Day 586 Who am I within the systemic culture of women? Self Forgiveness and Practical Application. Day 1

I have a morality point where I get pissed off when others are commiserating, especially amongst women. I see such as a social expectation where woman gather around and support emotional states, building ties as each carry the needs of the others, or that the connection is something special. I, at the same time, believe that I am not allowed to do this, AND realize to some extent that I do not want to be this, to do this, because it then means that I owe something to someone, or that I am bound emotionally. I allow the perceived bonding as having more value than, say, the issue at hand. I fear that to not continue such “ bondings”  will cause an  abrupt change in support or connection and will cause anger coming at me. So, I avoid getting involved in such things. And then, I fear not having the social connections. Naturally, this causes within me, friction and chaos. the “ if I don’t do this I will lose out with this, and if I do this, I will lose out on that” A real “ damned if you do and damned if you don’t’ polarity, or some might say “ catch twenty two” a  self interest spinning around in my mind.  Allowing such is a separation from practical reality.

I am the same that I complain of, the same that aggravates me. I am thinking only of my own self worth and value based of social structural values being the means of survival before physical reality. This is causing the instability, because it is really only ideas in my mind as self value as idea only. I am not considering the fact that I am a physical beingness on a physical world, a world in creation, a living world. So, the only choice that I have is to do what is best for all.  To actually live here. When I am with a group of woman, and there is some problematic emotional issue being supported, it is to realize that 1. the issue can be resolved. and 2. that it is the solution that is the value, one of which nothing is owed to anyone because the action taken considers the value being life as the physical, as the value is finding a solution that self empowers a person to live in ways that are giving, and as such, have no burdens  of some kind of payment, be it emotional and/or inferenced social obligation as a point on a grid of hierarchy that overall is in separation from practical physical reality. After all, the physical being of myself was here taking in the physical world, before any idea of myself culturally, in any religious terms, or use of language or tradition was impulsed as a program. Before any of these programs, I was a physical living being. This was my starting point, and this is the value. 

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to define myself as a limited value, without referencing the actualized manifestation of creation, as the physical, with every breath.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to fear being against a group of commiserating woman.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to believe that there is some conspiracy going on when I see a group of woman talking, heads leaning in towards one another, which I perceive to be a secret society - so to speak.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not see, realize and understand that yes, perhaps some issue is being resolved and the person being emotional is not prepared to be open, as the idea of a loss, seems huge, when moving into solution often, is a movement where the problem is not nearly as large as one can be lead to believe, thus resolving issues can be a process where the initial action is discussed quietly until it is opened up and resolved.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to react to women talking quietly in a small group, based on a past of belief as having judged experiences into one size fits all, that I have accepted and allowed, of projections that there is a conspiracy against me.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to  believe that the walls of the castle, of emotion are impenetrable, which is believing in conspiracy, as it is a physical and thus practical world.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand that within this, I fear losing some self defining value, which I see within a belief that I am being left out, is myself fearing a loss of standing, to survive, which is a separation from practical reality, thus I am the same as that which I project onto others, and for this I forgive myself.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to believe that there is gain in myself existing as an idea about who and what I am, when I am here, in a physical world, where what supports the physical is known, as proper food, education, shelter and clean water, all of which takes money, as the present system, where it is not money that is “ bad” it is the acceptance and allowance that some deserve more than others, when we are all the same, and development is known, thus as physical existence as life in creation, is the real value and is lived here.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to believe that emotions and feelings define who and what I am here.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to believe that I have a responsibility to become sympathetic to the emotions and feelings of another only, and that my life will be threatened if I do not.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not see, realize and understand that there is sympathy and then there is empathy, where the emotions of another can be understood and then moved into solution, as this is empathy, and as such, just as I have remained in emotions to define me and fought letting them go, I see , realize and understand that sometimes emotional value states are believed to be so real that the process of realizing and sizing emotional states up and aligning them to practical reality, can at times appear to be an emotional storm, as something that rises and falls, and as such, it is to not react to this process of assessment into solution, as this is the way into grounding oneself back into practical reality here, which is an act of self empowerment.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not see, realize and understand how much I have existed in protection and self defense based on limited values that I have allowed to define me.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not see, realize and understand that when I allow a belief that there is conspiracy against me, that I shut myself down, hide within myself , fearing the worst case scenario, as in being eliminated socially, a huge gloom and doom emotional storm, none of which is myself moving into solutions as I exist as a physical beingness , which is the starting point of myself here, and as such, the answers are always right here in front of me, as the value is life, here.

When and as I find myself reacting as in allowing projections of belief, idea and opinion to move within me, as reactions based on a past judgement, I stop and I breathe and I slow myself down, and I at the very least, suspend belief until I investigate and understand the scenario, which means asking questions to build a background, which is the way and the means to create solutions that are best for all, as in empowering within common sense of practical physical reality, here.

When and as I find myself reacting, in a belief that I am inferior to what I have allowed to seem superior, as in having some power that I cannot reach, because my starting point in reaction is already of a belief that I am being eliminated because I was not party to the conversation or activity, I stop and I breath, and I realize that I can have no judgement of what is going on because I have no knowledge of the details of the situation, thus, it is for me to slow down, and investigate to build understanding as this is moving into solutions, and taking the time to assess and apply a practical self empowering application if need be, which I cannot know unless I ask.

When and as I find myself imagining worst case scenarios, I stop and I breathe and I slow myself down, and I become practical here, within and as realizing that I am a physical manifestation of life, and as such a creator, here, thus, I can self empower through considering all life, and respect the physical.

When and as I find myself  fearing the bully of emotion, I stop and I breath, and I see, realize and understand that in my judgement without investigation, based on a past of fearing to lose as ideas of what I am, to fit into a survival system that is in separation from creation, I slow myself down, and I walk in thought, word and deed that which builds understanding of practical reality, as this is what brings myself back down to earth, and grounds myself here, into the simplicity of the principle of what is best for all, of which the physical in sound formation is, to actualize what does no harm and as such is that which is stable and fears not change, which is practically to enjoy that value being life, here.

Day 585 Believing that I Have to Say Something to Prove my Worth. Self Forgiveness

This point of believing that I have to say something.

This came up and it is in my left inner thigh above the knee.

It is like an entity that wants to jump forward, to grab attention, as in allowing myself to remain in the game. Like this is what I am supposed to do to participate in the world and make myself known, and by this I mean even on a small scale, as within a small group or talking with another person.

A memory comes up with a friend who was a pianist, who had played for more years, applied the craft for more years/hours than I had at my craft. So, when I was in her presence I felt that I had to say something. Which means I felt inferior, or was busy judging because I accepted and allowed a stance of inferiority, instead of remaining here, in practical application within common sense. It is know that it takes 10,000 hours to learn to play an instrument, thus learning, becoming aware of something as its shape and form, takes time, takes steps, building understanding, as the actual physical world would be. It is to say, we live in an actual existence, physically manifest. Thus it is to investigate all things and take that which is good, take that which makes sense, as in causing no harm.

This is always, all ways right in front of us. So, to note here, that a physical world that can build cars and transport these cars to all places on this earth, means that we can transport what is needed where it is needed, and we can get the goods and services needed to organize this earth into a functioning unit of life, as this is what it is, because it is a physical order, visible, actual, here.

It makes no sense, that in a country where there is so much land, and so much resource, human and environmental, that there are bathrooms in elementary schools where children do not have the most basic of needs, such as toilet paper. That outside on the fence surrounding the school, there is all the while a large plack, with the name of a corporation boldly advertising their logo, touting a good, but missing the most basic of needs. It is enough to wonder what is being taught in such an environment, with such a capable physical form as that of the human. There is no excuse for any of this, and it is time that it stopped.

That memory, that entity that rose up as  a past self accepted actualized belief in the form of energy with no real sustainability, rising and peaking causing an emotional storm of dis-empowerment lacking all common sense of seeing directly here, this within me as what I had accepted and allowed, an inferior stance because I had not investigated practical reality, and  instead raced to become superior within my bubble of belief in thought, word and deed. This is for me to being back down to reality, to actual physical expression of life, as this is the real life where I exist, as this is the gift to become equal and one to and as life. 

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to become inferior to life.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to compensate as belief within and as my mind as a thought, as an idea that lacked investigation into practical reality, a physical reality, becoming inferior based on an idea to another, because I compared myself to a step in a process way down the line from me, and instead of looking practically at the steps needed to be walked to get to that point of development, I judged myself as inferior, and then tried to compensate to make myself appear superior, and felt that I had to speak up to become of equal measure, an act of ignoring practical reality here.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to compare myself to another, instead of looking at the measure of expression, meaning the steps needed to become aware of something, the practice of becoming aware of something, practically.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to believe that I must always say something, to substantiate myself here, in self interest without reference to life, as what the physical is an expression and means of.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to disqualify practical physical reality.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to rush within myself, in thought and deed of words to create a value for myself where I project in words a more than for myself an order of comparison, which is being competitive, as a belief that I must appear to be a good as or better than another.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not see realize and understand that within this I am in effect creating, but this creation is of a lesser state of being, as it is an act of self interest based on an idea of more, and as such, myself inferior to practical physical life.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to separate myself from here, from actual living, which can only be here, within this breath here, in this moment here, as this is where the practical is walked, to build understanding and an actual practice of common sense.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to fear being less than another, to have allowed this to become greater than life itself, as the physical, where the gift is to walk into awareness of what it means to be physical expression of life.

When and as I find myself wanting to prove that I am not inferior to what is around me, I stop and I breathe, and I slow myself down, to see realize and understand that self awareness means to be equal in understanding to here, in an actual physical expression as what life is in reality.

When and as I find myself beginning to speak out and up from a starting point of self interest based on a value judgement done from comparison within a limited value system, as belief, I stop, I breath , I slow myself down, until I am stable within and as breath here, and I look at the actual living physical reality to see, realize and understand in thought, word and deed, what is best for all, which is to take that which is good and does no harm, as each is me, in another life, thus the only choice is the choice of what is best for all here.

When and as I find myself moving into competition, wanting to move into a more, an energetic movement within and as me, I stop and I breath, and I slow the rush to a morality of more, built of limited values as good and bad, where the bad is what does not define my accepted limited self definition and the good is what I believe creates a value as a self definition, an overall outcome of separation, limited as a narrow focus as mind in relation to actual living expression as what the physical is, here.

When and as I find myself wanting to appear, as words, to be more than that which I have made myself inferior to, I stop and I breath, and I look here at practical reality, to see, realize and understand the practical, common sense steps of what it means to investigate and practice the building of awareness to master something, to know something enough to share the information of it in such a way that each is self empowered to be and reach their full potential, which is supporting life and realizing all resources, including human, as having the value of life, here, where each part realizes the full potential of life within, creating a world that is the actual of best for all.

Day 553 A sound form begins with each of us.

What does it mean to captain, and can humans “ captain” anything else but what they are a their form and function as men?

Look at a captain of a ship, for example. Someone must care for the sails,  another the tiller, another the longitude and the latitude measure. And I am talking about a big ship. One must look to the horizon, as their measure of attention. Not one is more than another, they are each simply focusing on an aspect of running a ship. It is only a value judgement, that one carrying out one task is more than another. And all must learn, must have had the time and space to walk the experience of understanding/ having exposure to that which they attend with understanding.

On another, developmental level, each unit of focus as each man, and each measure of material used, for the ship etc. must be of a condition that is sound, meaning physically cared for from and through the process of inception, that the structure is solid and complete; in utmost capacity. As well, the abstract side as the focus and “ reading” mechanism of the man carrying out the task, which takes a process.

So, what would happen on earth, if our physical materials were all sound, meaning solid and sturdy? And what would happen is the men of earth realized the importance of all parts being equal, and simply being a point of reference, to care with the end outcome being to captain the physical world and all its parts, in ways that each part is a captain in its own right, as a physical form, in space and time, that is working with a group of men, where the collective tasks are because a man cannot do more than one thing at a time, within large endeavors, and must share the focus? If each part were respected for the simplicity of what it is, as a necessary part, there would be no need for a “ captain of industry.” To have such, and to allow “ more”  money to flow to such, having aggrandized such a position of focus, when in essence all such is doing is looking at the horizon, ( and perhaps not, just aligning the parts - which is another task ONLY ) is a value judgement. It is an idea that one is more than another, when in practical physical reality it is not, it is just another aspect of focus.  Would not the belief that one is more than another, or that one alone can make the decision to organize this world really be an impossibility? That we have a system of compound interest, usury, where structurally a belief is allowed that gives a few the ability to hold a form in place that flows what is decided to be the means to exchange material things  and services,  and then with this, to determine the development or lack of development in men despite the ability inherent in the capability of men, as all of the physical when formed in ways that are sound?. 

In many ways, there is a debt of lack, with many men on earth, where so many are never given access to physical development and abstract development, meaning understanding something enough to direct and captain themselves and as such enter those endeavors that happen when men come together and share the  function of the whole- which, actually, is every moment of life.

Also, the aggrandized, fear those in lack becoming aware that everything as life is capable over time of becoming aware, even when slowed down, due to physiologically needing time to take care of weaknesses in physical structure- and here, actually creating with the purpose of slowing down full awareness and capacity within and without as awareness allowance and structural soundness.

All of this, creates a busyness that takes away from what can be a solid and stable function, as life on earth, had it been accepted that no one thing on this earth is more than another, had no value judgements been made and then embedded into a system. This is how hierarchy is built, and it is of limitation, by the nature of it ordering and then having to maintain such order, through limiting access to sound structure, and clear measure of seeing practical reality as the forms that we create and use to captain ourselves as life, here.

Each person, on earth, at this point must forgive the accumulation of a belief that one thing is more than another. We must accept that we have become walking value judgements, in self interest, and stop.

Each person must realize that what we believe is a collection of values, that we are using to define us, where not all is “ bad” but that such values are aspects of what is means to exist as life, and that the order we have accepted over eons of time is one of value accumulation within realizing that awareness of understanding from all perspective is of value in itself . But it is the awareness of here that is the value, and not just becoming aware of something and then labeling oneself as being this value ONLY. And then, within this, placing one person who happens to have an awareness developed as more than another, and then creating a system that holds this value accumulation in place, to make sure that no one takes your inner value away as your awareness. I mean , it is being aware and as such interacting that is the value, so if one part is not respected and allowed development as this, the awareness becomes stagnant and the attention of maintaining a value gained is a stagnating act. I mean, if we were sound within ourselves,  and learned something new, and realized that this learning demanded in itself a mutable ability, then that changeability, that reformation ability, that transformative ability would mean that nothing could be lost, ever, because one can learn, one can transform, one can understand, one can focus, one can learn to captain oneself!  Humanity is really,  being petulant ( ill mannered- ill tempered) and as such immodest as in lacking humility. Petulant comes from petere, which means to aim at, and immodest is not being moderate, is being impudent. Impudent is not giving something respect, which is not focusing in common sense, as an agenda, an aim is allowed, without realizing one is of the same form as another, as life, and that the form must be sound in order for things to function and that nothing can be lost, so there need be no “ aim” because the only real aim is sound formation. Such a small measure of an inner usurious act, can compound over time, this inner wanting to bypass a connection to being in form that needs the total form to move a ship across the water of earth, where the very nature of the substance of self is one that is mutable, able to understand sound formations, within and without, that needs only the process of becoming aware of it, and as such there is no rush, there is only the joy of the being of sound formation. The irony of the illusion as mind as a belief is really one of limitation, and when and if we wake up, this illusion, this separation from life, will be realized the the petulance that it is.

If we look around at this earth, what we see is a stagnation of life to the point where the earth is dying, slowly but surely.  And, the laws being written, are to hold this stagnation in place, because of a value judgement that one part of a machine is more than another that is only a belief. 

But, this happened because each person, every human, had defined themselves as a value, instead of realizing that it was becoming aware of the physical, as sound formation being an expression, as being the value.  A system, as our present money system, is by design a system of lack to prevent awareness, when the solution is to cultivate awareness because awareness is how a respect for life is developed. Awareness of how each part is cared for with respect to the whole, and for each part to be a focus of care, each part must have the ease to express themselves as life.

As we stand now, each part is dealing with behavioral issues of the consequence of suppression of development, getting all jumbled up.  Instead of admission of this, what is presented is an idea - because the hope and “ positive” face value that if a good is touted, everything will even out eventually. But, things can only even out when an action is taken, that gives from the get go, what prevents suppression. The only way to awareness is to cultivate awareness.Practically, a direct democracy would focus us into considering all things as being of value because what happens on earth effects all of us and participating in what is going on directly, as the measure of resource use and movement, needs the insight of every point of the form of life, which is earth. As we can see, a few making decisions, is not working. We must all become equal to and one with what is the from of life, as earth and participate, which means supporting one another to have each become sound within and equal to our world without. It is the only measure, the only balance, the only way..

Because of what has been built as a system, based on value judgements of one thing being more than another, one human being more than another, based on the means to build as money, and the access to what develops awareness and express awareness as words - the secret code only a few have access to- is to flow the means of access to all, which is money at present. Money can be an organizational measure to do what it is presently doing in the opposite way. At present money is monitored to flow to a few, we simply change this unit of measure, and allow money to flow to all, enough so that the basic needs are met, so that each can become aware and slow down in dealing with accepted and allowed, structurally embedded, systems of suppression, which is limitation. Within this, so much fear is removed, and the ability to begin to take care, to captain oneself, as  a part of the machine of life, which is earth, can begin to wake up and become aware, so that each is a captain of industry, the expression of life- to be industrious, a “ formation” of dust that is in an expression of life in an order that is of sound structure in stability, harmony, communication. This is creation, this is life information. This is what we all really enjoy doing, which is giving, forgiving ourselves as life as our sound form, being creators, being captains of creation, stewards of earth.

Day 552 The Limitation of the Conspiracy of Self Interest in Zimbabwe and within Myself

http://truth-out.org/news/item/24051-small-farmers’-loss-of-land-increases-world-hunger

http://twistedsifter.com/2013/08/maps-that-will-help-you-make-sense-of-the-world/

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Indigenisation_and_Economic_Empowerment_Act

http://www.zimbabwesituation.com/news/zimsit_review-of-indigenisation-linked-to-eu-rescue-package/

http://www.iol.co.za/mercury/we-can-learn-from-zim-s-flourishing-farms-1.1508335#.U5PIFiinDao

I noticed an article that pointed out that Zimbabwe had farms that were producing 90% of internal food. I don’t know all the details about every move on the ground in Zimbabwe history, but what I have read from a few posts is that Mugabe distributed the land back to the people, meaning he gave the farms back to Zimbabweans. This has been given a term called Indigenization.

Some are calling this a failure because the immigrants who had come to work on the mass of farm  land owned by a smaller number of people, are now displaced and do not have work. But, the smaller farms that were reallocated to Zimbabweans are becoming productive, and this has taken some time, and even here, as one article pointed out, will improve as the generations learn and work with the land.

In space and time, depending on the view point taken, there are articles that say this new collective of - what just happens to be- the indigenous people ( also another measure)  is not working, as they point out the lack based on an idea of perfection or/and an idea of how what is produced should flow out into the system.

So, a farm in development is not working, meaning instant success and single measure of what should be produced is the association made.

Also, how the money flows, through the people, where when looked at, behind the justification, is an accepted and very limited idea of what a social order should look like.

So, now the local people are busy on these farms, and they are improving their practices, which is what men can and will do given the chance. Sometimes, I think I am lead to believe that only a corporation can improve, and it is as though this is what is touted without being said directly and the irony here, as what is the means of corporate takeover is a politic of calling this democracy when it is not.. But, corporations are men, just as governments are men, so the starting point is that it is men who improve things when given the chance, which means the opportunity and access, and time to develop, as the physical world takes time to change.

And yet this is ignored, and what is not being supported, or has lost because of a restructuring, as in the case with Zimbabwe, is brought forward as a bad, and used to justify the agenda of another, and it is all about getting the money, grabbing the resource and forming it in ways that flow the money, as the value created from the freely given resources, into an idea of social order, where there are those that do not need a decent life, where their basic needs are met, and their ability to develop and understand many aspects of practical physical reality, and that this is the way it should be as an idea is embedded in stone. But this is an idea, this hierarchy, this method of suppression, and in Zimbabwe we can see that if men are given land they will learn to develop it, and begin to produce 90% of the food production within the borders of a country. In many ways, when Syria had a drought and the farmers there in that country that had been producing its own food, being responsible within it’s own home, and then a few having an agenda to grab what was there , using a situation to create conflict to reorder based on an idea of changing the money flow, to really just take more for a few, believing that this was leading, wanting to order the very development of men, when this has proven not to work all over the globe, had it then there would not be starving children, and animals becoming extinct. Controlling the physical world without consideration of all its potential, meaning to limit potential based on an idea, as a picture in the mind, is not a solution.

If men can be placed on the land, and allowed the time to develop that land, they are capable of doing so. This is obvious. The restructuring itself, is not a good or a bad, it is a movement, and unless it is a movement that considers all life, leaving no one behind, then consequences of lack will emerge and as long as money is allowed to determine life, that lack will be used to justify a change, in the interests of greed.

Also, it is interesting that the European banks are there, offering loans, to restructure the land, to correct, as is touted, the imbalances. If more people own the land, and are learning to farm it successfully, then people on the land working with the land works, it need not be in the hands of a few.  It is more about proper food flowing to those in need, than money flowing into the pockets of a few.

So, now the food produced by the nation ( Zimbabwe) exists but the money is not moving into the hands of the politicians, nor the interest payments - which is the usurious practice of moving principle value from Peter to Paul, flowing into the banks who can then and must, create a suppression of life, to build a conflict, to destroy infrastructure, to then create more loans to rebuild, controlling who gets this opportunity to rebuild, in self INTEREST, so that the cycle of interest as principle keeps moving into the controller who then believes themselves to be more than another, and the land is justified to be controlled by what is touted as working, while the liabilities are not carried by the loaner/leader but by the labor. And the labor is what is the capacity in the first place, as this is how and what has formed this earth, as men. These loans perpetuate  into  our present chaos using ideas of one thing being more than another, despite the success of giving people the land to farm and produce food and that given space and time, a human being will discover efficient and effective ways to use the land.

But this is what each of us are doing in our minds, that spinning voice that we have been told to stop. It is because it is a series of associations that are very limited, and because they are limited, cause an imbalance that then runs after ideas made more than practical reality.  And the individual ideas have a “ truth” to them, such as the immigrants that were employed by the colonizers or at present the corporations  ( a new name for the subsequent order, which is  moving into another name of same design, but of more unequal measure)  no longer having jobs, and yet the farm lands are now owned by a larger number of people ( who just happen to be men who’s ancestors had worked on the land before it was colonized under the auspices of improvement - which was improvement for a few - which naturally caused conflict as lack that then lead to uprising arriving at the point Zimbabwe is today, where there are consequences from a previous act , as the workers that were brought in, who are dispossessed yet still remain men,  that no longer have the old format/division systemically to give them some means to life support as having access to money/wages. Suppression of life causes chaos. It is very simple. Those in abundance are simply the other end of the spectrum of suppression, thus we are all responsible, and the crime we allow as this is a crime against life.

And the programs of the politicians remain, each wanting to “ rule” and the corporations are there waiting for the banks to loan with conditions, from an imagined order that has as its god, the flow of money back to Europe or some other continent, touting good ostensibly being done, not noting the collateral damage of the dispossessed that are of the previous order that was not a balanced order that considered all life, and choosing overall to create a system that brought men into contact with the physical, of which men are composed of to exist, and as such are incredibly capable of working with when given the space and the time.

I did something similar on a micro scale towards another person in my immediate environment. They called and told me about an event in their world where they received praise. I immediately related this to myself as said, oh ‘ isn’t that interesting, I had a similar thing happen this week where someone praised me.”  I was creating a relationship to counter a self accepted and allowed self definition of being inferior to them, which means I was feeling lousy,  thinking I was less than because I was not being in the “ limelight” of praise, of gain. If I had slowed down immediately and not reacted with inferiority trying to bring a “ good” forward about myself, I could have learned from the situation  immediately, and expanded my awareness of what it means to interact with people, as this was what this specific instance involved. But this is the point, to bring a truth forward, and align this in ways that expand awareness, and so enable one to balance out what would make one aware of the function of the physical world in practical ways that support all life, that are the measure of what gives all the potential to become aware of that fact that we are physical beings, and that being physical is the way and the means of life. The fractional reservations we exist as as mind, are the separation from life, when allowed to be considered more than physical reality. What exists as mind, is  a part of reality brought forward, and this in itself, shows the incredible capacity of men to imagine aspects of physical reality, that which is what is real, and if realized as such the nature as life, as what we are, to order this the physical in ways that do no harm.  In order for the chaos of limited association making to end, the physical world must be realized to be the measure of life in formation, and worked with as the means to balance ourselves as life, to move in ways that are creative instead of destructive. And the destruction is caused by a constant judgement of how the physical world should look which creates a lack when allowed to be more real than the actual physical. We are all composed of the same substance, the sound of life. This sound, as the physical as life information, must be balanced and aligned in ways that allow the mechanism of the physical to reach its full potential as the innate capacity of what men are, and all that composes the physical formation of life as what life would be in all common sense.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to compare myself to another in protection and self defense, in self interest..

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to believe that I must compete with another and compare myself within and as finding a story as a past event , in and as the imagination construct of and as my mind, to become a definition of and as me.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to believe that the imaginations of others conspire against me.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to become jealous of another, believing myself to be inferior, and reacting within and as using my own conspiration as the story of my past, as the imaginational construct of what I believe myself to be, based on my past that is an accumulation of the measure of a system of hierarchy that began with me, acting in self interest, fearful of changing, transforming, being equal and one with and as the means of life information, which is the physical world.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to order myself in self interest, instead of considering the physical world with every thought, word and deed, realizing that everything that is here is me, and that the state of being of everything that is here, determines my existence, as what I accept and allow persists, unless I stand equal and one within and as the principle of what is best for all here.

When and as I find myself going into comparison, based on inferiority, I stop and I breath, and I look at how what is being said can be aligned within and as what is best for all here.

When and as I find myself wanting to tell my con-spirations to survive, I stop and I breath, and I bring myself here,  realizing that I am an expression of and as life, here.

When and as I find myself having a thought of inferiority I see, realize and understand that this is a belief, as I am using a belief to define me, as a comparison, instead of taking that which is good, that which expands awareness, and praising this as a cool insight.

When and as I find myself believing another to conspire against the value of myself as what I accept and allow of what is presented to me, I stop and I breath and I see realize and understand that what is told, is a series of events, as an insight of the measure of here, and that this measure is a part of reality brought forward, thus not good or bad, but when used as a more than is used as a consequence of time as mind, slowing down a direct access to practical reality in totality, where I need not react, but simply breath, slow down, and equalize within and as the principle of what is best for all.

When and as i find myself reacting to a measure of description of space and time, I stop and I breath, and I see, realize and understand that the conspire, the sequence of events used to describe an action, are simply this, and as such need not be something to compare myself to, define myself as not being equal to, measure myself to as lacking the experience, going into self pity as in believing I have no access to when I am as physical life, here,  and I slow myself down, and I remain here, in breath, walking the principle of equality and oneness, to take that which is good and does no harm, and to give as I would like to receive.

Day 524 Leaving a dog to starve and the American Congress. Time for a change.

http://www.dailymail.co.uk/news/article-2584432/Pet-dog-starved-death-horrific-conditions-trainee-lawyer-specialising-medical-negligence-locked-animal-kitchen-week-went-work.html

Okay, this story really got to me. I wanted to go into statements like “ she should he imprisoned for life.” Or “ she should be tied on a chain and left, without food, I mean she is certainly fat enough.” So, really nasty statements like this. I could even go on. There is no excuse for a grown woman, who holds a degree, to have allowed an animal to suffer like this. 

But, what does this do? Nothing. Does this solve the problem? No. Yet, how could this woman not realize that her dog was trapped on a leash in a kitchen? Why could she not call someone and simply say, look would you go and take this dog? Or, even let the dog go outside, where at least it had some chance of care. No, she left the dog tied up in her ktichen and went and stayed with her mother, for a week. Where else, are we humans so blind to common sense?

Are we blind to an American Congress that earns 174,000$ a year, plus expenses ( and so many being millionaires) while only working 113 days in 2014 while 1/2 of all Americans earn only 25,000$. Obviously, our American Congress is as ignorant, and as blind, and as disrespectful of life as this woman who left a dog to die in her kitchen and went to stay with her mother for a week.

American waters are being polluted, our children are dying from cancers at rates higher than  20 years earlier ( though this has been denied once stated) . The sperm count in our males is down and hidden by changing the accepted ratio of healthy sperm to unviable sperm as a norm. What is the difference here? There is no difference. Both are negligence and abuse of life, a delusional hoping what is inconvenient will somehow go away. It does not just go away, it suffers, horribly.

Such is not the behavior of a leader. I mean look, do you think that this woman is a leader, someone to give responsibility to in any way? Why are we allowing millionaires in a profit based system to make decisions for us, when it is very obvious that the decisions being made are shutting a door on life and walking away? Even actively killing children for self interested gain?

I think it is time to take collective control of our freely given natural resources, and our banks - as Iceland did- and create an economy that respects and cares for the ecology in ways that do no harm, and  as such gives everyone what is needed to live in dignity.

What imaginations would have a woman fear a dog that she had put on a leash? What would become so huge within that she could not face her dog and allow it to die of starvation, a horrible death? What is in her mind has nothing to do with practical physical reality, and our own disbelief tells us that this is so. 

What beliefs are in the minds, the very self direction within making decisions , of our congress men. I mean can they actually really believe that they are somehow different from another man? I mean, just because you can read and write, and do simple math ( because I can’t seriously believe that our congressmen are very good at math) does not mean that a lack of such training ( and it is training - even though most know that when you cut an apple in half you have two halves)  makes one man suffer less than another when not having any food, or any water, or shelter. What we are as humans is a fabric of cells and water, and many other substances. We are organic bodies that require certain things to maintain what we are as this. In this we are all the same. Even dogs and plants and everything of the earth are this. Anything else is a value judgement in accord of a comparison based on a decision to aggrandize one thing over another, and then tout that as being greater, in the face of what is right in front of us, that this earth works because of the different interactions of elements and plants, and animals and their functions. The very fabric of what is here is what holds this together. Thus, the ideas of one thing being more than another and the addictions to these things that are impulsed to be more than another instead of realizing what is here as being functional, is the delusion of men.

So, how does one solve delusion? It is simple, just come back down to earth - if we bring our mental delusions back down to earth, and equalize them to realizing that they are just parts made bigger than life itself, then our little very abusive and destructive humpty-dumpty world will be put back together. So, our little “ heavens” of delusion, that are energetic because they are of lesser dimension and as such a separate reality that must be constantly charged through validation in a game of good verses bad,  must stop. They are meaningless.

So, when someone comes and says “ I can’t” or ‘ I don’t like…” or “ but it is dirty” or “ they have no talent” or “ she is stupid” or “ I can’t bear to take care and face my dog” then know it is not the dog, it is not the other person, it is you, you are lost in your energetic mind of limited values, and that this is a complete lack of responsibility to life. You have in essence rejected life. It is that simple. Why should another suffer because of your separation from life?

It is time to realize what you have accepted and allowed as belief that separates you from life.

Walk the desteni I process lite. Know what you have composed yourself as that is not equal to life.

Listen to the interviews on Eqafe.com to understand your separtion. begin the journey to life to bring an end to others suffering because we work so hard at being ignorant.

Day 520 Self Corrections on Cross Purpose

When and as I find myself believing that something outside of me defines me, I stop and I breath, and I see realize and understand that I am here, that I am on a physical planet, that is creation, and as such is the expression in and as life, and as such nothing can define me, but what i am here, in all common sense.

When and as I find myself becoming uncertain, I stop and I breath, and I slow myself down and I see realize and understand that I can only be what I am here, that nothing defines me but what I accept and allow, thus, the cultural past composed of ideas about the traditions that are not even understood or that no longer fit into what is here, and or were in limitation as a starting point from being one and equal to physical creation, do not define myself here, as what is here, as the physical is what enables the existence of myself here, and as such is life, is how I can be what I am here, so no ideology can define me here but what i am in practical common sense as the physical.

When and as I find myself watching a movie, for example, and have a thought that something is stupid, I stop and I breath, and I bring myself here and I slow myself down, and I realize that anything that has to do  with hierarchy is a separation from practical reality, and as such is based on ideological judgements that believe that one value of what is here is more than another, which makes no sense on an interconnected physical planet.

When and as I find myself being uncertain, I stop and I breath, and I see realize and understand that when I allow myself to accept what is judgement that is a belief in inequality, that has caused suppression and disrespect for the physical as life, I slow myself down, and I simply say, we live on a physical planet, where physical objects move from one place to another and or transforms, of which much is known, that what is here is a structure that can be seen, realized and understood, thus the present economic system makes no sense, and is a crime against life, here.

When and as I find myself not wanting to look here, I stop and I breath and I slow myself down, and I place myself here, I remain vigilant within and as me, to look here, no matter what, with every step, to be in respect of physical existence here, and to realize the ideas of more than and less than as a mind consciousness system cannot define me, unless I accept and allow this.

When and as I find myself reacting towards an idea instead of moving directly into solution, I stop and I breath and I slow myself down, and I see, realize and understand that there is only here.

When and as I find myself becoming loopy, I stop and I breath, and I slow myself down, and I look here, becoming practical without judgement of a physical thing being good or bad, right or wrong, more than or less than, and see realize and understand through thought, word and deed, what is best for all, as in what would be the measure of common sense leading to a self directive capacity within the big and the small, the immediate and the consequential as best as I am able, and within this to see, realize and understand that there is no such thing as a mis-take, and that insight is developed as one moves within and as the magic being life, which is the act of doing within the principle of what is best for all is best for self, here, which behaviorally needs no rush, no desire, want and need for gain, as I remain here, equal and one in respect for and as life, here, stable, constant, facing the fear that is simply a separation from equality and oneness as and with the physical world.

When and as I find myself in friction and conflict , in and as a physical sense within my chest of being at cross purposes with myself and as such with the world that is me in another life, that is all around me as the physical composed of the substance of life, that is the darkness that is the light, I stop and I breath, and i slow myself way down, until I am stable, until I am breathing more at ease, as much as I am able within the process of the journey to life, and I bring myself here, and I look directly as what is physically here, with a vigil that is myself equalizing myself to life, here, and I look at the self accepted belief structures within that are built of ideological beliefs, that I have used to define me, or allow to define me, and I sort them out through self forgiveness and I bring them back to self, and use my self as life, equal and one in common sense of the physical world, and I become the functional purpose as the directive of myself here, as much as I am able, seeing realizing and understanding that I am in effect placing myself within the measure of what is best for all, to no longer allow myself to divide from myself as life.

When and as I find myself facing a cross purpose, as ideological friction and conflict of oneness and equality, as a fear of loss as an ideal, or a desire for gain as a want, need and desire, as a projection as a belief that has been allowed to define, I stop and I breath, and I slow myself down, and I take in an understanding of the cross purpose, until I understand the measure of uncertainty, instability, lack of structural purpose/ functional purpose and I walk, as much as I am able, and breath, aligning myself with the silence, to hear and listen and apply common sense to diverge into a self directive functional purpose within the principle of what is best for all, here.

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