Day 273 Fear Of speaking Imagination Dimension

The other night I had this dream. I woke up and thought someone was walking around my house with a flashlight. I suddenly realized that this was not what was happening, that this “light” was somehow coming from me. It was like following the source of the light all the way back to myself. Like an inversion process, through what creates an imagination. All I can say, is that image of something walking around my house with a flashlight remains, and it seems real, but it is not. There was no one there, there was just me, waking up from sleep.
This has a quality of not looking, and if I am not looking how can I speak? I cannot speak if I am not looking. And the projection has not substance, thus it is limited, and so will my words be limited. My words will describe the projection and not what is alive, what is here, thus my words will reflect what is not in touch with reality, what is here, instead my words will be about something less substantive than what is here, what is real, this physical world.
Thus, must I face all the beliefs, opinions and ideas, as the very limited culture within which I was raised, to realize how i have separated myself form here, into and as ideas in separation from accepting in totality what is here.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not see, realize and understand the very projections as thought as opinion, belief and idea of what is the story here, as how life moves, not seeing realizing and understanding that what is here, as what has been allowed to exist on earth, is not at ease, and thus not aligned with and as life, as life would be a state of ease, and what is on earth as the system at present is not a system that creates ease on the face of this earth, thus what is the face of this earth, is not equal and one with and as life.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not realize that the memories of myself as a child, as to how I began to perceive myself are based on judgements, as limited values taken out of the context of life, the substance of life, and made huge, such limited values then misaligned with the substance of life, creating polarities within judgement, as judgement delineates a supposed good and bad, ignoring the depths, as ignoring what is same, as the starting point as all being of the substance of life, here.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not see, realize and understand how I have built imaginations, as justifications, as superimposing stories that tell of belief, opinion and idea, and thus are projections and not myself aligned equal and one to the physical world, as the physical is composed of the substance of life, here.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to believe in the comparisons, existent within our society as the limited singular ideas presented, made within my childhood, all based on face values that distorted and warped reality into limited values, and thus separating from life, separating from being directive as life, separating the expression of life into limited values, causing frustration and lack of all life expression, causing disease and instability here on earth.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to believe that I am less than the values within my family, that I lack, where some I lack and others I do not, within what is a selection of limited values, and the behaviors that maintain the limited values, as these limited values adhere to a system of profit based on limited values for control, having separated from life, where the value is being life, and thus no one value is more than another, as the value is life.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not see, realize and understand in absolute clarity how I have separated myself form being here, equal and one to and as life, as the physical world.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to have conformed to the limited value system presented, in order to survive.
I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand that in order to accept limited values, I had to deny myself as life, a crime so huge that the only way was to only look at the separation and turn this into a “positive” polarity, which in essence was placing a happy face on my own separation, my own judgement of a limitation being bigger than life, and such all longing is really for myself as life, all sadness is myself realizing what i have done, and since i have allowed the limited value to be what I am, I no longer am aware of myself as life, and must walk back through all accepted and allowed separations into and as judgement, as limited values, and realign myself back to and as life, here.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to judge myself as not fitting into limited values.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to believe that a set of limited values determine what i am here.
I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand that existing within limited beliefs as the beacon for direction, I separate myself from realizing myself as life, directing myself equal and one towards, and as, what is best for all, where the separation, as the limitation, as the judgement of more than or less than, I compound as the limited values, comparing myself to such limitations as my starting point, and end up rushing as I chase the image and likeness of a judgment as a limited value, manifesting as behaviors of anxiousness and fear, as separation from life, in a vertiginous quality as fear, and thus does my judgement remain in and as me, manifesting in dreams, showing me my own story of separation, where this becomes so personified in and as what I believe I am, that I become completely separated from reality, and thus if all men on earth are this, the system of men, at present, is an act of separation from what is real, from what is substantive, from what is life, ignorant of this life and how this life in fact functions, and thus destructive of this earth, which is what is presently existent on this earth, as the profit is based on beliefs, opinions and ideas in separation from valuing all life.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not see, realize and understand that when I become angry , I am in essence being a personification of what I chase as an idea, that is separate from myself as life, in equality and oneness as life, a judgement wanting to be a “force” of more than, which is an act of less than, as this is taking apart/ a part of reality and losing self as life, being what self as life is within being one and equal to what is here that is real which is the actual physical world, and within this to become one and equal to and as the very substance as the sound of equality and oneness, the silence of this, which moves in self trust within what is best for all, fearing no loss, as self as life is the value.
I commit myself to seeing realizing and understanding that myself as life can stop and breath, remain here, as here is life, use common sense within investigating what is best for all, remaining with what is good, and directing within and as what is directive within what is best for all, here.
I commit myself to, when and as I find myself becoming anxious, to see, realize and understand that such anxiousness is myself chasing an idea, belief, or opinion, a “more than” based on the limited value system taught within family and culture, nationality and an existential system of inequality, thus a system that does not support life, should such a system exist, then earth would be at ease, and it is not, thus the only way is for earth , this collective of men, to stop and to breath, and to slow down, to investigate the rejection of self as life, as what self longs for, through realizing all judgements as thoughts, emotions and feelings being the voice of separation into and as a more than projection inacceptance of a less than fear within a system of survival, as being separate from self as life, and thus separate from self direction in self honesty, equal and one to and as life.
I commit myself to seeing, realizing and understanding that imagination reflects what I accept and allow, thus this is a reflection, so, within this, my imagination cannot determine my self direction unless I allow it to become what is reality as I only believe this, even in the face of common sense of how this reality, as this physical earth, in fact moves itself, directs itself, which is done by the physical, thus I slow myself down, I breath, I realize my mind is the voice of what I chose to see here, where I can allow myself to become this projection, this personification, or realize this for what it is, and to stop, and to bring myself back into and as breath, to realize the physical as what is real, an once this is practiced, to begin to see realize and understand the present systems without, and to investigate, and to understand that the present system is a manifestation of the mind as consciousness, the reflection, believed by men to be what is real, and so, the cause for what is in effect a massive misalignment causing abuse on earth, destruction on earth to plant, animal, children, humans, all constructed around a mind projection, and thus self interest from a starting point of self inner-rest in separation from what is real, which is life, which is what supports, which is what is forgiving, and so, I stand equal and one to and as breath, to realize separation into and as mind, and bring myself back to live and become what I am, life, here, as it is only here that I can direct myself.

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Day 258 Consequence Dimension, Abdication Character

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to bring near what I had made distant within and as myself here, in separation from myself.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to want to control that which I had made distant and brought near in and as a desire to control what I feared.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not see, realize and understand that that which I project, persists as I have rejected it as myself, placed a positive persona in and as protection within and without in self interest in fear of self honesty, in absence of common sense within equality and oneness in and as life, as what I am here.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not see, realize and understand that any want, need and desire is a separation from being equal and one in and as, with, life, here.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to become impatient within and as this, to not see, realize and understand that I have the tools of breath and slowing myself down to use myself as life, in common sense of what is here in and as the physical to realize resistance is myself as energy, as limited insight, as judgement, as what has been taught within and as a consumerist, fear/survival system of dissipation into and as energy in separation from and as life - this being life that which is constant within and as what is best for all, as the principle of oneness in equality in and as what is same in all, which is the substance of life.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not see, realize and understand that the friction and conflict within and as me, has become habitual, within and as the development of myself from childhood, where what was taught within a mind/physical relationship, was a mind made huge, composed of dictates serving a system of inequality, of more than and less than, creating an environment of survival/fear and thus directive within and as self interest.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not see, realize and understand that what was taught was preconceived notions of what values would enable survival, passed down through generations , education and media, social structure as class, nationality, gender.
I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand my own protection and defense mechanisms within self interest in fear of loss, and lack of common sense of equality and oneness in and as the substance of life, equal and one in all existent on earth.
I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand how in not being self honest, within and as life, here, I in effect was the source of supposed hurt, as my own notion of hurt that I projected without within allowing and being self abdication of self as life.
I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand that all thoughts, emotions and feelings, were of my own creation, through acceptance and allowance in separation from what is best for all.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not see, realize and understand that my own desire for comfort and praise, sympathy and tenderness was a separation from myself as life, as something that can be what self is as life, and thus something that self can gift to self as life, in being here, equal and one to and as life here, where within the principle of equality and oneness, in “give as one would life to receive” the gift to self as the gift of life, in and as self forgiveness in and as self as life, here.
I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand that in allowing and accepting myself to be and become fear, in and as abdication of remaining equal and one within and as myself as life, I become a polarity within judgement of good and bad, more and less, and thus create friction and conflict within and as myself, losing common sense of myself as life and thus become spite and blame and abdicate myself within communication with and as life, here, which is myself allowing a separation within a mind/physical relationship as the instrument of life, as my human physical body.
I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand the consequences of defensive communication lacking equality and oneness communication - this being the realization that we are all the same, of the same substance, this being the substance of life, here, in and as the actual physical world, here.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to fear facing the energetic storm of and as the mind, as consciousness, of inequality, of greed, of a bullying nature in and as fear of survival, of facing my own protection and defense mechanisms as personalities and characters, where I disperse myself as life into limited values unsupportive of equality and one awareness in and as life here.
I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand my own self judgements of existing within lack, in and as beliefs that I am not good enough, or that there is something inherently wrong with me, all of which is myself within and as judgement, disrespecting myself as life, here, and thus abusing myself as life, here, as such action has no practical common sense of this actual physical world, and thus such judgement gives no direction within and as practical solutions within supporting this physical world in and as what is best for all here.
I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see , realize and understand that anything other than self honesty within and as myself here, is the source of perceived hurt, and thus I can blame no one but myself for what i have accepted and allowed within and as myself here within this actual physical world.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not see, realize and understand how much I have behaviors of control, a personification of protection in separation from myself as life, here.

I commit myself to seeing , realizing and understanding all energetic movements within and as my human physical body awareness, to see realize and understand that such movements are judgements within and as protection and defense based on limited values, a separation into fear and thus self interest, where i can use the tools of breathing, writing, self forgiveness and corrective application to bring myself back to self, and no longer separate myself into inferiority and image projection onto of something other than myself being capable of self direction, in and as myself as life here.
I commit myself to no longer allow myself to fear looking at what is here, within and without, to look at what behaviors I accept and allow within and without and to stop and to breath and to bring myself back here, equal and one to and as the physical, a process that takes practice and patience, to face and correct, to align within the principle of what is best for all, as this is what is best for self, as this is self as life, in self honesty in and as life here, where self exists within and as a constant in and as life, that which is best for all, that which is eternal, directive.
I commit myself to seeing realizing and understanding through and as being aware in every moment , in and as breath, to slow way down and realize I am equal and one to all existent, separations included, to self forgive in and as life, here within what is best for all, to take fear into and as myself here, as my own accepted and allowed separations in protection and defense, behaviors of competition and comparison, and to stop and to breath, and to become one and equal to, to direct myself within and as what is best for all, as myself in self honesty in and as life, here.

Day 257 Fear Dimension Abdication Character

Fear Dimension Abdication Character
There have been conversations, in my world, about how children are no longer going outside to play in the woods. Meaning that what catches the attention of children are video games and peer group clicks. What is not interacted with is nature. This stance, in its wording creating a separation from what is here, calling nature “ nature” and humans separate from it, is merely a reflection, within the words, of limited definition, ending in labels, as “ nature”, 
outside” and ‘children.” But what is a common denominator? The physical. What would happen in a world where this realization is ignored? So, instead of expanding awareness of this actual physical world, we spend out time learning games, and pushing papers that move all this around. Our whole value system, as men is extremely limited, where very few actually look at what is here, and even when they begin to see how the physical works, if this does not support profit it is shoved under the rug and ignored. And what does this profit based system promote? What is in television and advertisements? What is warping this reality to such an extent that most of the world is suffering without physical support? Especially, when the very countries who are suffering the most are, and at the same time, have what is wanted by a few leaders, to the extent they send humans there to shoot guns and kill? How can there be lack where there is abundance worth taking? The contradiction to the physical world is blatant here.
A soldier says to his superior officer that he needs more than twenty minutes talking with a soldier within psychological support, and the superior officer says no, and responds that this is war? What does that mean? This question must be asked, and the consequences leading to this point must be looked at. And we are all responsible for doing this, for looking at what is here as the structures built. To abdicate common sense to a supposed superior, is obviously not working, it is destructive and supporting self interest for a few. It is the collective that holds this together and it is the collective that must stand and say stop, let’s look at what we are doing in detail, to realize the stupidity of what we are doing. So, when a superior officer says, this is war, it must be asked, what the fuck does that mean? War is destructive. Period.
The American constitution is about taking care of what is for the common good, this means a collective coming together to care for this earth, which is what supports the commons of this earth, and it is the responsibility of the people to stand as this, which means it is the responsibility of each person to realize this themselves. Thus to NOT question what is said is a crime against life, and to not answer when asked is a crime against life. To not look at how what is done, and to not take the time to explain what is done and why it is done in detail is a crime against life.
I have noticed in life, that people who really understand something actually want to share it! Thus, this would suggest that those who do not really understand, are the ones who do not take the time to explain, because they can’t explain! Which one are you? Are you someone who responds within, “ it is complicated” ? This simply means you cannot explain yourself. Period. Thus, this is not an answer, this is an ignorance. And an ignorance is not what is for the common good of this earth, thus it is a crime. Bullying will notchange this, it will simply bury ignorance, which is a crime against life. So, saying something is complicated, is in effect spiting what is required, within self, to move beyond ignorance, thus an action of spite is not being responsible within what is real, here, common within all that is here, as an awareness of the substance that is what the physical world is, in totality, one and equal to, which is life. This physical world is life, it is the way of life, it is the eye through the needle to understanding life, and thus becoming one and equal to and as life, here. The mind must become equal and one to the physical, and not an image of limited values made into a picture/fantasy of idea, opinion and belief. I mean look at this, this fantasy has no substance, it dissipates and is not real, it uses the physical to illuminate itself, and this illumination is so weak, it can only exist within imagination, it has not actual physical substantive existence within what is supporting as this earth here! Thus, the mind is out of whack with physical substantive reality. Here the mind, simply shows the path of separation and not the path of understanding this actual physical supporting-of-life world.
Common sense of this actual physical world would thus, move with ease, the mind in direct relationship with this actual physical world would then be at ease. Thus, to not apply common sense of existent structures and to ask question in common sense of this physical world is to cause disease, and is criminal. If one cannot answer to this simplicity, and responds with, “ it is complicated” then know a crime of ignorance is being what one is, through allowing and accepting a lack of common sense of this actual physical world.
And the information is available, it is here. One need only look, to stop being a warden of separation and abuse of what is supportive and real, here. Accepting an ambiguous statement as “ this is war” is a crime against life. There is no way out of this.
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I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to fear standing up in common sense of what is actually physically here.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not see, realize and understand that as life, I have the ability to understand the life that is here as this earth, as I am one and the same, having a common denominator in and as being the very substance of life, thus can I, as life, understand what is here, as it is me and i am it.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to become a projection of care for limited values in separation of common sense of what is one and equal in all that is of earth here.
I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand that the values I was taught are limited in that they ignore the common denominator that is equal in all that is here, which is life.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not see, realize and understand that, as life, I am one and equal to what is here, and thus, though I am a woman, I am also life, equal and one, and thus it is my responsibility to answer to what is common in all men, and not to myself as a woman, only.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to answer to what has been taught, as, for example, an idea of love, where if I were one and equal, in common sense of life, as what is the substance of what is here, I would not need to be an expression seeking “love” as there would be no need for this, as being equal and one, in and as and with life, means a state of equality, a state of ease with what is here, and thus within being equal to what is here, within common understanding, would mean myself being an expression of life, where “love” would not be the thing sought, where what would be sought is expansion within and as myself within understanding the real, actual physical world, as understanding is what would want to be expressed, thus competition would not exist, comparison within more than and less than desires would not be what exists, blame and spite would not exist, starvation and poverty would not exist, what would exist is support within the value, as the common denominator, being life.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to fear being in common sense of life here.
I commit myself to realizing the mind/physical relationship.
I commit myself to seeing realizing and understanding that the mind is a reflection of how, “here” I am within existence, and thus the more separate I am, within and as judgement, the more ease I lack within and as under standing with this actual physical world.
I commit myself to seeing, realizing and understanding that unless the relationship with the mind and the physical body is working in tandem, equal and one, in awareness, then what exists is a separation into a more than and less than ideal, a warped reality, where the projector of my mind, is not aligned with common sense of this actual physicalstructural world, not aligned with creation.
I commit myself to stopping myself within and as breath, to bring myself back down to earth, to interact with what is real, and to no longer allow separation in ignoring the consequences of the present system where the imagination of mind has become bigger than actual physical reality, as this tool of imagination can be imposed with ideas, opinions and beliefs, generated though words and images placed from a starting point of ignorance of what is the common denominator of life, equal and one in all existent, which is this actual physical world.
I commit myself to equalizing the mind/physical relationship within and as myself, here, through breathing, to slow myself down, to see, realize and understand what has beenaccepted and allowed within myself through what was taught, through what was directed as an supposed acceptable focus of self, by a culture in separation from and as being equal and one to and as this actual physical supportive world.
I commit myself to seeing, realizing and understanding that the bling of the imagination of the mind, as it stands presently, is non sustaining of life, and causing a condition of chasing desires, wants and needs that can never be fulfilled as the starting point is based on limited awareness of this actual physical world, and thus creating a instability within self that manifests as fear, as fear if a separation and distortion of what is real the actual physical world,
I commit myself to seeing, realizing and understanding that the moment I am wanting I am existing within a personification that fits into a pattern within what is personified by men, through symbols within education, media, religion and spirituality, and thus is recognizable within it’s limited view point of what is here as this physical world, and serves a limited mind/alternate reality, a projection of ideas of what is more than and less than, all in separation from equality and oneness with and as the physical world.
I commit myself to breathing, to slowing myself down, to see, realize and understand the energetic projections/entities encumbering my physical self, this being myself existing as a projection, where the images and fantasies I exist as are able to be seen within the halo as mind, as running thoughts and images, such images a collection of the past, from generations, and family, and experience, and media, and education, some of the values of his not necessary being good or bad, simply separate from what is actually here, and thus am I programmed, like a robot, within limited and border/separation created presences of idea, belief and opinion which I have allowed to direct me, as I fear standing up and being myself as life, here, in common sense of this actual physical world, where changing what I have accepted and allowed appears shocking, yet is simply the change from a long accepted and allowed behavior known as ego.
I commit myself to slowing myself down, with and as breath, here, to see, realize and understand where I have clung to as limited values only as the mind and thus remained within a bubble of self interest in maintaining these limited values, without realizing and investigating what is in fact best for all, absolutely, to see, realize and understand that the relationships to which I cling, are not substantive within self support, as they lack the starting point of what is best for all, which means they lack a starting point of physical common sense, where the substance of the physical is what is the real support of life, and the mind is an image machine only.

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