Correcting cognitive dissonance A battle for the mind Day 764

The degree to which we resist to what is here, is equal to the degree in which we cling to storied information as idea, belief and opinion over practical reality.

What is practical reality but what gets things done, and mirrored in actions that work with form and function in ways that do no harm. Such means having a presence that is a focus on this reality, a physical one.

The sound that we make as the words we use, what we emit from our bodies as the instrument of the sound, either reflects presence and awareness, or the storied information of our desires wants and needs, meaning how much of this reality we ignore in the interests of what we believe will allow us to survive. Yet, we use this reality to survive, we cannot exist without it. To consider only our immediate survival without ensuring our actions care for ourselves, which is all things, is a punishment of the self. When we label an action and configure it with value judgements, to paint/sound a limited story we actually stagnate our presence into being separate, thereby making the picture of our belief larger than life and as such out of synch with this living reality.  Thus the busy-ness of chaos is done with limitation. It is a non-sustaining sound. With each spoken word that is not in consideration of all things, we diminish who and what we really are. In this all death of non-awareness is a form of suicide of the self. It is basically a math.

Not standing up to limited story, that is only a value made huge in self interest, as bringing forward a value as a quality as the nature of something is not necessarily a bad, as this is the self moving in a focus of what is here, to realize form and function, movement and expression of the physical reality.  Using label coupled with threat of being labeled as less, is a false morality.  The quality of separation is as the description suggests, it takes one’s focus away from the practical actions that respect who and what we are a physical states of being, as being would be. 

Inherent in my desire to be intellectual, manifest as wanting to collect information and knowledge is a truth as an understanding of realizing something must be known, understood, realized. REAL eyes. 

Placing myself into a consciousness of fixed knowledge and information, causes a separation from real focus on this practical living reality that is and must be physical, or formed, or manifest, or realized.

I think of all the karate movies, or stories about people who have mastered something, like having lessons with a master. They have no patience for excuse. They stand. I remember going to lessons and having a teacher simply say to me , ‘ Stop being weird.” One must get beyond the morality of being ‘ nice.’ It is really an illusion, it is to speak up about this reality in a steadfast way, even when emotional reactions scream their false reality.  People are ignorant but they are not stupid. Creating a mind consciousness of a conscious, sub conscious and unconscious mind and going to public school to practice for six hours a day being in the conscious mind only, is by design, accepted and allowed by the collective, the means of controlling information, and the movement into a suppression of one’s real capacity. After all, what is the main complaint about public schools that has been consistent since their onset? The loss of critical and creative thinking skill. Or the loss of presence in practical reality.  What do I hear from many employers? That this generation has little if no, practical skill.  That is being weird, because reality is right here in plain sight. 

If I were to say something like that, as has been said to me in lessons, and I started to cry, there should really be no sympathy beyond a certain point, because this is allowing the means of one’s loss of presence, as the only choice is to lend what brings one back to what is natural, as being present in this reality. the insights of being practical, removes the desire to cry, as a passive means of defense of one’s already accepted and allowed state of separation into a limited story of information that is in itself a self interest of idea, belief and opinion personified and made larger than reality. This is really what a master who accepts nothing other than what is presence in application is doing. They are accepting nothing other than real focus and presence in reality. Holding that is the only way to be. 

This is why depression is always a state of self interest, a state of not taking responsibility, a state of being dishonest. This is a state of not respecting life.  If this scares me, then I am in fear, and I am not present in this reality. 

Every word we speak reveals the degree to which we are being responsible as life, because we are only speaking what it is that is the focus of who and what we are, here. 

Why do I write these things out again and again and again? it is the work of, the play of, the process of and as re-scripting myself into realizing the patterns within, of self interest, of fear, and re-scripting myself equal and one to the real common sense of and as all of me, as who and what I am as a living being on a physical planet that is creation in expression, here. 

I become what I allow Day 757

Today I am going to look at self pity, that heavy and slow belief that one is not good enough.  It is composed of projecting an idea that one cannot do something. 

There are two points here as I see it, one is that one focuses on the lack, that something cannot be done, and another is that that focus denies one from problem solving. This means that one does not have enough information to walk what would be moving towards a goal that one has. 

Imagine if one is playing a piece of music, and does this. In this respect one simply stops playing, or gets lost if one is moving in a performance. One gets stuck. Obviously, one cannot go into self pity, because one cannot then focus on self pity and what one is doing. The self pity creates a lag that eventually catches up as it grows and takes the attention away, and then one gets lost. One is not focused on the real information.

I would want to hide this self pity. I would not want anyone to know. And, in this moment, I realize that when I expressed self pity, the outcome was usually not what removed the self pity. Looking at that self pity, and finding solution to remove it was the only way out. 

What self pity, the state of feeling sorry for one’s self, does is show us that we become what we allow. We become the math of what we allow within us. What we allow -as an idea, that is most likely one of resistance to more information - takes on a life of its own, it becomes a time-line of and as a conversation within, as a holding onto a belief. Just as a action or movement of being focused and moving in the presence of what is real and composed of as this physical world into consistent focus can build real understanding, This is understanding that is clear stable and able to be spoken about with clarity, A story line of self pity if not cleared becomes a series of movements directed by that self pity, which is a focus on a lack that perpetually seeks validation that never solves the problem and change of focus that would remove the self pity. One builds an entity in separation. One becomes an event horizon of movements in separation from being focused on reality. This leads to stagnation and behaviors of protecting that self pity, creating justifications for it. It has a sluggish processing quality to it as well.

In so many ways, this is why the physical, as the real and tangible world around us is a cool starting point, because it is what we all share that grounds us into what moves as creation, to realize what we allow within ourselves. It is to say that we need one another to have an equal starting point, which is why only allowing what does not harm is so important.

Also, what I notice, is that when one is in some emotional and feeling entity within as belief, there is this shakiness that actually does not feel like a constant, that does not feel stable. I ask myself what this is and realize that I can use this to understand what I am standing as, because what I have found is that this is a fear, it indicates where I am not at ease, where I am not being really focused on the practical to the point where I feel calm about looking at what is here and voicing my perspectives with ease, even if my insights in the moment are not what is best, I don’t worry about whether that insight is going to be accepted or not. Sometimes in such situations, I may bring an insight forward that is not ultimately accepted yet it triggers more insight leading to solutions. Also, I don’t always feel the need to input some perspective, which is okay too.  

That sense of shaking, is a cool red flag in what I am allowing within me. It is where I can slow down, realize any defense in the form of a thought of justification, or a physical resistance, and breath, check myself to see why I am not being stable, and at ease. It is where i can look to realize what i have allowed that has become a story within me, as a belief, and check what that movement is, as energy, indicating fear, indicating where I am not looking in practical presence of physical living, and remove a focus on a lack, and accept a focus on the practical reality. 

Thus, a un-quiet movement within myself, that can be sensed as a state of instability, is actually myself lacking being focused in and on reality. When I notice this, it means to slow down and look at what is practical. It means to slow down and look at what information I have allowed to define me, and to look at the means of the default overall ALSO being the means of the correction as taking the time to investigate what has caused this lack of focus and finding the means that direct this lack into greater certainty in action, and focus on that solution, Then it means to rescript that solution, to make it more real than the resonant story/voice/focus of insecurity.  I mean, this is the same action that one uses, as presence to move one’s self into greater understanding, it is how things are built. Nothing can direct one but what one accepts and allows. Thus each is responsible for what is within the self. 

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not see realize and understand any and all times I become a visibly sensorial presence of uncertainty within and as myself, that has the quality of a shaky feeling, a sense of a seemingly intangible vibration within me, and to not see, realize and understand that this is myself, as what i have accepted and allowed to define me, as a separation from being present and practical in this living reality, this physical reality, here.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand that this is myself not being focused and present here.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see realize and understand that within this I can recognize this, slow down, breath, call this out by name, and correct, which can be done by recognizing the name of the uncertainty causing me to shake, and finding the math, the word, the means of what focuses me here, in the practical, in the moment, of which, I have breath to allow me to remain present to see realize and understand what I am allowing within and as me, as this is understood as to how this all works, as allowing the fear to grow is the same that allows presence to remain here. 

When and as I find myself beginning to shake within and as me, I stop, I slow down and I breath, I stand firmly on the ground and focus here, not resisting what i have allowed, simply realizing it for what it is, and slowing down to be present in this reality as the physical, realizing that what I allow to exist is what I allow to build within me, that comes to define me, and to, within breath, to self correct through accepting the life that is me, one and the same, as the physical reality here. 

Day 699 How can this be?

I am again looking at my experience within playing the violin. I remember in my thirties, especially, when  had two small children and I spent time practicing. I realized through those years that if I practiced with a part of myself resolving problems, which is myself being in my mind, then when I went to perform I had a harder time focusing on what I was doing. I had to go back and practice the piece again, to clear the emotional memory attachments from the music.

This also taught me, slowly, that the way in which I focused, of which I had control, while I practiced, was very important. I could learn something faster than is believed if I focused without sorting some issue in my life out in the back of my mind while practicing.

It also has created a situation where I sort things out in the back of my mind in other moments in my life.  

I also realize when I am doing this if I pick something up to read. The reading process becomes more difficult because I have to constantly refocus myself.

I also realize that there are moments when I naturally understand this process of being caught in emotions in others, as I have moments in the past where I was very calm in the face of emotions, and did not react, and could calm a situation, making the intense emotions small, bringing them down to size. 

I think we all have this capacity. We just need to look. There are moments when each of us have done this, not reacted to emotion and prevented a situation from becoming charged with reactions of blame and spite, want and desire, fear and survival.  We can see that instead we were that practice of problem solving leading, or remaining in a sense of ease in the community of others.

Within this, I can see where the potential for this is always present, it is always here. This is because we live in a practical physical world. The steps to get things done, are always right in front of us. What separates is from that is what we believe as thoughts, as measures about things, in our minds, our memories.

I was reading this book about education. In the book the conversation went into how the present system is formed and the limitations inherent in the design in terms of allowing a natural potential to problem solve and create in children. I found myself reacting with the words in my head “ how can this be.” This, has a charge behind it, that is more myself from the past as a child, not comprehending that something could possibly exist. It also brings up a memory that has the same colored charge; when I gave birth to my children. In both, there is this color that has the words “ How can this be!, What is this? Why does this exist!”  I must have asked myself this question throughout my life.  

It was not until I had an extreme situation that I finally turned this question into “ This is not life, where is life?” “ This cannot be life, where is it?” and “ I have to become life, no matter what.” And also the words, “ I am going to lose everything, everyone, it is going to be hard, and yet it has to be done, there is no other choice.”

LOL, I notice in this moment, that that statement of ‘ this is going to be hard’ has created a sense of this being a burden. And yet, I started this blog remembering those moments where I made small an emotional storm. In those moments, where I did not react and was at ease,  it was not hard, it just was. In these moments I was calm, and applied myself naturally, without judgement. And, this is the way to practice an instrument. This was the state I had to stand within, to efficiently practice something. 

This means overall, that if I practice, or stand here as the practice of life, meaning to always ground myself and breath here, I can accumulate a perfect practice, becoming a momentum of problem solving, calling emotions,  and the feeling that justifies the emotion, by name and downsizing them into the practical.  We can all do this. It is who and what we really are, it is the potential inherent by design in what we are as physical beings on a physical world.

Day 693 The system mirrors what I accept and allow over time.

The night before last, I reacted to some information. I had to breath and slow down, reforming my  value judgement into a practical measure that realized an outcome that would be what is best for all. I have to realize what forms I am within, change and reorder over time. What appears as one way, can change in the future, and as long as things are supported under the current paradigm/structure, to remain in place.

I noticed the next evening, at about the same time, I suddenly felt uneasy, and I realized it was the residual emotions of the subsequent evening.

Also, the other day, while working in my yard, I noticed movements within me would rise and then settle. I had walked so many of these movements, calling them by name, that I could call them out and say no. This is not who and what I am, this is not what I will allow to define who and what I am here. 

Also, in talking with parents, I notice that I fear calling something by name, as though it is an effrontery to call something out. And yet, there are moment when I did so and it was accepted by the parents. Other times I have had parents shut down, through up their arms and say, it is not my responsibility or, “ I do not have the time.” Even here, I have told stories, lines of form that covey an outcome.  I have walked the means in detail. It is that line where I still blame myself for not getting the horse to drink the water.  And it is this point that sometimes I forget that it is not what I have said, or how I have said it, is that that it needs to be said again, as the reactions must clear, and the ground seen, to use a metaphor here. This is to remember, just as I remember myself from my own storms, to ground myself here, in the moment, remembering how what I allow as measure, can become me if I allow it, and that the same means is to place that awareness into continued cross reference with the reality around me and, even the forms created in ignorance of what is real, the physical. In each and every breath, nothing can define who and what I am. I, as life, can become master of myself. This is myself accepting the gift that is life.

I read this article this morning, and for me it not only described how our systems are formed over time, it also describes how we are formed over time. It describes the means to the end.

Then, in this article, we can realize the deception that really mirrors what we allow within ourselves in self interest, how we protect through ignorance, how we allow something in one situation and not in another. We can use a ‘ bad’ an accepted knowledge about something to take something out, and yet, ignore that same information when it does not suit our goals. In this instance, the system entities ignore depleted uranium  ( go to  7:00 minutes)  and yet arrest a man for having it on his presence.  And, how this reveals the reality of the substance, ignored by those we look to because they have a piece of paper that says they know. They do know, they choose to ignore it, because they fear losing their job over the children of this world.  Within this scenario and realizing how we work, which is obvious if we take the time to look, it becomes obvious that what we allow informs the system. The consequences will reach through one’s self interest of protection and self defense in allowing ignorance to keep that job. 

It is revealed that our water in America is now filled with toxins as a consequence of drugs and pesticides. This means that that which was ignored, is all around us. And our children are manifesting the consequences to the extent it si becoming an elephant in the room. Those things we ignore to keep that job, the accumulate, just as my judgements accumulate in my body, revisiting me in space and time, as a measure, as a belief that is not equal to what is best for all, what is a measure that is equal to the present moment, what is a measure that allow me to focus myself here, in clarity. 

Remember, as within, so without, as above, so below. We as physical beings are the pivotal point of life, as the physical is life information.  Real abundance is being present here, taking that which is good and does no harm. Everything else is a separation from life. 

Day 668 Walking on the eggshells of a scattered presence.

Walking on Eggshells.

Why do we say, “ Walking on eggshells”?  What are we in essence doing when we believe we are walking on eggshells?

I had a conversation with my sister this morning. We talked about family and the personalities in families. What is a personality? It is a measure of belief, idea and opinion. It is a composition of value judgements, of likes and dislikes. It is what we resist that persists. It is what we reject and accept in the order of defining ourselves here on this earth. It is what we are caught within in our thoughts that protect and defend the values we define ourselves as to survive in a world where everyone is doing this. It is the division of ourselves against what is all the same in each one of us; that we are physical bodies on a physical planet where we are as a starting point all the same.

If we are within a mind construct of value judgements about ourselves, about what we believe will allow us to survive, creating a personification, are we busy in that abstraction of reality that was not present when we were born or are we grounded, our heavens down to earth, in reality?

Can we remember what we did yesterday, or this time last year, in detail?

Or, are we so fractured and in our minds only, supporting and defending what we define ourselves as that we are like a scattered, fractionalized, metaphysical imagery, filled with emotional veils one could say is an imaginary projection of values as memories, scattering our focus from reality?

I have to compare this the the infamous Humpty Dumpty child’s story. No one, not any system, not any other person, not a king, or not the king’s men, can possibly put this scattered self back together again. What we in essence do within this game, because it is a game, is walk around our own accepted and allowed scattered selves; we walk around the scattered accepted and allowed mental/memory construct of limited values that we use to define who and what we are, to survive.

The values in themselves are not good or bad, it is the absolute holding onto them, or focus on them that creates a limitation as one protects and defends these values that creates a separation from practical reality. This is overall a form of dis-empowerment. It causes conflict and friction in being present and walking practical steps as how we actually get things done in this physical world. It is why we are in constant judgement, because no two scattered selves can connect completely, leaving us basking in self pity. Look at how we search for groups or affiliations that are equal in measure to our limited measure! Realize the conflicts in family are essentially one’s personality believing that my measure, my memory is not being understood because when one is only existing within that measure, stuck way up there in a limited construction of ideas that needs constant reformation, and thus constant attention and focus, one cannot be present in being aware of that scattered awareness from being present in what is real, which is the practice of being physical.

There is a reason why our children’s stories exist. There is a reason why someone once said, take that which is good and does no harm, two or more in my name is great strength, become the living word. This is a mathematical equation, it is the equation of being grounded and equal to the starting point of who and what we are before we build a memory, and that is the state of physical beingness on a physical planet called earth.

I ask the question in relation to this; Where are you? Are you in a metaphysical mind construct of limited values, in constant conflict and friction with your world, manifest as blame and spite, fear and disempowerment, or are you here, present, at ease, stable and grounded? 

Do you feel like you are constantly walking on egg shells when interacting with others that are the same as you?

Where are you, are you in your mind or are you seeing directly here, equal with what you are?

Are your thoughts, words and deeds considering in every breath, in every moment what it is that we really are, physical beingness on a physical planet? In other words, are you grounded in reality?

What would the world become if every one was grounded in reality, in what was real? 

Would this not create a world that no longer moved and was enslaved to a scattered and divided self stuck up there in an abstract construction that lost awareness of what real living means leading to so much of the conflicts we see in the world around us on national levels?

How is this related to my conversation this morning?

A family member was upset about another family member not meeting the other’s needs. I suggested to look at some of the personality traits within my family. One is that there is a tendency to become obsessed with groups, as in the group of people one is involved with takes over all of one’s time, to the point where there is no space for family- or less space to the point where having a family interaction is too much within the schedule.

I described how some of my siblings have this characteristic to a greater degree than others. And I suggested to look at how we can become this at times, as the degree to which this happens varies from one to another, and/or changes within certain periods in one’s life. Or, that some realize this and change over time, and others do not.

This was changing the perspective within looking at personality traits that have manifested over time. And, then, from here, to realize how I/each have done this, and to note that yes, it would be cool if there were more flexibility within this tendency to become obsessive about one’s group interactions outside of family. Neither is bad, yet a lack of flexibility within understanding this can cause conflict and judgement within the one wanting the other relationship to exist on a more even keel - so to speak.

My goal was to quiet the emotional reactions, to give some perspective as to how the personality can lack flexibility and how that lack has nothing to do with the person being rejected or slighted as a belief. Here, it is interesting how the mind will deny a perspective presented, through repeating the original measure/thought, and bring in all the past events where the same feeling was lived. This is a form of self validation yet also one looking at the measure one has accepted and allowed so it is not a ‘ bad’ in some respects, and in another sense it must be done because we have to look at what we are saying! Often the perspective from a more grounded awareness, that adds awareness to what one is restating/defending/placing one’s attention into,  has to be stated more than once - before the scattered egg shells of values can be grounded into a stable constant change in perspective that builds a greater understanding of how we work within what we have allowed as a scattered self in a memory/mind construction as our survival suits of limited values used to define who and what we are. This demands patience and calm, time and effort.

Bringing this back to myself, I have to ask my self all the time, “ Where am I?” am I in my mind focusing on a value that I defend and protect, a limited awareness, or am I grounded, equal to my breathing, present, here assessing reality, investigating the measure presented not fearing to upset a scattered self, a personality and instead of resisting that measure/value moving into acting in self interest, am I grounding that scattered value becoming equal to it for a moment, realizing it cannot define me and that I can assess those egg shells spread out and focused upon only, and instead seeing the patterns, using my awareness , my presence to evaluate the ‘ pieces’ and placing them in the context of what I really am as a physical beingness on a physical earth?  Yes, I can do this, we all can do this because we are life. It will take practice, it will take forgiveness, it will bring me/us back down to the value being life.

I suggested, after I assessed what motivated the behavior that was limiting, to realize that none of this is personal, none of this defines the value of the person rejected, because it is the personality as a belief system - and a person being involved in their life from which, yes they could create space and be more flexible -  moving in its value system to the point where that ‘ train’ of values does not slow down and realize space and time, as what is practical physical reality outside of that racing measure that is a scattered self that is not all ‘ bad.” 

Where am I? Am I lost in a mind consciousness of limited values constantly walking on eggshells in fear of upsetting an unstable and ungrounded presence as the same in another of what I myself have accepted and allowed not understanding how this all works, or am I living here, grounded in reality, where my presence has the ability to assess division/separation into conflict and friction as what a separation from what is real would create? Am I using what I am as life, able to critique and create within directing myself in respect of all things, as being focused on what is real, this actual real physical life that is me?

Where are you? Are you in your mind, a mind consciousness only, or are you here

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Day 618 Self Pity is Self Righteousness

Self pity is self righteousness.

At time I go into self-pity, which is really a form of self righteousness, because after I have believed something as been done to me, or something has not moved in he way I expect. I move into self pity, which is making what I believe to be a right, which is self righteousness. Simple.

It is to justify and make myself feel better. What it is not, is assessing a situation and looking at what is practical in this reality.

For example, we learn through practice and exposure, within this we build understanding that then allows us to become more self responsible in the practice of living, especially the ability to consider all things to ensure that no harm is done. This is right in front of us.

This involves no self pity what-so-ever. A cup is a cup.

When I allow myself to become righteous with self pity, I am adding value judgements, and justifying these judgements with what is blame and spite, which is projecting fault onto past actions because what I wanted was not immediately accepted. Also, to realize that if so many are moving as value judgements, which our present profit based system is the systemic manifestation of as what I as a human have allowed and is causing this, then reacting to a world of men hued with judgeMENt in self interest, as self pity within myself, is just more of the same.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to go into self pity.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand that self pity is self righteousness.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand that self righteousness is self interest.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand that in the order of respecting life, it is to take that which is good and does no harm, as this is the behavior of being equal and one to and as life here.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to fear losing some idea about myself, not seeing realizing and understanding that this is myself in stagnation and not being fluid as in being equal and one with and as life here, which is this physical world in expression as the formation of life here, a form that is interconnected, circulating and giving as the very building blocks of and as it exist in abundance here, as this is life.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to move into protection and self defense, as in constricting in and around my shoulder blades to fear standing equal and one with and as life here, within and as a belief that really has no substance, as it exists as energy as belief,  instead of remaining here, in the practice of assessing the actual real physical world here, to become the practice of the expression of life as myself here.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to take value judgement personally.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to personally make value judgements in justification of a belief that I am right and what does not accept me as what I believe as being wrong.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not see, realize and understand that I become the very measure of my belief, which means that I become the measure of my exposure, which means that I can learn, which means that if what I learn as what I accept to believe does not consider all things and take that which is good and does no harm in thought word and deed, then my limitations are the consequence of my beliefs that i have accepted and allowed, an act of self interest.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not see, realize and understand that within the practice of living here, it is to speak up in common sense, to stand in common sense, as I can learn, as I can investigate all things and take that which is good and does no harm, as this allows a constancy the is the same yesterday, today and tomorrow, and here, to remain within the script of this as how we accept and allowed what we become as what we accept, and to stand as solution in and as aligning with what is best for all, realizing how this process functions here.

When and as  I find myself moving into self pity which is righteousness, I stop and I breath and I slow myself down, and I see, realize and understand that there is nothing to protect and instead to stand as what I am as life as a physical being,  understanding that I become the measure of my exposure and what I accept and allowed as value judgement or as reactions to value judgements, that cannot define me unless I accept and allow them and to with every breath, cross reference how we learn and what we accept and what is the solution within and as what is best for all here.

When and as I find myself becoming an emotion of self pity, I stop and I breath and I slow myself down and I see, realize and understand through assessing what I have allowed as the measure of myself within as belief, and I cross reference my self interest within the real practice of living on a physical planet here, to realize in thought word and deed that which takes that which is best and does no harm here, to realize equality and oneness with and as life here, to build a world that step by step realizes the practical application of respect for the physical as this is life, and to do only that which does no harm, here.

Day 617 The measure of myself here.

The measure of myself

In dealing with people and presenting the measure of my understanding, I react. It is as though the patience to follow through, to let go and to move with the measure of what is here is not fluent. This means I am getting stuck on beliefs, opinions and ideas in and as the measure of my experience, the measure of my awareness. The gift of life is placed right in front of us, as this actual physical world, and I have abdicated that life in believing that what I think, as the composition of my thoughts as the measure of my experiences is more real. Really astounding- which is an interesting word, because it has the word sound imbedded within it, and the letters a and t . Like the alpha and the omega, where the a is the starting point as the alphabet, where I use the letters to create words to bet with others, to win, when the gift is already given, as the physical as life which is the value. And, the t is the choice, the crossroads of my choice, the apple of my eye, where I decide to respect the tree of life as the physical, or a belief in a good and or a bad in and as value judgements in and as the process of believing that one thing is bad and another is good which is creating a relationship to myself as my idea of myself as an accumulation of my experiences that I allow to begin to define me, as direct me, and then I, if I do not realize this, begin to blame the outside world because it is not moving as my experience manifest as my thoughts, created from comparison. Comparison is not necessarily a bad. When comparison is used in self interest and not realized as such, what is moved into is value judgements in defense of one’s experience instead of for what the qualities as the characteristics of what something is which is evident in the utility of the form. Thus, it is astounding that I sound my inner experience turned value judgement over remaining in equality to and with life, as the physical to sound in accord with this physical which is the means of life, the gift placed right here in front of us, as life would be and do, because this is how it would work in all practical common sense.

Thus, when I worry about rejection, or what someone might or might not say, I am separating myself from being here. I am not realizing the very gift of myself as life in practice in measure, in awareness of using this sense that reads/senses my experiential memory and directing this to practical physical reality and realizing that I can as this that can move from mind memory to here awareness is always right here in all ways, it is fluid, it is mutable, it can sense time and space, here, it can move with limitation, accept it, speak up, cross reference, double check, slow down and ground me back here, to as myself as life, realize the volume of practical reality - and the divisions and limited information of our present accepted and allowed system that dis-regards this in self interest, as this system is simply a reflection of the separation from using self as life to common sense physical reality as the formation of life. I am not going to go into this here, one can investigate this systemic form that is a smoke and mirrors show bullied through a media ( my god)  using the quality of human nature that takes in information and utilizes it- like being programmed- until it defines self, or, one could say, is believed to be a truth, and then the physical is forced into the limited construct, which overall is very destructive and cannot and will not work. Just think about how unpure the very air is in our world, and our waters, and realize that ripping apart the physical to fit into an idea about  what is more and what is less, is an abdication of self as life. Period. Can’t work. The sooner we realize this, the sooner we can change and equalize to life and work together to get this destruction cleaned up.  We have essentially allowed the majority of humans to serve the building of a pyramid. The moment a laborer is no longer useful they are turned out, and, as we can see, the laws are geared towards criminalizing the homeless- those who have been turned out. So, basically, if you as a human serve no purpose in the building of this pyramid, you are compost. lol Yes, that is basically what you are useful for. That idea of yourself as your mind, it is a sitcom that has become a program that is no longer wanted. Can you blame the pyramid? No, they are just another program, one that is in separation from life.  

Thus if I take the measure as another television, program, personally, I am fearing to not have my program, my television, my experience accepted. Yet, in understanding that I can change, because what I am within is only a measure of what I belief, I can reformat this and cross reference what might be the understanding of another and become a relationship to practical physical reality as my starting point and ground myself within all this to direct, with investigation of that which is good and does no harm, because nothing can define me unless I accept and allow it, and the physical is always right here, standing with me, always was, and always will be, as the physical is life information, it is the sound of what can withstand the test of time, it is the technology of life in formation.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to respect life.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to realize the value is myself as life equal and one to and as the physical here.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand that what I am within as a personification of my experience of reality as the physical need not define who and what I am here.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not let go, with every breath, in every moment, what I have accepted and allowed to define me, as value judgements of one thing being more than another, an act of comparison and competition which is ultimately an illusion, and myself in separation from myself as life, and for this I forgive myself for allowing myself to believe that what exists as myself within as a reflection which is a shadow of reality, defines who and what I am here.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to move into self pity, when and as I have no agreement with another in thought word and deed.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to slow down and ground myself here in practical reality, and to allow myself to not resist what is here, as what is here can change and move into understanding form and function as the practice of living in a physical manifestation of life as life would.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to become inferior to life, believing that what I construct as my experience as my inner selective value system, to be greater than life itself as life is physical and here, where I can live in the moment and become equal and one to and as it, to express myself life here, to focus here and direct myself in ways that do no harm.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to fear losing my experience as though in losing this I would not have any memory, like photo albums to show off my experiences to tout as what I  am, in fear that I would not survive in this system, when in all practical reality the value is being here, equal and one with and as life as the physical, because this is creation information, here.

When and as I find myself beginning to move into protection and self defense, which is myself constructing myself with in, as though I am grabbing onto my experience, memory that I have allowed to define me,  I stop and I breath, I slow myself down and I asses what measure I have accepted and allowed that is of energy, and I forgive that which I fear to lose, and I see, realize and understand that I am here, that the value is being physical as life, that what is within me can change and ground here, into and as what is of sound mind and as such can withstand the test of time, and become equal and one to the measure of space as the physical as life in expression that is eternal, and to then not fear change, as change is the process of transformation only, which is actually fun.

When and as I find myself moving into a stagnant self protective act of blame and spite, I stop and I breath and I slow myself down, and I cross reference my accepted and allowed measure as belief, that has embedded into the physical through repetition, and I forgive and change as direct in common sense of practical reality, to and towards that which is good and does no harm and becomes an expression of respect for all life as me in another life form here.

Day 610 Remember in School when you really just wanted to particpate?

http://www.aljazeera.com/blogs/middleeast/2015/03/wont-read-piece-syria-isil-iraq-isis-150317125900133.html

Remember in school when you really just wanted to participate? Remember wishing you could speak up and interact?

I think this is the real nature of men. I see it in my town, outside the local morning coffee and talk watering hole, a local store. Someone had a problem with their car, and the locals joined in to try and help. When we are in certain situations on the ground, everyone wants to join in and help, wants to participate. So that nature within remains.

Why do we not apply this to global news stories on the other side of the globe? Why do we not realize that we would not want what we read about happening to others, happening to us? And if we were there, would we not, just as we are inclined to do, at times, reach out and help? In our cities, people are inclined not to help, each a stranger to one another, there is a distance between our nature to help and actually reaching out that shows an accumulation of separation from our original natures. 

One thing I found in standing in front of a class of children is that they all want to participate. Even when there is resistance they look, specially when they have become comfortable, all their eyes move to the front of the room. They are ready.

As they move into the third grade they begin to form groups and borders build as to whom they will associate with and who they will not. By middle school, they build behaviors, to hide their lack, or to act superior when they have more of the means to participate in the instruction. I remember a boy who would get himself up every day and go to school, even though there was no parent doing this for him, He would only act up when he had to read. Somehow he could not get around this process, his embarrassment and fear were too great, and yet he managed to get himself to school, to be around people, to have community. 

In a small town, when  situations comes up directly, people will help one another. In a city, the borders are already up. I bet it takes work to keep this ignorance up, I mean, we are all aware of needing to get beyond the veil, so given that our behaviors of judgement are learned, and our behaviors of wanting to participate are natural, our veils of ignorance are created, accepted and allowed by us. We are the cause of our own judgements because we accept them, we allow them to accumulate and define our behavior, which means that our thoughts create who we are as they are value accumulations based on separating ourselves from ourselves, our real desire to participate.

Is this desire to participate that same initiative we have as young children to learn to walk? At this stage, we are not rejecting, we are learning about the world, using  our senses. How have we come to be a person who ignores what is happening in Syria in a practical physical way, as something that we would not want to be happening to us? How is it that the impetus for justifying such horrendous acts of violence from a country, the United State,  that has become a military arm for large corporations grabbing resources has been in any common sense way justified? These people in that land are just like us, they want to enjoy their families, and food, and community and nature and discover things about the world. That the cut of their clothes is different and something that had developed over time according to the climate and environment in which they live, does not define them as less than our own traditions based on our own climates and living environments. Even if we look at religion, they all follow the golden rule to treat others as one would want to be treated, which is a formula of valuing life, a starting point of realizing we are all the same, because the principle in doing unto another as one would have done unto one’s self, is the equation in word, of equality, which is realizing that the physical is life. The veil of separation is accumulated judgements creating borders composed of thoughts of that one thing “is bad” and another “is good”, and they are to hide a belief self accepted that has forgotten, or hides, that initial desire to participate and sense this physical life.

We have to stop allowing a media that feeds our own allowance of separation from ourselves as life. This media is only a reflection of what we have forgotten, which is our desire as life, to absorb and communicate and participate in life, to understand it and become more aware of the functional means of the world around us. If we are so caught up in defending our beliefs, we have separated from this sensing-of-the-physical-world ability, consequentially losing our own connection with life. If we stop, the media image-and-likeness-story will end, and the abuse of life in another country where there are people just like us will come to an end because it will no longer be accepted from the starting point of its conception which is each of us. We are the matrix that has created the conflicts that separate what exists on this earth that would life, which means to move in thought, word and deed within and as to take that which is good and does no harm.

Day 609 The limitations of our thoughts as knowledge and information only, and the suppression of our presence.

Accepting the form of sound structures and aligning them to the whole.

I live in a world of information given through words, as human language. Words describe, they paint pictures of things. They sound what is here, be it the physical or some  ideological metaphysical construct. We know this because we know that  when something  is repeated enough it comes to be believed as fact, even Machiavelli realized this, and politics uses this, in self interest. This is the use of limitation for personal gain, not telling the whole story, manipulating through this. The parts are not necessarily bad, just limited- which can become a violence to life because it is not considering the physical and respecting it. I mean, people can shatter glass with sound, so what we sound is our responsibility.

Structurally, as a human being, as a man, I am responsible for what I resonate, I am responsible to be present here, which means being self honest, which is to not act in my own self interest only. A limited form places pressure on the presence of a child, human being, and this causes suffering because it forces an innate conceptual ability as the physical of the physical into a narrow limited description. It is like forcing something that is too big into some very tiny jeans that are two sizes too small- you know, where one cannot even walk or move because the legs are so constricted!

And the difficult part is that what is presented cannot really be argued against, because it has a truth, but the truth is tied to an only this or that one sided conversation, with the threat of doom and gloom if one steps out of this, like a bullying through limitation, that then creates a morality of good and bad, as the limitations that do not tell the whole story limit and cause consequences, and since this is the only information that defines the self, change becomes a fear, because limitation has to stop its mis-take through limitation and correct which takes time. Like a train racing along, where one cannot see outside the window because the train is moving too fast, this is what a mind of limitation can become in practical application, not realizing its own demise.

I think of the platform of our media, where our so-called representatives present through a one way stream and announce limited information with this or that gloom and doom scenarios. Think terrorism and the  supposed extremist Islamic people, way out there on the other side of the world, where satellite pictures show there lights in the cities are dark. Makes me wonder what resources are there that the chaos is created for to sneak-under-the-radar/chaos-and-grab. And meanwhile, the children are suffering, as opportunity to grow is denied because someone believes they are god, some one believes they know how to social engineer a world that was already here, that functioned in symbiotic ways and managed to expand without some human social engineering through the suppression of presence, which is through the suppression of awareness, which is the suppression of life, that creative spark, that desire to absorb everything about the world, that child. Somehow, the suppression really makes no sense, because the plants and the animals that were here before man, all developed sensory abilities to expand the expression of life, so why suppress when the nature of life is to expand? This means that the answer is not to suppress the presence, as absorbing presence of men, but to allow it to flourish, to reach its full potential! 

So this starts with myself  which means to accept every form, be it physically existent or a metaphysical construct  of limited idea, or belief or opinion and transform that into equality and oneness with practical reality, to become what sounds life, as in what tells the whole story.  On a more global scale, this could be done with a more direct democracy; I mean with our technology, we could do direct voting, where people could even opt to have the vote be made public! This would be sound transparency! And, because this is how logistical fallacies could be cleared up! This is how we can realize how present we are in fact, as in realizing the limitation of the metaphysical story that is a pressure on us that causes suppression of this innate ability within as how much of the story of the whole one has.

There are farmers who realize that the health of their animals means that the animals must be outside on the land to live a humane existence, one that is of more benefit to the natural world- the health of the physical form, and not a shock in forcing the form of life into some scenario that does not fit the form. The consequences of humans allowing this is causing massive harm to life on earth, it is causing the presence of life to fade and the structure to weaken, just look at how the density of wood for building houses no longer has any real density, nor the nutrient density of our meats. 

Thus, placing our children into confined learning spaces that have no connection with the physical world, is placing pressure on the presence to fit into a limited story, a story that is not the whole story of which that presence as life within the child as the form, is beautifully designed to be and do. To suppress this causes massive suffering to the life within, the presence innate in the form as he child. It is a crime we all allow when we continue to accept this and / or expect a school to solve the behavioral problems of a child, because it is us not being present here and looking at the nature of the forms we have accepted and allowed as our public school systems and our belief systems, and our political systems. These systems mimic the very pressure on our presence that each accepted in fear of standing up as life.  The only choice is to move outside the box, and become present with what is real, as nature, as this actual real physical world

How do we remove the pressure done through limited story? We deconstruct our belief systems and reconstruct a system that regards all things as their inherent structural nature to change the present limitation into what allows that presence to reach full awareness of this physical life, because thus is where a child lives that life.

We remove the limited story, and ground ourselves back into the real story of what it means to live practically on a physical planet. A Basic Income Guarantee, a Living Income Guarantee would expedite this change into opening up the life presence that has been suppressed through limited stories because it removes the pressure of survival caused by two competing limited stories that have separated from their presence as life. We know all these limitations, the parts not “ bad” simply limited. These are the confines of our borders, our class system, our nationalities, our race delineations, because under the skin color and the national anthem, we are all the same, we have basic needs that support our natural sensibility as life, our presence to focus here, in reality, to enjoy being physical beingness on a physical planet.

Day 607 Mindfulness follow through into writing out thoughts, self forgiveness and corrective application.

I listened to a talk about a practice of ‘ mindfulness.’ This is where a person slows down and breathes as thoughts come up in their head. It is to realize that the thoughts coming up in one’s head are not who one is.

This was likened to a globe filled with water and something that looked like snow, one of those globes that one shakes and watches the snowy looking substance fly around, creating a mini snow storm in a bubble of glass that is what the mind is as thoughts. The act of breathing is the practice of ‘ mindfulness, “  to slow down and remain in the breath, until the snow settles, allowing one to ground oneself here and not react as the thoughts that are analogous to the flying snow. 

Evidently this works better with children up to the seventh grade, I believe. One practice is to take the index finger from one hand and trace the outline of the other hand while breathing, which is a practice of physically grounding oneself here, and thereby distracting one from the thoughts that may lead to an action based on the thought that when acted upon becomes what defines one, because one has to then face the consequences of one’s thoughts acted upon in real time. 

I have to ask the question here as to why this is not as successful with older students? Of course, prevention is the best cure, and teaching this act of slowing down and breathing , grounding oneself here, allows the space and time to realize that one’s thoughts must not be what one becomes in action.  If our minds working as thoughts become much like the globe analogy, why is this practice not as effective with older students? Do we over time become a constant snow storm, as the thoughts become the directive of who we are, when allowed to remain without being cleared overall? Meaning do our thoughts, when not cleared, become who we are? This would mean that humans are programmed by what they think.

Does our media teach us to think in ways that teach direction in this world that brings us no harm? And are we taught to chase false positives that do not tell the whole story, and lead us down a path where we chase the dream, the limitation of an only part of reality, to find that so many things were not considered and that dream becomes clouded by having to learn the details of living that were never taught?

Even this practice of mindfulness, though a good I thoroughly support, is not enough. That ‘ snow’ has to be cleaned up, because that snow is as snow does, it is crystalized thought, which is our beliefs, our opinions, and our ideas, accumulated from an environment that is in separation from practical living, from reality, That snow is - so to speak- the partial story of existence made huge, so much so that it becomes a square peg forced into a round whole, meaning that the partial story is a limited story, that is not equal to practical reality, and because it is not equal, it is too large to fit into the cells, it programs a human who does not fit into practical living and the consequences of this cause a human  body to act in mis-informed ways, causing a dis-association from actual living, leading to existential problems because of processing limited information that does not dignify the human, and thus suppresses the full potential of each man on the ground. Who are we to blame? We cannot blame anyone but ourselves because we accepted it.

Our schools and our lives have become a regiment of separation from practical reality. Our children do not have the time, and the space to slow down and ‘ read’ practical reality, thereby building an awareness within that has practical ability in living in common sense, which is being in communion with life as the physical. A sense is of hyper-sexuality, of wanting fame without understanding the steps necessary for development and the joy in building this development. They have no sense of nature, of where what they eat comes from and what happens with the ingredients as the waste from what we eat moves into the physical natural world around us. They are not taught that they have a natural learning ability, and that learning the words and the numbers is simply learning a code of communication that is how humans communicate, and that one must have the exposure to this, and the time, the space to understand it, and that we can all learn this if given the time, and that therefor, we are all the same in how we learn, but different in our expressions as some have an interest in this, and others in that.

The consequence of this is a manifested financial system mirroring this state within, that rewards only a few and punishes lack without addressing what is already known, that humans become what they are exposed to. This understanding that humans become what they are exposed to is used in self interest for a few as well, to maintain power and control. And this control is an illusion, because it abuses life to play a game that is in itself a separation from life. So, the few are the extremes that model what each is allowing as thoughts. One could say the few are simply protecting themselves from those who have accepted and allowed thoughts that are oneself not investigating and looking at the whole and the parts. The means to realize this are here, always right in front of each of us, so the blame for what we allow and act upon, is within ourselves.

Our thoughts are what we believe, and if our thoughts are not considerate of all things, taking the time to investigate reality, then what actions we take based on what we have accepted ourselves to believe, are the fault of what we have allowed ourselves to see and to not see, because we chose self interest over life. The other extreme end of this, are those who are starving as a consequence of this system that mimics this self interest before life. If one owns a car, and has a table and bed to sleep in, then one is the elite of this world. One has the responsibility to breath, to slow down and look at one’s thoughts and how they were formed and the value judgements they contain, and to forgive them and self correct through writing, self forgiveness and corrective application, as this is how that snow in the bubble of our minds, our buy-bill , can be cleared and structurally grounded back into life here, as this earth is life information. In other words, the water in that bubble, must be clear, because this is a clear memory, this is a mind as thoughts that sees directly here, and thus is equal and one to life as this is respecting the physical world that is the means of life.

Day 601 The Worry for Security

So much of my time during the years with my children was worry about remaining stable and being secure. This was in tandem with watching my children. From the time my second child was seven this was a large part of what I worried about. Even when my children were really small and my husband and I decided that remaining with them during the day was what would be best, I remember having thoughts that it unnerved me not to have job, not to be making sure I was secure, because I equated security with money, and felt that depending on someone else made me vulnerable. I even remember thinking to myself to calm me down, “ it is okay.”

Because of this, I have this chatter in my mind where I am constantly thinking about being secure, that I cannot depend on the system, or my family, or anyone but myself. Not that this desire to be responsible is a bad, but the occupation of the whole desire as thoughts in and as my mind, as wanting to have the means to be stable. Now that I am older and my children are out of the house, I include them.

If I allow this to be so much of what motivates/occupies me, and/or what I find I am creating pictures of in my mind as some event that might come along and disturb this, and/or what I feel would be the scenario where I am in that kind of security, I am not actually here fully. And the past as this fear, remains with me, and I find I move into the imagination as it, missing what people say at times, or putting things off because with all this chatter going on, I have abdicated my own focus here, and stopping this inner drama appears to be too difficult. Walking self forgiveness has helped quiet this storm, investigating our present sold system structures  as our government and our financial system, has helped because knowing the structure of here, and investigating how anything works gives clarity into necessary actions.  Also, in becoming more practically clear, the backchat becomes smaller, yet I notice it still exists, I just pull it back and direct because in the end I can only live here, as this is a physical form of creation, which is simply common sense. That what is real is hidden right in front of us, is in itself a red flag. If we look at so many of our systemic beliefs, the physical is demonized in so may ways. This is us rejecting life. And yet, that which is right in front of us, reveals itself in every way, showing the way forward. Unless we believe that the voices in our minds define us, and/or are real, not stopping to look at what thought is in reality overall. It really is like an echo, a susurrus occupation in the background of fear, of rejection of being here with creation.

So, I forgive the ideas, beliefs and opinions in and as my mind, I write them out, then correct them to focus myself here directly, to become one and equal with and as creation as the physical here. Then can I see here, pass through the eye of the needle and remain stable with physical reality, being directive through moving as what does no harm.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to worry.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to separate from myself as life as my common sense, and to allow the voices in and as my mind to be what I am here, instead of standing here, equal and one with and as the physical.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to believe that I must have a job, where I earn money to feel secure and stable in a physical world where the physical is the life I am as me here.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to occupy my life with and as back chat of fear in not being stable because I do not have a job and as such will not have the money as the means to remain stable here, not stopping to question why money has come to determine life on earth, when the value is being physical and as such respecting and moving and building a system that respects simple existence as allowing the full potential of life as the physical flourish which means room to change and transform, to expedite and develop creation which would allow all the focus that is the fulfillment of purpose in and as creation here.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to have a voice in and as my mind of “ it is okay” to placate the fear that I feel which overall is an act of ignoring the whole, as the part that is me as a human being in creation as what I am here on earth.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see realize and understand immediately those moments where I separate myself from here, existing as knowledge and information as idea  only without practical application, and as such accepted this format without asking questions,  abdicating myself as life, as my common sense.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand that as this, I become a physical movement within and as me as energy as thoughts as memories, that separates the focus of me, as my common sense from here.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to become inferior to life here.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand that in this separation I allowed this inner back chat to define me, instead of remaining here, equal and one to and with the physical world, creation.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to imagine security

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to imagine security being taken away.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not see, realize and understand that in imagining security or the lack thereof, I am in essence not here, looking here directly with and as that which is the value, which is being here, which is physical.

I forgive myself for not seeing realizing and understanding the lack of ease as me this separation creates, which is a focus on limitation only and not a community with creation as this physical world as this earth here, as this is where solutions exists because this is myself here, as my own common sense of reality that is me.

I forgive myself for not seeing realizing and understanding how this separation confines me, binds me, holds me in a very narrow view of that which is the means of me as the physical here.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand how this inversion of and as me, builds a resistance to seeing directly here as what I am as a physical being as life.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand how the tension of this stagnates me, not allowing the ease of and as me as my common sense, to accept what is here as the physical, being and expressing with gratitude as the principle of life, which is the principle of equality and oneness, the principle of take that which is good and does no harm, the principle of give as one would receive, the principle of respecting the means and the ways of life being which is the physical.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to reject what is in front of me, as I have allowed myself to be tied to ideas, beliefs and opinions, instead of remaining here, in practical application of physical reality being creation.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to build ivory towers as ideas, beliefs and opinions in and as my mind, racing towards this imagination, unequal to here, as my value system as ideas was done in self interest without consideration of life and the racing to and towards these ideas ignored the practice of real living.

When and as I find myself becoming secretive with and as myself I stop and I breath and I slow myself down to see, realize and understand what I am hiding in and as the ideas, beliefs, opinions, fantasies,  imaginations, back chat, desires, wants and needs within and as my mind, 

When and as I find myself no longer hearing what is here in front of me, I stop and I breath and I slow myself down, and I bring myself here, grounding myself in the physical here.

When and as I find myself moving into worry, I stop and I breath and I slow myself down, and I assess, investigate, examine, step out of time, evaluate what is before me, taking that which is good and does no harm, to become at ease, with and as breath here.

When and as I find myself  racing as in not hearing what has been said, or losing patience, or judging the appearance of another, even as their words, I stop and I breath and i slow myself down and I see, realize and understand that I can only hear here, equal and one as the physical, directing in ways that do no harm, taking that which is good, here.

When and as move into am imagination of gloom and doom, I stop and i breath and I slow myself down and I ground myself here, as it is only here that i can step, that i can crawl, that i can change, that i can transform, that I can become equal and one with creation and as such  see to stand equal and one with and as what is me as life information, here.

When and as I find myself feeling overwhelmed with here, as the limitations, within and without, I stop and I breathe and I slow myself down, and I assess, evaluate, common sense physical, practical reality here, to stand as what is best for all, respecting life as the physical that is me here.

When and as I find myself whirl-reasoning in and as my mind, I stop and I breath and I slow myself down, and I ground myself here, seeing the physical world directly, assessing practical applications that direct in ways that do no harm, and consider all things, to stand equal and one with and life here as this is me accepting the breathe of creation.