I most likely may not have realized that of which I speak without them.  I also realize that being focus is where one is most happy. And, in playing in tune, it has something about it that is of a stability that is eternal in some way. lol, I remember becoming annoyed when leading a quartet. It was annoying when another player was not listening, because it caused everything to be out of synch. Always had to choose to be concise, within what was specifically out of attention. Anything else would cause an emotional storm, and in every moment costing money, one could not afford to allow an emotional story take up the space. This is an unspoken thing among musicians. Somehow, in the movement, that which separates is rendered more visible. 

In moving into my own inner resonant experiences, catching a moment of a belief in a doom type of story sequence within me, and then embracing it, and then finding the calm, and realizing the practical, I see as self-forgiveness. This is not rejecting what is here, it is accepting it and creating  from that point. Yet, the intrinsic movement is one of being for-giving, as embracing what is here within, and moving to become in synch with what is here. Even coming-of-age stories are about this movement. It is that the antagonist and the protagonist are the self. Then, when sorted, one becomes more present and finds a form of self forgiveness to resolve and live greater connection to reality. 

I notice on the newsfeed what came up this week were some articles on a phenomenon that some psychics have, which is being able to read a place in some other place. There are even courses where one can learn to do this. There is even a group in India that teaches reading an object with eyes closed. What is it that “ reads” what is within us, as that doom and gloom wanting-to-give-up inner resonant construct? I mean, can one see this with one’s eyes? What is it that can change up the math/meter of the space around us? And, can that be occupied with the pull of political stories in the media to such a degree there is a great exclusion of practical reality? 

This reminds me of a story my sister told me. She had met a man who was upset because he realized with hindsight, that his adult years, in raising his children, became so caught up in doing Hockey his earlier adult years went by and he did nothing else. Even the “ friends” he had made at the time, that gathered together, he no longer had anything to do with.  He was looking back and asking himself why he ONLY did that, and how at the expense of that, he buried other interests. To some degree we all do this. I mean, we are capable of focusing on more than one thing. 

This has me look at our present system too. Our present system I would say, demands we focus on only a few things. It also does this through separation into learning a general scaffold about things in this world, that we then can pay to “ fill in” when this in itself is a form of down regulating intelligence.  This too, is done with story, with sequences of movements within ourselves. It can be an inner resonant story fettered with value judgements,  that can have a dialogue of varying quantifying values that have a space and time that can become a resonant story elevating one from the practical application of self with respect for this living reality.   We have this physical earth, and yet, as with this man reflecting as questioning of what he did during the adult years in which he raised his children,  we can separate from respect of this reality. This can be to the degree that what is being done with this physical resource that is the means of this living experience, that a few can through legerdemain pre-empt use of as the resources, to the degree that we see in the living reality around us. This is greater pollution and greater dis-ease in nature. We need only look and we need only ask why cancer is now killing more children than accidents, and only in the last decade or so.  How many of us really understand this earth, this home, this fabric that is the very means of life?  How many municipal workers understand that moss growing on a stem can indicate a high water mark, rather than some equations done with words in a piece of paper in relation to revenue generation? How many business owners in a town, within a given industry, pay others in an industry less, citing that their costs have gone up, without considering that if their costs have gone up, has this not happened to those from whom they are taking by paying them less? How have we humans come to accept a minimum wage that is not a living wage? How many of us do not realize that the labor of men is what generates economy, so why do we owe some federal entity when that entity exists because of the labor of men interacting with resources from an earth that no one can own because everyone eventually dies!  And this within a system that has done research in manifested effectiveness having a common denominator in those who have a more effective mastery of language, which is sound, which is a means of being specific and ordering that of which I speak as what one is being/allowing as that within and what is practical without! It is as though the way is given and in plain sight, and yet it is circumnavigated which means that one can blame no one but the self. One must anchor one’s self in the moment as a living relationship to what is here, respecting all things, and doing no harm. 

Look at what out schooling system does as well. It separates us from practical application, from living interaction, and has us abstract a set body of information. That in itself, is a form of separation by design! Within a lack of practical application, one acclimates to a focus on building ONLY an abstract of a story-line, as sequences of ideas about reality! Then is one’s words all aligned to an association of a set picture! And it is done under the guise of getting everyone on the same page when it is a math, a page, an order, a story as a resonant construct that lacks a living relationship to what is real and able-to-be-sensed all around us! And that is a more natural state!  It is a picture making practice within ONLY. And since having some kind of inner picture to use to self direct is better than having no inner structure, it is no wonder we drink the cool-aid in plain sight! It is mis-use of space and measure? One could argue that we can learn something from proclaimed-by-some-which-is-opinion supermen as masters of industry, and thereby be pulled into a value system that has a truth and not see the forest through the trees! Meaning not see, realize and understand that there is no such thing as a superman, because no one man can possibly do anything alone, there is a whole story line of movements as labor behind any industry done by men on this earth. This means that the real power is in the numbers. This means that having a federal government that tells us we are in debt, is a fabrication that is simply a mis-use of resources, just as that man who realized he spent all his time in his adult years involved in one thing, having come from a schooling system that was be design, creating an abstract that is a resonant blue print, of a very very limited and warped story of information because it is a general scaffold about something! This by design is a state of being removed  from a focus on  reality, yet accepted and allowed by the individual.  Astounding! Amazing how a distraction can be to live a vicarious non-doing relationship which could be the definition of entertainment! I suppose moving effectively within this, is like being in that storm in a boat, where is means slowing down and changing up the space to see the small and move within that. That is like walking through a crowd where the crowd appears to part to give one way. I suppose the best analogy to this is teaching music, where it is necessary to take in the whole and move to balance out imbalances. And, realizing within this that nothing can define one even if absorbed in a moment. And, if one knows the small, the basics, one can move to reorder them in a moment, so great is the real capacity of a human to READ what is within and what is without. That is the difference between one running on automation of an abstract and becoming a master. All masters realize the importance of the small, because, as I have done in music, my abstract began to run away from me, and I had to go back and reintegrate with the small to synch my presence back into the parts. I got to the point where the small was the most important thing. 

I am reading a book where a man talks about hypnotizing people. He notices that past life regressions are a lie, because the stories are all the same, most often of famous stories, and in America there is a lack of past life regressions from China. He realizes this is because in America we do not have may stories about individual lives in China! Thus, past life regressions are an illusion, they are simply a resonant imprint! 

If I contrast this with my own memories, or experiences, how much is really defined?  A thing that leaves a body, does not have the weight of the personality leaving with it. So, the weight of the supposed past-life stories of sequences of events, are but pictures and not real, this weight cannot leave because it is not what is real. Therefor, this hypnotist realized that emotions are not something that can be trusted! The stories of information coming up in a person from their subconscious mind are not what is real, it is the resonant blueprint of “ a general scaffold of information”! lol This a mis-use of resources once again because a human being is born being present before the resonant addition of an abstract of story that is not in synch with this living reality! That is like, from my perspective, an artistry of pure manipulation of what is here. It is a state of really messing with the geometry of reality, of life, which is a state of not respecting life. If one wants respect, one must give that. That is the golden rule. It is the one law that is necessary; to do no harm, to take the good, to give as you would receive. This is a common sense natural law! 

This was all done with the use of the resource ( re-source) of sound, as words, which are at the same time the means of calling things out by name, and lending focus onto reality. One’s inner resonant construct should be in synch with the physical reality. Or, have a practice of constant reference to the physical reality, because the physical reality is the super means of using the physical body as life in expression because that is what we are before religion, before programs as stories about things, that are merely a reflection of a state of separation from reality if not understood. I mean, realize how much FUN it would be to be able to utilize all one’s senses to here? Realize how much fun it would be to play one’s physical body instrument with mastery and grace, to move with life here! 

Drowning in the imagination Day 803

Drowning in the imagination

We spend 13 years in a box, being told stories about this world, a general scaffold of information in separation is imparted through a direct instruction model without real direct access to the real movement of this reality. We practice this in our minds ONLY. Because we become what we practice we automate and get stuck in, thinking that is of association to limited information without any real practice development. We are drowning in our imaginations. Like too much water or too little water, we kill an innate absorbent ability to see the qualities of reality and work with them effectively. 

The insecurity such a state creates is a loss of real focus. That spin in the mis-use of the imagination gets in the way and causes problems in our interactions with reality, as the very SOUND as the words we speak are all tied to that which we have practiced as ordered ourselves as, within a limited set body of information that becomes a spin of values of and as limited information, that we associate to and with when using words, because our words, our language has been practiced in relation to processing limited stories about things, that are not the whole story and thus, cause language to have no relation to reality. Thus we are drowning in our imaginations and it causes polarities as value judgements because it is insecure, it has no real living substantial thing to stabilize it. Then one is inferior to reality and cannot communicate and then spends focus on trying to sort that out: one’s words, one’s language is not in synch with reality, with the place of real doing. Our schools are bringing forward social/emotional templates which is social engineering necessary to balance out a lack of real focus that is caused by a mis-use of the imagination as an overuse of the imagination, without any real direct interaction with reality. It is the kind of situation that is of doing the same thing again and again and expecting a change. There is a reason why this is called insanity. AND, this in tandem with one of our most respected and famous people being a doer, who is saying the same things! Elon Musk is saying that public schools indoctrinate , and in being so busy doing so, they are not allowing a child to discover how things work! 

How did we get tho this point of being afraid to do, to be, to get the instrument of ourselves, as our bodies so out of whack with real and effective DOING? Obviously our children can learn because they can remember all the names of the movie stars, thus the problem of not that children cannot learn.  

I had a friend visit yesterday morning. He talked about things that had happened in his life in relation to sexual accusations. This is all over the media at the moment. My visitor came with stories of accusations in the past that had no reality, and he was worried that accusations would come out within my relationship to him. The spin of fear, the spin of stories and possible stories coming at me, that had no relationship to the common sense of the situation. He is a client of mine, and he comes to talk over a cup of coffee, that is all. He point blank asked me is I would do something like accuse him of sexual misconduct? At that point what can I say? He was so in a spin of fear, that all I could do was remain calm, as I also know from experience that these storms of fear, of a lack of real presence, will pass. At this point I said to remain in common sense, seeing that this was not what had happened, and that I did not have a history of being such, and to realize the use of glom and doom, as fear, that can become so blinding because in terms of processing information effectively, fear has one move in slow motion, in a state of thick invisible uncertainty to the extent things appear to be heavy and not what is real. This becomes  a practice if focused on for too long and then expedites as information, meaning one processes it faster, just as when one learns a real skill and becomes more capable within that skill over time, and pretty soon, that information is a small movement, like a ghost in the machine, to the extent one cannot remember and read that info correctly, and it becomes a trigger into itself as some vague emotion, in a way, causing a resistance to reality, and a suppression of common sense, and pretty soon, one no longer knows why one cannot move in this reality! One has a forgotten resistance to something that is simply a moment of making a value judgement in fear, that is then a part of the information of one, that one uses because one has practiced drowning in the imagination, and cannot understand how the movements in the machine were built. The person standing there, telling a story of inflamed information that is not grounded in reality, and filled with hyper polarized ideas made larger than life. And yet, it is so small, as to be invisible, much like a ripple moving through the machine, and loud through the mis-use of words, all tied through association to that imagination filled with mis-information from an extreme scenario also made larger than life through our media. Our media is a reflection of a mis-use of our imaginations.

All of this spin of separation from reality must be reverse engineered, and ourselves grounded back into correct use of our presence, our absorbent ability, to become solution oriented to this living physical reality that involves practical actions that is a state requiring we be focused here. To turn the tide takes the effort of recognizing the spins into misinformation that is always colored with fear, that state of accepting an angle of response as the lesser evil instead of being present and realizing in every action what does no harm to this physical reality. This means taking the good, and respecting all things, which would by design get one out of centuries of passing down a seed of information to the next generation that is more of the same as that mis-use of the imagination through an imbalance of making what is in one’s mind larger than the reality around us.  No one can recompose what is in the self but the self. One must recognize a movement into fear, and how such practiced repetitions of fear can lead to the most subtle of resistances to reading the reality around one. It is all a math in plain sight.

The mechanisms of separation are the churches - as it has been said - to control a human, one places them in a box, and fills them with stories of a better life somewhere else all the while the resources are slowly controlled into a false and limited construction via a paper castle owned by a few. What is the military industrial complex but a false construct desiring control, but a reflection of what each desires, which is self control, which is self mastery, which is being able to move one’s self effectively in this reality. What behaviors do middle school students reveal but a desire to participate? The actions of acting our showing us to ourselves, as the information within is not structured in ways that lend a direct seeing, to place a correct use of an innate absorbent ability into building skill sets that have a living relationship to practical reality? As humans we desire to participate, as humans we are most happy and most calm when we are communicating with this reality. An inability to do so simply reflects our right and left brains are not in synch, our focus mechanism, is not in line, in focus with this living reality. It is the most simple of things, what is complicated is the practiced movement of judgement of right and wrong, within self defining movements, within, causing an elevated and hyper inflated-of-limited-values resonance within, distracting a natural ability to move though the eye-of-the-needle of an as self as presence, as sentient nature, a life nature, into reading and thus reeding/sounding/reciprocating  life, which is in plain sight and physical. At present, this mis-use of the imagination, is but a ripple of ideas, beliefs, and opinions, circling in various stages of grief, initiated as fear, within the self that ends up hoping for a greater life somewhere else, and begging some invisible authority to forgive one for one’s transgressions instead of self realizing that self embraced fear over seeing directly as respecting this reality and focusing here, to instead always move in ways that do not harm. This is building real presence. This is synching with self mastery into the small and the whole. This is realizing a living breathing wholistic equality to all things that are here, as they are so much more substantial than that ripple, as a whirling string of mis-information composed of limited information, separating one from a real focus where one would find real happiness. 

Slow dow and breath, realize even the smallest movements of resistance to what is here. Remember past actions and forgive them, see where one gets lost in the sequences of grief, and call these things out by name, to recognize them and redirect one’s focus back into reality as the physical, understanding how all of this works. Reverse engineer the within to be in synch with life, as life is physical and in plain sight, which is common sense. This is the reason for the living word, to align one’s words, with a correct practice, to not only see the mis-use of the imagination but also to realign one’s innate presence back into being grounded and whole, as being equal and one to the physical creation that is the gift of life and all around us. Imagine an orchestra being in tune, being in synch, being in communication, all parts hearing all the other parts, and realizing that all parts help define one, help place one into being in synch and creating a sound world, one that flows in an expression of life, as that would be heaven on earth, just as we were told. 

There are tools to help one do this. There are tools to recognize the practiced patterns within, and how to rebuild a focus without. Distraction is used to separate and yet it can be used to distract one from a mis-use of the imagination, to the extent one can see the timed lines of information whirling around within one, that have a quality of pulling one into a polarized value judgment, and not a specific action that lends correct self direction in this living reality, to the extent one creates and builds effective communication with what is here, which manifests in ways that live doing no harm, as one would want for one’s self. 

One must stand up, and  call out by name the constructs of separation into hyper inflated value judgements. The anecdotal stories are all around us, they are of ripples and they are a state of being out of synch with reality. They have the nature of not being calm as that absorbent state is and does. They are of sequences that are the same as the sequences of grief, and they distract us from seeing directly here and have us live as beggars for some authority to come and save us from ourselves. Yet only the self can bring back in the fractions of separation resonant within and projected without, and reverse engineer one’s natural presence to mirror the living physical life in formation in plain sight, a physical life that is getting sicker and sicker, because the real life is being pulled from it into the opposite of life, which is fear. One way is to realize, in the most simple of ways, that at present, in the United States that the minimum wage is not a living wage, whereas since the 70’s this through a movement of gradual layers of justifications has become a difference of a high school student being able to work a summer job and attend college, to that no longer being financially viable. This limits real doing, and real opportunity that leads to a resonant seed in synch with this life in plain sight. 

One must recognize that emotions are a movement into loss, into fear, into not-enough-information. And that feelings are often false positives, that are justifications for the emotion that is an absence of effective presence in reality, and a movement into insecurity and fear as a loss of holistic presence. That such practices can accumulate into and are composed of, a resonant time-line of and as a story of sequences of movement as events that come to define the self through acceptance, and distort through a veil of mis-information the real and physical living formation around us that is physical life. One must realize that placing children in a isolated environment to memorize information, is a mis-use of capacity, and the reason for increasing levels of cognitive dissonance with each generation, as what we generate in one life resonates into the next, unless we stop. All religions have the golden rule as their base, in this we are all the same. When we give as we would receive, and take that which is good, as that which does no harm, by degree it means being focused here, respecting the physical reality, realizing that our resonant constructs are products of the environment as we learned to work with here yet made the mis-take of believing our within is larger than the reality around us. In so doing, we made our environmental practices into cultures, that then forgot how we were built, and made idols of those resonant experiences, and created borders based on that resonance, to the extent we fought for our resonant constructions that were all composed from the culture of the environment, yet must be able to live transformative change in every moment which demands a direct focus and respect of the physical reality. The loss of authority precipitated the need for authority, showing ourselves to ourselves, which so many of our stories reveal. There is only one choice, to forgive what has been generated and to reconstruct, as reverse engineer our resonant information to become in synch with the living reality. This is the only place where life can exist. And, it makes sense, as it is the means to being life here. 

One must correct one’s presence and focus onto life, as it is here in plain sight.