The absence of HOPE. Day 705

I have looked at what it means to no longer have any hope for a while. At some point I realized that the absence of hope is being calm in knowing something, meaning seeing the way forward. This also means seeing the way forward within a sense of self trust ; being able to address the unexpected. This is also a trust in a general ability to process information, or form and function, or a body of knowledge and information that is made larger than life, the proverbial elephant in the room, and not be reactive to or towards it. Instead to take the time to investigate and direct, remaining stable and grounded because this life is physical.


Therefor, there is no need for hope, that excitement, that desire, because completing things means walking the order, the ordinary into a completion of a goal, or what some may call the extra-ordinary. The extra-ordinary should be normal, instead it is defined as being something extra, which means that life is in reverse. Yet the words are telling of a sequence, meaning they reveal how things are accomplished.


Within this increasing awareness that hope is not needed, which cancels out no-hope, I am aware that every summer the way the bugs move and appear, the way certain plants are prolific one summer and somehow absent other summers, I realize that the very movement of the nature tells of a balance in the natural world around me. I would walk around this one small island in my town, and over the years, after having a belief that walking the same path was boring, that this could not be true, that i needed to look at the small in the world around me. What I started to notice was that every year was different. Then I started to ask myself what these differences meant. Then I asked how humans had come to be so out-of-the-sensibility of such perception.  I mean, how did we have almanacs before all our present scientific analysis? It has been proven that people's living a more agricultural life were able to foretell the coming year's weather. Somehow, somewhere, we have this capacity. Unless, we spend 13 years in a box mis-using our imagination into a limited and  consequentially, self destructive blueprint of information.  I mean why do we have an eastern religion that says to stop the mind and a western religion that says become the living word? Are these too ' belief's' the opposing sides of the same kind, and is this not an example of divide and conquer, through fragmenting information, and by this design, causing a separation from a natural ability to see directly this physical life?  Ask yourself what the meaning of humpty dumpty means, when he fell off the wall? lol, this in itself is a double meaning, suggesting that if we fall off the castle wall, we shatter- suggesting we must remain within the feudal system. A layer around a truth, as this is how the game is played.

Yet, HD, was sitting on a false construct, as that wall protecting the castle within a pyramid scheme. HD fell off the wall because he was no longer grounded! He had accepted the king's men and the king's horses instead of the physical. The consequence was being scatter brained, no longer able to process reality, and hence lacking in spatial ability, causing mistakes in his reality. It was a mis-use of imagination.  Hence, no one can put him back together again, no one, only he can. It is the same with each of us. The way, is in the practical, via the physical reality that is nature. And within this, the formation of the wall, that is the present system and hallowed ground as our mind consciousness systems of beliefs, opinions and ideas, so much of this indoctrinated information that consumes and shatters the life, as the presence within each of us. We accepted and allowed it. Yet we can change and forgive this separation and stand, equal and one on the ground and notice the ineffable and subtle changes that are in the natural world around us, that tell the real story of creation. Time to take down the wall. we can do it, together, after all, we built it together, so we can deconstruct it together and rebuild. We are the instruments of transformation, this is our real joy, we need only give up hope and hopelessness, because they are a consequence of no longer seeing this reality directly.

Thank you for reading.

Day 359 The lesser self: thoughts as beliefs.

One of the things i noticed when I realize I projected a lesser self to fit in because i feared being myself was a thought that “ I don” know where to go” and then I allowed this to become huge and thereby making the thought as a belief as a problem another means of not facing here.

Within this, there are tools: a principle of what is best for all, common sense, self forgiveness of the limitations accepted as belief opinion and idea and the correction of this into what would be best for all that is here on earth, to investigate and use what supports all life, as being that which is good.

THis is another thought dimension of what lead to a lesser self that I accepted and allowed because I feared being self honest, here.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to fear being myself here.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe that i do not know where to go, to have the thought that I do no know where to go within moving myself here.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to become anxious within the idea that i do not know where to go here in and as this being myself not using my common sense of what works and what does not work in relation to actually physically moving myself here.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not listen to myself here, to not see, realize and understand through self forgiveness and self corrective application within the principle of what is best for all what i reject within and as allowing myself to become a judgement of one thing being more than another and thus allowing myself to believe that something can be lost and as such rejecting the life that is here, that is the substance of what is here as a gift of life, thus there is nothing here that is less than and so to be feared, what is here that is abusive is a consequence of and from a starting point of judgement as one thing being more than another, thus the abuse on earth, and the abuse I have allowed within limiting myself as life, is a separation from life, an ignorance of life, where I have hidden from myself as the disease of reaction to life within judgement within one thing being more than another separating from a directive principle as myself as life and as such allowing myself to lose an ease with life here.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand that what I project as guide is what I reject and seek which consumes me, which is my own accepted and allowed separation that then consumes my attention as I seek this that i have separated within myself believing this to be what i lack, and what i am as how I label myself is the limitation that I stubbornly refuse to let go, or align within and as life here, as I believed a lesser self would enable survival, as hiding from myself meant I did not have to face what I feared which was myself and what I had accepted and allowed.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not see, realize and understand how in taking the low road or the high road I was in fact diminishing myself as life here believing there was such a choice where the only road was that which included all life, which is a principle as that which is best for all, as this includes all life and thus does not diminish life in any way, for which my human physical body is a means to become one and equal within and as walking the only road to life, as life, being one and equal here.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to believe that such a task is impossible that I cannot become one and equal with and as life here, as I have accepted and allowed myself to believe myself to be limited, as though being equal and considerate of what is here would mean the loss of myself here, when this is just the opposite of life.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand how the consumerist platform feeds my lesser self, my diminished self, my “ I don’t want to face myself as life here “ self” as this means taking the steps necessary to understand life here in the physical, to learn to direct myself equal and one with and as my physical body and this physical existence, thus I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to believe what is sold by consumerism as this is a directive within a lesser means of expression, limited within dimension and awareness of physical reality.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to chase an idea of a more than believing that there is no hope for mankind as man ignores the natural world in placing profit before life, which is a total disrespect for life, a total disregard for life, a total lack in sensibility of the physical which means a total separation from the very substance in and as what we are, what supports us which means I have not learned to use and be what i am as life as the starting substance that is the very building expression of what i am here, which is to say, if I am not equal and one within being aware of this how can I understand life, understand the physical, thus my lack of understanding is equal to my separation from life here, is equal to the lessening of myself as life as what I accept and allow.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not see, realize and understand that there have been times in myself when I changed in an instant from reaction as anger to suddenly realizing that such anger was pointless as it served no purpose, and within this I became calm and much more directive thus emotional reactions based on ideas, on morality, are a delusion as this is believing one thing to be more than another, an idea made into a label, an idol, a false “ god” as what is here, as the physical and how the physical world works is only that which is real, and thus what is here right in front of me as the physical is what can only be dealt with as myself being here, considering what supports here as the physical absolutely.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to believe myself to be a victim, as this is a fear that something can be lost, and if I look I remain, here, and thus the only choice is to direct myself within and as what is best for all here.

Day 329 More on Rejection Character: I am my own rejection

If I accept and allow myself to react to what another does or says, and take this personally I become a rush of a fear of rejection, of loss, but what is it that I am going to lose? Yes, if I were in a situation where I lived in an impoverished area and there was not enough food, all i would be able to think about is getting food, and I would probably not have the education, even, to realize that - should I live in certain areas of the world, areas of abundant resource in contradiction to the support systems available on earth - to see that what was right under my feet had be assigned with a piece of paper ownership to some distant entity hidden within a corporate name laundering the value of the resource under my feet through dirty practices where the labor in extracting that resource was made to pay for all aspects of acquiring that resource, while the value generated from that resource came out clean and beneficial for a few on another continent where there existed no starvation. But, I live where the resource has been laundered, and there is no starvation because of lack of something to put in my stomach, even though what is here that has been laundered in another way, has very little substance of physical support, like I am a bee on a lower level within a hive, and am only allowed what maintains a “lesser” physical state, which can be counteracted where I live, if one takes the time to investigate what is eaten. Even here, the amount of pollution in the world reaches into all of us. So, what we have created, accepted and allowed is here and has come back to us, the consequence of our human actions are here.
So how do I allow myself to be bullied, how do I allow myself to fear the energetic reactions of men, how do I allow this is touch me, because becoming affected by the emotions and thoughts and words that created, allowed this state on earth, actions that disregard practices that are not supportive of earth, how have I allowed them to affect me, where I get caught up in the storm of this disregard, this that does not allow/work with the expression of what is here as the physical, within and as how it functions within the form of itself in common sense, why is what is here ignored and not allowed to be what it is, how it is, why is it not worked with?
How can humans allow a system of usury, when it has been said that this will not work? When it is known that usury leads to enslavement? How is it that we have allowed chemicals to determine our health, to be touted as what heals, when right in front of us, there has not been healing? Why are we accepting what is unacceptable? The excuses have no validity, they are not facing here, an excuse if simply saying, I don’t want to look here. The problem with this is that this means that one is being a “ non-looking” and as such takes everyone else along. it is abusive because it effects everyone here, the plants the animals, the soils, everything.
So, when I become a fear in facing a non-looking state of being, I am in effect allowing myself to be bullied by a “non-looking” and if I accept and allow this, I perpetuate this. Such behaviors cannot be allowed.
I mean how can a president decide to pass practices that are being questioned all over the world with studies that reveal the detriment of such practices: here the rush to pass and allow such practices is a realization that such practices do not work, because the passing into allowance of such practices at a time when there is evidence that such practices are questionable reveals that this is known. It is like, hurry up and pass this or we are going to lose this, and then make a bunch of commercials and articles presenting goodness, hurry up and resonate goodness to block the reality that is gaining ground.
And then this same president takes away support for the elderly at a time when prices are rising. This is an act in direct contradiction to supporting life, and it exists on a world of abundant resource, thus it has no basis in reality. The President of the United States has no awareness of reality, he guides by ideologies, by ideas only. And this was clear with the initial presentation of hope without full disclosure.
I had this experience in my twenties where I saw a floating head in a room, a very angry expression in the face of this head. One of the things that “hit me” in the moment, was an absolute certainty that his “head” could not touch me unless I accepted and allowed this. Thus, I had no fear of this “thing” and looked at it head on - so to speak, even wanting to talk with this, which I did not do, which perhaps I should have done, but should have could have, would have is pointless at this moment, it is in the past. THis morning I thought , how could I have had a sense that this thing could not touch me unless I allowed it, and within this to not be affected with fear in the face of this, and here i am having a problem within someone in a group I am in, becoming all emotional and egotistical, thinking I am being abused - which maybe I am- but reacting to this within protection and defense and wanting to bully, to become angry, is simply more of the same and is not what steadily directs into a solution that resolves the friction and conflict, and the spiteful actions causing discord? I am becoming the same anger, the same frustration.
If I allowed this while I was performing or playing the violin, i would learn this this way, and then I would probably lose it during performance, or as I was playing I would see a subtle thing suddenly that i had not noticed, because i had not been looking while I practiced the piece. At such moments , I become regret because I has missed an opportunity to experience a subtle expression within a piece, and the moment was gone. I have had this happen, and sometimes just let it go, because in suddenly seeing such a thing, it was also a gift, it was to have had the opportunity to have seen it in totality.
This can only really happen with being forgiving of self, to be present here. Steady, constant, directed, accepting and listening to what is here, without hope for gain or fear of loss. Humans cannot be here if there is fear, is there is worry about food, if there is worry about shelter, which is a crime as there is enough. An example of this stares us right in the face, where the countries of incredible natural resource, are somehow the poorest. As I have said in other posts there is enough space on this earth for humans and animals, and we know how to build up soils and build structures that last, and we know what is needed, that the huge mansions with innumerable rooms cannot be lived in by a person, more than likely there are only a few rooms used, the rest is just a show, such space for a few is unnecessary, it is based on an idea that has no basis in physical reality. It is like building a huge instrument that does not fit the scale of the form of men, such things become useless, wasteful and unplayable. Some of the instruments built by men are useful, but many are a waste, and the waste is polluting the expression of life on this earth.
Why are we building things that are based on ideas that are so out of proportion of common sense of this actual physical world?
Why am I allowing myself to be out of proportion of what is physically real here, in and as how here works in common sense? Why am I allowing myself to take something personal, am I allowing myself to fear losing something that is out of proportion within myself as an idea i am holding onto that lacks perspective of how here functions, to the point where I exist within a warped reality? What this means is to walk in common sense of what is a solution, practically, to bring the reward of being able to “play”, having the human scale size instrument to “play” to be and exist as the gift of life.
In the end the person with the huge house and the person with no house have no instrument to play/express themselves as life, the extremes are in lack, one blinded by ideological-lack-of-reality common sense, and one without the sustenance means to use common sense. And those in the middle, we internet users, exist within limited means to the point where we do not really learn to read, we do not really learn to understand mathematically what is going on, we do not learn how to play a musical instrument, we do not learn to be able to direct ourselves within the simplest of tasks such as hammering a nail into a board. The middle is in petrification of being here, of standing up and realizing what is real as this actual physical world and the systemic structures that are not taking care of this earth, that are now directed by representatives that are directed by a monetary profit system that by its very nature is in direct opposition to what is best for all. Usury is a systemic form that is in direct opposition to what is a practice of what is best for all, To have such a form, a systemic action, and then to give others the ability to represent the voice of many will lead to the representatives choosing in their own self interest before what is best for all, what is good will be placed second to their own profit. Thus such a system cannot work, will not work, and must stop.
I have been taught to defend and protect within a bubble, I have not been taught to look to the whole. This I will have to do myself, as naturally, within such a system of profit such would not be in the interests of the law makers and representatives benefitting from this chance to direct within what gives them more, before what is best for all. And the structures they allow are not instruments that support life.
Thus my behaviors, what I allow must be brought back to self, and held steady within absolutely directing within and as what is best for all, as there is no gain until this earth is realized for the form that it is, and this understood and supported, because if we cannot learn to play this earth, then how can we be allowed to be given our own instruments to play? We have not mastered what is given as a gift to understand life here.
My inner ideologies are a warped reality, they are ideas made huge in separation from what is realistic and supportive here, as this gift of life here. They are myself spread out into pieces lacking peace with here. The only thing is to align the very substance of myself within and as what is best for all, to realize that the only thing that can be lost is not accepting the subtlety of what is here in common sense of how here works as what is here, as the physical and what is best for all within this, is what allows oneself to be.

Within this there would would be no need for a separate peace as in a separate heaven, a separate place where peace would be found, as this “state of being” would be here, everywhere, not needing to be there, not needing to be something sought, not needing to exist away from here, not needing to become a idea of something separate, dreamed about- taking attention from here- because here would be heaven on earth, equal and one, and this is what is best for all. In all common sense.
Thus it is to bring myself here, and direct this desire for gain to protect a fear of loss, and to realize that rejections that are reactive and thus not directive within common sense self forgiveness within and as what is best for all are based on a separation from what is real, which is the physical world here this which is self as life, as a forgiving natural expression of self as life, seen at moments within our children, that which we bully into generational cultivated behaviors for survival in a bubble, without consideration of how the present system is one of inequality, unsupportive, habituated, where the only choice is to stop and breath , and slow down and look and realize that the value is life.

Day 288 Fear of Speaking Reaction Dimension

Speak, Taste, Eat, Breathe, Etc. (Photo credit: redteam)

Fear of Speaking Reaction Dimension
I realize that sometimes when I don’t get an expected response, I immediately have some back chat of childhood names , and memories of reactive behaviors from the past when I went to say something. I fear these names and reactions being what I am here, instead of looking at what is being said as my words, in common sense. I become the fear ofjudgement from my past, which means i am not here, present in common sense of what is physically here existing within the principle of what is best for all. I allow amind/alternate reality to become my expression, this being of no substance as it is not calm, at ease and constant, in self honesty as life. Within “being of no substance” I become uncertain, and if I really look at this, it is like being in a state of vertigo, and I lose common sense of here, a directive capacity, here. I start trying to catch myself, justify, hide, becoming one big storm of emotion and feeling, my responses that of seeking validation for my own separation. I am not at ease, and even within my words, there is fear, edgy spite leading to blame, as justification, because I know I am not here, I am no longer at ease. And much of this behavior, has become a norm.


I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to become a memory from my past, triggered by the words of another, as a reaction to what I speak, where I separate from here, from common sense of what is here, in this moment, within and as what is best for all as what is here, where within this separation what I interact as is energy, focused on ideas, opinions and beliefs, limited and judgmental, based on accepted and allowed past experiences wherein the full story of what is here is not realized, an existence in self interest alone as personification, creating a belief that i am alone, when I am here, as life, on earth, as all one, as all as one as equal.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not see realize and understand that nick names given by family members, such names themselves of limited awareness, lacking a sound mind of as self being directive within and as self honesty with what includes actual practical physical reality, equal and one, an inclusion of what is here as what supports life, this very real world that which is imposed with systems that separate this physical reality in promotion of religions and systemic structures given a life of their own as though they were what always existed yet in reality have been built by men, as these systems are here with the advent of men, such as the present economic system, which is given the status of being self directive when in fact it is not, as it is simply a structure where it is men that built it, accepted it, allowed it and use it to move what is here around the globe, this illusion as this addition of it having a life of its own, that is so obviously illusionary, but this is the means with which control of what is here as this actual real physical world is maintained through the development of warping and distorting reality, into and as a system of inequality, where the illusion given is the illusion created, that some are more than others, went all flesh is of the same substance, thus this system of an “unseen” force as a “god” is telling us that what is really happening is that some believe themselves to be more than others, and this is what is taught, an illusion of a more than and a less than, all a separation from what is the real more than, which is the value being life, simply being here in and as the very substance of and as life, given equally to all as the physical world, to enable all to exist as life, to experience life, as this is the value.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not listen to what is here, to allow ideas, opinions and beliefs of more than and less than to direct myself here, not realizing that all of this is an energetic emotional moving to feeling storm in a bubble that separates myself from life, thus making this cell of life that I am on an organism as earth, a prison cell of my own creation.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not see, realize and understand when and as i become fear, to walk through my own self commitment statements, to bring myself back to here, to become the walking of myself equal and one to the focus of myself here, aligned to speak in common sense of what is here, without separation into and as fear, as this is the illusion, the separation, as the gift is the physical world, as the substance of life by nature is forgiving as life, considerate of all life, in all common sense.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not see, realize and understand that in each and every moment here, the only choice is to slow down, breath, and to stop thevoices as the blueprint in and as my mind of the past, the resonance of incomplete stories that reveal their own incompleteness in and as that they are of complaint and not of direction in ease, thus the very tenor of self as life, is visible in and as the very nature of the words and the substance of the sound as the voice of each and every one, as the voice of direction is solid, sound and directive without threat, where an in-substantive threat gives no real direction, as life would always direct allowing what is here to be self directive, absolutely.
I commit myself to seeing, realizing and understand that I am here, as life, and thus I can breath and slow myself down, move as the the words of equality and oneness as what is best for all, where I bring myself here, and move in practical evaluation of what is here within and as what is best for all.
When and as I begin to feel emotional and feeling reactions within and as myself, where the vertigo of the past begins to rain down from the mind, this map of what I have accepted and allowed in and as judgements within a system of inequality, and the pressure of past compounded emotions and feelings build up within my back, I stop and I breath, and I realize this is movement within and as my human physical body of separation into and as energy, as fear of loss, an idea only, that then moves into and as a tension physically through my human physical body where I become a supposed “positive” justification that is really a more intense energy, seemingly “lighter” yet actually heavier, as my limbs begin to feel heavier, more inflexible, and if I really look at this it is actually painful, as it is an energetic consumption of my human flesh as myself in separation from being equal and one to and as myself as the “sound” of myself as life, thus is fear/survival behaviors/loss myself mis-playing myself as life, here, and thus am I no longer equal and one to and as life, and am abusing myself as my human physical body with my own accepted and allowed separations.
I commit myself to seeing realizing and understanding that this movement into feeling, this which seems “good” as this is pride and a feeling of gain, is a false self directive, as it is a thin belief in gain that is simply a self justification within limited ideologies, which is what i have been taught within a system of separation from life, from equality, the labels as this supposed “higher” positive being of myself, that follow the labels of character within and as the present system, as I pretend the roles I was taught, and walk in and as mind, as accepted and allowed behaviors, where I allow the measure of myself in relationship to limited beliefs, this manifesting within hope of survival as pride, as I am my own judge and juror relating to personification and care-actor relationships towards survival within a system of division into hierarchy, the very structure of which images more than and less than, a crystal shape reaching into the earth, the earth the support up this eye sore on its horizon that gives without a signature of ownership, as the value is being here, equal and one in and as life.

Day 283 Fear of speaking Reaction dimension

Fear of speaking Reaction dimension

How do I separate myself from here when i speak, what are my words considering, what assumptions am I making, what division of more than and less than do I answer to in fear of creating personal division from the minds of others, themselves existing in separation from the physical, as being a product of a mind generation as being reality as product of fear and separation, as reaction, when not answering to this mind of limited selected beliefs, opinion and ideas following wants, desires and needs, the consumer info of culture that is in totality in separation from life? What is the double speak coming from myself in protection and defense in fear of loss socially? And this in a society in separation from life? Is there really anything to lose? What does exist is common sense.
Here I go again, relating this to something in my life. I have a relative who believes in the health industry. They take all the pills proscribed. I have for years said to read what independent people/doctors/chemists are saying about the present drugs, to step back and take another look, to question and look into alternatives. The answer is no. Total faith in the system. Now the side effects are manifesting, but this was refused to be questioned. Perhaps the outcome would have been the same, but then at least the illusion that a profit based system has our best interests at heart, would not have been supported. but this is all water under the bridge, because what is unacceptable must stop, and this system is not taking care of this earth or life.
In the world of news article, I watched a discussion on how loans are formed by banks simply adding digits on a computer screen and then charging interest. The commentators said that this is the system and what is needed is faith that this works. That people need houses and thus loans to get the house. Again the blind faith. What was not looked at here, is that the interest paid back to money created from thin air, means that not all loans can be repaid, as the money created does not cover the interest paid back. Thus, for this interest to be paid back, war is created, as Peter must steal from Paul because all there exists is “the original amount” in circulation, thus where does the interest money come from? So, not only does the money exist as digits, each loan has to take the “real imagined money” and find this to pay back the interest - the more than, which means there are many who simply cannot, no matter how hard they work, have the money to pay back their loans. So, eventually the debt gets bigger than the real “valued” money. One must remember that it is a game of monopoly, there can be only one winner at the end. Unless we stop, and reform.
If common sense is ignored, then all real freedom as life is lost.
In the end, one cannot blame anyone but oneself for having given up common sense.Even self pity and punishment does nothing, the only choice is to be what self is as life, common sense of which the physical world, as the substance of life, is the gift to realize self as life, through becoming one and equal to and as it.

                                                  Faith                Hope              Charity

                                               Speak                     See                 Hear
                                                                         No Evil
                                                             
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to fear speaking up in common sense, to fear the faith of the blind.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to fear losing something should I speak up in common sense of what is physically real.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to look through the roto of belief , opinion and idea, knowledge and information, as the selected limited values of the culture in which I live to give a safe answer/response in fear of having to explain myself within possibly getting the stubborn resistance of blind faith, hope and charity.
I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand that perhaps I will receive resistance of the blind, and would this not be any worse than discovering that perhaps I was the one being blind, which is to realize that all there is, is common sense of what is here.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to judge another according to their faith, hope and charity and to answer in accord to this, not seeing realizing and understanding that in answering to this faith, hope and charity my response is in reverse; a re-verse of separation into and as belief, opinions and ideas lacking common sense, such beliefs, opinions and ideas collections of limited values turned into personalities of dictate of what is better than, or more than, and/or how something other than self is lacking in what is believed to be more than, or better, completely disregarding directive physical development and the needs of the physical world to exist and simply be, here.
I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to address the blind of ignorance that is faith, hope and charity.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to believe that dispersing/illuminating faith, hope and charity for the limitation that it creates, is being difficult or non-complying, where in fact what is really being done in addressing blind faith, hope and charity is taking the div/diff-from cult, and non from compliance in and as facing reality, the actual physical world as what is real here.
I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand that faith, hope and charity can only exist within the development of self trust in and as being here, equal and one with and as common sense of this actual physical world as the gift of self realization in and as life, here, being equal and one to and as the physical, including all life , as this physical world as being of equal value, is where self trust as life exists, and thus is this physical world the actual doorway, eye of the needle, away from separation and division/fear, into and as becoming equal and one to and as life here.
I commit myself to seeing realizing and understanding that the answer in common sense is right here in front of me, as real life would place itself right here as it would have no need to hide anything, as real life would want equal and one understanding of and as life, thus the gift of life is here, where any and all struggle is an indication that one is not equal and one to and as life, here, where any suggestion/propagation of/ belief in/ presentation of an idea, suggestion, law, allowance of anonymity is in and as itself a contradiction of the very substance and nature/mature of life.
I commit myself to slowing myself down and breathing to answer to blind faith, hope and charity, to bring such separations as self abdications as life, back to what is real, as the physical, as the gift of life, to become equal and one in common sense that what is here as life, which would make sense , as life includes all life, as is the nature of life.
I commit myself to slowing myself down, to breathing, when and as I notice I miss a breath, I notice that I become tense and “gasp” for air, as though I have missed a breath, which I have seen children do when they are moving into reading, or have a moment where they are uncertain within and as reading, they seem to tense up and have a behavior where they gasp for air, which is a physical indication of separation from here into and as fear and yet at the same time a movement towards finding breath, stabilizing self here.
I commit myself to seeing realizing and understanding what my human physical body is speaking, indicating my own separation from being here, where just as the children can stop and breath and slow themselves down, so can I as I am equal and one, in and as a human in a physical body, here, being given the gift of life, and to add to this, what would such gasping and fear manifest over a long period of time? disease?
I commit myself to allways/always slowing myself down, to take the time to look and breath, to bring myself here, to place myself within common sense, in detail, as much as i am able with continual practice, equal and one to the physical, to align myself in common sense with what is here.
I commit myself to slowing myself down, to breathing to realize where I separate from here, into and as a rotor file in and as my mind, of beliefs, opinions and ideas, that answer to happy face behaviors masking separations/fears that are an inner energetic gasping of fear/separation into and as polarities as a story of inequality fearing it’s own shadow that is self abdicating common sense.
I commit myself to slowing myself down, to breathing, where, breathing is the means to slow myself down, here, and to see, realize and understand that silence will not remove the fog ( fear, obligation,guilt) of faith, hope and charity that is the mask of fear/separation in the self interest of ego, the energy in and as the mind of thoughts, feelings andemotions as taught beliefs, opinions and ideas.

                                                                          EMC

Day 214 Self commitment within back chat self validation

I commit myself to breathing, to remaining in and as breath, to stabilize myself in and as the physical, to move myself as life into stability here, equal and one to what i have allowed, as the mind, as the backchat in and as what validates myself as mind in separation from oneness and equality as self as life, here.
I commit myself to seeing realizing and understanding that the conversations, back chat, comments based on values of more than and less than, are evaluations within a game of survival where money determines life, and thus a validation of myself within polarities of fear of loss and hope for gain, where fear is met with a set of morals that support the presentation of myself based on what was taught within a system of inequality within the culture, family, society, educational system, religion in which I was born, where these more alls were taught to ensure my own survival, not seeing, realizing and understanding that what was real, was this actual physical world, as this is the real expression of life, which is what is actually here, where no real god would create anything but what is actually here, shared equally by all, as this is life, the very action of life, absolutely.
I commit myself to breathing and realizing that the back chat, as recitation of protection and defense, in and as my mind, are limited values in consideration of my own survival, and thus to be stood one and equal to, to realign this conflict back to self and to direct within the principle of what is best for all, in becoming the living word of and as the value being life.
I commit myself to seeing the polarities of thought as the back chat in and as my mind, as protection and defense of personalities as what I was taught to project as myself in creating what serves a hierarchy of more than and less than, that is in itself an abdication of life, as the dialogue in and as my mind is a communication of survival and thus ignores equal and one movement in and as myself as life with what is real, this physical world, where what is here is/has been built by the hands of men, thus this physical world is what is real and thus, within and as breath, awareness of this physical world means all there is, is facing this actual physical world and directing myself in common sense, in practicality, within interacting with what is best for all that is here on this earth.
I commit myself to realize the positive thoughts, desires , wants and needs, as words and pictures, ideas and perceptions in and as the mind are the positive value presented to hide the negative fear of loss in relation to what is immediate within my environment as accepted and allowed behaviors built to support a system of inequality, that hide the inferiority as a fear of loss within survival.
I commit myself to seeing, realizing and understanding that the back chat in and as my mind, protects and defends instead of looking to correct patterns within solutions to and towards what is best for all, to enable life to become a directive principle in and as being life, within absolute purpose as what is best for all is best for self where life becomes creation instead of this present system of destruction in ignorance of life, where the only choice is to realize that life is the value.
i commit myself to, in my case, worry about money, to investigate what will support myself to be able to support what is best for all, instead of allowing myself to go into back chat that directs myself within presentations of myself within personifications established through what would enable myself to survive as what was taught, as a means of comfort and survival and to stop these thoughts and redirect them into and as solutions, seeing, realizing and understanding that the choice is to stand within what is self directive as life as what is best for all.
I commit myself to instead of blame and self justification, to stop and to breath, and to investigate solutions through understanding patterns of behavior within and without, within the present system of inequality, to stand within what is best for all.
I commit myself to realize that back chat of seeking comfort, is myself wanting to hide and not stand and to stop and to simply investigate what is here, and what is needed to be walked within solutions that support life, as this is what is best for all.
I commit myself to realize that the back chat in and as my mind indicates the friction/conflict of separation that simply needs investigation towards what is actually physically here, and to direct this within what is best for all, thus a sense of “falling” and/or vertigo is myself within fear and not being directive within what is supportive which is understanding how this physical world functions, and taking the necessary steps to and towards what is best for all.
I commit myself to realize, see and understand that moving in self interest within survival, which is a system created through a belief that some can own freely given natural resources and thus placing money within a system where life must them be bought, is a crime against life, and thus unacceptable, as this is the outward manifestation of what I have accepted and allowed in not directing myself within self responsibility in equality and oneness with myself as life, equal and one to what supports me as life, which is the physical as this is the substance of life of which I am.

I commit myself to seeing realizing and understanding that participation in and as the mind is a validation of continues separation and not myself within and as the validation of myself as life, as I separate into values of less/loss and more/gain and stagnate within limitation instead of investigating what has been accepted and allowed in self abdication in and as what i am as the substance of life, here.

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