Changing the goal post Manipulation with words Day 793

Two things I carry with me, as a measure, as a tool, to help me to help myself, are the terms, the words, for a moment as a tool so-to-speak,  ad hominem and hyperbole.

An example of ‘ ad hominem’ is another way to reveal a change in the ‘ goal post.’  I was talking with a man about politics. Suddenly, he says to me. “ You are a political philosopher.”  The whole fabric of the conversation changed, even put me off balance, because it is actually natural to flow with things, to want to get along, to ATTEND to what another says and brings forward.  It is like the whole fabric and direction of the conversation changed. It was a sudden change in dimension, really...  We were, speaking , sharing perspective, bringing forth things to substantiate our perspectives, telling stories of information ( actually could relate things even in political arguments to local real-live stories more - something to check within myself here! lol).  The sudden change in attention in space and time, went onto me as an object, being a certain way, as having a  “ political philosophy.”   This is a sudden change in the goal, in the direction of the conversation. It is from looking at certain issues, and spinning it around onto me the object, giving me  a general label, and coloring it is a ‘ vague’ yet positive sounding term, as the word “philosopher.’ I remember hearing/seeing/noticing, a sudden shudder through the person’s body at the same time. I am still too slow, in taking all the ‘ music’ the ‘ geometry’ in around me, that I do not always respond. Even if, the very terms used, were of distraction, because this is really what this is, to change tracts. Which, is what changing the goal post is and does. It is used in conversations all the time, as we play with words, and do geometry with and as the sounds as the words we speak.  It is really just like being in an orchestra! It is orchestrated! it is formulaic! Where do we learn this from? We get this from our environment!  Remember we all have a natural learning ability, an absorbent ability. It is why advertising is so effective.  

Yet, this is my point. What is advertising for some, is. evidently ‘ attention seeking’ for others! Amazing how one can manipulate with words, changing goal posts, in a quantum way, with sound, creating a geometry as a system on earth, ignoring the total fabric of this reality.  it is a form of fear mongering!  It would be like taking away most of the letters of the alphabet and telling people they could only use every other letter, that using certain letters was “ attention seeking’ where another entity could use those letters, and that would be called advertising.  This is how absurd this blog I read is and does, and how one can manipulate with sound, as words, and how it is all a math, a geometry, a song, a fabric. In the word communication is the sound bite ‘ muni’ which can mean a wall, or to fabricate.  Our english words contain little ‘ zip’ filed terms, than come together to compose a new sound.  It is a reflection of what men are capable of, because we are capable of working with sound, and, just as one practices a movement, improves that movement, into no longer having to think about it, that movement gets quicker, and in some dimensional ways, smaller/shorter, and then is attached to other sounds, and thus we have words, that change over time, where meaning can become hidden unless one has the same practice and recognition, as the words. If one is ONLY focused on the words, never having the opportunity to know the words really really well, to the point where one need not think about them, one can open one’s awareness to realizing, lol, the geometry of movement, as words, and in others around one, because this is how awesome each of us, as instruments of the orchestra, really are! I would not call sharing this perspective ‘ attention seeking.’ I would call it natural. The means of doing such, is speaking up, every where, on the internet, in social groups, in blogs and vlogs. Some could say, it is a form of advertising, yet in effect, what is advertising but communication.  It is only fear, and lack of real processing ability ( which is natural)  that warps the very fabric of what is here, as us, as instruments, as life. 

What happens when one gets caught in a false web of ‘ sound’ and embraces, as resonates, that sound construct is a loss of spatial ability in reality. Meaning, just as I, for a moment,  lost my ‘ train of thought” as words as perspective, when the goal post was changed in a moment, through words as ‘ you are a political philospher,’  and my slowing down sense as a morality, of and as, wanting to attend to the other’s words, and everything else, as myself and the very geometry of the reality around me,  so was I at a loss in ‘ reading’ the sounds/forms/movements around me. My processing was not up to speed, as I have not been taught this, which is incredible, because it is the very nature of who and what I am as a human being!  I mean, this is what happens when one learns an instrument and performs with an orchestra! Why are we not taught this in school for example? Why are we sitting in boxes, memorizing a set body of information, that is really a very limited scaffold of information, that one could say, is tantamount to using only half the alphabet!?  Some may think this comparison is absurd, yet it is probably not absurd enough! lol

It is like, we are being or allowing, ourselves to be made into a square, when there is a whole circle out there, called earth, that is of a geometry far beyond that very limited form. And we wonder why we lose out spatial ability, as it becoming more difficult to drive at night as we age, or to deal with traffic, as we age. Or, it becomes increasingly harder to communicate, which is to share, ‘ advertise’ our perspective, with others.  Why we forget our new homes, our new kitchens and suddenly move in our new kitchen as though we were in another ‘ past’ time, suddenly moving as though we were in that kitchen of the past! It is why we want to tell the same stories again and again and again, as we age, as this is validating our own accepted and allowed geometry that we use to define us, this needing constant attention, because to step out of that is to suddenly realize there is a whole circle out there, filled with shapes and sounds and movements that are who and what we really are. To change, and communicate as life, the life that is this reality, a sudden change of one’s goal post’ would appear to be an incredible interruption, and one would feel like one was falling, just as the tiny moment, when one realizes one is no longer in that old kitchen! A sense of loss of space and time. What if one could never lose that sense of ‘ life’ and flowed with and as it, which is the real capacity of one as life?  What if one, could attend to creation, as the very fabric of this incredible creation, and express with and as it, here, working together. communicating life? 

In some ways, what I do here, in this blog, is  an a lie tic, is analytic.  It is where, I myself have become such a response, as a reaction to a ‘ lie’ which is really just a limitation, moving to synchronize myself out of having, as an analogy, only used half or so, of the alphabet as a means of communication, of and as attending to, and spent time as reaction in advertising my own protection and defense, as a character, robot, form(ulaic), instead of  responding to the quest, embracing all of the geometry of here, as who and what I am.  It is a form of protection, after all, to analyze the tic, the geometry of this reality, and what is limited and imposed upon it.  Who and what I really am, is probably here, and always has been, it is my own attention seeking, into limited forms, that separate me from myself  that I have accepted and allowed. I am that famous humpty dumpty, in many ways, this which is eventually noticed in the space of one’s life.  It is like a shill, composed of sound, that is like a shield, of protection, pulling one’s self through limited geometry as practiced polarized beliefs, that has no real structural resonance with reality, with creation- as myself not being in synch with creation.  What is cool, is that I can embrace, as move to discover my own protections and question my own geometry, to make mis-takes, to  recompose myself as allow myself to question myself, and see that there is really nothing to lose, or gain, as what is awesome is already here, it is up to me to accept and allow who and what I really am as life. 

Thus, ad hominem, is changing to goal post, creating a label, attaching it to an object, and adding a color of hyperbolized, or inflamed value judgements, warping space and time.  It is using a natural communication system as what men do, and calling it advertising in one area, and attention seeking in another, meanwhile, it could still remain under the heading/framework/umbrella of and as sharing perspective, focusing on dimensions of reality for a moment, to clarify and define, to understand details within the greater whole.   In all, words can be used in manipulative ways, building stories through comparison, constructed connections on a page of and as words spoken and written using inflammatory language, polarizing into narrow means. If one is not stable within one’s self, one can be tossed like a wave on a shore. Yet, that means as that shore, is always there, if one simply moves with it, and becomes aware of the alphabet of creation as the cells that are the pro-biology of life all around us, that are who and what we are.  

Thank you for reading. 

Day 561 The CARtelTOON of Profit.

The CARtel TOON

Sometimes I become arrogant when I see images as symbols used a definitions to direct us, the program of directives presented via media and embossed on our currency and in our corporate logos that I forget how much I am a product of that which I believe I am not a part of as my very behavior of arrogance instead of immediate self realization and corrective measure into solution. The values promoted in media, that we think are not programming us but in effect are within a slow measure overtime  within generations,  passed down to become the morality as us - a lie by omission turned into a truth using an equation of dimensional values that consist of a mix of subjective and objective, personal and collective values, the practical forgotten.

One example I encountered yesterday in a video, it was about how women have come to believe that it is necessary to shave our legs. Evidently, before WWll women did not shave their legs, it was only with the effects of advertising that follows the law of profit before life, that this was embossed within as a value that one must follow or be threatened with being considered weird, whereas before this, it was considered as what it is, simply hair.

I did not shave my legs until I was well into high school. I was performing on stage and was told by a family member that the hair on my legs could be seen and that I should shave this. I became embarrassed and shaved my legs. Ironically, much like the facial hair of a man, the hair on my legs which was not heavy, began to come in with more thickness, and I have ended up shaving my legs all my life. And as the video states, this process of shaving is wasting resources that were unnecessary to waste. And all to suit a belief promoted that legs should be shaved, should look shiny and smooth like a cartoon image, which becomes a value believed to be what we should appear as that has no common sense awareness of physical reality. The same has happened in variation using  inverted measures with how we promote what cattle is, based on a past idea in nature and what cattle actually lives, as a cow is now confined to a box of torture through the reality of an existence of suppression of the nature of that form of which it is becoming a crime to speak up about, all because we collectively are allowing an image to become our reality more than actual practice, and the rent seekers do not like reality being exposed because it cuts into their welfare payments. And the rest of us allow this because we believe it is positive to have images based on ideas as being the means of change when change happens on a physical level through practical movement. So, in effect if we shave our legs we are the effects in measure of advertising. We walk the action, we support the separation, we support the waste, we fear the consequence of judgement, just as I did. Thus, we the people, the collective have only the choice to stand in common sense and stop becoming the CARtelTOON of profit, meaning, following the images for profit before life.

This has compounded at present. In tune with our hyper-sexualized society, what I have found in my forties, is that this practice of shaving hair has moved into shaving one’s pubic hair. Having been alone for some time, I dated  and found it was the fashion to cut and manicure pubic hair. I have to say that I was astounded, I reacted with disbelief instead of remaining stable and realizing that this need not define me unless I accept and allow it.  I talked with others, and heard some of the same disbelief that cutting pubic hair was “ in.” It evidently has become a common practice in the middle aged community.  So, our beliefs become the mirror image of what is promoted in advertising and what is allowed to fill the flow as images that survive because money is being earned from it which means it is being supported, used, accessed. The imagery has nothing to do with practical reality, it is a separation from reality. We follow and try to fit the physical reality into some picture image that moves against the physical. And we believe that this action is our own choice!  I mean, pubic hair is a protective shield for the reproductive system, it serves a practical purpose and yet, we are forcing this into some ideological limited dimension imagination, and as I said, believing we made the choice and that advertising has nothing to do with it. Obviously this belief that we made the choice, is not what is real.

So, in many ways, we all have to walk the CARtelTOON imagery and know its detailed sequences built over time, to see, realize and understand in detail where we have allowed ourselves to embed ourselves with the profiteering done with imagery that has indeed become a directive program within our behaviors, meaning what we have allowed ourselves to be and become in thought and word and deed that move against a common sense of practical reality.

Video: Galbraith's Dependence Effect And Living Income Guarantee.

Day 331 Fathers killing sons is the product of a sequestration of POWER.

http://bigstory.ap.org/article/police-phoenix-area-man-killed-wife-over-hiv-fear

A man, a father killed his wife and his son. His son, living at home, 27 years old. His son a product of a consumerist market that has created a toy, a video game, a bubble of war perpetually played. This boy became the trash of this existence, a life never lived, instead a by-product of a system where a few have power and train the children to serve the needs of that power, and thus, as their state of being is solely focused on war and profit and gain in self interest before life, they design, or allow the design of products that are in the likeness and self interest of this gain, without any regard for life, for children or the people, the plants and the animals on this earth from which the gain, as freely given resource , serves the benefit of a few. This boy spending all his time playing video games in a system that is cutting jobs, taking away what supports those who do not have jobs, and or those who have worked their whole lives.
This is a system where followers are developed, thus we are not taught to direct ourselves in common sense of what is for the common good. Our behaviors are to follow, to sit complacently and play video games, to have a media system tell us what is going on. Meanwhile the rug is being pulled out from under our feet. This earth is falling apart and we, the human choose not to stand as the power, the real power that we are, the being of ourselves as life. This self that can be trained to sit and play video games all day. And this is because we have abdicated out power as ourselves as life, and when we do begin to realize that something is not working with this system, we believe that protest andquestioning of what controls this system will somehow solve what exists. but the disease of power has grown so huge that it would actually create a product that creates children that become autistic, that at 27 years of age have no other self direction but to play video games. The video games are great training for future drone operators, and given the video released by someone who is a traitor to the power maniacs but in actual real life, a person who cares for life, the behavior of the soldiers in that video in that helicopter, they no longer have any sense of reality, those were simply people walking on the ground, there were no weapons in their hands, and it is pretty obvious.
Humans must turn and look at this earth and ourselves as people, there are so many of us, and by our sheer numbers we can stand, so many, so capable, each spending but little to support a group to stand and place a system on this earth that supports life, supports what is best for all, supports what gives all a life of dignity, supports what allows children to stand in support of themselves. A system that requires all to vote and that educates instead of indoctrinates, I mean what system that cared for life would create a video game of war and then imprison a person standing up for life?
Asking such a system to change will do nothing, protesting is what one has been taught to do. Protesting and occupying destructive practices done by corporations that have no care for this earth is not going to do anything, you are controlled if such is what you believe. You are as controlled as that child, who at 27 is addicted to video games. In some ways the children see the mess of this world, and thus can you blame them when they decide to lose themselves in fantasy when the adults around them are all angry and frustrated and economically enslaved and lost in protest, a giant rant instead of realizing that it takes standing up and becoming the change, establishing a new system, a simple system that takes what is here and uses it to take care of all life, to give what is needed to survive, to remove the stress of paying for a life freely given, where the dictates of this system only teach illusion, instead of teaching understanding and self direction within working with what is physically here?
Advertising is so successful because it uses an understanding that the human can be embedded resonantly, an understanding that we humans are trainable entities, an understanding that what goes in is what comes out. Thus within a profit based system where money determines life, a few can create a whole structure that presents words of “goodness” and yet send outs products that focus the human within limited insight away from practical common sense of the actual physical world and how it functions.
We have this tool of communication called television, but within a system of inequality the space of this communication can be bought and filled with the voice of the forked tongue, where incomplete sentences are spoken, information that sounds good, yet lies by omission, not telling the whole story, not showing all consequence. And we have educational systems dictated to by this same system, thus why are our children not learning to read, to speak, and thus to communicate? Why are our fathers, grown men, unable to understand and clear up their own frustrations and getting to the point where they react and kill their wives and their children?
What is happening is not a sequestration, this in itself as how it is presented and incomplete sentence, a lie by omission, what is really happening is a sequestration of power for a few in as bad a state as that child, as that father, locked in a disease of power and control of earth, blind to what is real and the value that is life. Those in power have no sense of themselves as life, have no control over themselves as life, just as the rest of us have no control, our children and our fathers, Thus, it is for the many as the humans at the bottom of this pyramid of inequality, to stand and to politically use this system to stand and to place a system of equality, to use money to move what is produced in abundance, to all equally, especially since we know how to grow fields of perfect tulips, we can grow what sustains us, what gives us all dignified lives, we can open fields , the ones that surround the CAFOS to the cows and the chickens so that they can live the lives they were designed for, to sequester the carbon into the soils, so the trees and plants can grow and produce oxygen. That owner of the company, is not going to give up his lust, and his illusion that he can own what is here on earth. But the many, people standing up realigning what is here, to understand how we got here, so this never ever happens again, and so we can all realize ourselves as life, here.

Watch the Century of Self to understand how we can be taught/programmed, thus realizing we are trainable and can change.
Watch the Power Principle, to understand the lust for power, the lack of awareness for life such dis-ease causes.
Walk the desteni lite course to self realize what emotions, thoughts and feelings are, to understand the building blocks of what you are. Know that being stuck in memory, as knowledge and information only without practical application is the design of this present system to create a human that follows picture/illusion only,having developed no awareness of the physical world, only having ideas about the physical. An idea is not actual physical direct interaction. Sitting in offices with pieces of paper thinking about how something is ONLY, is not reality. Learning what something is in college without actual physical involvement does not mean one understands, it only means one is able to spew words and fill in the spaces of tests, tests that are written and allowed by the same who control the laws and media, those with the money to buy the space. A system of inequality will, by design, lead to a few having the means to buy the space of here and fill it up with their lust, with their fear. And if we accept and allow this, we are all to blame. Asking this to change is not going to happen, we, the many must stand and BE the change, using the system that is here, and standing within it to change it.

What this system promotes is the hope of a super hero, the exact opposite of what it will take to make change, in obvious contradiction to what is real, many humans on this earth, The wars of gain for a few, using the soldiering feet of many is in direct contradiction to what is promoted by hollywood, the idea of the savior, this that religion also teaches, one person cannot change this world, one person cannot win a war, it takes many. Thus, it takes many to simply stand and organize and support monetarily, a system that will end this sequestration OF POWER ( I want to complete the incomplete sentence here) to turn this structural form on earth to one that supports all life, as life is the value.
Time to get out children away from video games, time to get our children standing on their own two feet directing themselves within working with this physical world and turning our television sets into what leads to an understanding of this world to the extent that we all vote knowing we are supporting life, and doing so with understanding. Can there be any joy greater than this?

A link to a Face Book page of relevant documentaries, here.
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Day 303 Advertising uses the learning capacity of man and abuses it in self interest

Advertising uses the learning capacity of man and abuses it in self interest

We go to school and we learn to see structures of things and then we are tested on these things learned.
Advertising is placing images, as structures all over this world. How many of us can drive down a road and not miss that ad, that symbol running along the side of the road? And even in our homes, there are images flashing by, on products and clothes, on the tv, and the computer. It is incessant, always there, ubiquitous. And we accept it and allow it.
Some have said we are now living in a porn culture. Is this the influence of the pictures we have allowed within our world? How else could this have come to be what we follow?
So, we send our children to school to learn forms and structures to interact within this world. We send our children to use forms. On the one hand we teach this way, and on the other we indoctrinate this way. And, we have become so ignorant of ourselves that we do not even put this together, and realize how much this really influences us, and it is very obvious given how many products are sold in reference to fitting the images advertised. We have come to fit an image and not the very form of ourselves as life in a human physical body. How many men pay attention to a woman who comes for a job interview who does not wear make-up and heels and skirt, in comparison to a woman who looks more like the ads placed all over this world. This is the extent of a lack of really looking at that person in totality and only seeing an idea of what is “more than and/or less than,” a state of judgement based on limited values.
What is lacking is the awareness of the consequence of the building blocks of that image, thus there is no real ability to read that image for what it is, the consequence of form reading of a one dimensional image as picture. And this same thing happens with children in the schools, some are more agile with the material presented and others falter,missing an awareness of the con-sequential building blocks.
Thus they cannot participate and this lack accumulates as they move through school, until this lack overwhelms and they give up.
As, well, there are many very capable people, who do not have those straight perfect white teeth, and the type of figure touted within the advertising media, and even though they are educated, they are somehow not seen, because the employer is transfixed by an idea, an image that could potentially satisfy an addiction, as a energetic reaction, that he really has no understanding of, he/she has no awareness of how this was created, because they cannot “read” themselves as the consequences that lead them to be what they are in totality, as the mind, physical, spirit relationship, this which is used by advertising to corner the desire of the consumer in self interest without any consideration of both the consequences leading to the image/form and/or the consequences of the effects of chasing such an image to both participants involved within the roles adhering to this business of attention grabbing denying the physical and spirit, addressing only the mind with the bling and promise in a picture of limited value.
So, if the ads are influencing our behaviors, consuming us, to the point where we no longer see reality, and cannot even see the ability of a person, as their living expression and ability to conceptually see what is here, because the one fitting an image is all that we see, as we follow the very forms embedded within and as our minds, could this have something to do with the children that have a hard time learning the building blocks as what is presented in schools? Are these children somehow possessed with images and past events that block seeing reality, seeing what is presented?
Is that which is used that which stagnates?
It really is that what we are is simple, and yet so absorbed are we with any number of commerce-cially monopolized metaphysical imagined ideas, beliefs, opinions, past events influenced by this system/form, the words and emotions and feelings and thoughts expressed within these events, creating inner dialogues that come to be what directs each of us, that naturally some have this imagery of chaos, and since there is no understanding taught about this, and yet this is used to teach, we can see that to get this world in order, the nature of ourselves and how we function as mind, physical, spirit relationship needs to be looked at in detail and cleared up. Which means, as obviously how we learn is right in front of us, that there are some that have difficulty means we are not taking the time to look, as we are all lost within imagery, to the point where we no longer see what we are in fact, and again, even though how we are is because of the images we have in front of us. A starting point of compound images, is hiding a step of ourselves, is hiding the building blocks of what we are. How can we become what we are in totality, if we do not know what we are?
Obviously, a child that cannot read, is a child missing a comfortable stance within the building blocks of words, and what blocks this, is what came before, just as that employer cannot see the ability of the person, and only sees the potential employee that fits their image and likeness sexually. And believe me, I have seen the Harem effect playing out in my local public schools. It exists, and if it is here, it is everywhere, just as these ads are everywhere. There may be some employers not caught up in this trap, but they are very very few, very few.
The problem of what is presented within the advertising world is that it does not tell the whole story, it does not reveal the consequences. It does not create an awareness of ourselves, in fact it does the opposite, is uses what we are and enslaves what we are as life, into limited values. The consequences of a system of inequality, as to maintain inequality, are a distorted reality, because, reality as life, would mean clarity within understanding this world, thus the nature of humans is the product of a vieled reality creating an imposed form on society that binds separation from life, that denies the nature of life, as what the human is in fact, a human capable of understanding the building blocks of life, were this what was in fact presented.
So what would the solution to this problem be, how could this distortion be removed? By removing a system of inequality, by removing indirect voting, by removing secondary ideas, beliefs and opinions as what does not start from the very substance as the building block substance that is one and equal in all existent in/on earth. To realize this as the value, as the starting point, to build awareness of self as life instead of this present system of image without consequential understanding of all the parts composing that image. The solution is to support all life, where life as what we are as humans can learn to self direct within understanding of what we are in totality, as how we learn, as how the mind works in tandem with the physical body and the spirit/self of ourselves as life, in detail, here. When we began to realize this in detail, what is placed as pictures on this world, could bring us closer to an understanding of nature, and then perhaps the rewards would lead to a world where nature, the environment becomes the only picture necessary, no lighted screens, no billboards, just oneness and equality with what is here, that is real, that is the physical, which is the gift of life.

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Documentaries to educate yourself.

Day 60 I forgive myself for allowing and accepting my self to believe in love.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to believe in love.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to believe that I love someone when this feeling passes and I go on to love someone else.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not see realize and understand that love is a feeling and that feelings change, like the wind, they come and they go, and thus, are not constant, so I need to ask my self, “where is the constant?”

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not see realize and understand that love is like the bling projected and flashed all over the world by advertisers where, just as the advertising must be constant to keep the bling going, so is love just something that is not a constant as what is real, as it must use resource to keep itself going.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to realize that all that advertising for something that needs constant broadcast, wastes the resources of the earth, trees for paper, coal for electricity, inks from rocks and plants, glass for the bulbs to projects the blingy lights, plastic that uses the raw crude oils from under the earth’s service - where we don’t even know what the taking of these pools of oil from the earth does to this planet, and all for a feeling that is not constant, and thus not real, as what is real is strong, constant, is directed, does not waste, does not abuse, thus what is allowed on this earth is not life, is not what is real, as the number of people starving indicates, as the number of animals not allowed to be the expression of their physical bodies, where we did not create these forms and we, the human, ignore this physical fact and do not respect this physical world.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see that like in the TV series “ V “ where the head alien gives the people the feel good “wave” of “bliss,” so is love this, a feeling that comes and goes and becomes a drug- this “special power” attribute that is not a special power but only a control mechanism- an enslaving device, the creation of a drug addict, where the humans all turn this ability into a god - like quality and make this an IDOL, where making an idol of something separate from self, is self ignoring self as life, and what houses self is a physical body, the tool to become life, the gift, the real gift, thus would a system of control as what capitalism exists as take what is real, what is right in front of each and every one of us, and direct attention away from what is right here, and what is real, the physical.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not realize that in following advertising I am in essence following, being lead by a projected bling and ignoring my self here, in and as my human physical body, that which is real.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to realize that this has been going on for generations, and thus I have known nothing else, so this idea, this idol of this bling of love is all that I know and that it is difficult for me to imagine - as all I have been taught to do is imagine to keep me following bling -  that anything else exists, but if I stop, and I breath, I use that which is real, my human physical body, and I stop and I breath, and I stop and I breath, and I speak self forgiveness for 21 days, andI breath, and I look to the space between breaths I will begin to see the bling of love, the bling of desire to be a feeling that is like a drug.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not realize that the amount of abuse that exists on this earth means that something is  not working on this earth, that something is out of whack with this earth, and that following the desteni process of using breath and self forgiveness and corrective application will begin to stop the bling imagination that I have accepted and allowed as what is real, where I can begin to equalize myself with this physical world and become what is constant which is life, here.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to realize that when I cry at the supposed loss of a lover, what i am really crying for is myself, this that is what I have always wanted, but there has been nothing here since the day I was born to direct me within self development as life, as a profit based system is only interested in control and uses the making and projecting of false idols in the form of feelings as love to blind me as self from myself, and since I do not have the vocabulary and the means to know what I am longing for I place this longing onto false - as all that is presented- idols for the few who profit to maintain control, thus when I cry, I am crying for my self, as what I really desire is myself as life, one and equal, as all as one as equal, as life, here.

                                                                        Give as you would like to receive 

I commit myself to realizing that I am valued.

I commit myself to seeing and understanding that I am life, and thus as life I am one and equal to all that is on this earth, that is life manifest as the physical.

I commit myself to realizing that the physical world is life, that it is being here in/on/with this  physical world is what is real, as the false idol of love - a control mechanism - cannot exist without the physical, uses the physical for its broadcast and thus what is real is that which the false idol stands upon.

I commit myself to standing one and equal to this physical world, to my human physical body, and to clean up this false idol plastered all over this earth so that the children to come can stand as themselves and never ever have to cry as I have in an unknown longing for themselves as life, thus do I commit myself to supporting and Equal Money System, where life can begin, where if this were to be implemented it would not take to long to begin to clean up this world, to open the cages of the confined animals, so that they may walk in the sun and feel this physical world, as this is what is real.

I commit myself to self forgiveness, writing, and self corrective application to expose the false god as idol of love, this false idol that protects the few who use this to control the resources of this earth, they themselves living a life of being a control mechanism and thus they themselves never having lived life, they who are not learning to become one and equal to this physical world, evident that they die of disease, an aging human physical body and thus have never lived.

I commit myself to breath, to really listening to people, to the words of people, to hear within the words of people, and the cries of the animals that all that is here, confined, enslaved to the false idol/bliss of love, are in fact looking for themselves as life, here, to become one and equal to what is real, this physical world.

Equal Money System

It is only me

Day 56 My Husband lit himself on fire /hung himself . Suicide

Day 56 My Husband lit himself on fire /hung himself . Suicide

I forgive my self for allowing and accepting my self to not see realize and understand how stressful a system of survival is, where money determines who lives and who dies, determines if my children will have a decent education, will determine where I live, the state of my health and the existence of life on earth in totality, where I as the human, am responsible for the state of existence on earth as it is the hands of men who have built and accepted  and allowed this world as it is to exist, where no god is coming to save us, now or in some after life, as what is real is this physical world, and as this is what is real, as we have not transcended death and no one has seen the supposed make believe after world, this earth is reality and thus is heaven for the human to create, as no real “god” would want his children’s hands held, would instead want his children to learn to stand, to learn to walk, to learn to breath as life.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not realize that incessant worry and thinking about money and organizing it, and getting it, and maintaining existence for my children within a system that has made money what is god, as money determines life, where banks are allowed to charge countries high interest overblown loans that cannot possibly be paid back, knowing full well that the bank is turning the resources of these countries - which includes human labor-  into economically indentured servitude where the profits are collected by the few based on a signature on a piece of paper which is in contradiction to this physical world, a planet that gives unconditionally as no label as to who owns what has been placed by nature onto any resource that exists on this earth, thus ownership is created by man, enabling a few to profit and cloister the freely given resources of this earth to benefit only a small portion of the life existent on this earth, enslaving the rest to a petty game of survival where no life is developed, evident in the fact that there is no transcendence of death, and only the worship/warship of an imaginary friend/god promising some image of an afterlife that no one has ever seen.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand that there comes a point where a person is so filled with frustration and hate and suppression of self as life that that person can no longer take the inner pressure and fear and will decide to release himself/herself from the pain caused by the accumulation of stress and worry and self judgement - as the system promotes that if one does not work one cannot make a living, even though there are billions starving who cannot work as the resource beneath their feet is so easily taken out while supposed charity support is so difficult to get into areas where such starvation exists which if looked at in common sense makes no sense, as obviously if man can fly to the moon man can feed this world and support life, but the few allowed and accepted to own resource must perpetuate the game in order to maintain a status above the rest and cannot allow the full development of the human as the human would then realize equality and oneness, that the physical is what is real and not what is taught as what is broadcast upon this earth.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not not see realize and understand that what is broadcast on this earth will remain resonantly within and as my human physical body as my body is 70% water and this will take a picture - so to speak- of what is here, and this will remain with me and become the “sound” of me, where what is broadcast drives me to believe that success is driving a fancy car, or having an attractive woman, or owning the biggest house, or achieving the greatest power and stature in this physical world, where there is no principle behind the gaining of such things, and no real self directive substantial living that is my self the human able to transcend death, and within this what I am taught to chase is not real, only the creation of a picture in the image and likeness of the very pictures presented by current advertising, which is paid for by those who have a signature on a piece of paper that states ownership on a planet where the earth gives freely.

i forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not realize, see and understand, that humans sitting around on couches watching television is not life, and is the image and likeness of zombies.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see realize and understand, that teen agers drinking themselves into  speaking in slurred tongues is not that child being an expression of life.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not see realize and understand that an octogenarian sitting around in a vegetative state is not life, and this state is no way to end a life, and is the indication of a life that has not been lived but merely diminished, the opposite of life blooming to meet death in full awareness and transcendence.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not see realize and understand that a man hanging himself in an attic, or lighting himself on fire is a loud and clear statement that something is out of LIFE order on this planet.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not see realize and understand that when I am sitting in front of some shrink and they are telling me that “it is not my fault” and I become confused and have both thoughts of “yes, somehow it is my fault, and no if i were to hang myself then it would not be anyone’s fault but my own” and somehow the two cannot be reconciled yet both are somehow real, and if I look at this world in totality I will see, realize and understand that I a human as a collective have abdicated my self responsibility, as what has been told to the human to exist as, to love your neighbor as yourself, has not in fact been lived on this planet, and thus the crime of such behaviors as lighting oneself on fire and hanging oneself in an attic is indeed the fault of an allowed and accepted system that does not support life, but only support the profits made by endlessly divided freely given earth resource into a system of separation where money represents resource and is then given ownership as control to a very limited number of people, who then desire to remain on the top where all benefit of ownership and control allow a comfortable slow diminishing life experience instead of a pressure, starvation, disease, existence of a more painful and quick not transcending of death life.

I commit myself to understanding that suicide on this earth is an atrocity, that suicide is unacceptable and not and expression of life, thus, that suicide exists on this planet is a clear and loud scream that what the human is is not life, period.

I commit myself to understanding how the IMF/banking, economic hit-men, advertising, education, the change of a child able to rabidly learn to a child as adult that can no longer learn a new language with ease can be what the human as child into adult becomes, on this earth.

I commit myself to realize the lethargy and tiredness I feel when I come home from work is due to lack of proper nutrition, emotionally resonant beliefs, opinions and ideas that have never been resolved to allow me as the human to direct myself one and equal to life are caused - and are what as been accepted and allowed by every single human being on this earth-  by self abdication of self responsibility as life within, and the acceptance of a monetary system without that does not support life, but instead has turned money into what determines the state of life in this planet, an earth that gives unconditionally and in effect cannot be owned unless the human accepts and allows this.

I commit myself to realizing that there is no excuse that the resources of this earth be used to support all life, no matter what, and within this that each and every thought, emotion and feeling existent within myself that does not support this, is a reflection of where I myself have abdicated myself as an expression of what i am, which is life, where as life I am in fact one and equal to all that exists.

I commit myself to asking myself why I am not aware of all that exists on this earth, that I should be able to trade places with anything on this planet and be ensured of no matter where i am or what i am that I am an expression of life, and not a death of no awareness at death, of no transcendence at death, as this is a clear indication that I am in fact not life.

I commit myself to realizing that I am bitter , that I realize somehow that I have not lived, and that I blame this world, I blame objects and systems of no real name or objective clarity should i stop and really look at where and on what I place blame, that the blame I place is on in fact a system, and that this system is in fact a collection of humans, thus is the blame myself as I am a human, a part of an accepted and allowed system that does not support life, that takes what is freely given by this earth and uses money to divide this life sustaining resource to benefit only a few, causing stress and starvation for others, when what is here can support all life.

I commit myself to forgive all emotions and thoughts and feelings imbedded within, to begin the process of cleaning up a system of inequality on this earth that in fact does not support life so that the children to come will blossom as life and not as a future man lighting himself on fire, or hanging himself in an attic.

Life Review: Know thyself

The Soul of Money

Day 35 Screwing young girls is screwing self as life.

Day 35 

I read an article today about Middle Eastern men in small shops in Britain seeking out vulnerable girls younger than 16 and enticing them in their new found independence with alcohol and attention and then turning them into “dick holes” for all their friends where they take them around town and allow up to 20 men to fuck these young girls, these children.

My husband was in the Swiss army, in the army was a baker who had been a policeman. This police man told a story about Yugoslavian men in Switzerland who would find young insecure vulnerable girls, marry them and then lock them into a room where all their friends would come and fuck them.  Evidently, the Swiss had a hard time finding these girls.These girls were not Muslim and therefor of no significance. This is what religion does, plasters labels on this physical world and decides what is life and what is not. If your religion were so strong and it is believed that if you are not of the faith of Mohammed you are “unholy”, then why would you dirty your dick with something that is not of your so strongly held faith? Is this not becoming that same dirt you label a human female physical body as that lacks this faith?

 It really is just a justification to fuck and nothing else, it has nothing to do with your religion. It is indicative of allowing self to become what brings in money and profit, and hiding self in the act of sex, not wanting to face self, not looking at this system and how it operates. It is a brutal act that cares nothing for the life of the young girl or the life of the man as himself.

Both man and woman in this situation has allowed themselves to become puppets of the strings of the ads plastered all over this earth, that are of semi naked prepubescent girls wearing underwear posing in evocative stances suggesting that quick fix of energy release as orgasm. A self interested act that does not consider life without or within. The men participating in this are no different than the girl being abused. It is like action. All it does is destroy both the male and the female. nothing is conquered, nothing is gained. The essence of self as life is dissipated into an energetic rush, where nothing of significance of self development is gained for both the girl and the male.

This is taking beauty and smearing it with shit, and the shit gets on the female and the male, this “shit” if the addiction to sexual energy, and is not life, is not the essence of self in expression one and equal to life, one and equal to this physical world that is life, that supports self here as an expression of life, sensing all that is this physical world. This is being a drug induced zombie, feeding a system of money as profit. 

I forgive my self for allowing and accepting my self to believe that sticking my dick into a young girl has meaning.

I forgive my self for accepting and allowing my self to believe that a young girl of different religion than my own is no longer a young girl.

I forgive my self for not allowing and accepting my self to see that a young girl is a young girl and no religion as a belief changes this fact.

I forgive my self for not allowing and accepting my self to look at young girls and to see, realize and understand that it is only an idea in and as my mind that renders one young girl different from another.

I forgive my self for not allowing and accepting my self to see and realize that every young girl is unique and to not be able to see this means that there is something lacking in my ability to see life.

I forgive my self for not allowing and accepting my self to see and realize and understand that I am abusing life when I project a belief onto young girls and thus do not allow my self to expand through seeing the uniqueness in each and every young girl on this earth, no matter what their faith, and then, within this, to question why we have a system that does not bring this uniqueness forth and instead turns all women into an object of sex, where the woman/girl is not even seen for the value as life that they are.

I forgive my self for not allowing and accepting my self to realize that just as the men I know within my circle of men, where I see that each of them has something unique about them, so to  are all women just as unique within themselves, yet I am addicted to sexual desire, where I lose my ability to see what is unique in all life, and thus that there is something lacking in this desire that consumes my human physical body, as it renders me into a singular desire where I no longer am able to see the value of life, the uniqueness in every single thing in this world, thus, perhaps it is my self that has become limited, and yet this is the norm taught, and I have never stopped and questioned this, and only gone along with all the others who are not questioning this because I fear losing my friends, when, how can someone really be a supportive “friend” if the acts I participate in are acts that diminish my ability to see the uniqueness that is life around me.

Within this, I forgive my self for not allowing my self to realize that I have in fact become a sheep, unable to direct my self and have abdicated my self honesty to life, my self responsibility as life into a singular self interested movement as being sexual energy, a singular state of mind that obviously cannot sense the totality of life, and the religion in which I grew up has not developed this ability within my self.

I forgive my self for allowing and accepting my self to not question why I am in a situation where I need to line up to have sex with a young girl and to not question the abuse to life that this act is in fact.

I forgive my self for allowing and accepting my self to not place my self in the shoes of this girl and to realize that she is the same as me, and that I would not want this to happen to me, and thus I am not living the words of Christ, to not do unto others what I would not want done unto my self.

I forgive my self for not allowing and accepting my self to realize that when I abuse life, I abuse my self as I am life one and equal to all life on this planet, as what is here is life in and as this physical world and it is only ideas in and as my mind that create separation, which I accept and allow if I stand as a singular idea and not as my self as life, one and equal as life to all that is of this earth.

I forgive my self for not allowing and accepting my self to realize that in abusing life I am spiting my self as life.

I forgive my self for not accepting and allowing myself to realize that the only way I will be able to see beyond the singular relationships of the mind is to walk the process of stopping the mind.

I commit my self to stopping the beliefs in and as my mind, as what I was taught through writing, self forgiveness and self corrective application to bring my self back to my self as life, where I can stand one and equal to all that is here as this physical world that is life.

I commit my self to realizing that I am one and equal to all that is here on this earth, where I then stand and support a system of equality as equal money to clean up the ideas taught that separate my self as life, ideas that disallow my self to treat this physical world, as my self, as how I would like to be treated no matter what gender or form I happen to be in manifestation on this unconditionally giving physical world as earth.

I commit my self to no longer seeing my self as separate from a young girl.

I commit my self to stopping the abuse of the mind as singular desires unaware of the uniqueness of life as this physical world and to bring my self back one and equal to this physical human body where I am able to sense with the totality of my human physical body the multi dimension of life on this earth.

I commit myself to realizing that lack of respect for this world is lack of respect for my self.

I commit my self to realizing that my religion has not taught me to respect and become aware of this physical world.

Life Review - Ego and Sex = Catastrophe