Using distraction. Day 802

I see statements about the state coming up in my world on a local level and within the internet world. It is interesting how patterns begin to emerge in the flow of information. In my world when a question is asked that appears to not have an answer there is deferment to the state. It is the state this and the state that coming forward as a math as a response. Yet, what is the state? What is this determiner? Of what is this “ state “ composed? The state is composed of people. 

For example, if a school committee member defers to the state, to whom are they deferring? They are deferring to other people. It is actually a way to not take responsibility, especially in the state of Massachusetts because the first statement in the state statutes ( state of beingness can it be distracted into limited information?) is that the people can do what they believe is best. This means that the state is there, as a guideline, but it is not what the people must follow. The rule is given that the people follow what is best, even when it moves against accepting something offered by the state ( people who are not in one’s immediate environment).  It is a construct that must allow choice, because ultimately each is responsible for their actions, and each one’s actions must be in consideration of all things. And, each one’s actions have choice. So, no matter what, what one chooses cannot be the fault of another, even what is offered by the state. If one chooses what is offered by the state it is the fault of the person making the choice, because the guiding and first principle is to choose what is best, no matter what. This allows the state to turn around and say, “ but you choose it, no one forced you to choose it - that is made clear in the state constitution.” 

This is why a state income tax cannot be allowed, because it allows money to flow to a body of people who then determine from a distance what may be something to use, but may not be what is best for the local environments, because environments can have subtle biologically configured differences. And the “ state” - that body of people forming things - is not there on the ground in reality. They are more in ideological pictures about something, which is never the real thing. I see this on a local level. My own conservation person has not come out to the field in my direct experience. She had no idea that moss growing on a stem indicates a high water mark. She looks at a field and has no idea about that. She cannot read the environment, yet this conservation person takes courses at the taxpayers expense, to learn how to do paper work. This conservation person is learning the construct of the state, one that has no real practice in reality. 

I also understand this from locals. The state supposedly monitors local species. Local people, local human bodies, out on the flats, working every day for years, have noticed that they have never seen a “ state” person monitoring the local wildlife. When they called the state about it, the state person, as the story was told to me, came back with the response of “ they monitor at night.”  How does that make any sense? I get a sense that each person, each body in a position is more terrified of losing their job than opening what does not make sense. This is not a presence of choosing what does no harm and considers all things. And perhaps it is why there are fewer horseshoe crabs. Everyone is so locked in their “ jobs” with a response that it is the “ state” that the symbiotic fabric of the living reality around us is placed second, which is a spiting of life, because the real “ box” of information is the natural and physical environment around us. What has happened with all the boxes we accept, of which our inter-net of information flow is and does, is not in synch with reality, with the living breathing fabric of life that is what and who we really are as men. 

Last night I met a woman who realized this over the course of her life. She had worked for a government entity as a tax person. She had sat, in her words, and moved paper work around most of her adult life. She said it got to the point where her body was falling apart, and she had to quit or she was only going to get sicker. She had used her natural capacity to sense much more dimensions of physical realty, on ONLY processing symbols forming ideas about things, but never being the real living thing, all day, day in and day out. This is a mis-use of the physical capacity of men. I have seen this in the schools here as well. It is difficult to find aids for some of the special needs students, with consistency, because sitting and redirecting and redirecting and redirecting a child that is a consequence of this distraction from real capacity, that then needs another person to direct them in their resonant chaos, is also a difficult thing for any sentient multi sensory living breathing physical body to do. It is similar to placing an animal in a cage. It is placing a sentient animal in a cage. It is unacceptable. And for what? So someone can play being superior, based on an idea of “ my INFORMation is more than your INFORMation”?  If we humans realize we can become distracted into focusing on very limited set bodies of information ONLY, without cross referencing the physical reality, of which we are the most perfect of forms to be and do, it will cause dis-ease and our bodies will rebel, and we will lose a sense of reality.  And, it is the most perfect means of control. Yet, we cannot blame anyone, because we allow it when we participate in it. When we believe that the state is an authority, the real authority is our ability to sense what is best, as what does no harm. Being present enough to slow down and choose what does no harm, none, is something each and everyone of us can do. 

If we look, we can realize that one of the first boxes of information flow, was probably rituals done with flying feathers and waving bones around a fire. Then perhaps traveling story tellers, those dishing out stories with dramatic flare of knights protecting the castle which is already a state of loss, and perhaps the initial development of the “ state” we were allowing. Then, that grew into a greater technology as a cathedral, with colored stain-class windows, and music, and robed men in richly colored fabrics, with shiny bits of gold, all polished up, and dialogues that held a truth, and yet were of exciting stories of seemingly magical abilities ( ourselves telling ourselves what we had lost? ). Today, we have public schools, and television. We have become masters of mis-information from a box, from a closed environment in separation from the living physical reality around us. And yet, we still defer to a “ state.” Interesting that the word is the word “ state.” This is so appropriate! We are in a hypnotic “ STATE.” Our words reveal us to ourselves. We always know what we are doing. Yet, the shield of illusion has become a norm, and is a comfort zone, one that is not bringing out our real haptic ability, that place where we would be most happy. Words as sounds are an incredible tool, yet they are so easily manipulated.  Our words are not in synch with our self-honesty, our natural sentient natures. This begs the question as to whether one programmed by the elephant in the room ( hyperinflation as a means of distraction that is what value judgement is and does, polarizing sight ) as stories of information, would in thought, word and deed, be out of synch with reality, and find an inability to answer to certain questions, to the extent that there is deferment to the state? This place is the border of one’s awareness, an inner resonant script that should one step beyond that, and deconstruct, one would feel like a kind of death were happening with accompanying feelings within the various and already-drawn-out stages of grief, which is a lack of vocabulary, or proper use of sound, that would move into defense, or resistance, and fear, because the boundaries of the inFORMation had reached a limit and that state of being is so habituated that a sense of realizing all things, appears to be a loss, when it is the opposite. All of one’s words no longer fit, as they are mis-aligned into a false construct one could call a limited morality.  If one moves into a verbal configuration of blame, one is in that state of grief of and as anger, because one is angry at one’s self, because one’s self does not want it exposed that one was not paying attention.This is a state of fear, which if we look has a quality of slow motion, of thick soup, of vertigo, of great resistance, of a lack of presence, which is a form of improper use of a tool and yet, a gift to show us where we have lost touch with understanding. And, just as the cycles of grief,  next stage is a form of self pity, or dejection, or giving up. So many times, there are humans that get to this stage of giving up and find themselves in a state of nothing. A place where there is silence. And, here, there are those who suddenly realize, that change as possibility exists. It is that place where absolute potential exists, that realization that we create our lives. Therefor our  “ state” is only an illusion as a body of humans doing the same the rest of us are doing and that it is only information that is being manipulated, and that the real box, the real information is the physical reality. And yes, it is never all bad. Yet, when the state begins to move in protection of itself, it can no longer be accepted and must change, in this the state is only a reflection of ourselves within. Also, it means that people on the ground must restore what is natural which is common sense. It is always there, one’s words are simply not in synch with it, yet it is there as it is the essence of self as life. 

It is your responsibility Humpty Dumpty, to realize the wall of separation is done with a discipline of mis-aligned information, of and as limitation, of and as an ignorance, a lack of real focus on the living physical reality around us, in plain sight and that which one is accepting of or not and instead rather a form of distraction that is of limited resonant information. The human body is the most perfect of technologies to read, and then to reed the music of and as life, to be in synch with creation.  Falling off the wall, is realizing, metaphorically, that the wall was not what was of real self support, as it was a false construct, and that when one hits the ground, one realizes how scattered one is within, and yet, that the fabric of life allows the pieces to remain, to be realigned to that which focuses one back onto the forest in awareness of all the trees. The tree, being what orders the physical reality to flow nutrients and water to reach all parts of this reality to maintain a balance that allows greater understanding of who and what we are as life manifest, which is physical.  The real and primary information.  Deferring to a state, as a thought, word and consequential actions as deeds, without cross reference to this living, breathing, physical reality is a state of resonant separation.  One was born with presence, with a natural absorbent ability, that allowed one to learn to crawl and to walk and to talk, without micro-management, before a distractive use of sound as language and pictures from a box that can be manipulated, programmed a resonant story of partial truths, that are a form of limitation, separating one into a consciousness composed of resonant pictures and words, that have a tension of uncertainty, as fear, which causes a state of stagnation, because one is like a child in a classroom who feels they are in a foreign country because they have no real reference within the language painting pictures ABOUT reality, to the extent they move into fear as they are not grounded in reality. That child, so much wants to participate in life, because that child is life before a resonant set body of information informed the child in separation from reality. And this to the extent, that a child cannot read the environment and take a moment to UNDERSTAND that the moss on the stem of a plant indicates how water gathers and collects, and seeps away, in this one particular area, of which a story is left behind, as that moss growing on that stem, indicating a high water mark. This is the living reality, telling a story of and as how things really work, of which a paper world is a STATE of separation. 

Real happiness is a state of full employment of the senses that is the self as a living being, that sentience that is that absorbent ability, that has the capacity as presence to read the environment that is the real story of creation. It is in plain sight.  The boxes on the landscape are a form of distraction from that natural presence. Nothing is all bad, and these boxes of information flow are not something to fear, they do move into details at times that is also important, though it is a mis-use of focus.  Even distraction as refocus can be used as a means of practicing the difference between being focused on a resonant construct and the living reality. And even here, in ways that use distraction to rebuild, to refocus and purify using words, those smallest of notes that delineate with specificity. 

It is time to get the very sounds you make as the words you speak, in synch with your presence, and to focus on the living physical reality in plain sight, and to realize the constructs of a state of separation that one is not required to follow as the real law, the real mandate, that must always be given into a state of realizing that a group of people can do whatever they want as long as it causes no harm and is what is best for all.  This is even in the American constitution, that men must sometimes rebuild because what has been built is not in synch with the best use of freely given resources to ensure the fundamental basic needs to the living machine are in effective order to do what we can all do so well if we look, which is to understand how the physical reality is a symbiotic reality of many parts moving in tandem to express what lends real creation of and as things that can withstand the test of time, and express in  balanced and sustainable harmonic practices, which is being in respect of the physical reality, as this is life manifest. 

Day 315 Reacting to reacting, another disgust/fear behavior.

I notice within the behavior as the emotion of being disgusted as a reaction, I am not looking at here, I am in fear feeling like I am trapped and cannot move. Even when I ask questions and take the time to look at what is here, I find that asking questions is not favored within this world.
I was in a master’s course to receive a degree, a Masters of Education in Reading. I kept stopping and asking the question to myself, and voicing this to the professors. I was met with a lot of impatience. My question was a statement, that there was something missing, a spatial element within the reading process. It was just a question. It really angered the professors.
One day, one of them asked me to go and speak to all of the professors. So I went and sat in front of the group of professors, and was told that they worried that I understood the material. I knew that my question was bothersome but I kept asking. I also knew that at this meeting, I had to give what they had taught, so I spoke and outlined what I had learned, and could see the whole group of professors relax. All they could hear was me asking the question and thus, judged me as not understanding simply because I was not talking about what was taught only, I was asking a question.
After this meeting I continued to ask the question - as this bothered me and I did not want to leave this undone. Finally, I got a response, as they no longer questioned the position of the question. The answer was, “ we do not know.”

My first thought was, “ Why didn’t you just say that in the first place?” But this is how the mind works, it judges as less that which does not match it in words, in the party line. And questions that ask a construct to go beyond itself are met with criticism. This is ego lost in its own limitations.
I allow myself to become so angry about this, but it is myself in fear after the fact, as I step out of my questioning and look back at the danger, at the posed threat and become indignant, allowing myself to become righteous. it really is to just let it go and move on. In this case, my question was not going to be answered within the professors, as they did not know, and so, all that could be done is to move on and face this myself. The system had answered, had not wanted to admit its own limitations. I mean, I had received an answer. lol
I ask questions because they are there, and within asking the question there is a reaction towards the question, and I react to the reaction to the question without looking at why there is a reaction. So, I sabotage myself in not seeing realizing and understanding why the question is being reacted to, and realizing that questions are reacted to by ego, by limited information as what another is, as being unable to answer the question and not wanting to admit that there is no awareness to and towards the answer at that moment to the question posed.
Instead I have taken the reaction personally without investigation into the reaction as a state of “ignorance” as in having no answer that is being hidden by behaviors of not wanting to admit there is no answer within their awareness. Naturally, within a profit based system , where one’s job and paycheck determine one’s existence, admitting to not knowing something is tantamount to the loss of position, especially when, as is this system, there is competition to get the positions that enable survival. This scenario breeds ignorance, and fear. It would breed a “state of being” that is the response of “it cannot be done” because in not looking, in not admitting lack of insight position of in-come remains secure.
And then of course there are those that use this to move into positions of more, realizing that money comes before life. These then fear losing their positions of more, and do not want questions that disrupt this asked.
If we cannot see the never ending ignorance this creates, we are in trouble, because it is this that is ignoring what is evident on earth, which is the starvation, and the poverty, and the environmental abuse. The nature of this would remove itself from the physical, to not look, would create hierarchies distant from the physical, would place words on paper and then only follow the words, and the words themselves would not describe the physical world because this would mean changing, removing the ponsi scheme, usury, interest lending, self interest, greed, a centralized dictate takes physical direction away from itself, and the physical is the gift of realizing self as life.
So, with myself, reacting to reactions to questions is not a solution. What I ended up doing is becoming quiet and giving what was wanted, only to find that the behaviors were simply not wanting to move beyond the limited status quo.
Ironically, all of this is a state of being, a movement, lacking awareness of here, of how here actually functions, as a system of inequality confines and confuses, limits and stagnates. Lacks a care for what is physically real, tangible, substantial as what supports the very existence of ourselves and allows awareness of here, which is the gift of life.
We know that children who are taught that what they are allowing as in accepting and allowing themselves to be aware of the “state” of themselves as opposed to being labeled as a definitive unchangeable entity, that the difference between the two creates a person on the one hand who learns self direction and the other who is lost in judgement as being limited, so powerful is the use of words and their effects on us as life as substance. Again, we admit and know what we are and yet we react within limitation in fear of loss, meanwhile the substance as life is right here showing the way out, right in front of us.
So, to put an end to this, what is here on earth must be used to support life, to support the “state of being” of the human as life to realize we are the creators of the “state” of being on earth simply by what we accept and allow as the labels we place, where the labels are simply a part of beingness as a state able to change, or a fixed state. For some we allow development and others we do not. Until we allow all life to be life, to know itself as life able to transform and develop, there is no real life on earth, and no real development, as all the parts must be in movement in and as life for life to transcend into and as life. Thus, heaven is an illusion, a separation from life, a belief in a more than only, an idea in separation from life.
Consciousness is the manifestation of self interest in separation from life, it is the allowance of self as greed, it is self fixed in limitation, a wall of ignorance and the exit is self forgiveness to equal consideration of all life and a system that meets the needs of all life, valuing life as what is the gift.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to react to reactions to questions that cannot be answered by the person in authority, where I have not seen, realizes and understood within and as looking at the state of being of the person reacting and considering why such a state would exist, as I did not look at the system in totality and see, realize and understand the limitations of an existence that exists in fear of loss, as money without and a holding of values as to what self believes self is, where self had made a value within self to determine self in separation from self as life.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not see, realize and understand that the separation into and as a more than as self believing self to be a value as a personification of a quality as what self is, is not self in awareness of self as life, equal and one, as within holding a value as making a person more-than is a judgement, and thus a state of belief as being a more than another is the focus in self interest only without self realization of the starting point of self being life, equal and one in all that is here in and as life on earth.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to become a reaction, in fear of loss of self, in fear of loss of status based on the reaction of another, where I judged the reaction of another as what I am, as the other pointed the finger in judgement, to which I reacted instead of looking at how blame and judgement is a protection and defense of lack within the stance of the accuser, and this I became one and equal to accusation becoming accusation instead of stopping and looking at what is here as the state of being within and as limitation not seeing realizing and understanding an ability of self as life to direct self as life into and as understanding the physical world through using the gift of life as the physical to become aware of life as the value able to experience the state of being, simply being as what can express and move through and as many experiences of the substance of life in and as expressing life here, and thus within this, to deny this to anyone thing on earth is a crime against life, and ignorance, where humans admit that a state of being is transitory, and allowing this for some and not others, which is a limitation as life for some and not others is an act of ignorance, not really allowing life, as this isfearing life, attempting to control the nature of life, which breeds a stagnant existence, as there is no heaven on earth until all life is breathing, being, equal and one in and as life here, thus greed is an accepted limitation that is able to be realized for what it is as a state of being ignoring life.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to react to ignorance, as my reaction is an acceptance , making me one and the same as the non-looking, which is myself in protection and defense as a limited state taught and accepted within a system of survival instead of being myself in and as life, attending to what is real which is myself giving in and as myself as life.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not see, realize and understand that if I tried to play the violin the way I moved as reaction to and towards responses to questions that cannot be answered then I would have never used myself as the physical and learned to play, as playing requires moving with, changing with, without judgement, or focus on being a value defined by the being of what i am doing, as playing requires focus on here, on how self moves, on what is produced, where there is not time for judgement, as what exists is simply moving here with and as self as life, equal and one in learning to be equal and one with and as the physical, which demands awareness of the physical, thus to not care for the physical world is to deny life, and thus a crime against life as knowledge and information without application is useless.
When and as I become a reaction to a reaction, I stop and I breath, and I see realize and understand that reaction is one and the same as the protection and defense as reaction within and as reaction being blame and spite, hiding of ignorance in self interest, and thus I stop and I breath to see realize and understand the limitations of the state of being as the reaction in fear of loss, where perhaps it is to be noted that blame and spite and ignorance is not an action of prevention and thus a cure of what exists as lack of presence of self as looking at how here moves in and as the physical, where trying to find an answer in the knowledge and information as mind, is life looking up in a rotar file as mind, for solutions without physical application by self, as no information can be self physical applying self, as words can only give direction but cannot be self physically moving here, thus in one sense, no one can really tell another what they can be or do, as no one can be the physical movement of self here, thus there really is no choice but to allow self to become the directive of self, and any other option has no common sense of the physical world, which is so evident in the state of earth, where so many are starving and poverty is an unresolved growing issue, unacceptable which must change, and the means to do this is the simple application of equality, to give as one would like to receive.
I commit myself to slowing myself down, to breathing, to realize that reaction in and as judgement, as label, as defining within limitation is a reaction of knowledge and information as label without physical seeing, realizing and understanding here, where emotions , thoughts and feelings, are as a storm of energy ignorant of looking at what is physically here clinging to knowledge and information, without application, as this is consciousness and not self as life equal and one to and as being what works in common sense as the physical, here.