Variations on a theme can open up possibility Day 780

Yesterday I was in my local farmer’s market. I was talking with a man who is also, in the winter, a doctor. We were talking about making pesto. Pesto is basically a mixture of greens and nuts and an oil made into a paste. 

A woman comes up, who I know to be a teacher, and says, that she can’t see pesto being made with anything other than basil and pine nuts, she said that the flavors would not be the same.  The doctor and I look at one another and move to explain that pesto can be made with many different greens and nuts. For example, one can make a paste with nettle and cashews.  I then went to say that in any area in the world, using local plants and nuts, people have made pastes and salsa like mixtures using local indigenous things for as long as human record and memory has brought forward.  Even a stew is made from local things. It is all mixtures in varying forms.  I mean what is a ‘ mole’ but a paste made from chocolate beans, or seeds etc. What is tahini but a paste made from sesame seeds. 

The woman blinked her eyes and became quiet. She was processing all this practical perspective.  

I looked at her and said, “ can you see how we lose our own creative and critical thinking when we believe that one thing is how things should be, despite what is right in front of us? Silence. I did not expect anything less, it was a moment where I realized I would get no answer. It was to only open up perspective in as gentle a way as possible.  I sometimes do that, and have had that done to me. At the moment, I can say something like,  “ I never looked at it that way, duh!” I can even laugh at my own limitation, and enjoy the exposure of my own ignorance because it opens things up. It is a moment of realization or seeing, and obvious self capacity to understand which is actually very cool. It means that I can see.  It also opens up possibility. And, it also begs the question; “ where else in my world have I done this!?” 

It was one of those moments, a tiny anecdotal movement comes forward that can expose how stuck we can become, and the endless possibilities that are all around us in every moment if we only step out of belief and realize the many forms of creation available to us that are always here. 

Cultural icons are cool things, they can teach us about the world if we look at them in common sense of how they fit into this reality and the natural environment from which they came. They define and yet are not fixed at the same time. They tell a story about a place and a time, which can be used, as a form, to understand the greater whole. This, in effect, can teach us about the greater whole. How cool is that? 

What is LOOKING ; continued Day 770

What is LOOKING continued.

Lately, I so notice when I have missed what is right in front of me. An example is having used a kitchen device. This device has a tool that comes with it, to process the food more effectively. The other day, while using this device, I stood there at the counter, looking for this apparatus, and could not see it. When I was done, I found it, it was right next to me. I can’t even remember if this was in plain sight all the time, of partially hidden under the machine itself.

I just stood here, looking at where I had been that I did not see this that was right in front of me.

I also notice that after the fact, as in not in the moment I am in ‘ action,’ with hindsight I realize patterns around me. I do not see them in the moment they move, in that moment they are actualized. Somehow, my processing of here, is not being lived in the moment. I remain in a non-looking at what is right here, right in front of me. What can be me as not looking, or only looking as recognizing patterns with hindsight, is myself being, as accepting a morality that is not being present and processing form and movement and expression as what is actual mourned me, here, in this reality. I am so used to, as habituated with not looking. I am showing myself what I have allowed. 

I am mis-using my presence. What I have created myself as, as the things on which I focus, as values, are not in consideration of this living reality, this that is the means of me being here. This that is what and who I am in totality. I am exiting within a limited paradigm. Para-di-gm. I exist as a para - something projected from myself before reality,  of division - as value judgements of good and bad , g- generating, m- me. I am the creator of myself. What have I do I generate and create as the very presence of and as me? It is, not here ness, because I am missing what is in plain sight. 

What I am looking at here, is why I realize patterns with hindsight and not in the moment? That I am able to realize patterns, means that I realize them. This begs the question, and I know I am repeating here, as to why I do not stand in recognizing the patterns in the moment? Obviously, if i can realize patterns within musical notes, to the degree that I balance myself out in an instance, I can do this within value judgements as ideas, beliefs and opinions, wants, desires and needs , in a moment too! After all, this is all values, and a note is a value, it is a thing, with shape and color as the nature of its expression. 

It is because is my value system is limited, as a narrow framework, or a limited scaffold, or a paranormal construct, as a memory resonance within me, and I ONLY see that, I cannot be in the presence of all things, here. I am in separation. I mean, come-on, at this point in this existence, we know to wrote out our emotions, and we know we hold memories that are polarized as value judgements. We can no longer hide behind this, or allow this that we know, to be made larger than life. Nor can I. 

Even in health practices, we understand that stress is detrimental to the body. Stress is a mis-processing of reality. It is reality out of whack, it is a ‘ head trip” as such.  A head trip is a paranormal event.  To exist as a head-trip, means to manipulate words,  and pictures. I say pictures, because a picture is used to trigger ideas, beliefs and opinions, superimposed on that picture, as what is a parable, and what is analogies? They are constructs of values placed into symbols, as a thing in picture, or an object, and as such the recognition that we are walking in a bubble of a morality that is not being present in reality. How does one think onion layers work? How does one think a loss of spatial skill happens? LOOK, it is right here, in the math, right in front of us! Right in front of ME, because I am the same, because I drank the cool-aid. I became what i hated, because I was that child, before it was imposed with the math/limited-dogma of a relying/religion of some afterlife adult authoring who and what I am so I would not be self responsible because I feared being this, in relation to what is a resonant construct of separation from reality, which is physical. 

I cannot fear remaining stable and steady and grounded in the physical, feet on the ground, realizing and bringing back into focus on reality, as this HUGE valley of smoke and mirrors, as value judgements, as manipulation of sound, as pictures and words, airy fairy and all around me. I am, essentially, in a head-trip when I cannot, in real time, see what is in plain sight, and read the patterns of my own self created separation. I mis-used my own capacity as life. The only way out, is to face the storm, and take back what would bring joy, as what is natural as me, as myself as life, which means focusing and being present HERE. 

One of the ways of separation, is to take a tiny good, which is a good, and to make that huge, and create an endless discussion around it. It is like being in a church and singing praises again and again and again, and then thinking one is good for doing so. Quite astounding. This is a from of avoidance, or ignorance, within hiding behind a busy work of value judgement. The mis-take of self being equal to life is done with limitation, which means not acknowledging all things, and instead taking one small value, turning it into an idol and standing within that at the expense of the world during down around one. This is what is meant by doing nothing as being as evil as participating in the thing itself. There is no difference between the two, because they are both a lack of acknowledgement of practical reality, as the physical in expression in form and function!  It is said , that to tell someone a lie, which is playing the game of separation which has a color of limitation and ignorance, does not really make a person angry. Why, because it is like an army of defense, supporting it state of limitation. It is like, we are both lying, and we accept that. Yet, when one points this out, the one playing the game, must answer to an acceptance of lack, that is not being self responsible as life, which can generate reactions in support of that lack, and demand for change. This will make a construct of limitation react. Thus a real truth ( remember no dogma is going to support you if you cannot breathe) in relation to not being in consideration of all things, will cause the lie to react. That reaction will bring forth defense of that lie, in a kind of scream. Why? Because the scream is what the lie has been existing as, because it takes an intense effort to be that. And since we know it is all memories of value judgements, and this is a math happening real fast as the individual movements that generate this, because we accumulate what we accept to define us, this all plays out real fast, with the parts no longer specifically recognized, that we cannot slow down, we have to scream what we have allowed, to actually see it. And it is in plain sight. And it can no longer be allowed, because it is not equal to all life, of which the physical is the means of and as. The body, the physical allows and is breath, not that limited morality. No way out. 

I remember being a mother of young children. I remember my children sometimes suddenly, after a pause, turning from other adults. Then, they would, with careful movement, acclimate to some adults and interact with them.  I notice this in my nephew as well. When I have not seen him for a while, he will stare at me, with a subtle down turn around the mouth, and a turning away from me, to then slowly interact with me. he is simply reading me, as my children read other adults and sometimes reacted by turning away, as a ‘ not wanting to look’ scenario.  I realize, that within and as my own construct of not looking, as playing the limited morality game instead of remaining present in that which allows me to exist as breathe here, that i am being the same as what my children turned from. They had simply acclimated to me, in survival. 

Children will participate in a reality that has adults in bubbles of separation, as where else to they have to go? They will build, practice and interact, even within limitations around them. The desire to practice language, in this one case, is so strong, as building within that, that the child will repeat, again and again and again, what is being said and what is being pointed out, in real time, just being and moving around in the physical reality of one’s environment. lol, I was singing a song in relation to toy buses, a simple song, about the wheels of the bus going round and round, and the child laughed and screamed AGAIN! This happened so many times I can’t remember how many time I sang this, but it was a joy to see the child taking it in and beginning to mimic it. Somehow the awe of wheels going round and round, and perhaps the words being a means of describing that amazing physical thing, is all good! Perhaps, in relation to this, my body generating and being in a form, was also a part of the joy. This joy a joy of being physical, nice and simple and great fun in being in expression, as cool and breathing. Better than any picture show in the mind, emitting from the flesh, as a resonant memory. Can’t wait to see what happens when we try and sew heads onto new bodies. A thought we already tried the Frankenstein scenario and found out that it did not work! I mean, there are findings oaths world, where evidently, the whole nuclear experiment has been done, in a time before out time, as the signature of this is left on the physical.  We are, because of our accepted and allowed separations running on treadmills of limitations as value judgements spending out lives in head trips. Meanwhile, the earth shrinks, just as we shrink into a dried up white and grey prune like thing with no spatial presence left. We drank the kool-aid.

We don't have to drink the cool-aid, we can, come back down to earth, and face the smoke and mirrors of energy - as what a limited value system can only exist as because it has no sustainability, because it is not equal to life.  We can place our presence in out bodies, as respect of what is real, and ground ourselves here, equal and one to life, which is physical. I can step over the line of my own accepted and allowed participation of and as limited scaffolds of information that must be composed of good and bad, right and wrong, forcing a limited value forward, making it HUGE, and myself calling this out, in self discovering ways and means, to remember myself as who and what I am as life here, realizing breath is greater and more real than any idea resonantly projecting as my own self creation, in front of me, and instead ground myself here. 

Why do we not ask ourselves why the PHYSICAL thing we become within us, is the MOST EXPENSIVE thing to build? And that this inner creation, is the MOST IMPORTANT ‘ thing’ in our lives?  Educating that, forming that costs more in this world than our homes, or our cars, or our ‘ THINGS’ we accumulate believing these ‘THINGS” to hold a value, when the greatest VALUE is the ‘ THING’ we become within and as the creation of who and what we are here. Ask yourself? 

And why, if the child the POOREST thing in the world?  Why is that which is not yet built which costs the MOST to build, is in the most VULNERABLE state? 

How is it, that I can’t see what is in PLAIN SIGHT? 

Ask yourself? Get mad, then change. Accept and recreate yourself as LIFE. Walk the process of change, get your word skills moving. Realize the patterns within and in one’s environment, AND on the world stage. Your are, as what you as as a physical being, the most perfect of means to do so. RESPECT the labor of those who are bringing this forward.  In this present system this means GIVING in monetary means. It need not be as much as the system costs, yet that labor must be supported, after all it is what you would have wanted for yourself.

Thank you for reading. 

What SPELLS have I cast, what SPELLS has Hillary Clinton cast? Day 716

Within playing the violin, I had to be aware of the muscles in my body because if they tensed, that tension built and then I was occupied in sorting that out and lost focus on what kept my place in the music, which was moving in those around me. 

At the moment, I am aware of energy moving in me. There appears to me to be a lot. Yet, someone reminded me that the energy is really very very small. It only appears huge. This is cool from one perspective because it reveals how by nature of our self as life, our presence, we can narrow our focus down to the smallest of things, and we can sense the whole of what is around us as well.  The energy within me , is where I accepted and allowed myself to focus for an extended period of time, on ideas, beliefs and opinions, that I did not resolve and balance back into reality, as all things, which includes the manifestation of form as the physical.  

What I notice is how much I have thoughts falling down into my body. Instead of myself cross-referencing what is here, I am projecting value judgements based on what I practiced as an abstract idea,  down from my head into my body. It is like this thick soup, heavy, dark, like a tar falling from within me.  It moves into various parts of the body, even into my chest.  There it resists addressing this very same thing in others, such an occupation of myself that problem solving because secondary to protection . 

I have a fear of people, which is related to another fear I have, as a paranoia of the paranormal. This, built in childhood, most probably because my parents were the same as me, as they absorbed this mis-take on reality from their parents, because that is the nature of life, to sense all things. This leads to realizing that the only thing to choose is that which does no harm, or, the choice is to move within what transforms in ways that do no harm- otherwise how does one learn how to create?  This is why my words must relate to this physical world directly. Each measure as each word, must trigger a relationship, as a respect of, what is here manifest as the physical.  This is living in consideration of all things. Within this, I would have no alternate reality of value judgements less than life, heavy, within and as me; this energy falling and moving around within me, that I accepted and allowed.

Just as in playing the violin, no one can do this for you but yourself, it does not matter who you absorbed that lead to this mis-take in reality as being the cry of why this has happened. This is not living solution; instead, in complaining one is that which one is being when one blames another, that other that has to do the same- no matter what.  Also, playing the violin, as an analogy here, means that one cannot understand until one is that capacity. In this world this means knowing one’s words and aligning them to reality. Then, to process this information with ease, to catch up to what has been a mis-take within and as one’s self, to see the patterns, to realize the movement, of which I am sure I have more to discover, as some are so subtle, within my own habit of resistance to life, that lead to a resistance to change, that lead to me separating myself from physical reality. 

As some may know, my husband committed suicide. I remember a time when I could see this coming, and a day, specifically, where I stood there in the hallway of our apartment at the time, and said to myself, “ what is it about he words” as I attempted to sort out what I could sense coming. Also, as I stood in front of a fourth grade class, and realized that the children were all over the place in their focus ability, and that all I could do is rebuild, just as I did when I taught the violin. It meant moving into the smallest measures and practicing them until they were stable, so that the presence of the person could expand to greater awareness of the space around them, or the information within an equal relationship to the space around them.  Those who know destini is related to Bernard Poolman must realize that what he did, as he was a stuck in his mind as the rest of us, that he had to process the information in this reality as words, to begin to see the patterns of the present system, and his own patterns of belief, to assess why there was so much destruction and not enough creation on this planet called earth. 

I can say, from the point of my own experience up until now, that realizing the energy moving within me, took time, and has more development towards realizing this. From the perspective of having and being within this, that energy appears to be so real, and so huge, that a perspective from within that, will believe, as in the will having accepted this, that that energy is real and all that is when it is not.   It is to say, that if you do not see the grass growing then you are not here, you as have I, rejected what is real, the physical world, for a false construct of ideas that is an entity within you. I cannot remember yesterday because I was not there, I was instead in a construct of information, limited and by such nature stagnant, within and as me, as energy.  Therefor, I have no real constancy, as life, because I was not in attention to life, as the physical.  I accepted a polarized story of information, that layered within and as me, becoming a personality of likes and dislikes, and believing that I had wants needs and desires that made me unique and special, when what was special, or is special is being life, being here, creating and living. 

In all, one has to get one’s processing speed up, one has to see, realize and understand that SPELL within and it manifestation as a world system that is not aligned with respect of all things, as the physical world, which is creation, which is the means of ourselves being in expression as life here. One has to catch up, so to speak, to the spin of energy, composed of ideas, beliefs and opinions , which means one must process the words as their spin holding the system in place AND as the constructs of value judgements within one’s self.  One could say that this started with religion, those first tech buildings filled with song and colored windows. One could say this started with agriculture, creating imagery, as icons of objects from nature, giving them a meaning within one’s self that was just this, a value within in separation from the real physical thing.  Thus, here we are, on earth, perhaps the last bastion of somewhat functioning physical creation, compounded down to a single point as this is all that is left from a race who idolize what is within without respect towards creation.   A respect and care towards all things is the only choice, as this is the real nature of life. It is the innate capacity of each of us. It is who and what we are as life. 

In all, I must realize my own SPELLS, to bring myself back to who and what I am as life, to stand, equal and one in respect of physical reality, as this is creation information.  If I cannot process the information as the spells, as my word relationship within energy/value judgements , then how will I realize my own accepted and allowed legerdemain that is an inferiority to life as that which is who and what I am that is my own separation from being present and equal to the will of and as me as life, here. 

Am I SPELLING courage or am I spelling chaos, as limitation and stagnation are a form of chaos filled with  projecting and imagining blame and worst case scenarios, gloom and doom, fear and reaction instead of problem solving.  Have I managed to move information, as the spells of men, to such a degree that I begin to see the patterns of my own accepted and allowed separation into limitation and by form, stagnation into a consequence of an energetic reaction  called value judgements that in space is so small yet made so huge, that an idea of that inform that I have accepted and allowed appears to be real, yet is not?  What am I spelling with this gift of life that is me? 

I mean have a look, Hillary Clinton evidently has Parkinson's dis-EASE,  how was that lack of ease, that lack of being present, created? From what was this limitation and physical stagnation built? As yourself, can you hear the grass growing, are you playing the instrument of you as life, or are you caught in a dream called energy? I would suggest increasing your processing of the spells speed, and self forgive this limitation that is a separation from life. It is stagnant - visible in a fear of change.  Would you want this for yourself, do you want this for this children to come? 

Patience is more natural than anger Day 711

Anger is always self anger.

I realize more and more how much anger is really self anger. it is not having enough information. It is reacting as an event, as seeing the problem and reacting, taking the long road into solution. How many times have each of us regretted reacting in anger in past moments? I know I have many.

There have been times in my life where I was calm, and despite a short tempered reaction coming towards me, or myself reacting as a short temper, if I look, I can see that I was/am reacting within fear. Fear is having value judgements, fearing to lose my life, or an idea thereof. I hide in anger, resisting and pushing away what is in other moments more natural and less a cause of friction. These are more often than not, those moments where the emotional fire subsides, moves through its course and settles in moving forward without increasing accusation and a residual ill will.

Thus, anger has this quality, or I might say, dimension to it, that is rejection and resistance, a ‘ not wanting to know’ because resolution would mean facing an already accepted idea of impossibility blending into self pity, one a consequence of the other, building a voice of futility. Yet, that there is movement in limitation, as energy, as this, it means that the strings pulled as this, can change and self realize this movement and learn to recognize this and realize just how limiting such a construction is within. It also means that nothing can touch me as life unless I accept and allow it. It means that patience is more natural than anger. 

Day 609 The limitations of our thoughts as knowledge and information only, and the suppression of our presence.

Accepting the form of sound structures and aligning them to the whole.

I live in a world of information given through words, as human language. Words describe, they paint pictures of things. They sound what is here, be it the physical or some  ideological metaphysical construct. We know this because we know that  when something  is repeated enough it comes to be believed as fact, even Machiavelli realized this, and politics uses this, in self interest. This is the use of limitation for personal gain, not telling the whole story, manipulating through this. The parts are not necessarily bad, just limited- which can become a violence to life because it is not considering the physical and respecting it. I mean, people can shatter glass with sound, so what we sound is our responsibility.

Structurally, as a human being, as a man, I am responsible for what I resonate, I am responsible to be present here, which means being self honest, which is to not act in my own self interest only. A limited form places pressure on the presence of a child, human being, and this causes suffering because it forces an innate conceptual ability as the physical of the physical into a narrow limited description. It is like forcing something that is too big into some very tiny jeans that are two sizes too small- you know, where one cannot even walk or move because the legs are so constricted!

And the difficult part is that what is presented cannot really be argued against, because it has a truth, but the truth is tied to an only this or that one sided conversation, with the threat of doom and gloom if one steps out of this, like a bullying through limitation, that then creates a morality of good and bad, as the limitations that do not tell the whole story limit and cause consequences, and since this is the only information that defines the self, change becomes a fear, because limitation has to stop its mis-take through limitation and correct which takes time. Like a train racing along, where one cannot see outside the window because the train is moving too fast, this is what a mind of limitation can become in practical application, not realizing its own demise.

I think of the platform of our media, where our so-called representatives present through a one way stream and announce limited information with this or that gloom and doom scenarios. Think terrorism and the  supposed extremist Islamic people, way out there on the other side of the world, where satellite pictures show there lights in the cities are dark. Makes me wonder what resources are there that the chaos is created for to sneak-under-the-radar/chaos-and-grab. And meanwhile, the children are suffering, as opportunity to grow is denied because someone believes they are god, some one believes they know how to social engineer a world that was already here, that functioned in symbiotic ways and managed to expand without some human social engineering through the suppression of presence, which is through the suppression of awareness, which is the suppression of life, that creative spark, that desire to absorb everything about the world, that child. Somehow, the suppression really makes no sense, because the plants and the animals that were here before man, all developed sensory abilities to expand the expression of life, so why suppress when the nature of life is to expand? This means that the answer is not to suppress the presence, as absorbing presence of men, but to allow it to flourish, to reach its full potential! 

So this starts with myself  which means to accept every form, be it physically existent or a metaphysical construct  of limited idea, or belief or opinion and transform that into equality and oneness with practical reality, to become what sounds life, as in what tells the whole story.  On a more global scale, this could be done with a more direct democracy; I mean with our technology, we could do direct voting, where people could even opt to have the vote be made public! This would be sound transparency! And, because this is how logistical fallacies could be cleared up! This is how we can realize how present we are in fact, as in realizing the limitation of the metaphysical story that is a pressure on us that causes suppression of this innate ability within as how much of the story of the whole one has.

There are farmers who realize that the health of their animals means that the animals must be outside on the land to live a humane existence, one that is of more benefit to the natural world- the health of the physical form, and not a shock in forcing the form of life into some scenario that does not fit the form. The consequences of humans allowing this is causing massive harm to life on earth, it is causing the presence of life to fade and the structure to weaken, just look at how the density of wood for building houses no longer has any real density, nor the nutrient density of our meats. 

Thus, placing our children into confined learning spaces that have no connection with the physical world, is placing pressure on the presence to fit into a limited story, a story that is not the whole story of which that presence as life within the child as the form, is beautifully designed to be and do. To suppress this causes massive suffering to the life within, the presence innate in the form as he child. It is a crime we all allow when we continue to accept this and / or expect a school to solve the behavioral problems of a child, because it is us not being present here and looking at the nature of the forms we have accepted and allowed as our public school systems and our belief systems, and our political systems. These systems mimic the very pressure on our presence that each accepted in fear of standing up as life.  The only choice is to move outside the box, and become present with what is real, as nature, as this actual real physical world

How do we remove the pressure done through limited story? We deconstruct our belief systems and reconstruct a system that regards all things as their inherent structural nature to change the present limitation into what allows that presence to reach full awareness of this physical life, because thus is where a child lives that life.

We remove the limited story, and ground ourselves back into the real story of what it means to live practically on a physical planet. A Basic Income Guarantee, a Living Income Guarantee would expedite this change into opening up the life presence that has been suppressed through limited stories because it removes the pressure of survival caused by two competing limited stories that have separated from their presence as life. We know all these limitations, the parts not “ bad” simply limited. These are the confines of our borders, our class system, our nationalities, our race delineations, because under the skin color and the national anthem, we are all the same, we have basic needs that support our natural sensibility as life, our presence to focus here, in reality, to enjoy being physical beingness on a physical planet.

Day 597 We are programmable, which means we can change.

I was sitting and talking with someone the other day. From the onset of the conversation this other person told a story about what they wanted, and what their father wanted for them. By the time I finished talking with them, my impression of what they wanted completely changed. 

Their story changed and they became very upset.

I realize that we are programmed from day one, and that the human realizes this because so much is spent on education, and we humans make movies about painting fences to learn a physical move with our arm. showing ourselves that we are indeed programmable and how it is done, through repetition. 

We also know that it takes 10,000 hours to master a musical instrument. All of this reveals that we understand that we are the consequence of what is programmed within and as us, where this programming is the measure of our understanding, our ability to connect with this physical world.

I mean, if we stand back, we can see that what advertising does is program us. And it is very successful. We also have the term “ the sins of the fathers” which simply means that programs are passed down from generation to generation, each generation/production of one human after another is passed down as the child absorbs the measure of the adults around them. This is a contiguous  action , because each child meets the form of the adults as they grow and absorb the world around them.

And yet, why do we not see that this admits a great ability as ourselves to take in the environment around us? Why do we not conceptually understand this great gift of being able to absorb the world around is in such detail that children often end up looking just like their parents? Why do we not realize that if one interacts with an instrument for 10,000 hours then that instrument can be mastered? And if we understand this, then all things, this earth, the mechanisms of a car and how it functions, can be mastered within 10,000 hours of programming, which means detailed walking of the parts and the whole and how they interact and function. I mean one could teach a child how a car works, and where all the parts of that machine come from, and how the materials interact as the nature of that substance and the qualities within the parts and materials used. So, no matter what we are interested in can be used to teach about all the parts and the whole as this physical existence, and since the human is obviously so capable of absorbing form and function, then why are we not forming a system that mimics this natural ability?

Considering all the chaos on this earth, the lack of food and basic needs for so many, who then have no time to build understanding because all they are doing is struggling to get a minuscule amount of food, why are we not realizing our own gift of life as our ability to absorb the parts and the whole, and making sure that this is functioning in each gift of life as each human physical body of such capacity? It seems that the chaos is composed of limitations, of lack, and then the consequential object is blamed for that lack, the starting point ability forgotten?  If we look at this in common sense, then we can realize that lack of common sense, as lack of investigation can cause a chaotic program of no real focus that then has to loop around in limited episodic stories that contradict previous statements that then causes the person to become completely confused and upset, to the point where they can’t even understand where they rejected one thing, accepted another, and ended up in a soapy chaos of belief that they cannot even begin to sort out. I mean what kind of program is that?

When Mark Twain said that you tell someone a lie, they do not become so upset, but you tell them a truth, and they have to reconstruct their program, their belief system, and this causes a reaction, one of an inability to be immediately flexible and fluidly  move to sort  out chaos, one of having to slow down and look at their own program and take the parts and rearrange them, which is a movement of seeming discord, but in reality it is only re-creating that program within.

If we are not used to doing this, and we do not understand this, and our jobs are dependent on ignorance, then we see that change as fearing to lose something, either income, or a self definition that has become a comfort zone, where one has friends who are of the same belief measure. this causes a feeling of fear when a need for change arises, because one is overwhelmed with the restructuring of oneself and the changes that come in the environment within which one lives, nice and comfortable with the measure around one.  The problem with not incorporating  a change that builds more awareness, within oneself, limits expansion, which reaching out and finding others who have a different program, one that is of more understanding in relation to the older circle of “ minds/programs “ one has become accustomed to,  means deconstructing and reconstructing with the outer world within which one lives. The same is true of working at a job. If we don’t change, we allow the limitation to continue, and we suppress ourselves, and suppression is suppression, which means that one will not move into a state of openness, of ease, of flow, of growth, much like a plant. So, then one becomes the struggle that is a rejection of life, which can only lead to unhappiness. LOL , Un -hap-i ness, un haptic ability, which means touching, which is a physical action and metaphysical development as in being in touch with how this physical mechanism that is earth works. Thus, as we come full circle here,  what we allow to become the program of and as us is not realized for what it is, and expansion which means change, is not accepted as what an absorbent being as life would be and do, then the wheels of that machine get clogged and then confused and then reactive, rejecting and spiting and blaming and hating, stagnant, repressed, and ignorant. 

Overall, this means that I cannot take anything any program voices as itself personally, and that within the expression of a person is their program, thus the chaos is visible and can be understood, and to actually expect reactions of limitation because this is what a limited program is going to be and do when trying to sort itself out, to look at its own limitations of formal understanding to then move into reconstruction, which is change, and within this that what is resisted, as in not sorted, will persist and that the solution is to realize the physical world as the vessel/instrument of life, one of perfect design when programmed with a clear and direct understanding of how this actual, practical physical world in which we live functions. 

So, when I react to another, as a program, I am essentially the same; I am reacting to what does not fit my programming, and myself believing that my programming is THE program. When  there is conflict and friction, it is that I must stop and change - accept what is before me and realize it does not necessarily define me,  and then, take the time to evaluate the equation as the program before me and my own programming at the same time, which is deconstruction and then, reconstruction , which takes time, because unless I had been taught this from the get go, and as a consequence have not practiced as this ability, and reform with every breath on this physical planet that is life inFORMation, then I will not be able to be that which is the gift of life that is me. I must realize that I can only master here, this physical world, when I can see it directly, understand it and change with and as it as who I am as a part of this world. So, the only compliment I can be as myself as this life, is to answer to the chaos of separation unequal to practical reality within solving the discord back onto a program, a structure that can withstand change, which is myself being flexible enough to accept what is here, deconstruct and reconstruct within an awareness that all things must be considered on this machine, this earth, to make sure that no part is left in chaos, that no part is left behind, so that this earth can become heaven on earth.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to act in self interest, to want to bully my belief, me desires onto another.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to investigate what is formed here, and within this to realize that which does no harm.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not see, realize and understand that I am the consequence of what has been absorbed by me as my natural ability to take in the world around me, which has been going on for generations, and as such, there is no one to blame but myself for what i have accepted and allowed as belief, opinion and idea without real investigation in tandem with awareness of practical physical existence, the way and the means of life in expression, which is here.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to believe that I can be bullied, as this is a separation from common sense, from taking the time, from slowing down and looking at what is here as belief, as a program, as a construct, and to use my observant ability to see directly as in taking in the form, assessing it, realizing it cannot define me, and yet I can become it, see it, and then to reconstruct in ways that consider all things, and that which does no harm.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to act in self interest as the ideas in and as my mind, as  a program that is of knowledge and information only, as I did not take the time to investigate all things, and that I allowed myself to fear, to become inferior to and as the life that is me that is able as myself as life to absorb the form and the function of an acknowledged mechanistic system within the understanding that to educate a child takes exposure to how here works, that a child is programmable.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to fear that what another thinks can define me.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to believe that an insight as an idea about what is here, limited or not limited ,if I should assess it, has the potential to define me, when it does not, as it is only me, looking at a shape, a form, a construct, and as such because I am so absorbent as myself as life, I can then change, thus a limitation of equal and one understanding of practical physical reality cannot define me unless I accept and allow it.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand that when I resist what is here, I spite myself as life, as I need not allow beliefs to define me, and I can change, thus I can accept a limitation and transform that limitation into greater awareness of practical reality as a system of form and function that is the expression and mechanism of life here.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not see, realize and understand that when I become constricted with conflict and friction within and as me, which can be felt as a heavy suppression, withholding of myself, as in not moving with a gentle ease, here, I am rejecting my own gift of and as life here, suppressing the life that is me, as the means to absorb reality, practical reality here, and as such self empower through the gift of life as myself in accepting perspectives, investigating and becoming aware of how here moves and expresses as life.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand that rejection is fear of loss, within oneself, often built of ideas that I have accepted and allowed to define me, which is myself stagnant, which is a separation from accepting the gift of life as myself able to absorb and this able to change.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize that so much of my imagination as myself as mind is in justifying my own comfortable self definition and that it was I that accepted and allowed this.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to have limited myself through moving as an act of comparison of my self definition as my construct based on class, race, education, nationality instead of seeing that I built this of qualities that are not necessarily good or bad, simply limited, and that the very building of this reveals that I can change, and that I can absorb, and thus that I can become equal and one, with and as life, here as a physical expression, that changes and reforms and thus, is creation, which only I can make the decision to become equal and one to and as, which is accepting myself as life.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to have be-earthed myself as mind only, and to not have be-earthed myself as life, in respect of earth, the physical, the formation of life in expression, here.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to fear the metaphysical mental constructs of me and of  the HUEman, that are limited and thus in separation from life, as the physical , here.

When and as I find myself resisting the beliefs of of others, I stop and I breath and I slow myself down and I see realize and understand what I fear to lose as myself as a self definition, and I self forgive and ground myself here.

When and as I find myself reacting to a self definition of myself as not being immediately accepted I stop and I breathe and I slow myself down, and I realize that I can reform myself as insight as to what is believed here, as this cannot define me unless I accept and allow it, and I take in the parts and relate to the whole, which is going to take practice as I have not accepted this as me as a starting point, and I assess the parts, bring them forward, attend to them, and then relate them to earth, to the means of life, and I recreate the parts, into and as what is best for all, as what does no harm , as what self empowers as imparting a self directive capacity that sees directly here.

When and as I find myself believing that a moment defines me, I stop and I breath and I see, realize and understand that I can change with every breath, in every moment, as I can absorb what is here, which need not define me, and take that which is good and does no harm, to change as this is the ability of myself as life.

When and as I find myself moving in judgement of good and bad, which is energy manifest as thoughts of one thing being good and another bad, which is judgment, I stop and I breath, and I slow myself down, and I assess what i have deemed good and bad, an equation that is a false dilemma, as it takes parts and labels one as good and another as bad, because of a limited insight into practical reality, as the physical is life inFORMation, in expression, thus I slow down, realize the moment does not define me, and as such is not something to take personally, and I use the gift of myself as life, to change, and I look at what is here in form, be it as a limitation as a mind construct and I assess and change as in cross referencing physical reality to stand as that which supports life and as such can withstand the test of time, to allow myself to remain equal and one here, to be flexible, fluid and accepting of and as life here, which is me, and to realize that all that is here is me in another life.

When and as I find myself resisting, as in becoming tense within and as my physical body, I stop and I breath, and I slow myself down, and I ground myself here in the moment here, and I see, realize and understand what I fear, as what I have allowed  as a belief to be a judgment of a bad, and what I believe is a good that defines me, as a value judgement, and I forgive, I assess the whole and the parts in consideration of practical physical reality,to ground myself here, in common sense, in respect of and as life as the physical, as earth, thus I b-earth myself here.

When and as I find myself becoming a sense of resistance, I stop and I breath and I slow myself down and I ground myself in the moment here, and I asses what I am resisting, as what I have accepted and allowed as a belief and I do not allow myself to move into spite and blame in protection and self defense based on an idea, and I use my common sense to assess the parts and the whole, to see, realize and understand that which is best for all here, as that which does no harm and considers and respects all things as the physical, as this is the expression of life in creation.

When and as I find myself believing that I am inferior to here, I stop and I breath and I slow myself down, and I assess what is here, as what I have allowed myself as mind to believe, where I resist through believing I cannot change and as such believe that  one moment can define me, when I can change, as in, assess, investigate and build understanding equal and one to life as the physical world here.

When and as I find myself acting superior, I stop and I breath and I slow myself down, and I ground myself here, equal and one to and with the physical, as this is the way and the means of and as life information, in expression here, and I see realize and understand that I can change into and as the living word, as being equal in sound with and as the physical world here.

Day 554 Apathy and Sound Mind. The Journey of Limitation into Common Sense.

Apathy,

I am looking at where and when I first wanted to participate and could not because I could not express myself. I remember being in the elementary schools and the middle schools, realizing that what children wanted more than anything was to be able to participate, and not having the means, and thus not having the measure to respond to what was being taught, not being able to point out what they could see, and or understand their own behaviors.  And all the teachers, the adults who were so set in their ways that they, more often than not because it is not all so,  did not notice the child struggling to make sense, and instead looked only at the reactive behaviors.

Apathy is really ending standing up no matter what. So, perhaps one stood, and then did not continue to stand, continue to question, continue to ask that something be explained again, or point out verbally what did not make sense to oneself, which is to take the time to reveal what does not make sense over all. If our schools teach a one size fits all story, then there is going to be reactions, because people see different perspectives, and that point of view will expression. If we do not allow this we actually limit awareness, and limit the expression of a child, suppressing the life in the child. I mean, we teach that there are master’s of industry in our schools, tying a name to this invention or that invention, when this cannot be so, as it is what came before as all the layers of human networking that built industry. It could not have been done by one person, or even one generation. The nouns used in limitation are ‘ Rockefeller and Factory workers” - which is very limited. So, what our schools teach makes no sense and the conceptual ability of children see the discrepancy but lack the vocabulary to express this, and this state of being, unable to voice itself is suppressed and labeled as difficult, when it is simply  a sense of an accepted limitation that is not overall sound. There are going to be children, who do not have an ease with language use, that will understand this, and want to speak up. And in many ways, they cannot accept this that is unacceptable.

Apathy is really, the end of making sense, of using common sense, because the voice lacking common sense and choosing limitation is allowed voice instead of the overall expression of a sound measured and balanced whole. Limitations that are really suppressions of sound mind, can be brought out of apathy and given opportunity for a voice of common sense, being of sound mind equal to physical reality in form and function.  The solution to apathy is to stand and to speak up about what does not make sense and to change what is taught and what is allowed as the present design of the system, through following through to what would be best for all. 

In all the real path of least resistance is the path of what is best for all. In our busyness with suppression of our innate empathy, going into endless detail to justify limitation, we become stagnant and apathetic, and the answer is to equalize with practical physical reality, to see directly what does no harm and allows each to direct in common sense of the means of life, which is the physical world.

Day 537 Going into Mind Consciousness Self Forgiveness

So much knowledge and information as what I have learned, as what I was taught to believe as how I measure this world, has me comparing and competing based on a limited framework of survival. The mechanism of the social contract accepted and allowed by men, where money determines one’s ability, one’s opportunity, and as such, one’s development. This happens by degree on so many levels, and as we are physically living in a relatively small circle, we get caught up in the immediate measure of our world only, and lose sight of the total structure of the world, the systems, the consequences in detail, about what is happening. And while we are in our daily lives, the apparatus of the world around us, as the system makes small incremental changes over time, and before we know it, as we see happening in America, the money system has shifted to one of extreme inequality.

Yet, this extreme inequality has been around for a very long time. Were it not then there would be no starving children. Since we have not taken care of the dis-ease, it has only grown. And this dis-ease has two forms, one of greed, and one of lack, one of excessive accumulation of money and goods, and the other side of this coin, children dying of starvation and environmental pollution.

This coin, of extremes, the consequential polarities the faces of this coin, are in total the limitation that in itself is a separation from common sense. And common sense is what is lost when we remain within small circles of understanding. This understanding ONLY in our immediate environment, without being responsible for what is happening all over this world.

This is really why the only solution is the realization that we are all equal in substance, because it will allow a respect for the whole, the full potential of an innate common sense that at the moment has only been trained to look at the immediate environment instead of this immediate environment and the events and movements going on around this world as a measure of what life as earth is.  Each part of this environment is connected to the one next to it, thus it is all connected. Our common sense is to be equal to the measure of the physical and its expression. Our words must be equal to a clear, living, measure of here, where we can then begin to see the patterns and thus form of not only what we have allowed within, but also, that which is the physical in expression, as this is the way to equality with what we are as life. The chaos of the mind, in a measure of very limited value judgement, as an idea that one thing is more than another, is very limited.

So, when I realize I have gone back into a limited awareness as the information in and as my mind, I stop and I breath, and I slow myself down, and I notice how I am moving. Am I comparing, am I existing as definition about another, in relation to myself, which means I am defining myself, judging myself in a bubble, based on taught criteria so I don’t fall into the extreme as the side of the coin of poverty and starvation. I see where I am fearing to lose opportunity, and or believing I have to defend some accusation that would limit me as a definition,  and realize that this in total is not what I am here. I exist on a physical planet, that is life in form, as this is how life would be, and I look here, in common sense, which is the principle of what is best for all, and realize that limitations cannot define me, so to let them go, and stand here. ALone. I mean, if I cannot create and interact with others in ways that allow communication and understanding in ways that are at ease, where there is security and trust, I am wanting another to be responsible for me, to accept my limited and as such unstable response, the asking for the state of being not equal to here. If I can’t be responsible for myself here with certainty, then how can another be responsible if they end up carrying my lack of responsibility? As the form of what we are here as humans, the only choice is to allow the full potential of each to stand as such, because this is how we each become responsible. And as this is a physical world, what is needed to be responsible, such as clean water, education, opportunity, shelter, food - solid food, the absence of such is us not looking at what we are in common sense. And if we are not existing in common sense then we become separated from that which allows us to simply be here.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not see, realize and understand when and as I go into mind, and begin to compare instead of look here at the common sense of physical reality.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to separate from here, from a common sense of here, into and as a very limited system of values, where I warp into an idea of a good and a bad, a loss and a gain, begin to compare, and compete, in ways that are protection and defense, instead of looking at the measure of the actual physical world that enables me to exist as life, and remeasure what exists as the whole, remediate to balance out the extremes of lack, as starvation, poverty, environmental degradation, limited insight from a lack of education and opportunity for development, to see, realize and understand that the very measure of the physical world as what I use to look here, has to slow down and breath to return to a sense that is a constant in all things as life and consider all things, that are the same as myself , of the same substance of and as life, and realize in thought , word and deed what would allow all men to stand in understanding of the whole, and in self responsibility for the immediate physical environment, to become a #waveofaction that withstands the test of time and builds an earthly existence that is in balance, realized in actually living on this planet where no matter where one went, the basic needs of every person was met, and as such, an earth that is living its full potential.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to believe that where I live and what I live in defines me, as myself as an American, where this is extremely limited, as there are those who live in extreme poverty, and have no moment to self discover in dignity themselves as life in full potential.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand that when and as I  compare myself to another, it is for me to slow down, to stop and to breath, and to realize the pattern of limited beliefs in separation from common sense of physical life formation and look at what is here and how what decisions I make can only be made in ways that are best for all.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not see, realize and understand when and as I find myself going into imagination to rebuild instead of remaining here, equal and one to and as the physical world as this is the real formation of and as life here.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not equalize myself to and as the physical, to become a sound mind awareness of and as the actual real physical world that is me, as I am it, as this is the very formation of life, here.

When and as I find I am no longer breathing I slow myself down, I look to what imagination, held tight, fleeting, I accepted and allowed, and I bring myself here, equal and one with and as the physical.

When and as I find myself fearing to lose some self definition based on a limited value system, I stop and I breath and I slow myself down, and I see , realize and understand that I can only be here, face what is directly here, and as such, to answer to here, which is to be responsible to here, the limited values in and as my mind, built in separation from a consideration of all life are an extremely limited measure of here and I see realize and understand that as such I separate myself from my full potential in and as life, here.

When and as I find myself allowing an emotional/feeling self definition, I slow myself down and I see, realize and understand the thought as an aspect of reality in judgement based on what is an idea only about one thing being more than another, and I stop and I breath, and I balance this into common sense of practical physical reality, within and as what would be best for all, as what would allow the full potential of life to exist.

When and as I find myself comparing myself to an idea, I stop and I breath, and I slow myself down, and I see realize and understand that values I believe will define me for better or worse as idea, and I attend to the emotions and feelings and the beliefs that define them, and I see realize and understand that such cannot withstand the test of time as what is best for all, as what allows the expression of life to exist as the very sound of life information, that works in ways that do no harm, as this is the way and the means as the measure of life here.

Day 508 Is self validation as sadness, care or an awareness of ignorance of consequence?

I read a note about placing a memorial on my local highway and I reacted with the thought, “ that is stupid.”  I see these memorials for highway accidents all along my local highway, and I often react to them.  How are they going to bring back the person? What does pity for the person do in common sense? Does this state of being as inner pity solve the deaths? No. Solutions are often based on practical action, not on basking in emotions of loss and the past, and/or blaming this object - as the person who was involved in the accident and lived. Such self direction within is a limitation because it does not look at the consequences of the present system. One example would be to look at human health, if we are physically filled with toxins and our bodies are not functioning with precision and clarity, then we are more likely to, miss judge space and time, for which our human physical bodies are the perfect mechanism. If we as a collective allow globally, practices that pollute the machine of life as the physical world, and we then blame the objects as the physical human bodies sluggish in the perception because of accepted and allowed accumulative effects of practice that do not follow through and balance out nature, we are not addressing what would bring a change that would end so many of the accidents that happen along our highways.

Having said this, I realize that allowing myself to become a singular thought, as a judgement, about highway memorials serves no purpose towards solution.

Also, I realize that there is a social fear about this within me. I noticed that I am irritated because if I speak up about this, I will be reprimanded, and as such, not get the positive energetic experience of “ feel good” emotions that purpose some kind of meaningful value as myself being a compassionate human being. In fact, the reaction will be that I have no compassion, as what I fear. It feels like I am standing against a wall of limitation. Of course, the death of a child is unacceptable, and I wish this upon no one. But, I notice within me a inferiority to reality, a fear that I am somehow less because I will be considered “ bad” if I do not accept joining into the social group making this one event a means of showing care. Somehow, there is something “ wrong” with me because I become disgusted with the emotional outflows that do not address consequences, and then I go into righteousness to protect my point. And then I get stuck in this. And then, the self validation, which is no different than the use of care outpouring that proposes no real intimacy with cause and effect in total on a finite physical world. It is like saying, no one understands. Which is true, understanding is in a box only, and must realize the total “ box” of earth to begin to find solutions. But myself accepting and allowing an energetic self pity patter needs to be let go, forgiven, and a common sense standing in what practices would balance out a capable sense of self direction in physical reality is all I can model and become, one step at a time, here.

Am I within all this, fearing to stand in common sense of a physical world that is a very practical mechanism that is a gift of life, here? Have I allowed the same fear that is a belief that being practical and as such intimate physically not achievable? And do I realize that this fear is simply a movement from a point of separation back into the whole as understanding the physical in practice? Why is it that deconstructing a belief appears disquieting, when that deconstruction is the way and the means of a quiet understanding, this which is what is sought? Even here, it is to not create an idea about this, because ultimately, it is equal understanding of the practice of being a manifestation of life as physical formation that is the solution. If the machine is not realeyesd for what it is, and values made huge to wallow in are in the forefront, the solution of the practice of being life as physical form, is not being understood. To ignore practical reality is to deny life, to avoid looking at total consequence is to defy understanding, the gift that is right here in front of us, or we would not exist. And, if we look around at this world, we can see that denial of a common sense of physical reality leads to the practice of destruction. All we need do is realize the military budget of America to see the extent of our own self denial of the gift of the physical as the formation of life.

The physical world must be taken care of in ways that do no harm. Our profit based system seeks profit before life, and then turns what does not make a profit into more profit making structures, where all liability at present is placed on the collective to pay for with their labor, that which created the wealth in the first place. So, we in essence are addressing our own practices having accepted profit before life. The collective bears what the collective has allowed. The elite that benefit are doing the same as the individuals in the collective, they are basking in a belief of what appears to make them a “ more than” and in effect being consumed by their own separation from common sense of a physical information of life as what life would be, a gift able to be understood, right here in front of us, we need only look.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to become the emotion of sadness at the death of a child, only.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to believe that becoming the emotion of sadness is something that defines me, something that gives me value only.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand that being sadness as a state of being only, does not in fact take into account the consequences of why what exists in this earth is an outflow of the focus of myself.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to allow myself to become the emotion of quilt as though there was something I could have done to have changed the consequence I am allowing to exist as sadness within and as me, not seeing realizing and understanding that this sadness only is myself in separation from being focused, equal and one here, in practical reality.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to believe there is something wrong with me if I do not remain within the self pity of sadness, believing this to mean that I actually do care about the world, where this state of being of sadness and the use of this to give myself meaning within and as signifying that I care about this world is an abdication of myself as life, essentially the use of sadness to feel good about myself in and as believing that I care, so the need to make oneself believe that one cares about this world, is in itself an indication that one is very aware that one is not in fact caring about this world, that one is not in fact looking at the effects of one act on the other side of the globe as having an effect on the very fabric of the physical as life here where one lives, and as such a situation that is indeed sad and unacceptable, is used to make one appear to care, when in fact one acts in self interest in protection and self defense of not really being aware of self and one’s acts in the physical world lacking consideration of consequences of one’s actions within the whole.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to fear pointing out how the whole of what is accepted on earth effects every other point on earth, because this would mean that that emotional/feeling state of being used to justify care would be revealed as an act of self validation, which is self actually being aware that the consequences of self interest are not in fact caring about one’s neighbors as all of earth.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to believe that there is something wrong with me if I do not toe the energy party line of energetic emotional/feeling self validating self interest that justifies being a good caring person when in common sense no one would want such events that triggered the sadness to happen to another and as this what is really resisted is the pointing out of the emotional/feeling state of being in self validation of caring, and within this to stop and to look, as one investigates the forms of what exists on earth that are not supportive of life, as meeting the physical needs of a physical formation of life that is practical and mechanistic, and as such, this earth, when not cared for in total, cannot reach its full potential and as such lacks the ability to measure and balance itself with ease, itself, as life within the physical as what is the formation of life here.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not see, realize and understand that becoming aware of what is happening on earth is a process, and one that unfolds as one begins to look and realize the practicality of caring for a physical world in common sense, and that the consequences that lead to sad outcomes are self being unequal in awareness to physical reality.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not see, realize and understand that becoming equal and one in understanding of equal and one living on a physical world means respecting all physical formation.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand that respecting life means being equal and one in thought, word and deed of physical reality, which means remaining stable within and as oneself and looking at the very fabric of the physical world and to take care that the directive of self is that that gives as one would like to receive which means causing no harm and giving solutions that increase a volume of support that enables self directive capacity and self responsibility which is each person in full awareness, equality, and as such full potential here, where no rushing need exist, no  sadness, no miss measure of space time, and as this, an existence of ease of communication with one’s neighbor as a gift of being creators equal and one with the formation of life as the physical is naturally the expression of and as life, here.