Day 483 The growth of special needs children. Who is responsible. YOU.

In my local elementary school that has an an expected enrollment of 107  students for the 2014/15 school year, there are expected to be 13 special needs children in grades K-5. The number of special needs kids was projected as 5, but the number has doubled.

If this is happening in my small town, this is probably happening in towns all across America. The numbers are exponentially moving and if this continues will the numbers make another jump to 26 for every 100 or so students?

That is a huge cost to American taxpayers. These children require special attention outside of the regular classroom, and if the classroom adapts to them, this will mean slowing the class down for the students who are moving at faster speeds. How is this growing problem going to be met by the public schools in America? Especially, when China and India each has more honor students than there are students in America.

One of these special needs children will attend another school that has a program especially suited to this child’s type of problem. This will cost my town 60,000$ a year. Now imagine the potential increases in school costs.

Meanwhile, many people are no longer able to pay their mortgages. And private salaries are not going up, they have remained stagnant. Hence, the growing number of homeless in America. And even here, when these homeless manage to find a low income living solution, if it is outside of a district, naturally the school does not want to carry the children, even if they have been students in the school for many years because the parent’s of the children are no longer paying taxes into that district. Is the school wanting to throw these children out, children that are not the cause of the problem because they are children, just to save money? Is our system such that teachers and superintendents choose their salary over innocent children?

 This is how much money determines life, even before considering that we are dealing with children, who have nothing to do with the present system accepted and allowed by each of us. A system that is not working. A system that needs to change. And each of us is responsible to investigate and question what exists and to stand until a change is created that supports life. If we hide and do not address what does not make sense we allow it to continue, expecting someone else to become responsible for us, when in all common sense, it is the collective that builds the system, thus  the system can only change by the movement of the collective.

What I find most astonishing is that it appears that every decade the education system touts new programs that will teach “ critical thinking” skills, which means that we are “ going” to teach critical thinking. So we are accepting and allowing a “ going to” instead of a “ doing.” More lack of responsibility. A perpetual state of lack of responsibility. Thus, again, the collective is its own demise.

The collective, is the parts that comprise it. That the system is not working, is not supportive, is causing increasing numbers of dis-eased children, and is constantly touting that it is “ going to” teach critical thinking skills, and that people are unable to pay for homes, means that each of us are simply not being responsible. One part in this, one person can’t possibly change this, no one, not one, can be responsible for any of us. Each of us has to become responsible. And, if I might add, making money and having a job does not make one responsible, as we can see from what is happening in our society.

Perhaps having pensions losing value with each passing day, and homeowners unable to keep their homes, and as this, less local real estate taxes and less money for pensions, all those who have worked and screamed about how they worked so hard all their lives, etc. etc. find that their pensions are very small and/or non existent will wonder what happened, or blame those who did not work,  or could not find a job, or were too lazy to work, or whatever justification, were you really self responsible? Were you paying attention to what was going on and making an effort to realize that the system must change? Or were you one of those teachers that when this is pointed out said, “ yes I know, yes I know’? I mean saying  “ yes I know” does that do anything? NO.

This is the fault of the collective, of each of us, because we are not paying attention to what is going on, to the very ways that this system works in detail, and since there are fewer and fewer people who seem to own more and more of the wealth, our ignorance is being taken by those who are paying attention to a greater degree and are aware that no one is really paying attention. ( And I say greater degree because even the extreme wealthy are not paying attention and acting in self interest only, because the consequences of greed are being spread out all over the earth via the way water moves and carries all that pollution we are allowing within practices that are not responsible. Water circulates all over the earth taking everything that is put into is to all nooks and crannies, so no one is able to escape the effects of what is practiced on earth, no one.)  So, these few, can then control what is taught and how much is learned and how developed a child becomes, how much healthy foods children have access to, everything, to ensure that the competition is simply eliminated just in case the collective finally wakes up and decides to pay attention to more than their immediate environment within and without. I mean, would you not do the same thing is you realized no one was paying attention and only thinking about themselves? Wouldn’t you just decide that instead of trying to get someone to think beyond their own immediate needs without looking at all consequence ( and there are many many doing this) to just take as much as you can and build a system that would keep the masses of non-lookers at bay so that when the outcomes of not being aware begin to effect the non-lookers they are going to start to get reactive, and the ones who looked a little bit more are going to say, well you did not really look at what you were doing, so too f-king bad, you can’t blame anyone but yourself, and then throw the tar bomb over the edge of their very substantial castle. ( and meanwhile a wave is there behind this one, so there is no real escape) I mean, I can understand this, I would do the same.

If we are jumping to 13 special needs children out of 107 in my little area, then something is seriously not functioning. Perhaps all that we have allowed to be placed in our water, all those “ no significant differences” that no one can lay cause to one specific practice that our advisory boards have swept under the rug and hidden in so-called “ data” while the government advisor during the supposed regulatory acceptance process moved onto the product’s corporate board ( off shore and protected - remember the castle) of advisors or affiliate, has finally accumulated to the point that the numbers of dis-eased children are moving exponentially.

Yes, if I were you, I would be scared. And realize that the more each of us grow fearful, the harder it is to stand and change the outcome, because when we get to the point where we are directly confronting the consequences of our ignorance, that castle is going to have lots of tar in place and there is not going to be anything that you can do about it at that point. Your begging and hungry children and grandchildren are going to look at you and ask why.

This is the consequence of not being responsible, of wanting someone else to stand for you.

It really is time to start looking. It is time to investigate how the various systems function, the money, the education, the banking, the government, the corporations.

It is time to understand how you function as a mind consciousness system.

It is time to suspend everything you have ever believed and take a hard and long look at what you in fact think and do, and what products you use and where they come from and how they effect the environment.

It is time to realize that our schools are not in fact teaching critical thinking skills. I mean, if teachers really started to look at the system, and if parents really started to look at the system, most children would be pulled out of school and taught at home. It is that simple, and teachers would probably tell parents to do so. I would, I have been in the schools, and I would say, “ home school.”

And, if I were a  parent with small children I would probably look outside the box to ensure that my child had critical thinking skills, because I would realize, if I started to look, that more than likely, my pension, or my partner’s pension is not going to be enough to support retirement so I am going to need to make sure that my child performs extremely well. Remember, there is a continent called China, and they have more honor students than there are students in America. I mean, aren’t the supposed “ elite” acting the same as you?

It is time to find solutions that cause no harm to any living thing on this earth.

It is time to ensure that children learn to be able to be self responsible.

It is time to consider everything we are accepting and allowing.

Investigate a Living Income Guarantee. Thus, things are not as bad as they seem, there are solutions, we need only stand and respond as them.

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Day 36 Worry about my Children

I forgive my self for allowing and accepting my self to worry about my children.

I forgive my self for allowing and accepting my self to feel as though I cannot move, as all that I can do is clean up what has been taught to my children.

I forgive my self for not allowing and accepting my self to realize that worrying about my children is not going to change the system that exists that is the cause of worry and fear, a system that locks workers into their jobs in fear of survival even when the workers know what they do within their jobs is not what is best for all, where within this each must stand and politically support a change within the present system, as protest will not change this system, where it will take organization and a vote to change what is unacceptable as a system that places value on money, where the real value is life.

I forgive my self for allowing and accepting my self to feel that I am responsible for my children

I forgive my self  for allowing and accepting my self to have become frustrated with my father, when i talked about children as I have done with others I get adults who just go into reminiscing about how special their children were when their children were young, as though something happened but all the adults do is remain within that singular thought and do not realize what i am saying, because these parents do not realize that there was a change and somehow these children have not lived up to their potential, and why is this, what happened, what happened to these adults as themselves from the time they were young to the time that they became adults, what changed, what happened, where if they took the time to stop and look at the changes within themselves and really investigated the consequences of their own lives they might begin to understand what happened to that potential that was in their children when they were young.

I forgive my self for allowing and accepting my self to worry about my children, when the one thing that is going to allow my children to exist in the full potential that they are as life will mean changing this system of capitalism/socialism/communism - all centralized regimes, these games of survival and competition and greed to a world where all life is valued where all life is lived as life being the value, where the expression of life can be what is on this earth and not what presently exists, where many many children grow up to sit behind a desk and push papers all day which is not a life.

I forgive my self for not allowing and accepting my self to  realize that there are children in China, baby girls tied to chairs all day not being allowed to move and self discover themselves because of a society that refuses to change, refuses to value the girls, refuses to create a system that allows life to be lived in dignity where the boys and the girls are allowed to develop themselves as life, to become and live the potential existent and evident when the children are young, this that is somehow lost as the children become adults.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting my self to become aware of the children in Romania, where the economic situation was so depressed that aid sent for the homeless and orphaned children was taken by the workers in the institutions to feed and care for their own children, and that any adult in this world that accepts this, any politician that accepts this and does not investigate options to stop such practices needs to realize that it is the system that is here that is not working that is not taking care of this world, as this world is not taken care of until every single thing on this earth is allowed to live a life of dignity.

I forgive my self for allowing and accepting my self to not stop listening to what the system speaks, through education, through the media, through text books through the parents, as  the parents are products of the media, the education system, the product of politicians who are bought by money, where money is considered before life, and within this realize that it is this system of profit that does not work, does not take care of this earth, that abuses this earth through inconsiderate behavior that is the opposite of what this earth is, this earth that is in fact unconditionally giving.

I forgive my self for allowing and accepting my self to try and make excuses for how this world works, to not read about cancer, to know that most cancer tumors are filled with pesticides, that the oceans are filled with plastic, that there are animals dying, becoming extinct as the human can only think about getting money, which is telling in and of itself, this system that creates the desire to have money, this same system that allows endless abuse and the non development of children.

I forgive my self for allowing and accepting my self to not stop and look at what is happening in this world, to see, realize and understand that it is I the human who is the cause of what exists on this planet.

I forgive my self for not allowing and accepting my self to realize that the medical system in America is not in fact curing people of disease, despite the endless charity work, where I have not even investigated where exactly the money gathered by charitable events goes, have not investigated in depth how numbers in research are manipulated, where relative values and absolute values are manipulated, where I am told a number that I accept as fact not realizing that it is a relative value where the relatives made are not disclosed, where if they were I would realize that when I am told that my child will have a 50 % chance of survival, what is really being said is that my child has a 2 % chance of survival, and in the end this is the fault of a system that I have accepted and allowed as I have not investigated what is in fact real within a system that values money over life, where money is the first consideration.

I forgive my self for allowing and accepting my self to not stop and look at why so many children rebel when they become teen agers, where these children are life, and thus this rebellion is an indication that something is wrong, because this is life rebelling, this is life unable to express itself, and thus the system on this earth is not developing life.

I forgive my self for allowing and accepting my self to not realize that as a parent if I am worry about my child than there is something wrong with what is on this earth, as having to worry about my children is indicative that this world is not supporting life.

I forgive my self for allowing and accepting my self to not realize that the system on this earth must change and the answer has always been here right in front of all of us, the ‘giving as you would life to receive” a system that is the practice of unconditionally giving and that such a system would change the nature of the human, as what the human is know is a reflection of a system of inequality, a system that values money before life.

I commit my self to researching what is happening on this earth.

i commit my self to reading and watching documentaries about the health systems, about the educations systems. about advertising practices, about laws being passed, about the practices of banks and loans made by the International Monetary Fund.

I commit my self to investigating what interest lending means beyond what I have been taught.

I commit my self to move beyond momentary feelings of sadness about the state of the world to realize that being a momentary feeling of sadness is just his, a momentary feeling of sadness and not what in fact creates a world that is best for all.

I commit my self to standing up and supporting a system that is as this earth, unconditionally giving and supportive of life, as life is the value, where giving as I would like to receive is lived in fact, and equal money system.

I commit my self to investigating and Equal Money System and to realize that it is not communism, or socialism, as these were one and the same to capitalism, a centralized government creating a belief in a lack of resource through proposing supply and demand, and thus a belief in lack, where in fact this earth has the capacity to support all life, where if I investigated this, I would realize that practices that utilize this earth efficiently are available but are not used because such practices are not profitable.

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Day 19: My Legs and Hip Pains- What I have accepted and allowed.

Day 19: My legs and hip pains= what I have accepted and allowed.

Here I attempt to write as the movement of my self as the reading of my self as what I have accepted and allowed as my self as energy and to not simply recite what has been learned as what I am by what i learned/accepted/lived within how I was taught/lived in and as my life, where at this point the voices and desires and wants and needs of my self are with in a pattern of emotion and feeling here in every moment as what I am in separation of my self as life and unless i begin to match these separations in this moment as the image of my self as what I believe I am, as the label of my self and slow down into breath and forgive in detail as what I am here in totality that is causing constriction showing me where I refuse to grab this searation by the fucking balls and bring this back to self humbly and gently to turn and face this storm of energy that a will only seek and explosion in and as positive energy, a high that leads to dissipation, this not wanting to die as this is all I have known, here, to this I must turn, breath an awareness of my self into as what is and cannot satisfy me and is only self punishment as separation is self punishment  and fear of self becoming self as life, to stop the bullshit once and for all of life denial, to give up the cry of fear allowing the vulnerable existence of my self to stand  and become a perpetual state of transformation as life in expression as life, directed by life, as life is what is best for self is best for all.

I forgive my self for allowing  and accepting my self to believe that i must objectify directions and file them away for reference in stead of realizing the very sound of my self as life here, strong and directive as this is what life is and to become this, start from this point and not use an idea of what this in fact means.

I forgive my self for  not allowing and accepting my to stop weighing ideas of who I am to fit into what I do, to maintain a persona to be understood within the society in which i live and instead to face what is here as here as self as life breathing through constriction and clinging to ideas of self, as how i look, as how i should appear, as how I respond to what has been repeated to me as words by relatives and friends and society, that I need the support of a man, the imagery of a man by my side in order to be accepted and listened to as a woman, where the fear of not being this is my self allowing a conditioned existence separate from my self as life, as I am life and thus unconditionable in needing something as object as image as beliefs to create as my self' as an image as a presentation in order to express and interact with life here.

I forgive my self for allowing and accepting my self to listen to the voice as belief in and as my mind that dictates a lack in accordance with defined and designed relationships, as ideas, opinions and presentations as a woman being next to and in service to the mind of a man, where having lived this service to and as the mind of a man, self sublimates self as life and that of the man, as the support of a man as his personality is the support of the insecurities of said man, and the continuance of the man in separation of himself, that which he seeks above all else yet also, as a man, believes is answered and found through the support of a woman, when in fact such a scenario of the impossible dream, as this man must stand as himself, removing the ideas and beliefs as imagery, just as I must, and self direct as life, must find his own spark as life and stand vulnerable as that, thus in believing this resonance as what has been taught I become separate from my self and disallow what is best for all and thus best for my self and the other point in the relationship that in totality is separation from self , as this relation is clung to as it is a limitation inconsiderate of the whole and unaware of itself as life , as this life being able to self direct from a point of clarity as self' as life, no longer shackled to separation where objects of guidance are created that are of eternal separation and not self facing self as what is actually eternal, this nothing that is everything, this nothing that does not judge, this no thing of need for support, this place of forgiving as self to life where fear does not exist.

I forgive my self for allowing and accepting my self to not realize that my accepted and allowed separations are the hooks of my mind , clinging to energy, believing energy to be real when this energy is actual dissipation and the real sense of falling, where as the self as life in humility is self breathing, where the very constrictions and non awarenesses of my self within and as breath show me the very limiting factors of the power of my self as life, where this self is muddied and held within a fuzzy logic unable to accept and allow breath as the constriction  is a firebrand of self separation  that I am in shame of believe is a punishment for what I have accepted and allowed, yet this must be brought back to self and cleaned up, deconstructed as this will life not/knot into and as eternal separation and a state of want need and desire for like minded clutching and sustenance to support this separation, where this separation will consume itself in energetic union believing this to sustain self when this is actually an ecstasy of death, where in reality this is a death of the separation of what self has accepted and allowed and thus not real, a suicide of self, as it is self in dissipation and not self in self direction as life as what is self, as this life being what is best for self is life and eternal.

I forgive my self for not allowing and accepting my self to see, realize that this consequential play out of self in and as energy leads to death, where as this present system exists, everything is placed to lead to this development and death into and as energy for all and everything on this planet, as this is the fire of hell and not the expression of life, manifest in extreme playouts of constricting and disallowing of natural physical expression of plant , animal, and human, and especially children, where many female children are orphaned and spend days bound in chairs as there is not effort to care for these children, no effete to respect them as life and offer them self development and direction as life, where, as I learned in Romania, much of the financial support for the orphaned children of this country was taken by officials and workers to support their own children, and thus the babies grew without stimulation of any kind, in a pen as a crib, completely undeveloped, as this is what we all accept and allow on this planet in our ignorance of how this system works within a system of profit that is ONLY the manifestation of a game of survival and competition for life.

I forgive my self for allowing and accepting my self to not realize that I am this, I have accepted and allowed these same behaviors in and as my self as i have accepted and allowed the very roles of family, to consider only my immediate family, and within that place my self into support for other family members who themselves have accepted and allowed consideration of themselves as the very substance of life one and equal to all that is here, and that it is only this system of inequality that creates lack, evident within a belief of supply and demand, where in common fucking sense it is known what is needed to support life here, where within even this realization it is blatantly obvious that consumerism does not consider or provide for life, but supports and feeds the energetic desires of men, the energy that is of separation and thus the endless pursuit of  being in and as a substance of stability and constancy, yet consumerism promotes separation by feeling the desires of separation knowing that these desires are never, cannot ever be quenched and thus an endless source of profit.

I forgive my self  for allowing and accepting my self to not recognize the physical movement of a child bound into a pod chair , a movement of 'swaying" to be as my self where I sway as I am in waiting to discover self, not realizing that I am in fact being the experience of waiting and not licking my self up and directing my self here fro fear of making a mistake as this has never been done and the idea of standing alone, an illusion, is what is believed, signifying there remains a fear of death and loss.

I forgive my self for allowing and accepting my self to fear standing alone, to believe that I am standing alone.

I forgive my self for allowing and accepting my self to not realize the illusion in and as my mind that letting go of ideas and opinions and images of how i must present my self as the image and likeness of the consumerist ads, is really the road to the death and loss of my self as life, that the leading into energetic experiences as ideals propagated by these ads is eventual un-fulfillment and death of self, where self is so busy dying that there is no life ever having been lived.

I forgive my self for allowing and accepting my self to become emotional , here in this moment about all of this.

I forgive my self for allowing and accepting my self to not watch the self satisfaction of my self as placing words here without any living word substance as real understood power of self in and as common sense, an illusion of knowing can present itself as a seemingly "calm" knowing, but really a rigid obsessive compulsive adherence to a belief in being structurally detailed, where this becomes what is real, yet lack a real directive capacity if scrutinized.

I forgive my self for allowing and accepting my self to go into future scenarios where I imagine what my future will be where this very experience of my self is my self in worry and fear of the future, and thus I stop my self and I breath and I look at the beliefs  and I forgive them, and return to my self here, with what is physically here and i realize I can only walk within this physical world step by step, so there is no need to dream of a future as what is here within this moment can only be walked as what is physical here, and that there space to be in common sense of what is here.

I forgive my self for allowing and accepting myself to not realize that the pain in my legs, especially this incredibly hard seeming rod in my left leg, will take time to deconstruct, as I have not allowed the breath as my self to be here in this leg, placing life as awareness into this leg, where this leg has only, in my ignorance of what I have accepted and allowed,  taken the brand as the fire, as the separation as the grid of what I have accepted and allowed as belief , opinion and idea according to what is  directives within a system of inequality where I suppressed life and thus the life of my self went to sleep and it is as though my leg does not want to wake up, so compressed that it is painful to breath life back into and as this leg, yet this must be done as there is no other choice.

I forgive my self for allowing and accepting my self to not see realize and thus stop through utilizing my breath, to see what I have accepted and allowed in self/life separation the judgements of what I should appear as, what my faults are within non compliance of complete and total image replication of my self , o so I believe, as woman in relation to a man, as home in relation to successful money acquisition to have the picture perfect in-mage and likeness of 

a sales catalogue home,  to believe my self lacking in ability, as in performance in word and deed where I have no real idea of what this lack of really means as I have never stood as my self and walked thus do I criticize my self for something I have never actually even been shown to be, so I criticize my self for something never attempted and thus I am merely criticizing something I know nothing about as I never applied common sense and got to actually experience that which I am just as label of lack as! Insanity.

I forgive my self  for allowing and accepting my self to  not realize that I am my own judge and juror, for my self as life, when in common sense all I have done is imitate images and never directed my self as life.

I forgive my self for allowing and accepting my self to fear that I will cause harm to life.

I forgive my self for allowing and accepting my self to believe that the common sense of me as life, in and as breath will cause harm to life should I speak up within remaining in and as breath, as what is this commonsense of my self as breath will no longer participate in supporting an idea as image that fits into the consumerist model of existence.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to believe that I am unworthy of life, that this that is the power of me as life, as self is not wanted, when in fact this is my mind messing with me, as this means the death of the mind, the stilling of separation and division into and as energy, the fear of loss of my own accepted and allowed addictions as mind.

I commit my self to breath, I breath, I breath, I breath, into my leg, I bring my self back to life, I stop the fire brand of my mind.

I commit my self to stopping reactions of "this is too hard,"  " I am unworthy," " I just want this to stop," and I breath, knowing the intensity of this is the point where this will soon dissipate as it is indicative of the death of energy seeking an illusion this this is All that is what I exist as.

I commit my self to breath, I stop this depressing sense, feeling of hopelessness as this cannot be life, as this is an illusion as all I have ever known and not myself here that is life, where feelings of unworthiness are a dis-respect of life as what I am, and if I look, I would this on no one, not anyone I know, thus this is an illusion as just as I would not want this for anyone, in common sense it is not something to be thus this feeling of unworthiness makes no sense.

I commit my self to breath, to becoming one and equal to breath, to earth, to heart, all one and the same in construction as what i am here as life.

I commit my self to breath, to breathing and realizing all constrictions and fears and depression as not what is real and only an illusion, where this is the falling of my self into and as separation, and as I breath I will walk with more and more certainty as I am on a journey to life as there is no other choice but this.

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