Day 345 Drug Culture is Profit. Organized Profit?

I realized after I went to this meeting about guns in my local town where the mental health expert naturally decided that what was needed was more money for mental health services, and the person defending guns stated that what was needed was more education leading to more self responsibility, that what is being said is that more support is needed to allow a person to be self responsible.
A system of economic inequality does not breed self responsibility, and lack of self responsibility does not breed happiness. Usury naturally leads to economic inequality because the debt will grow bigger than the principle, as is the form of usury or interest lending. The very nature and form of this allows some to eventually own everything which means that a few decide for everyone else how things work, which is a few being responsible for the many, which is taking self responsibility away from the individual, which is in itself a lack of self responsibility and an ignorance of how the human , with education, sustaining food, shelter and clean water can become self responsible, as humans are like organic robots, in that they can be taught, and they can direct themselves as what they are composed of, which is the substance of life, which is equal and the same in all life on earth. It is only ideas that are taught that separate each of us from remembering that we are all the same and this is how the mind functions, as consciousness, as the manifestation of our accepted and allowed separation, and it is fear of survival that separates us from ourselves as life that we as mind are in and as fearing ourselves as life, fearing to stand upas ourselves as life, thus, we are not stable and equal within what we are, instead we become inferior to here as what we are, we become inferior to life.
Children that are raised in unstable environments take on the resonance of that environment as they learn the words that are used within that environment, thus if they are born into an environment of fear, economic fear, because there is not enough money as the parents are lacking in having a living wage and sustaining food, an education as to how here functions as the physical world to allow self responsibility, then this child is exposed the the state of being of those parents, and learns the same. The instability as being fear and all the behaviors as fear become what they are. This self development into fear is the product of an inability to express this as the tools as the language as the words are not enough to be able to be self responsible. If we do not have the words to express ourselves how can we understand here? I think of words as being like paint, if we do not have them how can we define what is here? On top of this, if we are born into economic inferiority within having the ability to purchase what sustains us, and or we are in constant worry about having what sustains us, we learn that state of being. So, and this varies by degree, the children that are born into economic and educational lack are the products of what we collectively have accepted and allowed, thus we are all to blame for the instability of others and the behavioral outcomes of others. And/or it is to ask the question that perhaps we are all within this same conflict, yet we exist within comparison within relatives in separation from seeing the whole. The behavior of competition is the consequence of this. Competition is a state of constant comparison to survive in a systemically allowed state of instability as a system of debt from usury as interest lending which was made clear to all of us many years ago. Usury is a crime against life. Period.
This allows some to profit more than others, as the values of what is here on earth, that was here before mankind, is bought by those who have held the principle while creating an ever growing debt as is the consequence of usury, they buy the space in the media, they buy the land , they buy the science, they buy what is here and they warp it in order to maintain their principle, as they are as separate from what they are as what is equal in all that is here, which is life, a respect for life, this that is the value. If what is the value is not what is supported , then that is lost. Given what is happening on earth, the value, the real value is clearly lost.
So this system functions as a profit for a fear, without consideration and development of the whole, thus the outcome is a whole, as the parts, that cannot function, as there is not the means and the way to be self responsible, and the environment of this creates more of the same as a reflection of this.
Some learn about and are stable enough and healthy enough to understand parts of what is necessary. Such as our gun control people and our mental health experts, but they are in separation from understanding the system in totality as well. And economically, if their positions change then they will lose what sustains them, so they are as lost within an accepted and allowed state of economic instability and inferiority in comparison to others, thus the competition to survive as how money is being used for profit for the few is the nature and form of the system. This form does not work and our state of fear for survival is a behavior made bigger that ourselves as life, this that is equal and thus this has the capacity to understand what is here as it is the substance of what is here.
So back to this meeting. A man stands up and complains about the ubiquitous drug culture permeating all of American society. Obviously, drugs bring in a profit and diminish the capacity of the human to become self responsible as many choose to escape the worry and fear of survival, which we all do to varying degree or alcohol and sugar would not be on every shelf and in what is local in all towns.
Which brings me to an article about Afghanistan, where the American military is present. This machine built by those who have the profit, the principle in a system of debt known as usury, which we all accept and allow.

Would you grow wheat at .43 cents a kilogram or poppy at 203$ a kilogram if you were a farmer with a family?
And what makes this difference in price? Why is what sustains not monetarily supportive and what destroys and separates from reality so profitable? Why have American children been sent to kill and be killed for this outcome? Why are Afghanistan children living in cities of rubble for this outcome? If a few own the principle, as the value given to money, a piece of paper, where did the guns come from? The debtors are in debt, they are in the negative and thus don’t have the money to produce the guns, and if anything will take a job building guns even if guns are against their principles as beliefs, because what is the bottom line, as the lowest rung on this pyramid scheme, is survival.
Self responsibility does not work in a system of inequality, as profit , where money has been accepted and allowed to determine who lives and who dies, a behavior of no respect for life, and thus a system that does not support life because it has made money a god instead of life being the value.
There is a ubiquitous drug culture in America because we accept and allow it, each of us. Our so called “ policy makers” as what our politicians are, are not creating a structure that respects life, supports life, gives the right to life, gives the response of and as life as what we are.
In abdicating our self responsibility we have formed a system that takes our self responsibility from us, showing us to ourselves what we have accepted and allowed, and also showing us that we as a collective have created this, and thus we as a collective must change this to put an end to our states that are a lack of self responsibility.

Imagine trying to play in an orchestra where the flute player has lost a finger in a drone strike? Or imagine a Bass player who’s instrument is cracked because the worker that transported it had a hangover because he did not have enough of a living wage to give his son lessons in a discipline that child loved and his anxiety and sense of hopelessnesswas so great he did not pay attention when he was at work - I mean wouldn’t something like this upset you? What each and every one of us accepts and allows hasconsequences that effect each and every one of us. Within this accepted and allowed systemic inequality via self interested profit using the tool of money as the divider, taking the ownership of what is here to support life and allowing a few control of this, and thereby taking our self responsibility, which we have accepted and allowed because at this point we are afraid of change, is self destructive, and this is not a choice. What is needed is the removal of such a system, and the placement of a system that supports all life, realizing that life is the value. The way and the means are here, we know how to grow food, we know how to keep water clean, we know how to build sustainable housing, we know that education and a stable environment produce capable children. To not stand and support a system that respects and cares for life, that gives the right of life, as what life is, what is needed to sustain itself and become self responsible, is a crime against life. Thus there is one choice, and that choice is what is best for all, which is what is best for self.
Mankind has orchestrated abuse on earth through blame and spite through self abdication as life within self. Self forgiveness is about bringing self back to and as life as what self is, fearing not to stand as self as life. This is the way to birth life, to stand as life in support of life, realizing this is what is equal in all that is here. Taking time, as the past and bringing it here, stopping projections in to the future and bringing this here, equal and one with the physical, as the physical is living here. the physical changes and through aprocess lives and does so symbiotically. This is the gift of life, this is the experience that is self realizing life, to withhold this gift through fear of change is to deny life.
Support a system of Equal Life, Support Equal Money. There is no real life until all the instruments of the orchestra of life that is here as earth as the physical are performing with ease and self awareness in self responsibility. This is why the only choice is equality. With one dictating what is created is a monoculture, and monocultures do not work because they lack dimension. Just look at the state of our waters, and our animals.
Remove the resonance of the past imbedded within as this system of inequality that is each of us in a state of irresponsibility chasing and looking for something else to stand and be responsible for us (of which is manifest as consciousness as mind), which cannot be done as it does not work, the interest of you is to be yourself as life, this is the principle - you as life is the value. Gift yourself your birth right, the right to life as what you are, and this means the right to an education, the right to sustaining food, the right to clean water, the right to proper shelter so that you are a member performing with the orchestra of life as earth, as one as all as equal. The few who have managed to be the most brutal in taking more, are as afraid of each of us as they are of themselves as they are as separate from life as each of us by our own acceptances and allowances.

It is time for Equal Money and self forgiveness to clean up the self interested resonance of a morality in separation from life, and to create a system that develops and educates all equally to become self responsible. Direct Democracy where all vote as a human right to understand what is best for all, to give to you would like to receive, a life of equal measure realizing life is the value.

Day 342 There is no escape from facing what has been allowed on earth. Period.

How can we have a system that allows a few to decide they own the resources of this earth? How can we sit and talk about what “ they” the corporation is doing, what “ they” our elected officials are doing without realizing that we voted these “ they” in” We allowed this, thus when we find we have to pay for out water, we have no one to blame but ourselves, as we ignore what is happening here on earth.
The “ they” is us, the people, and the “they” is us not looking at this world and making informed decisions about what we as the “ they” are doing. In this all abuse existent on earth is the fault of each and every one of us.
Thus the debt that is the outcome of usury, of interest lending on principle, this debt that will inevitably become greater than the principle as the interest can never fully be repaid, will become the burden we bear as we have accepted and allowed this despite having been told by a man with common sense, Christ, that this was enslavement.
So the corporations seeking profits, within and as claiming ownership of natural resources to create a constant profit, going and grabbing the land in their name purporting to develop the land, in the interest of profit, removing the life that is there, simply disregarding it and not paying a living wage, in the interest of profit, is the fault of each of us.
Those children sold into sex, are the fault of each of us for accepting and allowing this form to exist on earth.
Those children starving, they are the fault of each of us, as we have accepted this system of inequality, and turned that corporation into some ambiguous entity, not realizing it is composed of us, of men, of people, as we distort reality into objects of unclear understanding to become ignorant and abdicate our responsibility.
Our children existing in unstable homes and thus becoming the expression of their surroundings as instability, our schools unable, though many teachers try very hard not understanding themselves how the mind and the physical function in detail. Then, this is turned into a profit as America now has the largest prison population, where these prisons are supported by tax dollars as these prisoners are now cheap labor for the companies that make helmets and some appliance parts, a win for profit a loss for the development of that life. And we the people, accept and allow this. Thus we are to blame for all the abuse existent on earth.
The human is the outcome of what is provided for by a system that was created by men. Men are trainable, able, capable, as we see all children are able to learn rapidly and when exposed to stable environments and an education, they can become self perfected beings able to express themselves. We take away through non support and lack in the self determination development of others to feed a system of profit for a few. Thus our ignorance manifest as greed, a crime against life. and we are all to blame. Greed is a form of fear, because being removed from that value being life, being separate from this is a state of lack, and because this is a state of lack of awareness of the value being life, it has no self responsibility within the whole, within considering all life and respecting life thus this lack becomes an expression as energy in its limitation, this limitation breeds behaviors of fear, such as greed.
Just as the debt in the construct of usury leads to a greater debt than principle, is our disregard for this earth as being equal to us, here to support us, going to grow as a debt of pollution, the effects already here with the number of children born with birth defects and autism? Is this what we want for the life that is here? Do we really think that when we die we will be removed from this, from the consequences of this? Do you really think that our actions are not going to be faced by each of us?

Everything that we have allowed on this earth will be faced by each and every one of us, and this is how it should be. There cannot be any escape, as it should be, because we must all realize our ignorance, what we ignored, as this is the only way to become life. There is no other way, in all common sense. If we wait, the consequences of our ignorance are only going to compound until we wake up and follow through with a directive principle that shows us to ourselves that we are all willing to stand as life here, to realize ourselves as life, and this means being aware of what is happening on this earth in totality, on every inch, to making sure that what is here as life, is allowed to be life, here.
We all want our children to become responsible human beings, we would rather this than having to take care of them for our lives. We would rather our children learn to direct themselves, as being self determining is a joy, but in order for this to happen we, each of us, must realize that the present system is not allowing this and that it is a reflection of what we have each allowed within ourselves, we have chosen fear instead of life and until we choose life, the only choice, we cannot be life, we only pretend at life. Which is what we are doing here on earth, pretending to limited values and ideas instead of facing and standing up as life, realizing life is the value and creating a system that is the mirrorof what we are as life within, without.
If the greatest gift were life, would not you have your child face the consequences of the lack/ignorance so that they would realize themselves and become the greatest gift there was? Yes, you would.
Thus death is not the way out, as the consequences of what has been accepted and allowed on this earth that has not allowed self responsibility, self determination, self expression for every bit of life on this planet will have to be faced and worked with clearing up until it is done.
This is the only choice. And that is common sense.
Walk the desteni I process lite and pro. to get what you have accepted and allowed in being less than life, as what you are, cleaned up so that you can stand as life and begin to realign this earth into a system that supports all life realizing the value is life.
Consciousness was the outflow of our separation from life, as our thoughts that compound into emotions and feelings, our limited insight/values that are parts of life, that are what we pretend to in self abdication as life, collections of beliefs, opinion and ideas based on where we were born on a grid of separation into race, class, nationality, religion. We have become parts, collections of divisions that are reflected as mind, as consciousness. Consciousness is the signifier of our ignorance and thus it is the gift of showing us our ignorance for which we must forgive ourselves, bring back to ourselves to face ourselves as life, to stand up and accept ourselves as life.
Consciousness as mind indicates where we have not followed through in common sense of life of which the physical is the gift for and as. Heaven as an afterlife is a fantasy, what is real is the physical world. Thus what is real is right under your feet. Time to remove the hallow halo, it is the product of your separation from life. It is your hell, it is your precious pretend ring, it is the projection of our ignorance.
Let's get this done. Equal Money

Day 337 A government in time with a Hollywood Movie

http://cnsnews.com/blog/joe-schoffstall/drone-industry-invokes-boston-bombings-pr-pitch


I just read the above article about the promotion as a “need” for America to have drones for “ first responders”. I went and got drink and it hit me.
This whole scenario in Boston was like a Hollywood movie. It all happened so fast, like a script, a screen play. A carefully timed dramatic event, tight, rehearsed.
The Boston Marathon, the bomb, the chase, the catch, the issue for drones in American cities.
Meanwhile, the number of homeless is growing in America, people are losing their homes not to supposed terrorists but to lack of jobs, the consequence of profit combined with “ the common good.” Concepts in opposition.
Is the organization of our government simply not paying attention to what does not bring profit? While people are losing their homes were strategic scripts being written and rehearsed to follow the law that corporations make a profit?
The America government has become a cartoon of war and profit. There is a growing number of homeless people and  reckless pollution in America, for which no immediate action as complete solution has been made, yet in Boston there is a “ superhero” like drama performed by the government with rapid ease leading to the sale of guns.
And this in a time of a supposed economic crisis and rising debt? Debt the obvious, warned against, outcome of usury?

Why analyze this charade?

We the people, the masses need to stand up and organize and create a political group to implement a system that supports life, that supports human rights, that gives what is needed to live in dignity, respect life and then life will respect us back. If we take care of what is here, realizing the value is life, that as life every being has the right to life and the needs of life as men; to have decent food, shelter, education, clean water, to become the full potential as life as what we are. This is the path that would remove the consequences of the terror of survival more quickly than any drone. This Boston event is like a Hollywood movie, out of sinc with here, with what is actually physically happening on this earth, with puppet men who are no longer in real physical time or awareness, moving like the sequences of a Hollywood action thriller showing us how programmed we have become and how this program is in separation from life.
What is happening in real, physical time in America is a growing number of homeless people who do not have work and destruction of the land, as our elected representatives choose what will bring in profit before taking care of what is here.
It really is time to change this system.

Day 296 Transfer Pricing, Usury and the education of a child.

Transfer Pricing, Usury and the education of a child.
It is all tied together. One effects the other. One is the inversion of money to be transferred to a few, causing economic slavery and thus instability,. What happens to a child that is raised within such an environment of economic slavery? What behaviors does such inversion of money create on a species whose existence is determined by money? And who are the ones most effected? What are the effects of a fear caused by constant financial worry? If one is in worry, and each of us should stop for a minute and think about how much we think about money and paying our bills, and within this how much of the lives of our children we miss because we have spent so much time focused on how we are going to pay our bills and our mortgages and fix that roof, and replace that car with over 200,000 miles that in a year - even if one has taken care of that care - or two - will become 250,000 miles? After your mortgage payments, and no vacations, and the principle of the mortgage at the end of the loan, which means your principle payments go up and the interest goes down, which means your taxes go up, which means that the ability of even a frugal person to manage to have an account to place a small amount of money to repair that 30 year roof in 5 years, is virtually impossible.
This system is impossible, it does not create and allow life to simply be.
What is transfer pricing and how does this “invert money” ? Well, it inverts the wealth, the value of resource to nothing at the place of origin and then sends it all around the world, establishing a greater value down the line. It is moving wealth into the hands of another, and in this case, into another country. Transfer pricing should really be labeled as what it is, the transfer of a monetary value given to a resource into the hands of another, before consideration of supporting life.
So what is usury? And how does this follow the same inversion process?
And this is why Christ was so angry and reactive in the “temple”. And please, remember that Christ was a real person, a man, he was not some invisible god!
Money is loaned with interest. This means more money is paid back with the borrowed sum/money. The banks create more money every time someone borrows money and lends this created money. So the value of what was borrowed on, then generates a situation where the interest can be paid on the loan. So, the banks want constant “borrowing/lending” to exist because they can constantly have new money to lend/be borrowed. But, since the interest is not real money it must take from the real “leant/borrowed” money. But there is not enough of this, because there is only so much leant and it cannot possibly cover the interest, the back payment of more than lent/borrowed.
Look at this in a small bubble. I live on a Island with you, the two of us. I have five dollars and you have five dollars. I borrow your five dollars to use ( in whatever way). You tell me that I must give you interest on that 5 dollars, meaning I must pay you back 7 dollars. Okay, where is that “more” 2 dollars? It does not exist.
It does exist in the 5 dollars that one of the two had - one could say. So, that other person eventually gives back the borrowed 5 dollars and 2 dollars of his 5. Now he has only 3 dollars. So, the lender/bank now has transferred the value - as the paper money- to himself, leaving the other with less.
Take this and place this scenario onto your household, into the function and form as usury, as bank lending and personal borrowing. A mortgage is basically the transfer of your wealth to a bank, to another. Usury, interest lending, is wealth transfer. “Wealth” is not just luxury items, it is what you have that supports you as life, this includes the basic needs for existence. The existence of interest lending, and taxing, on those who pay the brunt of taxes, which are those on the lower levels of this pyramid of wealth transfer, allows economic slavery. Economic slavery effects the behavior of the enslaved, as they believe they own what they have, but are placed in a situation where they must worry about that house that is keeping them warm, so basic existence is lost to worry and fear of survival to make that payment with money that does not exist, or is basically moving your “wealth/ life support” into the hands of another.
What would such an environment create for a child? And why is it not understood by the parents that usury is really a criminal activity of wealth ( labor and resource - this also being a home) transfer? Why have the adults of this world not been educated to really understand this inversion process of wealth/resource? Could this be why Christ as a MAN, was so reactive within the money lending/borrowing scheme done through inversion?
Or, do we know this, and we blame the one left on the street for not ‘having figured this out” not stopping ourselves and realizing that it is an impossibility for others to NOT fall.
Back to our children. What does such an environment do to children? Children are born without language and without religion. They do not even know how to walk. Yet they learn, in a relatively short period of time, to move a body with multiple limbs, and speak at the same time. This indicates an ability of depth perception, a common sense of this world that is more than superficial.
Given the illusion of usury and transfer pricing, and how it is taking from one to pay another, to transfer a value to another, causing poverty and starvation, worry and fear, disregard for the real value of what is here on earth. It is taking what is here, the physical stuff of this planet, and giving it a monetary value, and then lending that value out, and asking for a greater return, which means taking from one to pay another, transferring what supports life as resource onto a symbol ( money) and then transferring again the real value of that transferred value into/onto a few, this being the money lenders/banks.
And then taxes can be used to regulate “getting ahead’ to ensure that there is no way to have any savings and to ensure constant lending/borrowing.
Dont’ be upset if this is not understood right away, take the time to look at this, write it out. I remember trying to do chemistry in high school. It was gibberish to me. But another violinist came to me with a perfect test score and showed this to me. I just looked at him and eureka it dawned on me that if he could do that, so could I. I had to look at chemistry over and over again, I had to stare at those symbols and that math - with the electrons and neutrons etc. again and again. I could not see it. And then one day, boom! I began to see it. And it all made sense. So, one moment I was quiet in the face of talking about Chemistry, because I thought it some complicated, difficult thing, and the next thing I knew it was not, it made sense. ( please , I have not looked at chemistry in YEARS, so I would have to review it all, but it would not be some foreign complicated, extremely difficult thing, I could if I sat and looked and went over some chemical process carefully get to a point where I could basically understand the principles- and even here, i would then understand that many of the products sold by pharmaceuticals are repackaged old products, and this is done to - once again- change a price to a higher price with one tiny molecular change- which is another transfer price action)
So, once again, how do the behaviors of “ the economically enslaved” and the “economically able to take ( meaning wealth transferrers)” effect the expression, as the movement of men on this earth? What would such a system create as the very life movement of men on this earth? And how would this behavior effect the children born into a system of such movement? How would such a system choose what is best? It cannot do what is best for this planet, what is best for life, it is by nature, a system of inequality, and the nature of this action is an ignorance of life, because to do this, means the real value is not seen, is not understood. The real value is not taught! Within this, one can begin to realize that everything that is here affects everything that is here. And this ability of this physical world, as thus, a tool to become aware of self as life. This earth, in totality is the gift to become aware of life, I mean, what else is there? Thus this is forgiving oneself to and as life. This is what self forgiveness is. This is why the physical is real and religion is illusion/imagination. Yet, a system of inequality, would make such proposals and use that transferred wealth to project images all over this earth that divert/transfer your attention from what is real!

And then, this is perpetuated and handed down to the children.
I don’t know how many people who have had children, later turn to religion, and such, as they feel that somehow the promise of what they saw in their children when their children were young, was never lived. So, a promise was there, and it died. What if that “promise” was what was real? And it is the action of this system, of economic enslavement as the transfer of value to a few, and the process of limiting awareness, to allow this un equal support, that which is non development of children as life, because the parents are so lost in worry about debt and figuring out how to pay for the development of their children? The parents are not here, as they were brought up within the same system, and now they have a moment of joy, with a new life, and then somehow that life is never fully realized, is never fully lived, that life grows up and somehow the promise of that child is gone. And what is really sick, is that we blame the child, or we blame the genes, or we blame the education we had, or we blame some traumatic event ( and believe me, I had a man tell me when I suggested that we spend some time with the children, that my sons were totally “fucked/screwed up because their father killed himself. Yes, I stopped and I looked at this person, was astounded and thought, how does one follow the other? There are people on this earth who have suffered so much and it did not destroy them etc. Needless to say that was the end of that - at the time) . Yet, blame is living in a past event, and it is more of the same behavior that created this system/existence of inequality, of un equal awareness of this physical gift of life world. The past is not here, and “here” can be seen and understood, it takes some looking at here, just as i had to look at those chemical symbols again and again until I could SEE how they “moved’ so to speak.
There is not time for blame, there is not time for spite, there is only the choice of removing this economic system of enslavement, of value transfer, of this pyramid scheme, it is not supportive of life, and it does not under stand life, it is not using the value of this physical world as the gift of life, as the means to become one and equal in understanding and awareness of this physical world. This system is destroying the one promise that was real, the ability exhibited in children at a young age, when they manage so many things, and that management ability is not developed, it is shut down, and each and every one of us caught up in this system are accepting and allowing this. It is time to stop, to stand and to support a practical way and means to end this. This is to collectively, just as advertising collectively indoctrinates!, stand as all as one as equal, to and as what is best for all, realizing the value is life, and that what is here, as this physical earth, belongs to all of us, as life, as all as one as equal, here. It is time to allow that promise of that child to be lived, It is time to stop this sick game of transferring what supports life into a mirage of ignorance that is fear, that is the behavior indicating that one’s self as life has separated itself from what is real, as life, this that is the real value, here.
Equal Money Capitalism.
Walk yourself out of your own taught, by those who came before, ignorance with the Desteni Lite FREE course. Stop living in the past with an illusion of a promising future, and place yourself here, in common sense, develop the depth of yourself as life. It is time.

Day 294 Disgust Character : Fear Dimension The Trap

I spent the day doing my taxes yesterday. I thought it would not take me very long as I have done them so many times and the process of doing them is not so overwhelming. Yet, it took more time than I thought, as numbers on papers did not match my own records, and changes in my situation turned out to be just more of the same of this present system. A system driven by debt, where the creation of debt allows banks to print more money, in their favor, thus any situation that does not create the need for debt cannot be allowed, as this is not favorable to a creation of money. SO, in order for the amount of money to grow debt has to grow, and since there is more debt than money in this system, since the debt cannot be paid back in full because it is not real, this interest - which is self interest for a few/banks ( privately owned) accumulating and then the object of this unable-to-be-paid-back-interest, as real estate or labor value creation, becomes the property of the bank. And all of this is based on imaginary-nonexistent money.
Are the same tools of this trade applied within religious doctrines? That there is some promise of more if we just believe? If we just take the imaginations of that loan improving our lives and or that promise of heaven improving our lives if we keep the faith? This faith being the interest for a few? And all of it imagined and the creation of something that does not in fact exist? Where, all it takes is standing up and removing this mirage? And it is a mirage, one each of us carries around right in front of our eyes, spiraling away, spinning in and out, prevalent in our words, the survival behaviors of self interest. As within, so without, as above, so below.
Consciousness creating bubbles of self interest, a spirit of ignorance of the physical world, manifest in thought, word and deed. This deed held in place by a piece of paper plastered in illusive words, the voice of compounded interest, our burdens we carry that are self accepted and allowed illusions. The gift of life, as the physical, being destroyed through imaging a superficial world of no substantive life direction some call devolution, distopia, some call pollution, starvation, rape, child abuse, animal abuse, soil devastation: this list can go on and on. It is moving in tandem with the growth of the electric light shining on the planet earth. I mean what is feeding all those lights visible from space? And what are those lights down there on earth “enlightening”? War and crime, murder and abuse, to all that is on earth. This system is not working as life, it is working as destruction, blind inconsiderate destruction. And the prevention of this is to simply realize life is the value, and to give that which is good to all to live in dignity, self directed as life as the very substance of what each of us is. Thus this is here, and so there is no excuse for this to not be what exists.
Anyway, my taxes. I wrote last night, very late, and realized I had become emotional; worry and fear. So I stopped, walked around, spoke forgiveness, breathed, calmed myself down through slowing down. The words going through me were, “ I am trapped.”
And in my “trappings” the tendency is to go into blame, finger pointing, spite, fear, seeing no way out. And I noticed that this is my self in self disgust. I am doing the same thing I was doing within this memory of seeing two feet rubbing together. I am wanting to project disgust onto the world, onto this physical reality. This is not the being of myself in common sense. And this is not grounding myself with my feet on the ground. This is myself becoming a behavior, in self interest, of a story of fear, wanting a change, in not wanting to participate within this illusion, just wanting it to go away, where with my feet on the ground, I must walk out of this illusion, through realizing it is an illusion, and how I have been taught to become this separation into and as fear, as judgement, as NON looking, to “get along” with an illusion as "there appears to be no other way." THe initiation into this, happening in childhood, as a child, so small, with no place to go, thus the creation of a belief that this is a trap. But, it is a trap of no substance, no validation of the actual physical world. Thus, having accepted and allowed this, when I see the physical world being in common sense of itself, I react in disgust, thinking it dirty, because I long for this self as life, and yet to do so would mean no longer accepting and allowing words, as expressions, as emotions and feelings and thoughts, as words and deeds and thought that have no awareness of life, that have no equal and one consideration of how here moves as life, how here functions as life, how here becomes a natural expression at ease. And it would mean facing the same behaviors of projection that are separations from life being disgusted with self as life, for how dirty self has become as distance from common sense. And bringing self back to life, means forgiving self to become in touch with and as the physical world. The only choice. There is no other way.
So, I turn my own self disgust into the sign of my separation from life, where i fear standing up and walking in common sense of here. I take the compounds of my thoughts, as denial into systemic categorizing into limited values/parts made huge and thus valued as more than, in the order of survival within inequality. As I have allowed a consciousness, systemic structure of limitation, to define myself here. I have allowed self interest in separation from life, from myself as life, here.

Self forgiveness on the fear of being trapped, in separation from common sense as life, looking at how here “moves” as “fantastic projections” onto and as a self correction to and as life, utilizing breath, self forgiveness within slowing myself down, accepting my separations and being “ the bringing back of them to myself in common sense of what is here, as it is here than I walk the physical ground of what is real as earth.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to believe that I am trapped.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to see only this illusion, as a belief that i am trapped.
i forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see my two feet on the ground, as I accept and allow a projection of separation into and as a character of disgust with what is here as the physical simply being in contact with itself as life, here.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to fear being in contact with this physical world.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to fear my own fear.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to connect fear to this physical world, specifically in this instance to project disgust onto two feet rubbing against one another, where this separation as judgement remains with me in and as my mind, as this is myself not being here, equal and one to here, as this actual physical world, where I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to define fear as a behavior of disgust for what is a physical action as two feet rubbing together as what is real, not seeing realizing and understanding that it is an energetic value of separation as a mirage imposed on what is physically, common sensically here as life.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not see, realize and understand the spirit of this as being an energetic entity in separation from and as life.
I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand that this movement of myself within, into and as an energetic projection is a singular state of being as energy, a compound of my own separation into and as a behavior of survival as self validation through judging as being in disgust with myself as life, for ignoring this actual real physical world, as myself as life in expression in and as being of sound mind, as being equal and one, to and as life, in common sense of this physical world, which is being one and equal to what is here, without judgement, being at ease here, moving with what is here, self directing here, in and as what is best for all, as what allows all that is here to exist in dignity and thus at ease with self as what self is here as the from of what self is here, where all that is here is equal and one to and as life.
I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand that placing judgements on what is here, is not an act of “constructive criticism” as an expression of what will lead to self direction and support as life, in all existent, as there is no other choice, and this requires respecting all life, as life being the value, thus allowing and accepting a “less than” judgement as a negative being projected/rejected by self onto something within my environment, is myself being a justifying superiority, where the outward label is the consequence of the inward self judgement as “more than” thus the two in totality are a compound into and as energy, creating a mirage, that is myself in separation from life, here.
I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand that the continuation of this makes the separation of myself into a reality of life never being lived, a life lacking substance, lacking a sound mind, lacking equality and oneness in and as life, here, lacking equal expression in and as life, in totality, a seeming abstract to the mind, which is the becoming of myself at ease, here, moving equal and one, here, with and as life, thus it is the abstract that is real and the concrete, as consciousness as mind, that is the illusion, as what has been accepted and allowed on earth.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to fear being at ease here, forgiving of myself as life, here, equal and one, to and as life here.
I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, within this, how falling down the rabbit hole, is falling into wholeness and oneness with and as life here, thus do I forgive myself the judgements in and as the mind, as consciousness, as selected limited values -themselves not good or bad- and bring myself back into and as myself as life, of sound mind physical alignment into and as what is best for all, to give as I would like to receive, to take what is good, to prevent friction and conflict as war as absence/lack within under standing self as life, here.
I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand that myself within friction and conflict is myself lacking understanding in and as life, lacking the movement of myself at ease, in and as equality and oneness, as being with sound mind physical forgiving understanding of life, here.
I commit myself to seeing, realizing and understanding that the state of being, in and as a projection of disgust, is always about me, as what i have accepted and allowed, as separation, as feeling trapped, which is myself not looking at/understanding what is here, which simply means investigating what is here, and taking that which is good, to direct myself within and as becoming one and equal to and as life, moving myself with ease here, through utilizing breath, slowing myself down, realizing my own consciousness projections of more than and less than, as mirages into and as separations, as energy, the nature of which lack gentleness as it is a state of conflict as lack of understanding/comprehending life/the physical in equality within and as moving myself as ease as life here.
I commit myself to, when and as I begin to sense that I am separating myself from myself as life here, within becoming insecure within and as directing myself here, as this manifest as friction and conflict, as concrete labels in and as judgements, I stop and and I breath, and I return myself to myself physically, to not direct myself until I become at ease with what is here, to speak slowly within gentleness, self directing within and as the principle of oneness and equality, as this is the only voice of self direction absent of judgement, in being absolutely directive as life, within what is best for all in common sense of what is here.
I commit myself to realizing and understanding that a belief, as a feeling of being trapped, can only affect me, if I accept and allow this, as what is here, as the solid ground in and as this physical world, and the ability of myself as life to sense this, and what is absolutely best for this, is right in front of me, as a promise of more than, as what is promoted within a systemic inequality as a developed consumerism that diminishes self directive capacity as life into and as ideas of being more, is a means of rejecting this physical world for an illusive value that is such as it is limited gives one thing “godhead”/consciousness, a separation from respect paid within consideration of all physical form as earth , here, as what is the real support of and as each human, where the movement of self here, equal and one to this physical world, has substance, as the technology of this actual physical world is being equal and one to and as all life, as this physical world is what supports life, thus it is not what is here, it is that what is here, is treated within and as oneness and equality, as equal as life, absolutely, allowed self expression as life, visible within moving at ease, as this is an indication of life being lived in dignity.

Day 78 I am the creator of my character, thus I am a creator.

Day 78 I am the creator of my character, thus I am a creator.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not realize that when I desire a character, as the characteristics of the perfect man, I am in effect turning that man into a character, a singularity, and thus when the totality of that man emerges the fairy tale, bolly/hollywood experience is over.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand that the mind, as consciousness, builds ideas, beliefs and opinions, in and as a character, of ,limited -separate from physical reality and existence where as myself I am allowing and accepting myself to be and become the supporter of character that is singular by design.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see realize and understand that in wanting a character, as myself, as a friend, as a man, I am in fact supporting and accepting singular ideals and thus limiting myself and the other.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand that I have been trained to develop character so that other characters will expect the same responses in and as me within a relationship, and should I step out of that character, their character loses support for what has been developed to survive and feed desires, and thus, the loss of survival and desire, singular in and of itself, will no longer be supported and thus feel that death is imminent.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not realize that in wanting an ideal man, or job, I am wanting a characteristic,  that by nature is singular, just like a plastic doll, which is what many of our children model themselves after never learning to actually move themselves within the expression of life, where life is multifaceted and filled, as self, with endless expression, where in order for the person to become a singularity is indicative of the ability of the human to be an expression, and thus why do we have a system where only singular expression are more often than not, what is plastered on the faces of men?

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand that in becoming a character of a singular “label’ I in essence forget the totality of life within and without.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand that in building a character that is able to deal with what is accepted and allowed on this earth, I am building a survival defense mechanism, never stopping and questioning why such a suit must be built and to not realize that if I am capable of this than I am capable of becoming myself as life, as I am in fact a creator and thus, this survival suit I am building to survive is myself capable of building and organizing a world that is best for all, where no suit or armor need be built and instead I as a creator can be and become an expression of life, directing myself as life, instead of directing myself as a singular expression of a limited character.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to enslave another into and as a character which is what I am doing when I dream of a man with certain characteristics.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see realize and understand that when I desire a man, or a friend , or that fur coat, I am not considering the life that is the man or the friend or the fur coat and in essence turning all life into and as a singular character, to become and exhibition of character and not life, where this action indicates my ability to be a creator and thus my ability to step out of what I have built within and this world system of abuse without and create a world that is best for all, where I can realize myself as creator and build a heaven on earth.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not see realize and understand that what I seek in character as myself is what I believe will enable myself to survive in a system of limited design that is the nature of what a system of inequality must be in order to maintain leaders and followers.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see realize and understand that if I cannot grasp myself beyond an idea of a singularity in and as thinking about being a character, then I have become so separated from myself as life, I have forgotten that part of myself that was the creator that built the character in and as myself.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to have had an idea of what a man should be, of what kind of man i would want, not realizing and understanding that when I do this I limit myself as life and the life of that man.

I commit myself to realizing that just as I have created a character to survive, following the image and likeness of what was taught by parents and society and the ways and means of education, myself as life was molded into a limited design which means I am a self as life able to create and thus I am able to stand and create heaven on earth.

I commit myself to realize where and what I exist as a character, where I fear losing this projection in and as what I have developed where I list my characteristics, like for example on a dating website, and see, where what I believe that I am, is myself wanting  or myself believing that if I find the perfect mate I will become more than I am, not realizing that no matter how much I live some dream, there can be no stability on this earth until everything that is here is cared for and supported, and thus, within this as long as the total life expression of this earth is not cared for there is not going to be myself as self as life as creator, that which is myself that  built my initial character used to ensure what I believe will enable myself to survive in a system of inequality.

I commit myself to no longer seeking the “perfect” characteristics as this is myself wanting to appear “good, ‘  not stopping and asking myself why it is that I must appear to be good in the first place as this question indicates that it is known that non-goodness exists on this planet and that perhaps the real question is why there is a system that does not support life and develops characters that exhibit survival characteristics of murder and rape, and gun carrying and robbery and fractional banking and debt accumulation and economic hitmen?

I commit myself to realizing that I am a creator and that I can thus create a world that is best for all, and bring myself back to myself as life, where I need never search for more outside of myself as life will be what i am and the creation of heaven on earth will be what it is that I create.

Stand up and support an Equal Money System to be and become the creator of heaven on earth.

The Soul of Money

When Breath is not your own.