We are the manufacturers of our own separation from life. Where does our health insurance money go? Day 718

Sometimes an article comes up that I find so astounding, I can hardly believe I have accepted this, or rather, not researched it and looked at the numbers. Numbers do not lie.

This article about the payouts from insurance companies for the number of vaccines a doctor gives to children is unacceptable. Yet, it begs the question as to why we are allowing this overall. This means that we support incentives for vaccination with our insurance programs. This means that the companies producing the vaccines are not even paying the doctors, or rather, motivating the doctors to vaccinate children without investigation. We are allowing this when we do not investigate the monetary structures. We allow this when we do not follow the money- a statement that is ubiquitous. So many have said that one must follow the money. One must read, one must use a natural capacity to do the math, and investigate to realize that it is the web of all of us that maintains the present system. 

The idea of a superman is the opposite of what is real, as it is the web of men that build and allow negligent resource extraction, a mis-use of resources that effect all the life that is here on this earth. Again, it is the numbers of men, that build what exists or, as in the case of this article, hold in place, based on ideas and beliefs and opinions that have no real follow through into the forms and mechanisms of money flow. That money flow is your labor moving into allowing others to make decisions for you. It is the consequence of a lack of investigation, it is  a lack of the self sensing practical reality, what is right here, visible, known and written out in an article.

With a doctor potentially getting 80,000$ for fulfilling a quota of vaccination, paid for with your labor via insurance policies,  would that doctor really want to investigate anything about vaccines? Would you want to give up 80,000$ a year? Would you want to give up the comforts that kind of money would allow? Would you become irritable if someone threatened to take that from you? Would you turn a blind eye to patterns around you?  Just look at the math, a vaccine in itself does not cost 400$. Yet, you are paying this incentive to not look, to not investigate through your insurance policies.  This whole form, as this action, also begs the question as to why such incentives must be used, to buy obedience!

We are programmed to live a false story, a false and limited set body of information. This is why we are held in a school that only teaches through abstraction of information. This is the means for that limited inform of information. It denies one’s natural ability to sense qualities in space and time. This is so visible all around us in our loss of spatial ability. We have, for eons, believed that what we create with our imagination is greater than what is around us. It is as simple as that. The solution is to realize the mis-use of our imaginations and become living words, words that respect this world around us. We can use words to investigate this travesty of life, as this present system, and remove the veil of our separation into this busy work composed of limited values, made huge, and step into what has always been here, right in front of us, this manifestation of creation, a symbiotic and functional creation that reveals itself with the potential of a balance that can flow with ease and grace. This is the real nature of life, and it is always here.

An exanple is using our tongues. We can taste bitter, we can taste sour, we can taste something savory, or tart. These flavors reveal qualities. Something that is sour is usually more acidic. We can then investigate what acids do and how they work. The information is here, as we are in the age of information.  if we place a piece of copper in water and let it sit, we can then drink the water and realize a slight taste of copper. We can rub a piece of garlic on the soles of out feet and sense a taste of garlic on our tongues.  This is natural, and yet it has somehow become novel! How did that happen? Obviously, it happened because we allowed something else to overshadow these innate sensibilities. 

As yourself why the media is so ubiquitous? Ask yourself why there are systemic forms that pay doctors incentives to not LOOK HERE? Your capacity to live is go great, that to deny that capacity a film of information that is not the real story must be constantly imposed, and with systemic layers that are not fully disclosed yet must exist somewhere because it can then be construed that we accepted it. In effect, we did, because we dod not investigate. 

Life, by nature, is forgiving, it need only be accepted. This is one’s self. Either that self continues within a false use of the imagination or makes the choice to stand with steadfastness to redefine one’s presence back into all things, which includes the physical world.  How does one cause chaos? Through creating a belief in another world, with a god, to separate one from the real ‘ god’ which is this creation, this physical reality, this means to understand life, to sense it, to taste the nature of it and how it works in balance, in ways that do no harm and consider all things, taking that which is good. 

If these incentives for vaccinating children were removed, ( and our health insurance payments lowered- thereby freeing up our individual economies to have a greater ability to choose!) what would happen with the whole vaccine debate? Would greater numbers of doctors stand in understanding what is happening or not happening? Do we have the courage to ask doctors about these payments? Do we have the courage to face the storm of what is emotional resistance, that we all know very well, which is a persona of irritation and anger and name calling and blame? Can we realize in a moment, were we to ask questions directly in a doctor’s office that reactive behaviors towards such questions are a form of protection and defense in self interest? Can we stand without reaction ourselves and realize that what we face is a construct of misinformation cluttered with a limited set body of information causing a dissonance from practical reality? Can we step beyond our fears of being defined as being ‘ difficult’ and remain with making a statement that we need to investigate what is offered by this system without taking threats and name calling personally? It really only takes one time to not give in, after that it gets easier. We can do this, we can stand. Together. This is the real power, the web of men making the choice to relate words to real life, this life around us, and no longer accepting a limited story that has an outcome of separating us from life, from reality - so visible in a loss of a natural spatial ability, and an ability to taste the sweet and the sour, the bitter and the savory. Why not forgive the chaos of limitation and become what is natural?

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Day 84 More gloom as Fear of Loss

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not see, realize and understand that an emotion of doom and gloom is my self in self judgement, in fear, being insecure, allowing an idea of myself as being inferior to another, as allowing myself to believe that something is lost, where I will become a character of not standing up to what is unacceptable, as I no longer look at what i am accepting and allowing because i exist in fear of loss and am no longer present in the realization that I am one and equal to all that is here as this physical world.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see the alter ego character of myself as what i allow to exist as myself, as the words that come up in and as my mind of “ fuck it, I don’t care” as the character of giving up and not facing what is unacceptable as what is here.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not realize that I am here as breath and within this existence in and as myself of opposing characters, my devil and my angel, at war with one another, I am lost in a game of judgement and not physically moving myself here within common sense, as I am one and equal to all that is here.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to allow a feeling of belief that I can lose something, which is the presence of this feeling of doom and gloom, which I allow to be the expression of myself here, a singular non seeing “I” in and as ego, that is in separation from what is physically right here, that which can only be one and equal to in and as common sense, here.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to want to run away from my own common sense of this physical world, for fear that I will be rejected when in fact what this running away is, is myself being rejection as I do not stand up in common sense, it is I, as myself allowing myself to reject my own common sense, this rejection ever present as that which I resist persists.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to fear standing in common sense, realizing that should another walk from me as I stand in common sense, the all I am losing is a manifestation of a character in absence of common sense.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to attach/separate myself into and as an idea of more than and less than, thereby losing all that I can really lose which is my own common sense.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand that all there is is myself here as breath, and anything that does not support this breath,as myself as life, is criminal, and want, need and desire that does not support/ or takes from being breath is criminal.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see realize and understand that in being emotions and feelings and thoughts, I am walking in the valley of the shadow of death.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not realize that in allowing a system of profit/survival I become the character in and as my physical self as walking through a valley of smoke and mirrors, as what causes death, one and the same with the system accepted and allowed on this earth, manifest as the rape of this earth for resource to support the few while most of this “valley” of life as earth is clouded with physical suffering which I accept and allow unless I use every moment of my being to clean this up and organize this world, through implementing an Equal Money System to support all life, and thus become what clears the shadows and the being of myself as walking through the valley of the shadow of death as good and evil, as the devil and the angel on my shoulder, and allow oneness and equality as myself with and as the physical, the substance that is life, the physical.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not see, realize and understand that my own shadow of gloom and doom, is just this, a shadow in and as a belief of myself fearing loss, within a belief that is a separation, into and as more than and less than, and thus a judgement and not myself here in common sense of what is real, this physical world.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see ,realize and understand that the color of my hair, that the length of my legs, that the shape of my face, that the manner in which I move or speak is more than or less than any other person on this earth.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not see, realize and understand, that an education allows more ability in self expression and thus anyone who lacks a supposed “education” is being deprived of self development of life, where the question should be about why life is not being developed instead of judgement about “how” educated another is, where the joy of self expression being withheld for anyone, anything on this earth is unacceptable, and within this that any judgement of another is spite and blame and ignorance if what is here, and any action that does not change this system to a system that supports all development of self expression in each and everything on this planet is a criminal thought, even the belief and idea that it cannot be done, as the physical world is here already supporting us, thus who are we to decide something cannot be done unless it is an imposed limited belief.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not see realize and understand that the “blueprint” as the present system is the creation of the valley of the shadow of death.

I commit myself to, when and as I have a sense of doom and gloom, to stop and to breath and to bring myself back to myself in and as the physical, to realize myself in common sense with what is actually physically here as life, where any and all actions, within or without, that are not in support of what is best for all is unacceptable.

I commit myself to realizing that spite and blame is finger pointing, whether it is towards myself in the form of inferiority or superiority or in judgement, as this is spite and blame, towards another, where I am not looking at the equality of all life as the substance of this physical world, where what does not allow expression and the development of expression is in fact a criminal act against life.

I commit myself to forgiving all energetic movements within and as myself that are the indicators of my separation from myself as life, as the expression of myself as life is a state of ease, where the movement of myself into any sense of loss , as anxiety and fear, as what superiority and inferiority is in fact, is my self in separation and fear of loss, as this is the valley of the shadows of the death of myself as life, where these shadows are what consumes my human physical body and that perhaps the loss I sense is myself aware of my accepted and allowed actions sucking the life out of my human physical body, and that the separation from my human physical body awareness is my accepted and allowed non development of common sense of my human physical body.

I commit myself to breath, to realizing every detail of separation I allow myself to exist as, through my emotions, thoughts and feelings, to bring myself back, out of the valley of the shadows of death, and into, one and equal to what it is that I am, here, which is life.

I commit myself to breathing, to walking in equal and one awareness in and as breath, to forgive my protection defense characters existent as a persona of protection  and defense in stagnant judgements as where I stop equal consideration of all life, as the substance of what is here, is life, in oneness in equality.

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