Showing posts with label judgements. Show all posts
Showing posts with label judgements. Show all posts

Sunday, April 3, 2016

Day 693 The system mirrors what I accept and allow over time.

The night before last, I reacted to some information. I had to breath and slow down, reforming my  value judgement into a practical measure that realized an outcome that would be what is best for all. I have to realize what forms I am within, change and reorder over time. What appears as one way, can change in the future, and as long as things are supported under the current paradigm/structure, to remain in place.

I noticed the next evening, at about the same time, I suddenly felt uneasy, and I realized it was the residual emotions of the subsequent evening.

Also, the other day, while working in my yard, I noticed movements within me would rise and then settle. I had walked so many of these movements, calling them by name, that I could call them out and say no. This is not who and what I am, this is not what I will allow to define who and what I am here. 

Also, in talking with parents, I notice that I fear calling something by name, as though it is an effrontery to call something out. And yet, there are moment when I did so and it was accepted by the parents. Other times I have had parents shut down, through up their arms and say, it is not my responsibility or, “ I do not have the time.” Even here, I have told stories, lines of form that covey an outcome.  I have walked the means in detail. It is that line where I still blame myself for not getting the horse to drink the water.  And it is this point that sometimes I forget that it is not what I have said, or how I have said it, is that that it needs to be said again, as the reactions must clear, and the ground seen, to use a metaphor here. This is to remember, just as I remember myself from my own storms, to ground myself here, in the moment, remembering how what I allow as measure, can become me if I allow it, and that the same means is to place that awareness into continued cross reference with the reality around me and, even the forms created in ignorance of what is real, the physical. In each and every breath, nothing can define who and what I am. I, as life, can become master of myself. This is myself accepting the gift that is life.

I read this article this morning, and for me it not only described how our systems are formed over time, it also describes how we are formed over time. It describes the means to the end.

Then, in this article, we can realize the deception that really mirrors what we allow within ourselves in self interest, how we protect through ignorance, how we allow something in one situation and not in another. We can use a ‘ bad’ an accepted knowledge about something to take something out, and yet, ignore that same information when it does not suit our goals. In this instance, the system entities ignore depleted uranium  ( go to  7:00 minutes)  and yet arrest a man for having it on his presence.  And, how this reveals the reality of the substance, ignored by those we look to because they have a piece of paper that says they know. They do know, they choose to ignore it, because they fear losing their job over the children of this world.  Within this scenario and realizing how we work, which is obvious if we take the time to look, it becomes obvious that what we allow informs the system. The consequences will reach through one’s self interest of protection and self defense in allowing ignorance to keep that job. 

It is revealed that our water in America is now filled with toxins as a consequence of drugs and pesticides. This means that that which was ignored, is all around us. And our children are manifesting the consequences to the extent it si becoming an elephant in the room. Those things we ignore to keep that job, the accumulate, just as my judgements accumulate in my body, revisiting me in space and time, as a measure, as a belief that is not equal to what is best for all, what is a measure that is equal to the present moment, what is a measure that allow me to focus myself here, in clarity. 


Remember, as within, so without, as above, so below. We as physical beings are the pivotal point of life, as the physical is life information.  Real abundance is being present here, taking that which is good and does no harm. Everything else is a separation from life. 



Monday, December 16, 2013

Day 477 The muddy waters of the impulses of consumerism.


I notice this “ mud” as I want to call it, coming up/coming down when I am around people. I try to avoid it through talking, and then I become excited about talking which can appear calm in many ways because over time I have learned to dampen this as this is accepted social behavior, but it is really a suppression of a desire, and the desire is to hide the underlying emotions, that are a series of judgements based on past events, that, in themselves have nothing to do with practical reality.
Because I am walking the desteni I process, I have taken the time, and used the tools of self forgiveness, writing and practical application to realize what i am accepting and allowing inwardly that is slowing me down and limiting me as behaviors that separate me from being here and enjoying life simply.

The self judgements that are this “ mud” are insidious, they are myself comparing myself to a set of limited values that we can all realize, as these values are what is impulsed all around us by a world system that is in itself of limited values to control existence as a belief that men are greater than existence in total and that within this some men are more than others, this being this actual real physical world, hiding that which is real right in front of us, veiling this in the same manner within as is used without; touting directives that suggest survival within this hierarchy where if one follows the limited values one can end up accumulating money and thus sit on top or one can end up on the bottom and fall off all together. Of course there is only so much room on top, so it is inevitable that many will fall. And it has nothing to do with how hard one works, it has to do with how hard one lies directly or indirectly by omission. Lying is ignoring reality. 

My value judgements are where I have accepted and allowed the limited values of this system, they are me comparing myself to limitation that is used to control. They are where I abdicated myself in common sense of life, the physical. They are my veil of separation, and they are the voices and pictures cluttered with limited values, the are vile. They are heavy, they are blinding, they lack insight, they lack depth perception. They create a bubble of pictures around me that, over time, become hidden, as the conscious mind morphs them into symbols of supposed “ good” and as this hide the bad. They are myself when I converse to validate, when that rush to tell my story comes up with a sense of anxiousness to protect others seeing my belief in myself as perhaps lacking in something. This can occupy myself so much that I no longer see my own constraints as belief, opinions and ideas that measure myself to a limited value system. They are myself bearing no real witness to life. They are myself forgetting within survival instead of being forgiving as myself as life, equal to physical reality, that which carries all of this imagined mental construct.

Just before my husband committed suicide, I started to see some things that I questioned around him. I could see one day, like a film around him, where the edges popped like the surface of soda pop. I also could see this anxiety, this subtle shaking as him, and I see this in other men too. This is the bubble of energy that is the mud of separation from being equal and one to physical existence, this is the accumulation of obeisance to a lesser god of hierarchy, and it uses the same tactics and techniques as the consumerist/corporate/economic system determining our lives around us; the media, our education system, our health system, all of it. Even the colors in the screen/surface of the bubble are the same slight blue tinge as our television and electrical lights. As within, so without. Yet so blinding is this energy when followed the real life in the shadows that is considered the “ bad” is what is real, thus life is in reverse. 

We need only realize the amount of abuse and destruction via pollution and starvation, via lack of human development - all development, to realize that we are not in fact taking care of life, and as such not being life. It is the physical world that is what is real. As such the anecdotal is considered circumstantial, and data diluted with a means, is considered real, and meanwhile the abuse on the ground is all around us denied by oversight committees wanting to push the decision onto another committee because the truth be told would end their salaries. 

In a profit based system, cures/solutions do not maintain dividend - the divided end; together we stand divided we fall. I mean, of course the next step is to hide data, because the numbers used simply do not add up. Ironically, with computers it can all be made visible. Digital money can reveal exactly how money moves. And programs are easy to download. Everything is moving faster too bad it was not the human within themselves. And yet, this is still the human not standing up, so it will not work, because we, each of us must in the end, stand for life. Our computers can be used to really see what is going on, this will mean standing up. What is here is to support life, and what has been created can be used to correct the inequality to life that exists. Make no mistake about it, as long as poverty exists, life does not. Equality is the way out. The only way, Becoming equal and one to and as life, here.



Wednesday, March 27, 2013

Day 321 "Don't Look, Don't Look" back chat

How and when did I begin to separate into the fixation as fear, seeking the good “feeling” of validation, mimicking the adults?
So, in not looking, in the dictate of “ don’t look” I have to question why such thought would even exist. I mean why be this, why be a “not looking” at what is here? This in and of itself is a red flag. Life would not be an action of “don’t look”! Life would be live, look, understand, exist, be.
Thus, when I do not look here, when the voice in and as my mind says, “don’t look” I need to stop and to breath, and to slow myself down and to stand within and as what is physically real, to look at the words present , to realize where the words are of ambiguity, where they lack a defining of what is here as what is best for all, where such words disinform what is actually physically happening with the work of the hands of men, as this is what is real, to be and become self responsible within and as what exists within actions taken and the consequence to and towards the actual physical, to put an end to limited self interest, which is the interest of money moving to a few, to maintain an illusory existence in separation from common sense of the actual sustaining physical world.
This is to become the living word , the equal and one consideration of the actual physical world, and how what we allow and accept has consequences in the physical world.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to listen to a voice, in and as my mind that says, “ don’t look, don’t look”.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to exist within and as allowing myself to constrict into “ don’t look”

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to fear being punished, to fear being bullied, and to run from this into and as verifying not being punished through getting attention that validates myself, within and as having the focus and attention from others being one that lacks an action of punishment, where the validation is a “feel good” energetic experience, as I have “won” the absence of punishment through interaction with another, as my parents for example, of having communication that is not of punishment, as blame and spite and name calling and spanking, where the communication is praise, of “light weight” “happy face” conversation, vapid, of verbal diarrhea, this that avoids looking here, realizing what is here as self as life, here.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not see, realize and understand that when and as I allow myself to “not look” I then have accepted the consequence of participating within ignorance of what is best for all as the physical, and within this non-looking to maintain my separation, my survival is a laziness within being equal and one with and as the real actual physical world,
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to within this, drive myself to ensure that I will not be discovered and punished, cast out and ignored through non compliance of entering limited conversations, which I enter to survive, and then become addicted to the praise and friendship in and as energy as the positive feeling where I then seek this attention in self validation, thus making/allowing/justifying the separation from myself as common sense of the actual physical world as myself and how I am here within and as the physical as I include the physical as myself, from a starting point of fearing punishment and an action to ensure that punishment is kept at bay, distant, where what must be realized is that in fearing punishment, an action, a state of being as energy exists, in seeing only punishment and not looking in common sense at what is actually physically here, and within this to not become blame and spite and finger pointing, but to look and to direct self responsibly within and as what is best for all, including the physical, the ecology and the economy being equal and one on earth.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to become comfortable within this seeking of praise to “feel good” within and as energy as mind, in separation from looking here, being here, speaking in common sense, within realizing ecology is equal and one to economy, meaning the physical is what is real, as this is life, where this “feel good” is an avoidance tactic in looking at what is common sense, and a reaction to fear of being punished for questioning the limited self interest, ambiguity and disinformation presented within a design of inequality as self interest lacking awareness of the actual sustaining real physical world.
I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand that this is the confusion many children face, where this confusion is an inability to speak up in common sense, of the physical as a vocabulary has not developed, this which is used by the present system to maintain a belief that self interest, as those on the top of the pyramid cannot see anything else but their existence of comfort and believe this to be the way it is, by some illusory belief in a divine right, which is a total disconnect from physical reality, so evident in the state of the earth within the amount of poverty, sexual abuse, starvation and damage to the environment.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to become righteous within and as this, which is my self not slowing down and using common sense within and as deconstructing what is unacceptable, which will take the physical action of many, thus the idea of a super hero is an illusion, as we must all stand and be self responsible, which means walking through what self has accepted and allowed as mind as separation from common sense of the substance of life, as what this physical world is one and equal to and as.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to avoid facing my own separations from and as myself as life here, into and as mind, to exist within and as a fear of being shut out, within and as speaking up in common sense.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not see, realize and understand that in avoiding here, in fearing to speak up, I allowed myself to become righteous about issues separate from myself with which to be righteous, instead of walking in common sense here, with every breath, all of this a way to justify my own immediate fear of facing the bully in and as the mind, as I had found a comfortable way to keep the bully of “don’t look” at bay.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not see, realize and understand that in order to face the systemic allowance of a dis-regard for life, a non-looking at life as the physical, I as myself must realize my own separations from common sense here and the character in validation protection and defense through seeking praise to establish security as ignoring what is here in common sense, to avoid confrontation and discord to and towards what does not make sense, what is of ambiguity and dis-information , to see realize and understand that the crime is to not point out what is in separation from looking in common sense of what is here in totality, this physical world being life.
I commit myself to, when and as i become a sense of fear, as a sense of falling, within and as coming from my solar plexus area, I stop and I breath, and I slow myself down, to not allow myself to become this sense of falling, of fear, and within this to begin to practice becoming self responsible and self directed within and as common sense, standing before reaction within and as my mind, and without as the voice of fear as separation from common sense, and I look here, practice looking here, taking the words that are presented here, and bring them back into and as being a living word in practical common sense interest within and as what is best for all, here.
I commit myself to walking one step at a time within practicing facing this fear that has a voice that is “ don’t look, don’t look” with a thought that in not looking I will appear to “fit in” with the status quo, which will end, if I continue, with a life not having been lived, as less was the stance taken to ensure survival, instead of self becoming equal and one to and as the living word, this being self living in equal consideration of all life, as life being the value, self living equal and one here without value judgements of more than and less than, and instead looking at what is here in practical common sense, where even the movements and structure of men can be seen realized and understood.

Saturday, March 23, 2013

Day 316 What are memories? What is consciousness? A bubble of separation?

When I react to what is said about another within and as being a judgement, as in not looking at the details of what is here becoming equal and one to them, without making any assumptions or value judgement, looking at the values for what they are and the forms of what is here, how disconnected humans are from what is happening to life on this planet, life that is the same in all of us here, all being everything, it is easier to see how reaction is a blind spot, where all one exists as is separation from actual physical reality.
All justifications are in fact self interest in not wanting to look, in not wanting to see, in not picking self up and becoming life of absolute compassion, looking at as manyconsequences as one is able to grasp, through investigation. This done within asking questions, until a point is reached where a realization exists that any suffering is self in a state of disease, as self as life cannot be here as life, until all life is here, as life, meaning self directive. Self directive means no judgement, no sense of one thing as being more than another, and is anything realizing that an emotional reaction is a disconnect from self direction, which is a disconnect from life here.
I looked at someone today and said to them, “You are a resonant being” and they laughed. Then i asked them if they had any memories, and what memories were, how were they held onto, what would this quality be. So, the fact that we have memories means we are able to resonate with imagery, and imagery can have values attached to it. Ever heard of the word “ nostalgia”? And would the emotions and feelings attached to memories not be considered “good or bad”? And would not soldiers suffering from post traumatic stress syndrome be the effects of horrific experiences/memories caused by war? This is to say a memory is a resonance within us. And depending on the memory, there is a value of good energy or bad energy, thus the memory can have a value as positive or negative.
Then, to take this even further, why would a memory be needed that triggers either a good nostalgic feeling or a bad traumatic feeling? And why have such an occupation as self as life here on earth? Is this necessary and does this allow one to actually be here, I mean why wallow in a “good” memory when one could be here actually being such an experience as what one lives in every moment, meaning directing oneself here on earth without the need for a postcard as a resonance from the past? And why would a trauma exist with energetic emotions of fear and terror? What would create such a thing, especially knowing that memory exists! And if that memory is one that is unbearable, why has it not been seen in common sense that the action that created the memory is an unbearable state of being, and therefor unacceptable, why program such? And if such programming exists, what would happen if the absence of traumatic program were the presence of all of us?
Are our memories showing us where we have run to values, and as such removed ourselves from here, as what exists on earth is an actual removal from looking at here, because for each of us, we would not want the atrocities that exist to happen to us; can’t imagine any of us wanting a child born with horrible deformities such as the ones caused by depleted uranium used in the Irag war. Not one of us able to read this blog would want this, so how and why do we allow this to exist? And would not images of such haunt us? And would this not then be a memory, a resonance as a picture made of wavelengths and vibes and pixels embedded within our flesh, and if this is what happens to the human, then would it not be for the human to ensure that such does not exist on earth, so that what is here is cared for and “clean” of any potential resonance that causes trauma and/or a reaction of disgust/shame/horror/pain/disbelief, and many more?
Even if we wanted to hide from this, and believe that such should not be posted on FB, then can this be a solution? I mean, such abuse exists and it is not going to go away.What if it is like the debt that just gets bigger and bigger and bigger, that is the outcome of usury, that which we were warned against and Jesus was “shut up” for exposing - and others as well?
If the human body is seen as a machine, one that holds resonances, and is given the gift of life but abuses this, all consequence of accepted and allowed actions that are not supportive of life - something that can in no way go unnoticed because it is not in ACCORD with life, , because the separation from what supports all life remains resonant within because it was an action that had not considered all life, then what would remain that shows the separation? Would it be memories that are values of supposed “good” and what then would happen as well, as this is how the machine works, memories of “bad” events are also embedded, as this was the actions allowed on earth, and as the actions this is what is mirrored within? So, what we are, is what we become within, what we allow on earth is what we become within. What we create as the voice on earth, as the actions we allow, is what we become, what we mirror within.

We can run and hide from this, we can run and hide in the good memories, but eventually there is no escape, because meanwhile, the physical world has not reached an expression where what becomes resonant within as the human has no polarity of a good or a bad, and there would be no need to have a memory to be something pulled up to entertain oneself, because here, as the physical world would be absolutely fulfilling in and as existing one and equal to and as life. There would not even be the need for a separate “heaven”, or an alternate reality, because here, would be the sounding of life, absolutely, no need for a re-sound, or even if there were such a thing, it would be as what memory is, a map of what is here, to then be used to perhaps help learn to be here, equal and one to and as the physical, all life equal here, within and without, above and below.
The can be no escape from this. If we take the time to look at this, it makes so much sense, it can be no other way.
Thus, the present system without, is a reflection of the system we have allowed within. it is a system of abdication., it is a system where we believe that a value makes us, defines us, but this cannot be, because this is just a state of being, it is not being the action of being, accepting self as experiencing life, so because we feared losing one “state” we held onto this, and within this became an action of self interest in relation to a value, thus dividing life into fixed states, so to speak, and no longer moving as life.
This is judgement, believing one thing to be more than another. A me-more eeeeeee ride. The starting point of fear of loss, as a negative, moving into a justification to create a happiness, and thus a positive “idea” around the me-more eeeeeeee joy ride, in separation from equality and oneness to and as life, here.
So, the hierarchy on earth is a reflection of this separation, and we are all grabbing resources to allow a few to have more, and others to have nothing, and in our fear of loss we are destroying this earth, as we grab resource in self interest, so we can pass our limited values down generation after generation, as we have come to believe that these limited values define us, and that these values have some kind of meaning, and that all our knowledge and information is taken in in separation from life, because it is used in justifying the more than, the state of ourselves holding a value instead of life being the value, where the expressions of life and all the relationships of expression, the ways of expression as the forms of expression, as what is here on earth, being the experience of being as the value and learning to realize this totally as self, to move as this, to be one with this, thus there would be no death. There would be transformation, expansion in awareness.

This makes so much sense with what has been said to us, as the words of Christ, which were so impressive they could not be denied, a religion was built around them. And then this religion, built by men in separation from life, was used to limit and control, so that some hierarchy could exist dimensionally, this unseen by the eyes of men. A whole existence in separation from life. A system we have all accepted and allowed in abdication of life. Our memories showing us how we are not equal to life. Our memories our idol worship, as consciousness, as mind, as image made huge, a resonance into and as energy, as the division of values made more than and less than, stagnant, unmoving, and thus destructive and devolving instead of living. Earth is showing us our separation and thus abuse we allow on earth, the consequence of our accepted and allowed separation. Memories as collections of thoughts singularly lived again and again compound into emotions and feelings, the consequence of perpetual separation from life, from the giving of ourselves as life equal and one within and as what is best for all as the actual physical world.
Thus the systemic inequality, as profit, this belief system placed next to the principle of the understanding and need to do what is best for all, is the limiting “spoke in the wheel that is life,” remove this, and give as one would like to receive, and life can begin, and the resonance of what we are, will equalize itself to and as life, being here, as it is only here that we can actually be, no need to move and wallow in memory, because here, will be life, and the word will become the living word.
A system of profit, of division into more than and less than, a starting point of a fear of loss, because of a separation from life, cannot work and this, evident with what exists on earth, which, in America, is hidden from view, because if Americans would take the time to look, instead of so much denial - which is really just fear of loss - what would be lost would be realized for the limitation that it is - would mean the end of the very need to deny. Life, real living would have no need to deny, would not have the need to tout transparency as a presentation, the presentation of which admits the existence of non-transparency.
A lie has no other option but to scream its existence, to place what hides around it . So, there is no way out. Humpty Dumpty fell and shattered because he built a wall from which to fall, thus Humpty Dumpty created his own skyfall. lol
Individually we are in pieces and collectively we are in pieces. These pieces must come together within and without. This is done alone and all-one together within respecting life, here, so that life can begin.
DIP Lite

Thursday, November 29, 2012

Day 220 A thought of " I care"

I  forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to have a memory of myself turning within a directive , as a movement based on a positive feeling of “ I care”, within a relationship offear of punishment, as a positive reaction towards a choice within the fear of punishment.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to place a negative value on punishment, to create a positive relationship within fear as the motivation to face the fear and have a desire to make the perceived object of the fear to no longer exist, wherein an attempt is made to face the object of the fear within an idea of care, as in saving the thing made object of demise , through making a decision to face what is presented and questioning its logic.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to have an idea, as an image in and as myself fixing the object of the action being presented, without having adequate communicationskills and understanding of the formation of the object and the objects presentation within its construction and thus confronting confusion within processing effective direction of myself and what is being presented as an expression , here as life.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not see, realize and understand that when confusion is encountered, then something is lacking within common sense, which simply means investigation until common sense is reached .
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to become the character within a persona of wanting to save, to show and tell care, not having an understanding of the mechanics of the mind as a consciousness system, where a thought alone, without breath and common sense, a view of one part made reality and used to make judgements, the compounding of which causes a possession of a distorted reality, leads to consequences lacking in common sense.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to imagine my self stopping accusation and fear within another to avoid punishment.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to go into anger when attempts to end accusation through care are not what is expected.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to have voices in and as my mind of retaliation, which is the same action as blame and spite presented, within abdication of common sense.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not see how I have allowed myself to continue with fear as reaction, instead of remaining clear within common sense as what is best for all, through remaining here as breath, realizing nothing can be lost but myself in separation= fear, whereupon I enter the game of friction and conflict and create an agenda to diminish my fear, where when this is not instantly met, I allow myself to become a reaction as fear, based on an idea of instant gratification, here.
I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand that my human physical body, as an instrument of life, constricts , blocks, physical sense of this world as equal within and without, to place a protection and defense of projecting cause and effect onto an object or action of another, not seeing realizing and understanding that the consequences playing out are a separation from solutions that give self direction and allow self support for all objects and elements involved, where no burdens are left for anyone to carry, and thus the next moment can be lived within absolute expression as life.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to fear being accused as a cause and effect as being detrimental, or having been unaware, as though this is a crime, instead of seeing realizing and understanding that as life the only solution is to forgive within solution as what is best for life, as what the human and all that exists is.


I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not see, realize and understand that within and as fear, as a belief that something can be lost, or that I can fall, just as when childrenfall and are immediately comforted by parents, instead of allowing the child to self direct within having fallen, the child is picked up and held and asked if they are fine, where what is developed is a belief that falling down is bad and thus needs comfort- as care being greater than self direction and self honesty within the moment of the “falling down,” to physically see, realize and understand within self what happened within common sense, thus as a very young child is the human programmed to believe a “mistake” needs e-motional “caring” instead of self assessment and self honesty within self direction within and as the moment, thus are fear reactions ingrained to be answered with “care and comfort” seeking, instead of equal and one standing within what is actually physically here in common sense, and if this is the program, when the same feeling of non-understanding within and as the physical, as uncertainty and separation from physical awareness into and as a relationship being made with developmental moments of uncertainty, within the simplistic act of learning to walk, are coupled with care and comfort instead of self autonomous practical common sense development of here, then this becomes the program of the child in every moment of uncertainty within a process of becoming aware of life and how life functions, thus blame and spite are unacceptable, as these reactions are unresolved awareness of what is practically here and how here as the physical actually functions.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand how this has created a world of “caring” for mistakes, without actually stopping and working out how this physical world in fact functions, where the resources of this earth are grabbed to “care” from a staring point of separation from working in common sense, within self development, in becoming equal and one with and as this physical world, where all corporate action presents “care” as all it sees, run my humans who have not walked through seeing uncertainty as fear as simply lacking common sense of this actual physical world, a development of separation from self equal and one standing to this actual physical world as what is best for all.

I commit myself to seeing, realizing and understanding that real care is allowing the human to self realize self direction in common sense with the physical world.
When and as I see myself going into a feeling of care, I stop and I breath, and I realize, in common sense how this world function, in detail, the economic, the educational, the development of children, as the mechanics of the mind consciousness system , to realign myself equal and one to the physical and no longer exist within limited judgements as possession of thoughts, emotions and feelings indicative of reactions as fear/separation as lacking in common sense, where the cause and effect of this is friction and conflict as an inconsideration of the mechanics of this actual physical world and the system of consciousness as the mind of men made larger than life itself.
I commit myself to remaining here, one and equal as breath, when and as I react in fear, to stop fear being a trigger, as a belief in loss, to investigate the mind consciousness system of separation, as thought, emotions and feelings as products of reactions of fear, and within this to physically recognize fear as reaction within my human physical body as tension, constriction, difficulty in breathing with ease, and a sense of vertigo, among others, to recognize the movements of fear as separation from common sense as life, to walk solutions into and as equality and oneness with all life through common sense awareness of what is best for all.
I commit myself to realizing that care is the development of self awareness of how the physical world functions.
I commit myself to investigating the present human systems that present care, yet this care is within separation from life, as fear of survival, instead of equal and one physical common sense development.



The Century of Self : Part 1 Happiness Machines
Psywar
The Trap
The Power Principle
Human Resources: Social Engineering in the 20th Century
Catastroika - Greek Documentary
The Marketing of Madness

Tuesday, November 27, 2012

Day 217 Values in separation from life affect the physical

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting my self to constrict within my human physical body as an act of ignorance of what is actually physically here, having accepted and allowed myself to be guided by an invisible hand and an invisible god as what was taught through family, education, society, acts of self interest, in the perpetuation of self interest within a system or survival as the manifestation of self interest where the question is what came first, the word and then the invisible god, and in order for this to come there must be what is life as a platform, where life was freely given, and thus the division into more than and less than came through the word as the words of the present system beginning in childhood through parents of same system for generations as the parents are the generators of the word of more than and less than, the consequence of separation from the substance with which the word was formed - so to speak.
I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand that any and all physical reactions within my self are myself in fear, anger, embarrassment, humiliation, all movements within and as myself as emotions and feelings as reactions indicating myself in separation in judgement as a directive in competition as fear of loss within the present system of money determining life, a systemic form of abusive to life as this is what is manifest as the fear of men standing within an illusion of loss of life, not seeing realizing and understanding that being here, is what is real.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to physically constrict in and as my back, my lower back in fear of being seen as nothing in relation to siblings and parents and society.
I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to look at the physical consequences within and without as to how this world function at present.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to have made the desire for attention, as an idea ignorant of what I am, so huge within the immediate threat as a belief in a need for attention where attention came from imitating what was said as the words spoken by parents to survive and avoid punishment, where the fear of punishment was the incentive to comply as a child is too small and either struggles within a unvoiced and understood sense that something does not fit within life, or complies to avoid the alternative of non-compliance.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to have allowed myself to become excited within mystery, as the mystery of a supposed heaven, where excitement was generated, even at holiday seasons where there was always both the thrill of the season and the usual emotional storms of parents, the good and the bad, not seeing realizing that this was the face of the polarities caused by the separation from self as life, as these patterns of emotional reaction and feeling excitement were a part of every holiday event within my family, the good and the bad, both were there, like an emotional roller coaster, where I did not stand back and look at the movement within the altering emotions and feelings of anticipation of company in both emotional fear and the compounding of this into excitement.
I forgive myself for not having allowed and accepted myself to see, realize and understand this pattern, as this was seen on some level and is seen by all, as there is an ever present dread of the holiday season, coupled with memories as belief of what is good as being judgements of how one is supposed to be within interactions with others where there are warm fuzzy feelings of sharing and caring, yet what is shared and what is cared for, giving to the self interests of those within our worlds, without any consideration of all life, as ideas and opinions and beliefs service the storm of emotion and feelings as drives of self interest within survival, made so huge, a connection with self as life, as what is best for all is forgotten for the image and likeness of having a pretty picture consumerist holiday.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to within all this, to stop and to breath, and to realize that through breath and self forgiveness all that can be done is to remain stable as self within this, realizing the consequences of continuing this ignorance of the consequence of what is accepted and allowed by the hands of men as what has created what is here on earth, when the idea of the invisible hand and the invisible god are realized for what they are, the diversions of attention away from what is real this actual physical world, that is the gift of life, the opportunity to birth self as life through equality and oneness with and as the actual real physical world.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not see, realize and understand that the constrictions within and as my human physical body are the suppressions of myself into and as emotions, thoughts and feelings based on limited beliefs, opinions and ideas, in separation from what is actually real this physical world, as I have participated in the game of illusion shaking the hand of an invisible hand and invisible god as the supposed spiritual and economic systems presented and believed, accepted and allowed, where the actual consequence as the products, as the outflows, of the invisible have become the directive, the invisible made larger than life, made idol, that the consequences of this are not looked at, as this would destroy the illusion and what has been accepted and allowed as the abuse of ignoring this actual physical world would mean that everything needs to stop and this earth reorganized to support all life, as life is the value, the real, as the physical as what is here, where there is no other choice but to do this if life is to continue, and this can be done through standing up and voting in a system of equality, starting with supporting a basic income grant and an equal money system, to begin the walk as life, equal and one to what is real, the physical.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand that physical constriction is self in fear of self expression standing equal and one as life in common sense of this actual physical world, in favor of serving an invisible hand and an invisible god.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to allow the limited values that support an invisible hand and an invisible god to be what validates myself as life not stopping and seeing the deception of this idol worship of what is invisible as the allowance of abuse and ignorance of this actual, real, tangible physical world that exists because of the structures and systems built by the hands of men, thus it is the beliefs of men and not the actual physical actions of men than have directed what is here on this planet, as all the abuse existent is a product of men being directed by illusions, where the real, as the building by the hands of men can become directed by what is best for all as the physical becoming one and equal to the physical, which in common sense will not be difficult once realized, all that need be done is to remove the invisible idols made huge in ignorance of what is one and equal in all that is here as the substance of life.

The Century of Self : Part 1 Happiness Machines
Psywar
The Trap
The Power Principle
Human Resources: Social Engineering in the 20th Century
Catastroika - Greek Documentary
The Marketing of Madness