Looking at the word ' Protean ' Day 796

Looking at the word Protean

This week, I remembered AS KING myself in my twenties how I could be more able to change to meet the expression of a musical piece. Anecdotally, how could I be more changeable within in one moment, playing a  more classical piece of music by Mozart and then be able to change to the whole measure of a piece of music from another era, or genre, such as Brahms. I realized it involved being more changeable. After all, what is music but a math, a form, with different tensions, timings, measures, values, intensities. All things that I may change in a moment, just as I would change within the values of numbers, as in playing with a formula using numbers. And then, also, changing within a form of movement, as in building a set of steps for the entryway into my home from the outside. It all involves realizing, as seeing, as measuring, as being aware of, the values, the qualities of the things I am placing myself into a relationship with as a focus onto. The state of being of a person, in terms of their development in relation to their state of measure within, and the state of measure, as qualities composing the whole, as the world around us, as the without. 

Many years ago, within standing in front of a classroom of 4th grade students, coming from being immersed in a musical environment, I looked out across that room of sentient beings, and realized that I was dealing with so many different measures of exposure to values that I could not possibly address each one. AND, I was in a system - as all things are systems, which is a series of relationships. This system was one of a direct instruction model. Meaning, my job, within the formula, was of one imparting information to many to bring forward a set body of information, composing a picture, abstractly,  to that body of many. Thus, my responsibility in that set of orders, was to bring forward a picture about something, and then practice allowing the body to build relationships into having some greater insight, that was then for the individuals to build within from, and upon. I, as the teacher, could not be that for the students. It is like a small means of building a greater understanding, one that can work when the given structures are built upon, as expanded outside of that initiating situation. It is just like a student with an instrument. Someone of more, or greater mastery, directs towards more realizations within the doing of the thing, that is then utilized by the user, to  expand in self discovery as to what the relationships as the values of that instrument exist within to realize a greater working relationship. Simple. It is an act of stepping into understanding a system, because in effect, everything is of parts working together, which means things are systems. This means that everything is essentially a math. This is how creation works. 

Within this, how can I be more flexible, more changeable, more fluid within myself in relation to respecting what is me that is all around me, as who and what I am in the physical state of sentience that is what is here? 

I remember parents coming to me to request violin lessons. Some would become my friend and then ask for lessons, with a story of what they could afford. It took me a while to catch this. When I said I could not survive on the sum they said they could pay, within me knowing, for example that they never drove a car that was more than 5 years old, they were suddenly no longer the friend they proposed to be. This was a hard thing for me to face, and it brought on anger and disgust. Here, I was moving, as my emotional reactions of blame and disgust, in self interest, not applying what I was using to realize/process the defaults ! Also, I had a hard time, because of beliefs in being polite, in pointing out certain logistical fallacies in the body of information, which was revealed through layers of information, as small anecdotal actions building a picture. This picture being the money being used not valuing the education of the child. Or, wanting the education of the child, which was understood, to not have too great a cost.  Ironically, educating a child is the most expensive thing, and why? Because, it is the most important thing. It is, in effect, realizing a proper use of a natural sentient ability to realize systems effectively. This brings me back to my own point, that of realizing greater changeability, or a more sound ability to process the values and relationships, within and without, about this living reality and my own built ideological constructs within that. 

I thought, or openly asked myself about living greater changeability in relation to musical practices, and yet, I did not relate this to the sounding, as the directives moving me here, as essentially being the same thing! An inner mis-use of the imagination, as an amplification of certain self defining values, is and can be a HUGE distraction! This can slow down an innate changeability. It is like the inner framework of accepted values, gets caught in its own picture show at the expense of everything else. This then becomes a program within that is not in synch with reality. It becomes what we can call, a slow processing dis-order. This problem is rampant in our public schools. I have sat with a superintendent, from one of the best high schools in America today, who has said to me that the number of slow processing disorders in the school are extensive.  

A general scaffold of information is not an education. Within a bubble of comparison, from a state of lack, it can appear to be a more. That is an illusion. This is how a ‘ good ‘ can really be a limitation. 

On a personal level, a general scaffold of a framework of information, within, using an abstraction about something to lend direction ONLY, creates a state that is missing effective awareness as it is lost in a mis-use of the imagination not having effectively practiced respecting  the qualities and relationships of what is in plain sight as this instrument of the physical reality that is the life that is here. Separation is done through a system, awareness is built through systematic and effective movement, as respect of living reality. In effect, because humans use communication, a mis-use of words can create a stagnant processing dis-order. It is really no different than myself sensing I should have a greater ability to be more fluid in changing in a moment, to expressing Mozart and then expressing Brahms.  If I have practiced processing information ONLY abstractly, without enough practical experience, would not my processing of information move into disorders within changing into another abstracted form of information? I have essentially practiced one mode of operations without application, which is slow and of a state of distraction,  misprint in the cells of the body, creating a misalignment to reality. I then become that, and change appears counter intuitive. I then get lost in a comfort zone of not-necessarily-bad information, yet limited information, where the lack of spatial relationships in reality, appears to upset that which I have practiced! It is a quantum imbalance, as a systemic series of relationships. One of which punishment for, is not a corrective process of balancing out, as finding solutions to reopen a natural ability to learn, to process information, to respect this living reality, and to learn to move in synch with and as it. After all, this is where real happiness exists, because we are anxious when we are insecure, and happy when we know something to the extent we can communicate effectively and build, as create, that which can remain stable, and that which can realize transformation, leading to no longer living in fear. In asKING, I can realize greater structural awareness of how all of this works, and call out the logistical fallacies that are polarized value judgements, that are a processing of information in separation from reality. We all know when we are in a polar vortex of limited constructs as ideas, spinning within, building friction and leading no where. We see this in a sudden contrast when we step out of it, and in a moment, sense the whole and the parts and wonder where we have been. 

Ineffective processing is an amplification of limited values, layered and resonant within, from a practice of focus on structures without real respect, as cross reference to this living physical reality. And yet, that ability to focus on ‘ something’ reflects an ability to process information. What i come to realize, more clearly, is that all the research in reading skills development, makes it so clear, that the greater our vocabulary, the greater our ability to process the notes, as the words, the greater our ability to do what is essentially the math of what is here around us. Our ‘ song’ within, must be able to move in synch with the math of what is here around us. Humans with a more effective vocabulary, are more able to process what is all around them, which means what is happening within, and what is without. It can process the past, a resonant amplification in the body, and what is focused upon in the conscious mind, and what is without, as the same constructs in other humans around us, and the math of this existence. If we as a species, actually are self honest with who and what we are, we already know this, and have flashing moments where we see between the limitations of a mis-use of the instrument that is who and what we are here in this reality.  It is simple, what is complicated is a math of limitation, that is a resonant mis-take of and as a reflection of this reality projected from within each individual, each instrument of and as the human physical body. One must develop a critical processing of this math within and without, to become more in synch with one’s shadow existence, as a system of relationships, and change to be changeable in processing the math of the systems around us as the reality as the physical, and a superimposed system that is on one front,  a mechanism to control that lack of real processing ability, that is what our bodies are the perfect means to be and do. Essentially, this means to accept the gift of life that is a correct use of this instrument. 

I will continue with the word ‘ Protean.’ 

Day 494 Self forgiveness on a thought about my father as a child.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to have the thought that stability, comfort, strength,  exists outside of myself as being that within my father, when he himself was a younger man, and myself as a very small child in a world where my parents were themselves a consequence of generations of separation into and as a hierarchical form of division via separation from common sense into and as limited values that define self from a starting point of building a personification of experiences that define the value of self, instead of learning from the get go, to direct self as common sense, that starting point of ability so prevalent in young children who have the ability to learn rapidly.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not want to slow down, breath, and look at this in common sense, for fear of loss of a belief of self, and for fear of realizing that I have accepted and allowed myself to live as the reverse of myself as life in full capacity and that the gift of this was always right there in front of me.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not see, realize and understand the weight of fear as this, that began in childhood, where if I look, I can see realize and understand that the period where there were so called - buggy men under the bed - it was really myself projecting the bad away from myself, as myself rejecting parts of myself to take on a value to define myself in accord with a system that in total is a separation from myself as life which is the outward manifestation of what I have accepted and allowed within myself.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand that it is myself as my human physical body that is the instrument as mind  that is projecting those fears outside of myself, through stories of good and bad, inner picture shows that can be traced back to self as the source and the occupation of separation away from self as common sense.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not see, realize and understand that when I slow down, I can see, realize and understand that this is a movement within and as myself, that has a weight of heaviness and “ slime” within where self is so in separation from self as a physical being, and so consumed by the mind consciousness imagery that facing the pain within the physical as the value judgements projected outward self has no awareness of because self as life is so busy watching the reverse of life as comparison within good and bad, thus, as one becomes aware of self within the physical body, one eventually must face the fear that is the source of the separation, and this fear appears so huge, when it is not, which I must remind myself of, and slow myself down and breath.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to fear being myself as life here.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to stand equal and one to and as fear here, within and without, to see, realize and understand that this is the only way, into equality and oneness in and as life here.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to understand the mechanisms of my separation into and as fear, as in common sense, the physical world is mechanistic and as such can be read by that which is it created from, which is self as common sense, really the perfect design of life, in all common sense.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not see, realize and understand that resistance to this would be the course of resisting a habit.

When and as I find myself having any movement within and as me, as a constriction, as myself reacting to here, I stop and I breath, and I see realize and understand the thought as the starting point and the values of separation into a good and a bad, and I stop and I breath, and I bring this back to self here, and I stabilize within and as myself and realize what is actually physically here in a physical world that is understandable in form and function as a mechanism as a gift to be equal and one to and as life, here.

When and as I find myself  resisting here, I stop and I breath and I slow myself down, and I look to what I have thought within, as what i have accepted and allowed, that is myself fearing to ear/hear here, and I see, realize and understand where I have placed blame and spite outside of myself  and not walked in equality and oneness in each moment, here.

When and as I find myself beginning to breath with out ease, I stop and I breath, and I slow myself down and I allow the fear that i have accepted and allowed, and I stand equal and one to and as this, and I do not allow the back chat  to be the directive of myself here, and as I stand equal and one to this that I have accepted and allowed, I see, realize and understand that this is an accumulation of a past as a behavior that was not myself in equality and oneness to and as life, and as I face this, within and without, I slow down and I walk in thought word and deed, the principle of what is best for all, as what is best for self is what is best for all here, and if and when, I am uncertain, I stop and realize that it means to simply investigate solutions as this is a process of the journey to life, to stop participation within and as a mind consciousness in separation from life, and to become the gift of life in common sense as what is best for all, which has never been done,  and yet, the discovery is the gift of life, the only  choice, here.

Day 490 Our soldiers that are the living dead. They are us, we are them.

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“But here's the thing: I may not have been on the ground in Afghanistan, but I watched parts of the conflict in great detail on a screen for days on end. I know the feeling you experience when you see someone die. Horrifying barely covers it. And when you are exposed to it over and over again it becomes like a small video, embedded in your head, forever on repeat, causing psychological pain and suffering that many people will hopefully never experience. UAV troops are victim to not only the haunting memories of this work that they carry with them, but also the guilt of always being a little unsure of how accurate their confirmations of weapons or identification of hostile individuals were.

Of course, we are trained to not experience these feelings, and we fight it, and become bitter. Some troops seek help in mental health clinics provided by the military, but we are limited on who we can talk to and where, because of the secrecy of our missions. I find it interesting that the suicide statistics in this career field aren't reported, nor are the data on how many troops working in UAV positions are heavily medicated for depression, sleep disorders and anxiety.”

Humans have a mind consciousness system that carries the images of what we accept and allowed physically within and as us as mind. These images can accumulate and replay over and over again. I think of medieval paintings of so called “ saints” that have a halo floating above their heads. Have we made the mind more than the physical?

Are these soldiers that carry their actions with them as imagery, as mind, haunted by their past as their memories are what actions they accepted and allowed in a world where there are limited choices within providing a means to have access to money to provide food, shelter, clean water and education for their families?

Is what we allow without accumulating within, which means there is no escape for what we each have allowed on earth? Is the covering of what is allowed done within ignoring what is actually happening on the ground and/or creating a wall of separation from this abuse through reiterating so-called positive thinking, which is just placing a sugar layer on top of what has not been cleaned up as the negative consequence of initial lack of awareness/respect for what is real as the actual physical world? Thus, the ignorance remains as the accepted and allowed abuses, where no manner of gloss as ideological “ good” diminishes the fact as the consequences remain both physically and within as imagery?

There is no denial that what desteni is saying is or is not true, when we have soldiers that are living everyday what the point of what desteni is saying in actual fact:  that we carry an imagination of what we have done as how we have moved on this earth with us, and that eventually our choices catch up to us and consume us as that underlying abuse gets louder and louder, and no manner of drugs, or at present systemic mental health can remove this.

Each of us must do this for ourselves, and we must all forgive what has collectively been accepted and allowed as the present system and create a system that respects and supports all life including all of the very fabric of the physical as life, as life is the value.

What is done is done. Crying over spilt milk as the saying goes does not clean up that spilt milk. Expecting someone else to do it is not a solution, this is waiting and not wanting to face what has been accepted and allowed by humans.

No matter where you are and what you do, as you remain in place, stand and support a system that realizes the value is life, and the actual real physical world is the fabric of life and as this, it is the only way through to becoming equal to life, as existing in an imagination of horror is not life; it is the road map of our separation - this separation the cause of the conflict.

Support a Living Income Guarantee. Time to realize that each man, woman and child, needs enough money to live in dignity and to have the time to investigate what is best, to stop choosing actions that we know are unacceptable but because we have allowed money to determine life, we are forced to make choices that we know are not supportive, which must come to an end if we want a planet that supports our children as life. As we are now, our children will not have a life that allows the full potential we see within them when they are young before the memories begin to accumulate and slow their own awareness of life, this that is their natural ability. In essence they begin to follow the imagery of the fathers because this is what is around them and placed within them, so each generation follows the sins of the previous generation. And so the separation from what is real, as the physical is lost.

We can learn to realize ourselves as mind and equalize this back into a common sense of physical reality. As we do this within we clean up our separation. To do this, we must also practically walk what supports the physical world absolutely. Once decided this will be much easier than we realize, because the physical that is right in front of us, will reveal what works and what does not support us. Many have investigated solutions, yet many of these solutions are withheld, because they do not serve what has become systems that we all depend on for money that we all know do not serve us as life, yet we fear not having a job to survive. This web must be allowed to change. No one can really own our national resources, they belong to life.

Changing the system to one that gives all a Living Income Guarantee, will allow us to  slow down, investigate, reform, organize, and all the while continue to move ourselves as what we have built as structures and to transform these into what does no harm. Thus not all that we have built is so called “ bad” but much of the structure can be used as is.

One example, are the many hands of men within our military, it is an organized group that can carry out actions that build supportive infrastructure that then leads to more self responsible governance, where all understand how the physical works and our ability to organize. In reality, that physical action is as important as that action of looking at a picture of something in terms of organizing pictures of measure as what administration is and does, one is not more than another, both are acts of measure to order this physical world. We have allowed one to be more than another, which is the separation from common sense of life as the physical. It is time to end this game of judgement causing abuse because it ignores common sense, this being the realization that the physical is the starting point of life, not what is the mind.

Start walking yourself back into equality and oneness as the physical. Self forgive the separation into a mind consciousness system that is the image and likeness of our separation into judgement, where a polarity game of good and bad becomes the measure of us, instead of equality and oneness to the gift of life as the physical. The physical is a story and a real “ game” meaning a real multi-sensory experience that is so much greater than any video game, than any fairy tale - so to speak. We need to discover what this means, because humans have lived as mind for so long no one can remember what this actually is, so great is our separation.

Walk the desteni course DIPLite.com. Support Living Income Guarantee. Time to bring ourselves to life. I mean what else is there?

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Day 468 Solicitation, TPP and Protest Laws. As Within So Without.

Someone said to me the other day , “ I don’t want to be solicited.” I stopped, this was a new response that I had not encountered. I looked at the man and said, “ how does one person speak with another, reach out? A person has to address people and through speaking bring what is new to them, for them to hear, it is how it is done, in all simplicity.” The man was not reactive, he did not bully, he simply looked at me with calm.

 But there, within me was a movement, initially, not, as I responded immediately, in calm, but as I spoke I noticed a tension, which was a fear, a reaction. As I spoke,  the common sense of what was physically happening as in a moment of communication with another I realized that the fear, as the inner uncertainty that was a warning based on some idea had no relevance in the moment. If anything, this fear was a pulling back within myself that protected and defended my action based on a belief that I could be labeled and judged and that this would remain with me, when such could not because I can only be here, in this moment. 

There is also a fear of standing as a directive structure, to stand through being a feminine person acquiescent as a belief within an accepted societal norm that really has no substantial responsibility within being here. If anything, one can only connect with that which allows self as life to move/flow/hear with ease and within this to remain steady as this. 

This is moving equal to common sense, to life, as is our natural ability as life as what we are, as self in absolute purpose within being aware of here, as what is best for all. Which in essence means communicating with one another, and realizing that we are only as good as the parts, as all of existence, around us. There is no other choice, and this is not an impossible choice, it is actually the easiest thing to be and do, if we only accept and allow this to be. The irony is that we, through believing that there is more than here, as idea as mind,  are existing in separation as judgement and not seeing what is here as what it is absolutely and the behavior of this is our state of confusion that appears complicated when it is not.

Our emotions and feelings that are the accumulation of thoughts that are a judgement based on an idea of one thing being more than another - which is what a survival game would be, where money has been allowed to determine life, -builds our characters, our cares, and becomes the program driving our wants, needs and desires, all of which in essence serves a machine of division/complication/suppression. The data going in serves the structure of judgement of having measured physical reality as being unequal, forcing hierarchy, a false god built on what is real beneath it, the real sustenance. All the while the gift of life is physical creation, giving equal measure of life to all as the very substance of what is the physical to allow equal understanding.

Interesting that, as I understand, the new TPP,  or Trans Pacific Partnership, is proposing keeping data secret, which is to say keeping justification “ secret”, and also, writing laws that punish protest. So, what is happening  within this structure of inequality is what we are doing within: our manifested expressed emotions that are the programs of accumulated judgement that we have accepted and allowed: beliefs that one thing is more than another: Our emotions and feelings hiding the thoughts that are the accumulation of a data  collection of values in self interest. These things that are supposedly more than values  really are of a limited selection of values and obeying them has taken from us our ability to stand in common sense, equal to life which we can see manifest in the cumulative acts based on our accepted/selected inner program/judgements/data as the amount of destruction happening to earth. 

And now we are proposing to not even be  allowed to protest our own demise, self created at that.  And so we live our own stagnation. We are slowly but surely leading ourself to our own stopping point, our own end. We are moving back, physically, to nothing because we refused to stand equal to life, which is the absolute purpose of common sense to be aware of here, and to do no harm, which is how one can equalize oneself to life, to the physical, and it would be  really fun thing to do, but instead we chase a separate program as the mind of limited values causing all manner of conflict because these values are based on ideas of good and bad and not what is the gift of structure to realize self as life as the physical world. It is right here in front of us, and yet we refuse to see that the physical world is the gift of life.

The physical is the  training wheels to equalize self to life. All those little atoms that compose a structure of life, so we can really “ play” and express ourselves as life.

And so much so, are we in self abdication that we manifest a law that disallows and punishes protest - in this case, the destructive pipeline that profits only a few at the expense of plants, animals, humans and water, and air on which we depend to be. 

Just as the law of profit takes everything, all consequence from not having considered all outflows, and turning the damage into a new profit making venture so can we as a collective take our mistakes and turn them into a good, as what is best for all. In the law is the answer: To no longer protest, and instead to stand as what is best for all, as in standing and placing/supporting a structure - in this case one that builds sustainable practices bypassing/redirecting the effort as our own impetus to protest, eliminating it as in  building something new with that movement through redirection within a sustaining principle.

We can, from within,  slow ourselves down and use our common sense and realize our thoughts of judgement have accumulated creating emotions and feelings that when looked at have no real value and can thus be self forgiven to bring ourselves here, to what is real, realizing that our past does not define us unless we accept and allow it. For this one can also walk the tools of self forgiveness writing and corrective application offered in a free course called DIPLite. It is a process to equalize self to life, as it was a process to build that concrete GPS system that was based on limited values that obeyed a god of profit in self interest which was a starting point of separation from self as life, but that which took that step is what is self as life, and it is there and can be redirected by self as self as life, here. The shift from following to self directing may seem impossible but it is not, and it will take practice but it can be done.

This is a process of walking the ordinary, a structure of order, that creates a supportive extra-ordinary earth that can become what realizes that the exception is the norm. Living Income Guarantee will accelerate this process because it will remove many of the behaviors of survival because money has been allowed to determine life  as what is here is what enables us to become equal to life. This is the gift of the physical world. It is your birthday present. 

Day 452 The corporation is the person of each of us. It is a state of being in abuse. Forgive Your Personality.

The system has been allowed to become a person, a god, a directive, an order followed, an order accepted and allowed, without question, without looking at how this system moves and expresses, in the consequences this system forms with the very substance of life as what we all are. This is a systemized god - so to speak, a separate reality that bears no witness to life. It is each of us not really looking here, even within the common sense of democracy, this that is the answer, this that is allowing the voice of the people of all the people. People regarding and respecting the physical world, looking at how it works in common sense, realizing that this physical earth is interconnected, where all parts support life. Forcing the forms that are here into other than they were meant to me, into less than what they are is a crime against life. The destruction of which we see all around us. This destruction is because each and every one of us humans believe we are more than life, in our complacency as we follow energy as ideas, as what define us instead of being equal and one to and with the natural world, the physical world. We are in separation from life, from nature. This has been written about many times, especially simply in looking at the behaviors of our children. This system in which we have allowed money to determine life, when it is the physical world that determines life. Money is simply being used to divide life and support an idea  that the imagination of the human, is more than life. Ideas in the mind, that the composition of  made from the substance of life is more than the life itself. We try and force idea instead of taking the space in around us and understanding the consequence to the whole as every action we make.

We are afraid to give up the ghost.

How we form as individuals, starts from day one, as our substance as life, we take in our environment, we take in the values made huge, bringing some values forward pushing other back, ignoring the rest. Taking some and capitalizing on them, presenting then as the end all be all of success. Creating a very limited expression of life and abusing what does not fit into the limited idea, this limited idea in itself a control device, a frenzy of survival instead of choosing what supports absolutely. It really is a fear of death, a fear of change, which is really an idea made into an idol. My precious.

Personifications as collections of beliefs believed  to be more than others. It is like, collect some experience and then get lost in believing oneself to be superior. In the end we all die and the personification is gone, because it was a separation from life and had no substance because it did not in fact move as what is support of life, absolutely. And meanwhile, our obvious separation exists as the animals suffer because life is no longer seen, and thus, the common sense of the physical world which is what is real, is ignored.

When we allow a system that moves the values of resource and labor onto a piece of paper as a conduit to receiving basic supportive needs of physical beingness,  and we then allow, for example an activity on a continent where for every ten dollars that is taken out of that continent only 1 dollar is then sent back in by America, we can see that this is not enough for the people of that continent to have what is needed to physically support them as the very physical form that they are. This is criminal, it is abusive and it is inconsiderate of physical existence, this physical existence what it is that is the expression of life, the only real expression of life. Your mind, as the picture show, as a built GPS for a system that is in itself  in separation from life, is your separation, it is a “ heaven” that is limited, and in it’s separation it is not real, and yet it within it’s limitation believes itself to be more real than physical existence. 

What is happening, has happened in Africa and is happening in America. If we allow a corporation to be seen as a person, and we allow that personhood to use the resources of America, such as water and coal, and we allow a government to allow this corporate “ personhood” to take the waters of our lakes and the coal from our federal lands, into money to be divided into small royalty payments and very large profit through sales payments where taxes are not paid by this personhood, so that the only taxes paid are by the worker, what is happening is the slow drip of all material physical goods in America to be transferred to that personhood as a corporation owned by a few. So, this personhood corporation who we have allowed to be a person, and who we believe is taking care of us  - despite the fact that, just as in Africa, there are children who are not receiving proper food and self development to the point where these children can READ the existent structures without-  is in fact not taking care of physical reality and is only acting in self interest, just as the rest of us as mind..   If this system is/was built by people, then it is people who must change this, all of us. We have allowed a profit based system to determine guidance, which cannot work because of the allowance of monetary profit. We have allowed a system that allows the values we create to move into the hands of a few who are personalities before life, just like us. Thus we are all to blame for the existence of abuse on earth. 

The personhood status given to a corporation in a system of representation, means that we have allowed representatives the chance to order the flow of money, which is the flow of resource (labor too). These representatives , who we have allowed to make decisions for us because we did not take the time to look in common sense, have decided that they are more than people, and to hide this, a corporation of anonymity has been created, to protect and hide the fear of loss of  personality, of self as life, a self that is simply a composition of assembled values that in themselves are a limited perspective of the totality of life. And this, is what each of us are doing, we have come to believe that our personalities define us, and our personalities are simply a collection of ideas about physical reality, they are not physical reality itself. So, as our collection of beliefs made and believed to be life, those children in Africa, and the growing number of children in America, are believed to be insignificant, because that “ god” that “ heaven” as the mind as ideas has been allowed to become more than life itself. And how we move money backs this delusion, and as this, disallows, does not give, what is needed to develop and support the physical as life, this physical being what is real, composed of what is primary, the substance of life that informs us as physical beings to be life.

A system of inequality, on an interconnected mechanism as what earth is that allows it to exist, naturally creates extremes, these extremes are our starving, our diminished life forms existing in lack, and our elite, the few. Those on the extreme end of lack, cannot stand up, they are too busy suffering, they are too busy dying. The extreme of the elite are too busy building an industrial/military complex in self protection and defense, touting this as protecting the people but what is really being protected is their personalities, their collection of beliefs of superiority. Meanwhile, both extremes are people, all the same, only ideas and the things money can buy create an illusion of difference.

The elite are simply the same as all of us, believing our personalities to be more than life, to be more than being here, on earth, living as physical expressions of life. We have allowed our memories, our experiences, our inner picture show, to be more than life, our withins are bigger than our supportive physical without, this physical formation being what allows life, it is what is real, it is composed of the substance of equality, the substance giving to form life as what we are: personalities  are ideas( lesser dimension)  about life, but not life itself. The mind is of energy, it is not life in balance aware of itself as what it is in fact. 

Our anonymous corporations are becoming the directives of us, but they are built of judgement that one thing is more than another, of good and bad instead of what is supportive in standing with life. Our corporations are us standing UNDER our own judgements. This measure of judgement ideas about what is good and what is bad, what is good and what is evil, a separate reality and thus a lesser reality that is not being practical within physical existence,  because our personalities composed of past experience as defining what we are instead of correcting and understanding what works that is absolutely supportive of life, this that has been going on for generations, accumulating and being passed on to the point where we don’t even, in detail, realize  why we have some of the personalities behaviors we have. And we wonder why we inherit  DIS - EASE with life!?

Life is a substance that composes us, much like sound composes a piece of music, or a word. So, if our focus/directive of what we are as the very sounds we create as the forms we build on earth are not absolutely supportive of life, as the absolute purpose of life as the nature of life, as the nature of formation of what is here, then that which is not aligned with this has no real substance and no real support. And so, we have allowed that which we are within to resonate to that which is built without, an anonymous corporation that is the collective, now directing of our  own created governments, as our personalities believed to be more than life, when our personalities are the composition of accumulated mis-understanding of what is not within being of absolute purpose as the substance of life. Our personalities are a collection of the accumulation of a self inner rested past in fear (ior) to life. And it is how we are unequally dividing money that is supporting the separation, we allow flow of what determines life, unequally, money speaking as our own inner separation from life,  and because of this, parts of this physical supportive world are suffocating, dying, diminishing, disappearing, rotting. We are all to blame, unless we stand and forgive our limitations, our judgements, our beliefs, opinions and ideas that are not equal and one to life, this being what is of the absolute purpose of supporting all of this physical existence. There is no choice but the choice of what is best for all, as this is best for self, this gives self the directive capacity to live in full potential as life. This is self in self response in and as life, here.

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Day 316 What are memories? What is consciousness? A bubble of separation?

When I react to what is said about another within and as being a judgement, as in not looking at the details of what is here becoming equal and one to them, without making any assumptions or value judgement, looking at the values for what they are and the forms of what is here, how disconnected humans are from what is happening to life on this planet, life that is the same in all of us here, all being everything, it is easier to see how reaction is a blind spot, where all one exists as is separation from actual physical reality.
All justifications are in fact self interest in not wanting to look, in not wanting to see, in not picking self up and becoming life of absolute compassion, looking at as manyconsequences as one is able to grasp, through investigation. This done within asking questions, until a point is reached where a realization exists that any suffering is self in a state of disease, as self as life cannot be here as life, until all life is here, as life, meaning self directive. Self directive means no judgement, no sense of one thing as being more than another, and is anything realizing that an emotional reaction is a disconnect from self direction, which is a disconnect from life here.
I looked at someone today and said to them, “You are a resonant being” and they laughed. Then i asked them if they had any memories, and what memories were, how were they held onto, what would this quality be. So, the fact that we have memories means we are able to resonate with imagery, and imagery can have values attached to it. Ever heard of the word “ nostalgia”? And would the emotions and feelings attached to memories not be considered “good or bad”? And would not soldiers suffering from post traumatic stress syndrome be the effects of horrific experiences/memories caused by war? This is to say a memory is a resonance within us. And depending on the memory, there is a value of good energy or bad energy, thus the memory can have a value as positive or negative.
Then, to take this even further, why would a memory be needed that triggers either a good nostalgic feeling or a bad traumatic feeling? And why have such an occupation as self as life here on earth? Is this necessary and does this allow one to actually be here, I mean why wallow in a “good” memory when one could be here actually being such an experience as what one lives in every moment, meaning directing oneself here on earth without the need for a postcard as a resonance from the past? And why would a trauma exist with energetic emotions of fear and terror? What would create such a thing, especially knowing that memory exists! And if that memory is one that is unbearable, why has it not been seen in common sense that the action that created the memory is an unbearable state of being, and therefor unacceptable, why program such? And if such programming exists, what would happen if the absence of traumatic program were the presence of all of us?
Are our memories showing us where we have run to values, and as such removed ourselves from here, as what exists on earth is an actual removal from looking at here, because for each of us, we would not want the atrocities that exist to happen to us; can’t imagine any of us wanting a child born with horrible deformities such as the ones caused by depleted uranium used in the Irag war. Not one of us able to read this blog would want this, so how and why do we allow this to exist? And would not images of such haunt us? And would this not then be a memory, a resonance as a picture made of wavelengths and vibes and pixels embedded within our flesh, and if this is what happens to the human, then would it not be for the human to ensure that such does not exist on earth, so that what is here is cared for and “clean” of any potential resonance that causes trauma and/or a reaction of disgust/shame/horror/pain/disbelief, and many more?
Even if we wanted to hide from this, and believe that such should not be posted on FB, then can this be a solution? I mean, such abuse exists and it is not going to go away.What if it is like the debt that just gets bigger and bigger and bigger, that is the outcome of usury, that which we were warned against and Jesus was “shut up” for exposing - and others as well?
If the human body is seen as a machine, one that holds resonances, and is given the gift of life but abuses this, all consequence of accepted and allowed actions that are not supportive of life - something that can in no way go unnoticed because it is not in ACCORD with life, , because the separation from what supports all life remains resonant within because it was an action that had not considered all life, then what would remain that shows the separation? Would it be memories that are values of supposed “good” and what then would happen as well, as this is how the machine works, memories of “bad” events are also embedded, as this was the actions allowed on earth, and as the actions this is what is mirrored within? So, what we are, is what we become within, what we allow on earth is what we become within. What we create as the voice on earth, as the actions we allow, is what we become, what we mirror within.

We can run and hide from this, we can run and hide in the good memories, but eventually there is no escape, because meanwhile, the physical world has not reached an expression where what becomes resonant within as the human has no polarity of a good or a bad, and there would be no need to have a memory to be something pulled up to entertain oneself, because here, as the physical world would be absolutely fulfilling in and as existing one and equal to and as life. There would not even be the need for a separate “heaven”, or an alternate reality, because here, would be the sounding of life, absolutely, no need for a re-sound, or even if there were such a thing, it would be as what memory is, a map of what is here, to then be used to perhaps help learn to be here, equal and one to and as the physical, all life equal here, within and without, above and below.
The can be no escape from this. If we take the time to look at this, it makes so much sense, it can be no other way.
Thus, the present system without, is a reflection of the system we have allowed within. it is a system of abdication., it is a system where we believe that a value makes us, defines us, but this cannot be, because this is just a state of being, it is not being the action of being, accepting self as experiencing life, so because we feared losing one “state” we held onto this, and within this became an action of self interest in relation to a value, thus dividing life into fixed states, so to speak, and no longer moving as life.
This is judgement, believing one thing to be more than another. A me-more eeeeeee ride. The starting point of fear of loss, as a negative, moving into a justification to create a happiness, and thus a positive “idea” around the me-more eeeeeeee joy ride, in separation from equality and oneness to and as life, here.
So, the hierarchy on earth is a reflection of this separation, and we are all grabbing resources to allow a few to have more, and others to have nothing, and in our fear of loss we are destroying this earth, as we grab resource in self interest, so we can pass our limited values down generation after generation, as we have come to believe that these limited values define us, and that these values have some kind of meaning, and that all our knowledge and information is taken in in separation from life, because it is used in justifying the more than, the state of ourselves holding a value instead of life being the value, where the expressions of life and all the relationships of expression, the ways of expression as the forms of expression, as what is here on earth, being the experience of being as the value and learning to realize this totally as self, to move as this, to be one with this, thus there would be no death. There would be transformation, expansion in awareness.

This makes so much sense with what has been said to us, as the words of Christ, which were so impressive they could not be denied, a religion was built around them. And then this religion, built by men in separation from life, was used to limit and control, so that some hierarchy could exist dimensionally, this unseen by the eyes of men. A whole existence in separation from life. A system we have all accepted and allowed in abdication of life. Our memories showing us how we are not equal to life. Our memories our idol worship, as consciousness, as mind, as image made huge, a resonance into and as energy, as the division of values made more than and less than, stagnant, unmoving, and thus destructive and devolving instead of living. Earth is showing us our separation and thus abuse we allow on earth, the consequence of our accepted and allowed separation. Memories as collections of thoughts singularly lived again and again compound into emotions and feelings, the consequence of perpetual separation from life, from the giving of ourselves as life equal and one within and as what is best for all as the actual physical world.
Thus the systemic inequality, as profit, this belief system placed next to the principle of the understanding and need to do what is best for all, is the limiting “spoke in the wheel that is life,” remove this, and give as one would like to receive, and life can begin, and the resonance of what we are, will equalize itself to and as life, being here, as it is only here that we can actually be, no need to move and wallow in memory, because here, will be life, and the word will become the living word.
A system of profit, of division into more than and less than, a starting point of a fear of loss, because of a separation from life, cannot work and this, evident with what exists on earth, which, in America, is hidden from view, because if Americans would take the time to look, instead of so much denial - which is really just fear of loss - what would be lost would be realized for the limitation that it is - would mean the end of the very need to deny. Life, real living would have no need to deny, would not have the need to tout transparency as a presentation, the presentation of which admits the existence of non-transparency.
A lie has no other option but to scream its existence, to place what hides around it . So, there is no way out. Humpty Dumpty fell and shattered because he built a wall from which to fall, thus Humpty Dumpty created his own skyfall. lol
Individually we are in pieces and collectively we are in pieces. These pieces must come together within and without. This is done alone and all-one together within respecting life, here, so that life can begin.

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Day 304 Disgust towards attention seekers.

One of the reactions I have had in my life again and again, and I even created a name for it, is the label of another person being an “attention seeker.” I remember teaching in a school and in the class there was a child that needed insulin throughout the day. The teachers and the staff had to remain on top of this. Even though this child was often in the hospital on the weekends and during vacation, as her mother would neglect the insulin shots for her daughter. She was a classic attention seeker herself, the mother. And so was the daughter. This child would constantly raise her hand and ask to use the restroom, and/or if she needed her shot. And she was not a very focused student. Already, the child had learned her mother’s behavior. This would annoy me, and of course I had to take care of the girl, but it seemed to me that she would ask for something, call attention to herself in moments when the class was quiet and listening. I found this very disruptive. The children in the class noticed , but did not react. This helped me, even though I was the one annoyed by this behavior at the time. Of course, this was all accepted, because no one wanted to deal with the mother.

I do have this memory of myself as a small child, wanting attention from my father, and I go up to him, and he turns suddenly, knocking me over, and I fall on a bike, and am humiliated. I had suddenly appeared wanting attention, and when i did not get the reaction I wanted, and fell on the tricycle, I became angry, and stomped off.
I had gone to get attention, and there was no real substance to this desire.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to become disgusted with actions of others that I have labeled as seeking attention, where the judgement I have and the reaction i allow is myself projecting self disgust from an event in my past, where i acted within self interest as wanting attention.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not see, realize and understand that what humiliation I experienced as I fell is an indication that I had not been present, and interrupted my father simply to get attention, and when I fell, and reacted with humiliation, then became indignant, because i had not gotten what i wanted, as attention, and stormed away in a rage of spite and blame instead of taking responsibility for myself, realizing that my fall was due to my own lack of self responsibility to and towards the situation at hand.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not see, realize and understand that in this memory, as I walk towards my father, I am so locked into a singular desire for attention, to have him turn and give me attention, that i am completely unaware of my environment, like I am possessed with this desire for attention, and when I fall, I realize my folly and become embarrassed with myself, and go into humiliation and then anger and blame, and stomp off in a rage, where I hold onto this and carry this with me into the present, and become disgusted when I see this same behavior in others, as I have not forgiven myself for being caught up in this energetic desire for attention, which I had no real recognition of, at least enough to stop this before I realized, after the physical harm I experienced, was due to a lack of being self honest in that moment.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to label actions of seeking attention with a negative connotation, in and as fearing being revealed as the same.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to believe that i am tired, in this moment, as writing this out is creating a strong reaction of wanting to go to sleep. ugh.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not see realize and understand that this sudden tiredness, where all I want to do in this moment is fall over and sleep is my self resisting facing this point, here, of facing this reaction to attention seekers as annoying where I separate from myself into value judgements of more than and less than, specifically judging the attention seeker as “less than” to make myself a “more than” as I hang onto my own self judgement of myself having acted with no real substance.

Day 299 Weathering the storm of my own judgements to discover my own disgust.

I have a memory of being within a familiar scenario with my father. This happened a couple of years ago.
I had been within the desteni process for about two years at this point and had been looking at what I had accepted and allowed within myself as a state of separation into and as energetic reactions, ideas, beliefs and opinions of “more than” always a starting point of protecting my ego, wanting to win, as this is what I had learned. I was in the process of unlearning this, and still am. As in the past, there was an escalating argument between my father and I over something that had happened, where what existed was blame and spite for why what had happened, happened. This was the norm, the blame game, which does to some extent look at the underlying consequences as to why something is happening, but in this process there are realities missed, not included, both within the selected consequences to which the present moment uses, and within the fear of what such consequences potentially lead to. Both consist of judgement, limited, hence the outcome of discord.
This time, of which I speak, was different. In the emotional storm, my father stopped. While he was there moving into a response I had not experienced, I was within myself trying to stop my own accustomed rage as my behavior, as this is what I allowed, a tantrum of blame and spite, one and the same as what my father became, not knowing how to explain myself, not being aware of reality in totality, not having the capacity to slow down and use common sense in equality with what is physically actually real, as ideas and opinions of my cultural, societal, generational background, were only what I used to define and thus to communicate. As though this knowledge and information was more than actual physical reality. This hubris of men, trying to make one thing more than another, in separation from physical supportive reality. I had to breath, and to leave, because I had to control my own storm in the face of his storm. At this point it was all i could do, to take a direction that did not allow this storm to escalate.
In that moment before I walked away, when my father has stopped suddenly, he looked at me and he said, “ I do not know how to stop this within myself.” Needless to say I, as i was trying to control myself at this moment, did notice this, and I was shocked and felt helpless because I could not respond because I was so busy trying to not allow myself to be the reaction outwardly that I was allowing to brew inwardly. So, here were all these things coming together.
Yet this is why self forgiveness is the only way out of what we have accepted and allowed on this earth. Within this scenario, the shame of a limited, only allowing a selection of values, belief system and the conflict of limited expression within using such taught limitations ( parts made huge - that are not “bad” per say, but warped and thus distorting and confusing- where the reality of this takes some effort to realize as the “more than” has become habit/expression/cloak) exists with a “past” of same behavior learned for generations and the self shame in fearing to stand in common sense within knowing what is best for all. That person, that voice, that expression in that moment, of “ I don’t know how to stop” is what is left of what is real, of a vestige of common sense, an ability to suddenly stand back and realize that what is allowed is not working, that what is, is somehow unproductive. It is a moment of stopping, just stopping everything and realizing that something is somehow really messed up.
THis was one small moment of self forgiveness, to stop and to forgive self for what existed, within realizing that what was existing needed to stop and realizing that self had become so enmeshed within this and used this for so long, that an alternative was no longer directly visible.
And yet, a moment of stopping is not to be made into a badge of honor, that someone is intrinsically okay, and thus made into a memory to accept future digressions into same habits. It is to realize that the emotional storm and all that backs this emotional storm must be brought back to self, and forgiven within equalizing self in common sense of this physical world within respecting what is here as this physical world, as this is the gift of life, in alignment with the principle of give as you would like to receive. This is taking the separations within communication and walking in self forgiveness back to what is equal understanding within what is best for all, as this total earth, everything, until both parties ( as within this scenario) are absolutely in agreement, manifest as a state of ease: such a state would mean self, constant, solid, and stable ability to self determine and self direct, being absolutely self-forgiving with and as life here. All of us have this ability, as we are the same substance as all existent on earth. Life is what we are, we are simply not using it.
At present, part of this problem is an outwardly manifested system equal and one to what has been accepted and allowed inwardly, one having created the other. Our present system of inequality, economic inequality, where the capital of this earth is allowed to move in ways that provide more for some and less for others, and “not enough to sustain at all” for others, does not allow self determination as life, as the physical support of the flesh is taken from under one’s feet - as we see happening in Ethiopia at the moment - and various other places - because of being caught up in a storm of knowledge and information as beliefs, opinions and ideas that often make no sense and when this non-sensical aspect is pointed out, the one, in mental capacity-lack, who has an unequal amount of power and thus money - bullies, disallows communication, hides behind layered systems, all of this characteristics of abuse, and unacceptable.
TO solve this quagmire on a collective social structure means to simply stand up and change this system with a collective voice strong enough to whether the storm of separation from life manifest as economic inequality.
To bring up one argument against a belief that profit gain, as money, motivates, is to realize that even if there was economic equality, humans still need to eat, still need to shit, still need to grow food, thus within equal support, and knowing this was a constant, people would still have to get up and take care of themselves, so, to say that they would not, that some would just sit back and allow others to do all the work, is ridiculous, because one still have to pick oneself up and walk here or there to eat, etc. And, with the stress of survival removed, there would actually be more “help” given, more participation, more care. it is an illusion that life, as humans, is despondent, life cannot be despondent, were it, then there would not be so much protest!, Protest, though not a solution, is still LIFE here, moving itself! And that is common sense. Such simple things to see really put aspoke in this existent system of inequality, a system that believes equality will never work. THis belief, by its very nature is ignorant of life and hanging onto vapid knowledge and information, lacking an awareness of obvious common sense of what is here.
Needless to say, at this point, within this scenario with my father, I had a moment of shame, because I had been within judgement, as my own emotional storm, that I was within a process of bringing back to self, equalizing in common sense to what is best for all in being respectful of life. It is to realize in this moment, that any judgement accepted and allowed without immediately being directed and communicated to and towards an outcome that is best for all, that is absolutely supportive as life becoming one and equal as life, as a nature of being what is best for all, is the only choice, and thus the time must be taken to allow communication to and towards this absolutely, thus, stand and support a system that supports all life as the value, Equal Money Capitalism.
The reward is the end of emotional storms, which is the end of war, which is the end of a lack of “knowing how” to stop behaviors we all know lead nowhere.