DAY 855 Working on opening the chest of potential as movement within living words.

Here again today I am aware of this “ thickness” in my chest area. This week, in moments of calm, I noticed how distracting thinking is and does? How the movement of the body is more able to respond within realizing solutions - especially within uncovering and connecting within more universal truths, or early acknowledged problems. One is more vulnerable in such a state and sees beyond politically projected belief systems. 

I realize in some respects that finding a point of vulnerability is in itself a greater willingness to face and resolve problems. I can see where going into or forming things in such a way that another is in a more vulnerable state of something I greatly feared - as though such a thing is a taboo. Yet, it is where one is softer, more pliable and therefore more able to LOOK. Allowing vulnerability is opening up changeability- that state of focus the very means of change. I find myself wanting to “ hold” this yet that is the same that leads to a loss of that of which I am speaking. 

It also almost feels like waking up to allow real feeling, and that such that appears to be a place to not go to, is the very same means to open up and remember joy, to re-member PLAY. This also feels unbelievable, or something suppressed. It reminds me of realizing that fear is an illusion. Like there was something there all along that was really a nothing - leaving a sort of neutral shock in its place. It is to  say that chaos blinded simplicity.  Is this a self catching a running train of protections that once realized have no substance? Is this why this appears to be something of such slight difference? In contrast it reveals projections that imbalance the body being the thin-king that they exist within and as? 

There is also a sense that I remember having while walking down a Zurich street back in 1998-1999 of and as “ everything is going to be okay.”  It is to say that discovery is gentle and is absent of an excitatory bling. It is to say a power-vortex has no real power. Somehow, the difference is not YET as clear as it might be but this may be the contrast of having lived in separation.  It is like coming home is great because it has no fanfare. One is simply in grace and that is the real power. Letting go and letting be without apprehension. 

I also sense that I am in a space where a conditioned bounce back wants to happen. There is this constant drive into tension within my chest area. I have been here before. It must be named more clearly, the directions moved as, expressed as able to face the unknown and as the same time have no worry in doing so, or laughing at falling down, much like a child learning to walk. Habits are programming, and programming was practiced and built/accepted/allowed. It is running on automatic - much like our present administrative and government systems. Perhaps those working on change do not realize the extent to which programming is blind to itself. Asking that to stand up and self realize, especially when money determines life is like talking to a huge resonant wall. One must stand equal to it. And one must stand with authority, which has a manner that is sound and stable. It can be heard through the storm - which means it must be said more than three times and consistently, like the 21 day rule for changing a habit.  lol, were school units usually of a duration of three weeks? The system uses the known to program limited and compartmentalized thin-king.  It creates a state of selective reasoning. It becomes a “ state of being.” We do have many talking about the deep state, or statism. How about becoming earthism? which is heartism? They are the same letters. Divide and conquer is done through an ever-so-slight pulling of information threads. It is why the “ veil” is considered to be thin. lol

And this is what it feels like in the body, in my chest, like there are threads pulling my shoulders forward slightly causing a form of a concave chest area. There’s also some pressure around my head, like a cap - lol a caption. Like I said the difference is slight and composed of symbols.  As some have said, we will know them by their symbols. I remember while being in a classroom and this one student staring into space was looking at a screen of subtle neon-like lights. I shut down and walked away. I had no idea how to deal with this at that time- the point here was that it was a bunch of symbols and figures moving around on a projected screen. I mean, what does it mean to sense real movement? Or to model real movement? That question came up so I wrote it out! 

What does it mean to walk with authority, the kind that opens doors without a need for recognition? This makes me want to cry, as a sense of having lost a joy. Like, if I walk in joy, I will be shut down, as it is not allowed.  The sense of wanting to cry being more a loss of this than  and an apology for having given up in some way, or an apology to myself …., and my husband. Deep down it is more that I must forgive myself- that it is okay, that everything is going to be alright. I can walk in joy, I can stop the bounce back into protection or rather “ not upsetting the status quo of separation.” It means to let be and to let go and to recognize running from and running to as being separate from a natural capacity to be present and process what is here. it is okay to be grounded, it is okay to be in recognition of potential and that which is separate from potential.  It is okay to NOT participate in the illusion of bling. It is okay to upset webs without causing harm. Reactions are okay, like the famous “ forgive them for they know not what they do,” or “ care but not that much.” It is okay to LOOK. It is okay to stand using natural senses, as this is necessary to sense the outlines of separate divisions that are of limitation. It is okay to be present and sense this living space.

It is like standing up and falling down, standing up and falling down, standing up and falling down again and again and again, and feeling so tired within doing this. Also, a bit like there is no other place to go but to stand up and fall down as long as it takes. That in itself becomes a belief, limiting focus of the greater whole. This is creating this warm falling sensation in my chest, a warmth of and as it is okay, embrace this and stop seeing ONLY this habit of and as a belief in standing up and falling down, again and again. It is NOT overwhelming to realize this and sense beyond it. In contrast, there is a constant that has a nurturing quality to it, and that is greater than the excitatory sense of having won something. It is like a deep nurturing characteristic of the feminine is absent, that same movement that can simply say sit and the dog will sit.   There is “ here.”  Nothing can define this unless by allowance, here is constant. 

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to feel tired in relation to expressing myself in relation to what exists around me.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to believe that things are impossible, which in itself is a distraction within and as focusing here, in the practical in the physical reality that is life in expression.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to believe that being is a series of standing up and falling down ONLY.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to live this movement that is in reality a form of self pity, and for this I forgive myself.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to believe that living in joy, within and as processing the information around me, as that which is limited and of separation from life and that which is here in plain sight as the practical living reality that is physical is not allowed - lol, “ allowed” sound like “ hollowed.” 

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to feel

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to believe that death is actually possible, as things are forms and functions, expressions and movements, and though yes, this physical form that  is me, changes, what is real as life, remains, as that is potential of and as creation.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to think

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to separate myself onto thinking only.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to participate within and as what is a false power vortex, as a state of separation from the living reality into and as a limited set body of symbols/ideologies/resonant constructs/imaginations/fantasies/addictions/beliefs etc.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to feel here, to remember here, to respect all things as the physical reality, as this earth, and all that composes this physical living reality called earth

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand the depth to which resources of the earth are mis-used to feed an ideological resonant storm of selective reasoning, serving a few, without regard for life, here.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see realize and understand the extent to which the present system and the technology manifesting that system are a reflection of what humans have accepted and allowed within and as them, here, where the present economic system abuses freely given resources to feed a very limited storied construction lacking recognition of consequences and as such allows an outflow of great instability, causing the friction of polarization manifest as a projection separate from practical living physical reality, here that is lacking in substance and of which consumes the flesh.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to fear speaking up with specificity about how a Mind Consciousness System is a mind in division of and as resonant constructions layered into the conscious, subconscious, unconscious, quantum mind, quantum physical mind and the physical mind and the beingness programming, which makes sense because what we allow to express us would layer, as we suppress that which is out of sync with this living physical reality, causing blindness as suppression of real sentience, of real seeing here.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to stop suppressing real seeing, within and as recognizing my own behaviors of and as a scattered selective reasoning of limited values, that create energy instead of real livings s being focused and in respect of all things here. 

When and as I find myself becoming tense, becoming tension, of which I slow down and cross reference, with every breath, to read what is here, as the words, to stabilize the words, and model recognition of life, within and as behaviors of grounding myself here, manifest as defining the space, and realizing what balances and lends a self direction of discovery of what has been suppressed through scattered selective reasoning that is heaviness causing and polarizing gaslighting the space here, all an illusion and what may be directed into recognition to then discover a natural ability to be present and to lead to birthing life into the physical, here.

When and as I find myself becoming tense, within and a s my body and my breathing I stop and I slow down, and I assess my own patterns of selective reasoning as value judgements causing a selective reasoning and focus, and I stop as I embrace my own acceptances and allowances and practice redirecting my focus as I call out by name my own characters, and then to assess what is around me, to bring forward actions that balance out inflammatory behavior running on empty, to ground and stabilize in a moment to then calm the immediate space to them realize potential which often is small, as our potential lacks specificity and structure to express itself and be of giving in an expression of and absolute purpose, to stand one and equal to creation here, to build a life on earth that lives the nature of life of and as absolute purpose which by nature, as I see it in this moment, of and as eternal nurturing where a moment of falling down is fun because it means one is closer to understanding how to move as life here. 

When and as I find myself moving into a persona, one that is deep, from that past, of and as “ I am so tired of standing up and falling down,” I stop and I breath, and I realize this belief as a persona, and I stop and I feel my feet on the ground and I look at how I am handling myself here, and how I am focusing my body, from habit, and I breath and I assess and move towards balance, within and as what lends self discovery and that which opens dwors/as movements as words, that bring awareness of all things here as best I can as though all things are me in another life. 

Day 840 Our #words determine our #focus.

One of the things I notice more this week is the words used. It is something we all know. How often to we cross reference and really check in on how we are using our words, what the words are, the tension of ease or FOCUS as form of the words we speak - each and every little part and movement. Does not a painter practice the lines and measure and color, and shape and movement of a line of paint? And, master that to the point a “ master piece “ is created? Does not a musician practice every subtle movement to the smallest degree to the extent it is in that mastery of that tiniest of movements that suddenly a whole world of possibility in creating a sound opens up? The thing about SOUND, as the words we speak, it is like a physical thing, a musical thing and a visual thing! And the forming of ourselves will be determined by the sounds we make, the silent ones inside us and the ones we allow to focus us, and the ones we speak - as a response to all of this. 

If you are having to THINK about what word to use, because you cannot yet SPELL the words, and have a security in and with the words - because you have never really practiced your words - how are you going to be able to use CARE with your words? Are your words running away with you, in some form of AUTOMATION? We tend to automate what we practice. Thus, if we practiced without real specificity and focus, we become that lack of specificity and focus. Scary but also a great means to an amazing end? Like how we work is specific because it lets us know we are amazing and can master things! Deeply KNOW that, find it, and change your practices. 

We need only look at the media to see how specific what we practice is and does. It is a system of half truths and a lot of drama. We can get so caught up on that, we cannot see the means to the end. It is like we are riding a tide and it has control when we are the essence of that tide, and as such, can determine the tide. When we  realize we are the tide, we rejoice in all the other water molecules that are there with us, expressing creation as a movement of life. It would not appear so if one were caught in the tide. It would appear to be something that is impossible, because that is the nature of being caught in the tide and being in a contrast of loss as forgetting that one is the tide itself. Scattered thinking and a fractionalized focus would cause that perspective. And yet, what is enabling that experience but the physical body one is within, that body that when no longer functioning, removes the ability to be tossed about by the tide. Would being that which moves the tide, as expresses and forms real movement be something that is more eternal ? 

I was chatting with someone this week and within a pause they turned and talked to another person in their space. The immediate response towards that other person was a frame of “ don’t do that.”  That  is an accusative statement, and an end-game statement. It simply shuts things down and leads to a moment of confusion because it is a subtle shock- in a way.  It simply stops things and then one is left hanging. We supposed, or assume so much. Perhaps the person did not know what they were doing, or about to do, and someone caught it. Something like “ watch out” might be better, and less shocking, if it had to be said quickly. “ Watch out” lends itself to “ look here”, or “ watch out for that.” This lends itself to follow through, to a movement that lends a continued generation of expression. The “ don’t do this or that” is a form that suddenly stops things, without any further focus. One is left standing in “ stop.” Of course there are moments when one would use simply “ stop” and then clarify. There are moments when a strong stop is necessary. I would imagine they are not too often. 

I have studied with someone who had mastered something. One of the things I learned and experienced, was when they said something of few words, and they were so clear a whole world opened up.  I want to say that I as the listener had also done my own work. It is that self generation to the extent there is self momentum when meeting someone who has mastered something that one is working on mastering, that master has a really clear intent, or inner “ knowing” from experience. It is like the key of me, and the key of them, meet. 

The same thing happens with emotional/feeling bodies, or value judgement self definitions that are protections from real mastery of self, or that which limits self responsibility in becoming a master with clear intent.  In the reverse, we play memory match, we seek those who have the same self sabotage system of holding onto emotional experiences that have not been cleared, which we master and comes to direct us, so we seek another human who has that same signature - we are riding a wave of ideas and opinions and beliefs, we are absent from being present and being the wave itself. This can be heard in the very sounds made and the words chosen. It is like playing at half mast. The quality of the sound is diminished, it has a muffled sound to it. And it is subtle. Perhaps not too subtle. It is just that it has become so normalized that the difference is ignored. It is like we are fish acclimated to polluted water and we believe that is how it is because that is all we have ever known. Imagine that fish when it suddenly meets clear, pristine and pure water? it will wonder how it ever believed the other could ever have existed. 

It is the same within realizing that poverty and starvation should not exist. In tandem with realizing how one is as the words one speaks, as one’s VOCAbulary, should one really begin to work on every sound coming from their body - even the ones that are silent within, or cannot be heard by others as we assume - should one begin to rebuild them and really know them the difference is similar to the experience of that polluted water and that pure water. One will begin to wonder how one ever could have assumed that dirty water was normal. 

Is it possible to realize that the media news flow today is very polluted? Imagine what a “ clean” media would be and do, the potential for such as that to support what is best? What if we heard the living natural world more, that which is around us? 

The quality of “ hey, look at this and look at that” with a smile is very very different than a “ don’t do that!” or a “ don’t do this!” with no explanation of correction, or a correction filled with contempt and frustration and impatience. The difference would create two very different people, or adults in this reality. Most of those with success have more of the first and less of the second. This is known in the research into language development. Neurons that fire together wire together.  Forming these responses and expressions with the body will determine the very slant of your eye, or the pressure in your back, or the pain in your legs. One fits into creation and the other does not.  We have simply suppressed looking and mastered that ignoring of how this all works. It is, overall, a crime against life to ignore life. It is an abdication of self as life.  What do we think this would do to our health? 

The irony is that it is so much more fun to be able to be the creator, to be in clear waters, to lend direction because in so doing we are in discovery mode, we are in awe, we are in connection. The difference is being in a murky shadow and being in clear air. One breeds more fear and apprehension and the other breeds more clarity and presence. 

I realize the moment I go into confusion, I am no longer clear. A lot of my confusion causes me to become more apprehensive and then I make things up to hide the difference. Then I tend to avoid some to seek out those with whom I do not feel the threat of looking at the confusion I have not YET resolved, and that has become a program from repeated practice. As has been said, it takes more time to correct something than to have done it correctly from the start. I had to learn this from playing the violin, because in this world, at least with something like that, it becomes obvious very quickly because the demand to self generate in the medium does not allow one to hide. If one does not play, one cannot move forward. The medium does not allow a pause in time. It simply must be done. If one does not do it, others in the medium are left standing. And, one can very easily be replaced. 

The difference within using words happened this week. I talked with someone that had a nice resume. When I met with them, their English was not very good. They knew this too and did explain the difference. What I noticed, is my own entrenched “ politeness.” I was “ thinking “ this when the person explained that difference. They had studied English in a school in a foreign country and could write it, but speaking it was another thing. It is like our public schooling system; we memorize set bodies of information absent of application. When we then go out into the world we feel at a loss, we feel like we do not know something. We realize we have a very rudimentary understanding that lacks application so we do not really know how to self direct. That is a form and a function meant to dumb us down because at present we have a resource acquisition game going on - one that is a false paradigm. The physical cannot be owned, it is something that we use a principle with. That principle is a fundamental nature of life. It is to take the good and give as one would receive and do no harm. 

When we use our words in ways that are end games and of accusative intensity, we shut down real doing and discovery. When we use words such as “ hey, look at this,” or “ lets see what happens when we do this,” we maintain a flow of discovery with constructive direction. That practices real movement and self direction in relation to how this physical reality works and moves. The other leads to a state of confusion and interruption of real movement. If we are in an environment, in our developmental years, where we are only allowed to remain in a set body of “ spells” that are but shadows of things, we become that, and spend the rest of our lives attempting to remove that “ spell.” All the while, those who desire to play a false god, grab the resources of the physical - something that cannot ever be owned so this paradigm overall is a false and destructive one. Yet, what is created as a system is created by each of us, and it is recognizable in the very sounds coming from within our bodies. Thus, by default, we are the creators of the present system within and as how we focus our bodies and generate the very sounds we make as the words we speak. 

We begin to clean up that, and like that fish that knew ONLY polluted and muddy water, we, when that water is clear and pure, will wonder why we ever believed that spell around us was believed to be something real. 

I would, for the life that is you, begin to forgive your accepted and allowed and self generated actions, through self forgiveness and self correction in writing. And, at the same time, practice your words, rebuild them to purify your own waters and come back down to earth. This is the means to becoming a master of self to realize and enjoy the smallest of movements because in knowing the smallest of things we are more able to respect the ordinary and live the extraordinary. 

When things are said with clarity, we tend to listen, because somewhere there is a part of us that “ knows.” We “ know” the difference between clear water and muddied water. We are attracted to clarity because it opens that self discovery which requires real seeing. We also must understand how we muddied the waters within and without, to ensure that we never ever get caught in the same problem. And like all problems, there are always solutions. 

Fear clashing with assumption A perfect storm Day 811

Fear clashing with assumption, a perfect storm.

What does the word assumption mean. If I immediately look at the word, I see the words a-ssump-tion. It has the sound “ a sum.” Thus, I liken this word to a sum of parts, or a sum of experiences or skills and/or beliefs. Fear on the other hand, is a lack of purity, or a state of insecurity, an inability to HOLD something and sort it out. It is like waking up in a foreign country where customs and language are very different from one’s own sum of experiences, or measure within, to find one’s self unable to communicate, to interact, to move as one’s habituated self, or unable to process what one is/was and interact with the new SUM of the world one suddenly finds one’s self within.  It is also similar to having to learn something under pressure where a fear of failure is ever present as a belief . Either scenario potentially leading to an unsettling or unnerving sensation that can also be likened to an imbalance much like vertigo. One can become lost in the storm of doing the sums of self and transferring that into the sums of the new environment or processing and integrating new forms. A feeling of vertigo can happen as one moves into deconstruction of a habit into the new. An entrenched self directive means can appear to be losing something as what one has defined one’s self as, into the new.  That space can appear to be a loss. The same can happen in learning a new piece of music. The smallest formations of notes appearing to be difficult to grasp. It is a loss of fluidity, telling of a degree of automation. 

When fear meets assumption, can the two effectively communicate? It would take time and patience for this to move into clarity. If one moves into resistance and reaction, it will take even longer. One can become pro=active in defending one’s self definition, habituated and entrenched.  If one moves from the problem into reaction and then attempts to address the reaction only instead of realizing the overall problem, a sorting out of the two is going to take even longer. One is in protection of a resonant template of experience and belief superseding the reality, the practical physical world surrounding one’s resonant self. A practice of resolving reactions as one’s self definition, without addressing the immediate root disquiet or imbalance, can also limit through and as a stagnant action, that habit automating, then change will demand a greater effort. 

The mirage of information is usually presented from one side, as our form of media, of sharing information comes from a panel on a screen, where we cannot answer, and where so-called authorities are placed in a central point, at a table, where they are asked questions, and as such, the frame of information is controlled to never leave a given narration. A catch 22, because those in a stage of discovery can cause conversations to ver off from the conversation but also ask important questions that can derail what is accepted as truth. Controls can help focus, yet controls can also reject relative and important information. It is another one of those instances where it can go both ways. One can focus on only one side, intensify and magnify one aspect to the point it becomes hypnotic, which is using one extreme to justify a mean. This is also a mis-use of the imagination, which is one’s mind template of experience or memorized templates about things in this reality without living practical application. 

Imagine being in a certain state and suddenly hearing a piece of music that takes one out of that state and places one into another. In some ways, when we have not mastered how all of this happens, we can become like a feather being tossed about by giant waves. We lose sight of the ground and spin around, having no awareness of where we are, and how to ground ourselves back into where we are. A great use of creating a veil to distract and use to be lost in self interest that is a state of denial and also to accumulate profit. And yet, that accumulation is really an illusion in itself, because ultimately it cannot work. The problems it creates ends up occupying the attention of the one creating the form, so both become that same feather being tossed in the waves. It becomes a reality divorced from reality, which is what has happened. Extinction rather than transformation is a testament to that. 

Outside of this, one must really know the code, as words, used by humans, to realize the code so well, one can see the manipulations, as a sum, and at the same time, what is here. In such a scenario, uncertainty would become of shorter duration in this reality, and a sense that one could sort things out would become bigger, as recognition of “ not having enough information” would be realized as a point of growth instead of something to cause embarrassment. Hence, transformation, or regrouping would be embraced as the joy of discovery. It is as though the music that exits as the dialogues of men at this point is so caught in a magnified state of uncertainty, as fear not realizing itself as that, and a set body of information believed to be more real than reality. Here limited made-to-be-real assumption ( because it is a series of and as a measure of what is “ right”) clashes and uses uncertainty and fear to justify itself as it magnifies a set body of information from a one sided platform. In this hypnotic state composed of limited information, one can no longer hear the grass growing, as the expression of this physical reality. Remember, it is, as the golden rule made public notice in every school, to take that which is good and does no harm, which is the same equation of and as to give as one would receive, which is the same equation as becoming a master of self as life. The simplicity of this, is astounding, the chaos is a resonant belief system, which is a mis-use of the imagination, as an over use of the imagination, to the degree one loses one’s ability to be grounded in the physical, respecting all things, reflected in our bodies losing touch with this reality as we age. It has been made public notice to also bring heaven down to earth, no matter what surrounds that statement. 

This is why the golden rule is of great import. It is the rule to do no harm, and to take what is good. It is the rule to give as one would receive. It is the rule to investigate, to take the time to slow down and hear the muse/formation presented, to then assess that creation with regard to this ground called earth, and only move within that that is more of transformation than eliminating what does not fit into an idea within one’s self only. It is to say, if we all slowed down, we might find an unfolding that dis-covers our own centuries long movement in an alternate reality that is destructive of earth to the extent it is so slow moving we have not seen the destruction of this earth because each generation is so caught in this perfect storm it cannot realize what the earth looked like in previous generations. It is like one big orchestral piece, which is a series of measures moving in tandem with one another, and yet having forgotten one another or are in a state of assumption that this is the way it is, when it is not. The means is the same, but one is in separation from the whole. And the means cannot remember itself and how it was constructed, thus when it meets something outside of itself, it assumes immediate recognition because what one focuses on, attends to occupies all one’s presence, and ignores states of “ less information or more information” causing conflict or friction which is fear more than resolution. I mean, if we realized fear as confusion, then we are starting to realize the solution, because it only means that more information is needed to lend greater direction. A state of “ greater direction” need only remember how the sum of parts was formed that generated a state of assumption. The degree of separation of self expression probably has a correlation to how intense is one’s fear and or expression of assumptions- which must be brought out because that is how one has learned to express. The thing most resisted is the means through friction and conflict. And yet, a truth exits, it is as tough we are also at the same time, attempting to effectively voice our truth. Difficult in a resonant storm of beliefs, opinions and ideas. 

If one were caught in all of this, would the idea of discipline be considered difficult? Would learning something new appear to be impossible? The degree to which one cannot slow down and learn something new, is indicative of how much one is caught in a set resonant body of beliefs. In this context, saying something is outside of one’s comfort zone is an acknowledgement of an inability to change.  The fall back ideology of “ being in a comfort zone,” is simply a cry of lack that screams for a means to realize its own veiling mechanisms. 

Someone I knew said that they could not meditate, they could not get themselves to be quiet within. What does this suggest? Does it suggest that a resonant construct of stories of information had taken hold of the person, was accepted and allowed a BUILT by the individual? That a person can HOLD something, over many years, to the degree it blocks taking in new information, such as being a form of quiet within themselves, is telling in itself. And yet, that quality of long standing holding, indicates that we can hold “ things,”  that we are in deed the masters of in inner template of a resonant construct. Why not practice holding a presence within this reality, focusing on how this reality works, as a relationship to always relate to what is here as earth? 

It is known that disciplines can take 10,000 hours to master, which could be in 5 to 7 years. One could say the equation as a system of 4 years of college, is the living math of and as a potent period of intense focus allowing that 10,000 hours. Yet when done through memory, an outcome of tenuous hold os something easily forgotten because it had no real living practice, no real association to a more long-term development as direct interaction with what is real. 

Depending on one’s starting point, if one has a greater discipline in one area, one can more readily move through another discipline. This takes changing one’s focus, which means one must develop an awareness of one’s focus. This is the what, where, when, why and how scenario which is a good template to use to ground one’s self through questions and answers in a given moment. Anything that would build a greater presence of self and self as existing because and as a physical being on a physical earth, would unfold a more expansive awareness that had a greater recognition of uncertainty, and the means of closing the gap of uncertainty, into realizing the means to the end as gathering an awareness of information. This would be information that allows one to hold something that can withstand change, or meet change with joy. In one way, one need not “ hold” anything because one is more in synch with what is the body of one, as the physical. Is this not what it means to move synergistically, or symBIOtically? The living earth is our bio. 

Sometimes, I have noticed what I would call a soft approach to discipline. Again, as all things are of a balance, a soft approach to discipline makes excuses, as the truth in a “ soft approach” does not realize the soft approach is more in the application as small action. Meaning one focuses without back chat in the mind, or one practices with full attention onto the smallest and most simple of movements, as the small we understood allows the construction of more complex parts with greater ease. The soft approach tends to not want to point out that a mastery of the focus on the small has not been done, and the lack thereof does not want to hear that it has not focused on the small. Classic story of what many master’s say, when they ask initiates to repeat a small seemingly monotonous task. The initiate cannot understand the reasoning behind this, and believes they should have recognition for their somewhat developed capacity. The master sees the flaws in the starting point that are inhibiting greater ability to work effectively with more complex sums, the initiate has assumptions that have forgotten of such. In such a situation, the master must stick to their steps which is not considered being soft, as they at the same time, are using the small to soften, or unleash, or unknot, an urgency of assumptions.  The innate self defining template, or construct of information can have a sense of losing something, which can generate fear - or that sense of vertigo as one’s focus point-, as that very deconstruction process, when not formally understood. Then a resistance happens, one that is either overcome or not as resistance comes at a point of change. 

A master of something, has the capacity to realize assumptions and work with them. From another dimension, in terms of power structures, I can understand why in some social revolutions, it was the educated in a society that were killed, because they more than likely were the ones close to this realization over all. Yet, those lead by assumption and desirous of power, understood that this point of change had to end, or their movement onto the next level of control would be eliminated. This becomes the feathers being tossed in the waves, unaware of the waves as the real medium of their existence!  This is why administrators are usually, as the word sounds, the biggest traitors. In all, life will. The real disease is a state of stagnation, and yet seeing through that state of stagnation, or rejection of opportunity, or the avoidance of answers in regards to questions asked,  is the means of perpetuating the building of castles, as power structures on that centralized hill, that is in itself an illusion because real life is symbiotic, meaning of parts working in tandem.

After all, our bodies are working organisms, where most of the bacteria in our bodies are separate entities, of which the absence of we cannot exist. It is as though the physical allows us to see what we have allowed within, as the test of manifesting what we create ourselves as. We have in deed,  become what we were warned against, which is to be living value judgements instead of real living. We humans have allowed a personality to become larger than life. Our personalities are basically assumptions, and we allow an administration of assumptions ignoring the consequences of our assumptions on the reality that enables us to see our assumptions. Astounding! 

We can have moments of a sense of knowing that is not of the language used in the every day. It is more a sense of presence seeing or sensing an order of this reality. Yet, one must define that living reality, of which the sum of parts, are the means to the end. One must become a master of one’s focus ability. Would it not make sense that we must know ourselves in detail before we can really know what is around us? And does not what is around show us to ourselves? 

I remember having moments where my perspective of reality changed, yet only for a fleeting moment. In that moment of perhaps being a gap, it was that sense of knowing on some levels, mixed with judgements about what that was that was coming up, at which point I jumped out of that sense, and even forgot it. With hindsight I asked the question as to whether such could be real, because I had no control over it. How could a “ sense of knowing,” a surprise at such a different perspective suddenly appearing, and at the same time, an awareness of and as suddenly asking a question as to why I did not have control over such a thing? It was a moment that lead to a question of and as “ what is going on!” Such a moment happened where I realized every word had to be rebuilt. 

There is this “ sense of knowing” that also means developing greater awareness of the parts, and that does not move as coded/scripted language as humans use, and the contrast of the change from  one perspective to another, of which I had no control. It would mean that I was running on assumptions, resonant within and projected without. One’s assumptions end up directing in automated ways, because they are a reflection of a lack of presence being used effectively - as to  be in the practice of considering all things, taking the good and ensuring no harm. The formula has been given, it is made public notice, because earth can be heaven on earth. The way and the means are really the acceptance of the gift of this. So many times we ask, but our own morality gets in the way of accepting the answer when it comes. The absence of accepting this life that is who one really is, is the absence of to “ know thyself.” I mean, evidently, on some Greek structures, “ know thyself”  was carved on the entry head stone which is public notice! Therefor, we can blame no one but ourselves.  

Assumptions can become one’s intuition, that when meeting “ incomplete information” as what happens when someone is in fear, as in lacking real presence - which is given and lost and forgotten - can cause the perfect storm. This storm can become all that one sees, which is what is meant to see through the veil. And it is what is meant when a Christ said to forgive them for they know not what they do. They are in a now of resonant assumptions that can easily move into fear, made evident in friction and conflict. This is a manifesto of living problem-reaction-solution instead of problem solution. Answering to reaction is a mis-use of control, answering to the problem is more of a correct use of control.  The other side, is that one can ONLY speak what one has allowed, thus one will speak what one has used to protect one’s inner resonant template of ideas, beliefs and opinions, because this is what one has focused on, what one has practiced. Vocal and focal are similar in sound. It is the gift that shows one’s self to one’s self. We are the words we effectively know. We are that of which we speak. When we lack a recognition of the grass growing, when we cannot HEAR/HERE the grass growing, we are in effect in separation from the golden rule, that which has been made public notice, thus we can blame no one but ourselves.