Day 591 The veil is thin. The practice of value touting vs. practical application.

I had a conversation with some people and reacted when they continued to tout their point of view. I went into a reaction as a non-reaction within just realizing they were being egotistical. They were presenting one dimension that was not necessarily wrong, but really very limited because it had a goal without investigating causes. The suggestions presented were more of the same we have been doing that really have not lead to a change. 
I find it overwhelming to point things out at times, and I get caught up in this only, and end up limiting myself. I can become what is said, stand with it, and realize that more than that action must be looked at. Thus, I can agree to what is said, and look at solutions that also move into prevention.
As humans we have managed to no longer be able to handle too many dimensions of something. We tend to limit our own conceptual ability in favor of an emotional high, like getting excited about something, patting each other on the back, spending an inordinate amount of time on such actions. But this is the problem, we are inordinate in our actions, because we spend so much time touting values instead of actually living. Like we are walking theories, walking text books, walking ideologies and meanwhile the world is burning down around us. Our soils are depleted, our trees no longer have any real density, and our children have attention span issues. I mean this is what ADHD really is, an attention span issue, to which the response is “ but he is so smart.” See what I mean about value touting? We wallow in the ideas, because being responsible and really addressing the problem seems too difficult.

So, what came first, the chicken or the egg? Did the value touting cause the inability to be responsible? I mean if you are busy getting excited about an idea, then actually being responsible and doing what needs to be done, what needs to be done is not getting done is it? And, as we are creatures of habit, as what we habituate as how we spend our time here as mind, which we do through repetition, what  do we become? When we learn we repeat until something is learned, embedded within us so that we can expand in our awareness and not use all our attention focusing on what we newly discovered and integrated. If we make ideas, as mental constructs only, what we practice without application, then we become walking theories without any physical practice. And then, physical practice becomes some novel idea.

And then we have an education system that teaches ideas without application. So how do we really know after we have learned a text if it is real or not? We don’t, we cannot until we have applied it ourselves. And then, if our wages, our incomes that allow us to survive, are dependent on what we learned from a book ONLY, and we have to have an outcome in accord of the theory, do we look realistically or do we instead work to make the theory fit?

If we have a whole bureaucracy following such an order, then we end up with little successes, and then we breed and accept that only a few will make it. And we begin to create a society were we accept lack, moving the blame onto the individual, without looking at our actions of a starting point of no real practical experience. No wonder it is easier to take one perspective and make this something to praise, because it is easier to hide in value judgements than admit to our own rejection of realizing our theories are just this, theories. Ones that we accepted without question.

It is like, being practical is becoming analytical. Which is to say, “ you are asking me to let go of my theoretical self, which means I have to look here, in common sense, and then I might lose my job.” And meanwhile, the soils decay, and the rivers are no longer clear. This does not sound like big brother watching over us, it sounds like each of us are the cause, and stories about “ big brother” are the fantasy to justify the abdication of responsibility.  And now, stories of a “ big brother” are being taken off the shelf, because we don’t even want to know a suggestive idea about an idea! Ideas about ideas are just too much depth perception for me and /or “ I am not an intellectual” which ironically, is an idea about an idea. lol
 And then, and I am on a roll here, we dream about being sensual. We are obsessed with sex and that ideological cloak about sex known as romance!  And, then, naturally the sexual promise remains unfulfilled and we become Don Quixote thinking it was the object outside of us and not ourselves. But if we cannot be practical here and perceive the depths of physical reality, then how are we going to enjoy our physical bodies in acts of intimacy? We simply cannot because we have never been consistently responsible!

Learning to become aware of something takes focus on that object, unconditionally, meaning without judgement, to accept it, see it, work with it, look at all perspectives and take actions that consider all aspects of physical reality. Ideas are just this, an aspect of something, because language as the humans use it, is linear, so it takes practice and time to incorporate understanding. And this happens a lot faster when it is done directly with the physical world, until enough understanding is reached to begin to build abstractions. And then, even here, every abstraction must always be cross referenced before application. it does not matter what one’s job is, because life is first. Without life, which the physical is, we do not exist. I mean that life is right here in front of us, as us, is really a brilliant design because it is allowing us to see the way and the means of life. It cannot get any better than that. The rest is the smoke and mirrors.

So, how do we ground ourselves here in the physical and begin to realize it as life? We change the system of hierarchy, we remove the flow of what allows access to what we need to live, as money, into a pyramid scheme and we move it, as in give it, to all. Given the digitization of money, this would not be too hard to do. Probably could be done in a few months if we set our minds to it. And then the behaviors of survival and greed would begin to abate and we can all begin to ask ourselves what we have been doing, and why had we not thought of this before, this that was right in front of us!

When we begin to look at the physical world in practical ways, it is surprising how much conceptual ability we have, and how satisfying the use of that ability is in terms of fulfilling our desire for sensuality. But then again, it has always been said that the veil is thin.

Day 389 Self Forgiveness on the Manner of Consciousness

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to become a machine of infinite affinity to ideas, opinions and beliefs, instead of looking with and as my self as life, breathing here, realizing the physical, equalizing this within this being myself in common sense as  myself as life, absolutely directive within the principle of what is best for all, where there is not fear, only absolute focus on being directive with consideration of all life , where all life is me and i am it.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not see, realize and understand the limitation that objectification into a more than and a less than creates, as a separation from awareness of the physical world as me, where I allow myself to become stagnant within one dimension only, within and as my mind, as consciousness as pictures,   which is to say that I move as limited knowledge and information, which is in and as itself not good or bad, but limited, and thus a separation and thus stagnant, a suppression , which we can see is the system playing out on earth, which in totality is a separation from the physical earth, thus there is not respect for earth , for the physical, as the totality of life, as earth is not considered, and this lack of perception, this lack of depth, this lack of awareness, this separation compounds to the point where the action of the many as the physical body of a collective of men, is not respected, is not seen and realized for the life that it is, as the few that represent the outflow of each of our inner separation from life, as the physical,  simply play out the extreme of our inner accepted and allowed inner separation, thus what exists as the system of men, is the consequence of separation from life, from respect and equal consideration of all life, of all of the physical, this physical world that which is real, that which sustains us, that which sustained heaven, which is why such a statement existed that said that heaven had to be brought to earth, I mean why would such a thing be said?

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to fear describing the extent of separation that is the mind, composed of thoughts created and recited again and again by parents who were themselves in separation, and thus what was said was not all bad it was simply words that taught/constructed a placement on a grid that is the outward manifestation of the inner separation of the human, thus this present economic system on earth as the human, is the representation of our separation, each of us, from life into and as consciousness.

I forgive myself for not accepting and allowing myself to see, realize and understand that there is no ease until there is equality and oneness with and as the physical, that there is not ease until the separation into a heaven and a hell is brought back into equality and oneness with and as the physical being real, being what sustains us, being what is the value, and thus the value is all of the physical as the physical is a symbiotic world where this physical world functions as an interconnectedness, where there is no monopoly within the natural world as this will not work, because it is trying to force an idea on how earth should be from a starting point of separation into and as consciousness, as limited values, not good or bad, simply blown out of proportion, the effects of which cause a cognitive dissonance, as separation from equality and oneness to and as life here.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand the the knowledge and information in and as my mind, that is an echo of the present system manifest on earth, is a lack of common sense of self as life, as same substance that is the composition of all life on earth.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand that the consumerism system is composed of limited values that disregard the physical world.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand that believing that I have affinities to certain things, as other humans, instead of looking here and realizing the expression of life in all things as the physical is the expression of life, is myself in separation from equality and oneness to the physical world here.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not see, realize and understand that when I gravitate towards something, as another person, I am in effect following what sounds like my own accepted and allowed values, as moving towards what “ sounds” as I am, what is energetically of same “ drone” of belief, opinion and idea, where the manners of the person move in specific ways, of which I compare to my own accepted and allowed manners, and thus am I following what is of like mannerism, not seeing realizing and understanding that the very movements of myself here as the physical is a collection of beliefs as values I have accepted and allowed, built according to class and race, gender and nationality, all not good or bad, yet built in separation from equality and oneness, acceptance and allowance, of respect and consideration for all of the actual physical world that is me, and example of which, was that when I was in Europe, when I lived there, in the tourist season I constantly had Dutch people walking up to me and speaking Dutch to me, and I would look at them and say that I did not speak Dutch that I was not Dutch, and the Dutch person would react in surprise and say but you look Dutch, which makes sense within my family, because my father came to America from Metz, and my mother came to America from Germany near the Dutch border, thus the past is embedded within the manners I exist as , as what was sensed and imitated from my parents as a child in the first seven years of my life, and thus i am a product of generations of collected beliefs, opinions and ideas that are of separation from equality and oneness to and as the physical, all a separation from being equal and one to and as the actual physical world, a separation from practical common sense of the physical, directly, here.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand that I am a product of a system of separation, which as an accepted and allowed separation from the physical world, a world as a system that functions in one-dimensional living, as the beacon of the mind is a map of limited imprint, which is not good or bad, simply a selection of values then followed as what is real, creating a bubble of separation from what is real , from what sustains us as the physical world, thus consciousness is our separation, our inferiority to and as life, the gift given, to be an expression of life, the gift as the actual physical world, to become equal and one to and as creation of the expression of life as the physical, which is the only way to becoming equal and one in expression as life, here.

I commit myself to when and as I see and realize a dis-ease with  here, within and without, to stop and to breath and to slow myself down, as reaction, as a sense of vertigo, and I bring myself back here, into and as a state of ease with and as breath, and I look at the separation manifest as loss of self esteem, as a voice of blame and spite, as bitterness, as victimhood, as jealousy, as envy, as self pity,  all of which are judgement, an act of comparison, as being myself within limitation, and I direct from here, I follow through within and as the principle of what is best for all, I no longer accept and allowed an end game as idea as knowledge and information only without practical application, I bring all thought, my accepted and allowed map, into and as what is best for all, here, as this is the only choice, to be equal and one to and as the physical here, which will take practice and time, as the separations have become habits of survival, and thus must be deconstructed , seen and realized as separations, and brought back into an expression of life, equal and one.

I commit myself to seeing realizing and understanding that  the separations must be forgiven, which will then allow myself to stabilize in and as breath, to stop, slow down, the storm of the mind, and the reactions as emotions and feelings, the collection of beliefs, as a survival suit, the feelings being the good, to hide the separation as the limitation as the “ bad” as a value of one thing being more than another, where the feelings are the intensification of the bad into being considered a positive, which is really a justification for accepting and allowing the judgement of more than and less than, a resistance, a  pushing away into the conformity behavior , where common sense is suppressed, causing dis-ease with and as life, as the present system is life in reverse within a system of limitation, inequality, manifest as what exists on earth with the amount of abuse to the physical world, the behaviors of which are visible in the news, of which consciousness, if allowed, ignores, as consciousness is a tool being used as a mechanism of separation from equality and oneness to and as life, here.

I commit myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand that since I have followed the map of limited values as consciousness as mind,  if I try to “hold” the perception of space here in and as myself, even down to being able to have the strength to hold tension and then releasing this tension in and as my physical body, it takes an effort, as my ability to hold and sense the physical world has not been developed as all I have done is followed a map, where i become myopic in clinging to one point at a time, as I as an instrument of life, have practiced separation, and limited common sense, thus the development of myself in using common sense will take time, as it took seven years to build enough beliefs, opinions and ideas, as images of my environment of a system of separation into a grid of inequality, that it will take time to deconstruct my own separation as what I learned from generations of such accepted and allowed behaviors unequal to the physical, to life, in totality.

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