Day 549 The journey to life is to rule equal to the measure of the physical.

I had a conversation with someone where they talked about a friend who had put together some entertainment to raise money for breast cancer.

So what is good here and what can be changed into understanding what we as humans are doing and the sense of it practically?

Organizing a show, this is cool.

Performing is cool too.

Singing songs about the tragedy of breast cancer? Why are we not in joy, singing songs about life lived to the fullest? Why are we not playing with sounds in ways that teach about sound, meaning using sound to do more than wallow in tragedy or become excited by an idea of a “ perfect relationship,” or righteous about wrongs  becoming blame instead of solution ?

Why do we allow a congress of men and state governors, who are allowing ordinances that prohibit feeding homelessness, suddenly, in an economy that uses half its revenues for war. ( and here I wonder if the 'drug war' and the 'war against cancer' is included in the 

“ war budget.” as the liability placed into taxes as subsidies?) 

We all know, if we investigate, that the revenue from charity and from taxes is supporting a war, a war using emotions and feelings, the good and the bad, judgement, a limited story recited as just division of how earth’s freely given resources are formed and moved, utilized and distributed in form and function. As it is the physical that is what is real and nothing else, so the real story cannot be hidden.

 

We also know how to produce food that is sustaining, both within and without. 

We understand that children that have a very large vocabulary tend to to well in school. And we know that a lack of opportunity creates a person who lacks skills, and the fear that is insecurity structurally within, builds a person who has no self directive capacity, so even here, if we allow a lack of access to our children having a solid foundation built of simple common sense of how the physical works, and how the physical works is understood because of the amount of innovation going on, then why do we not see, realize and understand that territorial resource controls, and wars on health, and wars to move drugs around, have nothing to do with supporting life?  That these wars are control mechanisms for few to maintain an idea of needing to control the systemic form of flow of resources as an order on earth that is the reverse of life? 

War and disease are big business, created from economic strife, which means creating a survival game on earth. At this point in time, there is so much understanding and innovation being done, even by 14 year olds, that we understand how to use energy that does no, or very little, harm to the environment.

The word, to govern stems from Latin word, gubenare, which means to steer, to rule. To “ rule” means to measure. So, someone who steers really is measuring the world around them. We have inverted this, and forced a measure based on self interest, and abdicate our natural ability to measure to a limited measure as in internal abstract of reality, called mind, that is what is steering the use of resources, freely given, as the physical means of life information/expression. And we believe that measure,  based on the mental picture that is flat, lacking dimension is a real life, a real measure. If we steer from this limited measure we become in conflict of the physical, because we are not considering all dimension of the physical - this that is composed of a building blocks of atoms that function in knowable practical ways - did we not then how have we allowed drugs to be touted by a written law to be the means of a cure? So, on the one hand we pass a law saying “ we know” and on the other hand within consequence of such supposed knowing, we continue to have cancer- for example? We cannot say we know how atoms work with how electrons transfer, and use this is create drugs that we force onto people, and then say we don’t know at the same time! This is essentially saying I know when it is my monetary/control interest, but then personally saying “ I don’t know.”  So, we have created and allowed a bring forward knowing for the corp, but when questioned we become personal entities that don’t know! That is snake like, forked tongue behavior, that is demonic, that is what it means to be demonic, to be a measure that shift's responsibility in ways to not have to answer in common sense!  And then if someone points this allowed self measure of limitation out, a response is “ I don’t like people “ like”/ ( that have a measure of and as) you!  Hissssssssssssss. And then the inner quantum mind begins to shake as its FALL - I -SEE does not want to admit its limited measure!

We can have no real power of creation, is we allow ourselves to own a memory that has no real measure of that which holds the memory, which is a para-sight as mind only, without cross reference of the principle means of life, which is the physical. If we allow a governing system that rules/measures by self interest as a system of usury that moves through the debt of interest that only exists by taking principle, then we allow a ruler/measuring device as a man, or a small measure of men, to steer- and this done from a point of overview that is just another measure as perspective. 

But if the “ view” is a picture as mind only, without cross reference, then the whole is forgotten, and the idea of para-mount (ed) inFORM as a projected para-sight becomes the rule/measure. 

Sounds like television. But what came first, the outer structure as our present “ rule of measure system’ or the inner accumulated SELF inner-rest of men as mind? What have we as personification measure of life accepted and allowed? Where are we not responsible and as such respectful of what is physical right in front of us?

A child is born with an ability to begin to measure this world. What is placed as knowledge and information to them, is what they become. If this measure placed within is one that is allowed constant cross reference with respect to practical form and function of physical reality on which the child depends to be life, than the child becomes equal to the rule/measure of the physical on which it depends. If not,  then the child has difficulty steering itself as the expression of life that it is.

Thus, we can become life. We have the gift of the physical to steer us into a rule of measure that is equal and one to and as life, as the physical, here. It is only limitation that believes it’s limitation to be more than life, that limitation is the mind developed lacking the use of common sense in respect, with every breath, of the physical. It is the accepted and allowed measure as a inner map made larger than life, it is what one has owned as a self definition, and just like television, one is allowing this to be one’s vision based on an inner ruling measure that has forgotten a respect and thus responsibility to and as the means of life, which is the physical. The steering, ruling measure within must be equal and one, respectful of, the means of life, which is the physical. 

This separation has accumulated for eons, it is time to stop because this separation is destroying the physical world, and as such life. It is time to use what we have created in ways that allow each the time and space to realign the inner measure that we have allowed to rule us, to remeasure, and re-rule, practical physical reality, to respect and be responsible to the physical gift of life. This is to give each the security within basic needs, which is clean water, shelter, education, and food. It is time to equalize ourselves to the physical which is the structural form of life expression. This  would be fun, and each would begin to stand, because what we all are looking for is the journey to life, and it is here right in front of us.

Day 341 What stops is from seeing our divisions as division?

So, I went to a gun discussion panel of a state representative, gun owner and member of a gun club and a mental health “expert” and a mother of a gun victim, someone else as well but they did not speak but few words.
And this morning I practiced my violin.
One might wonder what these two things have in common.
I was practicing and I noticed as I played a difficult part, that there were other things on my mind, at that I was occupied with these things, and this made the playing more difficult, simply because I was becoming automatic instead of being present, being here. I had to slow way down and play sections very slowly, ensuring that I was aware of every movement of myself and retain an awareness of the whole of myself: my bow, my legs, my strings, the partitions of the bow, the arms in their space, the intensity of the bow, the density of the strings the parts and their qualities and how they moved. I had to slow down and come back to each part and bring it back to the whole. and all the while keep stopping what was going on in the mind. ( sounds like sex, no god unless one is completely present- and it is the physical that is what is stable to bring one here) I noticed memories of my self as a child dreaming of fame, an image of my self being able to play, dreaming of playing more than playing. I noticed financial worries spinning around. I noticed wanting to get the practicing done so I could do other things, like write this post, this creating a rushing. All of this mind chatter had to stop, I had to bring myself here, can’t sense here with all this going on, it is like static, occupation with ideas in relation to survival, which can spin into doom and gloom, or a belief of what to do becoming anobsession until completed, an idea- not good or bad- but an idea only and more than likely something that is not going to play out as one imagined if one does not understand the system. Just like with playing, I must slow down and know the actual physical space of here, and this means understanding the present system and how the mind works, and this takes continued investigation. There is no other choice.
I also noticed a resistance to slowing down, which is more of the same, like a part of me became irritated within doing this. And because of the desteni i process, I realize this irritation is resistance, and where I do not want to slow down. It was a “ bitch” to practice some things slowly again and again, to stop and sense the space, again and again, but i know if I do not do this, I will teach myself the limitations, I will automate the limitations of my perception and then I will exist as a limited conception of here, and then try and justify this socially more than likely because I will not want others to see my own lack of awareness.

So this meeting.
Such a division of parts, bubbles of limited insight, the insight itself not good or bad, simply limited, meaning caught in its own bubble of no relation to the whole as the very structure of what exists as this present system.
I will take the parts and look at them here in relation to the whole. where the collection of the parts, the statements made are the answer to the problem of what warrants a need to have such a panel that are anodyne and also touch on points that are true, revealing.
There was the fact that it is not the gun, a gun is a tool, it is how the gun is used, it is the behavior behind the gun ( I am not condoning guns or not condoning them, they are a product of men, they are a manifestation of the accepted behavior of men). Thus, the main point of this gun person is that we are each responsible, able to be responsible.
The mental health expert, contradicted herself, at one point she said that within the inner cities there are low income areas where the strength of the community develops youths who do not become violent, thus it is not income that determines the development of violence. Yet , she called for more money to be given to mental health actions to support aid for the behavioral issues within men. So, she denied money as being the cause and then within another relation made, said that money was necessary. Her point about community, about a group supporting each other was valid, because it is us supporting one another, realizing our basic needs and sharing this earth to ensure we all have them that does build strength and awareness and - as the gun section pointed out - develops self responsibility.
The mother and a school child psychologist stood up and presented ideas about developing awareness of violence and how the media promotes violence and how as parents it is our responsibility to ensure what is grabbing the attention of our impressionable human body children. These points are also valid, this is also being aware of what we are as programmable entities, where if we look at the process of advertising and its success and thus presence everywhere, we realize that yes, indeed we are programmable or this would not exist. In some communities that have children playing video games there is also the voice, the control, of being told this is fantasy, in some communities there is not ONLY violence on the screen, there is violence on the street as well, thus the violence compounds, is bigger, is more, and as the mental health expert denied and then begged for, it is about money, just as she demands more money for what her role and profession are, she is within a singular relation made, she has valid points but they are within a limited construct in separation from the whole, she is caught within relationships only.

THis is how we are divided and conquered, remaining within relationships and not taking our valid points and relating them to the whole, moving with them in looking beyond our own roles and offerings, taking these points and bringing them back to the total state of this earth, the system to see where these valid points lack in relation to the functioning of the form of the whole.

I want to say, as well, that someone stood up and talked about the growing drug culture, as he had a child here, in my small town in America, that died from this pervasive and ubiquitous drug culture. I know it is everywhere, it is even in some of the best private schools, it is in the colleges, it is in social levels all over. Drugs make a lot of money, and they placate the individual. A double edged sword, placate and make money while doing so. Another form of divide and conquer, another form of separation into parts.

So, if we cannot sense the whole, if we have not been trained to read the whole, to slow down and have the opportunity to sense here, then how can we conceptualize here, learn about here and then move here? If our children are in a society that offers drugs and some fall into this, obviously these children are lacking in a strong sense of the community of this physical world, they seek an escape from this, or remain within fantasy, some into drugs and some into video games, either of which develop a sense of here.

As this panel talk about gun control stated it takes awareness of the effects of what is here, money, support, collective strength and the development of self responsibility.

So this meeting pointed out the lack existent within people and the pervasiveness of an element that actually destroys, present at every level of society, a culture that has incredible profits that end up in the hands of a few, and that diminish self responsibility, maintaining a culture of violence and a non-development of self responsibility in and as escapism, there by eliminating a threat of awareness to the whole, to self development that as a human, can conceptualize the whole.

And all these supposedly “ educated” experts caught up in relationships only, without the conceptual ability to relate this to the present system in totality, which means that they themselves are, as their limited roles, as their specialization reveals, is another form of divide and conquer, teach relationships within a bubble in educating the people and they can no longer conceptualize the whole, have a social system of meetings in local libraries where so called experts meet and state their relative roles, which takes a long time, as each praises the other, in fear of hurting someone’s feelings, and thus having no capacity to relate what they are saying to the very form and structure of our accepted and allowed system.

They are like the voices in my head while I was practicing, running through their own data as what they were taught disconnected from physical reality, not seeing the form of the physical as a whole and how it is moving here, as the systems we have allowed to regulate what happens on earth. They do not see their own division and conquest into limited knowledge and information, because it is all idea made huge in a bubble as mind. And meanwhile the river of profit in running under their feet, the cause of the violence and the drugs and the guns as the behaviors of men, in a system of profit before life. Drugs delivered all over on every level before life, before the development of our children to really be aware here. There can only be so many state reps in this system, there can only be so many mental health experts, to survive, the others either become members of other means of profit to survive, or give up and enter the escape option. The rest of us learn to balance our escapisms, meter them out to not lose our place as we have learned some form of control. This all varies by degree depending on where one was born and what opportunities were available.

Maybe the son of that man, the one who died after becoming involved in the ubiquitous drug culture somehow missed something taught in school, and then fell behind as it was not noticed, and then this compounded, the fear within an uncertainty, and maybe the teacher missed it that day, and/or maybe the parents were caught up in some family event and missed that one movement of something being missed. By the time the child reached high school, there was not enough money in the system that offers a general education, to walk back through all that had been taught to find the weakness, and the parents could no longer slow down and see what this was because they were not aware of what they are as programmable human physical beings. THus this child, that had opportunity missed some development in some way, because the individuals in the community were not taught to see and understand how here works as themselves, thus the outcome was a life not lived. We are all to blame, as we are divided and conquered and not taught what we are in totality and we accepted and allowed this, we do not understand how here works, had we then what exists would not be, because none of us want out children to die from drugs, or drones, of any form of violence that exists on earth. Thus it is our responsibility to figure out why this is here and to change this, to forgive the whys, and simplychange this system to one that is a community of support, that develops self responsibility, absolutely.

One must understand that this system of money, of how money is moved on earth, this that has come to represent survival moves. How this flows. And then to change the form of this to become a form that supports all in the community of earth, realizing that the value is a life lived in full potential.

One must also realize the ability of self as a physical being to sense the whole, the very presence of drugs tells us that we can be suppressed and that this by its nature of a form of division and conquest, and that it takes money to do this, just as that health worker said, it takes money.

To allow a few to have access to greater amount of money, and a system that allows money to flow to some more than others, when money represents and determines life is a crime. The ones with the control bought with what determines life, then disallow development, self responsibility, to maintain the more than scenario because the human has the capacity to become self responsible and would be able to conceptualize the whole. DUH.


So, I could be better at the violin, but still I am good enough to realize that the training I have was an opportunity to develop an awareness physically to some extent, and that it took placing an awareness into the total space here. This was done by walking the steps of the space of this. I had to break the space into parts and sense them, slowly and then, I used speed rhythms to do this, practice then until I was aware of them. At one point this became automatic, and I began to lose the ability, as I allowed myself to become automatic within the training, so I had to bring myself back, which means that awareness of the whole has to be maintained , which is to say being aware of the physical and the parts absolutely. as far as I can express this here, also knowing and asking myself how far can I go? What am I not aware of? Even here, I was not aware of how the mind worked , even though I began to question this, which is to say that there are others too.

So, we humans are being divided and conquered on many levels, and it is through limited relationships made huge in separation from understanding here, the system and ourselves as a physical system. Humans are able to be programmed with knowledge and information without practical physical application in relation to the whole, we are walking in bubbles of programming as energy, as this is self in separation from physical awareness, and thus we become automatons - so to speak. Check out the Eqafe.com interview about the quantum mind, take the time to understand this, and walk the free desteni Lite course.

Imagine being a child learning from the physical, before the knowledge and information learned in a system of inequality , goes on automatic? What adults become are limited information only, and this is then believed to be what is real, and when this does not match another there is naturally friction and conflict, an inability to find mutual understanding because the structures of belief, opinion and idea are on automatic, and separate from common sense, from seeing the whole, from being equal and one to and as the physical world. And our knowledge, of divisions seem so real, but they are not, and to note, the composition of the ideas, beliefs and opinions, are not all bad, it is how the tool as the mind is being used, it is how the gun is being used, it is the accepted and allowed developmental self responsibility of each of us, in a system that must divide and conquer in order to become the beliefs of some who are some automatic program of belief that they are more than another, when we are all the same, and we are all able to become aware of here in totality.

Look at how you validate yourself through the stories you tell to others, through the opinions you have, through the emotional energetic reactions you have in fear of loss. Look at what you resist, and realize how what you resist persists as an underlying fear, as you try and validate what you are to avoid what you believe you are not. Look at how you escape, that seemingly sweet need, so strong, so intoxicating, yet an illusion, as it demands more and more, because it is never satisfied, meaning it is an expression of dissatisfaction, thus the nature of it is of an incompleteness, as it is in separation from here, it is limited, it is energy, it lacks calm, constancy, silence, a gentle direction as ease with here has awareness thus an absence of skimming, of rushing, so to speak.

The power of inequality, of more than and less than, that by nature will divide and conquer as it is separate from life, the substance of life that is what we are, that is equal in all, as becoming what we are. We are to blame as each of us has feared to stand as life, and accepted and allowed separation in and as ideas to determine what we are, instead of remaining here as what is the value which is life, being, here, moving with here as life, accepting all forms.

We have to clean up this inequality as a form of what we the human have placed here on earth. THis game of divide and conquer is a practice to employ to understand the space here, in and as each of us individually, it is a way to understand and organize what is here to move what is here, to get what is here that supports all equally within the value being life. The mind is like a tool of measure to work in tandem with the physical, this measure is to see and become one and equal to and with what is here as reality, to learn to sense here in totality, to realign to physical substance as what is real, to walk out of our separations, we created the mind to find ourselves in a way. Thus, in a way it is a gift, to be used within and as what is best for all. It is a means to become one and equal to and as life here, within realizing what is best for self as being aware of here with every breath. Mind without physical awareness is a limitation, as the mind is only a map and not what is real, as the mind now stands, consciousness is the outcome of inequality to and as life here, and earth, is the place to birth those at - most - sphere of equalizing themselves to and as life, as they allowed energy to be a drug as an escape preferring fantasy to reality having taken an idea to be more than life itself.

Equal Money, the solution

Day 313 Disgust Character Behavioral Dimension

I have this memory coming up again, where i am in high school in New York and int he apartment of a major game player within the fashion industry. He is holding out a bowl of coke to myself and a friend and a friend of my sister.
I am within a reaction of being very angry. I had to leave I was so angry. At the time all I wanted to do was take that bowl of white powdery coke and smash it on the table.
This was behavior as a reaction and not myself looking at and realizing how such an act came to exist within this world. I was limited and blamed a singular point within a whole chain of consequence of profit that created such a scenario, which was a human being believing they were more than another, which is what I was being within my own behavior, more judgement.
My anger and judgment towards this one person was not going to stop what created this abuse. What exists on earth that allows and creates a need to use drugs to entertain and escape was what needed to be realized. I had already learned that drugs were not worth it. They altered reality and this was not something that was real. At the time I was a teenager, one who was not interested in drugs, which is not to say I did not try them, they just did not seem what they were promised to be, so I never fell under their spell. Perhaps if my existence had been more difficult such exposure would have had a different outcome, as there were models who got caught up in the spell of drugs.
So my reactions of righteousness and disgust were not a movement of solution and/or prevention, they were reactions only, without stopping and asking why existence contained such limiting experiences. Such reactions are not being self responsible for and as life in consideration of all life, this which is the responsibility of each and everyone of us on earth.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to have followed this friend, who I had followed before and wound up in a similar situation, thus I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to have used my common sense within and as realizing I should never have made this stop off en-route to another gathering as this girl was socially involved in the modeling world, whereas I was no longer involved yet had retained some “friends” from this world.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to have become an emotional reaction of disgust and anger to and towards one of the men offering the coke, not seeingrealizing and understanding that such a reaction was fear and self anger, and self disgust for not using my common sense, both within the immediate context and within taking the time to investigate how the present systems functions and why older men were trying to become sugar daddy’s to teenage girls and thus serving their own desires without any consideration for the life of that teenage girl who is in many ways still a child, which is to say that this is an act that does not consider life, and only considers a limited desire, as an act that does not respect life, is a limited act within a limited self awareness of life, which begs the question as to why such would exist.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to become a behavior of anger as at the time I was also intimidated by these men, and feared having to say no to them, eventhought this was the only choice, which was the choice taken, I was having to say no within a situation that had the potential to be threatening for which I forgive myself for.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to have been frightened, and thus angry, not seeing realizing and understanding that I can let this emotion go, as this is in the past and not what is here, as myself.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to have been ashamed that I had allowed myself to walk into this situation having had a similar experience one other time with this same girl, were drugs were involved.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not see, realize and understand that I was ashamed of myself for having gone with this girl because I rather go to an event with another than alone, and so, against my better judgement I joined up with this girl in fear of being alone.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to carry this shame with me, as me, in and as a memory, to not let this memory go, to see, realize and understand that this is not myself here,as this is from the past and does not define myself here, within this moment, within this breath, unless I accept and allow this.
I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see realize and understand that this even at that time in that moment, I alone could not have changed the world, as the existence of drugs, as this takes an understanding of why such a thing exists within the whole, which requires an investigation into how the present system on earth exists, without denial in beliefs in and as invisible gods, or invisible hands, as what is physically on this earth is moved by the hands of men, and thus this system can be understood through simply looking at how this world works, and as such a change will require many standing together, as history tells us that many have attempted to stand and speak up, and many stand and speak at present, yet as a “lone ranger” which is an easy target, and just as the faceless that benefit as what is behind a corporation which means the few who live lives of comfort are a group convincing the rest of humanity via media and the happy drugs of products that promise a more than, that never deliver such a promise, which we all accept and allow unless we stop and breath and investigate and self realize in common sense that we are not really living, and that to change this system will require many to stand, realize that which accepted and allowed and created this present system are the same ones, as men, who must stand and change this system into what is best for all, which means standing and being self responsible for and as life, realizing life is the value.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not realize that my anger is myself in disgust with myself for accepting and allowing myself to entertain situations that lack common sense, within and as what is not best for myself, and thus, what is not best for all, as I seek a drug by a different name, which, as in this memory, was the entertainment of going to a party, where I let down my common sense and did not follow my batter judgment of not hooking up with this friend, but was lead by a desire for entertainment in the form of a party, thus I was qualifying one type of entertainment as more than, better than another.
I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand that yesterday when I found myself becoming the emotion of anger, I had entered into a situation where those present showed no interest, and thus not pushed the issue, as the starting point would have required at least some amount of inquiry, of which there was none and as such what can only be done is a seed planted and let it go, as just as I was as an ignorant human, as a teenager who had not in fact investigated the present system in common sense, as had this been taught, then the earth would not be what it exists as within so much disrespect for life, in and as the amount of abuse that needs but little investigation to see, realize and understand that what man has accepted and allowed is unacceptable in all common sense, and a statement that the nature of man cannot change, is in and as it self unacceptable, because if I can realize that drugs are not myself really existing here, than so can others, as such awareness is capable of being what we are, and it is only emotions, as a collection of past events as beliefs that accumulate and limited the expression of men, and since this was built up within, it can be deconstructed, just as existent systems have been constructed, can they be deconstructed, thus, the excuse - which is all it is- that I cannot change, and/or men cannot change makes no sense, and is what would be taught in a world that does not teach common sense as common sense means looking at the consequences of men, and what has been built by the hands of men, where no god, and no invisible hand can be found, if one simply investigate the practical movement of this real physical existence.

I commit myself to remaining within and as breath, to see, realize and understand that the moment i become a reaction, I am in a rush to win and not here, equal and one to the steps necessary to see, realize and understand the very consequence built that must be unbuilt, which appears to move slowly, but is simply the tack of taking down a wall of beliefs, opinions and ideas that are the very substance of life, here that are not aligned within and as what is best for all, what considers all of existence, are limitations within being equal and one, to and as what is here as this physical world, and thus are simply a self imposed burden veiling this physical world that gives freely to support life.
I commit myself to slowing myself down, to breathing, to realizing when and as I begin to have “bouts” of feeling tired, and yawning a lot, I must slow down and breath, and write out the events of the previous day, to see, what memories come up and the sequence of my own reactions, to see, realize and understand what I am showing myself to have accepted and allowed that is in separation from realizing what behavioral consequences I have allowed as what I accepted through the teachings of a society of inequality which I had not investigated for myself.
I commit myself to breathing, to remaining here, realizing that all reactions, as emotions and feelings and thoughts, when having a quality of aggression, or anger, or desire for attention, are myself existing within limitation and thus not moving at ease within and as common sense of here, which is being myself as life, equal and one.
I commit myself to slowing myself down, and to breath, to realize the presence of energy as friction and conflict, and to stop and investigate without fear of judgement, as judgement is a polarity of want , need and desire in self interest in fear of loss, to then without reaction, in and as common sense within being equal and one to and as breath, within the principle of oneness and equality, to direct myself here.