What is presence? Day 713

I am past fifty. I noticed changes in my parents as they grew older. It was more that I began to notice patterns in them, that something was changing. I noticed it in my mother’s art work. Somehow, it was not as clear. Since I noticed these changes, yet did not really look, I did not clearly define what was happening.

I also noticed changes in string performers. There is a difference between someone who is present when they play and someone who is moving in automated ways. They say, that one should not hear a performer thinking, it gets in the way, and the music loses some of its depth. It is to say that when a performer is present, one is more focused, and thus the listener is more engaged. It is in many ways an intimacy. Even performing with others has an intimacy that makes one really vulnerable. One is very exposed, especially to the trained ear. 

Yet, is this something, that when someone is present while playing, that they catch the focus of others?  How can this be? Also, to qualify, there are audience members, or listeners that do not hear. They come to hear a piece just to say that they heard the piece, and usually these are listeners that do not listen! To them everything is wonderful and the performer is almost a god that has some special talent. If one asks what they liked, they cannot give any real definition to their likes. It astounded me for a long time. It is why I so often did not want to remain after a performance to greet the audience. It was somehow painful, yet that is my judgement.

Every moment of life is really about being present. As I age, I notice that it is so easy to follow the habit of thinking. Even when I can with greater ease, let things go when I notice I tense up and want to react, calling out something I see as a limited perspective, which is a starting point of judgement because I am reacting to an ego, and thus I move more as agenda than solution; than investigation, than assessment. It is a fear that I lose something I define myself as, or that i have no standing, or that I can be defined by what another voices.  This is myself standing in separation from what is always here, as the physical. 

What I am defined as what is all of me, I am physical, this is the means of my expression. What is called out, in thought, word and deed, need not define me. Yes, if someone were to suddenly appear with a gun and shoot me, I would die - more than likely- yet what is voiced and promoted as measure, as idea, as belief, as opinion, as words, need not define who and what I am because it is, as words, about something, it is not what is manifest as the physical. And yet, what I practice as thoughts as ideas about here, can become automated within and as what motivates me as this physical state of being. If I allow ideas and beliefs and opinions to be who and what I am, without constant reference and reverence to all of me, I begin to lose my connection to life, to the physical.

I can sense this within myself, and I could, though I did not name it as such, in my parents. The disconnect from the physical world manifests in physical movements in people as they age. It gets more difficult to drive, it gets more difficult to listen, it gets more difficult to travel. It gets more difficult to open jars, and to take care of a house. I have seen this many times with aging people. And they see this as a norm. It cannot be normal. It is the opposite of normal. It is the consequence of a separation from the physical world, from being present, from focusing on here. It is a separation from being engaged to here. lol, I ask myself why reproductive relationships are so dominant in all stories! Why are  these singular relationships in a world of physical relationships made so HUGE as the focus of each of us? This is a distraction, this is enlarging something to remove one’s presence from reality. In a normal development, this would occur in a natural way. It would be a physical thing where two people would come together to reproduce. At the moment, as our society, it is forced. It begs the question as to how present we are. Are we really ‘ playing’ the instrument of ourselves as physical bodies on a physical world?

One can ask one’s self; How present are you? Can you conceptually process information with ease? Can you stand before something you have never done, a physical task, and use your innate spatial skill to realize the form and the function of what physically is before you, and then move with care and presence into moving with it in practical ways?

In some ways, I have not wanted to perform because it ends up being a situation where i am asked to perform all the time. I have taken this in different ways. One is becoming entertainment - and cheap entertainment as I was asked to get grants to pay for performances- this being me who performs and spends hours writing for grants so I can perform. A real disconnect from reality in relation to the people who have asked me to do this. I am always astounded.

The second, is this sense of people being drawn to me, as this idea that they come and suck something out of me. When in effect, if I perform with presence, it is that a person who is separated from being present is drawn to someone who is present- unless they are so removed, from having allowed an entity of belief to define who and what they are above , or before, a respect of the physical. One can get a resistance to presence, one can get those who desire presence and yet cannot clearly define an attraction to the greater degree of presence in another, and one can get those who recognize presence- and even here, may not be able to define this - lol it is ineffable in so many ways.

Thus, our behaviors within us, are visible in every move we make, as to how present we are in this physical world.  The solution to our loss of direct interaction with life, is to respect the physical world around us in every moment. this means we have to stop thinking and start being present. Everything that is moving in the mind, is a thought about here, it is equal in degree to one’s level of presence in reality- the physical.  Our presence has to be here, focused here, in every breath. If we are in thoughts we are in separation from life. In this, our imaginations shows us the correct use of what we are. If we are building an entity as a picture in our minds of right and wrong, without taking action, to cross reference, we are making what is in our minds larger than life.  When what we believe becomes larger than the physical world around us,  we lose our presence to and towards all things. This manifests through time as a loss of perception of the space around us. It becomes harder to do the most simple of things in our daily lives. Thus, the marker of our separation from considering all things is visible in every movement we take. In essence, we are what we allow ourselves to focus upon.  We are the directors of our own lives. Where we go will determine the quality of our life.  Do you remember what you did last year at this time? What would a life of being present in the physical reality be? 

Day 686 Am I really insignificant? I am here, I am physical. The value is being life.

If I expect others to infer any emotional poles behind my words, are I not expecting others to see the emotional pole within me as something as real as I believe it to be?? ( This is actually insane!)

And if I have to expose that emotional pole, and a solution is given to me, in practice, diminishing  that enlarged ‘ take’/ value/idea I accepted and allowed, would I react and not want to admit that I had created something out of nothing? Would that mean that I had to change? Would I find out that changing an imperfect practice would take longer that if I had learned something correctly in the first place, take time?  Would I realize that I had seeded what was me, and that what I accepted and allowed to be seeded as me would take time to correct and that I was so embarrassed that I would not want to admit this, and yet, this was the only way out, and the gift that was really cool because it meant that I was the means to master who and what I am here in this physical world? Yes.

For myself, what is this swirling mass of emotional values within and as me, that I have colored myself as? Where was that one small movement that was the impetus for this separating-from-who-and-what-I-really-am-emotional-metaphysical -storm?

What was the judgement that I accepted, as a movement within, that created this? What was the generating seed/feed mirrored in behaviors of resistance as a belief? What tread-mill have I stepped onto? Onto what have I allowed the focus of me to become? How have I turned my greatest strength into my greatest weakness?

Given the polarity of weakness and strength, it is a belief that I am not good enough, that there is something  wrong with myself. This is an abdication of what solves the problem, which is to see reality, as the physical and correct in synch with this reality, this practical reality. A mathematical reality revelatory in form and function, as creation would be.

What unsorted mistakes lead to a lack as a limited self definition leading to an ignorance of what was real, as the physical creation around me that is me , here?

As a child, this seeding started. An impossible situation, or appearing to be so, for one so small without any language development, sorting out the construction of language and the ideas generated therein by the surrounding adults which I by nature absorb and allow myself to get caught within to survive as I fear the force of punishment for not aligning to this mis-alignment to life as the physical. This is a motion in separation from considering the practical nature of life as a physical formation. Though I am the cause of accepting and allowing the measure of belief, as in-sighting a record of selective values, that then become the information that is me,  meaning it then being generated from me, I am the only one who can self forgive this and reform who and what I am. I am the one to ground myself back into what is real, as my relationship to the physical, to consider the physical as me, as life information, here. If not me then who? 

I am able to realize where I inflate values, within positive and negative poles of resistance and self aggrandizement, like an elephant in the room that has no real substance, recognizable in a lack of constancy in behavior. My own accepted construction changes myself in a moment, instead of myself using my ability to change, which is my ability to assess, to live equal and one with creation. Living equal and one with creation is realizing the value is life.

This is synching my greatest strength from ignorance to presence as life, here. 

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to believe that I am insignificant.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to believe that I am insignificant and that this is fixed within who and what I am.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to become so self involved within a lack as a belief as an idea, as a measure that is a judgement of a good and bad made larger than the practical life around me as the physical,  within and as me that my greatest strength became my greatest weakness.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to reject myself as life.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to create an inferiority to life as what I allowed to define who and what I am here.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to hide my separation from life, through projecting lack onto others, as people and systemic structures, and animals and nature, to justify my own lack that is a resistance to life, to being in common sense of reality, as life information as the physical world here.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to create a projection entity within and as me as myself being right, and to within this become stuck into reacting to what are reactions instead of grounding myself here into the practice of living and finding solutions in consideration of all things here.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to believe that I was a worthless human being, based on experiences in childhood, where I believed there was no way out, and joined into the game in protection and defense to survive.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to become angry within and as this, as this is a fear of becoming responsible for what I have accepted and allowed.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to fear making mistakes in relation to this, to and towards others within my world.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to believe that I am defined by the mistakes of my past, where in all practical common sense, the only solution is to change and reform, as myself as life, which is to take that which is good and does no harm, and to investigate, to do the math, within and as moving from problem to solution, here, in every moment, remaining grounded in breath here.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to have the thought ‘ Where have I been”

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to have the thought “ I have wasted the life that is me , here.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not see, realize  and understand that the only solution is to ground myself here, in consideration of all things, seeing realizing and understanding that what is real, is here, this physical world, and the starting point of who and what I am here.

When and as I find myself sinking into fear, I stop and I breath, and I slow myself down, until I am steady, calm, steadfast, bringing myself here, into being present in the physical as my feat, as my hands, as my torso, here, as who and what I am.

When and as I find myself tensing up within and as my chest area, I stop and I breathe, and I slow myself down, and I see, realize and understand the techno-colored movement, as energy within and as my physical body, to see, realize and understand what I have accepted and allowed to define who and what I am in protection and self defense of my fear, to ground myself here, in the physical, to become in thought word and deed that which is best for all, as equality and oneness to and with life here.

When and as I find myself tensing up within and as my chest area, I stop and I breath and I slow myself down, and I see, realize and understand where I am existing as an inner voice of and as a belief that I am the worst person in the world, based on a past as a child, where I did not get through, or I started to answer in relation to same measure and actions of separation creating a personality in the adults around me, to which I responded, in a belief that this stopped punishment, thereby hating myself for being that which I probably wanted to sort out, and within this to remember that as a child, this would have been very difficult to do, just as my own children probably experienced as well, as I had accepted and allowed a limitation to define who and what I am as a belief in separation from being practical within and as that which does no harm and respects what is real, as the physical world around me, as this is life in creation, here.

When and as I find myself beginning to sink with and as me, I stop and I breath and I slow myself down, to see, realize and understand the measure as belief, opinion and idea as an imperfect practice as an idea of lack, and I stop, and I breath, and I ground myself here, and I forgive myself for accepting a fear of survival as I am no longer a child, and I use the greatest gift of myself as life, an ability to absorb and investigate, assess and cross reference, this actual real physical world as life information, and I take the time to listen, to understand, within and without to practice being equal and one to who and what I am as life, to take that which is good and does no harm, to become in thought, word and deed myself as life, here.

When and as I find a weight within and as my chest area, I stop and I breath, and I loosen up within and as my chest area, to forgive a fear of others seeing what I have accepted and allowed as a belief that I am insignificant and worthless, and as what I have defined myself as, to instead become self responsible as life here,  to ground myself in synch with the life that is me, as the physical world.

When and as I find myself tensing up within and as my chest area, I stop and I breath, and I slow myself down, until I am stable, open, able to discern through a focused listening, to realize the parts and the whole, to move in perfect practice, realizing mistakes can change,  in equality and oneness in thought word and deed to life, as the physical, here.

Day 596 The Misplaced Creative Ability of The Concrete Made Abstract. Self Forgiveness

I recently had an interaction with someone, where the creative ability of a person can take parts and create a picture, built of beliefs, and opinions and ideas, to construct a justification around having made a choice. If I look at this as an ability, it reveals how humans are creative, in that they take parts and create an abstract picture of the reality around them.

If this ability took into consideration that which allows this creative ability of constructing something as a picture as an idea, which is the physical world - our bodies, and included the practical reality of the physical in any taking-of-parts, which is “ critiquing” reality, or re-sunning reality” or bringing what is physically realized information as the physical into consideration as the qualities and building blocks of the physical world, then our reality would function in ways that cause no harm because the physical would be respected, in detail.

When we create a paper world where means are used to ostensibly expedite a norm, we allow externalities to be swept to the side, which is not looking at all the parts and as such causes aspects of the practice of living that is a physical way of moving here, to be forgotten, which means the physical world is ignored. A scenario that has a consequence of dis-integrating the physical. The physical world then becomes weaker and weaker and weaker. And we see this happening all around us. We can leave nothing behind, because all of it is the means of life. What is not in full potential becomes a fire that we end up trying to put out, and our attention is on this lack, which is not being attentive of the actual physical world overall. 

I within myself realize how this can happen. I was a child and I stopped suddenly and wanted to hide what I was doing, and to do this I focused on the words only of the adult in my world. As I walked a mind construct, this one little movement, was myself making a choice to attend to my own experiences, my own memory, my own abstract of a concrete world as the physical. Overall, this is not a bad thing, but when I ignore one thing, because I have an idea about it based on actions in the past, and then begin to manipulate what I focus myself on, then I have ideas about things and begin to reject aspects of reality based on ideas, and attend to reality in a way that suits my own ideas instead. This overall is myself no longer being transparent and open and equal in consideration of all that is the physical world. I am being selective, which is not bad, per say, but when done to manipulate what is a construction of belief in fear of being discovered because I have an idea about what that dis-covered thing may be considered as, then I am already building layers of lies, that become the focused being of myself. Thus I have begun to move as an ideological abstract that is in separation from practical reality. I am no longer equal to the physical, I am as such resisting life, because no real god would create something that does harm, a real god would be something that is by nature in all aspects creation. And what I have done, in my manipulations is taken life and my creative ability as life, and constructed an abstract of parts of life that is using creative ability and warping it into a personal alternate reality that is lost of its gift of common sense.

The only way out of this separation is to admit it. To forgive myself back to my own gift as life as my common sense, which is to focus on the physical world and realize the practical measure of it. And why, because this is alignment back into reality, where I reference the concrete world as life in-formation, and sense that which does no harm, which is what is best for all.

My manipulations, where I attend to some things to block my own actions from sight, because I had an idea about them based on an experience that was probably the same thing in another - and myself being a child who did not have the code as the words to sort this all out in clear and communicative ways,  became what I allowed as the measure of my memory, what I defined as the world around me. 

When I talk with others, having spent some time looking at this, I see this same thing going on in the words people speak. Overall this is a creative act as it is taking parts and creating new forms , but it is all done in protection and self defense for an initial separation that we all can realize and know we have accepted, but in actuality fear admitting to. The only solution is to forgive this separation and to come back down to practical reality, because this is the only way forward on earth.

Imagine when someone comes and apologizes for something that is realized to be a mis-take, we accept it when it is sincere. The problem is that we have a system that has become the manifestation of our own abdication of being equal to practical reality. As though each has done this for so long that it is imposed as a man-made system on earth. Thus, the system must change to allow each to forgive transgressions as abstract personas, to give the space and time to come back down to include the physical as life, equal to self and that creative ability, because the two are inseparable. 

Also, when one learns a bad habit, which in this case is a limited insight habit, and does not change, then that habit is what is consumed and becomes what one is, the change becomes harder because the groove has been set and to rebuild takes time and consistent corrective action/movement. the gift is the physical world in front of us, it centers us here, equal in consideration of all things as any real parent/god would want for their child.

If we look at our financial system, which is a rent seeking formation, it is us, manifested externally. What we hold onto as personifications as a collection of beliefs, opinions and ideas used to define us, where we hide from not having remained in practical equal consideration of all things in respect of the physical as life in-formation, as creation, then we are “ renting” qualities to define us, at the exclusion of respect of the physical world that is creation manifest and the gift of life in-formation. So, our financial system represents our separation and our attention to limited abstracts made larger than life as our mind.

And our governing system, is what we tout, what we pray for, but not what we actually live. It is what we say we are, but not what we actually do. it is the limited good sounding actions we tell one another, that we do in small measure to convince ourselves we are not that which we know we have accepted which is hiding from being equal to practical reality and trying to regulate our gains, hiding from considering all life, respecting all life which the physical is the expressive in-formation of and as. Just as our governments and financial systems are forms that are movements, so are we, and this system is what each has become within. so the projection that created the system, comes from each of us. If we do nothing to change ourselves and simply forgive a lack of perception that includes and respects the actual life in-formation as the physical then we ignore and as such destroy creation in-formation.

Thus the solution is that one must stop what one has accepted, has trained oneself as , as a collection of beliefs, opinions and ideas, that take one quality or aspect of reality, and aggrandize that aspect at the exclusion of other qualities and aspects of practical physical reality, and bring that back down to earth, because this is how we bring our own heavens as our abstract ideas about this concrete world, back into what is practical, and within this stop creating doom and gloom scenarios, because we fear to lose what is really an extremely limited acceptance of who we are.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to be flexible here, to not fear changing what I have accepted and allowed as an idea, belief or opinion about practical reality within and as me.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to suppress my common sense ability, the gift of life in expression, in having the ability to look at the parts and the whole here, to see, realize and understand movements and actions that consider all things and take that which is good, which is a process of becoming aware and respecting all things as this earth is life in-formation.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not see, realize, and understand how I have manipulated myself as life to hide from actions that were in themselves actions based on limited/singular beliefs, based on ideas of good and bad, which is judgement, which is eating the apple of knowledge and information only and ignoring the tree of life that is what sustains and created that apple.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not see realize and understand the mirage of  limited experience I accepted and allowed as an abstract of this concrete world, earth, that is life in-formation here.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to bring one aspect of reality forward in and as my mind, and to accept this as having a value that I believed would define me and allow me to survive what I wanted to hide that was another form of judgement as deciding that there was a bad that would lead to a doom and gloom scenario, a “ what if” scenario where I acted in a self interest of limitation because I did not investigate all things and reality as that which was good and does no harm, in a practical physical world.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to believe that what another speaks as an abstract imagery of a concrete physical world can define me.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not see, realize and understand how one small movement of separation in protection and defense, as an idea of a good and a bad, ends up limiting the very common sense of me as life, to be flexible/flowing/mutable in respecting practical physical reality, to consider and be thankful for that which is the means of myself in expression as life, which is the physical world, the tree of life, here.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to believe an abstract of a concrete world, of which the abstract used for its formation, is more real than the practical physical world, here.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not see, realize and understand that when and as I believe the abstract, as what I have allowed to define me, I actually move into suppression of myself as life, and for this I forgive myself.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand that when I believe an abstract construction within and as a idea, belief opinion, within and as me, a emotional movement concentrated on hiding one thing and attending to another, as a value that I believe will protect me from what I had believed was a “ bad” then I am like a computer, turning off one thing and bringing forward another, not a bad when consistently cross referenced with reality, but a suppression and limitation when used to define me, causing pressure on and as my physical body, disrupting flow, blocking my own common sense as life, constricting the physical body, causing a dis-ease, as a mis-take with reality, and as such, something that can become a habit that will take time to realign back down to earth, back into being equal and one, respectful of practical physical reality, here.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to allow my mind to be greater than my heart, to not listen to here, to what is here, even as the separations of men as abstractions of this concrete reality as what the mind is an does.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to believe that this abstract projection as mind can define me.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to become equal and one to the creative ability of myself as life, and instead to abuse this creative ability in ways of self interest only.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to realize what I fear losing as a self definition, and what I fear being defined as having accepted and allowed an idea that I cannot change when I am the one who accepted and allowed the mirage as mind, as my perception of my experiences that I defined myself as and feared changing because I allowed an idea as a desire to become larger than life, and as such did not walk the practical process of building awareness of the physical, which is respecting all life.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand that the war on resource grabbing for rent seeking practices is an outward manifestation of what I have accepted and allowed within and as me, which has been happening for generations as this is what has been generated as an abstract in dis-respect of practical reality, and as such is an act of violence against life, thus for what I have accepted and allowed within and as me, a war that is the manifestation of conflict and friction against myself as life, I forgive myself.

When and as I find myself limiting the life within and as me, as my own expression, manifest as friction and conflict within as back chat of judgement as mind, as thoughts, I stop and I breath and I slow myself down and I see realize and understand the values as the parts brought forward, attended to, and I cross reference the physical, practical reality, and ground the limitations back into what would withstand the test of time, to realize two or more in my name builds awareness and respect of that which is life in-formation which is  the physical, which is earth, the hearth, the heart, of life and thereby grounding myself here.

When and as I find myself beginning to doubt myself  I stop and I breath, and I slow myself down, and I ground myself here, to practical reality, to consider all things, and to take that which is good, to stand equal to what supports the expression of myself as life, which is the physical that is life in-formation which is to bring what I believed was a heaven as value judgements as mind in self interest, instead of in the value being life, to align myself equal and one to and as life, to pass through the eye of the needle which is the physical.

When and as I find myself becoming a movement of comparison, as the thoughts of good and bad in and as my mind, I stop and I breath and I slow myself down, and I look at the fear of what I have allowed as the so-called bad that I reject and resist  and I stop and I look to what I fear losing as a self definition of and as me and what i believe I will gain as a desire, and I forgive my accepted habit of value judgment, and I take the good and the bad judgments and realize my imagination of gloom and doom as fear of loss, and I ground myself here to express the practice of life as the physical in-formation, enjoying being in life expression as what I am as a physical being here.

When and as I find myself reacting as in becoming tense within and as me, I stop and I breath and I slow myself down, and I see, realize and understand that I am becoming conflict and friction within and as me, that is in effect emotional/feeling bodies built of ideas, as accumulated  thought, as judgments  of qualities that are from the physical world that I believe will cause a loss should I not be defined as them as I have allowed rent seeking practices as limited value self definition only,  as I react to the words of another as their constructions of belief taking this personally instead of seeing this for what it is, a projection of values only on a physical world as life in-formation, I stop, I breath I ground myself here, as I realize that nothing defines me but what I accept and allow, here.

When and as I find myself taking things personally, I stop and I breath and I reference, respect the practice of physical manifestation of life in-formation and I see, realize and understand an expression of and as me as what is best for all, as taking that which is good as that which is practical, measurable as relating and respecting life in-formation as the physical here, to stand as that which is supportive of life, where life is the value.

Day 133 What is actually here.

I commit myself to realizing that the only thing that is real is what is right here, physically right here in front of me.

I commit myself to seeing, realizing and understanding that no matter what is said, what is real, is what is right here in front of me.

I commit myself  to see, realize and understand that what I have allowed is as fear/separation consisting of emotions and feelings being thrown at me either accepted and allowed from within or without, emotions and feelings that bear no substance or witness to what is here.

I commit myself to seeing that when I am within and as a feeling or emotion, I am actually separate from what is here and thus allowing myself to exist within and as friction as conflict as unresolved oneness and equality to life, ready for combat within and as a judgment based on self interest as the mind, un-accepting of what is actually physically here as life, where the only real value is life here.

I commit myself to actually walking within myself as life, where nothing can be lost except what is not what is real.

I commit myself to seeing, realizing and understanding the extent to which I have allowed myself to exist in and as fear, where I am within separation from life, and within this separation, I have blinded myself to what is actually happening on this planet, I have blinded myself to actually realizing and seeing the consequences of a profit based system through becoming so occupied with my small bubble of life that I have allowed myself to become caught up in emotions and feelings that serve no purpose to life, as they are not aware of or supportive of life here.

I commit myself to seeing, realizing and understanding that the only thing I can walk, is what is actually physically here, and if I choose to actually see what is here, that this physical world is life, and thus within this, anything that does not support what is here, that does not take what is freely given by this earth and give it equally to all, to support what is here, is a crime and unacceptable, and that there is absolutely no argument that can stand against this, as life is the value and this is the absolute, period.

I commit myself to seeing, realizing, and understanding through word and focus that every breath I take, every word I speak is in support of all life, where I need not be righteous, as what is here is life, realizing that all emotions, thoughts and feelings are myself in separation from what is actually physically here.

I commit myself to breathing, into, one and equal to my emotions, thoughts and feelings, to bring myself here, to forgive opinions, ideas, wants and needs that are not what is actually supportive of life here.

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