Day 143 Security

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I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to want security, not realizing that in wanting this security I am in separation from myself as life, here, as being life is the security, is the value, as what i am, yet within a system that does not value life, and values commodities and the grabbing of freely given resources in self interest, life is ignored and placed within servitude to a false secondary god, blind to this false self glorification, that is itself made of the substance of life, and cannot exist without this as what it is, thus has a false god been worshipped, a totem made in separation from what is the value, the gift given, which is life.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand that my anxiety is a desire to be secure, an action of myself believing something can be lost, when what will be lost is what is not real, what has not been valued, which is life, as what I am, as what all that is here is the very substance of, made secondary to ownership of resource, and thus diminished into servitude to the glorification of object as primary, when what is real, what is absolute is the very substance of what is here, that is what all that is here is, which is life, being alive, thus all judgements are limitations and of no direction, supporting and directing that which is the value , which is life, here.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand that in not allowing what is here to express itself as the form of itself, is to deny life, to fear losing one;s position within a hierarchy that idolizes a false god, as the commodity, the object, the ownership is to continue the denial of life, as this is what is real , as this is the constant, where the object and the resource change form and never remain the same, thus the value is being, is life, thus this is what is primary, as what is the same within all that is here, thus all there is, is to be forgiving of oneself in and as life, here.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand that being life is about being forgiving of oneself in and as life.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand how much idolatry I allow and accept myself to exist as, where I am so busy in worship that I no longer see what is primary, which is life/being and instead I see the heresy and the object, where I have been lead to believe that one object is more than another, when this is myself no longer able to see life, as I no longer am able to see what is the real value, which is life. thus my own judgements are indicative of my separation from life, and my idol worship, and I was warned not to worship a false god, as this would lead to division and war, abuse and neglect of life, which is exactly what is manifest on this earth, where many are staving, many are existing in diminished health, in lack of self development in and as life, where the very state of this earth, as the gift of life, has been misused, and slowly moves towards extinction, as we see with so many of the animals that are here, where we have become so separated from life, that we, the human, will leave a dog in a cage and forget about that dog, allow it to starve and live a horrible existence because we can no longer see what is the value, which is life, thus we are all equally responsible for what exists on this earth, as each of us  fears to stand up as ourselves as life here, not realizing that this must be done and that it is the only way out, each and every one of us must stand and realize the primary value is life, and thus life must be supported as all as one as equal, and what will be given is what is the gift, as life, where earth will become heaven on earth.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand that there is only forgiveness.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand that there is no security among idol worshippers.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand that the worship of an idol, be it an obsession with a desire, or possession, will consume the worshipper , as this is an act of war against life, which s exactly what exists on this earth today, where more money is spent on war than on life.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand that this behavior of pathological destruction  is the outcome of separation from life.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand that administrators are so caught up in their making of money, and so departmentalized that when they discover a problem they go to another department and hear what they want to hear, and do not actually go and investigate for themselves, because if they were to, they would find the unacceptable and then have to report this, and that would mean the end of their jobs, thus the only solution is to stand and change this world into a system that supports all life, which can be done from a desk, through supporting through democratic means, standing up and voting for  an equal money system, to start organizing this world into a system that supports all life, where life is the value, instead of a false god.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand that there are penis worshippers, who would rather march to have the foreskin of a penis cut off, and thus within this act be so consumed with a piece of skin on a penis that comes before the consideration of children being forcibly taken and made to work on chocolate plantations in the Ivory Coast, where they receive no education and are left without any means of self development, and this is placed second to a belief that a piece of skin on a penis should  be taken off. 

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand how jerking off to a picture of a naked lady is , be it a memory in the mind, or a picture, is the worship of a false idol, as this is separation from what is here, life.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand that buying sex from a child, is forcing a life into one’s own idol worship and is not self being and respecting self as life, or life in general, as the respect of that child as life is ignored, with no consideration of the potential of that child as life, thus self as life is non existent, and self as life is responsible for self as life, as this is the only way to become life, to stand as self as life , here.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand that within such an existence there is no security, as the separation from what is the value, from what is real, obviously leads to behaviors that consume as they never lead to the autonomous expression of life, which is the meaning of worshipping a false idol/god as one is not forgiving life, as this is the value.

I commit myself to realizing that to worry about security in a world of false worship is like trying to find a safe haven in a world overrun with zombies, just as we tell ourselves in the movies and shows we create, as we all know what we are doing, yet we want someone else to stand up and take care of this for us.

I commit myself to seeing, realizing and understanding the common sense of the need to change the world into and as a system of equality, where life is supported as the value, and thus will life become existence on earth, as what is supported is what is experienced, and right now with the growing number of homeless in America, life is not what is being lived, but fear, and homelessness,, insecurity and the growing profits for the few.

I commit myself to seeing , realizing and understanding that the growing number of suicides within men in our society, is indicative of hopelessness within a system of economic slavery known as debt, where in order to stop this, all debt must be forgiven and freely given resource must be distributed to support life as there is enough on this earth to support life, all that need be done is for many to stand and say stop, the value is life, and thus all life on this planet must be supported as life is the value.

I commit myself to realize that all that can be done is to walk what is necessary to support life, and this means the creations of a system that  values life, and thus supports life, equal and one, in plant, animal and human, soil, water and air, and the solution of an equal money system, where the earth has the technology to organize this into and as what is existent here in fact.

I commit myself to seeing, realizing and understanding that the voices in my mind, are the sounds of my separation the impressions accepted and allowed within a system of inequality, as what has been taught to enslave life expression to the worship of a false idol/image/idea as self fears standing up as self as life within common sense, this that we all know, yet unless we walk self forgiveness, to remove the resonant design, embedded within the very waters of our human physical bodies, the voices in our heads, and the obsessions of our desires will become all that we are, and take over the physical and we will, as has been happening, suddenly begin to eat the face of another human, physically manifesting what we have allowed within and as ourselves, to allow the worship of false idols to become demons that possess us, when all that has  happened is our lying and deceit is consuming us and taking over, thus will our own accepted and allowed personas of survival, characters of self interest, burn what is left of our human physical bodies.

I commit myself to investigate the desteni I process and an equal money system, to change this world to heaven on earth, where the value is life.

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Day !37 Is not heresay/heresy a sin?

Day 137 Is not heresay/heresy a sin?

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not see, realize and understand that the way in which we are taught is based on ideas, beliefs and opinions based on heresy, passed down through for-fathers and mothers, like a game of telephone, where the message becomes less than the original message in tandem with no actual self physical experience equal and one to what is real, this physical world.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to  see, realize and understand that I am a composition of heresy, as what i have been told I should exist as, as a presentation to fit into a system of inequality to survive within a system of profit that has failed as it is not supporting life.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand that I am resonant with story telling, as heresy/hearsay, and thus have never been taught to actually work one and equal to and as what is here as the substance of life that is one and equal as what we/I are/am as life here, with out the “say” as the only experience with what is here.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand that I was forced to accept this, as a child, where the consequences of not accepting this meant punishment, as the heresay had become all that was known, becoming what was believed to be real, instead of actual physical interaction with this physical world.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand that I fear death, as I fear time running out, where I know I am a walking heresay, trying to utilize this heresay to express myself and survive, yet this here-say has no substance, and the here-say as itself only want a match to support itself as its persona of story/character construction in separation from what is real, actual, physical here, where what has been made huge is the telling of the heresy/heresay/hearsay and not the actual common sense of my self as a human physical body, that which is real or sex would not be such a huge drive in men, as this has also been clouded with heresy as image as idea, as picture porn show in separation of physical common sense as life, like the way in which animals just simply enjoy themselves physically.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand that as long as I allow this to direct me, my life will have no substantive expression as life.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand that I fear rejection in becoming here without the say, as the say, as belief, opinion and idea,  takes care of the act of myself as life and not the here, as is so evident within the present system of capitalism as profit, as a division and conquer of what support a few in existential heresay/hearsay/heresy physical comfort, and not the life substance, the actual physical world, as what is real, as what is the value, here.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to feel sad that this exists, that what is so obvious is ignored.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand that more than likely, it will be impossible for life to be birthed into, as what it already is, this physical world, as the heresy has become so huge it has consumed the human, and thus is the human merely a parasite on existence, which is laughable because the human believes itself to be superior to nature, when it is in fact the exact opposite.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand that to clear myself of this heresy I must stop and slow myself down and breath, and apply common sense of this physical world to all the hearsay / heresy that I have accepted and allowed in separation from myself as life as my human physical body in common sense with what is actually physically here.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to not see, realize and understand that there is really no hope for man kind, as mankind has become so ignorant of this physical reality that he is indeed what he makes movies about, a walking zombie whose only action is that of destruction, where at least this walking zombie kills itself and the birds and the bees seem to keep going in the background.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to feel angry about this, and sad.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not see, realize and understand that my heresy self seeks attention, that my heresy self seeks validation, that my heresy self exists only within relationships to other walking zombies of heresy.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to feel sad about all of this, as this sadness is a judgement, and not myself here, as being this judgement despite the odds will do nothing to change these odds, as all there is is to walk one and equal to this physical world.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand that I feel like I have been kicking and screaming in and as myself for so long, that I have been trying to scratch my way out of a coffin, that I fear never being able to get out of this coffin whose form and design I cannot fathom, or believed I could not fathom, and I fear the very constrictions I have accepted and allowed, that just as i drive in my car and fear having an accident, where it feels like I feel that I cannot see, I cannot hear, I will not see what is coming towards me from the other lane.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand that all I can be is here, where within common sense I am here, and not as some emotion, thought or feeling based on belief, opinion and idea composing an alternate reality picture of fear of loss superimposed on what is freely giving here as this earth, manifest as a profit based system ( I wrote eyetem!)  that places monetary value on (eye) items instead of supporting what is actually physically here as the value as life.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand that instead of moving automatically here, with what is real, I have accepted and allowed a persona/character to develop equal and one to itemized values of property signifying ownership and thus survival, where the schmuck possession is the survival eyetem totem of worship and not the substance of what is freely given here as life, one and equal to myself here, expressing itself as life, this that has been told to man, to not worship as a false god, as no totems are needed, as what is here is the real say/expression as life, the physical.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting a supernatural coffin of energy as directive creating uncertainty and fear to exist, as this supernatural directive has no value or substance.

I commit myself to slowing down, to breathing here, to taking in what is here as one and equal to me, and within this supporting what is here, where any reaction energetically , as emotionally or within feeling, as compounded thought to what is here is a judgment and a fear of loss, a fear of survival.

I commit myself to letting go of characters of blame, and shame, to a persona of ideas  that support a limited idea if what it is that I am, where , yes I am a woman, and a human, and as this my responsibility is to include all that is here manifest on this earth, where i cannot judge any form of what is here, as this is a composition of life, and it is only myself within a limited resonant design that disallows equal consideration for all that is here, through the placement of value judgments on property instead of what is the composition of said property, which is life, one and equal in and as all forms within this existence.

I commit myself to no longer commit to a system of separation through aggrandizement of what can be conquered and divided to allow a few to control eyetems for self interested survival, as this requires separation from life in expression here.

I commit myself to directing myself in common sense of my equality to and as life here, realizing that moving within and as fear is simply a lack of communication and understanding of life in totality, that the only choice is to breath and move within common sense directing within and as this within the principle of equality and oneness.

I commit myself to remaining in and as breath, to hear, to see, to sense what is physically here, to hear here, and forgive the say, as the dictate of a belief of a system that has not supported life, and has in fact failed to support life, evident in the rampart of abuse as the pyramid of separation of an imposed hierarchy of more than and less than called capitalism, or any centralized regime  as all have been ignorant of life support as what has existed is within the say of self survival interest.

I commit myself to physically feel what is physically here and to no longer fear myself as life, to bring all of myself here as life, forgiving the say of eyetem value as self definition.

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