Day 550 The storied existence of the NOW and the presence of HERE.

I am looking at the word “ now.” It means to be a historical story as a point that is a sequence of events built from a past.  This means that one is in a state that is of a story of a series of events. If I allow myself to be defined as this, then I am not here, I am a “ now” instead of a here. And as this, I take events within a bordered historical reference and define myself as this. One can do this in a moment, to clarify a sequence, but to define as this only is to become a program of and as this. Would this not slow perception down, if one were this only, as a definition? And, would not what was not included, what did not maintain this story, be rejected? And then would this “ now” separate one from here, from aligning oneself here?

So, to exist as a repetition of the past, is to become a limited self definition, which so many of us do when we talk about what school we went to, and what area we came from, or what the history of our family was, or how much money we have or do not have, and /or what we missed or lack based on our economic opportunity- because it takes money in this system to develop oneself - which begs the question as to why we allow lack! Would we not be programming ourselves in allowing a past sequence of events to define us and as such justify why we are what we are? This is in essence programming because it is a state of being that is reciting a sequence of events, which is essentially reciting our past program of events. And as this, we are not looking at the form and structure of here objectively, which means we are busy with story as past, and not realizing the patterns as our story, bringing them here, and seeing the structural whole systemically that is creating the consequences we recite as our stories!

So, in essence we are programming ourselves instead of being objective about the subject of our lives as what the systemic form subjects us to in terms of access to development. And we know how a human is developed to reach their full potential, and we know that many potentials do not fit into the economic model that believes some are more than others, which is another storied belief system held in place by the individual programs of story based on ignorance of the limitations of being a now past. Now, a program of such self limitation holds in place a system of judgement called hierarchy using money, which is wealth from freely given resources to maintain story that is in separation from practical physical reality. The program of hierarchy takes a lot of effort to maintain itself, because it is counter to practical reality, to being here, in common sense of what enables such programming, which is the physical.

In the “ now” programming, conception is lost, because the conception of self as mind, is of a sequence of events, instead of a conceptual development of physical reality, on which the “ now” exists.  To move from a limited conception to a direct seeing conception will appear to be a loss, when it is a loss that removes a storied, programmed inner picture show built of value judgements based on past story in a system of inequality built from a storied in-separation of common sense of the whole presence. Here presence - as inclusion of practical reality allows self to gain an awareness of a living breathing, creation of life information, which is life expression, here. So, it is to say this change is a loss of belief, that is a gain of life. The gain is to be on the cutting edge of creation. Creation would be sound, using all of the physical to balance and ensure that all forms are moving in ways that do no harm. This is something we have never experienced, so we do not know what life is because we have been so busy, for eons, telling stories because we have allowed ourselves to program ourselves as a story of value/ self definitions and then move into comparison of story being competition, instead of enjoyment of expression, realizing that all expression is in many ways discovery and being here, in common sense of practical physical reality. So every expression, every form is a gift to understand creation, and as such the enjoyment of being life, here. The real “ story” is the physical. If we can read this, and make this our story, then one would exist as a multisensory living direct seeing expression equal and one to the story of life as the actual real physical here. So, how do you define yourself?

This is why, our words must become living words, instead of storied/programmed limitations of self validation infearior to life. Real validation is to cross reference with the physical, with every breath, to enable equality and oneness with and as life, here.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to become frustrated at the storied past of another.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to react to another’s story, another’s self perpetuating program as a sequence of events believed to define, and within this to reject listening, where it is listening that allows me to see the patterns of limitations, and the opportunity to walk such limitation into equal and one understanding of practical physical reality here.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to believe that walking through a  limited storied existence is burdensome, which is myself fearing that such a program will infect me, but the solution is to give as I would like to receive which is to walk limitation into a self discovery of equality and oneness to practical physical reality, here.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to react to resistance to simple definition of words, for example, where a response is that a word is known, and within this, the subject immediately changed to avoid being clear within a measure  as a movement that appears to be a slowing down, when such slowing down is building an ease as a foundation that is equal and one with and as a measure of practical physical reality here.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to want a quick fix, and within this to not see realize and understand that I allow myself to become an agenda and as such a storied existence, instead of taking the time to use a limitation being a believed program of and as a means to be life, which it cannot, thus such separation can end the race as time, and begin the journey to equality and oneness to and as life here, by walking the measure of becoming the living word, learning to read practical reality, to become a reed of and as life here, sounding equal and one to and as life, here.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand how limited values are elongated in space and time and storied, repeated again and again, which in many ways is an emotional storm that cannot withstand the test of time, and as such peaks and dies, and which cannot define me unless I accept and allow this paranormal movement of this energy instead of sound equality, this paranormal that is a ghost/projected shadow in the machine of a human allowing and accepting a self definition based on past events, such events at present being a consequence of the accumulation of such behavior that has now manifested into a system held in place by such actions having automated genetically, as memory can be passed down generationally, like a pollution of story that was never cleaned up which means aligned to practical common sense of physical reality.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to fear standing equal and one to a program of limitation, which can only define me if I accept and allow this to do so.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand that the physical as life information, is here, like a cradle, as a sound information, gifting practical reality as the physical sound formation of an as life, here.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand that my emotions and feelings are the accumulation of the thoughts that are a measure of a part of existence, a part of a quality of the physical, which i accumulate and allow to build a self definition because I fear being equal and one with and as life, the physical, here.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not see, realize and understand that there is nothing to lose and everything to gain, in letting go of an automated self definition as a storied past, as the now, because the physical is here, with every step I take, here.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand that the mind as a thought is a part of reality, not good or bad, just an aspect, a quality of and as the formation of the physical expression in and as life here, one that can change with every breath, but when the imagination is made larger than life and the thought allowed to define self, limitation sets in as the part is accepted and allowed to define, and the gift of life that is the physical mechanism becomes less than the imagination.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand that within this I project onto others what does not support the state of being of myself as an imaginative part only, becoming blame and spite as my accepted and allowed behavior, which is to spite myself as life, as I exist as a default as mind, as memory instead of equality and oneness to and as life, here.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not see, realize and understand that I blame the poor because the poor reveal to myself the parts I take to create a self definition that I then impose on the world around me to accept or else have no chance at survival, seeing realizing and understanding within this, that in order for my self justification to be real, what reveals my limitation must be removed, which overall is a crime against life.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand that systemically the order, the measure of the world system, is the image and likeness of what i allow within and as me as a storied existence that is my imagination built of limited parts that I have accepted and allowed to define me, where I allow the destruction of whole countries to turn resources into commodities to maintain the ghost in the machine as my personification that is composed of parts creating a limited design as a system from a starting point of self allowing inferiority to and as what i am as a physical being in creation which would be the way and the means of life, thus by my very accepted and allowed  limited storied existence as mind imagination made larger than life, known as ego, ordered as class, nationality, money acquisition,  belief, experience, idea opinion,  I fade into white as age and consume the very flesh formation of expression as life as the physical, so I allow the destruction of life on earth in not being equal and one to and as the physical world here.

When and as I have a thought, I stop and I breath, and I slow myself down and I see realize and understand that within this I  can stand in common sense of practical physical reality, which is the means and expression in and as life, here.

When and as I find myself in thought, I stop and I breath and I slow myself down and I see realize and understand that such thoughts i have allowed and accepted to define me, as a thought can be a positive value that I believe is what I am, or a negative value as an emotion that I have allowed to define me as a good or a bad, all based on a past within a system manifest of same action accumulated over time, but which began with self, and as such must be equalized back into practical physical reality as this is the way and the means of life.

When and as I find myself becoming emotional, or excited as a feeling, i stop and I breath and I slow myself down and I see realize and understand how I have defined myself as idea, belief or opinion, because of experiences of a past within a system that is an automated manifestation of separation from equality and oneness to and as life here.

When and as I find myself fearing for my survival, I stop and I breath and I see, realize and understand that money is flowing in the form or usury, which is to take parts of qualities of life as resources and to move them through limited pathways to support a self definition that is a composition of belief based on an imagination that is in separation from common sense of practical reality, where whole nations are destroyed to turn water - for example- into a commodity to usuriously pre-empt a common sense local use of that resource that could organize the local, regional, national, physical earth in ways that create a self directed order that respects and maintains the physical life that is there directly on the ground, which would be a system of stewardship of earth, which is to exist as a state of being, equal and one to and as the life that is the physical, as this is the way and the means of and as the expression of life information.

When and as I find myself judging, as being in a state of story as a self definition as a mental “ now”, I stop and I breath and I see realize and understand that I have become a parasitical energetic flame of limited parts that consume the flesh as the formation of life as what allows me to exist as the gift of life, here, and I stop and I breath, and I slow myself down, to stand equal and one to the parts as values of good and bad, as my accepted and allowed self definition, and I see realize and understand this usurious ghost in the machine as my personification that is myself existing as a paranormal event, and I bring myself here, to become equal and one in measure of common sense with and as the means of life, which is the physical world, to stand as what I am as the presence and substance of and as life, equalizing myself into practical reality, standing in common sense with and as the substance of the physical here to become of sound mind which is myself in equality and oneness to bearth myself into the physical as this is the way and the means of life here.

When and as I find myself becoming an emotional/feeling reaction, I stop and I breath, and I see what I reject and what I impose to define me, as thoughts, in protection and self defense of myself as an imagination which is a mis-use of the tool of imagination, as this is a paranormal event I am accepting and allowing creating an elongation of limited measure separating myself from a direct seeing conception of physical reality and as such a loss of common sense, and I stop and I breath, and I slow myself down, and I bring the parts as self definitions back to self, to align in common sense to equality and oneness to and as life, here.

Day 488 Can we trust what we see with our eyes alone?

I watched this circle of pink dots, stared at it and this kinetic movement happened with the use of my eyes and how they work. Yes, the pink dots started to spin, and yes, a green dot appeared and spun around to the point where some of the pink dots disappeared. I then looked again as this was happening, and could stabilize the ring of pink dots, but rings of green dots remained in my field of vision around the ring of pink dots.

This is an example of what the mind of men can do, create all this movement where there is none, and have images remain that will eventually lessen. And the energy from this if it is not realized for what it is, can remain within us. So, just this simple visual can show us how we can be deceived if we are not equal to common sense as ourselves as life, here. what we see with our eyes alone cannot be what is real, we must learn to sense from ourselves as the very substance of ourselves as life. I mean, we know when we are doing something that is harmful to others. Unless we want to get this world in order, we must realize that everything we do effects the world around us, and that it is when each of us are equal in understanding with physical reality that we can begin to move together as one, as all, and that this movement, expression, would be what is best for each of us as life.

We all have these ideas and memories measured with ideas spinning around as the information and knowledge within and as us, and as this we are not equal to what it means to be physical beings. This has to be corrected with understanding that a human cannot develop unless given the basic needs that develop a human. If we blame the consequence of the behaviors of another as being the problem when that person did not have the opportunity to develop themselves because we have an economic system that inhibits development through lack of access to what builds a fully functioning human that uses their natural common sense, we create a system that does not solve problems but only blames outcome.

There are many who have access to development, and many who do not. Thus it is the responsibility of those with access to money to stand and change the present system. What needs to be done is to give every one the ability to develop and become self responsible as life, here.

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Day 408 Is that turn into looking too difficult? Or is the change only a different feeling?

I have been very emotional lately, loopy. So I look to my past and the words that I have heard that linger, these words have been here many times before. The words are “ what you are trying to do is too difficult.”  But it is not difficult, it simply needs to be walked. That turn into looking is probably the most difficult part, moving out of the para-noise of the unknown - a construct of limited values where the very substance of the physical is bypassed for our accepted imprint of limited looking, our ORDER of survival, - into knowing where, ironically, the known is here as the physical showing the way, the gift of life, here. The steps only need be walked. Just stop and breath, here.

I have allowed myself to become reactive to this statement instead of looking here in practical common sense and standing up, speaking up. Going into detail as to how the mind works, into thoughts emotions and feelings being what separates us from here, this mechanism that creates a lesser ephemeral existence that ignores the physical. Just open a newspaper, look around at the obesity, the disease, the state of our waters, the air we breath, the nuclear accidents, the number of children dying of cancer - of which there were three recently in my area alone, and where I live is not densely populated. This is all a red flag, not something to dismiss.  The news of what is going on is all around us, there are gatherings here, where locals stand and talk about a ubiquitous drug culture, there are politicians who are figuring out that the law system is a system of smoke and mirrors, there are oyster men who see that suddenly the reports of horse crab populations are “ confidential” even though it has been pointed out that the Pharmaceutical industryi s taking them for their blue blood and that the state is not monitoring this, and getting angry when someone calls and asks, the state person on that point in our accepted hierarchy lying with ridiculous statements  such as “ the state horseshoe crab monitor  goes at might”, I mean really absurd things are being said in self abdication of being responsible and within common sense about what is happening and no one is speaking up because everyone is fearful of losing their job.  We, each of us are the cause of what is happening and we are allowing ourselves to stand behind the words “ it is too difficult to change.” Well that change that is going to happen at the end is going to be much more difficult than standing up here and realizing this system must change. That death due to the lack of care for earth and all that is of the earth is going to be much more painful than stepping out of ideas such as “ it is too difficult” so I would suggest standing up and changing what we have accepted and allowed within and without. What we are on earth exist as because of what we have allowed within.

When I hear these words I allow myself to feel that I am being too pushy, too aggressive, that I might upset the other. But what I have to realize is that, yes, actually taking the time to look here, will require to make a change and to let go of beliefs, opinions and ideas, and yet there is a structure to walk into, to take into our hands and use to self correct what is here to create an earth that is self sustaining, that supports all life, where life is the value. It really is about taking the limitation and bringing it back to fit with this physical earth in common sense. It is letting go of skimming our way through life and actually reading what is here. This is allowing self to become alive, a living being, HERE. Very simple, no voodoo, what we are existing as is the voodoo! Ironic. This voodoo is what is making our lives difficult. Remove the lack of insight, gain some integrity with the physical ( physical integration ) and the state of “ difficult” will end.

How can we seriously think that destroying the earth is inevitable as supposedly “human nature” will not change? The same issues are going to be here, there is no place to go, they must be faced. Destruction means starting all over again and this is not going to be what will bring us any closer to life, it will be what will take us farther away from life. Thus it is not a solution, the only solution is to stop and stand as life, as life being the value. Thus to say that something is too difficult is to just simply be ignorance, and of course ignorance is going to think that something is complicated, because that is what ignorance is and does. We are walking oxymorons.

I was working with a computer program today, and the simplest  thing needed to be done, it was right there in front of me, and here I was getting all nervous, looking things up on line trying to figure out what I was missing, and what I was missing was right there in front of me. I had expected, based on some idea, that the color of the box would change, and it did not so I thought it was not working. It was me that was not working. The only thing stopping me, and us, is not looking here, and not helping one another to look, this is why blame and spite must end, because it is spending time not looking and pushing the fact that we are not doing the simplest thing in the world which is what are physical bodies are capable of doing, which is looking here instead of at ephemeral pictures in and as our minds of limited beliefs, ideas and opinions.  All baed on self judgements, as fear of losing something, fear of losing an idea that we have to be something, when the being of what we are is dependent on the physical, because without the physical I/we are simply not here! In all common sense, it really does not matter if there even is a heaven, because taking care of here, of this physical world should be done just because it is here and thus must be taken care of with respect for the life that it is. The idea of some alternate existence is really a scam because it makes no sense. The idea of going to heaven and having so called virgins to fuck is ridiculous. I mean who would want to do that all the time anyway? If you want to test out being repetitive, go work in a China i phone factory, you will learn what doing the same thing over and over again will mean. Actually, a iphone factory might be more fun that pumping and grinding away with a dick and a vagina all day. That is just common sense. What needs to be asked here is why the need for the idea of such a thing, and why this release is so believed to be a thing sought after? Stop and look at that image, what is that, I mean that is so one dimensional, thus it does not match physical reality, thus it is a limited construct/thing/state, and because it is limited/singular, it has taken parts of life warped them/inflated them and rerun them again and again, sucking the life as the physical to sustain, and we humans are addicted to that image and that sucking. We never really got past the thumb sucking stage. We just hid it in a picture show as the mind. lol

There are simple words here, that have been given to answer and solve the abuse on earth. They are to give as one would like to receive, they are to become the living word - to say what you mean in clarity, they are to cause no harm and take that which is good - meaning to do what one is capable of doing with those two eyes on your head - to support what is here as the physical, to give what sustains the physical absolutely, they are to realize that as above so below, meaning that it is our above as our minds as belief, opinion and idea being made into something larger than life to the point where a lesser existence in separation from life was thought to be more than life and that it was this that needed to be brought down to earth, to be realized as the illusion that it was, as ideas of one thing being more than another that needed to stop.

We are the system on earth, a system that is a false believing, a false be living as life, it is the allowance of what we are inside that is causing the separation from life.

This is taught to us by parents taught by parents, taught by others that over time created the separation from life, from being equal and one to life, as an idea was made more than simply being here. If you stop and look at your words you will notice images and pictures and back chat as memories coming up, all with judgements where you feel that you are not understood. Guess what everyone feels the same way, and this is because no one is being themselves, no one is being understood as what they are as life, because everyone is in the same pity patter, and is we look at our words we see that they are the living word of the dead, the belief that no one understands me, and this is because we are not standing up as life, thus we are not being under-stood as life, and thus we are not being life. We are not taking care of here, and if we cannot do this how can we expect to be that which we are not giving? We cannot be this until everything that is here is this because all that is here supports this as what it is. How is this difficult? What is really being said is that I am afraid to be myself and that I am so accustomed to fearing to be myself that all I want to do is whine about it instead of doing it, and all that needs to be done is to do it. Within this, it must be realized that there is this system of separation that has been allowed for so long it has to be cleaned up. So even those who believe that they are too old to do  something and the next generation can do this, must realize that it will take the ones who are older and the ones who are younger, it will take all of us, there is no more saying that someone else can do this, because it will take all of us.

What need to be done is to look here, to create a large standing in supporting a system that changes the system, which would be to support a Living Income Wage to get what is here out of survival mode and into having the space outside of a racing stressed existence that is us simply following limited ideas as the total of our awareness to look here. Thus we give up everything as being limited ideas only, and accept life as the physical, here, tangible, showing us, giving us life in common sense with it. So very simple. Not difficult at all. Life is right here. Right in front of us.

         Your Halo as your mind is the cart before the horse. It is mind unequal to physical common sense.

This means to also begin cleaning up the mind, realizing that our thoughts are judgements, and not absolutely supportive of here, of what is best for all and that the emotional storms are our judgements responding as what we have accumulated as belief, opinion and idea over time that we are powerless as life, that we have lost something when nothing has been lost, it is only a belief that something has been lost. Powerlessness is believing that something has been lost, when nothing has been lost because the physical is right here, the answer to being life is right here, the mechanism of the physical to be life as what we are is the manifestation of life, and this of much more sense that anything that is of the mind. You are physical, before mind, the mind was built after the physical, this must be realized and lived.

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Day 389 Self Forgiveness on the Manner of Consciousness

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to become a machine of infinite affinity to ideas, opinions and beliefs, instead of looking with and as my self as life, breathing here, realizing the physical, equalizing this within this being myself in common sense as  myself as life, absolutely directive within the principle of what is best for all, where there is not fear, only absolute focus on being directive with consideration of all life , where all life is me and i am it.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not see, realize and understand the limitation that objectification into a more than and a less than creates, as a separation from awareness of the physical world as me, where I allow myself to become stagnant within one dimension only, within and as my mind, as consciousness as pictures,   which is to say that I move as limited knowledge and information, which is in and as itself not good or bad, but limited, and thus a separation and thus stagnant, a suppression , which we can see is the system playing out on earth, which in totality is a separation from the physical earth, thus there is not respect for earth , for the physical, as the totality of life, as earth is not considered, and this lack of perception, this lack of depth, this lack of awareness, this separation compounds to the point where the action of the many as the physical body of a collective of men, is not respected, is not seen and realized for the life that it is, as the few that represent the outflow of each of our inner separation from life, as the physical,  simply play out the extreme of our inner accepted and allowed inner separation, thus what exists as the system of men, is the consequence of separation from life, from respect and equal consideration of all life, of all of the physical, this physical world that which is real, that which sustains us, that which sustained heaven, which is why such a statement existed that said that heaven had to be brought to earth, I mean why would such a thing be said?

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to fear describing the extent of separation that is the mind, composed of thoughts created and recited again and again by parents who were themselves in separation, and thus what was said was not all bad it was simply words that taught/constructed a placement on a grid that is the outward manifestation of the inner separation of the human, thus this present economic system on earth as the human, is the representation of our separation, each of us, from life into and as consciousness.

I forgive myself for not accepting and allowing myself to see, realize and understand that there is no ease until there is equality and oneness with and as the physical, that there is not ease until the separation into a heaven and a hell is brought back into equality and oneness with and as the physical being real, being what sustains us, being what is the value, and thus the value is all of the physical as the physical is a symbiotic world where this physical world functions as an interconnectedness, where there is no monopoly within the natural world as this will not work, because it is trying to force an idea on how earth should be from a starting point of separation into and as consciousness, as limited values, not good or bad, simply blown out of proportion, the effects of which cause a cognitive dissonance, as separation from equality and oneness to and as life here.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand the the knowledge and information in and as my mind, that is an echo of the present system manifest on earth, is a lack of common sense of self as life, as same substance that is the composition of all life on earth.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand that the consumerism system is composed of limited values that disregard the physical world.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand that believing that I have affinities to certain things, as other humans, instead of looking here and realizing the expression of life in all things as the physical is the expression of life, is myself in separation from equality and oneness to the physical world here.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not see, realize and understand that when I gravitate towards something, as another person, I am in effect following what sounds like my own accepted and allowed values, as moving towards what “ sounds” as I am, what is energetically of same “ drone” of belief, opinion and idea, where the manners of the person move in specific ways, of which I compare to my own accepted and allowed manners, and thus am I following what is of like mannerism, not seeing realizing and understanding that the very movements of myself here as the physical is a collection of beliefs as values I have accepted and allowed, built according to class and race, gender and nationality, all not good or bad, yet built in separation from equality and oneness, acceptance and allowance, of respect and consideration for all of the actual physical world that is me, and example of which, was that when I was in Europe, when I lived there, in the tourist season I constantly had Dutch people walking up to me and speaking Dutch to me, and I would look at them and say that I did not speak Dutch that I was not Dutch, and the Dutch person would react in surprise and say but you look Dutch, which makes sense within my family, because my father came to America from Metz, and my mother came to America from Germany near the Dutch border, thus the past is embedded within the manners I exist as , as what was sensed and imitated from my parents as a child in the first seven years of my life, and thus i am a product of generations of collected beliefs, opinions and ideas that are of separation from equality and oneness to and as the physical, all a separation from being equal and one to and as the actual physical world, a separation from practical common sense of the physical, directly, here.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand that I am a product of a system of separation, which as an accepted and allowed separation from the physical world, a world as a system that functions in one-dimensional living, as the beacon of the mind is a map of limited imprint, which is not good or bad, simply a selection of values then followed as what is real, creating a bubble of separation from what is real , from what sustains us as the physical world, thus consciousness is our separation, our inferiority to and as life, the gift given, to be an expression of life, the gift as the actual physical world, to become equal and one to and as creation of the expression of life as the physical, which is the only way to becoming equal and one in expression as life, here.

I commit myself to when and as I see and realize a dis-ease with  here, within and without, to stop and to breath and to slow myself down, as reaction, as a sense of vertigo, and I bring myself back here, into and as a state of ease with and as breath, and I look at the separation manifest as loss of self esteem, as a voice of blame and spite, as bitterness, as victimhood, as jealousy, as envy, as self pity,  all of which are judgement, an act of comparison, as being myself within limitation, and I direct from here, I follow through within and as the principle of what is best for all, I no longer accept and allowed an end game as idea as knowledge and information only without practical application, I bring all thought, my accepted and allowed map, into and as what is best for all, here, as this is the only choice, to be equal and one to and as the physical here, which will take practice and time, as the separations have become habits of survival, and thus must be deconstructed , seen and realized as separations, and brought back into an expression of life, equal and one.

I commit myself to seeing realizing and understanding that  the separations must be forgiven, which will then allow myself to stabilize in and as breath, to stop, slow down, the storm of the mind, and the reactions as emotions and feelings, the collection of beliefs, as a survival suit, the feelings being the good, to hide the separation as the limitation as the “ bad” as a value of one thing being more than another, where the feelings are the intensification of the bad into being considered a positive, which is really a justification for accepting and allowing the judgement of more than and less than, a resistance, a  pushing away into the conformity behavior , where common sense is suppressed, causing dis-ease with and as life, as the present system is life in reverse within a system of limitation, inequality, manifest as what exists on earth with the amount of abuse to the physical world, the behaviors of which are visible in the news, of which consciousness, if allowed, ignores, as consciousness is a tool being used as a mechanism of separation from equality and oneness to and as life, here.

I commit myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand that since I have followed the map of limited values as consciousness as mind,  if I try to “hold” the perception of space here in and as myself, even down to being able to have the strength to hold tension and then releasing this tension in and as my physical body, it takes an effort, as my ability to hold and sense the physical world has not been developed as all I have done is followed a map, where i become myopic in clinging to one point at a time, as I as an instrument of life, have practiced separation, and limited common sense, thus the development of myself in using common sense will take time, as it took seven years to build enough beliefs, opinions and ideas, as images of my environment of a system of separation into a grid of inequality, that it will take time to deconstruct my own separation as what I learned from generations of such accepted and allowed behaviors unequal to the physical, to life, in totality.

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Day 196 Beyond face value

I commit myself to realizing when the slightest thought as blame comes up in and as my mind, I stop and I breath, and I realize I am no longer here but in an idea as what I believe should be, which is in essence abdicating myself as life here without any directive as the substance of life in being what is in consideration of all existence as what is best for all, as I am lost within a fear, where this state of fear is all that is known as all presence of myself has been programmed/conditioned/ developed into and as what serves a hierarchy in and as a profit based system of more than and less than, which I accepted and allowed as I separated myself within a definition as more than, justifying/believing a perception of less than as I lost touch with the physical as being my own creation as life.
I commit myself to breathing, to realizing that I cannot judge anything or anyone, as all that is, is one and equal to me as life, and thus in order to share myself with myself, must I give as life in directing all life as what is best for all, which does not “stop” life behind walls of laws which are really just designs of stopping life, grabbing and confining life into a moment of non-awareness, using this for gain instead of allowing self realization as life, which is all that there is, complete self forgiveness in every moment, here.
I commit myself to not allow myself to go into shame about what has been accepted and allowed, when it is realized what humans have done to life, as this is not going to get this world moving in self forgiveness as self as life as what is best for all, where even those who have ruthlessly the most physical comfort will be one and equal in realization when it is realized that all there is is self forgiveness within what is best for all, as this is what self forgiveness is in essence.
I commit myself to realizing that when a corporation has someone they have payed off sign a “gag-order” it is an admission that the person signing will eventually realize what they have accepted and allowed in denial of common sense, in being in fear of survival and overwhelmed by a group of humans who have gained power simply by signing a scribble onto a piece of paper, that this human will realize what has been accepted and allowed, which means all humans have the ability to exist within common sense and realize the abuse of the wall of laws as signatures that protect practices which are not what is best for all.
I commit myself to realizing that when I am in blame and judgement I am simply no longer considering existence and what caused behaviors of greed and frustration, as these are behaviors in separation from an understanding of this physical world.
I commit myself to realizing that all blame, all competition, all comparison, all judgement is fear, where thought is showing me where I am accepting and allowing a face value only in ignorance of the totality of the picture of what this actual physical world exists as and is, thus have i been taught to only see parts of what is this physical world through the image maker of the mind and not sensed the commonality of life existent as what is here as the substance of what is here one and equal in all, as what I see is a compound image of my own design and I “read in” the rest with my experiences, where my experiences are generated from perceptions that were generated within the same limitations of insight into the whole, as following the mind without really remaining here in and as the physical world.
I commit myself to seeing, realizing and understanding that what is of the mind in how I have been taught to utilize the mind, is to see a tiny portion of a picture, and within this never even been taught, which I abdicated as this is what I am, to utilize my physical self to sense what is physically here, thus have I no relationship with this physical world, and only built relations with limited ideas, beliefs and opinions.
I commit myself to seeing, realizing and understanding that when someone says to me . “ Oh, you are an empty nester” and I react in fear, what I am doing is reacting in fear of judgement, but if I look at what was said, I realize it is just a statement, which could be factual, but this does not hold a positive or negative value, unless I accept and allow this, it is what it is, maybe I am maybe I am not, and what precipitated this statement makes no difference, because I am here, moving within what I believe at this point is best for myself, where I need not fear any change, as it is what i am within what I am doing and not an idea about what I am, as I am life, here.

I commit myself to revealing that in essence the idea of change can cause fear, which would be a condition of the condition of not knowing self as life, as the substance of life, as one has not been taught to move self as self as life, and only known behaviors of survival as protection and defense, thus are many reactions a petrified “face value’ and not an enjoyment of being life, here.
I commit myself to breathing when statements are made and I see the habit of myself as my mind reacting in fear, to stop and breath, and to look to the whole, as all that exists, to bring myself back to myself here, in self forgiveness of myself as life, to direct myself in and as what is best for all, as I no longer allow myself to become a “petrified face value” in fear as the eternal is a constant.

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Day 152 Facing the Cold

LONDON, ENGLAND - OCTOBER 25: A man dives into the icy water in the Sepentine on October 25, 2010 in London, England. Some parts of the UK experienced the coldest October night in 17 years last night, with temperatures in South Wales plummeting to - 6.2C. (Image credit: Getty Images via @daylife)

Car goes into icy water (Photo credit: Boston Public Library)

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to avoid cold.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to dislike being cold.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to become tense, as though I am trying to hold in my heat, when I experience cold.
I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand that the cold water did not actually do anything to me but supposedly lower my temperature when I was a child with a high fever and placed into a cold bath filled with icecubes.
I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand that fevers are actually to aid the body in killing a virus, and what the human has done is believed that a fever will kill the human and actually, I don’t even know if this is true, was it ever the fever or was it the virus?
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to tense up when I am cold, to not investigate within myself if I relax and the degrees of cold I experience are not as extreme as I led myself to believe within reacting to a change in temperature that is not really all that cold, as I know that often when swimming, the water becomes warm as one swims.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to have a thought before I step into a pond or the ocean, that the water is going to be cold.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to react against cool water.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to have a feeling of dislike for cold water and reacting in tensing up within my body in apprehension of facing a moment of temperature change.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to be a reaction to temperature change through pulling myself in within myself as a protection defense mechanism, as I believe this will somehow change the experience of moving from one degree of temperature to another.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to judge a change in temperature, within my world , where the degrees in change are not that extreme, as from the summer air to the water, as being a shocking cold experience, when in fact it is not so extreme or shocking, it is only my perception, and my reaction as an idea that this will be cold, as a reaction that is based on an idea and not what is actually real in front of me.

I commit myself to, instead of tensing up when I change from a mild temperature change to another, to no longer allow myself to tense up physically, bracing myself for what I believe is a shocking cold, as it is, more often then not, not so shocking, and should I be in a situation where the temperature does change in an extreme manner, then tensing up within myself is not going to make me warmer, after all one of the things the Europeans wrote about the America Indians was how little clothing they wore in comparison to the Europeans, in the cooler months of the year in America, thus, a human does not need the amount of clothing in cold weather as is believed in European culture.
I commit myself to, at this point not allow myself to tense up and brace myself against a perception of cold, as a change by degree in temperature.
I commit myself to no longer allowing myself to have this thought that I do not like the cold, especially since I have been in the winter cold, where , with movement, one can stay quite warm.
I commit myself to no longer allowing a thought about being cold, as the being of myself as this thought is actually not a directive within dealing with being cold.
I commit myself to slowing myself down, in and as breath, when I find myself tensing within myself as a reaction to a perception of being cold, and to breath and remain here in and as breath.

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