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Friday, February 15, 2013

Day 285 Fear of speaking The behavior of commercial speak

I am rushing and thus I am missing what is here, as this consumerist society advertises promise, the promise of more, the promise of being more should one have what is offered and then that promise , the thing gotten does not satisfy as it was not the thing itself that was bought in practical common sense of what is here, but was promised something more. It is really being addicted to the “mystery” of the promise offered, and the excitement of this promise is the drug, a total separation from being one and equal to here.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to participate within the excitement of the “promise” of more, my words directed towards this promise unless I listen to what it is that I speak in absolute detail.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to get caught up in the promise of “more,” to exist within the whine of wanting more as a behavior instead of remaining here in common sense.
I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand that the promise of more, is just this, the energetic high of being within a dream/promise of “more” which is a total separation from reality, from being practically physically here.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to compare men to one another, not seeing realizing and understanding that meanwhile I am constantly told that all men are the same, yet when I date a man, there is all this criticism about the man I am dating, thus, the drive, as what I am told to do, is to find a man, and that all men are the same, and then the switch to the criticism of the man and what he lacks, when a man is “found” , so there is this switch from “ all men are the same” to criticism of the man then chosen, all a driving force of name calling within limitations moving through different dimensions of life, with out addressing the life itself in practical common sense of what is here, enjoying the very substance of life here, from the small to the large, and thus the limitations of what is accepted and allowed and the process of criticizing those limitations is really ourselves telling ourselves of the very limitations we accept and allow, as the limited ideologies we accept is what we have become, the voice of what we allow being thevoice of what we are, and thus become we, the human, a limitation, and thus a stagnation, a separation from life here, ignoring the detail of here, separating from the actual physical world as its parts and the whole, and thus missing the very substance of what is here, the gift of life here.
I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand that when ever I criticize I am not actually here unless I move any and all label directing, immediately into and as what is best for all, in common sense, the moment I call something a less than and expect this less than to suddenly magically become a supposed “more than” without consideration of what I exist as or this system exists as, I am existing as limited judgement and demand only without awareness or directive capacity, as what is here, accepted and allowed is not in fact supporting this world.
Within this, I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand that I am not in fact here, realizing that everything that is here is myself, equal and one, on a planet, a physical world. where the development of what is here is known and yet not followed, as profit for the few, the few seeking a “more than” scenario, themselves absolutely in separation from life, chasing the promise of “more” are literally mentally deranged within and as the illusion of the “ promise of more” that supposed material possessions will bring, when the gift is this actual physical world, where the process of self development and nurturing care of life, as what is needed to nurture life, to allow life to thrive and be an expression of life, is known, and thus this “state of being” that is “promise” of more is an illusion and this illusion is being broadcast through the media diverting the life here into and as the same distortion existent as those who have the control of what is presented by the media, as this system of money is a system of inequality and thus separation from here, economic inequality is a crime against life and a separation from the known needs that allow development of the human child, born without religion, without language, where the language taught as the various cultures of selected limited values, where the values are not good or bad, they are simply limited and warped into justifications of the limitations being a more than, when no culture on this planet has created a world that is best for all, thus the parts to build a world of heaven are here, yet the existent cultures are too busy ignoring what develops absolutely in favor of creating limited role play to allow parts of this world to have a more than, not seeing realizing and understanding that all life must develop and be a total expression of itself absolutely, as what is best for self is best for all.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not see, realize and understand that this charade of “more-than-promise”, was created by each and every human, as anacceptance and allowance is what is used in each of us as a creation, and this, allowing a system of limited values that embed within as images and made huge as mind, isabusing the total capacity of the physical common sense of what is here, this seen in children at a young age when they rapidly learn, which is then shut down as the resonanceof limited ideas, beliefs and opinions of a promise of “more than”, this which is not aligned within the principle of what is best for all, of forgiving of self as life in expression as life, this resonance is the human physical body littered, polluted with the same limited ideas as images plastered all over this planet, and the existences of those that are living where resources are taken from the earth, places where the currency is systemically devalued to allow the profit monetarily to be transferred off shore, where some then present an idea of philanthropy on top of this, hiding this “first action/step” within then presenting philanthropy as “help” AFTER taking, and even here aligning the tiny amount given after taking within what will bring a profit, and thus are the lives existent on the earth not considered and only given a “commercial” voice as a story of doing supposed “good” to create a picture ONLY of a “more than” for the takers, a perpetual state of the promise of “more” for the few, a state of distortion and abuse of what is real, this actual physical world, which must stop, as this is a state of disease and it is causing disease on the ground to plant, animal and human, a crime against life, and yet, when each and every one of us chase an idea of a “more than promise” we are one and the same as this abuse, thus it is the responsibility of each and every one of us to stand and to realize the only choice is to create a system of equality, where all life is considered within and as the common sense of what is best for all, until what exists on this earth is a state of ease, equal in everysingle thing that is on the face of this earth.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to be and become the role play dictated by a consumerist profit driven society of promise, or a heavily religious society of promise should I only follow, and then will my rewards be “great” which is another illusive “promise: causing waiting and hoping and charity in the face of being self interested in gain for the “promise” and the development of the actual physical existence here, is ignored, which is so delusional, so abusive, so ignorant, and so unacceptable, as the value is life, and it is to realize within this that there is no other choice, there is not excuse, no reasoning that can deny that the value is life, that to deny life support is to deny life, and thus is a crime against life, especially when that denial is based on some idea in and as the mind, as belief, and opinion based on some illusion that no one has ever seen.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not see, realize and understand that within this consumerist society, the promise of an object elevating a human is a separation because it is being human as being physically here that is the gift, and yet a picture of the human as this or that, has been taught as being more than, instead of the fact that it is being here physically that is the value, and yet the imagery of the human all dressed up and/or sitting next to some elevated person as an image “promising more” in some supposed after life” is what is taught, so busy is the human with this ideology, a supposed charitable giving, as the advertising all over this world is “free” in that one can walk down the street and see this, thus the dictates are all over the place seemingly “free” when in fact they are not because one cannot live without money, and how we are allowing money to “flow” is allowing all this - ( I was in a communist country when I was 10 or 11, and it was very quiet, no pictures all over the place, thus it was peaceful. It took a while to realize the difference) we the human have allowed the shit that is plastered all over this planet, we have allowed the limitations that are sent across the screens of the technology and the screens of the mind, and thus we are the cause of a separation from life, here this actual physical world, that is what is real that is what supports us, we have programmed ourselves and are programming our children with a limited program that is in separation from common sense of the actual physical world, which is a crime against life, and it is becoming obvious that nature is no longer going to put up with the human, as the human has not proved themselves worthy of life, just go and research the viruses beginning to develop.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand where and how I started to separate from myself into and as a promise of a more than, instead of enjoying the actual physical world in common sense, which means being one and equal to and as this actual physical world, respecting all of this world, as this physical world is life, and thus what is real and the very gift of life.
I commit myself to seeing realizing and understanding that any and all speaking and giving of words that are misleading the human away from common sense of this actual physical world are a crime against life.
I commit myself to seeing realizing and understanding that speaking up about how words used are misleading, will cause massive reactions within and as people around me, and yet there is no choice, as the chasing of the promise must stop, must be brought back to common sense of this actual physical world, as this is standing up for and as life here.
I commit myself to seeing realizing and understanding, that there is running but there is no hiding, so forget about this, and forgive yourself to what is best for all, equal and one, as the value being life here, and thus all life here, as earth must be cared for as this is the way to life, in all common sense.
I commit myself to, instead of making decision for another, to stop and to breath, and to direct in such a way that common sense of here is what is used, to the best of my ability, as i have been taught to chase after the “promise” of more, and keep this in secret, not for the hope of it, but because I know, and we all know, that what we are doing is a crime against life, thus present silence is really shame for accepting and allowing an addiction to a promise of more, instead of being here, equal and one to and as life, thus reactive behaviors are really the exposure of the running to a promise of supposed “more”, and our silence is laden with shame, instead of a silence of peace, as ease, as being present equal and one, to and as life, in equality and oneness, here.



Friday, September 28, 2012

Day 159 Letting go is only reformation

Humans learn ( takes in ) what is presented. If new presentations given, with more detail, the accepted presentations held/under stood/ conceived/ imaged will need to rebuild/ reconstruct/ re-image to include new details. This requires letting go of what was previously believed/ idealized/ opined. This “letting go” to reconstruct/re-imaged/ re- under stood/ cause a re-formation. This process of reformation - for what it is , if not realized as a process/reformation, will then seem/appear/feel upsetting / unsettling/ uncomfortable ( the communicated “ fort” “set at your table” as mind of belief!) as the will-ing to change previous insight as accepted/embedded belief was not including all details/awareness of the whole.
Within this, behaviors as reactions are a “not wanting to change”- as we do not realize including more detail - we hide from what is here in upholding our composition as belief ( ignorance) - and this simply means reforming belief, a process of reconstruction, as understanding an awareness of which is not taught or practiced or understood as a process in and as itself!
What is taught, is just taking in the presentation without seeing it as a formation that is mutable in that it is just a formation. The process of understanding within self of forming self is not understood or clarified and learned as how we work.
Thus, we cling to the formations as the collection of details presented. If these details - taken in as a mind, the tool, as a memory bank of pictures that are a text book-like computation ofknowledge and information, are accepted as ALL the facts - meaning an absolute- and we follow them/ move as them/become comfortable with them ( if they happen to work for us - which is a very few- and thus not absolute) changing them becomes more difficult. It has become habitualized/automated and change becomes a seeming threat to this habitualized driving set of beliefs.
Presenting a limited set of ideas/beliefs/opinions is a crime against life, it is a starvation of life, it is a with-holding of understanding of life, it is being given limited understanding of life, it is an inner starvation of and as life. Thus, most of the world is starving physically because physical support is withheld, and we in the west are in starvation of ourselves as life expression ( pushing papers is NOT life) and all the behaviors existent as supposed deviation from the norm - the norm being the limited presentation - reflect the frustrations, the starvation of life expressions, that cannot and will not - as the will of life - fit into a relation - limited/secondary/ non all/ absolute/ construct that denies understanding/awareness of what/how we work/ the system works etc.
This presentation of limited values distorts reality, and we, as in-printable humans accept the limitations as absolutes, not realizing the relative associations that our experiences are as the presentations.
This distortion becomes all that we know - and it is only a collection of knowledge and in-formation! In other words, fantasy is distortion; we as mind have made the fantasy - as the in-formation- real! A complete separation from life!
Thus, our fantasies, the dreaming, the memories, in and as the mind never tell the whole story, so when reality sets in, the dream - that is the distortion - as it is a composition of limited values- is the song of separation from what is actually here. It is a song in and as mind, composed - of not necessarily bad values- but of limited values to the point where we no longer are reading what is actually physically here!
Movies, dreams, imaging is a distortion of reality, a separation from being absolutely one and equal with what is physically actually here. And being here - one and equal to this physical world would fill the senses of self within the physical, as being in direct connection with this physical/actual/real world.
No secondary dreaming in pictures necessary. Within this, Equal Money is the “sale” of life. It is giving self what is real. This physical actual - fully sensational world - a gift of actual, physical, real enactment as life, HERE.






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Monday, September 17, 2012

Day 149 The idea of my future is based on my past, and not real


I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to begin to imagine a future based on my past.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not see, realize and understand that imagining a future based on my past is not myself here, but myself in a movie in and as mymind, composed of past memories and images and ideas of more than and less than and thus removed from what is actually physically here in this moment of breath.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to want to rush through a decision I have made, to “get it over with” as I have steps to walk and I judge them as tedious and timeconsuming.
I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand that when I am here, things transpire and I realize more of what is in common sense and within this, many times I realized that my idea was not considerate of the totality of what is physically real, thus all there is, is to walk taking each step and facing what is here in this moment and within this not allowing myself to become restless and wanting to fulfill an idea, believing that something can be lost unless my “idea” is exactly as what I have in and as my mind, where if this idea changes than I have not realized the consequences of my decision turned into idea, and must stop and breath and practically look at what such a change entails.
I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand that I then become anxious as, what I imagine is so consuming, that I walk in fear of it not existing and fear losing at every turn, and thus I set myself up to face what is here within fear and thus conflict and then end up in combat where I am not moving as solution and practical interaction in common sense, here.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to “jump ahead” of myself in imagining what the future will bring, separating myself form life in the process and when reality does not match exactly what I have in and as a my mind, instead of looking in common sense I react in fear, damaging my human physical body and creating unnecessary conflict to and towards others as I then blame objects outside of myself, where I turn interactions with others into interacting with an object, as a person, as being fixed within viewpoint and not looking at the viewpoint as just this, a view, and not what is actually here, as a view can change and either adds awareness, or lacks awareness, either can be dealt with, in self expansion, or in realizing common sense of what is here, walking the detail of what is actually physically here..
I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand that I am here, where I am breahting and able to use common sense and practically walk what is here, where the imaginings filled with characters are not who I am, as these characters are really the voice of fear, where the fear is the separation in and as myself ignoring what is here.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to become defensive about the choices I make.
I forgive myself for fearing dealing with bullies.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to fear dealing with limited view points, not seeing realizing and understanding that within this I am fearing my own common sense, where there is nothing else but to stand within and as common sense, within the realization that we are all equal and one, here, as the substance of life.
I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand in every breath, that what I imagine in and as my mind is not myself here, but is based on the past, and changes as I realize , within investigation, of what is feasible here within the choices i make, thus is change ongoing and cannot be a singular idea in and as my mind here.
I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand that the imaginings in and as my mind, take me away from here, and thus I end up, as I did yesterday, breaking my lawn mower because I was not here, watching what I was physically involved with here in what i was doing in the moment.

‘ I commit myself to no longer being the dreamer in and as my mind, and to realize that imagining is hoping and based on fulfilling desires, where I become a desire and then blame another when this desire is not met, where it is myself not having considered my own reality, this physical world.
I commit myself to stopping any judgements, as suggestions as labels of who I am as being more than or less than another, when we are all the same as the variations are by degree , yet this has been made huge and thought of as not being able to change, where these characters, as the roles impressed upon us suggest, are in fact not who we are in totality, as human development happens when provided for, and is in lack when what the earth offers if not shared,
I commit myself to seeing realizing and understanding that any judgement I make is a judgement of myself as life.

I commit myself to expanding upon the limited roles taught as the characters voicing themselves in and as my mind and saying stop, the end/limit is simply ignorance, I can walk beyond this and include awareness within common sense as all is one and equal, here.

I commit myself to not allowing and accepting the characters of self interest and limited insight as to what is actually here, to determine the definition of me, within and without., to not blame or spite, but to bring the limitation back to life, back to seeing , realizing and accepting what is here.

I commit myself to realizing that any constriction within and as me, is myself fearing, and thus in separation, of myself as an expression of life.
I commit myself to speaking up about how the lack of development in any human, plant or animal is a crime of life, as what is known is that non development is caused through lack of support and direction, and within the present system, this lack is prevalent on this earth, and thus the expression of life is being denied in the interest of money being used to give more than is needed to a few and ignoring a life its expression to the many, this is a crime against life.

I commit myself to speaking up when the statement “this is the way it is” is uttered and voiced, as this is ignorance of life and insubstantial as it would be what is broadcast by the few in self interest, and since television is payed for by advertising ads that study how humans can be programmed, it is known that the few must program the many to maintain self interest and ignorance of life, where what is telecasted are the characters of what consumes each of us and entertains us with our own ignorance, where we laugh as we realize how ignorant we are, and meanwhile a child starves, and guns are built by the few with money, and handed out to the angry and frustrated who then attack what they have been lead to believe is the cause, thereby clearing the resources for the few to later sell to monopolies, who abuse the land as the land does not function within a monoculture, as a monoculture is not what the earth consists of and exists as in form and function.
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Day 148 A consequence of physical separation

English: Viking lawn mower.
English: Viking lawn mower. (Photo credit: Wikipedia)

I am mowing my lawn, I did not see the rope on the ground. I broke my lawn mower because I was off in loopy land dreaming.


I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not be here, physically aware of my environment.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to have had the back chat voices in my head say, Why the fuck is that rope there!, when it does nothing to blame some unknown seeable thing that placed this rope there, as it was me, so then another voice asked me how it moved to where it was, as I had not put it there but next to the tree, and then I wanted to blame my one son who has a habit of picking things up, as he likes to twiddle things in his hand, thus things are always moved around, as he is blamed, where none of this back chat matters as it is all blame and spite, and the real action that caused the problem was that I was not here, walking in common sense of what was on the ground as I pushed the lawn mower, so there was/is no one to blame but myself as even this is pointless, because all that is needed is for me to be here in common sense and not off dreaming in and as my mind about “whatever.”
I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand to what extent I am a energetic mind and not one and equal to life here, physically here, with the only thing I can actually deal with in any given moment, which is being here, breathing, moving in common sense with this instrument of life that is my human physical body, expressing myself here, with life, this physical world, as this is what is real and not the desires, wants and needs, emotions, feelings and opinions , in and as my mind, and if I really take a good look at what i am as mind I will see, realize and understand that the mind is of a limited story line, that bears no witness to what is actually physically happening in this world, as the character personifications are ideas of more than and less than, fear of loss and desire to gain in a game of survival called capitalism that we have all accepted and allowed to be an impression of what life is, when this is not what life is, as many entities, as expressions of life on this planet are not considered and thus abused, thus we are not working with what is here, and within this we have no idea how these things were created as mind, and yet we assume dominance to and towards that which we have no understanding for, where the simplicity of this is so easy to understand and demand that we ask ourselves what we are in fact doing assuming supremacy when we have no clue as to what created this existence, in and as the limited minds we have allowed ourselves to exist as.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to want to become the character of self pity, to allow an emotion of self pity, where i believe I have been mistreated, unloved and picked on as though some supernatural force has come and purposely caused my lawn mower to break, which is really a mind fuck and myself not being here, looking at what is actually physically here, and within this I realize that this is what has been taught, myself to exist as a superstitious, scared, helpless human, when in fact this is not what i am, I am life, one and equal to what is here, and thus there is no one, no object to blame, nothing to point the finger at, as it was me allowing myself to exist as my mind, a program of no awareness of this physical world, as I accepted and allowed myself to not be aware of the grass and the ground, thus it is not to blame myself either, but to realize that all there is is breath and being physically here.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to Also go into the character of a woman, where I have the back chat , in self pity, that there should be a manly man here to deal with this lawnmower, where I then have back chat to and towards blaming men that I have known for not being here to do what men are supposed to do, which is a belief and not myself actually being here, looking at what is here, realizing that the lawn mower is a machine  and meant to cut grass, and that it functions in a certain way, and if I run over some rope, and the rope gets caught in the blade arm, and pulls on this in an opposing manner, then it will probably break the machine, so thus there is not need for a man to explain a machine like this, I can see, realize and understand that when the blade no longer turns the full circumference, and drags at one point that something has been bent in some way, and thus to fix this is probably more than the machine is worth, as products are made so cheaply now and labor is costly, the only solution is to buy a new one, which as we can see, our system is focused on profit and image and within this, the image thing is that I have to make my house look presentable within established norms because this is the picture wanted in this world, where it is probably better for the grass to be long, as the wind moved the blades as the form of the grass and this allows interaction between the air and the soil, and actually cleans up pollutants in the air as the bacteria in the grass break down the pollutants, thus this whole scenario is not what is best for all.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to seek a feel good situation in talking about how everything I am doing in mowing the lawn is not what is best for all, when what I was, within that moment of mowing was not being here, equal and one to what I was interacting with in the first place.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to begin to worry about money, as my washing machine is broken as well and I start to worry about spending money on repairs, where i have been in situations like this before and managed to use my common sense and get through them, thus this is what will be walked and within this allowing myself to realize a situation where such mechanical break downs, as they are a part of life at the moment, will not be so overwhelming.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not see, realize and understand that I had already mowed most of the yard, and it is only a small part to be done, thus since it is Fall and the grass will grow more slowly, I can have someone come and finish the lawn, as this will be more cost effective for where I am at at the moment, and the lawn will probably only need to be mowed one or two more times, thus this situation is not as doom and gloom seeming as I immediately reacted as when I ran over the rope because I was not here breathing and looking at what i was in fact doing physically.


I commit myself to realizing that the only solution to this is to realize the importance of breath, to actually be here, breathing looking at what is here, and to not be following loopy imaginings in and as my mind.
I commit myself to practice listening to what is here, to being one and equal  in and as breath, to exist in common sense of what is actually physically here.
I commit myself to say stop, when and as I become reactive, and to realize all the characters I have accepted and allowed, such as the female character, the self pity character, the superstitious -abdicating responsibility character which is wanting someone else to take care of me character, the doom and gloom-worry-about-money character, the blaming-men character, the blaming-the-system character, the self righteous character, the knowing character, the whole crew of this mind stage play that is a separation from what is actually physically here, this crew a troop of whining, complaining, self interested-one dimensional-cries of energetic-non-substantive-and-able-to-direct and solve storms-in-teacups. What a fucking soap opera of illusion. What the fuck are we doing people?

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