A dream coat of a mind-consciousness projection Day 777

If I want presence of and as all things, I have to become that presence. This means I have to hear the life around me as the physical reality.  Facing the metaphysical bubbles of self interest, that move as a colored energetic emotional swirl, visible in the subtle and visible strings pulling the flesh this way and that, are but small, in comparison to this living practical and physical reality. Ever present, if what is unique - lol ‘uni-que’ is like one quest, self honesty. . If I fear that, I am fearing myself, because despite the mannered values that are monopolistic, there, is always something unique that cannot hide, in each individual. If that remains constant, despite the separation into persona, can I realize myself within and reacting to bringing that forward? 

I write here, to script things out, to see where I am, and to construct ‘ takes’ in my process of birthing life into the physical. I realize, in learning how to crawl, there will be mis-takes. they are always gifts towards balance. It is learning to play an instrument. 

I watched a video of someone this week. In the situation I had been half listening to a person speaking, as the focus in the interaction had  changed from one thing to another. While I was busy transitioning, I moved, in the room, towards a video. My presence was still in the previous moment. I saw the person in the video, in the whole context from another lens. The person appeared to me to be someone I know, who I have watched on videos many many times. Form that lens I thought, why does this person in the present video have a flattened nose! lol, that was the thought that came up, from a presence colored with immediate comparison of past forms imposing themselves on the moment. Not necessarily a ‘ bad’ , yet myself not immediately present. When I moved closer to the video, and the person came more into focus, as did I, what I could see is the movements of the person I had delegated to the image in my mind, and what was in the forefront as I picked up more details of the physical movements in the person in the video. It was like a morphing of many different things; my experiences, from many dimensions, at a distance of experiences to more self understood ticks in my own movements. The person in the video became their own person, and appeared like a kind of puppet, moved by many emotions. This hit me so hard, it appeared so extreme. I recognized some of my own patterns. All I can say is that when it is said we walk in a valley of smoke and mirrors, known as emotions and feelings, based on beliefs, opinions and ideas, as accumulated thoughts creating actions and deeds, we are doing this, and it is extreme. Yet, at the same time, it is so small, a tiny part of ourselves. Though this is as far as I got, because to say I sense what the wholeness might be, I cannot, too in focus on the techno colored swirling in the flesh, was I. It is like ‘ oh shit!” lol.

I have a tendency to move to the greater stage, as the world platform, perhaps to avoid seeing my own self.  I find bringing the movements of the larger scale, in relation to my immediate environment helpful. As though understanding something from a distance helps me to face myself.  And yes, this is the same game as the use of metaphor. The parables, as the symbols, the objects made subject, enable me to begin to realize what I adhere to as reaction, that can then be brought back to self. Like backwards analysis. Is this a form of hiding? 

The practical application, the solution is always right here. The power is too or more in my name, as what calling something out by name, bring the obvious here, and makes it re-cognizable in what it is. Calling things out by name, removes the control of them because it is through lack that things become confusing, and this, accepted by the self, because reality is always right here. This is how the whole public school, be design, is the means of the creation of cognitive dissonance, which because of its starting point to be such, has created, as accumulated into such, as we see all around us, in reality, in every town, as the growing cognitive disorders, known as ADHD, ADD, autism and dyslexia. It is a processing disorder, done by acceptance and allowance, done by design. Memorizing the stories of the victors, creates a interference of form, distracting from the practical, and causing a disconnect from real capacity, which is an acknowledgement of capacity. It is the maintenance of creating bubbles of information to direct the person, causing mis-takes in practical living. Cognitive dissonance is acknowledgment of separation. It is like being stuck in rudimentary learning, or RULE I MENTally have acclimated to and as that directs me, where what I was in the box, of sounded storied information, does not fit into the real math as the living and breathing world around me. After all, we all admit that we need to get back to nature, which is the admission that we need to INCLUDE all things, as the physical. Our segmented rulings, as our beliefs, that we have habituated to the extent they are more real than what is here, is a interference math, that does not fit into the sound of life, that is all things around us. We need to wake up all of who and what we are.  We need to play the instrument of and as who and what we are here.

Okay, so I am watching this video, of this person, and I am astounded by the moving and swirling self directing beliefs, within this person. I begin to sort, to find some grounding. It is from here, that I realized to look for what is eternal, and yet, realize, to some degree, I avoid because it means really looking at myself. Yet, as the same time, because I am of mankind,  I find myself somewhat overwhelmed. As a man, having information is calming. On a quantum level, things move in quantum ways, meaning one does not learn one part to then add, one must being many parts into balance; clarifying more, also clarifies what yet needs to become more focused. Meaning , I can focus on the lack ONLY, or I can realize, as well, the sense of being in calm the capacity to realize information lends. 

Reacting this to another event this week, brings forward how much in reaction I can allow myself to get lost within, was a meeting where a person constantly used endearments when speaking with others. Meaning, her frames of information - which were interesting and insightful- were always framed with ‘ honey’, or ‘ dear’ or ‘ sweetie.’ I find such annoying, because it is not real endearment, it is endearment used to soften a person before making a statement. Effective in some ways, distracting in others. It presupposes a deeper connection, it is like giving a present to place a person in ‘ giving mode,’ before one has any idea of what one agrees to and towards. Yet this is my take on it, despite it being an obvious tool of control of protection. It cannot determine who and what I am unless I allow it. Within this, I could feel the pull, the polarizing as the sound as the words of value judgments coming forward. I was both aware of the device, annoyed by it, and the movement within me, of and as the lending of pity for me, in a way. I responded within me as realizing the self pity I accepted and allowed.  It is being pulled into a personification, to change the narrative and never allow it to move beyond a certain framework. What is real, might just be uncovered. Since hate is always self hate, meaning we know we are not being responsible, self responsible,  wanting acknowledgement of my own self pity, is like being told , “ it is okay, yes it is sad.” and then not moving into introspection and self correction. Yet, this is the mode in which we are stuck! This is how limitation is used to suppress a state of being where there are no problems only solutions, in this physical and practical world. This is the story of a mind consciousness of separation, in plain sight. 

Dare I LOOK at what is eternal, and stand here? This means, DARE I LOOK at myself? DARE I process this reality, no longer being effected by a false morality composed of limitation, as the game of good and evil instead of respecting life that is physical, to realize what does no harm? There is no other choice. 

If I look at taxation, I can see everything we do in this reality with a construct of legal means is imposed as accepted, as the starting point is ourselves, creating the ending point/construct. We are living in ‘ going to the movies’ mode, where we pay to watch our own disassociation of ourselves. In order for that tax - to live- to end, each must accept this life. The gift is that sense one gets when enough information is realized to lend a sense of clear self direction, because we are happy, truly happy when we are effectively engaged, and unhappy when we are not. 

I can become present here, remain steady with here. My projections are okay, as I can recognize them and ground them. I can see the valley of good and evil, superimposed on the physical, like a swirling techno colored DREAM coat, using metaphor and parable to hide within itself, through distraction of a storied mis-information in separation and of fragmented knowledge and information made larger than reality as the physical. LOL, when will we realize that this was done by the supposed reptilians, and was a further intensifying of what we had allowed within ourselves, thus there is no one to blame and no reptilians doing anything to us, as it could only be done through acceptance. Time to respect the living, breathing, physical reality as who and what we really are here. As life, we are untouchable. As personality, we are walking death of life.

Day 318 The Innate sensibility of the human physical body and the image holder as the mind

There is a boy in this small town where I live that is aware of the animal life around him. One day he was at my home and a bat was flying around in my yard. I spoke up about the bat being out in the middle of the day, because it was not something I had seen, and he looked at me and said that it was a baby bat, and was out because it was just playing with itself in flying, in testing its wings. I was surprised that this boy had the awareness to even make such a remark, if the remark was correct or not. This boy was already introuble with the law, was already failing school, and was already taking someone’s credit card and buying lingerie on line for “girl friends” as the consumerist, sex maniac warp of reality embedded itself as the only directive that would become this boy as an adult. So, here was a boy with an awareness that had no value within a consumerist society, an awareness, a “noticing” of the world around him, that was being redirected into a limited view point, a limited obsession, a warped reality where somethings, some aspects of life were turned into huge things to run after, to obsess over, to become possessed with, deny other qualities that noticed values that were parts of this existence, that were expressions within this existence.
I watched a movie last night about family life. The concerns within the family were not in and of themselves something to be denied, but the focus on the interactions as therelationships and the wants, needs and desires of each individual in relation to what our consumerist market directs the human into and as. Emotional values become synonymous as self as entertainment lived as what we are, and each person within this further warping these already limited values believed to be real as all self is. Is this what develops friction in the family removing an ability to communicate. The validation sought within each person within this already warped scenario is simply a desire to have one’s warped obsessions and possession validated, fed, justified. Thus our movies, popular movies, are about relationships between humans in a bubble, an energetic one at that, so unstable because there is no real relationship to here. Our consumerist society promotes this, because what is created that can be sold, not only consumes how we focus ourselves, it also limits awareness, shuts it down. Meanwhile a few then control the very focus/expression of each person on this earth and do this control through fear as what they themselves exist as.. This really is messed up, and once realized so simplistic. When and if humanity woke up, the shock of accepted and allowed ignorance will be astounding. And who am I to speak in such a way, because I was/am the same. Some tiny thing happened that sensed, without an ability to express this ( which probably still needs work), that just stood back and had this “overview” thought that something was very messed up about existence. And really, it does not take much to realize this, we all know it.
What all this means is that mankind is able to sense the environment. It also means that man can be programmed. So, if we know man is capable of sensing the physical world in tandem with being able to be programmed, then we can begin to step back and really look at what we have accepted and allowed. To look at what is being programmed in, and what is happening to the physical world we are able to sense as what we are physically as a “tool” to sense this physical world. And this “tool” also has the capacity to hold pictures/movies that are pictographs of ideologies placed in image memorized, and the image can be a part made huge, a distortion, where limited aspects are what is fixated upon.
The question then is how to balance this, how do we equalize the sensing self, with this understanding - that is being used- that images - as memories are held within- that can compound to the extent they actually start directing us? How do we move from this separation into life alignment as the actual physical world around us? How is it that we function in directly sensing the physical in equal consideration because this is what we are and what is the real support of us? Any action or development of shutting down, creating ignorance as conditioned blindness/non-development beingness/focus, of men that does not place /include the tool of the human physical body as individual “sensor” of the actual physical earth into full “sensing ability” is a crime against life absolutely. The blame is ourselves as we are the ones as what we are -allowing pollution, habitat destruction, ecological destruction, this that is needed to support the physical world.
The answers are here right in front of us, even within our constitutions. We have placed the principle of “ for the common good” within many variations, and coupled with this the illusion of profit, of a more than and a less than, this concept in and as itself an illusion blind to life as the value, there can be no one thing that is a greater value than another. The ideology of profit is illusion placed onto this physical manifestation. Inequality creates the behaviors as what is here, as the physical world, as nature trying to compensate for the imbalance. We are the creators of here, thus we, the human, are the creators of the existent abuse on earth. The bodies, as the humans in power, who benefit within comfortable lives are merely the extreme of this ideology onto creation, and each of us are caught up in the illusion of our own demise because we have removed ourselves from ourselves as a physical tool that is of the same substance as the physical world. This tool is the gift of sensing the form as life in expression that is earth here. This is what is real, this is the “cutting edge” of life. There for, heaven and any “invisible” hand are the illusion, all imaginations that in essence manifest as a lack of communication.. Memories are memories, imagery, not real. No one has seen “god” because there is no god.
Our behaviors show us our ignorance. Blaming an object for the action an object on this earth moves as, will do nothing within realizing why what is here is moving as how here expresses itself, because everything that is here, as how here is in expression, is due to what systemic confines are placed that create how here as earth is within movement. It is like trying to turn the electricity on in a house from a broken switch, or a malfunctioning switch and then blaming that switch and asking the one singular switch to “fix” itself. Can’t be done. Impossible. That switch needs the awareness within the sensibility of the environment, to reform it and connect is to the whole. It is to understand our extreme individuality promoting consumerist profit based ethos limits life insight and we do not see our own habit as this. A misdirected focus into a limited awareness, and all the while, the human, as a physical expression, as a tool can become aware of so much more, to the point where this awareness can be itself and allow the parts of this physical world to be themselves as well. How can one immediately grasp this if illusion is a taught reality? I mean , why are we filing into steepled buildings to beg to a vapid form unseen, in denial of a “part” of existence as the physical? The real question is why does equality not exist, in all common sense? The lack of communication shows us our resistance, our separation our loss of sensibility. Blame shows us our separation, spite shows us our separation. Conditional giving shows us our separations. Equality does not deny order, but it does reveal a present order that is based on division into limitation as a control as more than and less than which is judgement, as forcing into one size fits all within brackets of class, race, culture, that become obsessive within how a woman should be, how a house should look, how resource should move, resource serving only parts of existence.

TIme to stop, time to bring ourselves back into realizing the physical world and aligning ourselves equal and one with the physical, to remove the projections, to realize the mindas image maker, emotions thoughts and feelings as the compound of incessant thought that are ideologies describing a part and not an actual physical sensibility of life, because only physical and self interaction can determine what is real. A thought is just a picture and profit for a few is an ideological picture as mind in separation from life. The illusory third, an imagi-nation dividing life from itself.

Day 90 The heart is a lonely hunter

Day 90 The heart is a lonely hunter

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to believe that the heart can become lonely.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to realize, see and understand that my heart can only become lonely is it is not forgiving of itself as life.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand that if the heart follows the dictates of the mind,as what the mind decides is more than and less than, then the heart will become a lonely hunter.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand that in not being a living word, where all of self is here forgiving of itself as what is the directive principle of what is best for all, as being in understanding of how the human physical body functions as life, and how this world system functions in and as its present state, where within this existence there are starving children, abused animals, lifeless soils and products that do not consider the heart of this world, this earth, that gives, is forgiving unconditionally, then what is produced within a system that allows continents to be raped, and the people of the land to drink contaminated waters then is the heart of this world, as life, in a state of loneliness for life, as what is on this earth within a system of survival/competition/ inequality is at its very heart seeking and thus in being a seeker one becomes the heart of a lonely hunter.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not see that within myself, in seeking something outside of myself to fulfill me, I am being the heart of a lonely hunter.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not see, realize and understand that should I allow my heart as life to be the living word, I would no longer be the heart of a lonely hunter, as I would be one and equal to this earth, unconditionally forgiving of myself as life.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand that any conditions I place as values on any object is myself being the heart of a lonely hunter, seeking perfection, where I allow exterior objects to define myself within ideas of perfection instead of standing up as my self, as life being here, one and equal to this earth.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand that the most satisfying moments in my life were when I was unconditionally giving, without expectation, without want, need or desire, simply forgiving of myself, where at this moment I was no longer the heart of a lonely hunter.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to realize that in being lonely I am in self pity, woe and longing and thus I am allowing and accepting myself to be the character of the heart of a lonely hunter, and thus I am so busy being this that I am missing what is unconditionally giving right in front of myself here, myself as life here one and equal to what is physically here, where I need no emotion and feeling to exist as I am simply being here.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand that the moment I have not accepted what is here, I am placing values as what is more than and less than, and thus I am becoming a judge of this physical world where I believe one thing is more than another and thus I will begin to want that which I perceive is more than another and thus I become the character in separation and hence in competition for what I believe is greater, and thus do I begin my journey as the heart of a lonely hunter.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand that there is no purpose in being a heart of the lonely hunter, as my ideas, beliefs and opinions of what is more than and less than will change as the mind, the judge will continue to judge as there is no more than and less than, and thus this more than and less than can never be found, so any thought of judgement is the act of the being of self as the heart of the lonely hunter.

I commit myself to allowing and accepting myself to stop myself from allowing and accepting myself to exist as the character of the heart of the lonely hunter.

I commit myself to realizing that all judgement and label of more than and less than, will create the heart of the lonely hunter, as I have abdicated myself as life in being the living word as the directive principle of what is best for all.

I commit myself to standing one and equal to life, where I walk what is necessary to support all life on this earth, so that I may walk in all shoes of all that is of this earth and never allow the heart of the lonely hunter to exist on this earth, within or without.

I commit myself to  stopping all judgements of beauty, as I then separate myself form this earth and become the heart of a lonely hunter.

I commit myself to creating a world where there are no museums of collections of those who have had the opportunity to master an art and to realize that what should be on this earth is the muse of me as life that I am as the living word where I will no longer walk as a heart of a lonely hunter.

I commit myself to realize that what exists on this earth, within a system that does not support life, is the cry of the heart of the lonely hunter and not the muse of me as life, here one and equal to what this earth is, unconditionally giving, where my ideas of perfection and more than are what is taught and placed within and as me as a blue print to support the blueprints of the few who believe they can own this earth, where all they see is the limited blue print of the belief that they are not the heart of the lonely hunter, when in fact all that they have is not allowing them to be the living word one and equal to life, and thus are they one and equal to the heart of the lonely hunter.

The Soul of Money