Day 478 A hangover as data of knowledge and inFORMation.

I have been writing every day, but unable to post. Somehow the words just don’t fit what I want to say. 

I have had so much knowledge and information passing by that it all seems to be the same to me, the same limitations, the same wars, the same things being said again and again.

When I go to take a test that I am prepared for, I am calm.  I just walk it, do it. 

But, right now it is like I am at war with myself. Like I keep wanting to react, in short bursts of rapid gun fire, but I have to pull myself back. Like, NO! and then in a more gentle voice, come back, like that reaction serves no purpose.

It is an idea based on no real thing and as such is devoid of purpose. Lack of purpose misses the mark, and as such becomes frustration. Frustration is simply not being here, right here, equal and one in common sense to what is here. So used to racing that this can be missed.

In may ways it is like having a hangover. I feel like I am in a state where I want this hangover out of me, I want it gone, it is heavy, it is so tricky, so clingy. I find myself suddenly imagining something, usually a gloom and doom scenario, and or suddenly a magical fairy tale that appears to promise something. I realize this is more dream than reality. And yet underneath it all, there is what we all want, and that is to get along with one another, to actually enjoy one another. This happening in a state of ease, a state of calm, like when one is ready to take a test, and even looks forward to it. 

In so many ways this should be what happens as we as men enter this earth, a looking forward to understanding this actual real physical world. 

And yet, what happens to us? We become combatants in a war zone. It is the consequence of hierarchy, the consequence of judgement, the consequence of measuring one thing against another without looking at what is the same, which is the breath of life, the movement that is creation. And that creation is like an eternal ocean underneath all of it, so huge, so willing to just be. Instead we are all moving within very limited, selected popisms, pop ups as ideas, as pictures, as skips in sequences of what is real in total. And there is a machine within us, that holds this, as wired as any television set. It is just that we are so consumed by the imagery that we cannot see the mechanisms of it.  And we keep looking with the mechanism, instead of looking at the physical. I mean, why is the anecdotal considered insubstantial? Why is data considered to hold more value? And why is data now considered private?

Data is now being moved into any number of justification : trade secrets, privacy laws,  professional requirements to be able to decipher ( which means properly programmed to the limitation). All of this means that each of us has an innate capacity to realize the limitations being the justifications for choices made as the forms of description ( encryption)  filed away to support the directives based on an idea. This is each of us supporting this, we are the web accepting the limitations, the beliefs, the manipulations, despite the evidence of the harm anecdotally all around us. 

One example of how we take parts to justify a means is a recent vaccine justification I heard.

The doctor, supposed doctor, said that polio is breaking out in Syria, and then relates this to vaccines in general, saying we need vaccines in America. THis a movement from one point to a collective point within this platform of vaccines in total. Tying all to one. Also, taking a war torn country, where the infrastructure has been droned to rubble, thus all water and shelter is severely diminished causing a lack of basic human physical needs, which lead to disease. So to compare, as in pointing out only that polio is appearing in Syria within the state of Syria without clarifying this, and as this relating this to justify a need in America makes no sense, even if it were true, the basis of this. THis is misinformation, it builds no understanding of the total picture, and as such this is a limited story presented to justify an end, and force that end on others, using a threat that is not disclosed, presupposing an outcome without any real investigation. I can see here where this can become a spin, a snake eating its own tail, if we allow it.  In essence this is using a war zone, an extreme to determine a mean to be imposed on all equally. That is just criminal.

In another way, this is using taxpayer dollars to create an extreme environment and then to use the consequences to decide that what counters the disease in such a situation needs to be given to all, just in case such comes out way. This is fear mongering. THis is what if? And all the while, what is causing the disease, self created, is not looked at. How the environment on which we live as this physical earth, when shredded, causes all manner of a diseased life. 

THis is running after consequence of destruction, ignoring the act that caused the dis-ease and deciding that the bandaids are a solution.

And this is also done by not clarifying the sequences. For example, the whole vaccine debate revolves around word play, parents believe that vaccines are causing Autism. The industry and our so called administrations are saying that vaccines do not cause autism. ( meanwhile “ royalities/revenues are all tied into this, like the music industry asking rap to sing words that impulse criminality to fill prisons and if they do not, then the prisons won’t be filled and their investments will not make them any money - which over all must be a configuration done internally because a few own everything, they own the puzzle pieces and can move them in ways that enslave, meaning it is all bullshit and criminal over all)  Here a step has been skipped, a detail not mentioned. It is that vaccines cause inflammation of the brain and this leads to Autism, which as I understand is accepted by the government/taxpayer revenue - who, monetarily,  carry the ill effects of vaccines. The industry  reaps the profits, to then have the means to manipulate the pieces of what builds revenue to force outcomes in self interest( the one wanting the impulsing “ rap” to create revenue from prisons). The walls of the castle hide behind detail not being mentioned to maintain inequality, which again, leads to the hiding of data. And the need to hide this, means that we are all capable of understanding here, this actual physical world. Use “ speed” to hide this, as in “ not having the time” and the villian cannot be pinned down. So word play and timing are used to hide reality.

Another aspect within the timing, is in education. It is known that to master something, such a music skill, takes about 10,000 hours. If schools divide this time, and ensure such number of ours as direct interaction are not met than skills are not moved into a level of mastery. And as we can see, if we have mot mastered words, then we cannot catch the manipulations of ourselves within beyond the 1. the amount of limited story impulsed, and 2. the use of words to hide and limit disclosure, and all the laws built around the maintenance of this. I mean it is known that giving children an hour of recess will improve the overall child’s ability, because within recess, there is a direct interaction with words being used, and perceptions being lived out, exposing a child to a broader range of movement and thus developing depth perception.

I mean the instances I site above reveal the importance of the physical above and beyond and data, information touted through media and those educated to the programming that is voiced in maintaining the status quo of inequality and paychecks. 

We are abdicating our compassion towards physical existence. We are abdicating our community, as humans, as men, to be impassioned with and as ourselves as physical beings, here. Such a subtle difference causing a massive disconnect. But this shows the way out of this mess. That we all realize the capacity of ourselves as life to understand life. And that what we have allowed as mind is the dominance of idea in separation from practical physical reality. THis is why the physical is the gift of life, because it is stable, it is here, more real than any ideological heaven. Thus, the physical is for the human to self realize through becoming equal to what is creation manifest within what works and does no harm and physical interplay of sound into form and thus the joy of expression.

The solution is to give everyone a Living Income Guarantee. To ensure that all have a basic income to support themselves as physical beings. This will allow all of us to slow down for a moment and really look at what we are doing. Even if we all remain where we are, to keep the system going for a moment, the relieving of economic stress will open up our innate spatial capacity to see what we have done, to forgive this, and to realize step by step how to reorder all of this into a system that respect all life, and does what causes no harm. A Living Income Guarantee will remove the speeding time frame that is part of what is used to cause a cognitive dissonance of misinformation, that is composed of limited disclosure, this all being a legerdemain, a slight of hand. And this is created by how each of us move as mind within. If we had economic stability, we would realize this in short order. It is that simple.

Day 388 Common Sense is the value of Life

In a memory that stands with me, from the past of a performance, where within the performance I remember I believed that performing in common sense, meaning in expressing myself as letting myself out was not what was wanted and that what I must do is perform in a manner that was acceptable, meaning having a certain style and projecting a certain historically correct manner as was taught and I believed the pieces I played SHOULD be performed and if I added my own expression to this I would be rejected. Now this is not to say that a piece of music played should not have shape, but a preponderance of manner only I had taken personally and judged myself as lacking something when the criticism was about various aspects of a piece, and there was always something, and within music no two teachers or musicians can agree as to how something should be played. 

As such, allowing myself to be so caught up in this, I suppressed myself  as my own common sense, trying to fit into an idea, that had so many descriptions, I did not see the ambiguity within what was happening. In trying to become the correct manner, I shut down my common sense, and without common sense there is no real direction. Within our society, a manner has become like an obsession, and what is real, as common sense, as what the human is able to be, has become second to some idea about the past. The idea of perfection has been made bigger than common sense, and ironically, common sense is what senses what is here, as the life that we are. To place perfection before common sense misses the whole point of “ perfection.” What is perfect one moment may not be in the next, thus common sense development is a development of being here, meaning being able to change and meet here in a more responsible way, being aware of here, instead of some idea in and as the mind as consciousness. Thus, the only way to perform, to be self responsible is through using and thus developing common sense here.

This means looking at what practically, physically exists. What is measurable within the physical, what fits in common sense here instead of some concrete idea in the mind only. We even have the technology to help us measure what is here, how things are grown, what the nutrients in the soils are, the microorganisms, the amount of materials that break down the  matter in the soils that lend to the strength of the plant, and thus the nutrient density of the plant, that can then sustain us to enable us to use our common sense as what we are as life. The human is a perfect machine when fed properly, when taught to use common sense. And why do we create exterior machines to measure here? It is that we deny this within ourselves. Shut down common sense of the human, and then control the ignorance in self interest. This is ignorance, and this is a crime against life. It is denying life. It makes no sense. It is like taking depth perception and shutting it down. This is shutting down life. The solution here is turn life back on, so to speak, and then this planet will become the life that it is meant to be, the life inherent in all that is here, as this is life.

Unfortunately within a ponzi scheme of inequality, this is not what would be wanted, as a few who have more than is needed, and who, because they exist as ideas and manners of more than, would not want equality, as this would disrupt an idea of being more. It is the idea of being more that is the disease, the lack of common sense development that all humans have accepted and allowed and thus lost touch with the gift of the physical to realize self responsibility in and as common sense, a natural learning ability, an absorbent self seen in young children, this which is lost as ideas are taught as a morality that one thing is more than another, an objectification that is a separation from common sense development, the emotions and feelings the consequence of persistent lack of common sense. The mind as a measuring instrument as all that is used turns into actions of judgement when not cross referenced with the physical , with common sense,  because an image is not reality. Values are attached to objects and the image of this is made bigger than life and the separation begins. Our emotional defenses then become spite and blame offenses to protect our separation,  which is ourselves in separation from directive depth perception capacity, our common sense within what we are as life, which would what is best for all, absolutely being directive in care of earth realizing we are equal and one, of same substance.  Common sense is lost. And then machines are built to measure, as the human has abdicated a natural ability to common sense here. Our machines show us what we are in separation of. The ensuing inequality then breeds division, and this division breads competition, and the competition breeds elimination of common sense, as this would remove the already existent separation as the disease of judgement of one thing being more than another instead of looking at here in practical common sense, where it is obvious when lack is the expression of a human being.

Because humans have abdicated themselves as life, ignoring common sense, the machines we have at the moment can automatize what exists on earth in detail, meaning, measuring levels of what is needed to exist on every level, down to what is in the soils and the waters and where what is there comes from and what is needed to balance this out so that this performs without conflict. This means that where exactly every dollar goes and how every dollar was spent can be monitored. This means the there need be no anonymity, everything can be known, which means that crime will have no venue. This means that what is here can be distributed to ensure that all life here is in full development, eliminating behaviors of lack of common sense, this that the human body is born being able to do, before limited values that suit survival, as a system of survival is a system of ignorance as how here works, as we know how here works,  the research as to how class levels develop and succeed is enough to indicate that environment determines outcome. Where the exceptions reveal that such divisions remain because of lack only.

The solution is to realize the common sense of the human has value, is the value, as this common sense is life in expression. At the moment we have placed this value into machines, thus this will be needed to restore our natural common sense ability. What must be done is to resuscitate the life as the human, using our separations, walking through them to guide us back to ourselves as life.  The earth is the perfect machine of life, and man in a state of hubris is taking this and ripping it apart in an egotistical belief that control comes from one point, where control is inherent in the very nature of the source of what creates here, which is life, and this is equal in all.  Those with the control are because we all allowed it, as we are the same, this control is simply the outward manifestation of our inner accepted and allowed ignorance. 

The only choice is to wake the human up, to revitalize their own common sense capacity. This can begin within supporting a Basic Income Guarantee, this being to take an action, to bring a system to earth that supports all life, to allow common sense, to realize that all that has been developed has been done by the value of human action, from generations back. To devalue the labor of the human is the consequence of ignorance, is shutting down life, is shutting down common sense. This makes no sense. Step back, slow down, realize that any and every action of blame or spite, is you in lack of common sense, in lack of self direction as life - a systemic development that each of us are the cause of -  this self direction, at present ignored, being as the nature of what it is, to do what is best for all, as this is best for self, as this is best for this planet, as this is life.

Support of a Basic Income Guarantee is a support of self, is a support for children, is a support for the earth - the plants and the animals- it is to realize that what exists is not working, and to stop and to reorganize this earth into a functioning self supporting, self directing entity that expresses life. 

Day 167 Service to dividends is loss of breath

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to become so worried about paying for my existence, that I constrict all through my bones and exist as a fear of the future.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not see realize and understand that my anxiousness , and my breath that seems as though it can’t get enough air, is myself not slowing myself down and looking at what is here, it is myself in worry and fear about having enough money to, for instance, fix the roof, or replace the washing machine.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to allow the fear of this to become what I am, not realizing, seeing and understanding how this present system actually works, where this being of myself in fear of loss, becomes a storm of fear, as emotion and I am no longer here, and within this, what has been taught is a system of accepting and allowing a hierarchy of more than and less than, where I judge myself to be more than through belief that one color of skin is more than another, that one nation is more than another, that the ability of a person to speak eloquently is more than another person, when all men are the same, and it is only circumstance and education that gives an opportunity and ability, and has nothing to do with being more than or less than, as the human is able to be trained and educated, thus all men can learn, just as most men - excepting those with extreme physical malformations, and why does this exist - have learned to walk, which is coordinating multiple actions, and thus men learn, it is only lack that determines a person unable to express themselves, and has nothing to do with innate ability.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to worry about money, to believe that I have failed in some way because I do not have some job that makes a lot of money, within a system of debt, where money is borrowed with interest, known as usury , a crime against life, as the interest must come from nothing, as it does not exist, thus no matter what, someone, or many, will not be able to repay the interest, and the lender will end up owning the object borrowed on, and thus, eventually no one will own anything but a few, and the majority will become the perpetual payers of debt as this is a system of obsolescence -meaning products made to not last, products made to ensure a steady flow of dividends for a few and a perpetual recycling of resource, raped from the earth in reckless abandon, to ensure new products to feed the dividend machine, thus no consideration for products that last and function in respect for this earth, in the development of using resources in ways that eliminate waste, that produce efficient and practical self sustaining machines and products, as this self sustaining is a state that does not create flowing dividends.
I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand that this system must stop, as the earth has only so many resources, meaning that what is here must be used in respect of this planet, what is here must be used to sustain what is here.
I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand that not only are the products of this earth designed with what is best for all at heart, the very development of the human is not designed with what is best for all at heart, thus is the human not taught to actually understand how this physical world works, as this would place form and function, being and life as the value and not that dividend as the product of a system of inequality where money represents owned resources, a subjectively placed belief only, by a few.
I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand that all work within this system is locked in place to supporting this flow of earth resource to maintain dividends for a few, thus self sustaining systems , such as solar energy, cannot and will not be created, as this leads to a reduction in dividends and creates more autonomy, which in turns demands fewer workers to maintain, for instance, electrical lines, and or sewage systems, which the owners of resource do not want, as this would mean less dividends, and also, less stress for the debtor and workers, and thus more time to self realize the existent abuse, and less desire to escape into seeming mindless entertainment and more time to relax and enjoy this physical world.
I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand that it is the many holding up this pyramid of inequality, of dividend payment to a few on top of this system of abuse, and disregard for this earth, and nondevelopment of the human, thus it is the many that must stand where they are and vote for a system of common sense support for all life that is here, it is the many that must realize that TV is fucking boring and only an emotional polarity as a roller coaster of highs and lows, a drama going no where, simply perpetuating, just a some TV series go on and on never really going anywhere, simply moving from drama to resolution within a feel good moment and nothing else, and all of this takes place in and as the mind, where no real physical living and communication with this physical world is taking place.
I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand that all my worries are geared to serve this system of dividends for the fear-of-life few, as all that is supposedly owned - which is a belief placed by a few men, and accepted by all men, where I become stressed within my fear of survival, and thus dependent on objects without to sustain myself here, without understanding of myself as life, thus all directives are from without, which is just where a system of inequality would want me, to create more products , more division from life, more separation from common sense, more dividends for the few, thus is ignorance taught as a separation to create divisions and thus dividends for the few and there is no one to blame but each and every one who continues to support such a system, as it is ignorance as what is taught that is supporting this system of abuse, plain and simple; division and conquest is the development and implementation of ignorance so that a few can have a dividend in protection of their own fear of self as life, separation from themselves as life, here.
I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand the industry necessary to uphold this, and how this can be changed to support life, as what is best for all, as all this industry is in place, to serve the few, to move resource around to provide that dividend, and thus this earth is organized enough, to become a support of life here, to ensure that what is existent on this earth is awareness of self as life, and not self placed into a fairy tale box of ignorance, a box where the fantasy becomes so huge, where the dreaming , weaving of self into and as fantasy, is a separation from life, and this process of fantastic light shows in and as the mind, consume the human physical body - so easy to understand in simply looking around at the amount of disease and starvation on this planet, thus is the the human the same as what is supported, a dividend run by belief, opinion and idea, of more than and less than, a separation from equality with and as this physical world, and thus a diminishment in seeing what is actually physically real in common sense, a loss of sense of the actual physical space here, so evident in loss of physical depth perception, in so many, as a lack in so many to be unable to sing, or draw, or serf, or even ride a bike, or know how to fix a simple machine, or communicate with others.

I commit myself, to see, realize and understand how the very energetics of emotions and feelings are the separation from myself as life, as these energetics as emotions and feelings are the mask that separates myself as life, from an awareness of this physical world, and the present system, dividing and conquering all aspects of directing what it is that I am as focus of myself here, that i am so wrapped up within this system of dividend for the few that I have no awareness of my own separation, which is exactly what would be created within a system of dividend for the few, so easy to see, realize and understand in looking at how whole countries are being turned into debtors through overblown loans created to ensure a perpetual dividend for the few, where the medical industry ensures an acceptance of a pill taken for life, another form of enslavement and non development of health - a system that creates emotions of worry and fear of death, as what is the focus is the disease, and no directives given within self support, where in America, what is proposed with a happy face is supposed “universal health care” which in essence of allowing a platform of limited choice, and the choice offered is that which will ensure that dividend, thus health, as a being in self care, is not what is offered.

I commit myself to see, realize and understand that as I have been trained to support a system of more than and less than, where entertainment is emotional and feeling dramas as fantasy in and as my mind, in separation from actual awareness of this physical world as what i am, and since this is all that I know, a contrast of this will seem unreal, will seem unbelievable, and thus will take some effort to see, realize and understand, as all I know are what supports that dividend and not myself as life, in awareness of how this physical world functions, so obvious in my lack of understanding of the simplest of things in my world, where for many, even driving a stick shift car seems difficult - this an indication of how much one is in separation of the physical, how much one is unable to physically sense this actual physical world. it is as simple as that.
I commit myself to breath, to becoming focused on my own breath, to begin to place myself as life, back into physical awareness, as what i am here, one and equal to and as, and to begin to remove the emotional/feeling storms within and as the singular focus of myself here, to bring myself back here into and as common sense of what is physical here.
I commit myself to practicing breath, to diminishing the storm of emotion and feeling, the fantasy in and as my mind, triggered by thoughts as ideas, beliefs and opinions taught within a system of inequality, as all that has been known on earth for generations, to forgive what ever emotion comes up until it becomes small enough to be realized for what it is, simply an energetic storm, the very thing separating me from here, where I will find myself lighter and able to understand and realize more insight as to what is physically real and thus such small things as learning to drive a stick shift car will no longer appear, through the haze of limited belief, as such an impossible thing to sense, realize and actually do.
I commit myself to realizing that all entertainment is avoidance of self awareness.
I commit myself to realizing that sex is a physical release of pent up energy, and has nothing to do with actual physical expression, where I enjoy touch in and as the physical, and am not obsessed with imagery and a quick energetic high as a sexual orgasm - which will need constant stimulation when lived as energy, as energy needs constant support and thus can never satisfy as it is not self directing self here, one and equal to life.
I commit myself to realizing that all abusive behaviors are a product of supplying the demand for dividend for the few, as being an energetic storm of emotion and feeling, triggered by belief, ideas and opinions as thought, are self in service to a system of inequality, a system of lack as less, and more, as excessive comforts for a few.
I commit myself to not longer allowing myself to constrict in and as fear of survival, realizing that yes, this system exists, but that I must bring myself here, one and equal to life, and become the living word, through slowing myself down and no longer fearing loss and death, to slow myself down and not allowing myself to focus on loss, to no longer allow emotional and feeling storms of judgement as label of less than another, or excitement at an idea of potential gain, to become aware of my own separation from life, my allowance of dividends as emotions and feelings in service to what a system of inequality uses, as fear, to be what I am here, to realize myself as life, to stand and to get this earth in order, into a system that respects and supports life, as this is the value, as this is what each and every one of us is the very substance of and as, an expression of life.
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