More on Bringing it Back to Self Day 737

Bringing it back to self.

I am looking at the means justifying the ends. Reviewing this.

I realize that what I aggrandize, as make huge, like an elephant in the room, is what I attend to, as focus on. Is this in self interest, as a relationship of protecting what I define myself within as who I am?

It can be such a narrow focus on a few values, where at the exclusion of all things, as a cross reference, I am lost in a tunnel vision of my own command, my own imagination, my ownership of perspective, my owned borders. Self selected programming. A lie-by-omission.

Within doom and gloom, or, worst case scenarios, I realize this is the choice, because it is always a choice, I can take an extreme, create a fantasy as a hypothetical, as hyperbole, and believe that this is the center of this universe, forgetting all that is me, practically as I am physical first and foremost- my resource -  and project this onto everything, thereby believing that what I compose in my imagination is real. I become my own constructed illusion. And, I forget who I really am, I no longer ‘ know thy self’ and as a consequence am in a distraction, a business of limited insight. 

This causes conflict with my real self. This manifests as friction, or a clash with reality. This separation is colored by a belief that I am a superman, and why does no one else see this? I ask myself in my ego, my idealistic self.

I abandoned my own self worth, as me, as all of me, as the organism that allows me expression. When I am calm and problem solve, with effective actions, my whole temper is more insightful and connected to reality. I quantify greater measures of information,  and move with greater practicality, instead of projecting a myopic story of blame as only seeing a default, often something unkempt that I fear becoming. I end up using fantasy, as a worst case scenario to justify rejecting something instead of realizing what is an innate capacity to compose. Meaning, an innate capacity to see correction via problem solving within practical outlined steps of what builds a constancy that does no harm. This means standing up through my own mental projections and grounding myself in this reality. I mean, in all common sense, what are the elements of a garden growing? The simplicity is astounding and very cool. 

I am looking at the idea - because this is words on a page- of ‘ know thyself.’  I will place this next to the idea of a superman, so-called ‘ master of industry.’  Knowing self is powerful, it is knowing who and what one is, which is to acknowledge the physical world, and the practical steps necessary in real time, within completing a task. This would lead to effective action, and thus success, especially in a world where so many do not reference themselves because of a distraction into a heaven ideal. And yet, to know thyself means being practical, leading to becoming super effective. Somehow, becoming super effective has been made fantasy as the idea of a superman, which technological media can make appear to be real, causing a imaginative picture show of the possibility of great feats in physical time. Here, one is caught in a distraction so easy to quickly play out in the imagination getting a sense of being good, a chemical high and nothing else. Thus, a myopic focus, that happens in a quantum moment, becoming every moment. This is a de-manning ( demon) of self, sending a tie-me/ time dream elevated up there in the mind, un grounding the presence in reality. Thus, the equation of a truth, to pull one in, and a dream to tie one down in a fantasy that by design is a separation from real power, as that simple act of knowing the real score as self as a physical self, where things get done in real space.  The imaginative hyperbole is used after a truthful statement filled with promise, draws one in. This weakens the heart, or the essence of self. It is an imperfect practice of and as the instrument of life as the physical self.

So-called ‘ masters of industry’ simply practice real organization of the organ as the physical, meaning the resources of this earth, into industry, meaning they order the physical and real organ. Yet, unless they do so, ensuring no harm to any living thing, they too are not completely grounded in reality.  All the degrees of separation as each human as the degree of separation from practical physical reality,  can cause a competition that consists of following a dream that has been allowed to be larger-than-life as a focus that is different yet same, by subtle degree , as that equation of a truth coupled with a fantasy. That fantasy composed of inflamed values that are actions of excluding practical values that exist in balance in physical symbiotic nature, this earth. Even this earth at the moment, is less than its potential, as the very waters of existence are not evenly distributed in a balanced and effective act of sustaining what is here. Have a look, do we not use water to balance temperature, is this means not constructed? Yet, this may be too big of a jump, myself using hyperbole that may have some truth.  I am the product of such a system, I have to practice being simple and stop the holywood game within me. 

We may organize something in our daily lives. For example, I may, and have done this, rearrange my furniture after living in a home for a while. One day, I assess my home and have a ‘ vision’ of  changing the furniture arrangement. I assess it, imagine it ( okay- and correct use of the imagination) and move to physically rearrange. I may even change up the idea, and change the change as I move through the practical action of my idea/image. Afterwards, I stand and look at my re-creation and have a sense of satisfaction of ‘ pride’ in my capacity to do, even when on a simple scale such as this. I have become a ‘ master’ of my own industry within the dimensions of where I am at. I can enjoy this moment, without aggrandizing it, using it to make myself ‘ more’ than another, etc.. It is a simple act that I took to improve the space in which I live. 

In another dimension, I may have decided to take care of what I have as refurbish it, rearrange it to allow an environment of greater ease, as a solution, instead of going out and purchasing a whole new set of furniture because I have an idea that this is a solution, and because, to some degree, all-new-things, is somehow more fashionable, as it would be, in a consumerist society. I have had a sense that simply caring for what I have and rearranging it, is somehow counter intuitive to supporting this society. Thus, my pride as the simple self action, is colored with some guilt, a strange mix within me. Yet, that is the point of the ‘ superman’ layered story of colored, or polarized values, as such things so readily happen within me.  I forget enjoyment of the simple action of organizing as being present with what is here.  That pull into an extreme, as using a value judgement formulated without regard for effective and harmless actions that are enjoying a moment only, are impulsing me away from practicality and respect for the physical world that functions in simple terms. This pull into an idea of value, in my imagination, can go both ways, into a negative self definition or a positive self definition, either/or not realizing the simple enjoyment of organizing an organism as the physical. This physical being the means of everything I am.  Hard to see such simplicity with an overblown imagination moving counter to an innate ability to be the practice of  common sense. 

Thus, our ‘ masters of industry’ simply have a greater focus on the practical, and some can say, the means to move things around in the greater whole, which is why, resource acquisition is what our labor supports, even in giving to a church, that very standard of distracting through inner scaffolding, or scripting of information towards a belief in some greater life after this real life, this physical life, a life that would be creation, because being physical is creation manifest.  The thing we put energy into, as fighting, for resource, is revelatory of what is most real, as the physical. The time we spend as ideas, as stories of information in our imaginations, a quick and fast moving story where we live success in an instant, creating a false pride, is a mis-use of ourselves as life. It is that what we are, is so out of balance, and so habituated, the means using pieces of who and what we are, is so right in front of us, we will be astounded that we never saw this. Hopefully, it will happen before it is too late. There is a point of no return, a cancel of real life, as what cancer is and does.  

The solution is to breath, to slow way down and begin to see the patterns of deception, the patterns of de-ce-ption, the patterns of imagination superimposed on reality as an inner scaffold of ideas that is a bias made of aggrandized values in both directions, the bad and the good, as the negative that moves into a positive - the positive being a double consistently-practiced negative which is a giving up of self into the imagination. With moving focus into breathing, one begins to build a greater sense of self in relation to the whole of this reality. Then, is the work that turns into play, as sorting this all out and birthing self back into what is more natural, reordering the self, re-organizing the self - back into, and away from a scattered through a lie-by-omission self smothered in imagination as a false script filled with truths and colored with extremes - equal and one to what is the real universe, as the physical, where real creation happens. 

Real mastery is the realization that there are no masters, and there are no slaves. Real mastery respects all things, taking that which is good and does no harm. This is done right here, in the moment.  Use your imagination correctly, imagine walking down any street, through any wood, over any bridge, and having the space to admire this creation being in an effective and supportive and expansive order, where all children can walk wherever they want, without fear and with an open mind, learning to create, taking that which is good and does no harm. Is this not what we all want. Listen for it, it is there, it is under the illusion, and it is what we all desire. Slow down and breath. No one can do this, it takes all of us. The means is within us, each and every one. All the kings men, and all the king’s horses cannot put us back together again, What is cool is that it is natural for us to do this. 

Day 194 Pointing out what would hide myself

What I resist is what i hold onto, one and the same, like I cling to what I fear, as it cannot leave me because I am accepting and allowing it. It is what i am, as a “tone” within. I walk around spending all my time hiding this, pointing out what would this hide. It really is like stewing in my own shit - so to speak. And the effort in maintaining this is consuming all focus and substance of self. Every ounce of the “fiber” of me is constricting to maintain this, and it has gone on for so long I know nothing else. Thus it is daunting to change this, and it is like a monster that does not want to be tamed, when in fact all it is - in this reference i am making- is a habit- like afire on a wick that just does not want to go out and I ignited this!. I am so busy being the avoidance tactic that I no longer remember what I am avoiding!
Imagine trying to talk to an avoidance tactic, as a behavior, that does not even know this as what it is anymore, as it has done this for so long, and was never shown anything else, it cannot see itself as what it is!
This is in fact what being the mind is.
This is why breath is so important, to stabilize and give- through slowing down into and as breath, a reference point - as what the physical allows- as to what is the tone/song/broadcast/ energetic signature/ pattern of our behavior as personalities as humans, to see, realize and understand and forgive this energetic storm of thoughts,emotions and feelings.
By drawing attention away, one can attend to what is wanting to be hidden, because the hidden is always there because it is us as what we accept and allow. And, on a larger scale, as this planet, what is in fact the abuse existent, is what is ignored, yet cannot be ignored.
Within myself, I create my own anxiety in trying to ignore common sense and fit into what is limited as what is accepted as a right and wrong where the measuring point of right and wrong is selective of what can be controlled within an idea of gain within a system of inequality, and this supposed “gain:” is myself hiding facing myself as life- like a “gain” act as a “gain” in hiding is the facade.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not see, realize and understand my own avoidance tactics of drawing attention to what hides my own fear of self, of self expression of life here.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to follow what upholds a system of definition into and as a woman, where I turn a fear of being myself into self blame as a feel good justification as a morality of limited ideas that is myself hiding from facing myself as being responsible here.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not see, realize and understand that I am a response as an idea of what I should be in separation from actually looking at what is here as life in common sense of support of life.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not see, realize and understand that any running and hiding within an obsession, be it sex or power or fame of social acceptance is myself not listening to myself as life in common sense of what is actually here, where I have done this for so long I must relearn to walk, relearn to direct myself as what is best for myself, as what is best for myself is what is best for all.
I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand that I must first learn to bring myself back to myself as life, by removing the separation into and as character in accord with the present morality on earth - of which not all is “bad’- and look at the separations as energy as this being the indicator of separation- and then take this and direct this as what is best for all, here.
I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand that until I stop all behaviors of fear of loss and desire for gain, I am not in fact here, one and equal to and as life.
I commit myself to breath, to breathing , to stabilize myself here, to see, realize and understand where and when I become a character in obeisance to a morality of structures that serve an abdication in and as myself in doing what is best for all, as this is what is best for myself.
I commit myself to seeing, realizing and understanding that many of the things I state are learned means to serve characters that support what maintains a system of fitting into a hierarchy of taking care of one part only without being aware of all of myself as what i am, which is also being aware of all that is here, as one allows the expression of the other, and thus making judgements as comparisons is a separation from myself here becoming and being responsible in common sense of all life.

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Day 76 There is no good or no bad there in only common sense

Day 76 There is no good or no bad there is only common sense.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see realize and understand that when I stop and compare myself to another person I am not existing within common sense.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to realize that when I am comparing one person to another I am placing value on a picture and not being here, living in common sense.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to use understanding, as what has been allowed and accepted on this earth,  as something that cannot affect me unless I accept and allow this, and that within this, there is no time for comparison, and only time to offer that which directs without need of praise or acknowledgement.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see realize and understand that it is  only self that can “praise” self, as self knows when self has given unconditionally.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see realize and understand that when I am making comparisons, I have done this so much, as this is how I was taught to exist by family, by media, by society, that this comparing has become so habitual, I have lost all sense of being objective.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not realize that when I take something personally I am in effect fearing being a comparison of less than not realizing that this less than and more than scenario is a belief that something has no directive capacity.

Within this, I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand that a profit based system would teach limited values and then lead one to believe these values were fixed in stone, something that cannot move and transpose, as if this were known and taught to children, as this should exist in ease, many of the frustrated behaviors of children and adults would no longer exist on this earth, yet just as we have fixed money into a profit based system, where no one actually really benefits, there exists only the movement of man as ensuring a fixed survival instead of a constant as self expression as life, where this freely giving earth provides and supports life.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand that comparison is the endless “looking for something” and thus an act of self pity in self believing self is missing something and/or could possibly lose something, when nothing can be lost as what is here can only be directed as what is best for all, thus what is here is life, enough to sustain life as it is life, so what is allowed and accepted on this earth is a directive that is not sustaining of that which is here that is even able to be directed, which makes it obvious that it is not the substance it is the directive limited and stagnating unaware of itself as life that is existing on this earth.

I commit to realizing my habit of making comparisons is an act of self pity.

I commit myself to realizing that making comparisons is stating that I must have it, and thus is myself in separation of breath and thus in union with mind in and as a belief that I am in lack.

I commit myself to realizing that the moment i compare I am abdicating myself responsibility as life.

I commit myself to pointing out that a belief in lack, as existing as comparison means that the values one is accepting are not in consideration of what cares for all life on this planet, as what cares for all life is all that one really needs, and that this is the way and the means to self discovery.

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Day 57 Turning away from the physical

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to want to run away from the ego of men,

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to fear the ego of men.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see that I am now an adult and that my fears are based on childhood conditioning that I need no longer burden myself with in and as habit, as a habit I carry, as this is no longer necessary, as I am able to stand and face the being of a human, as life, and to apply the principle of oneness in equality here, within what is best for self is best for life, as what is real is this physical world, and not the alternate reality of a mind consciousness system of programmed roles habitual play in a system that develops “attitudes” believed to enable success within a system of profit that does not support life, does not realize that the value is life.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not see realize and understand that whenever this feeling of physical comfort and desire comes up, I am in fact facing a habit of behavior, a “habit” of female subservience/ role play/personification of seeking emotional placating sympathy allowing a man to act the “knight in shining armor”/ helper/ manly man/ protector/ super hero/ big daddy/ show off/ rooster/ spiritual leader/ god head (lol)/  where I stop my self from being here and taking self responsibility, self honesty and interacting directly here in common sense with this physical world, as though I have some “blip” on some screen, as me, stopping my own physical oneness and equality common sense self here, where this “clinging/seeking/comfort/sympathy “blip” alternate reality has become an addictive need, and a picture show in and as my mind separating me from myself and causing me to develop personas to feed this desire that is in reality a blip on my life, where the blip has become greater than my self as life here, and the burden of this, the “entity” of this is consuming me and causing self disgust and self hatred as I abdicate myself as life,

Within this, I realize that the present system on earth places these constrictions to support a system of inequality, and separation from oneness and equality, uses these “habits” and “frocks” to bind the human to the needs of the “habits/frocks” to the point where the human becomes as the Barbie and Ken doll, the man being a personification of manly man-ness and the woman being the personification of the damself ( I meant to write damsel) in distress, where the man and the woman are not being here, one and equal to their human physical body in common sense of this physical world.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to have probably missed many things in running to comfort and support because I had learned that one little surprise in my environment, of little frustration, of sudden unexpected change, of interaction that was my self learning to work and understand this physical world, as I developed a response of running for comfort, where later in life this came to be associated with sexual desire, and thus do I connect sexual desire to comfort from men, where men are not really seeking comfort but ejaculation, energy release, and the coupling of this with the fitting of an image onto this physical world, and are probably disgusted with themselves when the woman, the physical actual women, does not meet the alternate reality picture show in and as their minds, where they have become their “frocked” self as children, separate from this physical world, as being in common sense, just as much as I.

I forgive myself for not realizing that this entity/persona/presence bubble/projection is in fact what I was then as what I am now, that I endlessly repeat, as myself in separation from myself in common sense, sensing the world here, standing and facing, being one and equal to, this physical world, where as my self as life I stand and face what is here, I do not allow what is here to  cause the reaction within myself  as allowing  a state where I become overwhelmed/ frightened/ non-seeing/ self justifying of my non-accepting of what is physically here in liu of some idea, belief, opinion/ constricted self., where within this even the tiniest of movement within myself as fear i stop and I breath and I forgive the labels as voices and fears of the mind consciousness system and I bring myself here, I do not allow myself to use the past as experiences to judge what is here, actually physically here, where I hear/see/ realize the mind speaks in loops making a singularity into a endless novel experience in and as energy and thus consumes my self, separates me from this physical world, and like a vampire sucks the life out of my human physical body leading  to death and not myself becoming one and equal to life. 

I commit my self to realizing physically, inwardly whenever i have this “pull” this emotional directive that is a separation from myself within my human physical body, which will also have a quality of fear and a conscious front of desire for that initial reception from the initial shock, moment of non-looking moving towards receiving of a petting sympathy outplay, where this habit must be walked through and removed to bring myself back to this physical world, and within this to realize that any and all emotions of self pity, are only a mind tantrum of not getting a tangental energetic loop that has in fact become the prison of life the separation of life from accepting what is here, physically here.

I commit myself to realizing the patterns of my behavior and to take this bull (shit) by the horns and becoming a self direct physical equal to this unconditionally giving earth, to speak about, write about, make comments about a system that allows life to bloom on this earth, to realize heaven on earth, to allow every child born to become one and equal to this physical world, to work in tandem with this physical world, to support what is the value here on this earth, life.

I commit myself to revealing the absolute atrocity of a profit based system, where there in no argument available in common sense as to why there exists starvation on this earth, where there is no excuse as to why men are killing themselves, as to why people are disfiguring and eating other people, as to why animals are being placed in a caged life of disease - and of that matter why humans are being fed rotten diseased flesh, as to why presidents get funding from pill makers seeking profits and stand on platforms with a devil shit eating grin saying they are bringing universal health care to the populace when their donations are coming from the pill makers, pill makers who create anti depressants that are mostly fluoride, when it is known that Hitler used fluoride to placate the unwanted, within this the goal is to create sustained income for the few and therefor not about health as health is not profitable or enslaveable.

I commit myself to, through writing , self forgiveness, corrective application, removing emotional/feeling polarities of more than and less than past influence as judgment, of the devil and the angel on my shoulder, of a morality play, as an unsubstantial story inconsiderate of this physical earth, of any and all righteousness as turning myself into a salvation voice of demanding immediate understanding of what the human has become to bring myself back to breath and the deconstruction process of my self as a construct of habitual energy, to walk the equalizing of life on this planet to realize the value is life, and thus to bring heaven on earth so that life can begin.

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