Day 578 Moving through the limitation of " I am uncomfortable."

 I had a conversation with another person, where they began to use statements such as “ I am uncomfortable with this” as part of what I was speaking about. I have to realize that they are within their existence existing as a mind construct that is of belief, opinion and idea, not bad, but caught up in their values and directives/motivations that can be caught in a limited view of the whole, even though the desired outcome overall is really no different. 

Another thing this person said was “ but we are trying to do this.” Here I realize that of course they are “ trying to do this” and that in so being this an entity of desire has been constructed to motivate, to seek, to be in a state of seeking.  I have been caught up in such a desire, and as such, missed what was right in front of me. This is because of the construct of this entity as accumulated questioning and attempts to fulfill a want based on realizing a lack existentially. The race within this can be so consuming that, as though one is moving so fast in a train that the reality can no longer be seen as it passes right in front of us outside the windows of our desire, like the windows of the train moving/racing past the physical landscape of earth. As our minds are imaginative machines, this can become greater than what is real, as the physical, that which we have moments of realizing as a form that moves and becomes limited in movement because of a separation into becoming mind subjugating matter, when the two must work in equal understanding, as the mind is ultimately dependent on the physical world, as each of us, in common sense is a point of perspective of practical reality, which means that we are all tools, in some ways, to give insight to and as creation here. But out ability to sense the whole, the commons as the physical is askew, and the lag creates a suppression of the capacity of life in formation to move with ease. I mean, there is a reason why eastern religions especially suggest to stop the mind. It is overall said that in order to see, one must stop the mind, a difficult task easily understood when we realize the imaginative capacity of the mind. On another front, it has been said, to bring heaven to earth, and in terms of the statements I heard from a person caught in their immediate existence, our mind constructs can become uncomfortable when asked to slow down and consider other perspectives, revealing how our mental constructs that are our imagination, become entities of comfort/acclimation in separation from reality manifest as a conceptual lag one may call an emotional reaction.

Change means to reconstruct within, and as that train racing in a track of belief, slowing down appears to be a discomfort, a turn from a construct of belief, but this is really all this is, a change. And within this to realize the physical is here as the gift of life, to stabilize and give order, with all the parts there to show the way. We need only look and see, that it is being all one, the within equal to the without, that is the way and the means to establishing a creation that is heaven on earth. A gift we need only accept in order to put an end to wanting a morality as mind as a lack , as imagination, as a collection of ideas, to be more than the whole of life in formation as the physical. 

I will write some Self forgiveness on my reactions as my own pre-emptive beliefs based on ideological goals as mind, not necessarily good or bad, but limiting in that I raced within myself at times, and as such missing the total landscape of the situation, which would be an action into solution with each thought, word and deed.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to separate myself from being here, equal and one with the words of another, my own ideas as thoughts and emotions and feelings, and an awareness of the whole, where I fear not the change within and as me to take that which is good and build the value of that in practical terms, something that may need to be repeated as allowing the dis-comfort of another the opportunity to slow down and reconstruct, as this is how understanding is built.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to become a belief only, of failure, of having made a mis-take, and within this to look at the whole and the parts,  my own beliefs and desires and wants, and those of another, taking into consideration their daily existence as their schedules and self interests as this, and to take the time to reconstruct the limitations and address them into solutions as building insight into the space and time of expression as mind and practical physical existence here.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand that when I hear the words  “ I am uncomfortable” that this is a red flag giving insight into beliefs, opinions and ideas, as the self interest of a constructed awareness in lack of practical living as a whole, here.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand that I as life have the ability to be compassionate and to sense the whole, and as this to realize solutions through simply looking at the forms that exist and realizing the flexibility of the mind as a mechanism of being a facsimile of reality only, and as such requires a constant cross reference to the whole as the physical.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to race within and as me, to not slow down and take the time to see, realize and understand the constructs of the mind as just this, a construct, and as it is something constructed, it is something that has the capacity to deconstruct and reconstruct, here.

When and as I find myself beginning to race, into and as a belief, opinion and idea, I stop and I breath and I slow myself down and I see, realize and understand solutions through looking at emotional inequalities and bringing this back to a practical insight as to what considers all life as physical beings existing within creation as the physical, here.

When and as I find myself tensing up, I stop and I breath, especially in my chest area, and around my shoulders, I take in the parts and the whole, this being looking at the words of another, as the words of another are the human describing their concerns which are indicators of belief lacking understanding of practical existence.

When and as I find myself resisting the words of another, in and as addressing the words, but not seeing realizing and understanding that this simple state of being in and as understanding takes realignment, which means practical understanding of how the mind works as a mechanism of picture taking - so to speak- where the picture has movement, yet is in separation from practical reality when not cross referencing what is here as the means of existence which is the actual real physical world.

When and as I find myself listening to the words of another, I realizethe associations being built lending insight into limitation, and I stop and I breath and I slow myself down, as it is only within being equal and one to and as the physical that I have the common sense capacity to see the whole and the parts, and within this to realize that this must be practiced as this was not what was taught from the beginning as a starting point.

When and as I find myself reacting, especially in and as my chest area, I stop and I breath, and I slow myself down and I see, realize and understand that I am here, that there is no place to fall, that the physical is visible and the mind is visible through words and as such can be practically realized as separation and solution, as the problem of limitation into the solution of practical common sense within the principle of what is best for all here.

When and as I find myself becoming angry as a reaction, I stop and I breath, and I slow myself down and I see, realize and understand that I am disallowing my own innate ability as life to see he train and the physical landscape, so to speak, existing there right in front of me, and as such to also, see the practical form and function of reality where solutions and understanding can exist as the within being equal and one to the without, here.

When and as I find myself resisting practical reality as a racing in and as my mind, as a motivation as desire to attain a certain goal, I stop and I breath and I slow myself down and I see, realize and understand here, as it is only here, that I can address myself, as the value is life as me in form here, as the physical.

When and as I find myself facing the words, “ I am uncomfortable” I stop and I breath and I slow myself down and I look at practical existence in space and time, and I see, realize and understand that as life I am fluid and can deconstruct and reconstruct comforts of belief, and walk them, as standing equal and one within the principle of and as what is best for all, here.

Day 547 The inner-rest of interest in separation from physical life.

I am looking at my heart, an what is happening there. I notice that I have what feels like a solid “ block” in my left calf. It is getting better, but I have to slow down and breath, and “ read” the construction of belief that I have accepted and allowed within that is the cause of my own lack of circulation. For years I have followed what we are accepting and allowing within our health system of beliefs, and what never made sense to me was the fact that our cells are replaced every seven years, so I thought, if our cells are replaced every seven years why do we age? It is not something anyone can answer. Would I want to remain as a human forever Probably not, I would probably, like humans are apt to do, even if it is in small measure, become more effective, transform, learn new things, so remaining as one thing, as an idea of living forever, is not necessarily something I would want. That is common sense. Life is so many things, thinking of staying just one, makes no sense.

My mother was a school teacher. With her pension she has a cost of living increase. But, this increase has not been coming. It was suddenly stopped for some reason or another. I think it comes form the State of New Jersey, and if we realize the kinds of things the governor of New Jersey is doing, is it no wonder that the coffers of teacher’s pensions are suddenly in a state of lack that cost of living increases are no longer being given?

I also notice that in American cities that laws are being passed on homelessness. Where any support given by a citizen, such as giving a homeless person food, is being allowed to be written into law as not being acceptable.

So, if we look at this, and we realize the information that is available about the transnationalization of corporations ( sounds like something out of the movie Brazil, or BladeRunner) where money as the profits that are the wealth created by the hands of many generations of men that were the parts that moved the resources, and developed the automation overall as it is impossible that one person, or a few could do this, and those municipal workers who believe that their pensions are going to take care of them for the rest of their lives, municipal workers, and teachers who don;t even realize that their pensions are invested in what is the source of the wealth as money from the processing of freely given natural resources, that are now “ off shore” and funding wars fought by the children grown into young men and women, the apparatus of which is built from what is really slave labor of prisoners that were children who existed in such economic suppression that they never learned any structure or communication skills and as such never did well in school - for which we cannot thank the media- and are building all helmets despite the fact that taxpayer dollars are paying for their upkeep, so the war industry “ owners” that are really the biggest welfare recipients because they are sucking off the nipple of freely given resources and deciding that humans are expendable. Even I get to the point where the spin of this is so insane I don’t want to write about it any more. This is because it is a form that supports life in no measure. It is a form that actually has no regard for life, no connection to life, no understanding of life. And most of us, don’t even look at it, we are so stagnant from a school system that spends years talking about themes such as friendship, or how “ special needs children “ are special. None of which is bad, but when recited and made THE theme, it is a mechanism that slows down a natural perception ability that in itself indicates a natural conceptual ability. This is an ability to conceptualize, but the focus of that conception is being placed into a very narrow box, and a very lively - or I would rather say, “ deadpan” debate is carried out within these very very very narrow confines. This makes it very difficult to argue against, because the “ topic” is not untrue, but it is very narrow and those who are making a living preaching it, have no real spatial development, so their definitions are only able to go so far - and they do not even realize this. Which brings me back to the point of myself.

If I become a belief system within, one that has a inner belief system that is very narrow, that has been taught to JUST think that our schools are doing “ wonderful jobs” as what is said at every school meeting, then the gamut of my perception will remain within this narrow discussion. Would I have the conceptual ability to process more than this? No, I would have remained in my chair within these narrow confines, to “ get along and go along” and to not appear to be impatient, and or, “ difficult.” If I had spoken up, without emotions, as the frustration because of the narrow confines being discussed or touted, I would cause a lot of friction, because I am not moving at the speed of the limitation, this narrow window of topic that is not a good or a bad, but simply a tiny measure of reality. In doing so, when I stood up and taken what was being said into a broader spectrum, the very inner “ record” of this limitation, would begin to reveal itself in the very physical manner of the person, because if one takes insight to another level, and the insight level of another person is limited, they have to reconstruct their inner imagery/perception, and to do this takes an inner transformation. If one has been a recitation of a very limited dictate for a long time, then change becomes more difficult. Physically this changing will cause a subtle shaking within the person, and if they are not aware of this, they will become frightened and just not want to “ go there.” The physical shaking appears to be unnerving. But what it really is, is a change, a reconstruction of belief.

One will also want to remain within what one believes, if this change within appears to be scary. And if one has lost spatial ability, because a broken record as a belief system is held onto, then it is even more difficult to change. Especially if one’s access to money is determined by one’s limited belief system. ( for this reason alone , a Basic income guarantee must be implemented)

So, if I have tension within my physical body, it is an indication where I am not moving in common sense of what is best for all, I am not moving with life here, I am not equal to what is being spatially equal to what is the very movement of life here. Where I am  thick within, such as back constriction, or pressure, means that I am stuck in some limited insight. Which means that I have allowed myself to believe that some belief, some measure defines, me, I have allowed this, and this that I have allowed is not aware of what gives as what I am as life receiving, I am not equal to the very movement of life here. And life would move in ways that are best for all, and the all is here because of the physical structural mechanism that enables life inFORMation.

Some where in all these words I write, have I answered my own question, voiced my own quest. I mean words in some ways are limitations, but in all they are the measure of our conceptual ability that is needed for communication between humans that overall are in separation from reality, were we not then a building diminishment of pensions and laws that make helping those without  money would not be what is forming within the present system, especially on a planet that gives resources freely.

Our words reveal our ME- LODy. Words reveal the construct of our inner belief. And since we are individual entities, what we LODE ourselves with as the tools of words and what they build as a belief picture, indicate the scope of our conceptual development, which is our conception of the physical reality that is the formation of how we exist, without which we cannot exist.

Somehow I am defining myself in some limited way, and I am not walking in common sense, hence the tightness in my calf. And, there is a “ block” in my heart area. I have been trying these last months, because I began to notice this in the fall of 2013, to sense this form I have accepted and allowed, and to clear this up, to get this to circulate with ease. But since this has been constructed over time, it takes me time to slow down and see the measure of this as the back chat circulating as thoughts in my mind, and the emotional/feeling body welling up from my solar plexus area, settling in my heart, as what I forgive that is not in equal measure to what is best for all, as this “ best for all’ is myself as life, here.

Since I talked about creating friction in another, and I often feel frustrated and impatient with dealing with limited constructs as what people tout with lively debate in a very narrow window of belief, there remains within and as me, a frustration within addressing the limitations of belief in others. Somehow, I have not moved in a forgiving way, one that circulates with a measure of  creating change in digestible measures addressing a starting point of limited measure. But perhaps, I expect a greater “ return” and this is due to conditioning, as well, where there is really no return, there is only standing in common sense, as this is the return, just remaining here, steadfast with a measure of common sense. It is not so much a lack, as a rushing, and the rushing is the block as a movement within and as me, here.

Collectively, such allowances within, as what each is doing over all, is each of us not considering what it means to be physical entities on a physical world. Each must flow in common sense of what it means to be the physical form of life because this is how life is. Life is a gift, it is not something that is ignored through placing a belief in a heaven, an after-life as being more than what is here as the physical.  Heaven was the separation from being responsible as life, it was in total ( with the hell being those who had more realization that something was amiss and yet had not realized the problem) a lesser dimension of life, clinging to earth to survive, it was the matrix of our separation from accepting the gift of life, as the physical world. This is why Christ said we had to bring heaven to earth in order for life to begin, We had to order ourselves equal to the physical because the physical is the formation of and as life. Thus, what is here must flow in common sense of what is best for all, respecting that which enables life, which is the physical.Is it no wonder that the physical is belittled? What is the real value is hidden right in front of us. It has been said that the truth is hidden in the best place, right in front of us.

The amount of my separation from life is equal to the amount of blame and spite, that i allow within and as me as what I am. Thus, the amount of rejection manifest as a compound of suppression within, which is a behavior of not knowing where to go - so to speak- which is an ignorance that does not move in what would be a fluid manner as common sense of the whole as the physical. This would move with ease, would be directive, as the principle of give as one would like to receive, the principle of what is best for all. This is realizing that the principle is the physical world, and that this principle is what is the real value, one that cannot be moved into the hands of a few men, to become the interest of a few, via a system that takes through a measure we call interest lending. Ironically, when we allow a system of interest lending in monetary measure, we allow our interest as life, to become the interests of others, which creates a system that serves the interests of a few, and a few cannot be equal to the measure of the physical on the ground, because they are not there to see directly the consequences of what is practiced. As this, each unit of measure as each human being, must be given voice and as such, the means to see clearly. This means physical needs must be met, to create an entity that is in a state of health, because this is the wealth that enables life to exist, this is the web of the physical, that which is the formation of and as life, here.

So, I must forgive myself through writing self forgiveness to see the measure of my separation, and then write the self correction that is in equal measure to what is best for all, as this begins with each of us, so that many can stand as what is best for all, so that life can begin on earth. We decide.

Day 546 The clock work of my emotions.

I remember in my forties that I would inevitably go into a reactive angry emotion the day before my period. Now, I have had my period every month, like clock work, never missing this unless I was pregnant. I am a perfect text-book in terms of this feminine cycle. Never missed, always every 30 or so days.

So, what i noticed mostly was that this righteousness would begin to build and then suddenly come out the day before the period. I started to be able to notice it mid-storm and then simply stop, often apologize and state “ oh no!” what day is it? Oh!”

I got better at realizing that this was happening and not let outbursts happen. I think that had I been taught about how emotions move, and build and erupt, from childhood, then the long slow process of learning this through paying attention to patterns, would not have taken 40 years. I mean, what a waste.

If we are angry and reactive, it is not the calm directive of simply looking at what is here and moving into solutions, which is the only way to live practically, because we all realize that reacting and allowing behaviors of blame and spite take up a lot of time, cause more reactions and are not actually seeing directly at what is here and directing. One is an emotional reactive movement and the other is more a sound mind - so to speak.

I have a situation at present that needs to be resolved and it’s taking some time. This is also due to the present bureaucratic system. What I find is that I am second guessing what is going on, and imagining all manner of outcomes. Then I notice I start to become righteous about the injustice as the story built within my imaginations that are all gloom and doom, and what if’s. Which may be true or not true, but thinking about them, second guessing before I even know why the problems exists for real, does nothing. All I can do is take what information comes through the channels of the system and work with it, be careful and understand how it works.

In the last few days, I noticed that I was building a similar experience within myself as that of the behavioral pattern that erupted just before my period.

This building of belief, which I allow and cannot blame anyone but myself, is based on not slowing down and looking at myself as what I allow. And, it is based on not being equal in practical common sense, working with what is here, even as the present system that is one of self interest before common sense that is built from every single human being not functioning in common sense, as each has abdicated common sense, which is in essence the way and the means to create a world that is best for all. Thus, humans are their own demise. Believing that this self accepted and allowed demise is human nature is life in default. It is common sense, as the very substance and nature of life as how life would come to exist, which would be a physical form, that is the real nature of physical life, that the human is in reality. Thus, it is the limited beliefs, each of us are allowing that is not equal to common sense reality, a practical physical reality that moves in understandable ways, we need only look. The moment I allow myself to become emotional, to become reactive, to spite and point the finger in blame, I have abdicated myself as life, here.

The consequences of my behavior, as lack of direct seeing of this physical formation as life, has created a limited awareness, where what I construct within my mind, a para-normal imagination, creates the chaos from the limitation of my mental default of not looking/ seeing directly/ including the physical world. This separation places me into a polarity game, where I am in judgement as an act of comparison instead of understanding.  The consequence of this accepted limitation/separation  over generations of men has created a system of survival  where I “ surv-i-all the faults as the lack of measure/consideration  I have allowed in regards to what enables me to exist as a physical entity. In this process, I compare my inner limitation, as belief, to others, and blame them for being in lack, because I believe my inner construct to be complete, when it is not. And, the physical changes/transforms with every moment, so the only choice is to cross reference the physical world, which means to respect that which enables myself to exist and to realize the physical is the gift of life. Without the physical, there is no life. And heaven, was a parasite dependent on earth- the physical. 

In all, it is time to accept the gift of life, and stand together, with this physical earth - all it parts- and become co-creators equal and one with the physical world. This is the real “ video game,” this is the real story, this is life information. Humans are the perfect bio-logical organic forms to become equal and one with and as life. This is our potential, we need only realize this, and stand together, to remove the present system of separation that is not giving all of life on earth the support a physical manifestation of and as life, needs to exist. Rejection is futile, as it is rejecting the way and the means of and as life that the physical is. The physical is creation information it computes life expression. Compute originates from the latin word meaning com-together putare-settle. Together, as each part, we settle and account for life, as it is parts working together in full potential/awareness that the organism of earth/life as a physical form, can reach its full potential.

Day 534 Seeing the patterns of administrators.

I was at a meeting last night, and I find that I react to administrators. I can bring myself back, but the reaction happened. What I find, is that the meeting with the administration has conversations where the speakers continually qualify with statements such as “ let’s be positive here, let;s find something positive” and then the conversation changes about all the “ wonderful “ things being done, which ends up taking half an hour, this period of qualification, and the time is gone.

Smoke and mirrors eating up time; a distraction, to not take the time to look at the whole and investigate consequence in total. In all it is not that the structure is bad, it is that it addresses consequence without going back to the starting point.

Then, the meeting has to come to an end because the room is only available for so long, and the janitor has to go home.

Anyway, after the administrators left, the parents came together and talked, and then there were individual conversations. Despite all the talk, when the administrators where there, that painted a picture of care and effort, the individual response of the parents was that the schools cannot do anything, they cannot take care of these children.

But at this point, the parents are enjoying the community, and talking away filled with hope, but it is a false hope, they simply found a place to vent, and that one movement of venting appears to appease, when nothing has really happened.

I, as I initially reacted, in a moment in the beginning, had to breath and slow down, and realize the physical moves in a certain way. One has to walk the steps as these steps take time. Steps taken in consideration of what has been accepted and allowed, and the movement of common sense and solution, and how a human is formed, must be stood as, unwavering.

One woman came up to me, and generally people were very friendly,  realizing the desperation of their situation. At the end, while the general meeting was going on, there was a statement made, of “ we need to look outside the box.”  All this means is that the windows are there, the understanding that solutions must be outside the existential box.  Solution is always right in front of us, it is only belief that shuts insight out. But, just as the administration clogs with details, this ability at detail, can also be used to walk outside the existential box of limitation, by using common sense and walking the details.

So, I am going to write self forgiveness on my reaction to administrators, my aggravation that i have to sit in the molasses of justification composed of details that are not good or bad, simply of a limited construct that misses overall the point of itself, and that is to build a child to enable that child to function in this world in ways that are aware within and without instead of consumed with a chaos of details that lend no awareness, in balance, of the inner structure of understanding being equal and practical in common sense of physical reality. Each part of a fabric, the fabric that is this earth, must become aware of itself as this fabric, because this is what creates a strength at each point of the fabric of earth, that is strong, insightful, steadfast, considerate, stable, in balance and directive, and as such able to move in ways that do no harm. It is the solution, and it is the way out of the chaos of pollution, poverty, economic stress, and inner turmoil.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to have the thought that an administrator is a conman.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to believe that administrators are idiots

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to lose my patience with administrators, who are people.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to allow my past, that had no patience, that became within statements such as “ idiot” and “ conman” to be the expression of myself as a thought, and as such to not realize that I was judging without looking at consequence and taking the time and steps to balance the detail of what is here out in ways that gave direction in understanding into and as solutions.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to react as a belief that I had no power to stand in common sense, simply looking at reality and the ability of men to pay attention to detail, and to realize the construct of details attended to, and to bring this back down to earth, in common sense , to direct, in detail, what walks into solution, with a stability that faces all objections within the principle of what is best for all is best for self.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to judge another, based on limited criteria.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand when and as I find myself becoming a judgement, where I limit my perception based on ideas that build barriers and borders instead of remaining here, equal and one in common sense of physical reality, as it is here that I am as a physical being, and as such, it is only here as this that I can direct myself.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not see, realize and understand that my judgements are based on a morality taught, a detail in relation to the cultural bubble as the place i was born, in a hegemonic system trying to control the same behavior that i have accepted and allowed that becomes blame and spite in self interest, living the days of my life in believing that a moment of venting my own accepted and allowed beliefs is a gain, when it is more of the same, as it is myself not looking to the whole and realizing that the only way out of a chaotic system of such limited inner construction that lacks connection and community with all detail of how physical existence functions, that I have separated myself from common sense, and my reactions are myself trying to force what i believe within, onto the without, which cannot work, as my existence is dependent on the physical, which, is to realize that even if one believed in a life after death, it does not matter, because at this moment I am here, a physical being here, and there is no reason not to create a world where the physical fabric of existence is of a working order that maintains and cares for this means of expression in ways that do no harm and allow full potential in all physical reality, period.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand that in the moment where I become heavy within physically, I am moving as a slow heavy emotion, of spite and blame as i am blaming, as in pointing out lack, and then calling it a name, instead of looking at it in it’s detail, and then instantly becoming a directive towards that detail in what would become a solution, to understand the conscious presentation of what is being looked at, used, and to take this part and place it within the whole, to balance this out in common sense, in ways that build a social fabric that is strong as each point, as each man, woman and child, being equal in measure within with the without as the physical world, as this is the way and the means of creating a social fabric that creates and supports and cares for a physical world in ways that are considerate of life.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to become an emotion of believing myself to be unworthy, as in unable to address the storm of limitation and separation as mind, composed of the conscious expression of singular detail, the subconscious the accumulation of beliefs and opinions and ideas based on family tradition - this based on generative pasts in culture, religious belief, gender divisions, class ideas, environmental developments - all of which have also created a unconscious mind that is the total limitations as divisions and limited acceptance as conquests of definitions used to define and label and direct in separation from practical reality as the physical -  accepted and allowed by men who are lost in a fantasy world of idea that has become greater than that on which it cannot live without, which is the physical world.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to sink within as a physical sensation, where I go into judgement, as a resistance to facing here, in common sense, as I have not practiced this, as I have allowed limited self definitions and also, hide in embarrassment because on some level I am aware of what it is that I do, because I accepted and allowed limited values to define me, instead of standing in common sense of physical reality, with and as every breath of life that is the gift to allow me to express life, here.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to believe that my past, one of separation, defines me here, as this past is a construct of a mind consciousness system, that has manifested without, that is of the limitations of the mind, as a belief system that is not equal and one with physical existence as the means of life, here.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to feel overwhelmed within and as addressing limitations and stagnation without, in and as believing this is tedious, when, and I use this at the moment, it is the same and one with, for example, cleaning up a messy room, to simply start taking the pieces that are out of order and organizing them into a form that allows movement with ease, and of which, can change and improve in function as one walked the ordering of one’s immediate existence realizing that each and every part is equal and one with and as me, as an expression of life, here.

When and as I find myself reacting to anything another says, I stop and I breath and I slow myself down and I listen, and I check to see if I am clear, and I address what has been said as the words spoken, into and as what would balance out and direct in ways that do no harm.

When and as I find myself reacting, I stop and I breath, and I slow myself down and I see, realize and understand that the impetus of my reaction is based on my own memorized past, itself composed of ideas based on my own self interest that was built without practical consideration of physical reality, this which allows the expression of myself here as life, and I forgive this past as not in consideration of practical reality, and I walk myself back into a detail that includes the physical and how the human becomes what has been impulsed within, and I see realize and understand that this bears no witness to practical reality, and as such, the thoughts words and deeds of myself as my past, are not good and or bad, per-say, but a heresy of the past, of values in relation to survival based on an idea that I can be lost and die, when what I am as who I am is life, here, and as such there is no place to fall, but into life, the moment of expression being in awareness and equality with the physical as the manifestation of life in expression, here.

When and as I find myself within and as a sinking in my chest area, I stop and I breath, and I forgive the idea of an expectation hoped for, as being this, an idea/expectation as a desire imagined in a moment based on limited details, and I bring this back to self, and see realize and understand this construction as an emotional value and not myself equal and one here and that I am allowing and accepting to define me in separation from equality and oneness, here.

When and as I find myself inferior to here, I stop and I breath and I slow myself down, and I listen to the details of what is presented , and I bring this back in common sense of practical reality  as what does no harm within and as understanding how the physical is a mechanistic system that is visible in form and function, and as such can be understood and directed.

When and as I find myself in fear, I stop and I breath, and I slow myself down, and I listen to the details as the idea presented and I cross reference as much as I am able, to bring the spoken detail presented into and as what aligns with the physical world in practical common sense.

When and as I find myself thinking, having the thought, as “ idiot’ of “ conman” I stop and I breath and I slow myself down, and I see, realize and understand that a con is not possible in a physical world as the manifestation of life, as this life is visible in form and function and as such can be walked into alignment of common sense of physical reality.

When and as I find myself believing that what has been accepted and allowed as limitations within and as men, manifest into a system, I stop and I breath, and I slow myself down and I see, realize and understand that the consequence of this must be walked, and that the tools of self forgiveness, writing and self correction in and with cross reference with and as the physical within the principle of what is best for all, and the ability of myself as a physical being using common sense of life as the very innate nature of myself is here, and as this, with every breath, I can stop and breath, and look here, to find solutions that direct in ways that do no harm.

Day 359 The lesser self: thoughts as beliefs.

One of the things i noticed when I realize I projected a lesser self to fit in because i feared being myself was a thought that “ I don” know where to go” and then I allowed this to become huge and thereby making the thought as a belief as a problem another means of not facing here.

Within this, there are tools: a principle of what is best for all, common sense, self forgiveness of the limitations accepted as belief opinion and idea and the correction of this into what would be best for all that is here on earth, to investigate and use what supports all life, as being that which is good.

THis is another thought dimension of what lead to a lesser self that I accepted and allowed because I feared being self honest, here.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to fear being myself here.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe that i do not know where to go, to have the thought that I do no know where to go within moving myself here.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to become anxious within the idea that i do not know where to go here in and as this being myself not using my common sense of what works and what does not work in relation to actually physically moving myself here.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not listen to myself here, to not see, realize and understand through self forgiveness and self corrective application within the principle of what is best for all what i reject within and as allowing myself to become a judgement of one thing being more than another and thus allowing myself to believe that something can be lost and as such rejecting the life that is here, that is the substance of what is here as a gift of life, thus there is nothing here that is less than and so to be feared, what is here that is abusive is a consequence of and from a starting point of judgement as one thing being more than another, thus the abuse on earth, and the abuse I have allowed within limiting myself as life, is a separation from life, an ignorance of life, where I have hidden from myself as the disease of reaction to life within judgement within one thing being more than another separating from a directive principle as myself as life and as such allowing myself to lose an ease with life here.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand that what I project as guide is what I reject and seek which consumes me, which is my own accepted and allowed separation that then consumes my attention as I seek this that i have separated within myself believing this to be what i lack, and what i am as how I label myself is the limitation that I stubbornly refuse to let go, or align within and as life here, as I believed a lesser self would enable survival, as hiding from myself meant I did not have to face what I feared which was myself and what I had accepted and allowed.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not see, realize and understand how in taking the low road or the high road I was in fact diminishing myself as life here believing there was such a choice where the only road was that which included all life, which is a principle as that which is best for all, as this includes all life and thus does not diminish life in any way, for which my human physical body is a means to become one and equal within and as walking the only road to life, as life, being one and equal here.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to believe that such a task is impossible that I cannot become one and equal with and as life here, as I have accepted and allowed myself to believe myself to be limited, as though being equal and considerate of what is here would mean the loss of myself here, when this is just the opposite of life.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand how the consumerist platform feeds my lesser self, my diminished self, my “ I don’t want to face myself as life here “ self” as this means taking the steps necessary to understand life here in the physical, to learn to direct myself equal and one with and as my physical body and this physical existence, thus I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to believe what is sold by consumerism as this is a directive within a lesser means of expression, limited within dimension and awareness of physical reality.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to chase an idea of a more than believing that there is no hope for mankind as man ignores the natural world in placing profit before life, which is a total disrespect for life, a total disregard for life, a total lack in sensibility of the physical which means a total separation from the very substance in and as what we are, what supports us which means I have not learned to use and be what i am as life as the starting substance that is the very building expression of what i am here, which is to say, if I am not equal and one within being aware of this how can I understand life, understand the physical, thus my lack of understanding is equal to my separation from life here, is equal to the lessening of myself as life as what I accept and allow.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not see, realize and understand that there have been times in myself when I changed in an instant from reaction as anger to suddenly realizing that such anger was pointless as it served no purpose, and within this I became calm and much more directive thus emotional reactions based on ideas, on morality, are a delusion as this is believing one thing to be more than another, an idea made into a label, an idol, a false “ god” as what is here, as the physical and how the physical world works is only that which is real, and thus what is here right in front of me as the physical is what can only be dealt with as myself being here, considering what supports here as the physical absolutely.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to believe myself to be a victim, as this is a fear that something can be lost, and if I look I remain, here, and thus the only choice is to direct myself within and as what is best for all here.

Day 338 The " I don't know" Syndrome

The “ I don’t know syndrome”

Saying that “I don’t know” is being in a “ I have no knowing” “state of being”. And this on a physical world of people and plants and animals and soils, and other substances that exist with certain needs and functions, as their physicality reveals. Thus, a human , for example, has basic needs, clean water, sustaining food, education/programming and shelter in order to function. We all know this, it is obvious by the very form and functions of the human.

These needs must be constant, if they are beholden to payment, to a systemic form that places limitations on this, then moving with this physical world within implementingchanges , within being here, moving here, working with what is here, as physical beings has consequences that can accumulate as what sustains the physical is tied to movement within changing what is here. Conditioning basic needs limits flexibility and mutability with what is here. Thus, if what is here as what supports the human, the point as tools as wheels, as the fabric of this earth, do not remain constant in expression as what the human is, then making changes within this fabric of capacity as the human, becomes very difficult, because what sustains is not constant, not maintaining a stable, solid platform/surface/substance. It is to say that if one does not take care of a “ map” then the “ Map” disintegrates, this “ map” being the surface of the earth.
So, how would this “ fabric” this map, this substance that expresses as the expressions of the human, as the physical maintenance of the human, remain stable and flexible and constant, able to change and express? To realize that having the support of this part of this fabric as this earth in a state that is constant would enable change and flexibility on this earth. Each point strong and solid within and as what it is as an expression as a human. This being systemically constant would allow development on earth in ways we cannot even imagine from our present survival based mentality. To say “ I don’t know” is to be in a state of not looking, of not using what one is as a human that has the capacity to understand this in common sense.
For example, say a building is to be built, and within the process of construction of the building it is realized that something was not seen in the laying out of the details in the imaginative consideration of the structure, the pre-planing stage. So, if there is no flexibility within correcting this within the building stage because what supports us physically is determined by adhering to a plan that assumed itself to be correct, and changes mean loss in what sustains each of us individually, the ability to look and be flexible and correct becomes very difficult. Correction means a loss, and then a compromise, and then a insecure building. This is the same if one looks to the whole of men on earth.
If what sustains us is constant, then the flexibility within interacting with what is here, and becoming communicative with what is here and having the ability to stop and look at outcomes as one is in expression here, and to learn from this without a stress - a worry, compression, dis-association with here, removes the state of “ not being in the know” as in looking directly here.

The solution is to maintain what is here, as the very fabric of the surface of this earth as the human, to have this be a constant would allow flexibility, an ability to move with, to transform with, to express with and as what is here. For the human to be flexible, a state of physical constancy must be what exists, thus the very from of what sustains must be what exists. This requires sustaining food, shelter and clean water, this requires a healthy environment, and this demands an environment that is constant in its strength as what it is, and as it, at every point - so to speak- awareness, meaning being in the “ know” as looking at here and seeing here being aware of how here works. This requires an education.
All behaviors of lack in health, in ability, in awareness, in communication are because the needs of the “fabric” of this earth are not systemically made a constant. This is really the only way to get this earth in order. To give what creates a constant state of flexibility to express what is here as us on this physical earth is our responsibility. There is nothing “ to know” in this understanding, it is simply practical common sense of how this physical world works. Reactions of impatience are simply fixations on limitations because a system of economy that believes itself separate from the ecology, that moves as owning the ecology on earth for personal gain can only be a state of lack in practical common sense, thus any human that does not see this, must be in some alternate reality, dis associated from HERE.

What is here as this physical fabric as man on earth, must be cared for and given what sustains it. What exists as a system at present is one of inequality, which as the wordimplies when looked at the consequential outflows is an inequality to this physical world and what functions would create a constant expression of life. Sustaining what is needed to be, is what creates and develops life. Dividing and conquering, raping and grabbing, as the actions of war where the parts as the soldiers are taught.educated to believe that this is what maintains order, that this is what supports is not what is really happening, because had this done what is purports to have done, we would have a world that was stable and constant in its expression as life, flexible, constant, focused, calm, organized, fecund, healthy. The list can go on.

Systemically what would provide the basic needs of men to provide a constant stability and flexibility to express and move with, be in a state of understanding with, meaning becoming equal to and as what we are, is Equality. A system that realizes that this is the value, life is the value, being here, moving with here, equal and one, flexible, constant, communicating, interacting with here as earth as what we are is the solution. This system is, with what we have allowed thus far, is Equal Money. Stand up and supports what will create a constant on earth, humans who have the basic needs and thus rights of life as what we are, here.