So, I went to a gun discussion panel of a state representative, gun owner and member of a gun club and a mental
health “expert” and a
mother of a gun victim, someone else as well but they did not
speak but few words.
And this morning I practiced my violin.
One might wonder what these two things have in common.
I was practicing and I noticed as I played a difficult part, that there were other things on my mind, at that I was occupied with these things, and this made the playing more difficult, simply because I was becoming automatic instead of being present, being here. I had to slow way down and play sections very slowly, ensuring that I was aware of every movement of myself and retain an awareness of the whole of myself: my bow, my legs, my strings, the partitions of the bow, the arms in their space, the intensity of the bow, the density of the strings the parts and their qualities and how they moved. I had to slow down and come back to each part and bring it back to the whole. and all the while keep stopping what was going on in the mind. (
sounds like sex, no
god unless one is completely present- and it is the physical that is what is stable to bring one here) I noticed memories of my self as a
child dreaming of fame, an image of my self being able to play, dreaming of playing more than playing. I noticed financial worries spinning around. I noticed wanting to get the practicing done so I could do other things, like write this post, this creating a rushing. All of this
mind chatter had to stop, I had to bring myself here, can’t sense here with all this going on, it is like static, occupation with ideas in relation to survival, which can spin into doom and gloom, or a belief of what to do becoming an
obsession until completed, an idea- not
good or bad- but an idea only and more than likely something that is not going to play out as one imagined if one does not understand the system. Just like with playing, I must slow down and know the actual physical space of here, and this means understanding the present system and how the mind works, and this takes continued investigation. There is no other choice.
I also noticed a resistance to slowing down, which is more of the same, like a part of me became irritated within doing this. And because of the
desteni i process, I realize this irritation is resistance, and where I do not want to slow down. It was a “ bitch” to practice some things slowly again and again, to stop and sense the space, again and again, but i know if I do not do this, I will teach myself the
limitations, I will automate the limitations of my perception and then I will exist as a limited conception of here, and then try and justify this socially more than likely because I will not want others to see my own lack of awareness.
So this meeting.
Such a
division of parts, bubbles of limited insight, the insight itself not
good or bad, simply limited, meaning caught in its own bubble of no relation to the whole as the very structure of what exists as this present system.
I will take the parts and look at them here in relation to the whole. where the collection of the parts, the statements made are the answer to the problem of what warrants a need to have such a panel that are anodyne and also touch on points that are true, revealing.
There was the fact that it is not the gun, a gun is a tool, it is how the gun is used, it is the behavior behind the gun ( I am not condoning guns or not condoning them, they are a product of men, they are a manifestation of the
accepted behavior of men). Thus, the main point of this gun person is that we are each responsible, able to be responsible.
The mental
health expert, contradicted herself, at one point she said that within the inner cities there are low income areas where the strength of the community develops youths who do not become violent, thus it is not income that determines the development of violence. Yet , she called for more
money to be given to mental health actions to support aid for the behavioral issues within men. So, she denied
money as being the cause and then within another relation made, said that money was necessary. Her point about community, about a group supporting each other was valid, because it is us supporting one another, realizing our basic needs and sharing this earth to ensure we all have them that does build strength and awareness and - as the gun section pointed out - develops self responsibility.
The mother and a school child psychologist stood up and presented ideas about developing awareness of violence and how the media promotes violence and how as parents it is our responsibility to ensure what is grabbing the attention of our impressionable human body children. These points are also valid, this is also being aware of what we are as programmable entities, where if we look at the process of advertising and its
success and thus presence everywhere, we realize that yes, indeed we are programmable or this would not exist. In some communities that have children playing video games there is also the voice, the control, of being told this is fantasy, in some communities there is not ONLY violence on the screen, there is violence on the street as well, thus the violence compounds, is bigger, is more, and as the mental health expert denied and then begged for, it is about money, just as she demands more money for what her role and profession are, she is within a singular relation made, she has valid points but they are within a limited construct in separation from the whole, she is caught within
relationships only.
THis is how we are divided and conquered, remaining within
relationships and not taking our valid points and relating them to the whole, moving with them in looking beyond our own roles and offerings, taking these points and bringing them back to the total state of this earth, the system to see where these valid points lack in relation to the functioning of the form of the whole.
I want to say, as well, that someone stood up and talked about the growing
drug culture, as he had a child here, in my small town in America, that died from this pervasive and ubiquitous drug culture. I know it is everywhere, it is even in some of the best private schools, it is in the colleges, it is in social levels all over. Drugs make a lot of money, and they placate the individual. A double edged sword, placate and make money while doing so. Another form of divide and conquer, another form of separation into parts.
So, if we cannot sense the whole, if we have not been trained to read the whole, to slow down and have the opportunity to sense here, then how can we conceptualize here, learn about here and then move here? If our children are in a society that offers drugs and some
fall into this, obviously these children are lacking in a strong sense of the community of this physical world, they seek an escape from this, or remain within fantasy, some into drugs and some into video games, either of which develop a sense of here.
As this panel talk about gun control stated it takes awareness of the effects of what is here, money, support, collective strength and the development of self responsibility.
So this meeting pointed out the lack existent within people and the pervasiveness of an element that actually destroys, present at every level of society, a culture that has incredible profits that end up in the hands of a few, and that diminish self responsibility, maintaining a culture of violence and a non-development of self responsibility in and as escapism, there by eliminating a threat of awareness to the whole, to self development that as a human, can conceptualize the whole.
And all these supposedly “ educated” experts caught up in relationships only, without the conceptual ability to relate this to the present system in totality, which means that they themselves are, as their limited roles, as their specialization reveals, is another form of divide and conquer, teach relationships within a bubble in educating the people and they can no longer conceptualize the whole, have a social system of meetings in local libraries where so called experts meet and state their relative roles, which takes a long time, as each praises the other,
in fear of hurting someone’s feelings, and thus having no capacity to relate what they are saying to the very form and structure of our accepted and allowed system.
They are like the voices in my head while I was practicing, running through their own data as what they were taught disconnected from physical reality, not
seeing the form of the physical as a whole and how it is moving here, as the systems we have allowed to regulate what happens on earth. They do not see their own division and conquest into limited
knowledge and information, because it is all idea made huge in a bubble as mind. And meanwhile the river of profit in running under their feet, the cause of the violence and the drugs and the guns as the behaviors of men, in a system of profit before life. Drugs delivered all over on every level before life, before the development of our children to really be aware here. There can only be so many state reps in this system, there can only be so many mental health experts, to survive, the others either become members of other means of profit to survive, or give up and enter the escape option. The rest of us learn to balance our escapisms, meter them out to not lose our place as we have learned some form of control. This all varies by degree
depending on where one was born and what opportunities were available.
Maybe the son of that man, the one who died after becoming involved in the ubiquitous drug culture somehow missed something taught in school, and then fell behind as it was not noticed, and then this compounded, the fear within an uncertainty, and maybe the
teacher missed it that day, and/or maybe the parents were caught up in some
family event and missed that one movement of something being missed. By the time the child reached high school, there was not enough money in the system that offers a general education, to walk back through all that had been taught to find the weakness, and the parents could no longer slow down and see what this was because they were not aware of what they are as programmable human physical beings. THus this child, that had opportunity missed some development in some way, because the individuals in the community were not taught to see and understand how here works as themselves, thus the outcome was a life not lived. We are all to blame, as we are divided and conquered and not taught what we are in totality and we accepted and allowed this, we do not understand how here works, had we then what exists would not be, because none of us want out children to die from drugs, or drones, of any form of violence that exists on earth. Thus it is our responsibility to figure out why this is here and to
change this, to forgive the whys, and simply
change this system to one that is a community of support, that develops self responsibility, absolutely.
One must understand that this system of money, of how money is moved on earth, this that has come to represent survival moves. How this flows. And then to
change the form of this to become a form that supports all in the community of earth, realizing that the value is a life lived in
full potential.
One must also realize the ability of self as a physical being to sense the whole, the very presence of drugs tells us that we can be suppressed and that this by its nature of a form of division and conquest, and that it takes money to do this, just as that health worker said, it takes money.
To allow a few to have access to greater amount of money, and a system that allows money to flow to some more than others, when money represents and determines life is a crime. The ones with the control bought with what determines life, then disallow development, self responsibility, to maintain the more than scenario because the human has the capacity to become self responsible and would be able to conceptualize the whole. DUH.
So, I could be better at the violin, but still I am
good enough to realize that the training I have was an opportunity to develop an awareness physically to some extent, and that it took placing an awareness into the total space here. This was done by walking the steps of the space of this. I had to break the space into parts and sense them, slowly and then, I used speed rhythms to do this, practice then until I was aware of them. At one point this became automatic, and I began to lose the ability, as I allowed myself to become automatic within the training, so I had to bring myself back, which means that awareness of the whole has to be maintained , which is to say being aware of the physical and the parts absolutely. as far as I can express this here, also knowing and asking myself how far can I go? What am I not aware of? Even here, I was not aware of how the mind worked , even though I began to
question this, which is to say that there are others too.
So, we humans are being divided and conquered on many levels, and it is through limited relationships made huge in separation from understanding here, the system and ourselves as a physical system. Humans are able to be programmed with knowledge and information without practical physical application in relation to the whole, we are walking in bubbles of programming as energy, as this is self in separation from physical awareness, and thus we become automatons - so to speak. Check out the Eqafe.com interview about the
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Imagine being a child learning from the physical, before the knowledge and information learned in a system of inequality , goes on automatic? What adults become are limited information only, and this is then believed to be what is real, and when this does not match another there is naturally friction and conflict, an inability to find mutual understanding because the structures of belief, opinion and idea are on automatic, and separate from common sense, from seeing the whole, from being equal and one to and as the physical world. And our knowledge, of divisions seem so real, but they are not, and to note, the composition of the ideas, beliefs and opinions, are not all bad, it is how the tool as the mind is being used, it is how the gun is being used, it is the accepted and allowed developmental self responsibility of each of us, in a system that must divide and conquer in order to become the beliefs of some who are some automatic program of belief that they are more than another, when we are all the same, and we are all able to become aware of here in totality.
Look at how you validate yourself through the stories you tell to others, through the opinions you have, through the
emotional energetic reactions you have in
fear of loss. Look at what you resist, and realize how what you resist persists as an underlying fear, as you try and validate what you are to avoid what you believe you are not. Look at how you escape, that seemingly sweet need, so strong, so intoxicating, yet an illusion, as it demands more and more, because it is never satisfied, meaning it is an expression of dissatisfaction, thus the nature of it is of an incompleteness, as it is in separation from here, it is limited, it is energy, it lacks calm, constancy, silence, a gentle direction as ease with here has awareness thus an absence of skimming, of rushing, so to speak.
The power of inequality, of more than and less than, that by nature will divide and conquer as it is separate from life, the substance of life that is what we are, that is equal in all, as becoming what we are. We are to blame as each of us has feared to stand as life, and accepted and allowed separation in and as ideas to determine what we are, instead of remaining here as what is the value which is life, being, here, moving with here as life,
accepting all forms.
We have to clean up this inequality as a form of what we the human have placed here on earth. THis game of divide and conquer is a practice to employ to understand the space here, in and as each of us individually, it is a way to understand and organize what is here to move what is here, to get what is here that supports all equally within the value being life. The mind is like a tool of measure to work in tandem with the physical, this measure is to see and become one and equal to and with what is here as reality, to learn to sense here in totality, to realign to physical substance as what is real, to walk out of our separations, we created the mind to find ourselves in a way. Thus, in a way it is a gift, to be used within and as what is best for all. It is a means to become one and equal to and as life here, within realizing what is best for self as being aware of here with every breath. Mind without physical awareness is a limitation, as the mind is only a map and not what is real, as the mind now stands, consciousness is the outcome of inequality to and as life here, and earth, is the place to birth those at - most - sphere of equalizing themselves to and as life, as they allowed energy to be a drug as an escape preferring fantasy to reality having taken an idea to be more than life itself.
Equal Money, the solution
