Showing posts with label universe. Show all posts
Showing posts with label universe. Show all posts

Wednesday, December 28, 2016

More on Bringing it Back to Self Day 737

Bringing it back to self.

I am looking at the means justifying the ends. Reviewing this.

I realize that what I aggrandize, as make huge, like an elephant in the room, is what I attend to, as focus on. Is this in self interest, as a relationship of protecting what I define myself within as who I am?

It can be such a narrow focus on a few values, where at the exclusion of all things, as a cross reference, I am lost in a tunnel vision of my own command, my own imagination, my ownership of perspective, my owned borders. Self selected programming. A lie-by-omission.

Within doom and gloom, or, worst case scenarios, I realize this is the choice, because it is always a choice, I can take an extreme, create a fantasy as a hypothetical, as hyperbole, and believe that this is the center of this universe, forgetting all that is me, practically as I am physical first and foremost- my resource -  and project this onto everything, thereby believing that what I compose in my imagination is real. I become my own constructed illusion. And, I forget who I really am, I no longer ‘ know thy self’ and as a consequence am in a distraction, a business of limited insight. 

This causes conflict with my real self. This manifests as friction, or a clash with reality. This separation is colored by a belief that I am a superman, and why does no one else see this? I ask myself in my ego, my idealistic self.

I abandoned my own self worth, as me, as all of me, as the organism that allows me expression. When I am calm and problem solve, with effective actions, my whole temper is more insightful and connected to reality. I quantify greater measures of information,  and move with greater practicality, instead of projecting a myopic story of blame as only seeing a default, often something unkempt that I fear becoming. I end up using fantasy, as a worst case scenario to justify rejecting something instead of realizing what is an innate capacity to compose. Meaning, an innate capacity to see correction via problem solving within practical outlined steps of what builds a constancy that does no harm. This means standing up through my own mental projections and grounding myself in this reality. I mean, in all common sense, what are the elements of a garden growing? The simplicity is astounding and very cool. 

I am looking at the idea - because this is words on a page- of ‘ know thyself.’  I will place this next to the idea of a superman, so-called ‘ master of industry.’  Knowing self is powerful, it is knowing who and what one is, which is to acknowledge the physical world, and the practical steps necessary in real time, within completing a task. This would lead to effective action, and thus success, especially in a world where so many do not reference themselves because of a distraction into a heaven ideal. And yet, to know thyself means being practical, leading to becoming super effective. Somehow, becoming super effective has been made fantasy as the idea of a superman, which technological media can make appear to be real, causing a imaginative picture show of the possibility of great feats in physical time. Here, one is caught in a distraction so easy to quickly play out in the imagination getting a sense of being good, a chemical high and nothing else. Thus, a myopic focus, that happens in a quantum moment, becoming every moment. This is a de-manning ( demon) of self, sending a tie-me/ time dream elevated up there in the mind, un grounding the presence in reality. Thus, the equation of a truth, to pull one in, and a dream to tie one down in a fantasy that by design is a separation from real power, as that simple act of knowing the real score as self as a physical self, where things get done in real space.  The imaginative hyperbole is used after a truthful statement filled with promise, draws one in. This weakens the heart, or the essence of self. It is an imperfect practice of and as the instrument of life as the physical self.

So-called ‘ masters of industry’ simply practice real organization of the organ as the physical, meaning the resources of this earth, into industry, meaning they order the physical and real organ. Yet, unless they do so, ensuring no harm to any living thing, they too are not completely grounded in reality.  All the degrees of separation as each human as the degree of separation from practical physical reality,  can cause a competition that consists of following a dream that has been allowed to be larger-than-life as a focus that is different yet same, by subtle degree , as that equation of a truth coupled with a fantasy. That fantasy composed of inflamed values that are actions of excluding practical values that exist in balance in physical symbiotic nature, this earth. Even this earth at the moment, is less than its potential, as the very waters of existence are not evenly distributed in a balanced and effective act of sustaining what is here. Have a look, do we not use water to balance temperature, is this means not constructed? Yet, this may be too big of a jump, myself using hyperbole that may have some truth.  I am the product of such a system, I have to practice being simple and stop the holywood game within me. 

We may organize something in our daily lives. For example, I may, and have done this, rearrange my furniture after living in a home for a while. One day, I assess my home and have a ‘ vision’ of  changing the furniture arrangement. I assess it, imagine it ( okay- and correct use of the imagination) and move to physically rearrange. I may even change up the idea, and change the change as I move through the practical action of my idea/image. Afterwards, I stand and look at my re-creation and have a sense of satisfaction of ‘ pride’ in my capacity to do, even when on a simple scale such as this. I have become a ‘ master’ of my own industry within the dimensions of where I am at. I can enjoy this moment, without aggrandizing it, using it to make myself ‘ more’ than another, etc.. It is a simple act that I took to improve the space in which I live. 

In another dimension, I may have decided to take care of what I have as refurbish it, rearrange it to allow an environment of greater ease, as a solution, instead of going out and purchasing a whole new set of furniture because I have an idea that this is a solution, and because, to some degree, all-new-things, is somehow more fashionable, as it would be, in a consumerist society. I have had a sense that simply caring for what I have and rearranging it, is somehow counter intuitive to supporting this society. Thus, my pride as the simple self action, is colored with some guilt, a strange mix within me. Yet, that is the point of the ‘ superman’ layered story of colored, or polarized values, as such things so readily happen within me.  I forget enjoyment of the simple action of organizing as being present with what is here.  That pull into an extreme, as using a value judgement formulated without regard for effective and harmless actions that are enjoying a moment only, are impulsing me away from practicality and respect for the physical world that functions in simple terms. This pull into an idea of value, in my imagination, can go both ways, into a negative self definition or a positive self definition, either/or not realizing the simple enjoyment of organizing an organism as the physical. This physical being the means of everything I am.  Hard to see such simplicity with an overblown imagination moving counter to an innate ability to be the practice of  common sense. 

Thus, our ‘ masters of industry’ simply have a greater focus on the practical, and some can say, the means to move things around in the greater whole, which is why, resource acquisition is what our labor supports, even in giving to a church, that very standard of distracting through inner scaffolding, or scripting of information towards a belief in some greater life after this real life, this physical life, a life that would be creation, because being physical is creation manifest.  The thing we put energy into, as fighting, for resource, is revelatory of what is most real, as the physical. The time we spend as ideas, as stories of information in our imaginations, a quick and fast moving story where we live success in an instant, creating a false pride, is a mis-use of ourselves as life. It is that what we are, is so out of balance, and so habituated, the means using pieces of who and what we are, is so right in front of us, we will be astounded that we never saw this. Hopefully, it will happen before it is too late. There is a point of no return, a cancel of real life, as what cancer is and does.  

The solution is to breath, to slow way down and begin to see the patterns of deception, the patterns of de-ce-ption, the patterns of imagination superimposed on reality as an inner scaffold of ideas that is a bias made of aggrandized values in both directions, the bad and the good, as the negative that moves into a positive - the positive being a double consistently-practiced negative which is a giving up of self into the imagination. With moving focus into breathing, one begins to build a greater sense of self in relation to the whole of this reality. Then, is the work that turns into play, as sorting this all out and birthing self back into what is more natural, reordering the self, re-organizing the self - back into, and away from a scattered through a lie-by-omission self smothered in imagination as a false script filled with truths and colored with extremes - equal and one to what is the real universe, as the physical, where real creation happens. 


Real mastery is the realization that there are no masters, and there are no slaves. Real mastery respects all things, taking that which is good and does no harm. This is done right here, in the moment.  Use your imagination correctly, imagine walking down any street, through any wood, over any bridge, and having the space to admire this creation being in an effective and supportive and expansive order, where all children can walk wherever they want, without fear and with an open mind, learning to create, taking that which is good and does no harm. Is this not what we all want. Listen for it, it is there, it is under the illusion, and it is what we all desire. Slow down and breath. No one can do this, it takes all of us. The means is within us, each and every one. All the kings men, and all the king’s horses cannot put us back together again, What is cool is that it is natural for us to do this. 





Sunday, September 23, 2012

Day 155 Judging by appearance based on limited values

Androgyny
Androgyny (Photo credit: imqossible by d u .r. M a c i e l)
Day 155
I looked at a picture of my twin sister and I at about 18 years of age. Now, within my family there are mixed genes. There is some Mayan descendants. The Mayans tended to be stouter than the northern Europeans. Within this photo, it is easy to see this within my family, as my sister is tall, of slimmer frame and higher cheek bones. I in comparison, am stouter, with a bigger head in proportion to my body. The norm is the slimmer, taller, higher cheek bones “look” within present values propagated by our society.
As I have lived my life, if realize there really is not “one type” of beauty, and if one looks at people, there within their whole form is always a certain grace. Not one is more than another, unless one idea, belief, and thus, image is held as a “more than” in comparison, then judgements sets in, and what is here is not seen, as all that is happening is the search for one image. This is idolizing one idea, and ignoring actually seeing what is here.
One time, I stood next to a woman I knew, in front of a mirror. I had spent some time with her and never physically seen her standing next to me. I was shocked when I actually saw her standing next to me.
I had always admired how she looked and thought her very attractive. She wore high heels and polished herself. I in comparison tended to not decorate myself; I kept myself “clean”and neat, but did not take excessive steps within my appearance. I thought she was more graceful than myself. lol
When I stood next to here, and saw her next to me I was shocked. I was actually of slighter frame than she, and looked more feminine, smaller. I was like a squirrel and she was like a beaver - so to speak. One is not more than another, both are amazing.
So, here i was thinking she was more “something “ than me, when it was not so. This moment also revealed why this woman was always a bit stand offish with me, as though she did not really want to be around me. She was doing what I was doing. She was avoiding me because she realized I made her look “stouter” in comparison, and all the while I saw her as doing this to me!
And yet, I saw her as being graceful and feminine, so the illusion was ridiculous, because in her totality she was feminine, and attractive, so it did not matter, it was only this idolization of one type of form and then taking this “template” and holding it up against everything visually, to match an idea of a form, instead of seeing the total form of what is here, that actually has all qualities, qualities that are diminished through comparison to ONE idea ONLY.
Here we were, two women avoiding each other based on appearance, when we actually enjoyed talking to one another, as our own judgements were looming huge on the horizon ofaccepted and allowed judgments based on limited means that ignored what we actually saw in one another, as our accepted and allowed “templates” of belief ignored what was real.
It is like we all have a mind that is an imposed “template” and we are not here enjoying what is real and fecund with all the qualities of life.
And this “template” is created, and we are the creators of this, systems that determine life on earth. Our system of valuing beliefs, ideas and opinions, of more than and less than, have created a system that limits life and justifies this in the face of logic; that we are all life, and thus we are all the qualities that exist, Our system is not developing what each of us is as life. Our system is determining who lives and who dies based on a template of one form fits all, and this ignores what is here.
How can we believe that someone can own what is here to the point where we blame another for their own starvation? Especially when we take the resources from them, what is right under their feet? If a small percentage of people own everything and have all the money, then this small percentage are the ones building the guns, are the ones thus, creating the conflictas they also are the ones giving to charities, and they are the ones determining how taxes are spent. The whole drama of conflict and abuse is determined by the self interest of the few, and the rest of us are hiding in fear of losing our jobs within the hierarchies, where it is us in the hierarchies that have the collective power to stop this, and this can be done by simply standing up and voting in a system of equality. it is very simple, and once done it will not take too long to reorganize this world into a world where we realize we are all the full spectrum of the qualities of life. The alternative is growing abuse and discord. The only choice is to remove this “template” of belief, and stand within equality and oneness, so that life can begin.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to walk with a template of limited belief, judging instead of enjoying what is actually physically here, fecund with expression as life, where it is only a set of limited values that block an existent capacity to see the life that is here before my very eyes.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to judge another as more than and less than in terms of being more or less feminine than myself.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to be a walking judgement of my appearance, where I have actually seen how illusory this is in fact, and how this kind of judgment can block a natural acceptance and inclination to enjoyment of what is here.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to compare myself to another.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not see, realize and understand that within my family, the values of the present society brought more pride in the characteristics in line with the accepted norm towards my twin sister than myself, which as a child was hard to accept as I measured myself according to these values, instead of realizing myself as life.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to have become what disturbed me, even in the face of realizing that feminine and masculine were not limited to one form ONLY in and as expression.
I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand that I was not rejected as myself as life, by other woman, it was the game of comparison, and fear of survival that caused determinations of what was acceptable and not acceptable, even when actual visual comparisons were not present and the person was seen in their totality to actually have all the qualities of a woman, thus judgement within comparison is an illusion.
I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to realize that each and every person, is like a universe of all life, and that my template of judgement, as mind , as consciousness ( this system of learned limited values shutting down common sense) based on one form only is what limits my enjoyment of the totality of life in another person, plants and animals.
I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand that a person that is not allowed development is not allowed to be the life that they are, and that this is the consequence of a system that is a template of limited insight ignoring the expression of life here, withholding what is needed to allow life to exist, not caring for what is one and equal as all, life.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to go into a judgment of more than and less than within and as appearance, denying myself an intrinsic ability as life to see a universe of qualities within another as what they are as life.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to walk as a template of limited insight, and thus limiting my own enjoyment of life, this gift given and within this to reciprocate through forgiveness of myself as life, with every step and every breath I take.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not realize a template of values has been created and accepted and allowed by the human through a hierarchy of more than and less than, a system of limited values, that ignore the total life in all forms existent on earth, making the human the cause of all abuse and suffering on earth, as each individual creates the responsibility as the collective and thus is able to stand and change the world through changing what has been developed in the same way it was developed, by standing as a collective that support life, able to be realized immediately through supporting an equal money system, by taking what is organizing the distribution of resource and using it to give what is essential to a life of dignity, the basics of food, shelter, clean water to support all life.


I commit myself to becoming the life that I am, practically living my responsibility as life by supporting an Equal Money System until it is done, as I am the collective and the individual, I am the part and the whole, where the part cannot exist in full expression until the whole is stable and equal within and as what it is in fact, life.







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Thursday, June 28, 2012

Day 74 The value given to emotions and feelings


I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to give value to emotions and feelings,
I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand that I have been taught to give value to emotions and feelings, and that I use these emotions and feelings with what I have been raised to believe in signifying value, where I attach an emotion to certain objects and manners and situations, that I am not aware that I am a walking emo, moving from one thing of value to another, allowing and accepting the value of emotion to direct and guide myself here.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not see realize and understand that in being this I cannot see what is real here, I cannot actually be here, I cannot even sense any self direction as all I am doing is moving from one emotional value to another, one feeling value to another.
I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see realize and understand this this feeling of sadness that becomes a presence as me, where this is all that there is, which means I am allowing this to be real, if I stand back in and as breath, I will see that this is like a cloud of smoke that I am giving tremendous value to and that it has absolutely no capacity to direct myself here as life, as I am so busy “feeling” this emotional presence of sadness, like I am basking in the sun  - and make no mistake about this it is burning me like the sun would into and as ashes - that I do not realize that this is something of no real value, and in one moment this would change into something else, indicating that it has no real substance.
I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see realize and understand that, on another level, this “sadness” is myself in separation of myself, and if I do not give this a value and see this as separation, I will see realize and understand how much I have been developed to be an emo, thus are all humans emos, and the emos of the world are simply showing the human what the human is allowing as an expression.
I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand how infinitesimally small emotions  and feelings exist as.
I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see realize and understand that in allowing myself to exist as emotions and feelings I cannot see myself, thus I have no directive capacity.
I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand that emotions and feelings are like  a tiny tempest, which we allow to turn into a giant tornado - and thus perhaps this is why nature is coming out with  giant tornados recently-  where the tornado takes control and meanwhile the universe surrounding that tornado is right here as life, just watching that little storm in a teacup.
I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see realize and understand how big the breath really is.
I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to return to breath whenever I find myself becoming loopy.
I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see realize and understand that breath is life, breath is here, here is big, emo is small.
I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand that what Desteni is saying is that the human race has become an emo bot and it is time to stop as we are not taking care of this earth.
I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to realize that we are all one and equal, thus is this earth showing us what it is that we are, as giving emotions and feelings as energy the value we are in separation from ourselves and breath, and thus does dis-ease manifest, as dis-ease is separation from self as life, from breath and thus does the body, the physical receive life, and only extinguish itself as life into and as an emotional and feelings storm as energy.
I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see that all dis-ease is the accumulation of an accepted and allowed existence of emotions as blame and spite and shame and regret and judgement and a feeling of unworthiness as self.


I commit myself to realizing that each and every time I allow an emotions or feeling I am in fact in separation from myself.
I commit myself to realizing that when I am being an emo, I cannot possible sense what is actually physically real.
I commit myself to realizing that emotions and feelings are not directives and thus when imposed on myself or by another are actually bullies demanding acknowledgement, and thus can they be acknowledged as separation and brought back to self, one and equal as breath where they can then be forgiven and directed as what is best for all.
I commit myself to realize that ideas, beliefs and opinions are based on what I have been cultivated to value, and this feeds the separation of myself into  emotions and feelings.
I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand that from childhood i have had to memorize what i believe, idealize, and opine, and have been praised within my social network in participating within this game of memory which is a game of acknowledging recognition of labels of accepted values non inclusive of an awareness of all life, and thus I become a feeling of right-ness and a feeling of pride, and that the process of this development took the lifetime of myself as a child to create, and thus will the ability of myself to direct myself as life, to remove the following emo bot as what i am will take time, diligence and patience as I bring myself back to becoming a self directed equal and one expression of life.