Teach Talking as the Education of Experience Day 735

I played music for so long that I got to the point where when a mistake happened it meant correcting something, that is all.  There was no one to blame only the correction to make.

I remember a stand partner, who rushed at a certain point and myself becoming irritated because of this rushing. I could hear how the section was practiced. This player, who was capable, played the section as though it were an exercise. Within this, it means the group was no longer the connection, it was a meter and a line directing the player, without sensing the greater movement of the group. Thus, this stand partner was always a little ahead of the group movement. For me this meant having something else to listen to, the group’s rhythm and her rhythm. It is standing in a space with movement and there are conflicting movements happening. So that I do not become my stand partners ‘ meter in a space’ I had to listen past this player to remain grounded in the movement of the whole musical group.  My thought, laced with irritation, was that rushing through a section because one is either afraid of it, or does not really know it well enough (same thing) is not fun, lol, is not fundamental, meaning is not remaining grounded, as in listening to the whole and moving with it.  I also thought that this partner probably did not have the time to practice the piece, as the money paid for performing with this group, was not enough to allow that more careful practice. 

This stand partner probably had too many other things to do in the name of survival.  I know that because one can be asked to perform, and the idea of a payment that includes the time it takes to get musicians together to practice, is something that appears to not be in the awareness of the entities paying to have a performance, they do not seem to remember all the background time spent getting to a point where a person, and especially a group, comes together to make the desired music requested! So many times, I simply sight read themusic, yet, could hear that a greater intimacy and expression could be what was presented if there were but one or even two rehearsals. Everything starts to become a rush job, which ends up compounding over time, into such things as I experienced, as a stand partner who rushes in a certain section, no longer caring, just wanting to get through, even though, this person was probably aware of this, and did the best they could. They were uncomfortable afterwards, a subtle tension happening, which indicates a sense of not being in sync. We are, very aware, and very capable, we know what we do. We hear the backlash of justifications that are like a post balancing act to excuse our actions. This overall, reveals the means to correction is inherent in us at all times. We must become the living math of creation, accepting nothing but what balances us in being present in real time, with here, on this earth. This earth is the real orchestrated creation, capable of balancing itself out, to remain in harmony. lol, remain embracing here, or, wrapping our arms around here. Here is the ‘ oneness’ another word within the word harmony. The ‘y’ being an ‘ i’ as though we are individual and yet one at the same time. 

My point here, is reacting with irritation, is self interest and the projection of blame. In this case being annoyed that I have to counter movement with my stand partner, I have to listen to them and the whole, and remain balanced, where it would be more natural for us to move together, more pleasing, as I have had this experience too. Being in synch with the neighboring musician is fun. The being in synch is fundamental and thus more grounded. That feels more stable than countering movements. That I allow a countering movement to disturb me, where I react,  is not standing in stability. I should know enough, within experience, to know that listening and remaining stable, within the whole, is a greater state, as it often is then followed, and movements will naturally rebalance in space. Thus, reaction only fuels the fire of imbalance.

This brings me to the point of facing resistances, which are really only ‘ not having the whole story’ or a lack of addressing limitations. It is like getting stuck in a meter, or a measure, as an idea, or the consequence of such practice, as in not being up to a speed of considering some aspects.  In this, one is leaving a part of one’s self behind and enetering a bubble of contrasting beats lacking connection to the whole. This separation in turn will be the voice, will be the seeming resistance, and the ensuing justifications will reverberate, just as they have within myself, and as a tension between two people. as that justification happens in silence, yet is present in the space. With my stand partner, it meant a couple of rehearsals where we did not speak to one another, as though we were hiding that past, it being too close to the moment and thus remembered. Things like this happen a lot within the inherent intimacy of playing an instrument, where the body is so focused on time and space. One cannot hide. After all, we have a saying in music that if one can hear the player thinking, they do not really know the piece. One plays in such a way, that the listener cannot hear the thinking. 

My point here, is that the state of not being connected, in any given situation, will cause the storm of separation, as all the justifications and beliefs come forward. There is no escaping it.  The solution is to never react, as I did with irritation, it only fuels the fire. I must expect the limitations, not allow them to irritate me, and to the best of my ability, listen to what is here, and ground myself within that, telling the real story, bringing it back to myself, as who and what I am as a physical being, here.  

I said something yesterday in the presence of two other people. Immediately there was a reaction.  The one person that reacted, did not speak, they simply made a grunting noise. lol.  I wanted the person to speak up, yet, in some ways they could not.  They needed more information before speaking up. For me, it is allowing such things to happen not expecting them or resisting them, as in so many ways I am in an orchestrated set body of information that has lost its connection to the whole. Thus, every move is grounding myself no matter what. This means, bringing it back to self/

What precipitated this blog is a message written by one of our autistic children. 

“DARING EACH TALKING PERSON TO WALK IN SILENCE FOR PEOPLE TO USE EDUCATION IN EXPERIENCE. YES. GIVE THE CHALLENGE. TEACH TALKING IS SO MEANINGFUL WHEN YOU LIVE WITHOUT IT DAILY LIKE ME AND FELLOW TYPERS"

Here is the link to the video:

https://www.facebook.com/leslie.h.weed/videos/10206438532902033/?pnref=story

It is that statement of “ daring each person to walk in silence ( and ) for people to use EDUCATION IN EXPERIENCE. 

Then, to place this statement into “ teach talking” is astounding, as it means, for me, that this woman is saying to only speak, to only talk, from real experience. It suggests for me, that this autistic person is saying that there is too much speaking about things that one has no real experience with and as, This means that we all talk within speaking memorized theories about things, which have no real substance, and thus, cannot really be heard because there is no real understanding. This means so few speak or move from being present, from experience, from real living. This child realizes that few are really listening, few are hearing the silence, to then speak in consideration of what is here, what is real. She is saying, for me, that speaking from real experience has much greater substance, and thus meaning, and that without this, life is very difficult. 

Within this, I realize that when I bring whatever information comes towards me, back to self, back to my living experiences, as practical things I have done, I can tell a real story, one that has greater meaning in that it can be shared and given, as real solutions, even within grounding my own mistakes from speaking as theory before real experience. To do this often means listening to myself and what it means to practice being here, in this reality, on this earth. 

In terms of my experiences within music, instead of blaming and spiting, it is to realize how the present system influences outcomes, and to not become irritated, to remain as much as possible within being grounded and stable, to the point where I ‘ teach talking’ through an educing, or education ( of) experience opposed to theory- as something I memorized or lived within my imagination only, without real practical application.  With my stand partner, it might have been to say something like, ‘ I sometimes have to become more mechanical than present, because I do not always have the time to practice a section because I am so busy making a living” Such a statement might not allow the space to change this, immediately, yet it will not inflame a situation. Instead it will bring in more compassion, a compass of understanding that in turn creates a more peaceful environment that then causes less tension, opening more space to process this reality. This would change the very nature of the next time a passage comes along that is not integrated as well as one would want, and be played in such a way that there is more awareness of the self in relation to the surroundings, and what then is played, is a ‘ talking’ that is more aware of a real experience. Often such insight opening, in itself, begins a self correction because there is more space and time, than we are aware of when lost in reactions, to live a real change into being more aware, present and grounded. It is in this space that corrections are made, are lived. 

Thus, when I talk, when I speak, I bring it back to myself, and I fear nothing, because I am here. I can educate through a talk that is of experience rather than theory. I can cross reference what is real, what has a meaning grounded in practice, in experience. This does not irritate, this grounds. This has not the clutter of an imagination of ideas about things, memorized, without real practice, this has a greater substance, and that is what really educates a person. This is sharing real experience, practical living experience.  Of course, this child admits that so many are not listening, and instead  talking theory instead of reality. This is what is here, thus reactions and the scream of theory, and the justifications for this theory are all around us, meaning that scream of limitation is going to happen, nothing to take personally, and not something that can define who and what I am. Will I make mistakes, as I am a product of this present system, yes. Well, I did not learn to crawl and to walk, or to play the violin without making mistakes. I am the only person that decides who and what I am, no one else can do that for me. I can become more grounded here, in this living reality. This is who and what I really am. 

Day 532 Dropping literacy rates and the consequence of special needs.

I am reading  Weapons of Mass Instruction,  by John Taylor Gato. This is a quote from his book:

"WWII was over in 1945. Six years later , another war began in Korea and several million more men were tested for military service. This time 600,000 were rejected. Literacy in the draft had mysteriously dropped to 81 percent from 96 percent, even though all that was needed to classify a soldier as literate was fourth grade reading proficiency. In a few short years from WWII to Korea a terrifying problem of adult illiteracy had appeared seemingly from nowhere.

The Korean War group had received most of its schooling in the 1940’s while the conflict with Germany and Japan was being waged. It had more years in school, with more professionally trained teachers in attendance, and more scientifically selected textbooks than the WWII men. Yet, it could not read, write, count, speak, or think as well as the earlier less schooled contingent."

By the time we get the the sixties and the Vietnam War, that rate drops to 73 percent.

Now, we have an education system that employs thousands of people. And we have children that have learning disabilities that are, as in my home town, doubling in one year. I say this because if it is happening in my one little town it is probably happening in many many towns.

I was with my sister this week. She has an autistic child.  She has come to realize in all the years that she deals with the schools a number of things. 

First, she has begun to notice something about the treatment of herself when she goes to meetings in the school. She has begun to notice that when the adults go into an assembly that the adults are treated as children ( I should say ignorant - because children when they are young can be more aware than adults- just think of all the 14 year olds that are beginning to create things that improve the system) , they are taken into an assembly where things are “ explained” and then they are moved into the classrooms and explained again. As we can see in the numbers of literate people in decline, and the amount of money poured into education, what we are doing is not working, whether by design or not, the numbers show us that it is not working. And given that this American system has more prisoners than any other country, and that these prisoners are making combat helmets and a percentage of our utility gadgets at the expense of the taxpayer, we as a society have become dumber, meaning less aware, meaning less able to use our common sense, which we can blame no one but ourselves, because we accepted and allowed it.

Another thing that has happened, and I had a similar thing happen in high school, is that children that are processing very slowly, are given special tests so that the numbers in the state tests are not pulled down, which means we are not being told of what is really happening when the state test scores are presented to the public. When I was in high school in New York, they had my friends and I retake the tests, even though we had passed, to keep the numbers of passing students higher. So, even within this, parents are  being deceived and the school administrators, the ones that have been trained, are allowing this, because they fear losing their jobs- which comes before the child.  All of this is an illusion, because if parents became aware of this, it would mean to change the system, to allow teachers to begin to use their common sense. As one parent of a school committee said, it is that the teachers are given one new program after another, and can never simply use their common sense, develop their ability to develope their own way via their own experience, and as we know, children have a divergent thinking skill that is somehow lost by the time they reach the third grade. Which means how we are forming the child is not opening up that natural ability, that common sense ability. So, we have teachers that lack the time and the choice to develop common sense, and we have the consequence of this lack of common sense accumulating overall in the children of the next generation.

The third thing my sister has come to realize is that the reason she has changing aids is that the aids want to move onto working with “ normal” children, because, naturally, it moves at a faster pace. I have worked in “ special” classes, it is a constant redirection, again, and again, and again, and again, and again, and again, and again ad infinitum. 

I noticed with this child, that having a moment, where I could get a child with special needs to walk all the way into self generating took more than an hour. And this was for one word. Eventually the child did this. I also know that in the schools, a teacher has about 50 minutes and other students. For a child that is so confused, so nervous, whose nails are bitten down to the skin practically, how can that child ever have the moment to follow through and move through all the accumulated fear behaviors and begin to generate being able to speak one word, and write one word, with an understanding of the meaning of the word? With all the bells and the whistles, and the other children, is it no wonder that that child cannot read and write with any fluency? If the aids change every year, and the new aids are bottom of the pay scale, to save money, where is the time and space for constancy, and time to move through fears and limitations to begin to build understanding? Here, if we look at physical space and time, it does not exist, so the fear behaviors accumulate because they are not given opportunity to discover structure and practice this. Also, the special needs classrooms move at a slower pace, where one tiny tiny gain is seen as a HUGE gain, but this in itself is an illusion in a bubble. On top of this, we have a culture of so called “ positive thinking” where if this is questioned, one is considered to not be “ positive.” Obviously, only a parent can be responsible for the child, because as the system functions in the moment, what is best for a child is not being given simply because of the measure of time and the pressures of testing, and money spent on aids, and teachers who become frustrated in what is such a slow process that is limited by structure that they want to move onto a situation where the children at least have some capacity.

As has been shown in the declining numbers of literacy, our present system is in reverse. And, each of us is tied to survival, where we cannot stop and slow down ourselves and take the time to see what is actually happening in form and function in our schools, because of the economic pressure in a system of usury that moves all wealth creation via money to a few, and is now a corporate system that pushes products that entertain us as an escape from our own frustrations. And our frustrations are the same as that special needs child, it is the children that simply carry the consequences of lack as the life within is given no structure to express itself, thus it is to say that life is being suppressed.  It is like the inverse is happening, the greater the suppression the greater the number of special needs students. And I have to ask myself if this is moving exponentially, meaning the numbers suddenly double in one year. Each parent has to ask themselves, when their real estate taxes go up and the answer is the special needs for these children, will they blame the individual points or take the time to look at the whole and realize the consequences that created the problem? It has happened at a seemingly slow and steady pace, invisible to many, but, since the numbers are doubling, you could be next, and then, as with my sister, after walking the frustrations, the pattern will begin to emerge, and then the child is in middle school, and taking the time to reprogram the child will need more time.

Also, if we realize the Munchausen symdrome by proxy, many parents build their lives around these children, and become acclimated to that child’s behavior and the social network around that child’s problem and as a result fear losing what has come to define them. Obviously, this cannot continue, because eventually that child becomes an adult, and what was “ cute” when they were small is no longer cute, but even considered weird when they get into their twenties. This I have seen as well.  Will our taxpayer dollars pay for these malformed adults that require to live in assisted housing?  And, as we can see, the numbers are growing.

According to the numbers of literate people before WWII, people can become literate. Because the present system is so intrenched, the solution is to create a basic income guarantee, to allow each the time and space to slow down and breath, to remove the stress and frustration, which manifests as spite and blame, wanting someone else to be responsible because each of us is so caught up in the details of keeping a job, and as such can no longer see the patterns around us. Realize that everything is interconnected, and that what we allow that is not supportive of life absolutely, has consequences that eventually accumulate and catch up to us. 

We are physical beings, we need air, and water and shelter, and an inFORMation that allows us to see what is around us and how it moves with each breath, to realize that what we allow in the systems we create, determine our development and our function and that because we live on a physical planet where everything is connected, our choices can only be what is best for all. And, as the numbers of literate men in WWII show, the possibility for overall literacy exists.

A Living Income Guarantee will give us the space and time to get out of our bubbles of limitation, and allow the insight necessary to realize the whole and how what we accept and allow influences  the world around us. What exists was built by each of us as a collective, and since  the present system was built by those who came before us, there is no one here to blame. And, our history, an ego history, where a figure head is believed to have created and developed what is here, that could only have been developed by many, is not the whole story and really only a story where one organizational part what made a god-like image, we can realize that what has been impulsed as history, is not a story of practical form and function, and as such what we think we understand is simply a lack by omission. Thus, it is through omission that our information is limited. And this limitation creates frustration that is really suppression. And the suppression lacking structure looks without for definition, instead of within as information being exposure and development. Meanwhile that which is outside of us is also a limitation, of one aspect of reality made greater instead of being balanced and normal to the point where a practical common sense of physical reality is strong enough that invention and creative ability is developed and at interplay with the physical. As we can see, little invention is being allowed, as the monopolies buy a congress of votes and impose what is causing harm, and even buying the space on the media to tell a story that ignores all aspects of reality which is, overall, simply a reflection of what we are within. All of which, begs the necessity of a Living Income Guarantee. If each has the monetary means to meet basic living needs, then so many reactive behaviors will end, and the tide will turn as men stand and begin to express what was there all along, the expression of themselves as life, here.

                                      John Taylor Gato

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Day 479 Watching Autism in My World. What is Mind Consciousness?

I sat with an autistic boy this week and worked with him. I had to sit very close to him, and because I have had some experience with Autism, that being physically close to the child can be disturbing to the autistic child, I stopped for a moment and said to the autistic child, that I would probably touch them to 1. remind them to sit up straight and 2. because I was in such close proximity to them. They immediately said that I could not touch them. So, I said, okay, how about this, on a scale from one to ten, and I asked for their hand, which they did not give, so I went on, and showed them with my own hands gaging what I wanted to show, is it okay if I touch you with a “ two intensity.” Immediately, before I even finished what I was saying, their hand was right there  on mine, a very directive action, and they showed me the intensity with which I could “ touch” them, because I was sitting very close and working with them. That touch was so directed, so steady, so clear. As I worked with this person, I noticed that if my shoulder brushed theirs, for example, they would immediately reach up and touch themselves where this happened. And I realized I was being overly careful and hesitant. I did not have that very direct “ touch” as physical connection in a moment when working with someone in close proximity that that person showed me. It is hard to explain how “ here” that touch was, but it was not hesitant in any way. And yet within this, what I realized within this one movement, so directed, that this autistic person had the ability to connect in common sense with this physical world, despite the constant voice of positive reinforcement statements coming out in a timed and conssitent manner, which is probably what this boy had heard all his life, to ostensively “ keep them going,” like giving a “ positive” as a directive instead of a direction that was bringing connection to common sense here within building something within this anxious person that was directive, equal to awareness and understanding of physical reality.

I say this, because within working with this boy, I remember watching my twin sister’s autistic son, my nephew, grow from infancy into a preteen.

I remember having the impression, that the behavior of my nephew was a display of all the anxiety of my sister, and my parents in many ways. It was like seeing the physical twitches and emotional duress of my parents and sister compounded. I also remember not saying anything because to look this way is considered “ unpositive” “ impolite” like drawing attention to what is “ bad” is not allowed. I mean we all do this, we romanticize the movements of ourselves and make them huge, to push away the “ bad” the constriction, the frustrated expression, instead of looking at the movement of what is happening in detail, which is right there in front of us. I mean, I was seeing the unconscious fears as judgements being exhibited by my nephew and somehow realizing what was happening and I was my own limitation based on beliefs of what is socially acceptable to be expressed. And I remember feeling trapped, within this, like I could not say what I wanted to say, because I had not learned to stand stable within what I was seeing, I had allowed the separation, as mind to be the only conduit of communication, and I could not find a way to fit what I sensed. In effect, I was the same as that autistic child, only but a different configuration ( and I am not saying that I understood all the details at the time, as having the structure immediately at hand to explain myself into an explanation with my sister). I remember standing there staring at this compounded neurosis of my family, and thinking this was of consequence and not a “ disease” so to speak as an idea. In any event, working with this boy brought all of this back.

And even here, the years I watched this in my nephew, were the years directly after the death of my husband, a time where I was what I considered numb for about five years, which research shows that “ tragedy” can have an impact for five years or so. So, here I was, numb, and sometimes even saying to myself and asking others, “ I have a problem, I am indifferent to so much of what is going on.” And I think that it was in this state that such things as looking at my nephew from a “ daze” of indifference, of having nothing defining me because I had lost what was defining me, that I had moments of just accepting what was here, as the total of what has been accepted and allowed by men as mind, as limited values made bigger than life, and as such turned into a reality that is metaphysical, superstitious, imposed on what is real, which is physical reality. And, even here, there was a move to “ care” and resolve this.  I could not accept what was here, and within this I could not exactly explain what was here, and I had to find out, what was going on, and so I found desteni. It is like they are explaining what I sensed, in my state of indifference. And even here, it took me some time, and is a continual process, of not allowing this experience to become an idea, a directive, a self definition. What needs be done in the end, is correct the separation, bring it back to equality as equal movement with physical reality, as in including physical reality as being as much life as the human, all of it. It is to be a direct movement with the physical, here.

Within this, to realize that an autistic child, underneath all the chaos of compounded generational separation into idea before life - which is movement equal and one in consideration with physical existence, is life. The life as the natural expression of the child  is there, the mind as the conscious, subconscious and unconscious mind, is not equal to physical reality, and yet because that child exists, and as such is the substance of life, that child can be walked back into alignment with common sense. it is there, underneath the spinning information, manifest as nervous ticks and programmed words of what is essentially hope on the part of the parents as statements of “ positive reinforcement” as “ I am an ace” or similar,  which in total, is the informing as an idea of good, without any practical application as giving structure to the child to enable them to direct in common sense, here. This action is in the realm of doing the same thing again and again and expecting a different outcome. A snake eating its own tale/tail.

And, because all those impulsed ideas of good are reverberating with as the mind of the child, as the program as sound as the parents hoping, to change this is going to take patience, and yet this can be done.

When learning something new, and I have done this many times in teaching children to play the violin, and as myself, one has to slow down and practice focusing here, looking past the voices in the head, and see directly here, each movement in detail. To start this, there is a lot of resistance naturally, because one is going against a constructed belief system as mind in a busy world where parents do not have the time to slow down, because they were born into the same situation that had a starting point of not being equal in understanding of physical reality in detail. So, slowing down will be met with resistance. Yet, this simply need be walked, and slowly built, and once moving, will begin to exponentially move forward. Remember learning something, even a new language, the beginning is really slow, almost painful, and then as the words accumulate one starts to move faster, and then after a while if one keeps going, it is easier to remember more words, and eventually the language is learned, and it begins to be fun to speak. Thus, changing oneself, one step at a time is possible, and because this change is possible, this means we as humans are very mutable, and with structure we can change, we need only walk past the resistance as what is the construct we have accepted as mind.

Our autistic children are really a gift in many ways, because they are showing us the degree of separation from ourselves as being life, as being the very substance and source of creation as life, that is able to form in equality to and with physical existence, to include all life here. That, changing our state as a constitution as mind, simply means walking/moving in equalizing ourselves in common sense to reality, realizing that slowing down will be met with resistance but with persistence redirection, in this case to become equal in understanding, can be done. What may seem like a mountain, is not a mountain, what may seem painful is simply resistance - and this is but a thin veil as standing before a movement and bringing it back into a self directed stability with the physical world, which means accepting and including all life.

So, humans have structure through sound, through words. If our children have a broad vocabulary, that has absolute values, without emotional/feeling values as a fear of loss as a threat as an idea as a gloom and doom “ what if” or a positive idea as a “ good” being used to substantiate a child, then the child becomes this idea instead of being equal in detailed movement with what is physically real, as we cannot live without physical needs and we cannot direct ourselves unless we are equal to understanding the actual physical world, because we are physical beings. Thus, a child not having words that are many and of clear meaning, the ability of the child to direct is limited and stagnant. And with ideas of good and bad, the child falls into this instead of equal connection to what is real in total, meaning what includes all that is here, all that exists.

Within this, as parents are so busy with an ideological world, a hierarchy, and trying to survive within this, and overwhelmed with a dialogue as ideas, as good and bad, taking the time to realize this consequence of separation is very difficult, as this slowing down is met with resistance emotionally. So, the parent can use technology, that which we have externalized as our innate abilities, to aid in building structure within the child, to still the limitations of good and bad, into and as equal understanding and thus self directive capacity to moving with and equal to what is us as the venue of physical existence which is what allows us expression as life. I am sure that many parents of autistic children, realize the life that is the unique expression of their child, and somehow, the disconnect of that being expressed is frustrating, but it can be done and it is only a process of taking the steps to structure the child into having the words with absolute values to stabilize within a common sense as a direct seeing of physical reality. And, that this is not as difficult as one may believe. If a process exists, it can be walked.

Just as learning to play the violin is taking the measure of becoming equal physically to it and how it functions, without judgement of good and bad, so too can a child, an adult, become equal and one in thought, word and deed, as the words we know without added values, but absolute values, can we, and our children equalize in common sense of what is around us, as the physical, as this is what is right in front of us, as life, and as this, this is what is real. Then can we, as that autistic child become a direction of absolute purpose with every breath, instead of tiny moments of some measure of clear communication buried in a sea of behaviors that are instead a measure as idea of good or bad.

Day 478 A hangover as data of knowledge and inFORMation.

I have been writing every day, but unable to post. Somehow the words just don’t fit what I want to say. 

I have had so much knowledge and information passing by that it all seems to be the same to me, the same limitations, the same wars, the same things being said again and again.

When I go to take a test that I am prepared for, I am calm.  I just walk it, do it. 

But, right now it is like I am at war with myself. Like I keep wanting to react, in short bursts of rapid gun fire, but I have to pull myself back. Like, NO! and then in a more gentle voice, come back, like that reaction serves no purpose.

It is an idea based on no real thing and as such is devoid of purpose. Lack of purpose misses the mark, and as such becomes frustration. Frustration is simply not being here, right here, equal and one in common sense to what is here. So used to racing that this can be missed.

In may ways it is like having a hangover. I feel like I am in a state where I want this hangover out of me, I want it gone, it is heavy, it is so tricky, so clingy. I find myself suddenly imagining something, usually a gloom and doom scenario, and or suddenly a magical fairy tale that appears to promise something. I realize this is more dream than reality. And yet underneath it all, there is what we all want, and that is to get along with one another, to actually enjoy one another. This happening in a state of ease, a state of calm, like when one is ready to take a test, and even looks forward to it. 

In so many ways this should be what happens as we as men enter this earth, a looking forward to understanding this actual real physical world. 

And yet, what happens to us? We become combatants in a war zone. It is the consequence of hierarchy, the consequence of judgement, the consequence of measuring one thing against another without looking at what is the same, which is the breath of life, the movement that is creation. And that creation is like an eternal ocean underneath all of it, so huge, so willing to just be. Instead we are all moving within very limited, selected popisms, pop ups as ideas, as pictures, as skips in sequences of what is real in total. And there is a machine within us, that holds this, as wired as any television set. It is just that we are so consumed by the imagery that we cannot see the mechanisms of it.  And we keep looking with the mechanism, instead of looking at the physical. I mean, why is the anecdotal considered insubstantial? Why is data considered to hold more value? And why is data now considered private?

Data is now being moved into any number of justification : trade secrets, privacy laws,  professional requirements to be able to decipher ( which means properly programmed to the limitation). All of this means that each of us has an innate capacity to realize the limitations being the justifications for choices made as the forms of description ( encryption)  filed away to support the directives based on an idea. This is each of us supporting this, we are the web accepting the limitations, the beliefs, the manipulations, despite the evidence of the harm anecdotally all around us. 

One example of how we take parts to justify a means is a recent vaccine justification I heard.

The doctor, supposed doctor, said that polio is breaking out in Syria, and then relates this to vaccines in general, saying we need vaccines in America. THis a movement from one point to a collective point within this platform of vaccines in total. Tying all to one. Also, taking a war torn country, where the infrastructure has been droned to rubble, thus all water and shelter is severely diminished causing a lack of basic human physical needs, which lead to disease. So to compare, as in pointing out only that polio is appearing in Syria within the state of Syria without clarifying this, and as this relating this to justify a need in America makes no sense, even if it were true, the basis of this. THis is misinformation, it builds no understanding of the total picture, and as such this is a limited story presented to justify an end, and force that end on others, using a threat that is not disclosed, presupposing an outcome without any real investigation. I can see here where this can become a spin, a snake eating its own tail, if we allow it.  In essence this is using a war zone, an extreme to determine a mean to be imposed on all equally. That is just criminal.

In another way, this is using taxpayer dollars to create an extreme environment and then to use the consequences to decide that what counters the disease in such a situation needs to be given to all, just in case such comes out way. This is fear mongering. THis is what if? And all the while, what is causing the disease, self created, is not looked at. How the environment on which we live as this physical earth, when shredded, causes all manner of a diseased life. 

THis is running after consequence of destruction, ignoring the act that caused the dis-ease and deciding that the bandaids are a solution.

And this is also done by not clarifying the sequences. For example, the whole vaccine debate revolves around word play, parents believe that vaccines are causing Autism. The industry and our so called administrations are saying that vaccines do not cause autism. ( meanwhile “ royalities/revenues are all tied into this, like the music industry asking rap to sing words that impulse criminality to fill prisons and if they do not, then the prisons won’t be filled and their investments will not make them any money - which over all must be a configuration done internally because a few own everything, they own the puzzle pieces and can move them in ways that enslave, meaning it is all bullshit and criminal over all)  Here a step has been skipped, a detail not mentioned. It is that vaccines cause inflammation of the brain and this leads to Autism, which as I understand is accepted by the government/taxpayer revenue - who, monetarily,  carry the ill effects of vaccines. The industry  reaps the profits, to then have the means to manipulate the pieces of what builds revenue to force outcomes in self interest( the one wanting the impulsing “ rap” to create revenue from prisons). The walls of the castle hide behind detail not being mentioned to maintain inequality, which again, leads to the hiding of data. And the need to hide this, means that we are all capable of understanding here, this actual physical world. Use “ speed” to hide this, as in “ not having the time” and the villian cannot be pinned down. So word play and timing are used to hide reality.

Another aspect within the timing, is in education. It is known that to master something, such a music skill, takes about 10,000 hours. If schools divide this time, and ensure such number of ours as direct interaction are not met than skills are not moved into a level of mastery. And as we can see, if we have mot mastered words, then we cannot catch the manipulations of ourselves within beyond the 1. the amount of limited story impulsed, and 2. the use of words to hide and limit disclosure, and all the laws built around the maintenance of this. I mean it is known that giving children an hour of recess will improve the overall child’s ability, because within recess, there is a direct interaction with words being used, and perceptions being lived out, exposing a child to a broader range of movement and thus developing depth perception.

I mean the instances I site above reveal the importance of the physical above and beyond and data, information touted through media and those educated to the programming that is voiced in maintaining the status quo of inequality and paychecks. 

We are abdicating our compassion towards physical existence. We are abdicating our community, as humans, as men, to be impassioned with and as ourselves as physical beings, here. Such a subtle difference causing a massive disconnect. But this shows the way out of this mess. That we all realize the capacity of ourselves as life to understand life. And that what we have allowed as mind is the dominance of idea in separation from practical physical reality. THis is why the physical is the gift of life, because it is stable, it is here, more real than any ideological heaven. Thus, the physical is for the human to self realize through becoming equal to what is creation manifest within what works and does no harm and physical interplay of sound into form and thus the joy of expression.

The solution is to give everyone a Living Income Guarantee. To ensure that all have a basic income to support themselves as physical beings. This will allow all of us to slow down for a moment and really look at what we are doing. Even if we all remain where we are, to keep the system going for a moment, the relieving of economic stress will open up our innate spatial capacity to see what we have done, to forgive this, and to realize step by step how to reorder all of this into a system that respect all life, and does what causes no harm. A Living Income Guarantee will remove the speeding time frame that is part of what is used to cause a cognitive dissonance of misinformation, that is composed of limited disclosure, this all being a legerdemain, a slight of hand. And this is created by how each of us move as mind within. If we had economic stability, we would realize this in short order. It is that simple.

Day 463 What is an autistic child doing?

My sister has an autistic son. He could name every car by make and model that moved past him when he was very small. This clearly reveals that this human being could order form, in detail by name. This child could speak and reflect what forms were passing before his eyes.

So, then, why cannot he read well? I mean words are forms that move as sounds voiced and as words on a page, where our eyes “ move” the words as we “ pass over” them. Is this any different than that car passing before the eyes of a child as they sit in a car? No. THe context is different but the process is similar, things moving before our eyes.

Thus this autistic child can order and name, can descry what exists. And the very process of sitting in a seat and reflecting what exists as words, in an order, means an ability to organize the surrounding environment.

So, why are the words that are ubiquitous from day one that which is not ordered by the autistic child? Obviously, this child can order seeming complex forms and differentiate them?

And words are important because they allow us to voice conceptualization of our environment as a movement, down to the smallest detail, to allow us to voice what we perceive and see as our interaction as physical beings on a physical world.

Perhaps the words are not clear, not voiced with absolute values, and thus are voiced without clear meaning? I mean, we adults are so busy in our lives, multitasking that our words are not us absolutely focused in the moment here. And for a child, this cannot be seen. But a car, as a form moving past the eyes of a child sitting in a car seat, has no other value present but itself as its form and it simple function as a car that moves things on wheels from one spot to another. No emotional values present - no words laced with worry, no expected inference as the adult assumes a silent pregnant meaning is understood when it is not, and/or meaning is given to one’s emotions and feelings - these lesser substantive ideologies that are relationships and associations to taught imaginations of visual indication of what represents a greater value as being a signifier of success, when this reveals none of the ordinary, the order of development, that leads to the extra-ordinary.

The words are not clear, direct of absolute value. Thus the autistic child cannot trust these words, has a hard time taking them in. And yet, this child can order. There is an opposition here, meaning conflict, meaning something is preventing the child from being clear, because if that child can order the cars, then obviously they can see here.

This would mean that if as humans we speak with emotional values as words, wanting someone to relate/consider our emotional values, the accumulation of our past, a inner memory picture show that is in essence our own personal esoteric platform, then the words we speak are not clear, and that child has not lived the picture show past of the parent exhibited in the emotional feelings lacings of added values that remain within each is us because we have not aligned ourselves equal to what is real, which is that physical form as the car passing by, able to be understood as a form in detail that has no emotional value, which is why that autistic child can so quickly register that form as that car, which means the ability of humans without emotional values is enormous and that the emotional feeling values are what causes a veil of disconnect, a picture show that impedes   conceptual ability of reality, of here. Thus, that autistic child cannot take in what is not of clear meaning as in clear structure relevant to what is reality as the physical world right in front of us, that which is demonized as being dirty, ugly, annoying - as we blame it for not being what we want it to be because we need money to exist as humans  because we have accepted and allowed this ideological value system of more and less that is then used to divide opportunity and exposure that obviously enables understanding, which causes lack in many which is then turned into a profit entity all while the picture show presentation blames the object on the ground, and so we circulate round and round in total separation from the physical world and the disorder manifests in increasingly more violent ways. And we can blame no one but ourselves as this is a collective effort.

So, in essence an autistic child is the manifestation, the very behavior of what each has accepted and allowed. The consequence is more discord. So, when ever one sees an autistic child, remember that this is what the collective has built through a state of being that is each point being in ignorance of how we have accepted and allowed a system that withholds development and developmental opportunity through suppression as all that is needed to exist in dignity is divided and conquered, then metered out in small parts accessible according to how much money one has,  to exist in full capacity as a human physical form within and without so that a few are able to have development to ensure that they live a “ fuller” life ( when they are not in fact living either) because of an idea that one thing is more than another, despite the physical world being a physical object that is a manifestation of life communicating its ability through its very, total, expression, as what is is able to do and be by form and movement. Thus the autistic child sees no reality in the emotional feeling state of the human, because the emotional/feeling states of the human have no real substance because these states are ideas of lesser dimension, and thus unequal to the value, which is the physical world that is how life is in formation and expression as what works which is why the physical world withstand the test of time - so to speak- because it reveals what works in a circular way, in an interconnected way that allows a planet to be and express life.

We humans have allowed a mind/consciousness system to become more than life, and this mind consciousness system is a parasite, a para- sight or “ site” as in web site - lol a webbed site- to be more than life, to be unequal to physicality, and in all common sense rejection of all manifested life, as what the physical is, is a judgement in itself, a belief that one thing is more than another. We have allowed ourselves to be so “ had” that others suffer because of this. And our autistic children are the ones bearing the brunt of our ignorance.

It is time to get this world in order, the solution is to level ourselves back into physical reality, to forgive the memories, the past, and to stop using the past to project possibility into the future, and to align ourselves here, equal and one to and with and as the physical as this is the manifestation of life here, it is what is real it is what is here when we die, it is what we feed off of. Time to remove the laws that are a protection and defense ( the fence- for a few who are them selves products of separation from reality as the extreme end of the outcome of this more than, less than picture show of idea through value generation ) of an illusion that one physical form is more than another, that one human being is not an earth welfare baby and another is not seeing that the consequences of self aggrandizement are the taking of power as what sustains life in dignity and dividing it into unequal piles and justifying it through value touting.

The solution is to realize how each of us are this value touting every time we become emotional, every time we desire a feeling, and that if we slow down and take a look, these energetic states of being are parasites that are inferior to life, here, that if we stand as what is best for all, meaning standing as give as one would like to receive because we live in a physical existence that reveals itself as what it is as a physical form, that judgement in any way is not self being directive here in common sense of reality.

Support a Living Income Guarantee because it is time to get this world in order, the order of common sense of life as a physical planet that is interconnected, a “ machine” that is composed of parts that cannot function unless all parts, are in working order, for which there is more than enough resource, freely given, to enable a world where in essence no one need vast amount of “ more of that resource” than another because if this world is in order and functioning in full capacity then there need be no protective mechanisms, because no matter where one walks, life is at ease, safe, secure, stable. I mean is this not what we all want for our children? LIG Living Income Guarantee.

Our autistic children are simply a manifestation of our separation from common sense. And yet they are showing us what is real. Our autistic children are clinging to what is real, because we as humans are walking in bubbles of singular esoteric memories that are in essence insubstantial and bear no witness to life, which is the physical. Have a look, that bubble of emotion and feeling values will not and cannot with stand the test of time. Equalize yourself to life, within DIP Lite. It is FREE.

                        Living Income Guarantee. It is time to 

                                withstand the test of time.

Day 342 There is no escape from facing what has been allowed on earth. Period.

How can we have a system that allows a few to decide they own the resources of this earth? How can we sit and talk about what “ they” the corporation is doing, what “ they” our elected officials are doing without realizing that we voted these “ they” in” We allowed this, thus when we find we have to pay for out water, we have no one to blame but ourselves, as we ignore what is happening here on earth.
The “ they” is us, the people, and the “they” is us not looking at this world and making informed decisions about what we as the “ they” are doing. In this all abuse existent on earth is the fault of each and every one of us.
Thus the debt that is the outcome of usury, of interest lending on principle, this debt that will inevitably become greater than the principle as the interest can never fully be repaid, will become the burden we bear as we have accepted and allowed this despite having been told by a man with common sense, Christ, that this was enslavement.
So the corporations seeking profits, within and as claiming ownership of natural resources to create a constant profit, going and grabbing the land in their name purporting to develop the land, in the interest of profit, removing the life that is there, simply disregarding it and not paying a living wage, in the interest of profit, is the fault of each of us.
Those children sold into sex, are the fault of each of us for accepting and allowing this form to exist on earth.
Those children starving, they are the fault of each of us, as we have accepted this system of inequality, and turned that corporation into some ambiguous entity, not realizing it is composed of us, of men, of people, as we distort reality into objects of unclear understanding to become ignorant and abdicate our responsibility.
Our children existing in unstable homes and thus becoming the expression of their surroundings as instability, our schools unable, though many teachers try very hard not understanding themselves how the mind and the physical function in detail. Then, this is turned into a profit as America now has the largest prison population, where these prisons are supported by tax dollars as these prisoners are now cheap labor for the companies that make helmets and some appliance parts, a win for profit a loss for the development of that life. And we the people, accept and allow this. Thus we are to blame for all the abuse existent on earth.
The human is the outcome of what is provided for by a system that was created by men. Men are trainable, able, capable, as we see all children are able to learn rapidly and when exposed to stable environments and an education, they can become self perfected beings able to express themselves. We take away through non support and lack in the self determination development of others to feed a system of profit for a few. Thus our ignorance manifest as greed, a crime against life. and we are all to blame. Greed is a form of fear, because being removed from that value being life, being separate from this is a state of lack, and because this is a state of lack of awareness of the value being life, it has no self responsibility within the whole, within considering all life and respecting life thus this lack becomes an expression as energy in its limitation, this limitation breeds behaviors of fear, such as greed.
Just as the debt in the construct of usury leads to a greater debt than principle, is our disregard for this earth as being equal to us, here to support us, going to grow as a debt of pollution, the effects already here with the number of children born with birth defects and autism? Is this what we want for the life that is here? Do we really think that when we die we will be removed from this, from the consequences of this? Do you really think that our actions are not going to be faced by each of us?

Everything that we have allowed on this earth will be faced by each and every one of us, and this is how it should be. There cannot be any escape, as it should be, because we must all realize our ignorance, what we ignored, as this is the only way to become life. There is no other way, in all common sense. If we wait, the consequences of our ignorance are only going to compound until we wake up and follow through with a directive principle that shows us to ourselves that we are all willing to stand as life here, to realize ourselves as life, and this means being aware of what is happening on this earth in totality, on every inch, to making sure that what is here as life, is allowed to be life, here.
We all want our children to become responsible human beings, we would rather this than having to take care of them for our lives. We would rather our children learn to direct themselves, as being self determining is a joy, but in order for this to happen we, each of us, must realize that the present system is not allowing this and that it is a reflection of what we have each allowed within ourselves, we have chosen fear instead of life and until we choose life, the only choice, we cannot be life, we only pretend at life. Which is what we are doing here on earth, pretending to limited values and ideas instead of facing and standing up as life, realizing life is the value and creating a system that is the mirrorof what we are as life within, without.
If the greatest gift were life, would not you have your child face the consequences of the lack/ignorance so that they would realize themselves and become the greatest gift there was? Yes, you would.
Thus death is not the way out, as the consequences of what has been accepted and allowed on this earth that has not allowed self responsibility, self determination, self expression for every bit of life on this planet will have to be faced and worked with clearing up until it is done.
This is the only choice. And that is common sense.
Walk the desteni I process lite and pro. to get what you have accepted and allowed in being less than life, as what you are, cleaned up so that you can stand as life and begin to realign this earth into a system that supports all life realizing the value is life.
Consciousness was the outflow of our separation from life, as our thoughts that compound into emotions and feelings, our limited insight/values that are parts of life, that are what we pretend to in self abdication as life, collections of beliefs, opinion and ideas based on where we were born on a grid of separation into race, class, nationality, religion. We have become parts, collections of divisions that are reflected as mind, as consciousness. Consciousness is the signifier of our ignorance and thus it is the gift of showing us our ignorance for which we must forgive ourselves, bring back to ourselves to face ourselves as life, to stand up and accept ourselves as life.
Consciousness as mind indicates where we have not followed through in common sense of life of which the physical is the gift for and as. Heaven as an afterlife is a fantasy, what is real is the physical world. Thus what is real is right under your feet. Time to remove the hallow halo, it is the product of your separation from life. It is your hell, it is your precious pretend ring, it is the projection of our ignorance.
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