Day 180 What is physically actually HERE

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand that all there is is HERE.
I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to always bring myself back to HERE.
I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to have a relationship to HERE.
I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand that when I become ansi and restless in the face of a rant, my own or from another, the onlysolution is to stop and to breath and to bring myself here, to look at what I am ranting about and what the rant supports as an idea, belief or opinion, want, desire or need, and to stop and to come back to HERE.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to allow ideas in and as my mind, which are always judgements, upholding a moreal as what I believe myself to be as reactions in fear of myself as life, separating myself from here.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to allow relationships that are in separation from what is actually practically here.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not see, realize and understand that having “faith” is existing in total abdication of what is actually physically here, which within a system of inequality would be what is taught as this takes what is real, the very resource of this earth and diminishes it in the eyes of the labor force as the human, to make this resource believe in something else being real to allow what is real, this physical world, to then be owned by a few.
I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand that the idea of faith is an opiate of the masses, that leads to a fantasy and a separation from what is real which is what is here.
I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand that creating a dream, and building an idea of “faith” to and towards that “dream” and saying this over and over again until it is believed is the perfect guise to control what is here.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not see realize and understand that the development of relationships being made so huge as being more important than another, is also the same thing used to separate from here, as this is making a part of all that is here, bigger than another part of here, and this is a means of separation from here.
I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand that if I become separate from HERE, I will no longer be able to see, here, and thus I will lose my sense of space HERE, which is what happens to so many humans as they age, they lose their sense of here and can no longer walk on this earth, this physical real world HERE, or even stand for that matter.
I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand that the lack of communication between individuals is also revealing a separation from HERE.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to have voices in and as my mind, that are myself thinking, “ I have to get away from here”, which is what I am doing when I do not want to hear the rants of another.
I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to say to someone telling me about their past, “ What does this have to do with what is right HERE right now?”
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to think, “ I want to get away from this.”
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to say to myself “ I don’t want to hear this” which as the words suggest, I do not want to HERE this, as this seems like a burden to me, and I immediately want to protect myself from bringing HERE the “hear” as the words being spoken.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to imagine escape, to think of ways to escape, to not have to HERE the thing being HEARd.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to imagine no longer having to here the HEARd.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not see, realize and understand that the only way out of the HEARd is to HERE the HEARd.
I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand that the HERD as the sheep as the human is separated from the HERE through the HEARd.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand that when I become ansi, I am a reaction to the HEARd as wanting to escape instead of bringing myself here in practical common sense of what is here, as it is here that I move myself, it is here that supports me as life, as the mind cannot exist without HERE, which is explained within the Heaven’s Journey to Life blogs and the History of Mankind series at Eqafe, among others.
I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to realize that within my human physical body I become restless and ansi, and become a behavior of wanting to escape, which is a behavior of separation from here.
I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand that in wanting to escape I am not facing that which is before me, that is me, here.
I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to trust myself as life here, and to stand and to be here and to realize that all there is is here, as this is the answer to the ego as the rant as the story that, as ego, is in separation from here.
I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand that in not bringing what is said, here, I separate myself from my own self hONEsty and do not allow myself to develop common sense of what is here in practice within and as myself here and only prolong my separation from life here.
I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand that the very act of comparison is myself within limited values, as I am not here, accepting what is actually physically here, understanding the very form of what is here and investigating what is here, simply as what it is and how it functions in and as support as life.
I commit myself to see, realize and understand that there is no running away, as all there is is here.
I commit myself to breathing when I feel myself becoming restless and ansi to center myself here, and within this direct all that is being spoken, as myself as mind as the voices in my head and the HEARd words of another to here.

Day 88 Worry and the Future

Day 88

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to be the worry wart.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not realize that I was always told that a little worry was good.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to realize that to worry is to look into the future.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to realize that to look into the future is not myself being here, and thus is myself looking into the future based on experiences from the past.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to realize that all I can be one with and direct myself as is what is here, present in this moment here, thus to worry about what is not here is to worry about something that is within my imagination and thus is not real.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to want to know what will be in the future, not realizing that this is not myself being life here, one and equal as life , to life, which is this physical world here.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, that to worry about the future is actually to doubt what is real, to disrespect life as what is real, as what is here, and to follow what is the morality of fear that is what is taught by a system of separation from life, manifest within and as a profit based system on an unconditionally giving earth, where the outer world reflect the inner allowances of men in and as beliefs , opinions and ideas that are in separation from life, in doubt and ignorance of life, as life is what gives all that is here, where the earth gives without name and ownership, where the earth suffers abuse in the patience that men will realize that the only choice is to give as one would like to receive, the earth being the model and likeness of giving unconditionally.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand that all that is of worry, as the voices in and as my mind, are of a language taught and thus learned, where animals do not speak, yet, like a dog, gives unconditionally, an action more considerate of life than the present system of men, that allows money to represent  resource, and then allows this money  to be owned by a few, to withhold unconditionally given sustenance, where many are starving at the hands of such accepted and allowed actions that are an atrocity and create disease as disease is the outcome of the physical not given sustenance, where this sustenance is here, as this earth, being unconditionally giving as this is life, as this is what is best for all.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to desire to, as those who have signed their names on the paper of trees to signify ownership/ownershit,  to control my own world, as this is what i have been taught, evident within my own action, as my mind, of fearing the future, worrying about the future, trying to organize the future in and as fear of loss, wanting to control, an illusion causing disease, as I am in separation from life within this.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand that this worry about the future is a character developed through the words explaining morality taught to me as a child, in separation from life, where I was not taught to be what I am, and where I accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from life, through worrying about the future and thus disrespecting myself as life.

I commit myself to stopping myself from worry, from wanting to control and know the future, which is myself in and as fear.

I commit myself to breath, where I remain here, and I stop the voices in and as my mind until I become one and equal to life here.

I commit myself to stop myself in and as my mind from wanting to know the future which is my self fearing a loss of comfort and an existence as all that i know.

I commit myself to stopping myself from thinking about the future, remaining here in breath every moment not allowing myself to go into being a character of worry.

I commit myself to stopping myself from thinking about the future in and as worry, and remaining here in breath.

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