Day 106 A Parent setting conditions

I forgive myself self as a parent to create special days, such as holidays and birthdays where the value was placed on a past event and not on what is actually physically here, valuing life as what is real and not some past event.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand that there is no such thing as the “right moment” to talk about what has been accepted and allowed within and as this world.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand that in placing what is existing within and as this world into a “right time and a bad time” I am existing within a character in separation from life, as I am placing value on an event from the past and not  existing with what is actually physically here, interacting with what is real here, as this physical world.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to exist in and as a memory in allowing past days to be celebrated when there are children and people and animals suffering on this planet, as this system is not supporting life and therefor must change.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand that when I suggest that there are moments when things should not be talked about, I am abdicating my self responsibility as life, that until all this world is cared for and valued as the life that it is, there is actually nothing to talk about other than this.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand that life cannot be celebrated for real, until all that is of this earth is cared for and given a dignified life.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand that in teaching my children there are conditions on what is talked about in relation to social gatherings, I am suggesting that my children not look at what is being accepted and allowed within this world.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand that in placing conditions on when one talks about what exists within this world I am teaching children to not stand up about obvious abuse in and as this world, and within this that  supporting family is more important than supporting life.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to make a relationship to a past  more important that what is actually physically here, living and breathing as being here, in and as the value of what is actually here, as being life.

I forgive myself as a parent to have regarded birthdays and holidays as having a value never considering the life on this earth as being what is here, real, in this moment, living and actually one and equal to me as life.

I forgive myself as a parent for not having taught my children that the value is life, and as such taught my children to stand up for life no matter what, no matter the social situation.

I commit myself to revealing unacceptable practices allowed by men regardless of the social gathering, as the abuse existent is unacceptable,  and to not realize this in every moment, no matter what, is to not realize the value is life.

I commit myself being the love for my neighbor as myself, in and as standing up for life, speaking up, no matter what, that there is no other choice but that what must be cared for is all that is of this earth as life, as life is the value, any other choice is no different than the actions of Hitler.

I commit myself to standing for life, as all as one as equal, to become the living word.

Day 72 Rolling with to transpose role play

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to feel that dealing with the emotions of others is tedious and difficult.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to  hide myself from others in fear of being myself as I fear facing what i have accepted and allowed inside and I fear facing and standing up to the same emotions and feelings in others, not realizing that these emotions and feelings are based on beliefs , opinions and ideas that are insubstantial, meaning, that emotions, thoughts and feelings, are devoid of common sense of the totality of self as life and this physical world, and thus the directive is to become aware of the totality of this physical world and how this physical world in fact works, as what we have on this earth at present is not a working, living, breathing earth, as can be seen with a minimal amount of investigation, this world is slowly but surely becoming devoid of life.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to realize that any amount of self pity is not going to change this world.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand that any amount of blame is not going to change this world.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand that any amount of feeling tired is going to change this world.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to realize that the moment I feel a resistance it is the accumulated ideas, beliefs and opinions, I have accepted and allowed, resonant within that are myself not actually being here one and equal with this physical world in and as breath, directing myself as what is best for all.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to believe that there is something that I can lose,  not realizing that the value is the moment here, in and as and with this physical world, and that I can only be here in this moment, which appears to be slow and inconsequential in relation to all the incessant rantings of my mind that I have existed as and allowed, that never seem to go anywhere and are the cause as I have made them huge and not realized the mind as  a collection of imitations of what is real, what is here, and thus an imitation is not the real thing.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to allow the mind to intimidate me.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to allow emotions, thoughts and feelings to intimidate me.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to believe that the intimidation of the mind is real.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to believe  that the mind is my in time date that I must dress myself up for and serve.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to realize that the mind is always dated as it is based on the past, and thus is not what is actually here and present, thus I cannot prepare myself for what is here, as what needs development is a common sense of this physical world and how this physical world works to communicate with what is actually here.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand that no amount of knowledge and information collected and absorbed will enable me to utilize common sense, as common sense requires that I be able to “read” this physical world and not some ledger of filed information in and as my mind.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not realize that in utilizing breath I bring myself into this physical world, and any deviation from breath, any non awareness of breath, is a moment where I have separated myself into and as my mind.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see realize and understand that practicing being physically aware in and as breath in common sense of this physical world is going to take practice, always bringing myself back within the principle of what is best for all, without a moment of fear of loss, as there is nothing to lose but oneself in and as the mind, lost in beliefs, opinions and ideas.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand that my mind will take what is kept as knowledge and information and create a fantasy story as entertainment.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not realize when I begin to do this folding of ideas, beliefs,  I have breath and the ability of myself to direct myself , to say stop and to realize myself here with what is real, this physical world.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to realize that the emotions and feelings and beliefs of others are one and the same, the existence of a story as what is real within another, unresolved, able to be resolved and cleared as what is directive within the principle of what is best for all, done with patience and  no expectation of gain, as the  only real gain is to be the directive principle of what is best for all.

I forgive myself for  not allowing and accepting myself to realize that sympathy has a place, yet is not the end of the story, as it is a path of emotional, feeling, sameness in each and every human that must be directed in common sense towards a world that supports all life, where what must be understood is how this physical world works in fact, how the human physical body works in fact.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to realize that emotions , feelings and thoughts can only “touch “ me, meaning affect me, if I allow and accept this.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand that as myself in and as breath, as a note of life, here, I am able to transpose myself into and as and with the key in and as the principle of oneness in equality, as what is best for all, beginning with myself here, with every step i take I become the breath of life as all as one as equal here and forgive all ideas, beliefs and opinions of believing myself to be special, as the real value is life.

I commit myself to realizing there is nothing to fear in emotions, thoughts and feelings, except that I allow and accept them as being fixed and unchangeable.

I commit myself to stopping all thoughts, as thoughts are of the mind and the mind is like a beacon of spite and blame and imaginings all geared ( a gear/a mechanism) of fulfilling the limited design of the present hubris of man believing itself to be more than this physical world, believing this world is in the service of men, when men are an expression of life one and equal to what is here as life, as this earth is an expression of life, and this is the value.

I commit myself to realizing that this earth is of a technology beyond anything the human has achieved, and that the real being of self as life is to become one and equal to this physical world.

I commit myself to showing that the division and conquest of the resources of this earth is working against this physical world and placing this physical world into limited designs that are not supporting the life that is here as what is the support as it is what we are.

I commit myself to realizing that all my wants , needs and desires are based on a belief that I am in lack and therefor in want, need and desire, when I am here as life, where all that I need is given to myself freely, as myself here as the physical, just as this earth gives freely, and that is is only the behavior of men, lost in mind, that divide and separate this physical world into a system that creates lack instead of support.

I commit myself to realizing that I can roll with life, one and equal instead of becoming a role of infinite repetition suckling relationships  that do not consider the whole as this physical world, where the “relationship” is a means to transpose the story into and as, within the directive principle, what is rolling with what is best for all.

Creation's Journey to Life

Earth's Journey to Life

Understand your mind.

Day 60 I forgive myself for allowing and accepting my self to believe in love.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to believe in love.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to believe that I love someone when this feeling passes and I go on to love someone else.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not see realize and understand that love is a feeling and that feelings change, like the wind, they come and they go, and thus, are not constant, so I need to ask my self, “where is the constant?”

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not see realize and understand that love is like the bling projected and flashed all over the world by advertisers where, just as the advertising must be constant to keep the bling going, so is love just something that is not a constant as what is real, as it must use resource to keep itself going.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to realize that all that advertising for something that needs constant broadcast, wastes the resources of the earth, trees for paper, coal for electricity, inks from rocks and plants, glass for the bulbs to projects the blingy lights, plastic that uses the raw crude oils from under the earth’s service - where we don’t even know what the taking of these pools of oil from the earth does to this planet, and all for a feeling that is not constant, and thus not real, as what is real is strong, constant, is directed, does not waste, does not abuse, thus what is allowed on this earth is not life, is not what is real, as the number of people starving indicates, as the number of animals not allowed to be the expression of their physical bodies, where we did not create these forms and we, the human, ignore this physical fact and do not respect this physical world.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see that like in the TV series “ V “ where the head alien gives the people the feel good “wave” of “bliss,” so is love this, a feeling that comes and goes and becomes a drug- this “special power” attribute that is not a special power but only a control mechanism- an enslaving device, the creation of a drug addict, where the humans all turn this ability into a god - like quality and make this an IDOL, where making an idol of something separate from self, is self ignoring self as life, and what houses self is a physical body, the tool to become life, the gift, the real gift, thus would a system of control as what capitalism exists as take what is real, what is right in front of each and every one of us, and direct attention away from what is right here, and what is real, the physical.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not realize that in following advertising I am in essence following, being lead by a projected bling and ignoring my self here, in and as my human physical body, that which is real.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to realize that this has been going on for generations, and thus I have known nothing else, so this idea, this idol of this bling of love is all that I know and that it is difficult for me to imagine - as all I have been taught to do is imagine to keep me following bling -  that anything else exists, but if I stop, and I breath, I use that which is real, my human physical body, and I stop and I breath, and I stop and I breath, and I speak self forgiveness for 21 days, andI breath, and I look to the space between breaths I will begin to see the bling of love, the bling of desire to be a feeling that is like a drug.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not realize that the amount of abuse that exists on this earth means that something is  not working on this earth, that something is out of whack with this earth, and that following the desteni process of using breath and self forgiveness and corrective application will begin to stop the bling imagination that I have accepted and allowed as what is real, where I can begin to equalize myself with this physical world and become what is constant which is life, here.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to realize that when I cry at the supposed loss of a lover, what i am really crying for is myself, this that is what I have always wanted, but there has been nothing here since the day I was born to direct me within self development as life, as a profit based system is only interested in control and uses the making and projecting of false idols in the form of feelings as love to blind me as self from myself, and since I do not have the vocabulary and the means to know what I am longing for I place this longing onto false - as all that is presented- idols for the few who profit to maintain control, thus when I cry, I am crying for my self, as what I really desire is myself as life, one and equal, as all as one as equal, as life, here.

                                                                        Give as you would like to receive 

I commit myself to realizing that I am valued.

I commit myself to seeing and understanding that I am life, and thus as life I am one and equal to all that is on this earth, that is life manifest as the physical.

I commit myself to realizing that the physical world is life, that it is being here in/on/with this  physical world is what is real, as the false idol of love - a control mechanism - cannot exist without the physical, uses the physical for its broadcast and thus what is real is that which the false idol stands upon.

I commit myself to standing one and equal to this physical world, to my human physical body, and to clean up this false idol plastered all over this earth so that the children to come can stand as themselves and never ever have to cry as I have in an unknown longing for themselves as life, thus do I commit myself to supporting and Equal Money System, where life can begin, where if this were to be implemented it would not take to long to begin to clean up this world, to open the cages of the confined animals, so that they may walk in the sun and feel this physical world, as this is what is real.

I commit myself to self forgiveness, writing, and self corrective application to expose the false god as idol of love, this false idol that protects the few who use this to control the resources of this earth, they themselves living a life of being a control mechanism and thus they themselves never having lived life, they who are not learning to become one and equal to this physical world, evident that they die of disease, an aging human physical body and thus have never lived.

I commit myself to breath, to really listening to people, to the words of people, to hear within the words of people, and the cries of the animals that all that is here, confined, enslaved to the false idol/bliss of love, are in fact looking for themselves as life, here, to become one and equal to what is real, this physical world.

Equal Money System

It is only me