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Tuesday, October 27, 2015

Day 654 Returning to Common Sense.

Returning to common sense.

Last night, as I was driving back from a second presentation for the week, I wanted to go into all manner of self doubt and give up. The problem is that the drama within and as me, had no common sense. This was myself looking at lack, instead of the very measure of the world around me. I had to stop, as I do so often these days, in terms of the beliefs, opinions and ideas that swim around in my mind, as what my own mindfulness is, filled with a measure that categorizes things within values of more than and less than, ignoring the practical right in front of me. I live on and as a physical beingness, and this physical world has an order of creation, built of parts, as cells, and probably even smaller particles. And these parts, collectively form me, here. It is a magnificent thing for sure. 

And yet, here I am imagining all manner of doom and gloom situations that bear no witness to this practical living measure. Instead, I am in an imaginative construction of limited ideas, made larger than the life around me, the physical life around me. I have accepted and allowed what is usurious as a verb, and pyramidal as a form, composed of limited values that are metaphysical, because they are not in common sense of this physical means of expression, which would be to include all life!

Within this limited construction lived in an imaginative state, I have become a mind consciousness and not a life consciousness. I have allowed a bubble of limitation to define who and what I am.

And, because I learn through spaced repetition, I become what I believe as a measure, I program myself with a metaphysical ideology, that does not fit into what I am, causing a dis-ease within my physical self and with the world around me, hence instead of seeing directly here, I end up in my car, driving down the road, imagining a lack, believing my inner measure to be true, and everyone else’s measure to be  the fault in comparison to my own. Yet, right here, right in that moment, is the obvious answer, I am in separation from common sense, and that common sense is right here in front of me, all the time, has always been! Thus, it is only me who can be the blame, because I accepted it, I allowed it. I am the cause of my own separation and I am the only one that can change this lesser measure that is chaotic because it does not fit into reality, as the physical. I am the cause of friction as the conflict within composed of self pity, and spite towards the world around me. I am focused within a construct of lack. I have, because I learn through spaced repetition, accepted limited measures about reality, again and again until I have believed them to be true. Hence when I race as my own measure of expectation, and that expectation is not lived exactly as my inner picture show stories, I crash. 

As I drove, I stopped. The blame and spite in my mind, sometimes blaming  a lack without, and/or a lack within, judging another and/or myself as not being enough, has nothing to do with using common sense, realizing that we all are doing this, and grounding what is always right here, as the solution of bringing everything back down to earth, as in moving into a common sense measure with the means of myself being here, which is the physical world. The means of this is always the simple. And that simple is always right here in front of me, it has to be, or the ubiquitous media shower of a ‘ good’ that is a false positive would not be so effective in causing a metaphysical society in separation from earth as mankind! 

That ever present and constant media uses a spaced measure of constant remeasure to ensure common sense is not used, to distract one from what is real, as the physical world that is creation information. LOL, the media uses a limited information and repeats it again and again, to induce, or divide the within measure of each person from what is real, the physical world that is creation information.

Someone said to me this week, as I brought up what is called the ‘ harem effect’ that this was only showing the preference of a person. Yes, this is true, yet it is that preference when used to define a person, as a set of values preferred, that the rest of the many wonderful values as qualities of the physical world are ignored, hence an expansion within one’s awareness of the qualities of the world around us, are denied, as those limited values that are not bad values, are chased to serve one’s personification of oneself. That personification when made larger than the physical is a limitation. If one decides to be that measure, because it is a measure, that is cool, yet remember that one is ‘ trying something out’ and within this to respect all other measure as being of equal value, where not one is more than another. And remember that if one remains within one measure, it can become an illusion of truth, which leads to becoming stagnant, where that truth becomes a comfort, and change appears to cause a death of one’s habit or measure which appears to be uncomfortable, and is really only un- com-forting one’s value system composed of qualities in a moment. Thus, it is as though one took on some values in a moment, and within that forgot, or dismembered one’s self from everything else in this physical world. If one remembered this, then change would be a transformation instead of a death. 

Yet all of this shows how much we are creators!  If we look at how fluid children are, how they absorb and change and develop, we can understand that this is our real nature, to be able to change and take in form and function! Our within is really just like water, we can take on the form of the world around us, and come up with new ways of doing things! In all common sense, this is how men, as their real nature, can come up with new ways of doing things that improve our understanding of the means of living as the physical world around us. And, this is when we are most happy, because we are using all of ourselves to sense the world around us! This is the gift of life, within and as us. This is the instrument of the physical world as us, moving in fluid constancy as change with creation as the physical world as life information!
It is only because we have allowed ourselves to believe an inner measure for a moment to be more than the world around us, as the physical, that we have become stagnant and interior to life. We are living in fear, we are allowing a false evidence to appear real! And that false evidence is composed of qualities that are inflated values ignoring all values as being a part of life! It is really very simple. Hence, spiting and blaming another’s value system which is self blaming and spiting self’s value system because it is all composed of values existent within the physical, is really only a paranormal event in one’s mind and not an act of respect for life. It is not self being self as life, it is a disconnect from one’s real nature, which is fluid and changeable like water.

So, as I sat in my car, I realized that all the fear moving through me in the form of believing in a lack and blaming that lack, within and without, and realizing that the expectations I held based on limited values that missed a common sense of reality and the separation that exists as the minds of men, I have to slow down, and realize the hue on men, is a measure of limited values believed to be more than reality, that have become one’s greatest weakness as false evidence appearing real, a meta-physical construction of values that are great strengths because they are aspects of reality, as the only thing that is real, is the physical world as this is life information.

The warning here, is that the imposition of a false god, as a limited meta-physical construction of beliefs, opinions and ideas, to define one’s self, perpetually made larger than life, will destroy life, render it shattered because that imposition of lack, does not fit into creation, cannot and will not. As life takes that which is good and does no harm. Unless each man, removes the hue of self interest, and respects the physical world, which means working with the physical in ways that do no harm, using one’s real nature that is fluid like water and considering all things, within each moment, the physical world will shatter and disintegrate, as we see happening all around us, especially in the state of health of our trees. We are, if we continue to allow hierarchy, destroying this earth and creation, we are destroying the means to being life in expression, as nature is the product of what works in the physical, as what works in the physical is what fits in symbiotic ways.


We have one chance, one life, we can realize equality, as everything being us in another form/life, or we can stagnate in a mind consciousness that is a limitation forgetful of the real creation as the physical world guiding us towards what works as in what does no harm, taking that which is good as this is the action of respecting all things.



Sunday, December 30, 2012

Day 245 A projection from the past.

I was sitting in a passenger seat of a car today, watching the driver when suddenly it was as though I was a child watching my father drive, and this positive feeling rushed through me, life, “WOW” my dad is so cool, he can move the stick shift and move the pedals and drive this car, he is so cool, how does he do that? This car is so big and, wow, look at him driving the CAR!, He is amazing!” I stopped. It was like I am sitting there and suddenly this feeling thing and memory “film” thing is there. Since I am walking the desteni process, I realized that this happy feeling was from this past memory, imposed onto what was here and real, this physical world.
I also thought, if I did not have this, and I did not catch this, Would I have imposed this onto that moment, and associated this past even with that moment, and thus, not even realize that moment for what it was? Would I have then said to someone when I justified a choice made in relation to who and what was involved in that moment as “ I have a feeling”, or “ I just know this, because I know, because I have a strong FEELING about this”?
So, here i am projecting this “feeling” and I catch the memory there in that moment from my childhood as a moment of believing my parent to be some big magical being able to drive a car in relation to me being a child, feeling small and unable, and the residual feeling memory, as the projection being this “wow” moment, where what is behind this is obviously myself., as a small child, measuring myself to an adult, actually judging myself as incapable.
But this is how the mind works, how the energetic feelings and emotions work attached to the memory as the moment within a judgement, which is the “good’ and the “bad” judgment. The good being the other end of the spectrum of energy, as both feeling and emotion are energy and not self here, equal and one to and as the physical as the substance of life.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to have judged myself as less than the person driving the car that I was in.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to have believed myself to be less than the person driving the car that i was in.
I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand that at that moment in the car, I was feeling sorry, or worried about myself in some way, and thus a memory came up of same situation, where i was believing myself to be incapable, as I was a child in the memory, as I looked up and over to my father driving a car, and allowing myself to go into a state of awe in my father’s ability to drive a car, where I judged my father as this god-like figure able to drive a big scary car.
I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand that I was a child, and even if I were capable of driving a car, I was not big enough to see out the windshield, thus to compare myself to my father driving the car was of no common sense awareness of the physical world at that time, and thus I gave the situation a limited value awareness not seeing realizing and understanding with practical common sense the reality of the moment, and instead imprinted myself with a memory of myself as being less than and my father as being some kind of super hero, and yet I can also see that this attitude was probably developed through the stories and images I had seen on TV , read in books, and picked up within the relationships around me as parents and other adults with whom I had come in contact, all of them existing in and as their minds as consciousness, judging life within limited values not seeing realizing and understanding the mind and how it functions.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not see, realize and understand how automatic I have become within and as a mind consciousness system of judgement, of measuring my world according to limited ideas, beliefs and opinions as values in separation from what is actually really here in and as the physical, as within this example, where all I was doing was sitting in the passenger seat of a car, looking at the driver for the moment, and simply nothing else, thus there was no need to make a judgement about this moment, and yet, because i have accepted and allowed a system , as mind, of limited values, as separation , and thus allowing myself to become energy, limited and separate from a sound, here, mind, I have become automatic within and as reacting within and as judgement through comparison and competition, which I project onto the physical reality, which I have no awareness of within the automation of this, unless I stop and I breath, and I learn to understand myself as the mind, as judgment as more than and less than, as belief, opinion and idea, based on the MO, the method of operation within a survival based system within the society, class, nationality, economic situation, race, culture in which I live, and that i am a collection of beliefs carried and developed through generations of same acceptances and allowances as mind, as separation from what is real as the substance of the physical, and thus have I learned to live in an alternate judgmental reality in separation from being here, equal and one to and as the substance as life, as the physical, creating an outcome of reaction instead of an action of equality to and as life, in self direction, and thus full potential of myself as life, here.

I commit myself to seeing realizing and understanding that memories that come up in normal everyday situations where a feeling or an emotion seem to suddenly possess me I stop and I breath, and I realize that I am existing within as a judgement based on the past as a “more than and a less than” in relation to what is actually physically here in the moment.
I commit myself to slowing myself down in and as breath, to remain equal and one with and as the physical here, where should emotions and feelings come I realize that they are not what i am here in this moment unless I accept and allow them, and that what they essentially reveal , is myself within and as self judgement based on a want, desire and need of limited values as what was taught within a system of competition to survive creating a behavior of incessant comparison, all in separation from realizing equality and oneness and what I am as life as what this earth is, here.
I commit myself to, when and as I have an emotion or feeling, I stop and I breath, and I realize what triggered the memory I am projecting onto my environment, and as what I am allowing myself to be , here, to see realize and understand the thought within and as comparison and thus fear of loss, to bring myself back here, equal and one , with and as what is real, the physical.
I commit myself to realize that the initial emotion of feeling less than, my father, was made from a child’s viewpoint, where there was no physical reason to judge myself as being incapable, or less than , in any way, within driving a car, as I simply was not physically big enough to drive a car.
I commit myself to not allow myself to turn another person into a super hero and instead to use my common sense, and realize how this physical world works in common sense, as within this situation as this memory of myself as a child, my father was simply large enough to drive a car, and had practiced the mechanisms of driving a car and thus was able within the nature of his size, and the practice with the apparatus of the car, able to drive the car, and had I been taught in such a way as a child, learning to understand the physical world, a judgement of an adult driving a car would not have been turned into this person being some “more awesome”, meaning super hero seeming fantastic idea, which is to not judge a person as less than, but to realize practical reality as being life, where life is what is special in each and every one of us, as life is the gift.

Sunday, October 7, 2012

Day 167 Service to dividends is loss of breath

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to become so worried about paying for my existence, that I constrict all through my bones and exist as a fear of the future.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not see realize and understand that my anxiousness , and my breath that seems as though it can’t get enough air, is myself not slowing myself down and looking at what is here, it is myself in worry and fear about having enough money to, for instance, fix the roof, or replace the washing machine.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to allow the fear of this to become what I am, not realizing, seeing and understanding how this present system actually works, where this being of myself in fear of loss, becomes a storm of fear, as emotion and I am no longer here, and within this, what has been taught is a system of accepting and allowing a hierarchy of more than and less than, where I judge myself to be more than through belief that one color of skin is more than another, that one nation is more than another, that the ability of a person to speak eloquently is more than another person, when all men are the same, and it is only circumstance and education that gives an opportunity and ability, and has nothing to do with being more than or less than, as the human is able to be trained and educated, thus all men can learn, just as most men - excepting those with extreme physical malformations, and why does this exist - have learned to walk, which is coordinating multiple actions, and thus men learn, it is only lack that determines a person unable to express themselves, and has nothing to do with innate ability.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to worry about money, to believe that I have failed in some way because I do not have some job that makes a lot of money, within a system of debt, where money is borrowed with interest, known as usury , a crime against life, as the interest must come from nothing, as it does not exist, thus no matter what, someone, or many, will not be able to repay the interest, and the lender will end up owning the object borrowed on, and thus, eventually no one will own anything but a few, and the majority will become the perpetual payers of debt as this is a system of obsolescence -meaning products made to not last, products made to ensure a steady flow of dividends for a few and a perpetual recycling of resource, raped from the earth in reckless abandon, to ensure new products to feed the dividend machine, thus no consideration for products that last and function in respect for this earth, in the development of using resources in ways that eliminate waste, that produce efficient and practical self sustaining machines and products, as this self sustaining is a state that does not create flowing dividends.
I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand that this system must stop, as the earth has only so many resources, meaning that what is here must be used in respect of this planet, what is here must be used to sustain what is here.
I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand that not only are the products of this earth designed with what is best for all at heart, the very development of the human is not designed with what is best for all at heart, thus is the human not taught to actually understand how this physical world works, as this would place form and function, being and life as the value and not that dividend as the product of a system of inequality where money represents owned resources, a subjectively placed belief only, by a few.
I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand that all work within this system is locked in place to supporting this flow of earth resource to maintain dividends for a few, thus self sustaining systems , such as solar energy, cannot and will not be created, as this leads to a reduction in dividends and creates more autonomy, which in turns demands fewer workers to maintain, for instance, electrical lines, and or sewage systems, which the owners of resource do not want, as this would mean less dividends, and also, less stress for the debtor and workers, and thus more time to self realize the existent abuse, and less desire to escape into seeming mindless entertainment and more time to relax and enjoy this physical world.
I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand that it is the many holding up this pyramid of inequality, of dividend payment to a few on top of this system of abuse, and disregard for this earth, and nondevelopment of the human, thus it is the many that must stand where they are and vote for a system of common sense support for all life that is here, it is the many that must realize that TV is fucking boring and only an emotional polarity as a roller coaster of highs and lows, a drama going no where, simply perpetuating, just a some TV series go on and on never really going anywhere, simply moving from drama to resolution within a feel good moment and nothing else, and all of this takes place in and as the mind, where no real physical living and communication with this physical world is taking place.
I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand that all my worries are geared to serve this system of dividends for the fear-of-life few, as all that is supposedly owned - which is a belief placed by a few men, and accepted by all men, where I become stressed within my fear of survival, and thus dependent on objects without to sustain myself here, without understanding of myself as life, thus all directives are from without, which is just where a system of inequality would want me, to create more products , more division from life, more separation from common sense, more dividends for the few, thus is ignorance taught as a separation to create divisions and thus dividends for the few and there is no one to blame but each and every one who continues to support such a system, as it is ignorance as what is taught that is supporting this system of abuse, plain and simple; division and conquest is the development and implementation of ignorance so that a few can have a dividend in protection of their own fear of self as life, separation from themselves as life, here.
I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand the industry necessary to uphold this, and how this can be changed to support life, as what is best for all, as all this industry is in place, to serve the few, to move resource around to provide that dividend, and thus this earth is organized enough, to become a support of life here, to ensure that what is existent on this earth is awareness of self as life, and not self placed into a fairy tale box of ignorance, a box where the fantasy becomes so huge, where the dreaming , weaving of self into and as fantasy, is a separation from life, and this process of fantastic light shows in and as the mind, consume the human physical body - so easy to understand in simply looking around at the amount of disease and starvation on this planet, thus is the the human the same as what is supported, a dividend run by belief, opinion and idea, of more than and less than, a separation from equality with and as this physical world, and thus a diminishment in seeing what is actually physically real in common sense, a loss of sense of the actual physical space here, so evident in loss of physical depth perception, in so many, as a lack in so many to be unable to sing, or draw, or serf, or even ride a bike, or know how to fix a simple machine, or communicate with others.

I commit myself, to see, realize and understand how the very energetics of emotions and feelings are the separation from myself as life, as these energetics as emotions and feelings are the mask that separates myself as life, from an awareness of this physical world, and the present system, dividing and conquering all aspects of directing what it is that I am as focus of myself here, that i am so wrapped up within this system of dividend for the few that I have no awareness of my own separation, which is exactly what would be created within a system of dividend for the few, so easy to see, realize and understand in looking at how whole countries are being turned into debtors through overblown loans created to ensure a perpetual dividend for the few, where the medical industry ensures an acceptance of a pill taken for life, another form of enslavement and non development of health - a system that creates emotions of worry and fear of death, as what is the focus is the disease, and no directives given within self support, where in America, what is proposed with a happy face is supposed “universal health care” which in essence of allowing a platform of limited choice, and the choice offered is that which will ensure that dividend, thus health, as a being in self care, is not what is offered.


I commit myself to see, realize and understand that as I have been trained to support a system of more than and less than, where entertainment is emotional and feeling dramas as fantasy in and as my mind, in separation from actual awareness of this physical world as what i am, and since this is all that I know, a contrast of this will seem unreal, will seem unbelievable, and thus will take some effort to see, realize and understand, as all I know are what supports that dividend and not myself as life, in awareness of how this physical world functions, so obvious in my lack of understanding of the simplest of things in my world, where for many, even driving a stick shift car seems difficult - this an indication of how much one is in separation of the physical, how much one is unable to physically sense this actual physical world. it is as simple as that.
I commit myself to breath, to becoming focused on my own breath, to begin to place myself as life, back into physical awareness, as what i am here, one and equal to and as, and to begin to remove the emotional/feeling storms within and as the singular focus of myself here, to bring myself back here into and as common sense of what is physical here.
I commit myself to practicing breath, to diminishing the storm of emotion and feeling, the fantasy in and as my mind, triggered by thoughts as ideas, beliefs and opinions taught within a system of inequality, as all that has been known on earth for generations, to forgive what ever emotion comes up until it becomes small enough to be realized for what it is, simply an energetic storm, the very thing separating me from here, where I will find myself lighter and able to understand and realize more insight as to what is physically real and thus such small things as learning to drive a stick shift car will no longer appear, through the haze of limited belief, as such an impossible thing to sense, realize and actually do.
I commit myself to realizing that all entertainment is avoidance of self awareness.
I commit myself to realizing that sex is a physical release of pent up energy, and has nothing to do with actual physical expression, where I enjoy touch in and as the physical, and am not obsessed with imagery and a quick energetic high as a sexual orgasm - which will need constant stimulation when lived as energy, as energy needs constant support and thus can never satisfy as it is not self directing self here, one and equal to life.
I commit myself to realizing that all abusive behaviors are a product of supplying the demand for dividend for the few, as being an energetic storm of emotion and feeling, triggered by belief, ideas and opinions as thought, are self in service to a system of inequality, a system of lack as less, and more, as excessive comforts for a few.
I commit myself to not longer allowing myself to constrict in and as fear of survival, realizing that yes, this system exists, but that I must bring myself here, one and equal to life, and become the living word, through slowing myself down and no longer fearing loss and death, to slow myself down and not allowing myself to focus on loss, to no longer allow emotional and feeling storms of judgement as label of less than another, or excitement at an idea of potential gain, to become aware of my own separation from life, my allowance of dividends as emotions and feelings in service to what a system of inequality uses, as fear, to be what I am here, to realize myself as life, to stand and to get this earth in order, into a system that respects and supports life, as this is the value, as this is what each and every one of us is the very substance of and as, an expression of life.
Time to stop the divide that ends in a non transcendent death. Take what is here, and utilize it to support life. Time to place the breath of life back into ourselves and this earth into what is is, life, here, become the ease that you are/ Walk the Desteni I Process, it is a supportive organized template to hold your hand as you walk yourself back to what you are, LIFE.


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