Patience is more natural than anger Day 711

Anger is always self anger.

I realize more and more how much anger is really self anger. it is not having enough information. It is reacting as an event, as seeing the problem and reacting, taking the long road into solution. How many times have each of us regretted reacting in anger in past moments? I know I have many.

There have been times in my life where I was calm, and despite a short tempered reaction coming towards me, or myself reacting as a short temper, if I look, I can see that I was/am reacting within fear. Fear is having value judgements, fearing to lose my life, or an idea thereof. I hide in anger, resisting and pushing away what is in other moments more natural and less a cause of friction. These are more often than not, those moments where the emotional fire subsides, moves through its course and settles in moving forward without increasing accusation and a residual ill will.

Thus, anger has this quality, or I might say, dimension to it, that is rejection and resistance, a ‘ not wanting to know’ because resolution would mean facing an already accepted idea of impossibility blending into self pity, one a consequence of the other, building a voice of futility. Yet, that there is movement in limitation, as energy, as this, it means that the strings pulled as this, can change and self realize this movement and learn to recognize this and realize just how limiting such a construction is within. It also means that nothing can touch me as life unless I accept and allow it. It means that patience is more natural than anger. 

Resistance Day 710

Resistance

I am here, I am physical. What I think about is not what is real, yet what I think about can be a distraction from being present, from focusing here, from seeing life directly, from directing myself here, as the potential inherent in who and what I am.

I am physical.

Am I processing reality? Or, am I processing limited constructs of knowledge and information without a past of practical application? And, is this that I have allowed, as this that the very design of the present system, with so much knowledge and information flowing metaphysically on this earth, what causes me to lose all sensibility in being present in this reality?

What are the attention dis-orders compounding in our children?

Are not the churches, with all their colored windows, an earlier tech of the same as that television, that opinionated voice that is a busy work of making an idea larger than what is real?

How long have we separated ourselves from life. How many generations of separation  each accepts and allows within and as not standing up, have lead to where we are, where our children are so cognitively dissonant that they have a static resonance through which they must try and reach reality, this spatial reality in which we live.  Within this,  centuries of a disrespect of reality, the means of life, the physical. I mean why did we ever believe that we could know a tiger in a cage? How could we ever have thought that a child could be taught in a box ONLY? And from there, spend time watching another box? And, why do we not see that our financial system is by design a system of scarcity? Or is the financial system a reflection of our own accepted and allowed limitations?  Why do we lose our spatial ability as we move from childhood into  adulthood?  Why do we conceptually find it more and more difficult to process new information as we age? Why can’t we remember what happened yesterday?

Why is it so difficult to talk about politics at the dinner table? Why do we decide that what is important, as the policies we ostensibly support through voting ( that in itself in question) is not something discussed at the table? I mean, what happens instead of talk about family members, and their personalities that are in essence what determines the policies that then determine our lives, which, to come full circle, turns into a money system that by design is a system of scarcity.

Is this not reflective of very limited constructs of information that are not working? We discuss endlessly what we accept and allow and the shortcomings there of, and yet we cannot see what is so clear ; what we are within is not equal to the practical world as the physical within how that physical world works in common sense.

When we are directly seeing this actual world, we know what must be done in the moment when we focus here. And yet we do not apply the same to the lives that are on the other side of this world. Most of the families in Syria want to live their lives, enjoy their children. 

Before the King Phillip war in America,  the religious entities had declining members, because the colonists had - although not in accord with a more natural land maintenance system used by the native inhabitants of America-  the colonists had created systems of shelter and husbandry and agriculture that allowed for more leisure time. They felt secure and no longer needed to beg some imaginary god for assistance. They, the colonists had managed the land, with their hands. Nothing else did this but them. In their ‘ peace’ they also would come to realize that they did not need a sovereign to call out rules for them. They were the means of their lives.  And , perhaps, they had learned from the natives an idea that land cannot be owned, it is to take care of it, to work with it. I can only speculate, yet we are so absorbent that the attitudes of the native Americans must have influenced the colonists to some degree.

Why would a government become a corporation, with trade agreements done behind closed doors, that forced the states to use certain products of else be sued?  This is oligarchy, meaning this is each of us allowing a limited format to determine every inch of our presence and awareness about this world. Then that ‘ authority’ determines what is real and what is not, on a physical and limited planet. Why do we allow this game of separation from reality, into what becomes a cult of death? We allow an ego, composed of limited ideas, beliefs and opinions to be greater than what is real.  Moments in history have revealed this to us.  We do not need religion, we do not need a government saying it works for us, when it really works for a corporation of a few groups/individuals that bully a very very very limited form to follow. This is what we are allowing and accepting within ourselves and that shadow is the cause of great suffering to so many animals and plants and children. 

In such a short amount of time, this could change. To respect your neighbor as yourself, to realize they are a contract of information of such limited measure, that their faults are the same as yours, perhaps only different by a very narrow margin, yet having existed in such limitation, such tiny degrees of difference appear HUGE. That is the mirage of existing within very limited information.  Such inequality to life, to the physical practice of living, causes fear, it is being inferior to life, all life. The physical is life. It is the expression of life, it is the gift of life.

One has to deconstruct the beliefs, opinions and ideas layered within, as a perfect practice leads to a mastery that is significant in the degree of ease within processing the information, measurable in how this works as the lack of ease in the behaviors of projecting blame and spite outward that is the consequence of an imperfect practice.  This is invisible yet visible, as it is like a force that is the same as rejection, as resistance. Projecting blame and spite, criticizing actions and words and the things words form in another, is resisting being self responsible. It means one is not moving into solutions, into lending an ease in a moment where one can resolve what exists into a trust that no harm will be done. 

What are you wrapping your mouth around? What thoughts, as thoughts are things, are you allowing? Are you here, giving solutions that lend an ease, and move one’s self towards a mastery of living in equality to the physical? Will you move silent into death with no regrets or will you fight to survive as that ego that is a signature of very limited information and loads of protective and defensive behaviors heard so clearly in the words you speak that are of blame and spite and justification? Will you transcend the ego?

What opinions have I allowed to incorporate me? Day 709

I remember when a boyfriend of mine said to me that I had to try Buddism if I wanted to remain with him. I decided to try it for three months.

What I noticed is that this religion, this opinion about reality had many benefits for members of the society. The place being New York City, there was a broad spectrum of people from many different levels and placements in society. 

I ended up playing with the orchestra. It started to take over my life. 

If I took what was good about this structure, I realized that it gave structure to so many. Yet, was this a structure that rewrote one’s script, one’s soul, one’s order, one’s hard-drive memory, was it what placed one in awareness of the real ‘ corp’ that is this physical world, this physical earth, this instrument, this orchestra of incorporated life?  Did this system incorporate all things, giving one self mastery of self in relation to all things, as this physical world that has withstood the test of time longer and with greater synchronicity than the systems of opinion imposed on and structured as systems in the world around us? No.  An opinion about something cannot be what is real. It is a story, that if chanted again and again and again can come to be believed to be a truth of self.  And, why THIS repeating chant? Why not repeat being present and here? Why not place one’s presence and awareness and will into being here, to incorporate real life? To place the real corpus as a real relationship, as the physical? To practice ‘ reading’ and communicating with what is real?

lol, Religion, cultural in-doctoring, Corporate media, they are all opinions, they are all bodies of opinionated form, that can become what is your story within, or my story within, yet not one of them is the real story, a story, a storied layering of what builds and sustains and is life, as the actual sound formation of and as the physical. These things for sale, accepted and allowed, that can take over your life, they are not life, even with inherent good as the very means used to story those who follow such opinions, because this is how we work, we can learn anything, we can understanding anything we set ourselves towards uniting with.  In one way, the means to follow is the means to become self empowered. It is simple and it is right in front of us.

It takes 10,000 hours to master something, it takes 21 days to incorporate a new skill. With the violin, I would incorporate a new skill, the first week was like mapping it out, the more care and presence I placed within this, without distractions ( the chatter in my mind about some unresolved event- a past-time of not being present or not integrating something clearly, or racing to integrate something without realizing the process of integration with enjoyment and patience)  the more fluid the integration. The second week was to ingrain this with movement, and the third week was to practice checking it, so that the checking of it became what was automated as presence. This means, that I got to the point where moving myself through the new ability to measure, of awareness or skill, of mastery of a point,  moved with precision and ‘ flash speed.’  I owned it! 

Is this not what the religion, the culture of our parents as the story of information absorbed in the first seven years, the corporation of the media - is this not what they are doing? Does this mean that the means to the end is right in front of us? And does this not mean that because humans use words, that the way and means of real communication is to KNOW YOUR WORDS to the extent that you can process the storied information to assess what does no harm to this physical reality, and does this not mean that you can by the very design of what and who you really are, mean that you can understand this physical real story all around you that is you?

Only You Decide Day 708

Outside the trees continue to grow. I sometimes forget that they are outside being trees. I remove myself from the physical reality around me. I move into an emotional polarity, inside my head, in my imagination; a blueprint of my experiences, colored with value judgements. I become a train of ideas, beliefs and opinions, that are in separation from being present and focused here, considering all things. What is here is me, I am individual yet a part of everything here. I cannot live without the trees. And, why would I want to? I mean trees are an amazing technology. And I, as a human, am a technology to. I am composed of cells that change every seven years. That is being an amazing technology.  

Just like a computer, I can become slow if I am not aware of what I accept and allow within and as me. If I consider only what is on my hard drive, my memory, and believe this to be more real, or of greater value than the rest of me, then I polarize my presence and thwart my will away from all that is me. I am physical, that is my starting point, all those cells, working so diligently to maintain this form so that I may be present in the magnificence of creation. This creation is all around me. It is the physical. The game of superiority and inferiority, that more equal stance that takes a superlative and qualities it as somehow being more, is the illusion. This is the game of playing with that memory, and separating one’s self from reality. This is the game of hiding in plain sight what is real, because only what is here can be used, because here is what is real. 

If I allow that memory to be the directive of myself here, in this reality, I lose my conceptual ability.  Ever notice how as we age, we have to walk slower and slower, because we are no longer present and here.  With this magnificent machine that can replace every cell within a seven year period, how can such a separation come to pass? Ask yourself what it is that is the cause of a loss of conceptual ability development in perfecting a presence in reality, this physical world?  Should not those who have lived here in this physical reality be the models of presence in reality? Would this not look similar to someone who has mastered a musical instrument? Is there anyone who has done this? And would this not be the simplest thing really, so much simpler than all the justifications against this being possible? Would not that busy work of this not being possible be a cognitive dissonance of a memory gone astray? Can we call this ego? Is this not a false morality, where all the parts are not necessarily something to throw out, as some are in alignment with practical reality?

We have a system where we have allowed a sovereign entity to determine what we think, how we maintain our health and what we do with our time. And yet, I have had a policeman say that a sovereign movement is a cult! lol, it exists, one can see this in the immunity some higher ups have, they get away with things the chattel, as the population of personas, as people, cannot. In a way, it is a cult, a culture where a few can do what they want, and the rest foot the bill.

Also, we have allowed our labor to be monitored and directed through acceptance and allowance, feigning ignorance- when we are so capable of doing the math via the incredible conceptual  ability and sensitivity inherent in the design in and as a sentient being -  that what is for sale by the sovereign corporation we have accepted and allowed - is meant to suppress and limit, otherwise the game of control of those who have abdicated their common sense, and those who have become somewhat more responsible as the beneficiaries of this corporate trust, would not exist. This game ends up limiting both ends of this spectrum, this polarity, this system of value judgments in separation from the physical reality. It is the mirror image of what we allow within when we believe our memory is greater than reality.  We have put our trust in God and that God is money, where we allow our efforts to flow, and that flow builds a castle that at present hides within the label of capitalism, that is really what was once labeled as communism, and is really an oligarchy held in place though a collective amnesia of one’s own acceptance and allowance. 

And meanwhile, that tree is out there making oxygen to breath so that those cells can attempt to replace themselves and sustain this opportunity at life as in-formation as the physical to self realize creation as what one is, and then stand equal to and with it, to conceptually be present, here , aware.   What if there were a dissonance to life, in the form of a picture show, within, visible yet invisible, called energy, that is a polarized self warped into limited ideas as a self  in self abdication of accepting a common sense of life, physicality, who and what one really is? Do  we read enough to understand that the density of the matter in our brains tells us the degree to which we are present, having payed, or paid attention to what is here in reality or not? What if this were a form of pollution, a death cult so visible in each and every human being losing all conceptual ability to the degree that they no longer can walk with ease at the end of a life that began without religion, without nationality, without judgement about race, ethnicity, or gender, without ideas within a limited morality and without fear to stand up and respect all things? That starting point of some greater degree of clarity before the resonance of the sins of the fathers sets in, that starting point that  could see with clarity that the proverbial woman made wicked in stories told in childhood, one of many seminal moments of planting ideas leading to the dissonance blinding reality, this woman, labeled as wicked, was really cinderella in another life?  

How can one begin to remove the chaos of ideas, beliefs and opinions, composed of value judgements, a false, as limited,  positive? One must master language, the words. And then, one must read a lot. One must realize that the spoken word is no different that the written word. Ask yourself, ‘ What are you wrapping yourself around as the words you accept and allow?”  What are you creating with the things you form with your mouth and the space in your mind? What are you forming with your thoughts and your spoken word? Be careful, because what you form layers in the flesh and goes to direct who and what one is, because what we practice automates us.  Are you present and focused here? Are you able to do the math?  The means to perfection is the same means towards a disassociation to reality. Can you walk with ease anywhere? 

I would suggest to start your journey back to life. It is time to master yourself as life, the cells are there and the trees are there to help you, to sustain you, to give you the opportunity to walk through the eye of the needle and remove yourself from the cult of death known as ego.  I would suggest, to practice self forgiveness and self corrective statements to program yourself equal and one to life. I would suggest to really get to know your words and take care within what you wrap your mouth around, and your thoughts around. it will determine if you really live or die. No one can do this for you, and blame is blame. Self forgiveness and corrective application is yourself gifting yourself life.

DIP Lite is a free course to help in your journey through self forgiveness and self corrective application towards your journey back to life. And there are many free interviews on Eqafe. You decide, and only you.

Looking at my will. Day 707

I am taking some time to learn about something I have wanted to understand for a long time. I find myself becoming overwhelmed. Then, I notice I want to go into blame towards various things, this appears as a back chat in my head.

This back chat, as the voice of value judgements, can take over, unless I stop. It means using my will to stop, to realize that back chat is a stream of fear, an artifice of judgements, myself not having enough information, and a belief on top of that that this is too much to stand through. All of this in itself an illusion. So many times I have walked through information and gained insight into myself and the world around me, this time it is no different. I can take the time, and go easy with myself and build this understanding. This is how expanding my awareness works. 

I can also relate this to the existent infrastructure of the world, and what I allow when uncertain and overwhelmed, as the same behaviors in other human beings, and the information presented on the media that uses this same experience I allow within myself, to generate a distraction from using what is natural. That nature, being to slow down and investigate no matter what. And this until things are clear, and I gain confidence in directing myself - also not fearing to make a mistake.

In tandem with this, it helps me to remember that just as this emotional storm rises within me, it rises as the same behaviors in others. This reminder to myself, about myself, and this same action in others, allows me to slow down and become patient when communicating with others. Thus, I need not be anxious, instead I can focus myself on what I have allowed within, and the same in the world around me, and  assess the parts and the whole and find solutions that  motivate a clear will and a steady direction, a presence that is sustainable . 

Thus, the moment I find myself  becoming restless, obsessed, impatient, short tempered, I stop, I breath, I slow way down and no matter what, remember myself to being present here on a physical planet, to ground myself and place my will as life, into measurable solutions. 

I also realize how awesome that would be if each were to become this with each one, each human, each animal , each plant and entity on this earth. 

Imagine this accumulating and becoming normal? What kind of world would this create? 

In the most basic of terms, this would become a world absent of behaviors of survival into a world communicating creation. 

Remaining Present Day 706

Remaining Present

What does it mean to take information and place it into physical practical reality?

Someone came up to me yesterday and asked a question about education. They asked me if I had any research studies done. Pause. Then they asked if there was any qualitative and quantitative analysis.

I realized at this point that this is where the person was heading, expressing their informed ideas only. The terms not bad, and not complicated. If I were to go into detail, I would at this point get a set body of information that would have difficulty moving outside of that. Data on a page was more important than reality.

This begs the question as to realizing that looking at a tiger in a cage can tell us nothing about the tiger. Of course we could stare at the muscles, the teeth, the hair, etc. etc. and make assumptions about the purpose of these mechanisms, yet without the context of nature, we cannot really know how that tiger works and why they are formed the way that they are. 

It becomes absurd to decide what something is in a box. It becomes absurd to measure in a limited environment. It becomes absurd to look at something ONLY in a box, because it is understood that in isolation, the observer influences the outcome. I mean, is this not why nature is considered symbiotic?

I find it interesting, that business uses the anecdotal. Meaning, business uses testimony, that real live, in the nature, in the real living world, situation as its measure of effectiveness. How have we allowed ourselves to accept studies in controlled and isolated environments to be considered valid?

Again, it is one of those situations where the parts realized in isolation may not be all invalid. Yet, they cannot become what justifies what is real, because what happens in the real world, where all factors influence everything, what is real and what is effective becomes what works. Thus, the real world, all those 1+1’s. the building of effectiveness, as the building of awareness in reality must be considered in practical reality. And, within this, that forms change, hence we as organize robots, can only really be effective in life with our presence being here, in the physical reality.

The quantity of our awareness and the quality of that exists here, in the physical.

Would this then become a grounding that remembers what one did yesterday, or the year before? 

Conceptually, we humans have allowed ourselves to become so removed and separate from this reality, that the idea of remembering where we were and what we did yesterday appears impossible. And yet, this state of being would be real living. 

Where are you? Are you here, or are you focused on a past and a future that as such focus, is a state of being that has no real relationships to life.  What is the real quantity and quality of your awareness?  Are you processing reality or a set body of information that in reality is a conceptual lack of real living here. Is this what you accepted and allowed to define who and what you are as this life? Will that set body of information withstand the test of time ? Will you move with and as what is real? 

One really cannot learn to perform in life, unless one can play the instrument of life, a physical instrument, that is not emotional, it is stable, it moves in transformative ways, it is creation. It is time to take the tiger out of the cage. It is time to live. That is quantifying and qualifying life to realize a potency so fulfilling it is a design of beauty to behold. Are you awe struck in every moment? This is a marker of real living.

The absence of HOPE. Day 705

I have looked at what it means to no longer have any hope for a while. At some point I realized that the absence of hope is being calm in knowing something, meaning seeing the way forward. This also means seeing the way forward within a sense of self trust ; being able to address the unexpected. This is also a trust in a general ability to process information, or form and function, or a body of knowledge and information that is made larger than life, the proverbial elephant in the room, and not be reactive to or towards it. Instead to take the time to investigate and direct, remaining stable and grounded because this life is physical.


Therefor, there is no need for hope, that excitement, that desire, because completing things means walking the order, the ordinary into a completion of a goal, or what some may call the extra-ordinary. The extra-ordinary should be normal, instead it is defined as being something extra, which means that life is in reverse. Yet the words are telling of a sequence, meaning they reveal how things are accomplished.


Within this increasing awareness that hope is not needed, which cancels out no-hope, I am aware that every summer the way the bugs move and appear, the way certain plants are prolific one summer and somehow absent other summers, I realize that the very movement of the nature tells of a balance in the natural world around me. I would walk around this one small island in my town, and over the years, after having a belief that walking the same path was boring, that this could not be true, that i needed to look at the small in the world around me. What I started to notice was that every year was different. Then I started to ask myself what these differences meant. Then I asked how humans had come to be so out-of-the-sensibility of such perception.  I mean, how did we have almanacs before all our present scientific analysis? It has been proven that people's living a more agricultural life were able to foretell the coming year's weather. Somehow, somewhere, we have this capacity. Unless, we spend 13 years in a box mis-using our imagination into a limited and  consequentially, self destructive blueprint of information.  I mean why do we have an eastern religion that says to stop the mind and a western religion that says become the living word? Are these too ' belief's' the opposing sides of the same kind, and is this not an example of divide and conquer, through fragmenting information, and by this design, causing a separation from a natural ability to see directly this physical life?  Ask yourself what the meaning of humpty dumpty means, when he fell off the wall? lol, this in itself is a double meaning, suggesting that if we fall off the castle wall, we shatter- suggesting we must remain within the feudal system. A layer around a truth, as this is how the game is played.

Yet, HD, was sitting on a false construct, as that wall protecting the castle within a pyramid scheme. HD fell off the wall because he was no longer grounded! He had accepted the king's men and the king's horses instead of the physical. The consequence was being scatter brained, no longer able to process reality, and hence lacking in spatial ability, causing mistakes in his reality. It was a mis-use of imagination.  Hence, no one can put him back together again, no one, only he can. It is the same with each of us. The way, is in the practical, via the physical reality that is nature. And within this, the formation of the wall, that is the present system and hallowed ground as our mind consciousness systems of beliefs, opinions and ideas, so much of this indoctrinated information that consumes and shatters the life, as the presence within each of us. We accepted and allowed it. Yet we can change and forgive this separation and stand, equal and one on the ground and notice the ineffable and subtle changes that are in the natural world around us, that tell the real story of creation. Time to take down the wall. we can do it, together, after all, we built it together, so we can deconstruct it together and rebuild. We are the instruments of transformation, this is our real joy, we need only give up hope and hopelessness, because they are a consequence of no longer seeing this reality directly.

Thank you for reading.