Day 539 The Me-sure as Mind Consciousness

Ego will never grasp the simplicity of self forgiveness. Bernard Poolman

Many times when I find myself solving a problem, the solution is there in a moment, it is of a common sense awareness, and it comes with ease. I respond with a sense of awe, wondering how and why I did not see something so simple in the first place. This happens a lot within the Desteni I Process.

This happens so often, that when I am not humble and at ease, moving here in this way, I have once again allowed myself to become the chaos of the mind. I am moving within a very very limited awareness, as I allow myself to follow a very limited construct that has become a concrete abstract of reality. It even uses the very substance of reality, as the physical to exist.

This happened yesterday. I had a fear, and idea, a theory about something I had to do. I began to “ think” about it, but not in relation to a practical common sense. Finally, I decided that I could only walk reality once I was within the situation I had allowed ideas built from uncertainty, as fear, to begin to infiltrate my being, here.

Interesting, that as I write this out, I am suddenly heavy with tiredness, just as what happened yesterday when I got to this point of letting my picture show go, and realizing that I can only address the situation in reality. Also, to note, that I had the practice and the principle of what is best for all as my framework.

This tiredness does have a thought, here, it is “ I am tired of trying to explain..”  Behind this, is a memory of trying to explain in so many ways, forgetting within this that learning to explain something in very simple ways takes time. Also, that I have to explain from experience, meaning real live practical experiences that I realized I had moved in a way that was in separation from what is simple, which is what is best for all. Always, there was division and ideas of losing something within a limited measure, a limited paradigm, a PARA digm that i had accepted and allowed within and as me. The tick tock of the pendulum from weighing and measuring the good and the bad, the “ what if” based on a picture within a system that is the same separation from reality. This chaos,  through division into more of less,  used values to determine choice, when that moment of simplicity, is found standing outside of this chaos of division into good and bad. This means to realize the physical world as the real sound expression. This physical world’s sound expression when left to itself , without a human consciousness mind-made-bigger-than-reality-consciousness, will naturally organize itself, balance itself, so it is here, in the real world that I see and can become symbiotic with what is me, the same as me, here. And this is the inclusion of all that is here, accepting all life.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to have the thought “ I am tired of trying to explain.”

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to become my mind only, and to believe that there is only an either/or outcome of win or lose.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to compare within a measure of win or lose.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to, from this point, go into self judgement within a limited criteria of what is good and bad in relation to how I look, how I speak, my capacity based on my past of an innerstructure that I relate to as a late/past measure of what defines success according to a system of inequality where I slow down and I breath, and I stabilize into  what is the real value, which is myself participating, equal and one to the very sound of life here, which moves with the absolute purpose as a function information of what is best for all.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to be ashamed of myself for not considering all life as me, with each thought, word, and deed.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to fault myself, which is myself as a starting point in default of realizing that what is here as the physical is the means of my existence is the sound as the formation that moves in practical ways, on which I impose a limited construct as the very being of myself in a state of separation where I place value on limited aspects of multiple expressions of life, here.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to exist as an idea that I am not good enough, and as this to go into self pity, the pit of self as mind, operating within a limited measure manifest as a vapid , a vapor that is destruction instead of creation, a smoke and mirrors show, a valley of good and evil, that I allow as a mind consciousness system.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not see realize and understand that in fearing, inferring such insight as what existence is, as mind, I am in essence, not equal and one with and as myself as life, here.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand that if I fear facing the storm of separation in others, I am accepting and allowing a fear of loss of what is a construct of limited values of good and bad, as I have allowed to define me, which is myself not looking here, seeing the patterns of separation, and as such myself not existing within common sense, and as such, this physical movement within and as me, becomes a heavy physical sensation of an inequality with that simplicity and humility that moves with ease, here, and as such, finds solutions and the directive capacity that is equality and oneness with and as life here.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not see, realize and understand that this default state of being, as mind, has no directive function because it is clouded by a fear of making a mistake, which is in itself an abdication of equality and oneness with and as the physical, and myself projecting based on a past as the details that build the judgement that does not move with the sound information of the physical that is life, here, of which I as life an one and equal to and as.

When and as i find myself becoming tired, I stop and I breath, and i slow myself down, and I see realize and understand that I can only face separation from common sense, and realize the patterns of separation as the voice of separation, as a separation is always on the lookout for reunion with the loss and/or looking for the loss as a gain, and as such visible, and able to be called out by name and realigned into solution as self discovery within and as the principle of what is best for all, here.

When and as I find myself having the thought of “ I am tired of explaining” I stop and I breath and I slow myself down, and I see the that i am allowing the word “ explain” as an idea become bigger than actual common sense participation with and as life, as I can only have an explanation in the moment, here, thus the idea of explaining, I have accepted and allowed as an entity within and as me, that I am carrying as a burden, having allowed myself to become overwhelmed, which is myself in separation from common sense as that which can exist in simplicity, as equality and oneness here, where solutions are found that are stable and withstand the test of time here.

Within this, I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to have the thought that explaining something is tedious and as such a burden.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to become this ambiguous idea that explaining  is difficult.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to have a memory, as a measure of myself here, of which I have allowed to become an entity as a self definition as a belief, that becomes a burden as this state of being I allow within,  as what directs me in the moment here, slowing down the common sense ability of myself that can only walk the details of practical living, step by step, here.

When and as I find myself believing that explaining is tedious and a burden, I stop and I breath, and I do not define myself as an idea as my past, and I realize that self correction takes practical alignment, here, in common sense of the physical reality, and that the solution is always right there in front of me, and can move with ease, thus it is only what I accept as mind that is the separation, here.

When and as I find myself fearing the reactions of mind, I stop and I breath and i slow myself down, and I see, realize and understand that reactions as mind, are a definition that is ambiguous, and that this when used to define must deconstruct to reconstruct, which is a process that at times will react to change, and as such that reactions are objections to change, of which the only solution is to walk through with humility and patience, here. as what is allways the only way and means of life, is life itself, the expression, the creation of which, is to exist within and as what is best for all.

When and as I find my self becoming heavy within and as my head area, I stop and I breath, and I slow myself down, until I am stable, and breathing with ease, I realize that the process of remediation, as the me-sure as mind, is in a process of change, and reformatting to walk in equal measure with practical physical reality, where I become the directive principle, equal and one to and as life here, and within this, that a speeding car, has to slow down and turn, when changing from a high speed and that that turn appears to be a loss, a nonmoving moment, but in essence this is a movement that is not a value, simply a movement, a transformation from separation into common sense as mind structure.

Day 353 The lesser self self commitment statements

I commit myself to seeing realizing and bringing back to myself the voices as ideas, opinions and beliefs of what I have accepted and allowed as energetic projections as a protection and self defense within a system of inequality as the construct of many men all participating within the same action as fearing to stand as self as life and to realize the ignorance as the beliefs, opinions and ideas I have used to justify the lesser self as me, in not acing myself here, to stop and to breath and to self forgive such separations to no longer allow this to give meaning to this idea that I aggrandize myself through and as when I manage to survive and gain acceptance, money, position, and/or burden myself with self judgement as believing myself to have lost something, to potentially end us living on the street or in my car, or without food, or on another level of this leveled scale in separation from life, believe myself to potentially have said or done something to cause the lowering of myself within and down on this social scale of being more than another or less than another, to no longer allow myself to move within such associations and relationships existent within and as me within and as a bubble that in itself - no matter in which degree I am developed- is in itself a total separation from life, thus as such I stop and I breath and I direct myself in thought word and deed within and as what is best for all, letting go of a fear of loss as one can walk in practical understanding of how this world functions and apply oneself to stand within and as what is here in common sense as what is best for all.
I commit myself to breath and to slow down and to align how I have separated myself into and as separation from life here, as this separation is heavy, is uncertain, is fear, is unstable , is illusive in that it needs as its nature in and as being in a belief in and as a state of energy as need, and as such seeks constant renewal and validation because it does not stand equal in and as life, here, thus the allowed presence of such cannot be resisted as what one resists persists as it is self accepted and allowed to be projected outward through division/separation from equality and oneness as what is constant which is life here, where there exists no need, want or desire, as what one is as life is what self is as thought word and deed, and as such in equal movement in and as life here, thus nothing can be lost.
I commit myself to slow myself down and breath when and as I experience within and as me any sense of righteousness , where I immediately move into judgement of blame and spite, projecting a sense of blame on a singular point in my exterior world to hide myself from facing my own fear and/or lack in having stood up as myself in totality in self honesty in self responsibility in and as life, here, because i was not taught, because I feared confrontation, because I feared leaving what was comfortable, because I did not know where to go, because I feared to look here because of all of the previous reasons, and to stop this, and to investigate here and how what is presently on earth works to see, realize and understand within myself and without as the manifested systemic design of the same action I was/am within, without, and to stop and to begin to walk what is best for all in detail within and as a practical applicative corrective action that manifests what is best for all as I see, realize and understand that something is not working until is works for all life on earth, absolutely.
I commit myself to breathing, to slowing myself down, to realizing thought words and deeds as belief, opinion and ideal, based on relationships inconsiderate of the whole, to stop and look to the whole as all of earth to realize practically what prevents abuse as the lack of opportunity in self development, physically and mentally has an outcome , as an undeveloped life in form with and as earth will find/seek whatever means available, to maintain itself as life, thus all behaviors of abuse on earth are the cause of a system that does not in fact support life, for which we are all responsible for we all accept and allow it, where turning a blind eye is no excuse, as we have accepted and allowed theaddictions of consumerism to occupy our existence instead of to be constant in consideration of self as life and as such of this home, earth, this that is the platform on which we exist as life.
I commit myself to realizing my projected lesser self is myself inferior, and thus in fear of life, in fear of myself as life, and here, to stop and to breath, to align myself with my physical body as breath, and to simply let the uncertainty as fear go, and in the process to see what beliefs, opinions and ideas, as ego, I have accepted and allowed and to align this within and as what is best for all, as principle, to support the principle being life, the value being life here, to no longer punish myself with my own constructed protective and divisive illusory self, the weight of which clouds my perceptive ability as myself as life and the being of which consumes myself as life as the physical, diminishing myself as life here as what I resist persists and compounds and enslaves until I stand equal and one in self responsibility to and as it bringing it back to myself and aligning this in common sense within and as the principle of what is best for all, as it is this action of blame and spite that is separation, and not the being of myself within and as what is best for all here, as I cannot control here - so to speak- I can only be the directive in and as life, which is to be in thought word and deed what is best for all as and within myself here, to and towards what I face here.

Day 140 Walking the Desteni I Process, the correction of self back to life

Cover of Feelings

Homeless (Photo credit: pedrosimoes7)

Praise Jesus (Photo credit: lewishamdreamer)

Jon In Pain (Photo credit: jamacdonald)

Five basic emotions (Photo credit: aaipodpics)

A chord in music is composed of tomes on a spectrum. One can learn to hear the individual notes, and recognize the chord, be it dissonant or assonant. We, the human are composed as well, we are collections of ideas, and beliefs, and opinions, and they create a “chord” as what we are that is our persona, our personification of what we have been exposed to. Our memories show us what we have beed exposed to, our reactions based on our past, the stimulus of our persona. Our family/parents,  education, society, religious beliefs all are a chord of what we are, as though our experiences build, or are the blocks, or notes of what we are. This is why we have archetypes, and/or characters we can recognize in the people that surround us, why we can place a label on a person, and place them within a certain class or group and/or profession. That we are able to do this suggests that the personas are actually built, composed based on… what i listed above. We can loop around in this, but standing back and slowing down and breathing, we can stand outside of this and see this persona as the signs we follow to move us around on this board here on earth, within a system that uses this, a system where money determines who lives and who dies. Within such a system such “sign posts” as personas are the rules (rulers) of the game of getting money, of survival, as we read them to manipulate them to survive, or some might say, to get what we want,. If we take this “get what we want” even further and do not just accept the face value of these words, as an end game, we will. as we stand back and breath, and slow ourselves down, see that the getting of what we want is what is needed to survive. Within this, the are variations of structures as personas, as chords, as compositions, that have a past, socially and within class as family, that believe their survival needs a degree of comforts, and anything less is a loss. Regardless, if this means that others have nothing, because all that is being “sounded”/personified as one’s composition, is all that exists, so busy being this personification and filling this embedded, impressed upon composition are we, the human, that we are no longer able to practically see this physical world.

So, I am going to look at asking questions here. Sometimes I will ask a question and I will get a happy feeling response, where the person will say something like, Oh, but they are doing a good job. And, the human has been trained to not go against a “happy face” energetic , meaning energy response, meaning e-motion-al, response. Now this is emotional because it is not looking at the question asked, it is side stepping this question and placing a happy face value on what exists, where if one- as in the social etiquette, should stand up and “kill” that happy face response, it will upset the human’s happy face presentation and that person that gave a “happy face” will feel rejected, as the “happy face” persona has been ignored, disqualified. Oh no! Terrible, so terrible! lol.  : )  

On the other pole, a question asked that, in effect, does not want to be answered as this might open a pandoras box - of practical consideration- can be met with bullying. Here, the answer is something like, “that is the way it is.” Both of these are endgames, simply avoidance tactics to not look at all the consequences, or recognize what is able to be done as the potential. Looking at these means changing what is here, and that persona will have to lose some of it’s criteria as what upholds it. The chord will have to  change, transpose, reconfigure, look at itself. This will involve some deconstruction, some depth perception, a reality check, looking at what is here in totality. 

But if one has followed one chord for so long, the grooves are so embedded, it is going to take some work to change this, to transpose this, to reconfigure this, to change this, to thus be able to answer the question instead of  becoming the bully or the happy face. Emotions are energetic movements, not actual physical doing within what would build a society of value, where the supposed exception to the rule becomes the norm, the exception being what has reached a level of potential beyond what the majority reach. 

Thus we know we build our personas, and we know that the exception shows us the potential, and we know that emotions and feelings, as bullying and happy face talk are avoidance tactics. And we know we have an economic system on this earth that is not supporting life as the norm.

As we age, our personas get so NOISY that we can no longer hear anything else. So, if someone comes and asks a question, the questioner will get this diluted, compounded, no longer seeing potential accepting a supposed “norm”  answer where the respondent will not even see anything else, and expect the questioner to see what they see! And within this, the respondent will become emotional should the questioner not MATCH their composition.

This is really fucked up, yet this is what the human is.

Imagine children facing this? Imagine children standing up to this? Children who have no “chord” ringing in their ears, and no developed vocabulary with which to express themselves to face the  separations as the personifications the adult has accepted in loss of depth perception, in loss of hearing, here-ing, practical common sense, as they have accepted enslavement supposed “norms.”

Not to mention, the adult speaking in assumptions the child cannot fathom, the happy faces and the bullying, as what is no longer able to perceive and who has not developed potential, thus has not become what is able to sense and perceive this world as all that is seen is a simplified image as persona where the construction of which is no longer fathomed, meaning no longer remembered as the notes that composed the image, as the notes are so distant that the pixels, as the parts, are no longer seen.

This separation must stop, as this separation has created this world of abuse, as within so without. Thus it is the responsibility of the human to stop and breath and see self as what self has allowed and accepted, to clean this up and realize the composition as self, and what is on this earth, is of our own creation. We are the creators, we have created this. This means our potential is great - so to speak, yet we are not living this. It also means, as the composers that we are, that we can compose a world that is best for all, and allows full potential to be the norm. 

Right now, we, the human, are existing in reverse, we have impressed the supposed “norm” with the exception being an exception, where it is the opposite, the exception is the norm as life, one and equal, the exception is more in alignment with life being in expression, lacking abuse.

Thus this world has no justification for starvation, for sexual abuse, for animal or plant abuse, for homelessness, for ill health. All of it is of each and every one os us and what we have accepted and allowed. There are no excuses, and realize that any voice that comes up in opposition to this, is self lacking the use of self as life, of the ability of self as life to perceive life as the value.

Thus, the way out is to walk the process of slowing self down with breath, self forgiveness, and corrective application, as practical tools to realize the separation into and as what has no substance, that which manifest as energy as emotion, as this energy is self dissipated into no longer looking at consequences, no longer considering all life and only hearing/here-ing one singular desire - as what the advertising world promotes, thus this world is without, what we have become within.

Take the desteni I process walk, pick up the tools, realize self, lose everything to gain everything, live the principle, as what we know as it has been given and spoken many times,  to give as you would like to receive,  to become self as what is the actual norm, the potential of man to be and become creators of life. 

It is time to stop the mind, through breathing, through self forgiveness, through self corrective application, The desteni I process is simple, walk it, one step at a time, to reveal to unfold the personification of self fitting into what is same within and without, to enable self to hear life, to begin the process of taking what is here, that is not good or bad, and realigning it to support life, to allow life, within full potential becoming the norm, to exist.

Desteni I Process

Self forgiveness Blogs walking the 7 year Journey to Life, a drop in the bucket in time, which will take time.
Eqafe the history and stories of how we became what we are, to understand, see and realize ourselves as life. And yes, presently this existence takes money to survive, and what is asked is actually not that much. One cannot live in this system as it presently exists without money, so suggesting that this should be free, is being what I talked about above.
An Equal Money System to take what is here, that is not good and bad, as the structures are here to allow equality, and realigning it to support life, to birth the full potential of man, as the norm, to create heaven on earth.