Day 565 Loss by Association Self Forgiveness

I recently encountered more than once the wrath of a neighbor who is having relationship problems. One encounter was this neighbor saying they hated cats, and the other was that they hated my dog, because she “barked all day.”

My dog is not out barking all day, she has aged and slowed down, and as such, is out with me, and occasionally barks at a passing bike or pedestrian. I try and make sure she does not run out on the road, sometimes I don’t get to her in time. But I would say, of these few times, she barks for about ten seconds.

I realize this person’s behavior does not define me, their emotional frustration being projected onto a dog and a cat, have nothing to do with me. And yet I found myself being disturbed by it.

What I see, is a cultural class value that I learned, that I accepted. It is to blame self for having allowed exposure to another person who behaves in such a manner, like one should make sure that association to such behavior is not a part of one’s life. I mean, this really makes no sense, other than as a moral system to keep one in line with people who have more self control in terms of being responsible for their behavior, and as such making sure that their actions do not lead to consequences that generate such extreme and overt frustration. And to note, we all do this, some with more subtlety and or secretly- as though this makes a difference, when it does not. In reality, this is only comparison within an association that one behavior is okay in one manner and not in another, meanwhile it is the same act, one that overall is a lack of common sense, a lack of self responsibility and respect for the measure of self and the physical world around us as the very expression of life, the gift of life. Until we realize this, we will not have heaven, because heaven can only be brought to earth, and this means existing in common sense of practical reality, physical reality, our within being equal to our without.  This takes the use of the heart more than the ideological halo of a mind moving by association only, building personality.

Which means, in an economical sense, that usury must end as it is a pyramid scheme. It is essentially taking from one to pay another, and then projecting the blame onto the one taken from. We see our American Congress doing this every day, as they scream that the welfare babies are having a free ride, and meanwhile Congressmen are taking, allowing laws in their own self interest, having a life of ease, working very few hours, riding on the welfare of the labor of men, generations of them and teaching that the masters of industry as the one who accumulated wealth being the innovators, when all that was used was the wealth of generations of men and freely given resources as the expression of life. And so, projections of blame and spite are placed on the labor force on the land, and when it does not conform, bombs are dropped, physical bombs, that are punishing an object for not conforming to an individual human being. one that is in separation of common sense of practical physical reality, an idea as mind being allowed greater value than the means of life, which is the physical. This is all really a disconnect from the fabric of creation, which is a separation from the sense and respect of this creation, which is why stopping the mind and learning to move as self as life, as common sense is the birth of self as life. This is why giving up everything as mind as one’s limited associations of value, called judgement, is only a fractured self. What came first, the story of a fractured egg man, or the fracturing itself - and are we doing this to earth? As within so manifest without?

So, it is this, a sense of guilt that on a personal level, I associated with someone who allowed a behavior of projecting emotional frustration built up from actions that were not based in common sense of which the projecting of emotion onto another object is the same.

Two things happen here, this cultural conditioning of associating with such behavior, getting myself into such exposure, and the sense that as a woman, it is my role to support insecurity and want to appease it.

I realize that avoiding such behaviors, like being selective within whom I associate is not an option, and also, that allowing such behavior to exist is also overall not cool, so to not turn into someone who finds a purpose in putting out such fires, because I cannot put out such fires, the person allowing such behavior has to put them out, as only they can, and they have to want to, and as such to grow tired of the anger storm and want it to come to an end.

Also, as a woman, it is not my role to appease such, if asked, yes, to say the anger is pointless because it is projecting blame onto objects and not addressing the source of the anger, that is self generated, especially in the western world of America in the area in which I live. As a human being, for me to appease such as to placate in self interest is unacceptable, as it is more of the same. It is to be gentle but frank and to describe what is going on point blank or to walk away.

It is like I am embarrassed that I exposed myself to such behavior. Perfect cultural conditioning, to keep me in line within a class.

I also realize that I am the same as this neighbor, not in the exact same measure or degree, but that in my life, things are not moving in a way that I want and desire, and that there is back chat in and as my mind blaming the objects around me and blaming the object of myself for my own lack of achievement that in itself means I am not looking at space and time in common sense. As such, the only way out is to start using my common sense of reality, and to stop chasing a metaphysical idea/construct as mind  busy with  distractive association/comparison game play that is obviously not aligned with reality as the physical, as this is alignment in how heaven is brought to earth. 

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to believe that associating with another who overtly expresses blame through projection as hate and aggravation onto an animal or another object is the fault of myself as having allowed myself to be exposed to such overt energetic reaction of frustration.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not see, realize and understand that  the sense of guilt I accept and allow is myself fearing that I am not interacting with a class of people who are of a manner that has some small measure of self responsibility, enough to not overtly and with such extreme reckless abandon abdicate responsibility within and as projecting hate and spite towards objects in their environment to allow such objects to  be the cause of their anger, when they are not, as anger is generated by self in separation from common sense, as such separation is self inferior to and as life, which is a state of insecurity, which is fear.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to become angry myself, like a real snob, in not only with myself for having allowed such to be expressed socially, but also, to fear that this association defines me and pulls me down into a lower rung of the present system of hierarchy, into the “ reckless masses” who have no self control, when in reality, no human has control, because any human with control would realize that common sense development takes opportunity, and basic needs, which cannot be withheld economically, as this as money suppresses life in the self interest of a few, who themselves are projecting a bad onto another, as they themselves take in self interest having projected as mind, a more than, within and as a self definition, all of which is a separation from common sense of practical physical reality.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand that within this, I am actually projecting a value, or lack of value onto another, blaming and spiting something without for what I am, as having accepted and allowed as mind as idea within.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to believe that what I encounter can by association define me.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to believe that as a woman it is my responsibility to support the emotional reactions of men, when in actuality, this perpetuates and continues what is a separation from common sense and as such unacceptable.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not see, realize and understand that I tense up within and as me when I accept and allow this.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to believe that what another allows defines me and that because of such an association I may lose association with people who appear to have what is essentially a small degree of more control, such control being not such overt and reckless reactive behavior but the same.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand that allowing myself to believe that I am defined by association means that i have no directive capacity, no will power to define myself as measure myself, as balance myself within and as common sense here, and as such change myself as I judge the measure of another using associative measures instead of focusing here, on practical physical reality and understanding what is real as the physical and transforming myself in enjoyment with and as the physical here, as this is the gift of and as life, the means and expression of and as life, the movement of and as life, here.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see realize and understand that physically I allow energy to build up in my solar plexus and a weight to become what I am physically, coming from my head area, in and as believing that i have been hurt, as I believe that I as a woman am responsible for the very manifestation of and as such behavior, when in reality I cannot change this in another, as each is responsible for what each individual vessel as a human accepts and allows, thus it is to realize that I am responsible for what i accept and allow within and as me, myself, and can only stand as common sense in thought word and deed here, as another must want this for themselves, something that no one can do for another, as each must self realize what each is accepting and allowing as personifications within and as mind.

Within this, when and as I find myself feeling hurt by another, I stop and I breath, and I slow myself down, and I see realize and understand within and as listening to my human physical body, where i am allowing the weight of emotions and feelings to consume the presence of me here, the substance formation and resonance of myself here as life, and I standing within common sense as the principle of what is best for all, where in this instance, as with my neighbor, it is to say that projecting hate onto cats and dogs is not going to solve relationships problems and economic problems as the only solution is to face the consequences of one’s actions and to walk the necessary steps to become a practical common sense measure of what it means to be a physical state of being-ness, as this is the expression of and as life here.

When and as I find myself having a sense of guilt by association, I stop and i breath, and I see realize and understand that this need not define me, and that i either walk away, and or speak up in common sense, after the storm of blame and spite have passed realizing it does not define me unless i accept and allow it,  and stating in all common sense that projection of hate onto environmental objects in no way solves problems as it is a practical physical world one where problems are solved in the same way houses are built, through practical physical steps where one thing at a time adds up to the solution, the completion of an endeavor and that within the principle of what is best for all, does one build a sound house, one that can withstand the test of time.

When and as I find myself becoming heavy, physically within and as myself, I stop and I breath and I slow myself down and I see, realize and understand that taking things back to self, as realizing projections of hate onto environmental objects, is a process, one that does not fit into the measure impulsed as distraction within our consumerist accepted and allowed environment of immediate gratification and as such there may be times when I speak up and the mind of separation as self definition will react as what we have accepted and allowed to define us we fear losing believing this to be what is real when it is not, and as such to give such limited self definitions up will feel like a death, when it is only a death of separation from life, and as such the gift of giving self back to life to enable one to walk through the eye of the needle in becoming in full understanding with and as the physical which is the way and the means of life in expression as what formation is and does, here.

The only choice is the principle of give as your would want to receive, as this is common sense in practical application. And is not usury what scatters life, as we see happening all around us on earth? Is this what division and conquest is and does?

Matthew 12:30 

Whoever is not with me is against me, and whoever does not gather with me SCATTERS. 

Self interest is a scatological behavior in absence of common sense.

Day 524 Leaving a dog to starve and the American Congress. Time for a change.

http://www.dailymail.co.uk/news/article-2584432/Pet-dog-starved-death-horrific-conditions-trainee-lawyer-specialising-medical-negligence-locked-animal-kitchen-week-went-work.html

Okay, this story really got to me. I wanted to go into statements like “ she should he imprisoned for life.” Or “ she should be tied on a chain and left, without food, I mean she is certainly fat enough.” So, really nasty statements like this. I could even go on. There is no excuse for a grown woman, who holds a degree, to have allowed an animal to suffer like this. 

But, what does this do? Nothing. Does this solve the problem? No. Yet, how could this woman not realize that her dog was trapped on a leash in a kitchen? Why could she not call someone and simply say, look would you go and take this dog? Or, even let the dog go outside, where at least it had some chance of care. No, she left the dog tied up in her ktichen and went and stayed with her mother, for a week. Where else, are we humans so blind to common sense?

Are we blind to an American Congress that earns 174,000$ a year, plus expenses ( and so many being millionaires) while only working 113 days in 2014 while 1/2 of all Americans earn only 25,000$. Obviously, our American Congress is as ignorant, and as blind, and as disrespectful of life as this woman who left a dog to die in her kitchen and went to stay with her mother for a week.

American waters are being polluted, our children are dying from cancers at rates higher than  20 years earlier ( though this has been denied once stated) . The sperm count in our males is down and hidden by changing the accepted ratio of healthy sperm to unviable sperm as a norm. What is the difference here? There is no difference. Both are negligence and abuse of life, a delusional hoping what is inconvenient will somehow go away. It does not just go away, it suffers, horribly.

Such is not the behavior of a leader. I mean look, do you think that this woman is a leader, someone to give responsibility to in any way? Why are we allowing millionaires in a profit based system to make decisions for us, when it is very obvious that the decisions being made are shutting a door on life and walking away? Even actively killing children for self interested gain?

I think it is time to take collective control of our freely given natural resources, and our banks - as Iceland did- and create an economy that respects and cares for the ecology in ways that do no harm, and  as such gives everyone what is needed to live in dignity.

What imaginations would have a woman fear a dog that she had put on a leash? What would become so huge within that she could not face her dog and allow it to die of starvation, a horrible death? What is in her mind has nothing to do with practical physical reality, and our own disbelief tells us that this is so. 

What beliefs are in the minds, the very self direction within making decisions , of our congress men. I mean can they actually really believe that they are somehow different from another man? I mean, just because you can read and write, and do simple math ( because I can’t seriously believe that our congressmen are very good at math) does not mean that a lack of such training ( and it is training - even though most know that when you cut an apple in half you have two halves)  makes one man suffer less than another when not having any food, or any water, or shelter. What we are as humans is a fabric of cells and water, and many other substances. We are organic bodies that require certain things to maintain what we are as this. In this we are all the same. Even dogs and plants and everything of the earth are this. Anything else is a value judgement in accord of a comparison based on a decision to aggrandize one thing over another, and then tout that as being greater, in the face of what is right in front of us, that this earth works because of the different interactions of elements and plants, and animals and their functions. The very fabric of what is here is what holds this together. Thus, the ideas of one thing being more than another and the addictions to these things that are impulsed to be more than another instead of realizing what is here as being functional, is the delusion of men.

So, how does one solve delusion? It is simple, just come back down to earth - if we bring our mental delusions back down to earth, and equalize them to realizing that they are just parts made bigger than life itself, then our little very abusive and destructive humpty-dumpty world will be put back together. So, our little “ heavens” of delusion, that are energetic because they are of lesser dimension and as such a separate reality that must be constantly charged through validation in a game of good verses bad,  must stop. They are meaningless.

So, when someone comes and says “ I can’t” or ‘ I don’t like…” or “ but it is dirty” or “ they have no talent” or “ she is stupid” or “ I can’t bear to take care and face my dog” then know it is not the dog, it is not the other person, it is you, you are lost in your energetic mind of limited values, and that this is a complete lack of responsibility to life. You have in essence rejected life. It is that simple. Why should another suffer because of your separation from life?

It is time to realize what you have accepted and allowed as belief that separates you from life.

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Day 464 Physical Reactions based on Past Events: Separation from Life

There was a goat today that I saw in a video, and this goat was chasing people and butting them, or so the story goes. But, I noticed how this goat followed a woman from behind, ran up to her and stopped just before he got to her. The goat did this a couple of times. Then the woman turned and reacted, moving her arms. At this point the goat began to “ butt” her, and eventually knocked her over.

I was walking my dog and something similar happened. A couple walked towards me, and somehow, I can’t remember this part in detail, we stopped, and the man pet my dog. The woman remained still. My dog became excited with the attention and turned to the woman, as the dog did so, the woman threw up her arms and backed off, and said she did not like dogs. My dog became more excited and moved towards her. I had the dog on a leash so could reign in the dog. But I looked at the woman, and said the dog would not hurt her, and, that when she through up her arms and backed off as she did, the dog took this as her being excited and wanted to “ join in.” The man with her said to me that she was frightened of dogs, but I held my ground, I said my dog was friendly, but did and could get excited and would jump towards a person and be very willing to play. So, a reactive movement with the arms going up would be a signal to the dog. 

As the system stands, this is one of those instances where real “ help” so to speak can be considered rude, because one is not catering to the emotions of another as their ideological/past memory picture show value,  and actually trying to help a person understand that their physical behavior as their fear can lead to the very thing they are fearing. A dog is not going to read the “ inner story from a past event” in another person, and this is a good thing, because that past event is not what is here, thus that past story is not what is real, and as the reaction of the woman towards the dog suggests, my dog is not a dog to fear, and all the behaviors within this whole interaction made it clear that my dog was not an unfriendly dog in any way, so my dog just took reality in, a human standing there, one of which stopped and pet her, and the other who began throwing their arms up and standing back, which looked in the reality of the moment, without emotions and feelings based on past events, like someone that wanted to engage and play. So, in essence who is the fool, the dog or the human? Me think it is the human. 

What is the solution to this emotional storm placed before reality?

It is to, instead of defining ourselves as our past to slow down and look at what is here. And in this instance, to realize that perhaps the reason we were hurt by a dog was because we as humans reacted to a dog without considering physical reality and the judgement we reacted as causing the ensuing reaction that supposes harm, meaning the harm that exists is because we assume harm. That goat and my dog reacted to physical movement. That goat did that woman no harm, it was only when she reacted towards the goat that the goat reacted back, that goat was excited from another person, but did not hurt that woman at first. 

If we take the time to be here, in the moment and look, our past does not need to be lived again and again and we might actually find, for example, that we like playing with dogs, which can be very enjoyable and relaxing.

If all of us as adults have such things, as emotional  self definitions based on past events,  then  how can we expect our children to not become the same? And then when our children carry their own emotions, and these go against our emotions as parents, what happens, do we place our emotions before the children or do we let them go? I mean whose emotions should be more “ real” and thus given priority to? Overall this all means that the emotions can be given up, which means that we need not carry them around. I mean , I can see where this would be used and cause all kinds of miss-understandings. I can see where in family get togethers, the cause of friction is that everyone is wanting their emotions to be the “ real” ones. And meanwhile, living is not what is happening. In essence, we have manifested this as our money system, where some people actually believe that they deserve more money than others, because they actually believe that their “ business” or hard work is more than anothers, as they stand and look at how they have moved words around on paper, or digits around on a screen, as even seeds around on the ground. In the end it is all a movement, here as life. And somehow, we have allowed an idea of something having more significance than reality. And we try and get everyone else to believe this too.

The only solution in all of this is to realize we live in a physical reality, and that it is what is right here, right in front of us, as physical things moving around that we use to sustain us, that we use to keep us warm, and feed us, that is what composes here, that is real. Bringing our past here, wanting ideas about what we did in the past, or what we do being somehow more than what another does is a separation from reality. In all simplicity, we can only be in one place at a time, moving one thing with our hands, so no one person is more than another. And holding onto emotions from the past, or ideas about our endeavors,  is holding onto a movement in the past that has nothing to do with being here and respecting physical existence. We can only be here, and anything of the mind that does not see physical reality here, and respect it/ see it as what it physically is and  within this, allow it to participate and move within physical reality in full participation, is a state of being that is in separation from life.

If we forgive our emotions as our past, and learn to be here, physically here, in common sense of here, what would become of reality? Might we actually begin to enjoy being here and begin to see others, especially, if emotions and feelings as self definitions no longer exist? Would we begin to realize the physical world around us, and work with it instead of ignore it based on ideas and past events being what we allow to occupy our attention in the face of physical reality? If we begin to pay attention to here, then we might have the time to actually look at what is going on in this world and realize that our present system is not working,  this system of emotions and feelings and beliefs being more than the reality here, and needs to change because this present system is not taking care of this earth. And, as we can see, being here, and taking care of what is here as this earth, is really the only thing that is real and that we all only have two hands, thus we as humans must work together as a group to get this done.

The rewards of this are a world where the physical reality is cared for, and understood. Looking at  what has been allowed and accepted as a form as our system, and realizing how much it caters to ideas of one thing being more than another based on some inner value system that bears no witness to life, which is physical as the manifestation of life in expression,  is not serving up respect for that which we are, physical beings ( and that it is the physical that carries the picture show - so the picture show cannot exist without the physical ) . 

TIme to stand up and support the physical, so we can bring the inner picture show of judgement, as a game of association based on past events that in themselves were a reaction to here and take care of what is the value, of which the physical world enables as to be, which is life.

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Day 407 Existential Emotional Soup

I have had this real huge , as my perception goes,  this heavy emotion come up that I have had all my life. I remember walking into this house sale one time, the woman had died and the house was open to sell everything in the house. A yard sale that was everything. I walked in the front door with the person I was with and they immediately turned around and walked out, excused themselves. I was hit with this sense of such chaos, such despair. The house was a mess. Navigating through the house meant walking through tunnels. I was so shocked, even by the gloom, I had to walk through the whole thing. I just stood there in this house , and “ went into it” so to speak, because I wanted to know how such a thing could happen. Like I was trying to read how something, a human, got to this point of such despair and such squalor. The house was in a really nice area, and was, from the exterior, in good shape. At this time I had this reaction of wanting to get away, but also going against this feeling and walking into this. I just kept telling myself the person was dead, so whatever I was sensing ( at that time)  was so extreme I had to investigate.

It was like that after my husband’s death. I was not supposed to go back,but when alone, I did, I had to go into this. In this case, when I went back, there was nothing there, just an attic . In 1999, I was walking down the street in Zurich. I stopped and looked up at the sky. I suddenly felt like the whole fabric of existence changed somehow, in one moment, that everything would be lighter somehow. So, when I went back to the attic, I knew there was not going to be anything there, I had to move against the belief, I could not let the superstition remain, I had to walk into it, and there was nothing there.  Knowing is a like a state of being where there is a sense but no real structure, evident in not being able to place the experience in detail into words.

 Through my life, I have woken up in the morning with this huge heavy weight like thing in me, as me. For years I was terrified of this, and then I began to go into it, only to find that there was nothing there. Is this unclarity, my separation, that comes in measure of sometimes being a concentrated presence and sometimes my action of fear, depending on  how I ‘ wear it” , perceive it, place this as perspective, where this exists because there is a lack of clear definition, meaning perspective?

So, I was up in Boston yesterday, driving around, because I was lost ( thank fully I had Wazs on my iphone!) and I noticed that I was having this same sense of  heaviness which I registered into an idea of ( I am trying to describe it )  existential gloom, meaning existential weight. I have had these dreams where I can’t move, where it is like I am in a thick soup and can’t move because of the soup I am in, sometimes this comes up as a “ web”, but within this “ state of being” personification, it is like a soup, a ubiquitous soup. All kinds of thoughts come up, the closeness of the houses together, the lack of nature, the varying degree of decay of the homes, the ultra polish of some, the overlapping styles of the homes, where the architectural landscape tells a story of the decades through style change where the “ new” style is superimposed in patches around the old. The story from nature, to farms to the Victorian, to the twentieth century beginnings of modernism, and then from each period modifications, additions, creating hodge podge homes and stores. I stop and I look at the whole of this, with all the people walking around, and I get this sense of existential soup, and it is so hard to move in this, it is so heavy. And then, I walk, and buried under a bridge, under pavement, is a stream, so buried, and with the noise of the city, that sound of that water tricking cannot be heard. And yet, still it moves. 

I have always needed to have some nature around, even if it is a tree, because this is like the only escape from this. I actually have had a hard time breathing sometimes in just getting up and facing the world, a world that has to be faced, that has to be walked through. 

Yesterday, as well I had to talk with some costumers, and there was a lot of talk, the woman asked millions of questions, interrupting me. I had to stop and say things again and again, and try not to say things the same way. It began to dawn on me, how the layers of belief, opinion and idea, as the past, as the person, exist, where the nature of the person is as buried as that stream. And, what is layered is as many ideas as styles that have been expressed on the landscape of earth, some in decay, some changed and morphed into something else, some all polished and taken care of. As within so without. And always this sense of knowing without any real structure. So much mirage, this so thin yet determining so much of what we allow ourselves to be.

What is cool about writing things out is I start to see what I am telling myself. lol

Within this day, yesterday I saw more clearly what i am doing, as in pushing this “ bad” away as the judgements as the gloom, and the soup of ideological play based on ideas, beliefs and opinions, the infinite loop of a cult ( occult )soup that is ideological play, where the parts are not good or bad, and where some of the technology aids us in our separation from the physical to the point where to get through this maze, because nature is so buried, life is so buried, what actually sustains us,  we have to rely on  an external tracking device to find our way. I mean,  some dogs  can find their way without any external machine, across thousands of miles. It is that we have become our own lab rats, and we can no longer navigate the self created human maze, we have to rely on as external device to direct us. Somehow, this is really a waste of life, so obvious if we take the time to look. This world is a mess of self accepted and allowed limitations as in lack of accepting life, and plastering this cult, this soup all over this earth, having ideas become bigger than nature, becoming a mirage of shifting ideas, and not actually working with this earth in best practice, thereby not only respecting earth, but working with earth, this being prevention os the best cure. In the end, I would rather be like a dog, and be able to navigate with all of me, no external device needed, because I could sense here, I could sense nature. I mean , we must ask ourselves how this can exist in physical form, this means this can be done! Would this not be a lighter existence? Would this not remove the heaviness of ideological play, so dense in some places that the streams are buried. What must be realized within this, is that we humans, as personalities and characters, are a composition of generational ideologies, built on top of one another, without any real consideration for life. And this to the point where we now have a system that will “ hodge-podge” your past, and build what is needed in the self interest of what controls money, which is all of us as we accept and allow this, as we are the anonymous holding this form of separation, we are the creators of the NSA which does exactly what we do within. This is a structure of separation, as a hierarchy in place through allowance, through conjecture as opinion, belief and idea being more than, and thus not including reality in totality, we are our own occult that through ignorance has become destructive our ourselves as life and this planet.

Hard to believe that this soup of separation is energy, is our own fear of self, is actually a system inferior to life, is as how we compose this soup, this mirage, as the landscape mirrors of idol playing that we were warned against, and that the way out was to bring this back to ourselves, equalize ourselves to the physical, and to do this we had to bring heaven to earth. Hard to fathom, from our state of separation, that we must become like a dog, and stop trying to be god. We have become, in essence, less than a dog ( and yes I am playing with accepted and allowed values) It appears to me that that dog is a much more efficient and sustainable system.

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Day 405 Clyde

My dog from childhood.

I saw a picture of a dog being boiled in water alive last fall and it really got to me. I just could not believe that this existed on earth. And then I remembered that we in  the west boil lobsters alive. So, if we have a big reaction to dogs being boiled alive we need to remember that we are no different. It is only our culture that has decided that a dog is more than a lobster, when both are life and both perform functions in the maintenance of life.

The dog we had when I was a child stopped my mother from spanking me one time. This normally gentle and quiet dog came and growled at my mother in no uncertain terms. It was a sudden change in behavior. And my dog, his name was Clyde, was not going to stand down, he meant it, baring his teeth and growling as he faced my mother. I mean we had been spanked before, but for some reason this time the dog stood up and said, NO!A few years later my parents were traveling and my sisters and i were alone at our summer place. Clyde was with us. We were all in our mid to late teens. Clyde had a tumor on his back that started to grow. There were no adults and we did not have a car, so we did not do anything about the dog and the tumor. Clyde appeared to be normal, he ate and moved around, did not cry. The tumor them opened and flies started to infest the tumor, and suddenly Clyde stopped getting up and lay under this one bush, panting. This went on for a couple of days and then suddenly Clyde was dead.

Normally, when animals die, our pets, we buried them, everyone helping to bury the dog. This time I could not, I could not stop weeping, I could not stop shaking, I was so upset that I was useless. Everytime I think about this I cry. I think I am getting over something and find that I still have a reaction, and with dogs this is the case, I still have a huge reaction to seeing a dog being abused, a dog in pain. If I am in public it takes every ounce of myself to not become the same behavior I had on that day my sisters and I, and our grandmother who lived down the road, buried Clyde.

This photo of this dog in a vat of boiling water, trying desperately to get out, unable to pull itself out because at that point it was in so much suffering and pain it had not the strength to climb out all there was for this dog was the pain, the burning water it was surrounded by with no escape. No human would want this for themselves and humans are as much flesh and blood as a dog, so why do we do to what we are in ignorance that it must be unbearable pain? Why are we allowing pain to this physical earth when we would experience the same exact sensation and not want that?

Having said this, had we taken Clyde to the vet would the tumor had been diminished and removed? Probably not. What might have happened is Clyde would have been sent home and monitored until he appeared to be in pain and then put down. Later as an adult i had an older dog that suddenly had flies laying eggs all over her. The vet came and we could find no indication of anything wrong. I had to carry this big collie in and out of the house because she could barely walk. One night I put her out to eat in the cooler evening air right on the yard right next to the kitchen. I was washing the dishes when there was this commotion on the road. I stopped. My dog had gotten up and walked to the road. The cars had stopped for her - it is a small residential road -  and as she walked she fell under a  stopped pick-up truck ( because she really had a hard time walking ) and the truck ran over her as it started to move again, thinking the dog had passed. Ellie, this dog, died in moments, I managed to get there before the convulsions stopped. I was shocked that she had gotten up and walked, and she had only been a few feet from me. I mean I have window out onto the yard.  What is interesting is that a woman told me a couple of days ago that she had a cat that did the same thing. She knew the cat was not well, and was watching the cat. One night her cat got up, went and lay under the heighbor’s truck. When the neighbor got into the truck and pulled out of the driveway, the cat was run over. THe woman telling me the story said that the cat, as far as she knew, did not have the habit of going to the neighbor’s yard, and had been so ill, had not moved much. My dog Ellie, was basically not moving much, and was being carried around, so did she actually go to the road to fall under a truck with purpose? Even having said this, is this what she wanted or was it simply an act of desperation, knowing her body was no longer functioning and that a solution was not forth coming by humans?

Both of these acts mean that dogs and cats are much more aware than we think. Our judgement that they are not aware is simply an indication of some values being made bigger than others. because a dog does not look a certain way, or have money, or speak knowledge and information without application, means that a dog is less than a human. Because a dog is not making some values bigger than others, means that that dog is less than we are, and therefor can be boiled alive, because it does not have the limited values of a human, means it is not properly feeling life and therefor must not have any feelings. Where does this have any common sense people?

Here, in this world, we have people who place value on a piece of paper, and then greedily take that value and hold onto it to use it to make some values our own through purchasing these values in excess, and then we make this ability to purchase these limited values another value, all in the face of abusing and ignoring this physical world. This is one really messed up, delusional state of being. So, who is more aware, us or that dog? I would say, the dog is more aware than the human. The human is only aware of the game placed on earth of a pyramid scheme that in itself uses limited values as the measure of its worth. And this worth made huge, is destroying this earth. Humans are existing as a limited value system, and thus ignorance. None  of this is acceptable or affective. Our limited value system of how much money a person has, how they look and how educated they are is not taking care of this world.  These limited values are a state of delusion creating an ignorance of life. Our limited values are a state of lack, our minds are the manifestation of our lack, to place it right in our faces so that we see how much we have abdicated life, what is real. And we  are placing value onto a piece of paper and using this to uphold our limited values, ignoring what is real in this process of separation and resistance to reality, the physical and common sense of what works in sustaining this real physical world.

Each of us is doing this within. The singular and thus limited values we hold cannot direct in common sense because they do not include looking at the physical in reality. Thus the ease with which this earth can function is bypassed to serve a lesser god of survival, the outflow of ideas, idols made bigger than life. Meanwhile what is here, as what we are, is a natural ability to take in - we are just selectively taking in limited values - building a inner GPS - with these limited values, to suit an outward system that is the mirror image of what we have accepted within, what is without as this system is the accumulation of ideas made bigger that life, and thus directing us, and thus causing a separation, where we then try and place the idea, as a world system, the melody of each of us, onto this physical world. We are like a program of limited values, limited pictures, and we are only seeing this, and directing ourselves as this, becoming walking whines of constant association making within a limited text.  What the NSA is doing is not different than what each of us as limited beliefs are doing, weaving the past to justify a future, never HERE in fact. The limitations varying by degree, as the levels of word usage and clear understanding each class, as degree, exists as. The perfect system of maintenance for a pyramid scheme. Naturally, whistle blowers will be considered by the grid of this pyramid as being detrimental to this scheme, this limited design, and naturally what the whistle blowers are saying as the outcome of this design is not what is best for all, and is what ends up stagnating and suppressing the ability of each of us as life to be what we are in form and function as life. Thus the pyramid on the horizon as our present system can only see itself, it is lost in a space of limited dimension, warping reality, it is a false idol.  We were told, so there is no one to blame but ourselves.

We have to clean up the within and the without. The within through cleaning up our words and developing the ability to use words, which so many lack. All lack manifests eventually, and instead of pushing it away into prisons and institutions of beating it down , lack must be corrected into self responsibility as life. This means what supports the physical must be given. Therefor giving of earth’s resources must be consistent and constant, as this is what has lasted the test of time, the actual physical world, it is what we all see, it is what is here, it is what is real. Within we must realize our limited values, and how we walk in directives that compare within these limited associations as the very words we speak reveal our limitations, both within what we can describe and the extent of the ambiguity we exist as within understanding - seeing - how what is here actually in fact functions as physical reality. A person cannot be self responsible if they cannot see, and not being able to describe in words what is here, not having the structure within to match the structure without,  limits expression and thus understanding and thus seeing. In so many ways life is so beautifully designed to be life, and yet what we are allowing is really a rejection of life. This is done as judgement, which is what blame and spite is, judgement as it has no directive capacity. We were told to not judge, and here we are bearing the consequences of our judgement as how we are allowing ourselves to inner rest within ourselves as limited values, which is limited development. We are the NSA.

I had to be 14 or 15 when Clyde died, lying there with a huge open tumor on its back, under that bush. Why did I do I wept,  with such self devastation, where I cannot even physically bring myself to pick up the shovel and help dig the whole? I mean, I had  dug a hole before. Interesting that I mistyped whole instead of hole at first. Herein do I see the frustration I existed as, a sense of powerlessness in  “ digging” the whole, in understanding  life, in being able to take a direction to solve the problem of the existence of a tumor in the first place, because , we all know the only real solution is to prevent such outcomes, as they are unacceptable. There is no associative value as a belief that can justify this. Thus there is only the principle of what is best for all.

My weeping was my own frustration, my own inability to really be able to do anything of any real substance. And I did not even have the words to put this into directives that enabled me to stand and look at why this was, and how this needed to change, because I had allowed myself to not look, in a world, as a child, that was not taught to look , to not really look. I was taught to survive, to pay homage to a pyramid scheme on the horizon of a physical earth that gives to support life.

Thus, was I crying for myself, I was crying for myself as life.

It is time for a system change. 

It is time to give up the goating greed of the mark of the beast of separation, of rejection of life, based on fear of loss of an idea that is believed to be more than life, the physical, where the idea is not good or bad, only placed out of contest of physical reality in practice.

Nobody, a no - body as mind, can tell me or anyone else what I/they can know and what I/they cannot know, unless we accept and allowed such ignorance, when the physical world is right here, the gift of life, showing herself/himself as what we are, right in front of us, it is only limited ideas, opinions and beliefs, as what is touted by a system of inequality, to serve what we are all doing, which is accepting and allowing a state of paranoia of unknowing because we, each of us, accepted and allowed an idea to be greater than life, separating ourselves from the nature , as the natural state of life, to give as one would like to receive, to do what is best for all. Had I/we taken the time to investigate, then the prevention of inequality would have been the best cure. 

A lack of full disclosure within the present system is a crime against life. There is nothing that is private, and a system that has access to what every person is saying and doing, and yet, does not fully disclose what it is doing is a form of self interest, blatant self interest. Especially, since this system has not solved the problems within the principle of what is best for all. What is presented is a false general statement as idea only, without any detail as to how such is going to be done. Within this the only choice is to create a system that allows money to circulate to all, as money represents life sustaining resources, and the value created from the labor of men, thus in order for men to labor in full potential, their physical and developmental needs must be a given, absolutely, continuously, within self generative autonomy as what they, we, you, I am as life. Therefor, what sustains as “ righting the human form and function” must be given fluidly as money, as this organizes the distribution of basic needs. Nationalizing the resources will allow this movement, as the costs will only be what enables money to circulate to allow access to basic needs. And thus the price of resources will not be based on competition. This will allow the elite to continue creating products to profit from and remove the never ending game of maintaining a systemic grid that is really the walls of a castle closing in on itself. A Living Income Guarantee will open the castle walls without the loss of the castle itself, and since there will no longer be the need for protection and defense to the extent that it presently exists, there will be more than enough money for the acquired comforts within the castle wall.

I mean,  perhaps there are comforts never imagined because all the top have been doing is living in a state of protection and defense, a stew that just takes longer to cook the flesh into a life never lived, at least perhaps we can show some grace and stop taking the dogs down with us.

Day 327 Orderly with Tulips yet NOT with men?

People talk about dogs as having had obedience training, I have even heard some say that “ that person has not trained that dog”, which means that dogs can be trained, and the dog’s behavior - dogs that are supposedly “less intelligent” then men,- is because the owner has not taken the time to discipline the dog. But then we blame a human for their behaviors! There is obviously a disconnect here in logic. A dog can be trained and the fault is not with the dog but the owner, or , for that matter the dog’s behavior is blamed on the dog having been neglected and/or abused. Why is not the same attitude used within looking at the human being? Obviously, if a human comes from a stable home, they are more likely to succeed, so a human that does not succeed, or is unable to “get a job” and take care of themselves, it becomes the fault of the human. Even plants are looked at for what they lack and what they need, even looking at the soils as what determines the health of the plant. But with humans, this is not practiced. What would make a healthyhuman is not what is sold in the stores, is not what is produced. Is creating an ideology that humans are “more than’ animals a ploy to hide the fact that they are actually the same, needing an environment of support and education to become all that they can be, and that it is the environment that creates the human? The fact that education exists admits that humans can change and develop , thus a lack of education disallows development, real education does develop the human, and that if this is not happening than something is not working within the system, something is not working for the human to be able to become self directed, self honest, self responsible. It is not being given.
This lack of development in the human, makes no sense, especially since we humans have developed a system that can cultivate fields and fields of seemingly identical and supposedly “perfect” tulips. This shows a systemic approach, developed and practically organized to consistently produce something. Yet, with humans, we have a belief that each individual human is to blame for their behavior, so on the one hand we blame the individual, and one the other we create systems to produce a consistent outcome overall. On the one hand we realize steps needed to create consistency and on the other we ignore this. But here is the “twist.”
Because we, as humans, are systemically able to organize what is here and developed what is wanted in an orderly fashion when it preserves the self interest of profit, would mean that the very behavior of the human, as it exists at present is of a systemic design. I mean, there are so many prisoners in the United States that it is now a profitable business, our prisoners are making all the war helmets, and the tax payers are paying for this, and a profit is being made, because these companies that now run the prisons are showing their profits! This would mean that prisoners are created in a systemic way. So, this can be nothing other than profit from abuse, profit from a measured disallowance of potential, which is a suppression of life.
Then we have this “star” quality we have turned into a carrot on a string, turning self development into some magical “state of being” that only a few have, as though we as humans are a hive society. Ironically, there is a place for all expression, but a forced expression, is not freely moving, it needs chains and dictates, and thus an indication that life is not understood.
With this system, we have allowed the “exception to the rule” a “rule” of separation from life, a “rule” of inequality, to be the norm, and the development of a person within self expression to be a special “star” quality, yet with our systems of production we show ourselves that we can organize consistent development. The two are at odds, and one admits the other ability, either being suppressed or allowed development. How does this make any sense?
This would mean that we are rejecting looking at what is here in common sense, and that we are all within limited insight of the actual physical world, choosing to look “here and not there”, it means that our media is selecting values and presenting them, building ideologies that can be deconstructed because they are not considering the life around them in totality. As long as money determines who gets what is for-life-given resources on earth for the profit of a few instead of being used to allow all life to develop as it is meant to function according to its inherent form, what will exist is abuse of life, abuse of the form of life here. No matter what is said in opposition to this, the evidence is everywhere in the destructive behaviors this present system creates.
Life is being completely rejected and then beaten with a stick - so to speak- and those doing the taking in self interest - are a robot of limited belief, limited insight, limited opinions and ideas. As long as we support this system, we, each of us, are to blame. And the solution is to change the system, to realize life as the value, to realize we can only be in one place at a time, and that we as the human being “form” can only deal with what is here right in front of us, thus what do we need to actually live here, in practical application here? What we all want, as life, is to interact here, with what is here, and in order to do this there are physical needs that must be met, and this does not need a huge home within innumerable cars and “stuff” for one person, and it does not need all the war machines we allow to be developed. The war machines are simply a bully stick in brutal suppression of ourselves as life, here. We punish ourselves as life in allowing this. This makes no sense. It reveals a lack in our sense of ourselves as life. And obviously, we know how to create “order” as we show ourselves this within the fact that a system exists!

So, as always, I look to the whole and then bring this back to self, as this starts with myself, as a human. This system is an accumulation of what I have accepted and allowed.
Within myself, in not allowing myself to be vulnerable, in fearing the voice of opposition to life, here and not speaking up in common sense, I become one and equal to the opposition to life, instead of allowing myself as life to speak. One of the things I have written about is that common sense is considered dirty. And as a child, I felt as though I was considered “dirty”, diseased, the bringer of disease. This was simply my parents wanting me to survive within the present system, being inferior to life, being in fear of survival, beating what was needed to survive through humiliation and denigration, which I accepted and allowed, as being a child, there really, as far as I could see within wanting to survive myself, no other place to go. In all common sense, one person cannot change this system, it takes many, just as the armies created to abuse life are composed of many men. And this is even turned into stories by Hollywood of one man being the salvation within some “created” conflict. This in the face of the fact that many many many men covered the beaches of Normandy. I mean really! Time to let go of an illusionary dream of being that movie star-super hero energetic orgasm, it is a sold carrot on a string, and within that carrot is a hook pulling you out of the water of life, taking you from yourself as your self as life. It is a marzipan carrot, it is not real, it is poison.

The solution is a system of equality, realizing the value is life and creating a system that allows all life to be and become , equal and one to and as life, here.

Day 303 Advertising uses the learning capacity of man and abuses it in self interest

Advertising uses the learning capacity of man and abuses it in self interest

We go to school and we learn to see structures of things and then we are tested on these things learned.
Advertising is placing images, as structures all over this world. How many of us can drive down a road and not miss that ad, that symbol running along the side of the road? And even in our homes, there are images flashing by, on products and clothes, on the tv, and the computer. It is incessant, always there, ubiquitous. And we accept it and allow it.
Some have said we are now living in a porn culture. Is this the influence of the pictures we have allowed within our world? How else could this have come to be what we follow?
So, we send our children to school to learn forms and structures to interact within this world. We send our children to use forms. On the one hand we teach this way, and on the other we indoctrinate this way. And, we have become so ignorant of ourselves that we do not even put this together, and realize how much this really influences us, and it is very obvious given how many products are sold in reference to fitting the images advertised. We have come to fit an image and not the very form of ourselves as life in a human physical body. How many men pay attention to a woman who comes for a job interview who does not wear make-up and heels and skirt, in comparison to a woman who looks more like the ads placed all over this world. This is the extent of a lack of really looking at that person in totality and only seeing an idea of what is “more than and/or less than,” a state of judgement based on limited values.
What is lacking is the awareness of the consequence of the building blocks of that image, thus there is no real ability to read that image for what it is, the consequence of form reading of a one dimensional image as picture. And this same thing happens with children in the schools, some are more agile with the material presented and others falter,missing an awareness of the con-sequential building blocks.
Thus they cannot participate and this lack accumulates as they move through school, until this lack overwhelms and they give up.
As, well, there are many very capable people, who do not have those straight perfect white teeth, and the type of figure touted within the advertising media, and even though they are educated, they are somehow not seen, because the employer is transfixed by an idea, an image that could potentially satisfy an addiction, as a energetic reaction, that he really has no understanding of, he/she has no awareness of how this was created, because they cannot “read” themselves as the consequences that lead them to be what they are in totality, as the mind, physical, spirit relationship, this which is used by advertising to corner the desire of the consumer in self interest without any consideration of both the consequences leading to the image/form and/or the consequences of the effects of chasing such an image to both participants involved within the roles adhering to this business of attention grabbing denying the physical and spirit, addressing only the mind with the bling and promise in a picture of limited value.
So, if the ads are influencing our behaviors, consuming us, to the point where we no longer see reality, and cannot even see the ability of a person, as their living expression and ability to conceptually see what is here, because the one fitting an image is all that we see, as we follow the very forms embedded within and as our minds, could this have something to do with the children that have a hard time learning the building blocks as what is presented in schools? Are these children somehow possessed with images and past events that block seeing reality, seeing what is presented?
Is that which is used that which stagnates?
It really is that what we are is simple, and yet so absorbed are we with any number of commerce-cially monopolized metaphysical imagined ideas, beliefs, opinions, past events influenced by this system/form, the words and emotions and feelings and thoughts expressed within these events, creating inner dialogues that come to be what directs each of us, that naturally some have this imagery of chaos, and since there is no understanding taught about this, and yet this is used to teach, we can see that to get this world in order, the nature of ourselves and how we function as mind, physical, spirit relationship needs to be looked at in detail and cleared up. Which means, as obviously how we learn is right in front of us, that there are some that have difficulty means we are not taking the time to look, as we are all lost within imagery, to the point where we no longer see what we are in fact, and again, even though how we are is because of the images we have in front of us. A starting point of compound images, is hiding a step of ourselves, is hiding the building blocks of what we are. How can we become what we are in totality, if we do not know what we are?
Obviously, a child that cannot read, is a child missing a comfortable stance within the building blocks of words, and what blocks this, is what came before, just as that employer cannot see the ability of the person, and only sees the potential employee that fits their image and likeness sexually. And believe me, I have seen the Harem effect playing out in my local public schools. It exists, and if it is here, it is everywhere, just as these ads are everywhere. There may be some employers not caught up in this trap, but they are very very few, very few.
The problem of what is presented within the advertising world is that it does not tell the whole story, it does not reveal the consequences. It does not create an awareness of ourselves, in fact it does the opposite, is uses what we are and enslaves what we are as life, into limited values. The consequences of a system of inequality, as to maintain inequality, are a distorted reality, because, reality as life, would mean clarity within understanding this world, thus the nature of humans is the product of a vieled reality creating an imposed form on society that binds separation from life, that denies the nature of life, as what the human is in fact, a human capable of understanding the building blocks of life, were this what was in fact presented.
So what would the solution to this problem be, how could this distortion be removed? By removing a system of inequality, by removing indirect voting, by removing secondary ideas, beliefs and opinions as what does not start from the very substance as the building block substance that is one and equal in all existent in/on earth. To realize this as the value, as the starting point, to build awareness of self as life instead of this present system of image without consequential understanding of all the parts composing that image. The solution is to support all life, where life as what we are as humans can learn to self direct within understanding of what we are in totality, as how we learn, as how the mind works in tandem with the physical body and the spirit/self of ourselves as life, in detail, here. When we began to realize this in detail, what is placed as pictures on this world, could bring us closer to an understanding of nature, and then perhaps the rewards would lead to a world where nature, the environment becomes the only picture necessary, no lighted screens, no billboards, just oneness and equality with what is here, that is real, that is the physical, which is the gift of life.

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