Day 674 Value judgements as the data I allowed to define me in fear of being self responsible.

I looked at a memory that came up in relation to friend of mine of many years, that I do not have much to do with even though we live very close to one another.  I remember as a teenager that I would become annoyed with her because she tended to disappear suddenly when I was with other teenagers in the area where I spent my summers.  I remember becoming frustrated that this peer removed herself from the group in random and sudden ways. I felt as though that I was not good enough for her, and by association, when she was not there, I was missing something. I placed some value on her that I believed I lost when she was not present.

I ask myself what the values are that I projected onto her? I felt that she had grace and awareness that I did not have. And instead of listening to her, as in understanding her perspective, I made it into something that I lacked. Instead of standing up and realizing the measure of her insight, I allowed myself to believe that if I were not her steady friend it meant that I lacked that quality and others would realize this and I would be discovered to lack something.

I tend to use the words gentle and grace a lot in terms of what I deem important in others, I even have done this with my choices of men. I project a simple grace onto others believing that I somehow lack this. And yet, at times, when I was most calm, and relaxed, I could come forward and speak in ways that solved problems and calmed emotional storms, thus to say that I lack the steady insight that often needs no real force to show insight, is not something that I lack. 

I find I have a fear within being this.  And I have a sense, like in a video game when one has to move a figure though swinging doors, or swinging bolders of rock, that one has to time the move in such a way that the action figure manages to make it through the tricky ‘ gate’  in the way to their goal. A sense of fear of not making it through comes up. And, even within this, I have experienced being calm, watching the pattern of the obstacles movement and gently moving through it with ease. 

Hence, this is myself, when in fear, when in uncertainty, seeing the idea of not making it through over being present and sensing the space and the time in the physical movement. What I project onto this is an entity of ideas, beliefs and opinions in fear of loss and consequences of this loss made into this huge vision within me. Moving through the swinging rocks or doors, is a form, it is a shape, it has a rhythm, it has space between the movements, one can move through that space. One can sense that space, unless one believes the movie in one’s mind to be more real than the physical world one faces.

In relation to my friend, I realize that  what I projected onto her, was about me and not her. Also, there is an element of understanding that she disappeared because she was the same as myself, now that I have known her for many years.  It is having allowed information as ideas, beliefs and opinions within to be the guide instead of being here, in the physical, understanding from and function of physical reality, where, unfortunately there are many swinging doors and swinging rocks because I have allowed ideas, beliefs and opinions to be more real that what was actually real around me, as the physical. And the consequence of this lack of being present and gentle and careful in assessing the physical world as what one projected as a mind consciousness of fear based on lacking attention to the physical, and imposing a huge idea onto reality, has caused a systemic design that blocks access to being able to move unless one understands that system. And why, because unless one is grounded in reality, one does not have the responsibility to direct in ways that do no harm. The elite of this world have a  system to protect them from those who have allowed a mind consciousness of False Evidence Appearing Real as ideas, beliefs and opinions in the mind CONscience to direct the machine of one’s physical body, and this directive is too busy in fear, in that false information as measure, to be allowed to move onto the next level because there is no real self responsibility. Hence the elite try and order this world in a way that controls that lack in each. And, they are in the interim in fear of losing what they have, and end up projecting this same fear onto everything. So every one is fearing everyone else, which overall is a misuse of one’s physical body and memory into a separation from reality, the physical. This is that valley of the shadow of good and evil, this is the storm on earth, this is why heaven could exist and yet does not exist on this earth, on this reality.

What I projected onto my friend as having, was what I rejected within myself, because it meant that I had to face the storm of separation as the bubbles of beliefs that cover the earth as this mind consciousness of fear, of believing some information based on a picture in one’s mind , as memory, to be more real than reality. The emotions and feelings that one vents, as one can only speak what one is, as one can only form the information that is you, and that one perpetually sounds, as this is what is accepted and allowed, all the tensions and “ pulls’ into value as the colors one uses, intensified with staccato sounds, or elongated slurs,  will always reveal what measure one accepts, and the lack of definition in one’s sound structures as one’s words, through what we speak. 

Everything is heard, just as the inner whine I had about my friend, where I was crying my own lack,  chasing a value I believed my friend to have, ignoring the means as the values to realize myself because I feared really looking at what I was doing because it meant that I had to forgive what I accepted and stand up and be responsible. The irony is that what I sought was already me, I had just warped it into a distant value, way off there somewhere outside of me, via imagery, like a shattered self, like that humpty dumpty character in children’s stories. I mean those stories are there for a reason, so we cannot blame anyone for our lack, because the answers are always right in front of us. We have to become the directors of our within, and make sure it is as that action figure, standing there, sensing the rhythm of the life that is right here in front of us, and simply walking through the physical with grace and awareness, of which our physical selves when focused here are the perfect forms to be and do. 

Would this not be what was meant by being the living word? Is not the living word the words of the values of those swinging rocks and/or doors, and would not that measure, that data that comes directly from the physical world, be the means to understand the measure in space and time and enable one to sense the rhythms and forms and move with ease? As has been said, it is but a veil that separates one from life.

If we were to call that shattered self the survival character, that sounds the measure of fear, as false beliefs and ideas and opinions that are the self not looking here as physical practical reality, and that shattered self that cries lack because that is the measure accepted and allowed, what if that cry were much like a micro wave on the waters of life that is in everything on this earth? What is that microwave of limitation as beliefs, opinions and ideas of a whine of lack, could infiltrate the physical waters of this earth, and just as a micro wave destroy the water molecules and end up shattering the physical world slowly over time until there was nothing left? What if the trees around us, placed all over this earth were growing weaker and weaker because of the behaviors of an inner consciousness that was of value judgements of lack and the gain hoped for in racing from the believed and accepted lack as idea , belief and opinion within and as one’s mind consciousness, that shook and wavered within the limitation, that was what really microwaved existence to the point where the physical world shattered and fell apart? We all know that water can carry resonance, so is this not possible? If we look around is this not what is happening?

There are people who are writing words and placing them onto vessels holding water. The problem here is that this is not that person taking responsibility within themselves within and as the measure of themselves within. And yet, the answer is to be that action figure, to ground one’s self here, equal to the measure of the physical, and to assess the physical and move within the space of the physical, no judgement except to understand the living quality of the physical thing.

This takes slowing down, becoming respectful of the physical, and being respectful is being thankful, is being graceful, is being gentle, to realize the values, the qualities before one, and to move in accord with that living thing. We can do this, we can assess what we have accepted and allowed as the ghost in the machine that is a Humpty Dumpty, a system of false evidence appearing to be real that if one looks has charged values that pull one into an alternate reality of measure that stops one from moving here in grace and ease, as is the capacity of self as a physical being, just as you learned to crawl and to walk, to pet an animal, to sense the quality of water, to enjoy the coolness of ice cream, all of this is the capacity of you as a physical form, the warped values are like a pull into an idea, that if this has been allowed has become a habit, automated, layered and determining of your actions. This can all be balanced and reformed, as your neurons will move and change, yet, this has to be done by each.

Ground yourself, breath, slow down, begin to see the entity of beliefs, opinions and ideas, begin to see what projections pull you into that constant conflict of value judgement, as this is self chasing a value that is already within and as what you really are. What you resist is what persists, because what you resist is the means to your self responsibility which is what you really seek, as this is what will calm the waters of life, within and without, and ground presence here, to enable the presence of you as life, to build an understanding of life, to become the creator you are meant to be. 

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to judge my friend as having something I believed I did not have.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to fear being considered lacking in a quality such as being gentle which I associated with being aware and insightful, believing myself to lack this ability, within and as believing myself to be unworthy, when what I was busy with was a belief in a lack, based on a past where I rushed in desire not slowing down to assess the world around me, as I accepted and allowed an excitement to direct me as a value judgement in self interest, without slowing down to see, realize and understand the physical world around me.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to within this, become ashamed of myself, as within this, there is a presence that I am aware of what it is that I am doing as I allowed a fear of  failure based on the same actions that caused the mis-take to determine who and what I believed myself to me, and as a consequence accumulated a memory of lack, that was not grounded in the practical reality around me.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to fear being present here, and to fear being labeled as not being good enough, as not being lucky enough, where luck simply means that I had enough information to direct to and towards what I desired, and the opposite as unluck simply means that I did not investigate enough to allow myself to accomplish a goal.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to chase after another person and then to react to that person’s resistance instead of seeing realizing and understanding that this was about me, this reaction was my own self interest, based on an idea of who and what I was instead of being present here, applying practical applications that valued the physical characteristics of the life that was /is me that is all around me, where the rhythm and design and movement of that life is visible and able to be sensed and moved with and as in clarity and calm, and certainty and steadiness.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to fear pointing this out against the storm of beliefs, opinions and ideas of and as entities that are ghosts  in the machine within men, creating hued men, as walking mind consciousness bubbles in separation from the practical reality, where the only solution is to ground myself, assess here, equalize my within to the without as what is here, and a system that is the consequence of the separation of men from reality, to within and as every breath, to remain in understanding with the physical, as this is the way and the means to ground the ideas , beliefs and opinions that I have allowed to define me, to move into being grounded in reality, seeing realizing and understanding that this is stabilizing the physical world that is what life is, as life would be physical information working in synergistic and symbiotic ways and means as creation would be and do, sharing the means of being as each can understand because all is life.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to feel that it is too late,

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not see, realize and understand that it is never too late, as creation is life, and life is built of sound information, hence the only way and means is to realize this, and to value the physical around me as me, as this is life.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to feel I have wasted myself being a mind consciousness of self interest,   instead of realizing the value is life and remaining grounded in every move, taking that which is good and does no harm.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to believe that facing the storm of separation as a mind consciousness infiltrating the waters of life in the wold around me is impossible to sort out, when the solution is to walk here, to remain grounded and to realize the practical in relation to respecting the physical world, and how I can build a memory of storied/layered information that is of value judgements in separation from the practice of assessing reality, which means that it is understood as to how this works, as the media uses this in self interest, as each is doing within themselves, to program layers of information that comes to direct the machine as the physical creating personalities that then assess in the present collection of data on each personality to order the system, yet this is overall a system of separation from the physical world, from life, and a system that will destroy the physical as it is not equal and one to the practice of living in creation, equal and one.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand how that data collection is myself, as I collected data, as measure about my friend, in a desire to be associated with that data, I allowed to become a god of information that I then chased, not seeing realizing and understanding that I projected what I lacked onto another, as what I had rejected to be do and have, as the ability to assess the reality around me and move in self responsible ways, as this behavior was a self abdication that I turned into a smoke and mirrors show of chasing a desire and labeling myself as inferior, instead of slowing down and realizing I rejected the means I sought, as being grounded here in reality,, so I rejected what was me, what was my greatest strength and ended up chasing my own rejection,  which was overall a picture show within and as me.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand that practice of being physical, as assessing the physical world around me, is the means to the end, as the grounding of myself here, which is fun, and the ability of myself as life here.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to give up my own self pity that is a consequence of all of this.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to fear being happy, because I fear the joy of self responsibility will cause conflict within and as a world where a mind consciousness reigns as a paranormal entity as a ghost in the machine that screams its lack which is a measure, a layer of information, which we all see, realize and understand as we compare ourselves to others and project values as measures onto others and believe as I have done that that value is not what I am,  which is myself telling myself what I have rejected - as in what i have created within and as me-where the only solution is to ground myself here, no matter what, as this is being equal and one and in respect of life.

When and as I find myself becoming energy, as what a projection that is charged with a value judgement is within and as me, I stop, and I breathe, and I slow myself down, and I become calm, gentle, steady, and I assess the measure of the physical world around me, to see the rhythm and form inherent in the design, and I become equal and one to the practical application of creation as the physical to realize that which does no harm and takes that which is good and respect the value being life, here.

When and as I find myself  longing for a value in the guise of desiring to be associated with another person, I stop and I breath, and I slow  myself down and I see, realize and understand what I fear, where I fear being myself as the capacity inherent in what and who I am, as the ability to assess the practical world as the physical here, and my own accepted and allowed energetic values and I ground this in the practical here, becoming the practice of allowing myself to be gentle, to be calm, to assess, investigate, become aware of, life, here, as the physical.

When and as I find myself reacting to wanting to associate with someone or something, I stop and  I breath, and I slow myself down, and I realize the value I have projected through association as a belief, opinion or idea, and I become calm, and assess the characteristics of the physical reality around me, and my habits of belief, until I am calm, stable, serene, steady, seeing realizing and understanding that all mis-takes can be corrected as this is how I learned to crawl and to walk, to build understanding here, thus in every moment I can slow down, assess and direct in ways that cause no harm as this is myself being in respect of creation, which is myself being thankful for the life that is me that is all around me as me, here.

When and as I find myself fearing to be at ease, to be happy, to be in joy of being here, I stop and I breath and I slow myself down, and I practice being grounded here, in respect of the physical and in cross reference of what I have accepted and allowed as value judgements within and as me, as the layered information that I use to assess in self interest, which reveals how I become the information I accept and allow in separation from considering all things and building an awareness that is layered with practical application in respect of the physical, to be and live in equality and oneness with and as life, which is to become the living word here.

When and as I find myself fearing to be practical in the face of limited information within and without, I stop and I breathe and I slow myself down, and I see realize and understand that my fear is simply false evidence appearing real, as value judgements as fear of loss, as hope for a gain, as a label/construct of information I seek in self interest, and I come back down to earth, realizing the value is being here, equal and one to and as the physical.

When and as I find myself tensing up in my chest area, I stop and I breath, and I assess the data, as the measure of my beliefs, opinions and ideas, flowing down from a mind consciousness into my solar plexus and into my chest, I stop and I breathe, and I ground myself here, assessing the physical world, to build self trust in being present here, equal and one to and as life as the physical.

When and as I find myself becoming uncertain, I stop and I breath and I slow myself down, and I realize where I exist within and as myself as a value judgement that is data, that I have accepted and allowed to layer within and as me, and I assess the wold around me, to consider all things, to become the change I want to see, in thought word and deed, until I am stable, calm, serene, grounded, present, and I direct within the practice of physical beingness, here.

When and as I find myself resisting what is here, I stop and I breath, and I assess within and without as the sum of the layered information I have accepted and allowed to define me in fear of survival and as a consequence an action of self interest , to instead become/practice a more synergistic action with myself in tandem with reality, which means to work in coordination with what is here, where the sum of the parts as including the physical, working together creates a whole expanding in awareness in thought word and deed in equality and oneness with creation information, the physical.

Day 576 The consent to be governed

Cartoon depiction of the United States, its territories, and US controlled regions as a classroom with belligerent Philippines, Hawaii, Puerto Rico, and Cuba (Photo credit: Wikipedia)

The consent to be governed.

I noticed in a speech that a remark was made about “ the consent to be governed’ and how this has happened in my state in relation to the American “ common core” standards being implemented. I was at a  meeting and one of the speakers in support of this said that the people, “ we” had consented to this, and yet in this room were educated people who were there to speak up against this. If the governed consented then why was there so much dissent. Obviously , there is a disconnect here.

What I also have noticed, because I called my local school district to ask them for the research backing common core, that there was no research. The paper work I received was about some “ committee”  of supposed professional people who were signified by some collective group name, and that the governors had worked in tandem with these ambiguous named officials to implement common core. AND, within this, there was a note that the governors were asking the federal government to do more research/study into what were “ best practices” being used in countries where educational levels were greater than the states.

To me, that these deciding institutions and these governors are making a decision about implementation and then, in double speak, turning around and abdicating responsibility in making a statement that on a federal level more research needs to be done is a contradiction, one that shows no real governance, so how can any statement be made about the collective being a consenting-to-governance-body, where there is no real substantial governance made being so obvious in asking for research?

THis whole thing is like a smoke and mirrors show of no substance, and the administrators have no answer because I have asked them, what I get is abdication, as one refers me to another, and so it goes round and round. Meanwhile the children suffer, confined to a room where the directives have no substance, no real research, and the administrators answer questions by referral to another.

It reminds me of calling a company one time to find out how skim milk is actually made, because I was told that it was made from powered milk, and I could not believe this at the time. So, I called and I asked the first person who answered, and she sent me to another, who sent me to another, and so on and on it went until eventually I suddenly found myself talking with the first woman ( some were men) with whom I had spoke.

I brought this up to this woman, that I had been traveling around being passed from one to another, and that here I was back again. So, I asked her the question again. What she said in response to me asking if skim milk, that bottled/packaged milk on the store shelves, was made from powder, she said to me, “ no, it is made from milk that has had the water taken out of it”

Yes, I know, I was astounded. It is like a word game, where the meaning of the words have no significance, it is the sequence of the words that must be said. Quite astounding. One cannot say, skim milk is made from powered milk, one has to say, skim milk is made from milk that has had the water taken out of it. 

So, in effect, this is what the consent of the governed has become. And I ask myself here, as all of this is done through a play of words, does the consent of the governed mean that those who have the label of “ governors” mean that any decisions they make become by default a statement directed to those who ask questions for what makes no sense and has no real research or substance as “ the consent of the governed”?

So, we are all allowing this META-physical form govern us, and as we can see, it has no real substance, and then, within this, we become angry that solutions are not happening and the problems are growing. It sounds like a cancer does it not? It is a form that has no answerability and passes responsibility around to end up with a set of words that admit to what we see is going on.  And yet, we keep asking this meta-physical system of no real responsibility to continue to govern us! 

I mean, this is a very thin veil, one that can be removed and realized with little effort is we simply make the decision to do so. But it will have to be made by the many, standing together, investigating here on the ground and having the courage to use our common sense and take actions that actually change this metaphysical smoke and mirrors show that admits to not having any real, substantive research. The parts are here, and we can see them. Tantrums about how ridiculous this is is just more metaphysical-smoke-blowing around the smoke that has accumulated! lol, I have to laugh it is so silly. But in the end it limits all our lives, and it is us who have accepted and allowed it.

How can any research and proposals of efficacy come from such a system? There is too much smoke here to really see, so it is not going to happen. The veil must be lifted, and common sense the choice made. Obviously, the very from and design of our schools is not working, and has to change, among other things. 

If, as Obama has said, that we are the consent of the governed, and yet we have perpetual war making a few a lot of profit, and children that are starving and lacking in education, and animals that are filled with tumors and packaged up and placed into our supermarkets, and starfish melting off the coast of California - another scenario where no one seems to know what is causing this despite vast amounts of plastic floating in our oceans and radio active material streaming in currents, and bees dying off, and fracking waste not being allowed to be proved to be what is blatantly within an environment and as touted as “ no proof” simply because there is no ostensibly “ real” research given public voice. I mean the list can go on and on. This is the “ consent of the governed” that we are all accepting and allowing, so as the consequences come, we can really blame no one but ourselves because we consented to it and became complacent within it. In the end, we are the same as the administrators who try and abdicate any responsibility. They simply mimic what we are, those who consented to be governed, which was, as a starting point, a abdication of responsibility.

Thus the solution is to become responsible. And to ensure that all have the means to become responsible. If one human can do this, so can all, as we are all the same. Our economic models define what creates a somewhat more responsible human being through our admissions of lack, and that is proper food, an education ( opportunity and exposure, full exposure , not just 50 minute music classes one day a week in elementary school type thing - as an example ) stable shelter, and clean water.

In the end, war is really a form of suppression, it takes and consumes what is here, and all it is is the same mechanism, that of not being responsible. Being responsible is the way out of this, and how to be responsible is what makes sense, as what does no harm, as what is best for all. We decide, and the power is in standing up and creating a system that allows each a direct voice and ability to take care of ourselves as physical beingness, because this is what we are here.

It is a practical world, a physical state of being. When each is given what supports the physical, each can then stand as life, in full potential as this is the way to responsibility. Support a Living Income Guarantee, time to become responsible. We all have common sense, it is right in front of us, we need only remove the veil of inferiority to it.

Day 413 limited values create the unknown

I have had problems with my back. It is not visible with the naked eye, per say, it just starts to hurt. Much, much better than when it really started about three years ago. At that time, it became like solid rock one day, and I had to spend time in bed because I could not move, it hurt so much. Self forgiveness would clear it at times, and then I realized that I had to direct myself. It is like learning to balance the within, of which will take practice. Like for instance, sitting here writing about this starts to clear this up, it is moving all the time.

I had spoken to Bernard about this, and he said that it took him many years to figure this out. Now that he is dead, I can’t get direction from him, but this does not matter, because it is me that must figure this out, and with the words, “ it took me many years to figure this out” the message is pretty clear, I have to figure this out. What I notice at this point is the heavy syrup thing coming down from my mind, and the suppression, or rushes of energy coming up from my solar plexus. Somehow these things must work in equality here. To go into the detail of how the mind as thoughts accumulate into emotional/feeling energies, to slow down and name, then to stop this action of separation from here, where all spatial sense of the physical is, as capacity of the human as what we are - like a tree  on the landscape doing what the form and function of a tree does, where no one tree is more than another tree as there is no hierarchy of trees unless they are organized into some system through value placement by men. A hierarchy of trees is pretty silly. So why do we have a hierarchy of men? Why are we not taught to work with  physical geometry, in common sense? Why do we have superstitions of lack of awareness, a limited awareness, a separation from common sense of physical reality? Why do we allow a system where all principle, all real value is slowly dripped towards single ownership, this monopoly game placed on a physically common sensical world? Why do we allow a media saying partial truths over and over again where it becomes supposed fact when in all common sense the behaviors promoted, such as porn, are obviously a distortion of reality causing addictions that make no sense within being aware of physical reality? What are we doing that is perpetuating this abuse, do we blame, do we spite? Do we regret, to we self pity? All of this when what is real, and practically able to be understood, is right here in front of us? Why are we using resources to send a false message instead of developing ourselves to be able to move here without negative values, as judgement, placed as what we sound here, as our words? Why is there so much friction and conflict in our relationships?

I have been taught the measure and weigh things according to a limited system of values, that feed a hierarchy of inequality, and the separation creates confusion that is registered as complexity, a compound interest is then created as what i have allowed is not equal to life, it is out of balance with common sense. As this I give the life of me away, reject life, for a lesser value, a singular value, a limited value. My self interest, as idea, as mind, as consciousness, as a picture, that is of limited structure, and thus, if I use this to direct myself in the world, the physical world, I run into all kinds of conflicts because I am forcing a limited concept of life into a physical world that is the real value and this is why it is physical, because it is the real value. We humans are in separation from the real value, as what is creation. In separating ourselves from what is real, we have forsaken ourselves as creators. We have rejected understanding the physical and the limited values we have accepted and allowed have created a mind/consciousness system that is the limited values we accumulate that cause the conflict with reality because it has not total value awareness. We are not absolute in our equality with reality. Have a look, we do not need thoughts to be here. Interesting, in the word thought, is thou ought, which is judegment, which we have been told not to do. If we learn to be spatially here, equal with the physical world, and we learn to read the actual physical, which is composed of sound and thus we can hear/here it, then we do not need ideas as our minds, to direct us, as an idea is a superstition, and we have accepted and allowed ourselves to create a paranoise of the unknown, the unknown being the pictures and ideas in and as our minds, which we use to direct us here, and project a belief system of what we are, this taught to children that come into this world naturally trying to make sense of the physical world, through touching everything, placing things into their mouths, listening, learning language, they come into this world measuring how the physical works, and we as adults place ideas of superstition into them, as our behaviors of blame and spite are based on superstition, because we thing something out there has caused our lack of practical common sense of the actual real physical world, when this cannot make any sense, because we are here, born with a gift to sense here. Thus we teach our children our own behaviors of a paranoia of the unknown, we teach our children the same separation we exist as, beliefs, opinions and ideas that bear no witness to physical reality, this that is geometric and visible and able to be sensed.

We are then, not taught that words are what allow us to create placeholders of understanding how here functions, to build a GPS within us of understanding. Naturrally, a system that is a monopoly game would not want understanding, because then the end game - of more to a few - would be realized for the abuse that it is and does as what it is by design, which admits that each of us, as humans, by design, can understand the geometery of the physical, as what we are as form and function. In a sense we are just like the cows that spend their lives in a confined cage, while we are milked of our principle economically, and then we die never understanding the ecology of this physical world that is what enabled us to be life. This is a crime beyond all measure and it must stop.

I once read that the human is capable of reading one thousand words per minute, and since we have training to develop this skill, it means that it can be done, and if the government knows this, why fear this capacity? Why limit this? And how is this known, and why is this stopped? because of an idea that one has to be more than another? Would this not allow this world to function as that tree, where all over the earth everything is working within an awareness that the physical is interconnected geometrically and that this is the value, because this is physically being life here?

Thus, in order for this physical world to function, all, everything that is here, must be in absolute value as what it is, working in full potential for life on earth to become life, for life on earth to exist without any abuse, any destruction, And this would make sense, because abuse makes no sense, war makes no sense, poverty makes no sense, and it is as it does, it has no sense of life, via no common sense of physical reality. The building blocks of reality are of rings of sound, an infinite design that allows creation. Thus life can be understood, as it is a gift to express life.

Thus, my back problems are myself misaligned to here. For which I must forgive the limitations as ideas, beliefs and opinions of what I have defined myself as within a system of inequality, a pyramid that is not a bad design per say, but as a design used to organize men, into values of more than and less than, into suppression of common sense as life, it is a mis-use of structure, as how we have allowed that which we have created to distribute what supports the physical world as resources,  as money, to be denied and metered out by varying degrees, to suppress the life that each of us is, so that self understanding as life is limited. Why and how this happened, does not matter, as this can be understood once we all come here, to physical reality, as the game of survival is removed, through creating a structure on earth that supports all of the physical world absolutely, respecting it as the life, this being the value, that it is, here. Support the Equal Life Foundation, walk the lessoning of judgement as the thoughts, emotions and feelings that have been taught as a consequence of separation from common sense of physical reality. Fill in the void of understanding through quieting the voice of judgement as the mind, the superstitions that are the smoke and mirrors that create the unknown. This storm that is of lack, that must be faced and equalized to physical reality here so that life can begin.

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Day 407 Existential Emotional Soup

I have had this real huge , as my perception goes,  this heavy emotion come up that I have had all my life. I remember walking into this house sale one time, the woman had died and the house was open to sell everything in the house. A yard sale that was everything. I walked in the front door with the person I was with and they immediately turned around and walked out, excused themselves. I was hit with this sense of such chaos, such despair. The house was a mess. Navigating through the house meant walking through tunnels. I was so shocked, even by the gloom, I had to walk through the whole thing. I just stood there in this house , and “ went into it” so to speak, because I wanted to know how such a thing could happen. Like I was trying to read how something, a human, got to this point of such despair and such squalor. The house was in a really nice area, and was, from the exterior, in good shape. At this time I had this reaction of wanting to get away, but also going against this feeling and walking into this. I just kept telling myself the person was dead, so whatever I was sensing ( at that time)  was so extreme I had to investigate.

It was like that after my husband’s death. I was not supposed to go back,but when alone, I did, I had to go into this. In this case, when I went back, there was nothing there, just an attic . In 1999, I was walking down the street in Zurich. I stopped and looked up at the sky. I suddenly felt like the whole fabric of existence changed somehow, in one moment, that everything would be lighter somehow. So, when I went back to the attic, I knew there was not going to be anything there, I had to move against the belief, I could not let the superstition remain, I had to walk into it, and there was nothing there.  Knowing is a like a state of being where there is a sense but no real structure, evident in not being able to place the experience in detail into words.

 Through my life, I have woken up in the morning with this huge heavy weight like thing in me, as me. For years I was terrified of this, and then I began to go into it, only to find that there was nothing there. Is this unclarity, my separation, that comes in measure of sometimes being a concentrated presence and sometimes my action of fear, depending on  how I ‘ wear it” , perceive it, place this as perspective, where this exists because there is a lack of clear definition, meaning perspective?

So, I was up in Boston yesterday, driving around, because I was lost ( thank fully I had Wazs on my iphone!) and I noticed that I was having this same sense of  heaviness which I registered into an idea of ( I am trying to describe it )  existential gloom, meaning existential weight. I have had these dreams where I can’t move, where it is like I am in a thick soup and can’t move because of the soup I am in, sometimes this comes up as a “ web”, but within this “ state of being” personification, it is like a soup, a ubiquitous soup. All kinds of thoughts come up, the closeness of the houses together, the lack of nature, the varying degree of decay of the homes, the ultra polish of some, the overlapping styles of the homes, where the architectural landscape tells a story of the decades through style change where the “ new” style is superimposed in patches around the old. The story from nature, to farms to the Victorian, to the twentieth century beginnings of modernism, and then from each period modifications, additions, creating hodge podge homes and stores. I stop and I look at the whole of this, with all the people walking around, and I get this sense of existential soup, and it is so hard to move in this, it is so heavy. And then, I walk, and buried under a bridge, under pavement, is a stream, so buried, and with the noise of the city, that sound of that water tricking cannot be heard. And yet, still it moves. 

I have always needed to have some nature around, even if it is a tree, because this is like the only escape from this. I actually have had a hard time breathing sometimes in just getting up and facing the world, a world that has to be faced, that has to be walked through. 

Yesterday, as well I had to talk with some costumers, and there was a lot of talk, the woman asked millions of questions, interrupting me. I had to stop and say things again and again, and try not to say things the same way. It began to dawn on me, how the layers of belief, opinion and idea, as the past, as the person, exist, where the nature of the person is as buried as that stream. And, what is layered is as many ideas as styles that have been expressed on the landscape of earth, some in decay, some changed and morphed into something else, some all polished and taken care of. As within so without. And always this sense of knowing without any real structure. So much mirage, this so thin yet determining so much of what we allow ourselves to be.

What is cool about writing things out is I start to see what I am telling myself. lol

Within this day, yesterday I saw more clearly what i am doing, as in pushing this “ bad” away as the judgements as the gloom, and the soup of ideological play based on ideas, beliefs and opinions, the infinite loop of a cult ( occult )soup that is ideological play, where the parts are not good or bad, and where some of the technology aids us in our separation from the physical to the point where to get through this maze, because nature is so buried, life is so buried, what actually sustains us,  we have to rely on  an external tracking device to find our way. I mean,  some dogs  can find their way without any external machine, across thousands of miles. It is that we have become our own lab rats, and we can no longer navigate the self created human maze, we have to rely on as external device to direct us. Somehow, this is really a waste of life, so obvious if we take the time to look. This world is a mess of self accepted and allowed limitations as in lack of accepting life, and plastering this cult, this soup all over this earth, having ideas become bigger than nature, becoming a mirage of shifting ideas, and not actually working with this earth in best practice, thereby not only respecting earth, but working with earth, this being prevention os the best cure. In the end, I would rather be like a dog, and be able to navigate with all of me, no external device needed, because I could sense here, I could sense nature. I mean , we must ask ourselves how this can exist in physical form, this means this can be done! Would this not be a lighter existence? Would this not remove the heaviness of ideological play, so dense in some places that the streams are buried. What must be realized within this, is that we humans, as personalities and characters, are a composition of generational ideologies, built on top of one another, without any real consideration for life. And this to the point where we now have a system that will “ hodge-podge” your past, and build what is needed in the self interest of what controls money, which is all of us as we accept and allow this, as we are the anonymous holding this form of separation, we are the creators of the NSA which does exactly what we do within. This is a structure of separation, as a hierarchy in place through allowance, through conjecture as opinion, belief and idea being more than, and thus not including reality in totality, we are our own occult that through ignorance has become destructive our ourselves as life and this planet.

Hard to believe that this soup of separation is energy, is our own fear of self, is actually a system inferior to life, is as how we compose this soup, this mirage, as the landscape mirrors of idol playing that we were warned against, and that the way out was to bring this back to ourselves, equalize ourselves to the physical, and to do this we had to bring heaven to earth. Hard to fathom, from our state of separation, that we must become like a dog, and stop trying to be god. We have become, in essence, less than a dog ( and yes I am playing with accepted and allowed values) It appears to me that that dog is a much more efficient and sustainable system.

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Day 406 Programming and the word.

Programming and the Word.

Words are structures, they explain/show/describe an expression, as a noun, or a movement as a verb, or a characteristic, as an adjective or how something moves as an adverb, If our words are not clear, as in being equal to what is here in fact, then we are not clear. We have the words as the structures to be clear here and to share this clarity.

If words can be programmed in, and our words are not clear in meaning, them are we as the words, as the program clear?  I mean, are we programming the human to be here? Or are we like the NSA, creating stories based on the past to suit a purpose of survival, of gain in self interest?

Think about how we use words: Your daughter is drawing on a wall, and you are occupied with paying that bill, or making that deadline, or ill with disease. So, you say to your daughter, in a rush - due to your limited “ hereness” as you are occupied - don’t draw on that wall. Your daughter tests here, to understand here, to make sure she gets the program as the words correctly and turns and draws on the wall again. Now, you say, “ Please do not draw on that wall, because then you will not get any of the cake that is on the table” ( In a real sweet voice because you think is you say it nice enough, she will listen - but she is listening!)  So, now, your daughter will once again draw on that wall, and look at the cake to see if it disappears. I mean, according to the words, this is clear.  So, now you are aggravated, and thinking why do I have to deal with this, and become agitated and reprimand your daughter for the superstition you have taught. A superstition of ambiguity, a superstition that is lack, as what superstition is in fact. Will your daughter have any trust in you? You have just taught your daughter that your words do not describe what is here!

Not only has your daughter been programmed with a superstition, a dis-clarity,  a non full disclosure ( and we wonder why our government does this! As within so without.) she has also been programmed with your state of being as being partially here, as the separation of what occupies your mind as your survival suit behaviors, this spinning around of you as mind caused because of your own programmed lack of understanding here, the physical in detail,  your own superstition in separation from equality to physical practical common sense.

And then we wonder why our children grow up without common sense? We wonder how they can become limited as ideas, opinions and beliefs that are a lesser awareness, and thus a superstition of no real integrity? Their common sense is a sense of  “knowing” without being given any real structure, any real clarity. And then, they go to school and cannot answer as this common sense, this knowing, and begin to lose all self confidence. And the behaviors at home, are an emotional mess of  “ I know, I know” yelled out in a cry, and the storm gets bigger, and the lack of confidence gets bigger and bigger, and all communication stops.

Also, as teenagers our children no longer want to listen to us, we can’t understand why they do not realize that we have their own interests at heart ( well most of the time)? According to our words as our programs, we were not clear, so how can we be trusted when we are not clear and do not realize how much we move as superstition?

For me, it is an odd twist to the construct of myself, to realize this. And to deconstruct this, I shake, as I have to change the superstitious habit of myself and this involves going against the grain of my own superstitious programming. I have to realize every time I begin to shake that it is just myself filling in the spaces of lack to “ right” myself equal to here, to bear witness to life, to become a person of integrity, to have substance as life, to walk through the fear that is superstition. It is interesting to walk into fear, as there is nothing there, but this is the point. There is nothing there because there was nothing equalized to life, to here, to practical physical reality. How long did I cling to an idea as an invisible hand, or invisible market forces, or a god on high? All these propagated and programmed superstitions that are causing the harm on earth, as they lack any understanding, any real witness to life.

On one hand this is why it is so difficult to figure here out, because of a programmed mind of limitations, and therefor not necessarily bad, the lack, the inequality to physical reality. And we, as mind spend all our time trying to find answers in the knowledge and information that is either not applied to the physical in detail, or/and is believed to be more than reality, or is filled with holes, meaning lack, a separate reality that becomes a directive that has no real substance.

So, we get all emotional, trying to get others to believe our sense through a vocabulary of lack, our superstition, and this program that we believe to be so real, is not understood by others because their superstitions are of a slightly different measure and they are following their superstitions, believing this to be real. So, like in the Novel The Tin Drum, we are basically all fighting one another, and screaming all the time our own lack expecting others to read between the lines. as this is the program coming out.  No one can hear us because we really have no integrity, no substance, as we are a lesser self lost in superstition made god, made directive,  where we push away that which would make our superstition clear, here and because we fear losing our ideological self, our idiot self, our personas, our survival suits - at this point because this inequality to reality has manifested without, as we have created this through sounding the superstition again and again and again until the sound of this reverberates through all of earth- our superstitious selfs as mind. Ironically we fear losing our lack.  lol

In all, this process shows us that we are able to take in even overcomplicated superstition, which means we are able to learn, to understand, even if it is mis-understanding, and there is a lot of mis-understanding on this earth - just open the newspaper and read the news and you will see the outplay of superstition all over the earth, our accepted behaviors of lack, our rejection of what is real the physical, life. Here, many walk in self pity, believing that no one understands them. What has not been under-stood/supported is life. Thus, until all life is supported, we as ourselves as life are not supported and we as ourselves as life cannot be what we are. So, we are all alone in our superstitious state of not being understood, thus the pity patter can stop. The good news is that you are not alone is “ feeling” that no one understands, because none of us is allowing ourselves to feel as life! 

The program has to be cleaned up, ordered in clarity. And, yes, this will cause a shaking up of the superstitious programs that are only  a lack, a separation from life, where the parts are not all good or bad, simply a partial story that is not equal and one to and as the actual real physical world. You have been had and this will continue if we accept and allow the superstition to be what we are.

We have allowed our words to become a cross of lack that we bear/bare the separation from life, and yet, the word is the key, the structure, to becoming a living person, here.

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DAY 392 Abraham Hicks Vibrational Abundance : You have been HAD!

I listened to this HIcks video about money, about getting abundance.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HX1zTcxVlAk

She, the “ voice” talks about abundance, at first describing that there exists people who are getting more than their fair share, and others who exist in physical lack, and that all of this is based on a belief that resources are finite. Then she/it/the voice goes on to talk about “ vibrational future” . This after talking about following emotions: saying that when you are “ following” your negative emotions you are finding what that emotion as that thought is, and when you are following your positive/feelings you are following that and thus will find that. So, in following one's picture/idea as your mind you get what you “ follow” what you run after. Your myopia?  As the mind of polarity is limited, ignoring details of the physical and selecting the idea, the belief, the opinion?

Then we get vibrational escrow, this place where there is abundance, endless abundance, this beautiful thing, this wonderful place in the “ future” where there is this gift waiting for you, this always non-existent place of “ future” where there are supposedly so many many many humans clinging to this future place of abundance.

So, what do we have here as the words, telling us of what is actually being said?

We have admitted “ taking from Peter to pay Paul”, a believed to be actual real physical finite world where some are physically existing in lack, and there are so many existing in lack now that they are all within the last thing they have, hope. And within this “ hope” is an imagination of the “ future.” A wonderful abundance place in the mind - because in all common sense this is the only place the future can be! And in our minds, in this future place is this abundance, and now, more than ever, there are so many realizing this future place, this imaginative place of abundance in this fantasy/imagination place of ‘ abundance. This woman is actually not lying, she does describe what is happening on earth physically, and she does describe how entertaining hope can be in the mind in a non existent “ future” place, and how this  whole scenario is “ real” at present and so prevalent, so busy as a behavior on earth, because there are many, many, many, probably more than half the world suffering the physical effects of finite resources being owned by a few, as Peter taking from Paul in some droned belief as an inner dialogue  in separation from realizing all life, all dimension,  that is chanting, “ follow the positive feelings to take from Peter to rob Paul”  as there is abundance in my separate picture mind reality as the “ future” that can only exist in my mind where the abundance of my imagination is feeding off of my flesh keeping me occupied so I don’t look at what is real - or include all life as life being the value ( all of it) because I am a maintenance battery for that supposed abundance place as imagination because the future is never HERE.

The problem here, is that, once again, it is admitted that their is growing lack on earth, that the Peters have robbed the Pauls, and that this has placed many people in a desperation they are so busy expending themselves hoping because they do not have the basic needs to live in dignity, thus they are dreaming in some future in their minds because this is all they have, as their physical is not real, and can be stolen because in some future they will have abundance and so it does not matter. 

We have a real world, and an imaginary ( as the nature of the future) world, and the imaginary world is being described by a voice in someone’s head as being more.

Meanwhile what is real is ignored, accepted and allowed, which is an existence of lack, where some take from others to the point where they cannot physically exist in the full potential of what they are for real, a physical being on a physical planet, made less than by a set of words, as a belief, in an imagination as mind which cannot exist without the physical. This is life in reverse, and the ignorance as believing that imagination is more than life is just where those that have the comforts from taking without regard for the basic functioning of physical existence would want the competition to be.

There is enough on this planet to support life, there is enough to give all of this physical existence the basic needs to be self responsible, self honest, self directive, which would birth an earth that works symbiotically as an expression of life, we have the technology to divide and measure what is here and realize what is best for all, and the hands of men who as a nature of life can be an expression of “ give as you would like to receive” , where the mind is realized as an image mechanism and not the primary source of reality, as the physical is what is real, here, breathing.

The solution for this propagated conundrum is to realize the mind is a picture show, that can be made huge and fed ambiguous imagery, much like a limited statement of “ hope” without specific details as to how such would actually physically move on earth and that the separation would manifest as resistance to actual physical reality, because what we resist persists, and that resistance as rejection would become an entity, a personification of our separation , where the bad would be ignored and the justification as the limited gain, to hide the loss, would be chased as our meta-physical ideological ignorance glorified as reality, and the whole reverse is an imaginative illusion causing harm on earth. All of this a created polarity, as our judgements made huge, as our division from equality and oneness to and as life here, the real, actual physical. Thus, the solution is to come back to earth, to come back to the physical, in practical awareness of how the physical world actually functions. And within this to realize a system that supports the right to life, as this is the only way to realize self as life, this that is a gift given to bring us back to what is real, life.

The rewards of such a system would be real physical communication with the physical including the physical world, removing judgements of one thing being more than another, where what is here could be understood, where self as life can express with what is here, enjoying the expression of here, understanding the expression of life here. This that would be so much fun, so fulfilling. The rewards of realizing the physical world as life are numerous, only able to be realized as we allow ourselves to become equal and one with and as the physical, and within this allowing all of this physical world to self realize and become self responsible as life. Then would the volume of life become life. I mean, what  else is there?

Support BIG, a Basic Income Guarantee, get this world in order. What is here is what is needed to self realize as life. Remove the “ straw men” of cognitive dissonance from equality and oneness as life. Investigate the hierarchical pyramid structure of our monetary and militaristic system as Peter stealing from Paul, to understand our accepted and allowed separation  turned into a system that is ignoring the suffering on earth, and thus ignoring life. This earth has the potential for an abundant life, all it needs is for life to stand and structurally order this physically, which can be done by the many. The rewards are real communication with our children, with the animals, with nature. This is life, this is living in all dimension, this is accepting and allowing life to exist on earth. This is practical, structural heaven on earth.

Bring yourself back to earth and birth yourself as life DIPLite. The process of discovering self as life.

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Day 385 Self forgiveness on the para noise of my mind

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to listen to my mind.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to be a walking listing of items in and as my mind at the exclusion of all else, worrying and fretting about how i look, what i am going to do/believe I need to do next.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to compare myself to others around me constantly instead of directing myself here in common sense.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to want comfort, to believe that I need comfort when I am here on earth which has air to breath - if it has not been polluted by acts of ignorance and separation from reality as the physical that sustains and is the gift to allow us to be here experiencing life, here, being equal and one to and as life here.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to become an idea of what it means to be here, as this is thought and thus not being here.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to become the violence of thought, the violation of thought only in and as making thought more than life, more than equality and oneness with and as what is here as the physical world that is what i am as life, this which is visible, here, real, 

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand that thoughts of comparison within a limited morality, an idea of what makes me a more than within a system of profit where money determines life, is so limiting in its directive it is astounding that this has been propagated just so a few can live in comfort, this desire to live in comfort a separation from reality, the extreme play out of what we have all accepted and allowed in separation from being here, equal and one to and as the physical.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to resist doing “ paper work” administrative work, such as taxes, and bills, and organizing all the bureaucratic filings that need to be done where it seems that when one thing is done another thing is sent to fill out, as those who are the paper pushes living a diminished life of pushing papers have to justify their jobs and thus layer endless justifications  that are really meant to eliminate so that money is pooled to a few, which is a crime against life when not made efficient and done with common sense which means looking at the present system and realizing it is not efficient and what is best for all in that it is not supporting the life that is here and obviously supporting more of the same that has been going on for a long time which means it is not structured to be supportive and solve inequalities, as the only answer is equality and oneness which is to realize the value is life and that systemically the only choice is to create a system that supports all life, as life being the value, and in common sense every point of this grid of inequality, which is separation from life, acting in self interested survival without questioning and taking steps to be a directive change that realizes that what exists on this earth as a system created by men, is not in fact supporting life and thus is not supportive of life, because if it is not working for everyone than it is not working and any resistance to this is simply self resisting common sense of the physical actual real world that enables every human to breath.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to become blame and spite about objects and systems within this world, as this is anger, as this is fear, as this is paranoia , myself in separation from and as common sense of this physical world, this dialogue, this log of “ die”/death in and as the voices of my mind of a limited morality leading to death as a life never lived, is designed to navigate within a system that in itself is in separation from supporting and realizing equality and oneness with and as life, the physical which in totality is a separation from myself as life here, as life is directive, interactive, giving expression of life, as it would like to receive as being life here.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand that my mind, as the voices in my head are a GPS as an order of the system created by men as mind as being in separation from the substance of what is here as life, which is sound, gentle and forgiving, moving within and as an absolute purpose as life would life, thus the voices in and as my mind are my separation from life when made “ god” as being more real than what is actually physically here as how life works as being what is best for all as the only choice is what works for all, here.

I commit myself to realizing that the flow of money can systemically be organized to support all  life that is here as men, within taking the value as men working with their hands in various ways, and giving a basic income to all men as the resources of this earth are given to support life and that support has been developed through generations of men, thus no one man/human has created what is here as life as the system of the human and even here what is here was created by a reptilian as the manifestation of what we have all accepted and allowed as ideas of more than and less than within and as ourselves, all of this the substance of life here, and thus nothing can be owned as all that exists is the gift of life, thus it is to order a system that supports all life, as life being the value, which means creating a basic income grant to support all life, to allow life to no longer exist within and as limited and destructive survival behaviors that are simply life in lack, and to stop blaming the object as the human and the animal and the plant for its limitation when the very substance as earth as life is denied and thus creates a behavior that is destructive as a limited expression in lack for which we are all to blame as what is here is us,  of same substance , thus what is here on earth as the present system is the sound of life manifest as separation  as energy ignoring itself as life, thus all abuse is a separation from life, a crime as it is destructive of life, for which there are solutions, which at the moment is to stop what we are allowing and to stand as a system that realizes all life has value and that that value can be expressed when the physical world as life as what is here is supported absolutely, which means standing and structuring this system of money to flow to all men, to provide the basic means to live a life of dignity within and without, to create a chord of stability as life physical, and expressively, in thought word and deed, which means an education as to how the mind functions, how the physical can be at ease with proper nutrition, and how the human needs interaction with life, with the society of life that is here as the physical, as life on earth is very mush an orchestra of life, each part needed to support the whole where no one part is more or less than another as all life is equal as life in expression here, thus we are one yet individual.

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