Only You Decide Day 708

Outside the trees continue to grow. I sometimes forget that they are outside being trees. I remove myself from the physical reality around me. I move into an emotional polarity, inside my head, in my imagination; a blueprint of my experiences, colored with value judgements. I become a train of ideas, beliefs and opinions, that are in separation from being present and focused here, considering all things. What is here is me, I am individual yet a part of everything here. I cannot live without the trees. And, why would I want to? I mean trees are an amazing technology. And I, as a human, am a technology to. I am composed of cells that change every seven years. That is being an amazing technology.  

Just like a computer, I can become slow if I am not aware of what I accept and allow within and as me. If I consider only what is on my hard drive, my memory, and believe this to be more real, or of greater value than the rest of me, then I polarize my presence and thwart my will away from all that is me. I am physical, that is my starting point, all those cells, working so diligently to maintain this form so that I may be present in the magnificence of creation. This creation is all around me. It is the physical. The game of superiority and inferiority, that more equal stance that takes a superlative and qualities it as somehow being more, is the illusion. This is the game of playing with that memory, and separating one’s self from reality. This is the game of hiding in plain sight what is real, because only what is here can be used, because here is what is real. 

If I allow that memory to be the directive of myself here, in this reality, I lose my conceptual ability.  Ever notice how as we age, we have to walk slower and slower, because we are no longer present and here.  With this magnificent machine that can replace every cell within a seven year period, how can such a separation come to pass? Ask yourself what it is that is the cause of a loss of conceptual ability development in perfecting a presence in reality, this physical world?  Should not those who have lived here in this physical reality be the models of presence in reality? Would this not look similar to someone who has mastered a musical instrument? Is there anyone who has done this? And would this not be the simplest thing really, so much simpler than all the justifications against this being possible? Would not that busy work of this not being possible be a cognitive dissonance of a memory gone astray? Can we call this ego? Is this not a false morality, where all the parts are not necessarily something to throw out, as some are in alignment with practical reality?

We have a system where we have allowed a sovereign entity to determine what we think, how we maintain our health and what we do with our time. And yet, I have had a policeman say that a sovereign movement is a cult! lol, it exists, one can see this in the immunity some higher ups have, they get away with things the chattel, as the population of personas, as people, cannot. In a way, it is a cult, a culture where a few can do what they want, and the rest foot the bill.

Also, we have allowed our labor to be monitored and directed through acceptance and allowance, feigning ignorance- when we are so capable of doing the math via the incredible conceptual  ability and sensitivity inherent in the design in and as a sentient being -  that what is for sale by the sovereign corporation we have accepted and allowed - is meant to suppress and limit, otherwise the game of control of those who have abdicated their common sense, and those who have become somewhat more responsible as the beneficiaries of this corporate trust, would not exist. This game ends up limiting both ends of this spectrum, this polarity, this system of value judgments in separation from the physical reality. It is the mirror image of what we allow within when we believe our memory is greater than reality.  We have put our trust in God and that God is money, where we allow our efforts to flow, and that flow builds a castle that at present hides within the label of capitalism, that is really what was once labeled as communism, and is really an oligarchy held in place though a collective amnesia of one’s own acceptance and allowance. 

And meanwhile, that tree is out there making oxygen to breath so that those cells can attempt to replace themselves and sustain this opportunity at life as in-formation as the physical to self realize creation as what one is, and then stand equal to and with it, to conceptually be present, here , aware.   What if there were a dissonance to life, in the form of a picture show, within, visible yet invisible, called energy, that is a polarized self warped into limited ideas as a self  in self abdication of accepting a common sense of life, physicality, who and what one really is? Do  we read enough to understand that the density of the matter in our brains tells us the degree to which we are present, having payed, or paid attention to what is here in reality or not? What if this were a form of pollution, a death cult so visible in each and every human being losing all conceptual ability to the degree that they no longer can walk with ease at the end of a life that began without religion, without nationality, without judgement about race, ethnicity, or gender, without ideas within a limited morality and without fear to stand up and respect all things? That starting point of some greater degree of clarity before the resonance of the sins of the fathers sets in, that starting point that  could see with clarity that the proverbial woman made wicked in stories told in childhood, one of many seminal moments of planting ideas leading to the dissonance blinding reality, this woman, labeled as wicked, was really cinderella in another life?  

How can one begin to remove the chaos of ideas, beliefs and opinions, composed of value judgements, a false, as limited,  positive? One must master language, the words. And then, one must read a lot. One must realize that the spoken word is no different that the written word. Ask yourself, ‘ What are you wrapping yourself around as the words you accept and allow?”  What are you creating with the things you form with your mouth and the space in your mind? What are you forming with your thoughts and your spoken word? Be careful, because what you form layers in the flesh and goes to direct who and what one is, because what we practice automates us.  Are you present and focused here? Are you able to do the math?  The means to perfection is the same means towards a disassociation to reality. Can you walk with ease anywhere? 

I would suggest to start your journey back to life. It is time to master yourself as life, the cells are there and the trees are there to help you, to sustain you, to give you the opportunity to walk through the eye of the needle and remove yourself from the cult of death known as ego.  I would suggest, to practice self forgiveness and self corrective statements to program yourself equal and one to life. I would suggest to really get to know your words and take care within what you wrap your mouth around, and your thoughts around. it will determine if you really live or die. No one can do this for you, and blame is blame. Self forgiveness and corrective application is yourself gifting yourself life.

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Day 612 We are all holding this system of abusing life in place.

Do I practice and become the measure of here as this physical reality? Or, do I become inferior to it based on an idea, a belief or an opinion within and as me. How focused am I here in this practice of living, a physical living where all outcomes are obvious? Do I react as belief, because I spent so much of my childhood in a box, learning to abstract number and words away from physical reality? Did I allow the drug of thought only, using parts that were placed within me, as supposed truths, where ironically, the object did exist and did move around, but I have no direct experience with such objects because they are the past, and the parts given to me in story only, in a box, are whatI  have because this is what was placed within me, which I accepted.

And for what, to divide me from reality, using my common sense, my ability to measure spatially what actually really physical exists here. And then the television, another story teller with scripted words and arranged pictures. And outside the window, the waters are polluted and the water companies tout their life saving tactics of refining the water, and needing to pay for the failing and aging infrastructure, of which is placed on men, men who formed a government and paid taxes for such services, but somehow over time, with divisions in justifications, for salaries etc, for war- to grab more- the governing systems seem to be systems of justification for salary increases, and the failing, aging infrastructure replacement costs are on the users. But then, again, if perception of reality is lost, the whole picture of all of this is not realized. And, we sit in our entertainments of thought only, and praise our inner fantasizing, because in effect this is what this is only. 

This reminds me of the tolls on some of the highways around Boston, in Massachusetts. If one does not have the change, as I have been in the situation of, because I do not travel too much west of Boston, for the tolls, then one is fined way beyond the cost of the toll. I mean the toll is, in some instances 1.25 and the charge , in one instance, for not having a dollar and twenty five cents, because I use a debt card all the time, is now 50$. I wonder how many times tourists run into this problem. I have asked other people in the area, if they notice an excessive ticketing system in Boston, and they say yes. I mean one time, my son exited the city, and evidently turned from one road onto another, into a bus lane. he does not know the city too well, and sometimes there is a lot of traffic, so it is easy to turn onto a bus lane, where the yellow ground markings are worn. There are cameras in these areas and they take a picture of your car, and then you get a 50$ fine in the mail, WTF! I started to say, gee,  that kettle at the end of the rainbow was PLACED there by MEN, and then made  into a fairy tale. lol.

With all our modern technology, there really is no excuse for this practice. One could use a debt card to pay the toll, and thereby reduce the costs overall, and reduce the labor of a man, in doing a tedious collection of money ( or lack of money ) and, as the present situation is being used for, punishing people who find themselves in a new place, which is really just collecting money in self interest.

My local politician, state politician, voted to have the salaries increased for the government officials, because if the salaries were lowered , then less professional people would be in the offices of governing, But i have to ask myself, given what is going on in Boston with money collection that is not being changed, with  modern technology, all of this could change, the whole way of directing money could change. It is all really a measurable thing. And this is the point, the  roles people play in the system, ones that do not in any way use the full potential of people, are being used to get money, without any consideration for living, thus, what we are calling professionals are not professionals in the title name, they are really professionals at flowing money to themselves in any way possible without any respect for life. And my local state rep. is participating in the game. It is money before life, before common sense. And, as I said earlier, common sense was distracted, was placed in a box, taught to conceptualize mentally ONLY, with limited knowledge and information. It gets pretty obvious after a while if one takes the time to look at form and structure. In America, after being in the New York area, I notice that so many of the roads are crumbling, they really are a mess, parched and bumpy, crowded and congested with traffic. I can’t see much difference in our roads, in some instances and the roads in Africa! 

So, while our so-called professionals are collecting through ancient infrastructure that has no money for change because it is all flowing to administrations who have no conceptual ability ( because if the really really did then what is here would not be here!)  our world is crumbling around us. 

We really have to wake up. We can take all that ability of men, that ‘ labor’ used in war, that story where roles of killing “ enemies”  comes to define us and are aggrandized and maintained through television and story in boxes and end up costing us our lives, punishing us for the self interest of some over others when we are all the same, and come back down to earth in practice. That labor, can be used to build systems that do not harm the environment, creating water companies who tout the good they are doing without thinking about how the earth really works as a system that recycles water in ways that clean it, without needing these huge systems to clean the pollution caused by building the systems that themselves did not work with the earth in ways that cause no harm. It is that we are placing systems on earth that are about collecting money, and money really has no value, none, because we cannot live without the water, we cannot learn and expand without opportunity and connection. 

Common sense is important because it imports what we see, and if what we are placed in front of to see, is in separation from reality, then we lose our common sense to very narrow conception, and this causes a pressure on the human ‘ spirit’ of common sense, creating uncertainty, which is the disease of depression, ADHD, ADD, to name a few.  All of these are because our common sense is not equal to the volume of life here, the physical, where we actually physically live our lives. As we can see our lives are not being lived, they are being lived as fantasies in our minds only, a fantasy that does not match life, a fantasy that is layered over time into the flesh through repetition, because life would accept all things. 

Thus it is the measure of our common sense within that is the cause of abuse on this earth. So, we as humans are holding this in place, because we accepted and allowed a separation from reality and we maintain this separation in jobs that are no longer needed given the technology developed by that same common sense that is ingenious when given opportunity to live, because that innate sense within will expand when placed in front of what is real, it is the nature of life, as what life would be and do. What happens to another human on this earth is the fault of us all, if we do not pay attention , read what is going on, understand the systemic structures. I would have to say, it would be better not to send your child to school, and instead to teach them about the real world from home.  I would also say to support a Basic Income Guarantee, a Living Income, because this will allow the form of the present abusive systems to change, as so many fear change because they see no other way to have an income, because we have allowed money to determine life. Turn money into something that allows opportunity and development, choose life, choose what is best for all as this is best for self.

Day 476 Accessing Knowledge and Information

I notice that I access data within and as me as belief, opinion and idea, as a protection and defense mechanism to try and remain standing here, within my survival environment, and within this I become very anxious. Like I use listing as knowledge and information to counteract, to control, to avoid, to destroy what I perceive as allowing this, to be what exists here.

Like I am in full combat, and my knowledge and information is my gear, a game of elimination, which is blame and spite. If I do not have enough knowledge and information I will lose.

Many times I have read something with the intent to remember it to use it to validate myself, and prove some point that if I had looked, I might have noticed the lack of substance that it had in totality, because such beliefs, opinions and ideas, were answering to a limited culture and not what existed here in totality.

Within this, the fear became bigger than realizing here, than my own common sense, hence the anxiety, because common sense has more substance than any belief system that demands a game of associations and relationship building that serves ideologies of right and wrong, more than and less than, ideas about how something should be, this in separation from an inclusion of the physical world that is right here, that is what sustains us, thus what is needed to be considered in all action, in all movement.

Someone once told me that to master something it must be done with gentleness, meaning that sensing something requires being relaxed in order to sense the thing, embrace without harm, the action the movement. I notice that my anxiety is of a state of racing, of believing there is something I want, or need, in order to find order, when the opposite is what is needed, a slowing down, an acceptance in order to see here. Breathing can aid in this, especially when the anxiety comes, because within this I am believing that if I do not have enough knowledge and information, I will fall. Living is not a race.  Living is being here understanding how the physical world functions, how it works. 

The mind accumulates what is placed before it leading to a conscious, subconscious and unconscious mind, that becomes a map of one’s perceptions, thus what goes in is what comes out, and if the within is not equal to the without, a conflict accumulates within and builds conflict without until what does not work is discarded, by then, one is older and life has gone by.  This mind is like a spiraling mechanism of  counter point, it uses polarities of good and bad, right and wrong, this causing chaos, slowing down direct seeing.  Our choice is to eat this mechanical superficial apple of good and evil or we can breath, and forgive ourselves back to what we all long for, which is our common sense, an embrace of life without conditions as beliefs. Associations of knowledge and information, like our varying layered committees of “ professionals” create an answerless society, and it is all of us that are this web, thus it is all of us that are the cause of starvation and abuse to life.  The conflict, a game of hiding and blame and spite is rejecting embracing what does no harm. This need not exist and is, by nature, destructive. And it is all held in place because of how money has been allowed to determine life.

From the beginning, understanding of physical reality leads to life, not the cognitive dissonance and misnomers of one thing being more than another, not the borders of division as the developed suits of men used to define through comparison only, the whole shebang  that which only looks at differences and not similarities, and then blaming the differences for the problems, when being different is not the problem, it is not realizing the starting point of sameness, and from here enjoying the differences.

I noticed a web site where jewelry was a image of a chemical construct, like how chemists show diagrams of certain chemicals. One can wear this way of mapping a chemical construct around ones neck as a symbol. And then, during this time, I was soaking my feet in something to get a mineral into my body, and I did this because I have rubbed garlic on my feet to see if, as I had read, I could then taste the garlic in my mouth, and it worked. So, somehow, in the way that I move, I realized that gee, if our feet can take in/sense garlic and absorb minerals then our feet must be these amazing sensing mechanisms, and we are not even using them! I mean, what if we learned to name the things our feet sensed through our other faculties, such as the taste of something in our mouths? What if we learned to understand the composition of something on the ground with our feet? It is possible, even though no one can do this at present. 

So, here I am this mind system of knowledge and information and I am spouting this and existing within a very very limited culture that is a very very limited hierarchy of control , which would be the choice of control on top of what is real as the physical, and would also within this, over time become more and more and more limited, impulsing more and more limited perceptions to blind and suppress what is innate within the human physical body, just because of a starting point of a few that their differences were somehow more than another’s and within this deciding as a belief that they/we had to control this?. This is just simply a cycle of insanity. There really are no other words for it. I mean we build machines that are of parts that function, without one part the whole simply does not work. Earth is a “ machine” and this is the value, a computer would not work if every part was at war, it would destroy itself. Which is what humans on earth are in essence doing. My associative game in my mind, as my mind, is my separation. I am ignoring my gift, my physical gifts of life, my apps, the application of myself as my physical body, with life, to be life.

Thus, and what a thought, our feet are like the greatest apps ever created and we are not using them. Instead we have externalized our capacity into technology. But, we have already done this with a belief in a god - a previous generation of referring to something other than our innate physical capacity of common sense. What all of us need to do, is accept ourselves as life, and begin to equalize, or walk ourselves back into what we are as physical beings that are the greatest “ app” available , in tandem with this “ phone” of earth, this “ fun” as the physical, to be and become our bearth-rite of passage to life.

Thus, when and as this anxiety comes up within and as me, with knowledge and information whirling around, I stop and I breath, and I look to the beliefs as the knowledge and information, and the ideas of need and want and I forgive such ideas, and bring myself here, until I am at ease, until I am humble, until I am willing the giving up of all opinion and idea as the values of my culture ( as not being the only solution because there is good within this ) , the beliefs as my past that I use to define me, the sequences of events that as my past that I use to substantiate me, and I stop and I breath, and I do not allow myself to become inferior or superior, as this is myself in protection and defense in the order of a hierarchy that is unequal to physical reality, and within this state of accepted and allowed inequality to the physical world, I become an energetic movement of anxiety as I am within judgement of relating through associations that are consequences lived out for generations from a starting point of separation from physical reality.

So, within this,

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to fear living.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to separate myself from my human physical body, into a mind system that is a collection of ideas, opinions and beliefs that are a limited construct of what is real the physical reality, and as such an image and likeness that is not sustainable, and as such needs constant validation to keep the fires of itself burning, as this division via judgement of differences, is creating good and bad, instead of being equal to what does no harm and supports all life.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not see realize and understand that children are not born with personalities, and as such have no programs of culture, thus what it is that child becomes is impulsed into them, where an ability to have divergent thinking is lost as the programs accumulate and become the directives, creating a human being who is limited in what has gone within, and this within not being equal to common sense, causes the child to slow down and follow limitations instead of developing an awareness of physical reality in form and function.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to believe that I need my mind of ideas, beliefs and opinions, to direct me here, not seeing realizing and understanding and equalizing myself to the common sense that absorbed the knowledge and information of a culture of hierarchy that is in totality a separation from life.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to believe that facing the storm of separation as thoughts, opinions and ideas is a taboo, culturally.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to fear the reactions of a entity voicing limitations as ideas, beliefs and opinions be it myself within or another without, and within this to not see, realize and understand that the storm of separation as limitation as what has been impulsed by a system of inequality, as hierarchy is and does, is disrupting a habit that is in total unacceptable, and must be faced for which I as life have as common sense here.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to fear using common sense, to believe that common sense is somehow dirty, when from the mind’s perspective, common sense is destructive, but of the separation and limitation only, thus common sense is like a mechanism, a medicine for life, for this earth, for each cell, for each self, here.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to fear being in common sense, to fear being humble, to fear being at ease, here.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to fear limitation, to believe that limitation can exist.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to fear separation, to believe that separation can exist.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to believe that something can be lost.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not see, realize and understand that ease is like the warmth of the sun, nurturing and forgiving of what allows direct seeing, and thus self autonomy as life, here.

                                    

Day 143 Security

Demon (Photo credit: Johnny Söderberg)

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to want security, not realizing that in wanting this security I am in separation from myself as life, here, as being life is the security, is the value, as what i am, yet within a system that does not value life, and values commodities and the grabbing of freely given resources in self interest, life is ignored and placed within servitude to a false secondary god, blind to this false self glorification, that is itself made of the substance of life, and cannot exist without this as what it is, thus has a false god been worshipped, a totem made in separation from what is the value, the gift given, which is life.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand that my anxiety is a desire to be secure, an action of myself believing something can be lost, when what will be lost is what is not real, what has not been valued, which is life, as what I am, as what all that is here is the very substance of, made secondary to ownership of resource, and thus diminished into servitude to the glorification of object as primary, when what is real, what is absolute is the very substance of what is here, that is what all that is here is, which is life, being alive, thus all judgements are limitations and of no direction, supporting and directing that which is the value , which is life, here.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand that in not allowing what is here to express itself as the form of itself, is to deny life, to fear losing one;s position within a hierarchy that idolizes a false god, as the commodity, the object, the ownership is to continue the denial of life, as this is what is real , as this is the constant, where the object and the resource change form and never remain the same, thus the value is being, is life, thus this is what is primary, as what is the same within all that is here, thus all there is, is to be forgiving of oneself in and as life, here.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand that being life is about being forgiving of oneself in and as life.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand how much idolatry I allow and accept myself to exist as, where I am so busy in worship that I no longer see what is primary, which is life/being and instead I see the heresy and the object, where I have been lead to believe that one object is more than another, when this is myself no longer able to see life, as I no longer am able to see what is the real value, which is life. thus my own judgements are indicative of my separation from life, and my idol worship, and I was warned not to worship a false god, as this would lead to division and war, abuse and neglect of life, which is exactly what is manifest on this earth, where many are staving, many are existing in diminished health, in lack of self development in and as life, where the very state of this earth, as the gift of life, has been misused, and slowly moves towards extinction, as we see with so many of the animals that are here, where we have become so separated from life, that we, the human, will leave a dog in a cage and forget about that dog, allow it to starve and live a horrible existence because we can no longer see what is the value, which is life, thus we are all equally responsible for what exists on this earth, as each of us  fears to stand up as ourselves as life here, not realizing that this must be done and that it is the only way out, each and every one of us must stand and realize the primary value is life, and thus life must be supported as all as one as equal, and what will be given is what is the gift, as life, where earth will become heaven on earth.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand that there is only forgiveness.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand that there is no security among idol worshippers.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand that the worship of an idol, be it an obsession with a desire, or possession, will consume the worshipper , as this is an act of war against life, which s exactly what exists on this earth today, where more money is spent on war than on life.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand that this behavior of pathological destruction  is the outcome of separation from life.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand that administrators are so caught up in their making of money, and so departmentalized that when they discover a problem they go to another department and hear what they want to hear, and do not actually go and investigate for themselves, because if they were to, they would find the unacceptable and then have to report this, and that would mean the end of their jobs, thus the only solution is to stand and change this world into a system that supports all life, which can be done from a desk, through supporting through democratic means, standing up and voting for  an equal money system, to start organizing this world into a system that supports all life, where life is the value, instead of a false god.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand that there are penis worshippers, who would rather march to have the foreskin of a penis cut off, and thus within this act be so consumed with a piece of skin on a penis that comes before the consideration of children being forcibly taken and made to work on chocolate plantations in the Ivory Coast, where they receive no education and are left without any means of self development, and this is placed second to a belief that a piece of skin on a penis should  be taken off. 

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand how jerking off to a picture of a naked lady is , be it a memory in the mind, or a picture, is the worship of a false idol, as this is separation from what is here, life.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand that buying sex from a child, is forcing a life into one’s own idol worship and is not self being and respecting self as life, or life in general, as the respect of that child as life is ignored, with no consideration of the potential of that child as life, thus self as life is non existent, and self as life is responsible for self as life, as this is the only way to become life, to stand as self as life , here.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand that within such an existence there is no security, as the separation from what is the value, from what is real, obviously leads to behaviors that consume as they never lead to the autonomous expression of life, which is the meaning of worshipping a false idol/god as one is not forgiving life, as this is the value.

I commit myself to realizing that to worry about security in a world of false worship is like trying to find a safe haven in a world overrun with zombies, just as we tell ourselves in the movies and shows we create, as we all know what we are doing, yet we want someone else to stand up and take care of this for us.

I commit myself to seeing, realizing and understanding the common sense of the need to change the world into and as a system of equality, where life is supported as the value, and thus will life become existence on earth, as what is supported is what is experienced, and right now with the growing number of homeless in America, life is not what is being lived, but fear, and homelessness,, insecurity and the growing profits for the few.

I commit myself to seeing , realizing and understanding that the growing number of suicides within men in our society, is indicative of hopelessness within a system of economic slavery known as debt, where in order to stop this, all debt must be forgiven and freely given resource must be distributed to support life as there is enough on this earth to support life, all that need be done is for many to stand and say stop, the value is life, and thus all life on this planet must be supported as life is the value.

I commit myself to realize that all that can be done is to walk what is necessary to support life, and this means the creations of a system that  values life, and thus supports life, equal and one, in plant, animal and human, soil, water and air, and the solution of an equal money system, where the earth has the technology to organize this into and as what is existent here in fact.

I commit myself to seeing, realizing and understanding that the voices in my mind, are the sounds of my separation the impressions accepted and allowed within a system of inequality, as what has been taught to enslave life expression to the worship of a false idol/image/idea as self fears standing up as self as life within common sense, this that we all know, yet unless we walk self forgiveness, to remove the resonant design, embedded within the very waters of our human physical bodies, the voices in our heads, and the obsessions of our desires will become all that we are, and take over the physical and we will, as has been happening, suddenly begin to eat the face of another human, physically manifesting what we have allowed within and as ourselves, to allow the worship of false idols to become demons that possess us, when all that has  happened is our lying and deceit is consuming us and taking over, thus will our own accepted and allowed personas of survival, characters of self interest, burn what is left of our human physical bodies.

I commit myself to investigate the desteni I process and an equal money system, to change this world to heaven on earth, where the value is life.

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I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to exist as memories spinning around in and as myself as my mind, burning away my human physical body to exist.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not see, realize and understand that the dramas I am accepting and allowing in and as my mind are wants , needs and desires based on romantic stories read during my childhood, and the actions of my parents and how much they talked about how they loved one another, where every year they would give one another huge Valentine’s day cards professing their love, and yet often fight.

I forgive myself  for allowing and accepting myself to not see, realize and understand that the whole world of my parents was like a roller coaster, where it became obvious that another spin was about to take place.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to realize, see and understand, that just as today, when I was in my car and someone pulled out in front of me, I “spiked in anger” and then drove on, and in that moment I just thought, “let it go” and went on without anger and I realized that not holding onto to this was really very easy, that allowing and accepting myself to judge the situation, or create some dramatic litany about the other driver was myself wasting myself in time and would solve nothing, thus I just let it go, which is the only solution.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not apply this same action within all fear reactions followed by anger and humiliation, the consequence of myself not allowing and accepting myself to simply be here, facing what is here without judgement and moving within realizing in every moment what is best for all is best for self, and that life cannot be lived until all of this earth is cared for, where life exists and not all the roller coasters of drama as the e - mote around our minds as the castles in the sky.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand that believing in the roller coaster of polarity play, of a competition that has no winners or losers as the idea of wanting to win means losing exists, is the action of believing that the drama is greater than life and that there is nothing else but this drama, this emotional/feeling drama as me-more-Ies, where in fact this is playing god and not realizing equality and oneness with what actually is here on this earth as creation, as what is real, as this physical world.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see that the me-more-Ies are myself as mind, as image, as idea, opinion and belief, is my ego, my self interest/self inner rest as mind, as fairy tale, as survival, as role, as character, as persona, in separation from life, where I justify and stubbornly turn myself into refuse as waste as myself as life ignored-Igor,where i allow a tale to be pinned onto my ASS- what is here, what is physically here as life, one and equal to me, as I wished, desired, wanted to be more, believed myself to be more which was myself actually hiding from life.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to allow a system, as profit, where resources are believed to be own-able by a few, not realizing that this is of my own acceptance and allowance unless I stand and vote for an Equal Money System, where best practice steps forth as what the technology of this physical world is, able to sustain all life.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting a system of profit that divides all that exists to enslave and conquer in separation from the natural expression of life, this division the very nature of destruction, as this division shatters life and becomes uncontrollable as is the nature of separation which is presently manifesting on earth, unless we stop and become the principle of what is best for all. to give as you would like to receive.

I commit myself to walking the character outflows of myself in separation of life, manifest in my obsessions and possessions in and as energetic discord from life, from effective communication with what is here.

I commit myself to breathing, in every moment, to stop the tales of a system of inequality from being pinned on my ASS.

I commit myself to standing one and equal in and as breath, to be here, one and equal to this physical world, to repeat and repeat the words of equality and oneness, the principle of giving as one would like to receive until it is done.

I commit myself to realizing that I do not need the baggage of my me-more-eyes to exist here.

I commit myself to realizing that I, as life, determine the tale on my ASS.

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