Day 452 The corporation is the person of each of us. It is a state of being in abuse. Forgive Your Personality.

The system has been allowed to become a person, a god, a directive, an order followed, an order accepted and allowed, without question, without looking at how this system moves and expresses, in the consequences this system forms with the very substance of life as what we all are. This is a systemized god - so to speak, a separate reality that bears no witness to life. It is each of us not really looking here, even within the common sense of democracy, this that is the answer, this that is allowing the voice of the people of all the people. People regarding and respecting the physical world, looking at how it works in common sense, realizing that this physical earth is interconnected, where all parts support life. Forcing the forms that are here into other than they were meant to me, into less than what they are is a crime against life. The destruction of which we see all around us. This destruction is because each and every one of us humans believe we are more than life, in our complacency as we follow energy as ideas, as what define us instead of being equal and one to and with the natural world, the physical world. We are in separation from life, from nature. This has been written about many times, especially simply in looking at the behaviors of our children. This system in which we have allowed money to determine life, when it is the physical world that determines life. Money is simply being used to divide life and support an idea  that the imagination of the human, is more than life. Ideas in the mind, that the composition of  made from the substance of life is more than the life itself. We try and force idea instead of taking the space in around us and understanding the consequence to the whole as every action we make.

We are afraid to give up the ghost.

How we form as individuals, starts from day one, as our substance as life, we take in our environment, we take in the values made huge, bringing some values forward pushing other back, ignoring the rest. Taking some and capitalizing on them, presenting then as the end all be all of success. Creating a very limited expression of life and abusing what does not fit into the limited idea, this limited idea in itself a control device, a frenzy of survival instead of choosing what supports absolutely. It really is a fear of death, a fear of change, which is really an idea made into an idol. My precious.

Personifications as collections of beliefs believed  to be more than others. It is like, collect some experience and then get lost in believing oneself to be superior. In the end we all die and the personification is gone, because it was a separation from life and had no substance because it did not in fact move as what is support of life, absolutely. And meanwhile, our obvious separation exists as the animals suffer because life is no longer seen, and thus, the common sense of the physical world which is what is real, is ignored.

When we allow a system that moves the values of resource and labor onto a piece of paper as a conduit to receiving basic supportive needs of physical beingness,  and we then allow, for example an activity on a continent where for every ten dollars that is taken out of that continent only 1 dollar is then sent back in by America, we can see that this is not enough for the people of that continent to have what is needed to physically support them as the very physical form that they are. This is criminal, it is abusive and it is inconsiderate of physical existence, this physical existence what it is that is the expression of life, the only real expression of life. Your mind, as the picture show, as a built GPS for a system that is in itself  in separation from life, is your separation, it is a “ heaven” that is limited, and in it’s separation it is not real, and yet it within it’s limitation believes itself to be more real than physical existence. 

What is happening, has happened in Africa and is happening in America. If we allow a corporation to be seen as a person, and we allow that personhood to use the resources of America, such as water and coal, and we allow a government to allow this corporate “ personhood” to take the waters of our lakes and the coal from our federal lands, into money to be divided into small royalty payments and very large profit through sales payments where taxes are not paid by this personhood, so that the only taxes paid are by the worker, what is happening is the slow drip of all material physical goods in America to be transferred to that personhood as a corporation owned by a few. So, this personhood corporation who we have allowed to be a person, and who we believe is taking care of us  - despite the fact that, just as in Africa, there are children who are not receiving proper food and self development to the point where these children can READ the existent structures without-  is in fact not taking care of physical reality and is only acting in self interest, just as the rest of us as mind..   If this system is/was built by people, then it is people who must change this, all of us. We have allowed a profit based system to determine guidance, which cannot work because of the allowance of monetary profit. We have allowed a system that allows the values we create to move into the hands of a few who are personalities before life, just like us. Thus we are all to blame for the existence of abuse on earth. 

The personhood status given to a corporation in a system of representation, means that we have allowed representatives the chance to order the flow of money, which is the flow of resource (labor too). These representatives , who we have allowed to make decisions for us because we did not take the time to look in common sense, have decided that they are more than people, and to hide this, a corporation of anonymity has been created, to protect and hide the fear of loss of  personality, of self as life, a self that is simply a composition of assembled values that in themselves are a limited perspective of the totality of life. And this, is what each of us are doing, we have come to believe that our personalities define us, and our personalities are simply a collection of ideas about physical reality, they are not physical reality itself. So, as our collection of beliefs made and believed to be life, those children in Africa, and the growing number of children in America, are believed to be insignificant, because that “ god” that “ heaven” as the mind as ideas has been allowed to become more than life itself. And how we move money backs this delusion, and as this, disallows, does not give, what is needed to develop and support the physical as life, this physical being what is real, composed of what is primary, the substance of life that informs us as physical beings to be life.

A system of inequality, on an interconnected mechanism as what earth is that allows it to exist, naturally creates extremes, these extremes are our starving, our diminished life forms existing in lack, and our elite, the few. Those on the extreme end of lack, cannot stand up, they are too busy suffering, they are too busy dying. The extreme of the elite are too busy building an industrial/military complex in self protection and defense, touting this as protecting the people but what is really being protected is their personalities, their collection of beliefs of superiority. Meanwhile, both extremes are people, all the same, only ideas and the things money can buy create an illusion of difference.

The elite are simply the same as all of us, believing our personalities to be more than life, to be more than being here, on earth, living as physical expressions of life. We have allowed our memories, our experiences, our inner picture show, to be more than life, our withins are bigger than our supportive physical without, this physical formation being what allows life, it is what is real, it is composed of the substance of equality, the substance giving to form life as what we are: personalities  are ideas( lesser dimension)  about life, but not life itself. The mind is of energy, it is not life in balance aware of itself as what it is in fact. 

Our anonymous corporations are becoming the directives of us, but they are built of judgement that one thing is more than another, of good and bad instead of what is supportive in standing with life. Our corporations are us standing UNDER our own judgements. This measure of judgement ideas about what is good and what is bad, what is good and what is evil, a separate reality and thus a lesser reality that is not being practical within physical existence,  because our personalities composed of past experience as defining what we are instead of correcting and understanding what works that is absolutely supportive of life, this that has been going on for generations, accumulating and being passed on to the point where we don’t even, in detail, realize  why we have some of the personalities behaviors we have. And we wonder why we inherit  DIS - EASE with life!?

Life is a substance that composes us, much like sound composes a piece of music, or a word. So, if our focus/directive of what we are as the very sounds we create as the forms we build on earth are not absolutely supportive of life, as the absolute purpose of life as the nature of life, as the nature of formation of what is here, then that which is not aligned with this has no real substance and no real support. And so, we have allowed that which we are within to resonate to that which is built without, an anonymous corporation that is the collective, now directing of our  own created governments, as our personalities believed to be more than life, when our personalities are the composition of accumulated mis-understanding of what is not within being of absolute purpose as the substance of life. Our personalities are a collection of the accumulation of a self inner rested past in fear (ior) to life. And it is how we are unequally dividing money that is supporting the separation, we allow flow of what determines life, unequally, money speaking as our own inner separation from life,  and because of this, parts of this physical supportive world are suffocating, dying, diminishing, disappearing, rotting. We are all to blame, unless we stand and forgive our limitations, our judgements, our beliefs, opinions and ideas that are not equal and one to life, this being what is of the absolute purpose of supporting all of this physical existence. There is no choice but the choice of what is best for all, as this is best for self, this gives self the directive capacity to live in full potential as life. This is self in self response in and as life, here.

Living Income Guarantee

Day 369 Protection and defense is fear of life.

What is it that I am paranoid of? What in my secret mind do I fear? Having walked some fears, I realize that fear is simply a separation, an illusion, a less than in that it is not being equal and one to here, to life. Thus fear is simply suppression of giving without fear of loss, meaning becoming stagnant within giving of self as life. If we give as we would like to receive then life will be lived instead of what presently exists on earth, I mean the numbers of impoverished people in America is increasing, and we are allowing an industry of natural resource extraction for energy needs to continue despite alternatives, because alternatives use the sun and the wind, and these cannot be so readily owned and thus driven into profits for a few, so in essence we are allowing a representative government use the fruits of our labor to build drones/war machines in their own self interest. 

And so many of us are stuck in these grids, our incomes dependent on practices that we know and our governments know are detrimental, and yet we do nothing despite the harm and destruction these practices cause. Thus we are all responsible for what is here, and we must stop this because it only accumulates, as it is presently doing, to a greater degree, exponentially. The numbers of growing homeless in America are a indication of this. Of course those who benefit from this, become more and more paranoid, as the growing number of restless people mean a threat to their survival. Drones in American cities are the construct of a perfect storm in their self interest, as more and more become homeless and frustrated because they have no means to live a decent life. For this we are all to blame, as what is here has been developed by many many generations and many many hands, thus what is here cannot be owned by a few, it is only words on a page that say so, words that have no connection to reality, words of a human being who is not listening to common sense, only the fear of loss, the illusion of loss  based on ideas that are in separation from life, believing themselves to be more than, when they are men just like you and me.

So while I am memorizing this presentation, I have to stop myself from tensing up, again and again and again, it is like a constant thing I have to keep myself aware of, sometimes I don’t catch it and my legs become tense as I mostly tense up in my legs. 

Sometimes I manage to just let things go and then I can laugh. That laughter is so much easier after walking the desteni i process. And, the sense of direction as the principle of what is best for all as being the only choice to live, allows for self responsibility within giving self as life, here. All the ideas that one has about who one is, based on class, gender, nationality, family, are limited when they become the only parameters of what self defines self as. Let these go and give yourself to yourself as life, discover common sense , and start speaking this, the world around you will react, as they simply have not lived in common sense, but in survival, and the switch within giving up an imaginary fear of loss, to realize that what we have allowed within has manifested without  and must change, and is the only choice to put and end to the abuse of life on earth.

More and more I see how i must always be here, remind myself of this actual physical world, this real structure of what I am as life. What goes on in my mind is the spoke in the wheel. Thoughts and the accumulation of thoughts, my emotions and feelings are what I have made larger than life and thus superior to life, so when I have to actually be here, physically here, my senses are so caught up in my thoughts, my memories, I have allowed myself to be in separation from my own common sense. And my thoughts are all of paranoia, myself wanting to control here, which is pointless because the physical world is a visible structure that can be understood. One simply has to look.

Which brings me to the point of what we are accepting and allowing, having abdicated ourselves from our common sense ability into projections of fear as protecting and defending an inner idea as an image of what we are, a false idol about which we were warned against becoming, as having created a governmental structure of representation to be responsible for our needs. This development in itself and indication that we have lost touch with reality as we are asking someone else to take care and be aware of our life supporting environment for us. This is a red flag in itself, as why would we need another to be aware for us, it would mean that we have lost an ability to be aware. Equal living would mean equal participation, one would want to participate within what happens on our home this earth.

This also makes it clear, that if we are accepting representation, then those taking on the representation realize that an order has to be built , which means the order of the physical as itself is no longer seeing directly here in common sense.  The actual need for representation means a separation from life, which means that that representation is also separate from life. One is the continuance of the other. So, of this course, the outcome is acts of self interest in a world where there is abdication of self as life. The physical world is what is real the picture in your mind is not, it is the illusion of separation made bigger than life. it is not facing the real physical world, it is losing the real structure of support. In losing what is real, and making consciousness, as mind, as image bigger, we must realize that in order for this imagination to  exist it must feed off of something, and that is our human physical bodies.

Instead of directing ourselves here as the physical, we are directing ourselves as a fear of death, a fear of loss, and in directing our awareness into and as this, we ignore physical reality/life. And we have built this present system in this image and likeness of what we have allowed within. SO we have a system that protects in self interest, the self interest of our representatives that are same within as us, it is just that they have their hands on the means of gain, money. Money has no meaning but what we accept and allow it to have. And we have accepted and allowed an imaginary system, where value is placed in paper, or digits and it is determining the life of many. The consequences of this are resonant with our flesh and we pass the accumulated separation on from one generation to the next, as the very script we have created , as the drama now playing out on earth.

So, the consequences are for us that are here to clean up. And this is common sense. They are the outflow of our own abdication as life.

So, I am so busy with my protection and defense system built to maintain an image of myself that I need a structure that takes care of the physical because I am only being responsible for my own system of protection, thus I am the cause of my own ignorance of what is here, and I handed this responsibility over to others caught in the same behavior. Thus, the ones I handed responsibility to are simply acting as I am, yet they have more say in the structure, which I gave to them, so they are using what they physically have control of to support their protection and defense of an image that they have of themselves, and naturally their image of themselves is one of being greater, because they have more things in their picture of what they are! And naturally, they want to own this, because they can, because we allowed this to be what is here, because we abdicated this to them. The consequences of this are playing out as we speak. Anything that allows autonomy of direct politicking, is not going to be allowed because it would mean a loss of an idea of being more, that has been built for generations. And all of it is an illusion, and this illusion is in separation from life, as the practices being allowed on earth show us.

Pollution is the consequence of trying to only allow practices that let those we have representing us because we abdicated our power as we were consumed with our own protection and defense of what we were as an idea, protecting their idea of what they are, thus they chose a structure that gives them more and they cannot see reality because they are in separation from it. This is a circular never ending game of separation from life. It is destructive as it lacks all common sense of what is real, the actual physical reality, the gift of life.

So, each of us has to realize that we as mind are existing as abdication of life, into and as ideas of what we are, fearing the loss of ourselves as an idea, where the real value as what we are is the substance of life, the physical stuff of life. Thus there is only one focus and that is on the actual physical world. This is why religions are illusive practices, and they are meant to feed separation, a perfect construct for the ones we gave our responsibility to, to continue their position. 

Our health institutions are known to use abusive practice, and yet we do nothing because we fear facing ourselves as life and what we have accepted and allowed. The only way out is to face our separation. DUH.

Our agricultural practices are in separation from life, manifest in the debilitation of the physical, which then is turned into profit, and systemically entrenched as the means of survival for many who fear change and income loss, and wait for someone else to find a solution, when the only solution is to change the system, to stop money moving as it does because it is a form of distribution. Money must be given to all, enough to give what the physical need for support, anything else is genocide, abuse, negligence, separation from life.

Our educational systems are not working, had they worked, then we would not have prisons. And here, as well, this suppression of life is turned into a profit making machine, and as with the health, there are many who cling to this system to survive, so why change this? So, it is simply accepted, and as something that creates jobs, but it is a form of genocide as well, and it is an act of abdication of life, and we are all to blame because we allowed it. But what must be understood is that the nature of this form only compounds and destroys itself, thus the only choice is to change this system, to take back our self responsibility and stand equal and one to the physical world, realizing it is us, it is what we are as life, and thus we need not fear it. We become equal to it and live as it, we form it, work with it, in ways that allow no abuse, that allow the expression of life. We must stop this indirection, this disinFORMation, that is what we are within, as consciousness, that is manifesting without as our actions of separation have accumulated and creating a world where we are not able to live. Which is the fault of each and every one of us because we chose an idea instead of reality as the actual physical world. In our resistance to life, we are in the process of destroying life. And the solution, is to stop, and to accept life, the actual physical world as being equal and one to us, and to take care of this, and realize the value is life, not what is in our minds as our thoughts, emotions , feelings, memories, characters, personalities, political, social, placements which  are secondary to life, the real value is being life.  We can no longer allow what we would not want done to us, thus stand up and support a system that takes care of this planet in equality, realizing that life is the value. Equal Money. Become common sense, it is you as life, being responsible here, realizing that being here is all that one can be.

Day 81 Fear of Attack

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to create a hollywood movie in and as my mind about everything in and as my life.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not see, realize and understand that all the movies as stories in and as my mind are a coloratura of a belief, opinion and idea of more than, in separation from what is actually physically here, where these embellishments are made real, and the actual physical world is ignored, where the actual physical has more embellishments and coloratura than any mind imagery could possibly “en-vision” in and as my mind.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to have created mind movies and stories to support myself here, as I was afraid of here and within this actually became a “raid” of here, as taking from that which was forgiving, as what I am, and using this to hide in a separate reality, as a separation, from directing myself in and as, one and equal to, what was here as myself, this physical world.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see realize and understand that many of the movies in and as my mind where/are of hope, where I sought a dream of success and accolade by and with my imaginary audience, following the dictates of a world that glorified in bright lights fame and FORTUNE, meaning the accumulation of money to survive.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not see that in maintaining this alternate reality, mind movies as what motivated myself to move here within this physical reality, I denied myself myself as life and thus denied myself one on one interaction with all of myself as all that is here, as all that is here is an expression of life, one and equal to me, and thus different parts of myself as varied and more fluid than any alternate reality limited and stagnant mind imagery.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand that in allowing myself to exist as my mind, I abdicated myself as life to singular two dimensional energetic dream land imagery and thus began chasing an idol and left all the joy of myself as life, depressed and suppressed, confined and sequestered into and as a tiny coffin as a box of shadows, composed of emotions and feelings and thoughts, a web of strings woven with worry beads of memories, from which I pulled experiences from my past to direct my future, all the while ignoring what was actually here in and as this physical world of which I am one and equal to here as this is myself as life.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand that the self forgiveness, writing, and corrective application process, as the DIP course offered by desteni is to clean up this alternate reality, to bring myself as life back to what is real, this physical world, to stop the mind imagery from taking the life in and as me, where I end up committing suicide as this is what all dis-ease - as dis-ease is separation from life- in fact actually is.

i forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not see realize and understand that in being a desire I am in ignorance of this physical world, as no real “god” would deny life, and thus is life here, all that is needed is here, it is only an idea that I desire, where this very idea as desire is used within this accepted and allowed profit based system to create and build an army of followers for the few who have developed characters that allow them to take all that is here for their mind alternate reality existence manifestation, and everything else that is here is made to serve the alternate reality movies and stories of the few, where this is not even this “elite”  ( those whose energetic lights have full feeding resource for their “lights” - lol)  groups real self expression as life, themselves not existing in and as the full capacity of themselves as life in and as the real joy of life as life is oneness in equality, as this is what will bring heaven on earth.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand  that denying the physical world is the ultimate racism, where the human knows that racism is a survival-defense mechanism on a grand scale, where one color is pitted against another, this being used and enflamed to allow a few alternate reality movies and stories to sit in luxury and watch their dream performances in physical comfort, while they are slowly diminishing to come to the same point of death as the mind alternate reality when the physical can no longer support the alternate mind reality movie.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand that within myself, allowing and accepting myself to feel sad about this is myself as belief in and as sadness, and not myself being here, one and equal to what I am, the physical, in absolute equality and oneness, where the strings of separation, as the strings of accumulation , where I have depressed myself into and as emotion, thoughts and feelings that are separate from what is actually here, as this physical world is the real instrument of life.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to believe that this is too hard to decompose, these collected experiences in and as emotions and feelings collected into an album in and as a collection of characters developing a personality with which I project what it is that I am onto this world in order to survive within a system of inequality demanding subservience to limited ideas, belief, and opinion to allow a few a fully air conditioned, plush movie theater to view their movies composed of their past, where sex is needed and turned into an expression of release of built up energy and no longer the self here, expressing self as life.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand that my emotions, thoughts and feelings are my collection of beads I spin in and as my mind, my religion bracelet,  bought and utilized to keep me within a limited system to profit/survival, in separation of myself as life, as myself as the physical, as how I have allowed my physical self to direct myself as life here, where the outcome is dis-ease resplendent as what is presently existing on this earth, an existence of myself in separation from myself as life, as breath, as being one and equal as this physical world.

Within this, I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not realize that any desire of gain is myself in separation, as in wanting more, I am not one and equal to what is actually here as what is here is life, as myself.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not realize that all jealousy, spite, blame is myself defending my own separations, defending my own imaginary world, my own stories, my own movies.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to realize I am a character of fearing attack.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to believe that I am constantly being attacked.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to have movies in and as my mind of the potential of attack by a race, by another cultural ideology, by what my neighbor believes to be what is more than, by what my family believes to be more than, by what men believe to be more than.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to realize that within this I am defending what I believe, remaining stagnant within an idea and not looking at what is actually physically here and directing myself within common sense that we are all same, and thus what is best for all is the only choice, as this sameness of life, where the values - as belief , opinion and idea, are - are simply this, a different color, no single one greater than the other.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand that I am only being attacked if I allow myself to be, as this is myself defending instead of being one and equal to the principle of what is best for all, as what is best for me, is best for all, as I am one and equal as life, to all, here.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not realize that a survival/profit based system, grabs all resource for the gain of the few, thus within this system on this world, takes all support and defense away from many, leaving them to suffer in a world where there is plenty, as enough to support the life that is here exists.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand that 52% of the American GDP is used on defense instead of as support for life, which is leading to a dis-eased existence for what is on this planet, and thus, I as myself, with the resources being pulled towards defense for the few to profit, am as an American becoming economically depressed - which is what war and defense is really about which many soldiers are now standing up and saying is unacceptable and where many soldiers cannot participate within as most soldiers on the battle front are unable to shoot directly at their supposed opponents and thus what the system does is create an indirect video game out of war by creating drones where men sit in a box on a distant continent and shoot at civilians that are basically in the way of the resource, and then these same men playing essentially what appears to be a video game, go home to their children as though their children are greater than other children, when these same men do not even understand where they come from and leave this understanding up to some imaginary god they have never seen.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand that the same system that builds the guns within this world, which must be the top 1% of this world that owns all resources, and thus know full well where they want their guns sent, as war is about resource acquisition despite life,  needs the support of men, and as men, it is up to us to stand and realize conflict and war are not life, so easily seen and understood in the fact that most men in war are unable to shoot directly at their supposed opponent as they realize that all that is here is life, and it is only greed that is the creation of defense.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see realize and understand that I have been programmed by a system of greed, creating an illusion of lack.

I commit myself to seeing realizing and understanding my own defenses based on beliefs , opinions and ideas, where what I believe I can lose is the illusion.

I commit myself to remaining in and as breath, and as I walk my day, to step out of the character of believing myself to be attacked, and to practice addressing the belief in attack by others, to practice speaking within and as breath in common sense of what is best for all, visible in myself and/or the other relaxing within themselves almost like a sense of relief to no longer have to support what is known as a temper tantrum of gain in separation of what is real.

I commit myself to breathing with every step here, to self realize oneness in equality with and as this physical world.

I commit myself recognizing my own line of defense characters and stepping out in union with breath to no longer participate in protecting a personality, as a persona is a projected and accepted movie of self in separation from life.

Heaven's Journey to Life

Creation's Journey to Life

Earth's Journey to Life

Self Awareness Steps for the Elite

Day 65/59 Assigned Living

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to feel sorry about how this world functions, where I am not myself but existing as a past, existing as the values I attribute to the past and not being here as myself living as the living word walking the attribute as myself as life, valuing myself as life here, carrying the baggage of a system that dictates the values to me, the roles to me, where I abdicated the attribute of my self as life, where I attributed myself to an assignment of mother, daughter, sister, as family member, where I took the assignment of being a woman, a lover, a girl, a lady, a slut, a whore, a feminist, where I took the assignment of debtor, of maid, of cook, of American, of Protestant, of Jew, of Baptist, of Muslim, of western culture, of eastern culture,  all these assignments to support a system of profit instead of allowing and accepting the assignment of myself as life.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to have taken the assignment and not considered this assignment in relation to life, where I was not to focus on myself as life, as a human physical body able to climb trees, to play instruments, to sing, to see, to hear, and instead I followed the assignments without question, as asking questions of the role models caused irritation, as the questions did not follow the assignment dictates of the system, like the voice of the system had only responses pertaining to fitting into the context of the assignment, like a computer going bezerk is the voice of irritation.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see realize and understand how addicted i became to the happy face response of the teacher/model when I completed the assignment.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to realize how addicted I became to the cheers and the praise when I got the ball in the net as I was assigned to do, much like a rat in a science experiment.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to realize how over time these assignments became all that I am causing me to become a psycho - path of an assignment lacking the birth of myself as life as the assignment neglected the development of myself as life, as directing myself as life.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to realize that my dreams are of fulfilling the assignment as service to a system that destroys this planet, where there is less and less life, as animals become extinct and farmers blame the animals for profit losses not realizing they are destroying that which they did not create, that which they have no understanding of, and act only in irritation as irritation is the program wanting to eliminate what does not fit the program, as the limited insight assigned, accepted and allowed, where the acceptance of the assigned program is the perpetuation of the program and an abdication of responsibility and thus loss of self honesty, and thus a loss of self as life, as every animal killed is self killing self in favor of a limited assignment acceptance with lack of using common sense in fear of irritation of a programed human organic machine, while self hides in the depths, eventually discovering self as life has been consumed in pain and suffering only to die until self stands and realizes self as life, again and again and again, never changing living abuse, the reflection of what presently exists on this earth, as those who believe their profit of more is the prize, but where even the profiteers live the life of JOB losing everything, where all that is needed is to live the principle of oneness in equality until it is done so that life can begin, to let go of the assignments, to stand and to realize this earth can be heaven on earth and how much more fulfilling this would be than what is presently accepted and allowed as an assignment of war and destruction, where we end up as psychotic as a soldier after combat because that is what we live, a system of survival to get money to live.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to live in the memories of past assignments where i was successful within my system assignment and received accolade and praise as attention to the completion of fitting into the image and likeness of the assignment evident in the pictures flouted in media and advertising.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to look behind the smokescreen  of the imagery lighting up the skies of the earth, confusing the animals, and confusing myself as I present a happy face hiding the expression of inclinations I had as a child that were met with irritation as they did not fit into the assignment as the voice of the machine that could not find a match in the program of the limited system that served subservience to some who believed they had more than others when in fact they too live on this earth turning into rubble, where this earth has the capacity to be heaven on earth.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to realize that I am in fact not living.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to realize that I will grow old and wallow in the memories of past assignments that I completed successfully while the projection of this program/picture show sucks what is left from my human physical body, where my skin begins to dry and flake, accelerated by the placating pills of pHARMacy, and turn back into dust right before my very eyes, as the physical tells me what I have accepted and allowed while I am still alive.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to abdicate the gift of life, in turning a blind eye towards accepting and allowing an assignment - an sign ment to serve a few who control the resources of this earth with a sign on a piece of paper - paper made from a tree that had not name of ownership, that is here producing oxygen freely for all to breath.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to take the irritation of the voice of the program reciting/re-sighting the assignment personally.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to realize that the voice of the assignment is tiny tiny tiny, and becomes smaller and smaller and smaller, as I stand back and stop taking the voice of the assignment personally, and stand up within the resonance of the constructs of the assignment that developed a follower and a leader, subservience and dominance, a man on a throne, and a page groveling for a new assignment to provide food for family.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to realize that there is more to life than the assignment.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to realize that the folds of the assignments, imbedded within my human physical body, that i have accepted and allowed can be “gotten under” and cleared through self forgiveness, writing and corrective application, with  a buddy.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to be the emotion of sadness.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to realize this emotion of sadness is for a life never lived,

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to be the emotion of bitterness, myself as spite and blame, in wonderment as to how this could happen, where it does not matter how this has happened at this point as what need be done is this earth brought into an expression in and as life, as the heaven meeting the earth to remove the polarity of heaven and hell, and to manifest oneness and equality on earth, where earth IS heaven, one and equal.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to judge the assignment.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to judge myself.

i forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to judge my mother and my father, to judge my neighbor and my brother, to judge a nation, to judge a politician as the point as earth equal and one to heaven can have no blame, can have no judgement, can only become one through self forgiveness in the realization that we are all life, and thus we are all same.

I commit myself to walk self forgiveness, corrective application, through writing to dis-cover the assignments I have accepted and allowed without question in order to survive to start the process within myself to create heaven on earth in oneness and equality until it is done.

I commit myself to stopping the atrocity as the assignment of profit that has created hell on earth  to unite heaven as earth, where life can begin, as this physical world if the gift of life, it is only for the human to realize and allow this gift expression.

I commit myself to understanding the present system of profit and to realize those posting the extent of atrocious action on earth are actually the voice of the positive, as they reveal the absence of heaven on earth as what earth should be.

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