Reciprocity Day 703

Within the sales process I have learned the importance of listening. There are levels of listening, as one must see the whole and the parts. One thing I notice is how self validation comes forward, in the form of the speakers experience, the things that express the structure the person uses to self guide, to self support. It is a form of conception, a form of knowledge and information that defines the person. I must listen to this, as it shows me what the person uses to order themselves and their goals, and what is unique about them. This means, that window into what potential they gravitate towards to connect as a starting point with this earth.

The moment I interrupt them, I am essentially beginning to force something on them. I am taking what they have said and already, in a rush, relating it to myself. I have not asked questions to clarify and made sure that I understand where they come from, what they have defined themselves as. And, I have not used their state of being to hear what would more than likely, to a tiny degree, expand my awareness, because inevitably, everyone is unique, because everyone is standing on a different point on the ground, thus even with all the layered stories of experience within this, there is always an insight buried in the storm. I must listen for that, and yet, understand the building around that point. It becomes an incredible thing to be able to do, this math, and this discovery of a point of connection. This is overall a process, and it is the same for myself, as it is for another. It is a reciprocal process.

Lately, I have attached the image of a horse to this process. For some reason I define a horse as having a reciprocal nature. This is moving backwards and forwards, to see the parts and the whole, to even enjoy this process. It is accepting the gift of understanding and then reconstructing once a connection is made. 

Before I began to realize this, I would get scared and angry, righteous and overwhelmed, moving into all manner of justifications and frustrations to push a goal I had within me. There is nothing wrong with the goal, really, it is who I am within what I am doing that is the problem. That rush, my own agenda wanting a quick connection instead of realizing that the process is living. In space and time I can only be here, and development moves in many ways, like self awareness is in perpetual change, or transformation, and that this is being here. 

This reminds me of the summers I allowed art students to open a gallery in my living room. Each student had a different approach to their art. One did iconographic pictures, mixing up cartoon-like images in new ways. Another, did pictures of nature, oil paintings and water colors. Another, did really simple still life’s of objects. When people walked into the gallery, they would automatically be drawn to certain images.  Some like the simple and somewhat amateur still life’s, some went right to the paintings of nature, and some stood in front of the story line images.  Each type of art made some sale. 

Thus, each person reveals their own belief systems within their choices, and their words more than likely reveal the patterns of their belief, and the experiences used to justify their belief systems. Before one can connect with another, one must reciprocate, meaning move back and forth, listening and understanding where a person comes from as their perspective of reality. 

Within this, resistance is productive, because it helps realize what defines as a structure and then allows one to open up that structure in small and simple ways, to open doors into accepting other perspectives and expand within one’s self. Within this, comes an ease and a sense of trust. And, an exposure of how all of this works, because one then has the contrast of one’s belief and that of another. Thus what could be considered a limitation, becomes a means towards expansion. Limitation becomes an illusion. Yet, this is how we learn, this is how we practice becoming present, enjoying form no matter what and seeing it for what it is and looking outside of that to change, as change will happen in small steps, digestible steps. This is reciprocity at work, moving backwards and forwards until something is clear, enjoying one another no matter the starting point. 

What does this mean in practice? This means listening to the story being told. This means hearing the value judgements, realizing the persona is in the words, getting to know the personality. Within this, discovering the potential suppressed as the means to the end, have not been lived and instead a past of experience leading to a role, as a persona was the choice made. This means moving back and forth, grounding one’s self in the physical reality that is right here. This physical reality remains, even when the persona wavers in protection and defense, avoidance and blame. In the silence, and the stillness of focus can one begin to sense patterns and call them out by name, indirectly telling stories, creating a value  that realizes the capacity through ordinary action that leads to the extraordinary movements that we all admire for their grace and ease. Those who have a small measure of development, that supposed exception to accepted and allowed rules that reveal in every way, the means to the end - as it is simple. What complicates is what causes resistance. That self suppression via limitation and ideas of lack circulating as pictures and words, as voices in the memory, a mind full of morality codes made larger than life and in separation from the practice of reality , a physical reality. It is a firewall , that is emotional. It is the veil. It has parts that are good, yet those are ideas  - not presence  in reality,  they are  - right or wrong - personifications. They are illusion, they are like a television. You are electrical and magnetic by design.  As within, so without, as above, so below.

So much of my life has been caught in sympathy. This means being sympathetic only, accepting another persona and agreeing with it, instead of realizing real empathy is listening and then giving practical solutions that move the path SIM-ulated into an expansion that allows one to move with ease and create, meaning to live the kind of potential realized inherent in the design of who and what we are as men, with two arms and two legs and two hands and the ability to move with our presence into forms, be they imagined or real, to sense the space of this reality around us, catching those point of resistance and yet seeing the creation of them, an inflating of what is a value judgement made huge, and bringing what was not expressed, or what was missed into a practical action. This is making things small, as within an equal size relationship to the physical world. This can only be done right here, in the commons of reality that is the physical world.

Within this I need not fear the projections of the mind of men as this is not who and what they really are. I need not fear losing anything, because what expands and creates can never be lost, yet it can become silent and begin again. What works remains and what destroys cannot remain, we either realize the value being life, or we continue believing that our egos are larger than life, mis-using the imagination with what is an imperfect practice, as we are not here, in respect of physical reality.

If we accept knowledge and information from an authority that speaks on a soap box from a distance, we lose all connection to our natural ability to assess reality, and we become instead filled with malice- a crystallization mercurial in nature a false morality, because we miss what is hidden in plain sight as the physical world.  We believe that adderal will help our depression because the label by the authority says so. We follow instead of investigate. later we may discover that this ‘ thing’ is really crystal meth with an added chemical chain that does not change the action of the original and real name. The damage done from such following is the mis-takes never solved, these which accumulate as mis-information/story, that weigh down the body while one lives in a false bliss up there in a bubble that is a personification. If we listen we all hear this, we all see this, we all know this. It is that we fear to live. Yet, that which we fear is the only way out. This is why that which we resist persists, because it must be made clear and brought down into practical measure equal to physical reality, as the physical is creation in expression.

Within myself, in relation to this, I realize the people I have trusted I can no longer trust, or that I am alone, that I must stand and be responsible for who and what I am.  Someone once said, trust no one. In reality, I can only trust myself, with the help of the commons, as the ground here, I can begin to slow down and listen and no longer become confused, or recognize that I am confused and see that I have not found that simple point to bring forward that is always right there in front of me, in every moment. For this, I can use my best friend; silence - and who has a twin known as patience.  I am here. I can take that which is good and does no harm and I can walk with self forgiveness into investigation and assessment to find what is self corrective until equality in each and every point realizing the value is life is here on earth.  I see, realize and understand that fear is a sign that I am not present in reality. I can use the capacity of myself as life, to take the time to reciprocate and build understanding and then relate to respecting reality and choosing what is best for all, as this is what s best for self, here. 

Day 314 Disgust Character Behavior Dimension

I have a friend coming around who I have known for years. He hears about desteni, but is also aggressive towards me within wanting a relationship. Sometimes I have thoughtsthat I do not want him to come around because of this insistence. But I continue, because as long as he becomes more interested in a process of self realization, I will communicate with him. So, it is to realize a relationship is not an option, and yet to continue communication without any reaction towards his behaviors. Here I will forgive myself for the reaction I have towards his insistence, as this is only in the mind and not what directs here.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not see, realize and understand that this emotion of rejection as anger, as fear, as disgust is really myself not trusting myself within and as simply being here.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to become annoyed as the insistence of another.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to fear being intimate with someone within my environment because I fear it will lead to more insistence within having a male female relationship, which in common sense cannot exist between us due to incompatibility, yet this does not mean an absence of communication and mutual understanding and support.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to fear the aggressiveness of this person, not seeing realizing and understanding that in every moment I decide who I am and what i am, and the insistence of another does not determine myself here.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to have a fear that this person will end up clinging to me, and then blaming me, for outcomes in life.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to feel that I am responsible for this person’s life.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not see, realize and understand that within feeling disgust and rejecting in fear of being blamed, I am in essence abdicatingmyself within self responsibility within and as directing myself within the moment  building an imaginary outcome which is a judgement, this in itself a separation from being present here, within each moment in and as breath, realizing that I can within each moment, as this is all there is, is the moment here, stop and breath, and bring myself back here, slow down and investigate what is best and from here, direct myself within and as what is best for all, thus there is no need to fear, or allow myself to become a reaction.
i forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not see, realize and understand that the anxiety that comes up within this, in fear of a bully is from my childhood in and as a fear of a paddle and or a whip, where I was a small child, where I notice a memory of myself facing this form of punishment used in my home, and it is like a huge dread and fear which is not here, not what is here, thus I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not see, realize and understand that this fear is based on a memory from my past, of myself standing before punishment as a child, with no way out and only an extreme anxiety, which I am able to stand through as this is not here, and only a memory of the past.
I commit myself to slowing myself down when and as I notice a shortness of breath and a constriction of anxiety, to stop and to breath and to see, realize and understand that this is not what is here in this moment, and that I am able to use common sense and direct myself here within and as what is best for all.
I commit myself to seeing realizing and understanding reactions within myself as energy, as memory as the past, that which cannot define myself here, unless I accept and allow this, thus I slow myself down and bring myself here, within breathing to see, realize and understand what is physically here, that can be practically lived though common sense within the principle of what is best for all, thus this memory as the past as a separation into energy, as a reaction is not what i am here and this fear and sense of self within being disgusted is a stagnant state of myself here.
I commit myself to not allow myself to become this reaction of a helplessness, as this is based on limited insight and thus not what is real here.
I commit myself to slowing myself down, with and as breath, when and as I begin to experience anxiety and physical constriction, to not allow this reaction to be what I am here, as I am able to remain here, and from this direct myself here.

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Day 285 Fear of speaking The behavior of commercial speak

I am rushing and thus I am missing what is here, as this consumerist society advertises promise, the promise of more, the promise of being more should one have what is offered and then that promise , the thing gotten does not satisfy as it was not the thing itself that was bought in practical common sense of what is here, but was promised something more. It is really being addicted to the “mystery” of the promise offered, and the excitement of this promise is the drug, a total separation from being one and equal to here.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to participate within the excitement of the “promise” of more, my words directed towards this promise unless I listen to what it is that I speak in absolute detail.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to get caught up in the promise of “more,” to exist within the whine of wanting more as a behavior instead of remaining here in common sense.
I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand that the promise of more, is just this, the energetic high of being within a dream/promise of “more” which is a total separation from reality, from being practically physically here.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to compare men to one another, not seeing realizing and understanding that meanwhile I am constantly told that all men are the same, yet when I date a man, there is all this criticism about the man I am dating, thus, the drive, as what I am told to do, is to find a man, and that all men are the same, and then the switch to the criticism of the man and what he lacks, when a man is “found” , so there is this switch from “ all men are the same” to criticism of the man then chosen, all a driving force of name calling within limitations moving through different dimensions of life, with out addressing the life itself in practical common sense of what is here, enjoying the very substance of life here, from the small to the large, and thus the limitations of what is accepted and allowed and the process of criticizing those limitations is really ourselves telling ourselves of the very limitations we accept and allow, as the limited ideologies we accept is what we have become, the voice of what we allow being thevoice of what we are, and thus become we, the human, a limitation, and thus a stagnation, a separation from life here, ignoring the detail of here, separating from the actual physical world as its parts and the whole, and thus missing the very substance of what is here, the gift of life here.
I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand that when ever I criticize I am not actually here unless I move any and all label directing, immediately into and as what is best for all, in common sense, the moment I call something a less than and expect this less than to suddenly magically become a supposed “more than” without consideration of what I exist as or this system exists as, I am existing as limited judgement and demand only without awareness or directive capacity, as what is here, accepted and allowed is not in fact supporting this world.
Within this, I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand that I am not in fact here, realizing that everything that is here is myself, equal and one, on a planet, a physical world. where the development of what is here is known and yet not followed, as profit for the few, the few seeking a “more than” scenario, themselves absolutely in separation from life, chasing the promise of “more” are literally mentally deranged within and as the illusion of the “ promise of more” that supposed material possessions will bring, when the gift is this actual physical world, where the process of self development and nurturing care of life, as what is needed to nurture life, to allow life to thrive and be an expression of life, is known, and thus this “state of being” that is “promise” of more is an illusion and this illusion is being broadcast through the media diverting the life here into and as the same distortion existent as those who have the control of what is presented by the media, as this system of money is a system of inequality and thus separation from here, economic inequality is a crime against life and a separation from the known needs that allow development of the human child, born without religion, without language, where the language taught as the various cultures of selected limited values, where the values are not good or bad, they are simply limited and warped into justifications of the limitations being a more than, when no culture on this planet has created a world that is best for all, thus the parts to build a world of heaven are here, yet the existent cultures are too busy ignoring what develops absolutely in favor of creating limited role play to allow parts of this world to have a more than, not seeing realizing and understanding that all life must develop and be a total expression of itself absolutely, as what is best for self is best for all.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not see, realize and understand that this charade of “more-than-promise”, was created by each and every human, as anacceptance and allowance is what is used in each of us as a creation, and this, allowing a system of limited values that embed within as images and made huge as mind, isabusing the total capacity of the physical common sense of what is here, this seen in children at a young age when they rapidly learn, which is then shut down as the resonanceof limited ideas, beliefs and opinions of a promise of “more than”, this which is not aligned within the principle of what is best for all, of forgiving of self as life in expression as life, this resonance is the human physical body littered, polluted with the same limited ideas as images plastered all over this planet, and the existences of those that are living where resources are taken from the earth, places where the currency is systemically devalued to allow the profit monetarily to be transferred off shore, where some then present an idea of philanthropy on top of this, hiding this “first action/step” within then presenting philanthropy as “help” AFTER taking, and even here aligning the tiny amount given after taking within what will bring a profit, and thus are the lives existent on the earth not considered and only given a “commercial” voice as a story of doing supposed “good” to create a picture ONLY of a “more than” for the takers, a perpetual state of the promise of “more” for the few, a state of distortion and abuse of what is real, this actual physical world, which must stop, as this is a state of disease and it is causing disease on the ground to plant, animal and human, a crime against life, and yet, when each and every one of us chase an idea of a “more than promise” we are one and the same as this abuse, thus it is the responsibility of each and every one of us to stand and to realize the only choice is to create a system of equality, where all life is considered within and as the common sense of what is best for all, until what exists on this earth is a state of ease, equal in everysingle thing that is on the face of this earth.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to be and become the role play dictated by a consumerist profit driven society of promise, or a heavily religious society of promise should I only follow, and then will my rewards be “great” which is another illusive “promise: causing waiting and hoping and charity in the face of being self interested in gain for the “promise” and the development of the actual physical existence here, is ignored, which is so delusional, so abusive, so ignorant, and so unacceptable, as the value is life, and it is to realize within this that there is no other choice, there is not excuse, no reasoning that can deny that the value is life, that to deny life support is to deny life, and thus is a crime against life, especially when that denial is based on some idea in and as the mind, as belief, and opinion based on some illusion that no one has ever seen.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not see, realize and understand that within this consumerist society, the promise of an object elevating a human is a separation because it is being human as being physically here that is the gift, and yet a picture of the human as this or that, has been taught as being more than, instead of the fact that it is being here physically that is the value, and yet the imagery of the human all dressed up and/or sitting next to some elevated person as an image “promising more” in some supposed after life” is what is taught, so busy is the human with this ideology, a supposed charitable giving, as the advertising all over this world is “free” in that one can walk down the street and see this, thus the dictates are all over the place seemingly “free” when in fact they are not because one cannot live without money, and how we are allowing money to “flow” is allowing all this - ( I was in a communist country when I was 10 or 11, and it was very quiet, no pictures all over the place, thus it was peaceful. It took a while to realize the difference) we the human have allowed the shit that is plastered all over this planet, we have allowed the limitations that are sent across the screens of the technology and the screens of the mind, and thus we are the cause of a separation from life, here this actual physical world, that is what is real that is what supports us, we have programmed ourselves and are programming our children with a limited program that is in separation from common sense of the actual physical world, which is a crime against life, and it is becoming obvious that nature is no longer going to put up with the human, as the human has not proved themselves worthy of life, just go and research the viruses beginning to develop.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand where and how I started to separate from myself into and as a promise of a more than, instead of enjoying the actual physical world in common sense, which means being one and equal to and as this actual physical world, respecting all of this world, as this physical world is life, and thus what is real and the very gift of life.
I commit myself to seeing realizing and understanding that any and all speaking and giving of words that are misleading the human away from common sense of this actual physical world are a crime against life.
I commit myself to seeing realizing and understanding that speaking up about how words used are misleading, will cause massive reactions within and as people around me, and yet there is no choice, as the chasing of the promise must stop, must be brought back to common sense of this actual physical world, as this is standing up for and as life here.
I commit myself to seeing realizing and understanding, that there is running but there is no hiding, so forget about this, and forgive yourself to what is best for all, equal and one, as the value being life here, and thus all life here, as earth must be cared for as this is the way to life, in all common sense.
I commit myself to, instead of making decision for another, to stop and to breath, and to direct in such a way that common sense of here is what is used, to the best of my ability, as i have been taught to chase after the “promise” of more, and keep this in secret, not for the hope of it, but because I know, and we all know, that what we are doing is a crime against life, thus present silence is really shame for accepting and allowing an addiction to a promise of more, instead of being here, equal and one to and as life, thus reactive behaviors are really the exposure of the running to a promise of supposed “more”, and our silence is laden with shame, instead of a silence of peace, as ease, as being present equal and one, to and as life, in equality and oneness, here.

Day 135 By a Man came these words, and not a god.

I commit myself to supporting what is best for all life on this planet.

I commit myself to breathing, to slowing myself down and bringing myself here, utilizing breath and self forgiveness and corrective application until I am one and equal with my human physical body, here

I commit myself to speaking up about the consequences of what the human has accepted and allowed through being within common sense of what is being practiced on this earth that is not in fact supporting life, here.

I commit myself to pointing out a non-sequitur when when such comes up in a conversation through the use of cause and effect, where the causes must be looked at, as the effects of what is here on this planet, to the soil, to the health of the human, to the economic hardships of people around the globe, to the waste in food produced, to the amount of suicide, to the conditions of the cows and the chickens who are no longer able to live the life spans that is within their nature, to the amount of crime; crime that is a behavior of survival and thus the effect of a cause of non support.

I commit myself to facing the storm of irritation, of the bully of ignorance not wanting to change as this character, as protection/defense is no different that the criminal wanting to survive, and that the act of bullying is hiding which is a crime no more than or less than any other crime, as it is a suppression of life, an act of ignorance, a set of different colors, yet still within the realm of color - emotions, feelings and thoughts, inconsiderate and thus separate from what is real, from this physical world and how this physical world in fact functions.

I commit myself to speaking up about how the exception indicates the capacity and thus the exception shouts the reverse of life that exists within this system of inequality, that the exception is the capacity of life to express itself and thus the exception is the norm should life be lived, and the non achievement of the exception is the effect of a system of inequality that does not support life, glaringly revealing the extent to which life on earth is not being lived.

I commit myself to standing up within the worship of a false idol, which is what religion in fact is, so obvious in the state of this world, where religion is being used to accept the exception to the norm as necessary within and as the suffering this exception manifests for the non developed - as what is the cause of suffering - to accept their fate as the will of an invisible god, a make believe imposition to pour into the vessel/vassel of life as the physical human body, with this “bling” of hope as what sustains, to feed a slave, so that the vested with the comforts their forced signature as the laws that are composed to protect the castle of their interests in abuse and ignorance of life as they play god - the consequence of which is the destruction and abuse existent on this earth, which we all see, and realize yet we are one and equal to the abuse as we fear losing money and within this fear, choose not to stand up and change this system to one that supports all life, thus we are the cause of our own destruction as there is no choice but to stand and realize this system of inequality as capitalism is not supporting life.

I commit myself to supporting all life, as this that is here is one and equal as me, that what is here is an organism of life, the parts the family of life, where until this family is supported there is no real life existent on earth.

I commit myself to revealing how are children are not in fact being allowed to become the life that they are, and instead are diminished through the lack of common sense development of this physical world, and instead of fed ideas, beliefs, and opinions that support a system of inequality, and thus is the human, one and equal to the dairy cow who’s life span is shortened and dies only knowing a small caged space, thus this is what is happening to us and our children, as we are one and the same as that cow, a caged bird who cannot sing. A suffering that makes no sense, as what supposed “afterlife” would want an undeveloped substance of life? Only a false god would do such a thing. And we were told to not worship any false idols, through a man came these words, and not a god.

Creation's JourneyTo Life

Heaven's Journey To Life

Earth's Journey To Life

Day 78 I am the creator of my character, thus I am a creator.

Day 78 I am the creator of my character, thus I am a creator.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not realize that when I desire a character, as the characteristics of the perfect man, I am in effect turning that man into a character, a singularity, and thus when the totality of that man emerges the fairy tale, bolly/hollywood experience is over.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand that the mind, as consciousness, builds ideas, beliefs and opinions, in and as a character, of ,limited -separate from physical reality and existence where as myself I am allowing and accepting myself to be and become the supporter of character that is singular by design.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see realize and understand that in wanting a character, as myself, as a friend, as a man, I am in fact supporting and accepting singular ideals and thus limiting myself and the other.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand that I have been trained to develop character so that other characters will expect the same responses in and as me within a relationship, and should I step out of that character, their character loses support for what has been developed to survive and feed desires, and thus, the loss of survival and desire, singular in and of itself, will no longer be supported and thus feel that death is imminent.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not realize that in wanting an ideal man, or job, I am wanting a characteristic,  that by nature is singular, just like a plastic doll, which is what many of our children model themselves after never learning to actually move themselves within the expression of life, where life is multifaceted and filled, as self, with endless expression, where in order for the person to become a singularity is indicative of the ability of the human to be an expression, and thus why do we have a system where only singular expression are more often than not, what is plastered on the faces of men?

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand that in becoming a character of a singular “label’ I in essence forget the totality of life within and without.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand that in building a character that is able to deal with what is accepted and allowed on this earth, I am building a survival defense mechanism, never stopping and questioning why such a suit must be built and to not realize that if I am capable of this than I am capable of becoming myself as life, as I am in fact a creator and thus, this survival suit I am building to survive is myself capable of building and organizing a world that is best for all, where no suit or armor need be built and instead I as a creator can be and become an expression of life, directing myself as life, instead of directing myself as a singular expression of a limited character.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to enslave another into and as a character which is what I am doing when I dream of a man with certain characteristics.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see realize and understand that when I desire a man, or a friend , or that fur coat, I am not considering the life that is the man or the friend or the fur coat and in essence turning all life into and as a singular character, to become and exhibition of character and not life, where this action indicates my ability to be a creator and thus my ability to step out of what I have built within and this world system of abuse without and create a world that is best for all, where I can realize myself as creator and build a heaven on earth.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not see realize and understand that what I seek in character as myself is what I believe will enable myself to survive in a system of limited design that is the nature of what a system of inequality must be in order to maintain leaders and followers.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see realize and understand that if I cannot grasp myself beyond an idea of a singularity in and as thinking about being a character, then I have become so separated from myself as life, I have forgotten that part of myself that was the creator that built the character in and as myself.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to have had an idea of what a man should be, of what kind of man i would want, not realizing and understanding that when I do this I limit myself as life and the life of that man.

I commit myself to realizing that just as I have created a character to survive, following the image and likeness of what was taught by parents and society and the ways and means of education, myself as life was molded into a limited design which means I am a self as life able to create and thus I am able to stand and create heaven on earth.

I commit myself to realize where and what I exist as a character, where I fear losing this projection in and as what I have developed where I list my characteristics, like for example on a dating website, and see, where what I believe that I am, is myself wanting  or myself believing that if I find the perfect mate I will become more than I am, not realizing that no matter how much I live some dream, there can be no stability on this earth until everything that is here is cared for and supported, and thus, within this as long as the total life expression of this earth is not cared for there is not going to be myself as self as life as creator, that which is myself that  built my initial character used to ensure what I believe will enable myself to survive in a system of inequality.

I commit myself to no longer seeking the “perfect” characteristics as this is myself wanting to appear “good, ‘  not stopping and asking myself why it is that I must appear to be good in the first place as this question indicates that it is known that non-goodness exists on this planet and that perhaps the real question is why there is a system that does not support life and develops characters that exhibit survival characteristics of murder and rape, and gun carrying and robbery and fractional banking and debt accumulation and economic hitmen?

I commit myself to realizing that I am a creator and that I can thus create a world that is best for all, and bring myself back to myself as life, where I need never search for more outside of myself as life will be what i am and the creation of heaven on earth will be what it is that I create.

Stand up and support an Equal Money System to be and become the creator of heaven on earth.

The Soul of Money

When Breath is not your own.