Day 500 Addressing the Paranormal: Our Cognitive Maps

Addressing the Para-Normal, our cognitive maps.

In my life I have encountered entities floating in the air, voices coming out of a white light, neon crystals floating above my head, bluish neon lights in front of the eyes of children as they spoke  as though they were reading but did not read the actual words on the page in front of them.

I don’t know where this comes from, the only thing I can think of, is that i have studied music for a long time. I mean, the study of a musical instrument demands looking at subtle movement, and concentration on the form to shape it. I have mastered this on some level, which I realize could even be greater than the levels I reached.

I also have a history in my family of seeing paranormal events, namely my father. My mother completely ignores this. I really could only talk about it with my father. And he has told me of other members of the family on his side that also has some of these abilities, and interestingly enough, this side of the family was heavily involved in music. 

Before I found desteni, I was working with children. I had taught children violin and knew that point where a stable understanding of the instrument, an awareness of the instrument, got to a point where that child could then focus on what was played to begin to shape it and form it, without being overwhelmed with the physical mechanics of the instrument.  They had accumulated enough understanding of the structure of the total to self direct. Unfortunately, at this point they would often stop playing. Usually this was the preteen years. I think of some recent films where the behaviors of animals change once reproduction desires step forward. Somehow, all control is lost, and focus on this becomes bigger than actual self development. And it is self development that leads to greater stability in the long run. That a child walks from a growing self directive capacity into all the trappings of how to look, becoming more focused on how they look to match what is a commercialized idea of how we should look, is an unbalance that is disruptive of a development in overall focus of our capacity.

But, if we look at what we are allowing to be impulsed in the media, which effects all of us, and has for generations, then we can begin to understand that our cognitive maps are  unbalanced. And we know that we develop an inner map because we all have memories swimming around in our minds. So, the images in and as our minds are a paranormal existence and this is so, because when our children are born they have no language, no religion, no education. They become the measure of what the collective allows, as all the divisions of value measure that defines behaviors and personas expressed in the various cultures and belief systems around the world. We all know this to be true, because it is considered a value to travel and expose oneself to other cultures, to realize more subtle ways of measuring things, meaning looking at things, which overall creates a deeper awareness, that leads to more capacity in communication, more flexibility. All of which begs the question as to why, if our awareness can expand, this is not granted and purposely given to all children and humans as men on earth. 

If we look at the economic web, and the resource extraction  and development web, we can see that it is a system of measure, as division as the resources into goods and services and the transfer of these values into money. The transfer of the values created into money have created a para-normal existence, which divides opportunity for men to become aware as in being exposed to the abundance of expressive capacity of the human via direct interaction with the total of what they are doing, why they are doing it, and the effects of what they do. 

If the manifestation of division into limited scenarios of exposure goes on the some generations, this begins to generate its own limitation, as that limitation becomes the para-normal picture, as a cognitive map within that human as the memories of previous generations as what was lived becomes the model for the child.. 

If children do not have the opportunity to place their sensibility into an awareness of the structure of here, as in our world in total, as if this world were an instrument, no different than a violin, and another behavior is impulsed out of balance, because it is a commodity in a system where money has been allowed unbalanced division and that idea/image impulsing was a limited depth perception, this would become the directive of the child. And, that paranormal ability of men, as memory builders who build cognitive maps, made larger than the norm, as the physical vehicle, could be used to hold a division from that norm, as the physical, to allow a diversion ( interesting, di-version) from what is real, because it is only what is real that can be used to create, which is the physical earth. it is only what is real that can be used to create excess for a few, because that paranormal map, is not what is real. That paranormal map can warp the map reader’s directive, render the instrument out of normal order, for an idea of a more than, that is only an idea, and as that idea, it limits a fully sensual interaction as life. In this way, what is right in front of us, that is normalcy, that is the ultimate fulfillment, as the norm is being life, the vehicle of life, is the physical. In other words, there is no real peace on earth until our cognitive maps are equal to the physical reality. Being equal to physical reality means moving ourselves in ways that create a mean that does no harm to any living thing. This “ mean” can only be a mean of equality. There is no other way. And this “ mean” is of an awareness that is so much greater than any paranormal picture could ever possible be.

Our cognitive maps must be concretely grounded with physical reality. This means building an understanding of how our present system moves in every division within every child and that this is the responsibility of each of us. This means that no one adult can expect another adult and the collective of adults within the systems of this present paranormal existence made bigger than the physical as what has been accepted and allowed,  abdicate looking at how the child is developing and actively participating within that development. Thus, the real responsibility of  everyone, which is the same as saying not one parent can expect any other person to direct their child. It only works with total focus and involvement of the parent. And as we have allowed a paranormal existence for generations, to get ourselves/our children out of this, to normalize their awareness and thus build their self directive capacity, will take efforts beyond what the present system offers. But this is already known, were it not, then there would not be tutors, and private music lessons, and very expensive private schools. In our created world, either one has the skill and teaches this to the child, or one pays another to do this, and the costs of this are great, because that person teaching the skill beyond the lowest common denominator required by the general education as what a public school can afford,  is worth its weight in gold - so to speak - because it is understood on many levels what we are allowing, and that the way out of the limitation within the present system is so valuable that the costs of really developing a child, more than pay for themselves in the long run. A child that is more aware, whose cognitive map is more equal in understanding and able to read the subtle values of division that build the separations and abstracts this into a whole, has a much greater chance of survival, is more stable, and can stand and  become that which would begin to balance out the whole. Of course, conversely, the suppression of this natural ability would eliminate competition.  Those that have maps that are also of limitation, that have an impulsed directive that is a belief that they are more, are also in separation from realizing the value being life, and the means of this being that all have  in essence been following what is a para-normal cognitive map that is unequal with the physical world. The physical world is what is life. The physical world is what is normal. The physical world is creation, it is what we accept and allow. As we can see, what we are allowing is destroying it.

In the end, the only way out is that each become self responsible.  It is self in abdication of normalcy ( which is the real abundance)  in not being involved and aware in every detail, which simply means looking at the physical, and the accepted systems of not having looked directly and instead using a paranormal map, that has caused the present system. And the present paranormal fabric in place as a directive can only be equalized to what is real as the physical, from every point holding the separation in place, and that is each and every one of us.

It is not as difficult as one might think, and the step of becoming self responsible, is what alleviates the burden of limitation, because it is the limitation that each is trying to make real that is self in a stagnant sludge of heavy impossibility that on one dimension is a layer of neon lights that can be seen if one really looks, that clogs the free flow gift of life - as a common sense to here- that is that inner map imitating the limited values impulsed as ideals of more than creating judgement of less than and behaviors of comparison and competition instead of being forgiving and thus thankful/grateful of self as life. The irony is that it is in equality and oneness, being equal to the structure of the physical object as this earth, that exists the real expression of self as life, which has no sense of burden, no weight, no heaviness in the body,  no bitter after taste, no separation from the ability of each of us to become equal and one in understanding one another and the existence of earth as the value being life, here. The structure must be one of equality with the physical. This means democratic movement, at every point with every person, on the ground directly. This means one vote, for every person, within the choices made for the use of the natural resources given freely as earth, because it is the physical that allows the expression of life.

In all, it is to stand equal and one with that para-normal cognitive map, and to realize it is composed of energy that can be brought back to what sustains self as life, of sound mind. As this, this wall is flexible, not stable as reality, not clear, yet visible because its lack of stability is transparent. The sense of joy, is the movement of self, realizing that one is not alone, because one is all one as the substance of self as life, considering and respecting all life, as being self, and that this is the value.

Our para-normal cognitive maps are a mind consciousness system that is formed using limited values, structured as hierarchy, dividing insight from form and function of the physical in common sense, which is the self that built the map, that is self as sound. It is time to build as sound mind, that is self in equality and oneness with and as life, as what self is, equal and one to the physical.

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Day 426 Hierarchy, a nipple/welfare for the few.

Misinformation is everywhere,  even within WIKI is a personification that private ownership and sometimes even collective ownership are responsible for efficiency. This makes no sense, as efficiency, that action on the ground that is what functions using what is available with maximum benefit and output has nothing to do with private ownership or collective enterprise. What is efficient, as the system now moves, costs money, whether that money flows through a signature head of one, or a group, has nothing to do with that physical act. So, this use of one form of division in opposition to another is simply an equation used for justification of self interested gain, manipulated according to a sequence of ideology to divide to conquer for profit. 

Layers of currency exchange, layers of food pricing, layers of forced agricultural practice, all bound to profit before life, as profit is allowed to determine any move made, sidestepping what is known to be efficient. It is almost like best practices are not allowed because this creates too much autonomy, and autonomy is an enemy of a profit based system. A chain of dependency must always be attached, a tube that sucks up the value in self interest, this tube leading up to the nipple at the top of this hierarchy where a few suck extravagantly off the welfare of earth. Earth is life given to support all life, as it is only a signature of a few that we all accept and allow to believe that what is here can be owned, when what is here is to “ own” understanding of physical reality in form and function, to enjoy life, to enjoy physical existence, to be life, as this is the real value.

What we are creating within a consumerist market ethos, wastes resources, as ideas of self, a personifications determining advancement, are what drives us, as this is what we have allowed as a false god, this signature of survival, not realizing that the physical is actually what is real. Limitation of expression within this, wastes efficient use of resource to be used directly within best practice. Instead cheap products to play dress up change with the seasons to keep followers of survivalism inline with a grid of limited values that compose hierarchy of deception as belief of more than and less than. Thus, instead of creating products that are efficient - that last- products that consume attention away from common sense are developed, creating a perpetual need that serves facade and not a self in totality being equal to here. A huge scam of attention deficit disorder, that does not even see the nipple of hierarchy sucking away at our accepted and allowed ignorance. It really is delusional, and easy to understand if one simply takes the time to look, and time is running out, as this earth is beginning to become so toxic, as the water that circulates eventually brings all that is placed within it to every part of the earth. So, all those “ insignificant differences” or “ no significant difference”  touted as a smoke screen to justify profit based practices hiding behind limited research that is a “ trade secret” have an accumulative effect. I mean “ water torture” is very effective. We deny  one reality in one situation and allow it in another, depending on where it serves our self interest. Ironic, that we can see form and function and yet we allow limitation within our innate common sense, The problem is that if we allow ourselves to continue this ignorance of what is best for all, that which is the value, which is life, will eventually extinguish, as limited practice consumes physical existence until there is nothing left, as what maintains a balance that sustains the substance of life in equilibrium is not the choice made, this that is the only choice.

Each human, every single one one earth, must become the living word, as being equal in understanding with physical reality. Thus, each human must be educated with understanding here, as how what is here is not some magical thing happening that cannot be understood but is clear and direct in how it supports life as it is life. Anything other than this is criminal, and anything other than this will simply not work. The physical world is demanding acknowledgement. And this is easy to see with the disease prevalent today, our practices are not what is best for all. Nothing else is going to work. Get over it and get on with it. If one begins to understand this then becomes the only choice. I am sure that many soldiers, those on the front of direct abuse being done in self interest, see this fact. Fortunately, many of these soldiers are standing up. And what do those sucking on the nipple do, they withhold promised benefits, because money has been allowed to determine life, and so, withholding benefits withholds life, and the voice of realization cannot stand. So, incredibly criminal and so not cool.

The solution is to realize that in history, one standing up will lead to that one being crucified. Christ was the voice of equality, and he was lynched, just as southern blacks have been lynched because they pose a threat to local whites within survival. Christ was a threat to the status quo of a program of usurious practice in temples of supposed worship. Thus, a group must stand absolutely within and as what is best for all, create a systemic form of equality to move into, and stand. Blaming the existing form will only cause a reaction of protection and defense with the nipple worshippers as they fear  to lose what they believe to be their life blood.  And, the toxic piss of this is reigning down on all of us. Pun intended.

Support a system that supports life, realizing the only choice is what is best for all, realizing that efficiency  is efficiency, a cup is a cup, and is not determined by private or collective ownership. The hands of men move what is here, in this we are all equal, secondary to this is how we dress, what colors we prefer, what hairstyle we prefer, what tastes we prefer, all these qualities are here, available to experience, thus it is to allow the variety, so that where ever we walk we can experience this in full expression, enjoying our differences. What must be realized is that we are all men capable of so much. Our traditions are not good or bad, only so when we cling to them as an only way, when what we are doing is fearing for our own survival instead of enjoying life. Life is meant to be enjoyed. And it can only be enjoyed when all men are educated and properly supported as what they are as physical beings, the physical being what is real.

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Day 295 Rebellion, Protest is Not Practical Change

Rebellion, Protest.
Any entity, voice or suggestion of rebellion, protest, or petition will not change what is unacceptable as it is not an act of change, it is an act of complaint, blame and spite. Huge crowds of people standing before a government building screaming “woe is me” is not an action that manifests change. It is asking the cause of the abuse to change, and since the cause of the abuse, the limiting laws and actions that bring the frustration and lack are what has been placed into practice, is the very from as government and system created by the people, this is like asking the people who have power -power that was given within a system of inequality, where money determines food and shelter needed to live in dignity - to represent existence and not grab more for themselves, that do not realize what they are as the mind, as consciousness functions, to stop and give up what they believe as the only way they are going to survive. And they do not, had they, this world would be different.
To have created a system where systems take care of each of us, instead of standing within and as our own common sense power as life, is to have abdicated ourselves as life, because we stopped moving as life, stopped looking at life, stop being life. Thus blame and spite for what exists, directed towards a governing body that is acting in self interest is not going to bring about any change. All this will accomplish is a tightening of control, where those in positions of power will hold onto that power without any consideration for anything else but themselves.
I think of facing a school committee here. Our schools are public corporations, created by the people for the people to ensure that what is for the common good comes before profit, which means, since profit is here as inequality monetarily, that it is acknowledged that profit through money is what exists as this system, and yet the governing body as the elected executives that represent the people as the enactment of what is for the common good: this is the school committee, have taken on the responsibility for the people, the people within the community having a responsibility to stand and to share any new technologies with the executives as the school committee that have stood to represent the public corporation as the schools, within practices that are for the common good of the people, to ensure that profit ONLY is not what is practiced.
What is interesting, in my local school committee is that most of the committee is composed of educators within the system and ex-educators. There are very few people in the committee who are not within or have not been within the public school educational system. ( Sound like the swinging doors of Congress and BIG business?)
So, as a citizen, it is my responsibility to present what I have discovered with my local public corporation.
But this is blocked. One reason is that the committee is so overloaded with paper work that they know nothing else, anything outside of the paper work agenda seems too much, as the paper work needs to be completed.
Another issue, is that this system believes itself to be the ONLY source of knowledge, anyone coming in and suggesting something else from without the system, is considered a threat to the “ego” of the system, as in the system not having done what this system represents, and this system does not want to lose its status for fear of losing its profit. All the personnel on the school have come and offered their services as something they are selling, their skills, and it is up to the school committee to realize which skilled people to place with the public corporation, for which they give a salary to, as the school personnel are “profiting” from their services, and thus this is not profit ONLY, yet since money is needed to survive they must receive some profit, or they will not be able to place food on the table and a roof over their heads.
Within this scenario, anything that suggests that their services can be improved is to suggest that they need improvement, and this would mean changing, and this might mean losing their profit/salary, which means losing their ability to place food on the table.
So, collectively this school personnel “group” are going to ensure that they remain with their power, as each is in fear of losing their profit. This fear is so big that common sense is secondary, and thus clouded.
It is always about money, so the reverse is actually what is lived within the order of the law presented. The profit ONLY is reality an the movement within sharing and living, what is for the common good is second. This is life in reverse.
What I find amazing - and this is an emotional blame/spite reaction within and as me. which I have to work on, is that many of the “educated” members of my community complain about how my local schools are ineffective, and yet the school administration blabbers on about how they are doing a good job, that they “believe they are doing a good job”, the best job they can. So, there is a difference of opinion, and when someone stands up and questions this, they are immediately shut down and considered negative.
Reminds me when my husband was about to commit suicide. I called his male friends, thinking that they would be able to say what i was trying to say in a way that would reach my husband. I even called his family and his boss, and all that happened was that I was considered to be paranoid, negative. In the end he killed himself. And I remember seeing, like a “cloud” like a mirage around him, and I did not understand what this was. And he seemed to be “shaking” a lot, ever so slightly. This had stopped, he had calmed down, and yet that last day, the day before he died, he walked in the door and this “shaking thing” was there again - it really is like a subtle oscillation, and I knew everything had been lost, that we were back at square one. I was so upset, I just stopped within myself, and said, that i had to calm down before I could take any action. Little did I understand the severity of this, as the next day he was gone.
So, it is the same with the system, a collective of individuals all existing in fear of survival, in fear of losing that which has been made into an absolute need to exist, which is a piece of paper as money, as what we sell ourselves for, in order to survive. Where when we have a place on the grid, anything that is perceived to be a threat to this, is shut out, ignored, pushed away, and new laws are placed to prevent loss, to suppress loss, to maintain the profit for the individual as the individual is who it is that does this, with prettysounding words of justification, and meanwhile the total structure is not looked at, only the cloud of self interest as survival, this fear, with a justifying voice of supposed goodness, these two the very separation from the common good, the “what is best for all.”
It is not that with some patience, what is here can be understood, it is that the fear is too great, the fear is the monster under the bed, the fear distorts reality to the point where the justification is made real, to hide the fear. Questions can be asked that interrupt this fear, but the tenacious, and these are usually the ones that have the highest salaries, simply become more reactive.
Asking a hierarchy of individuals, those divided into fear and happy face presentation, to change is like asking someone to give up their food and their shelter, especially within a system where money determines life. The ones who have abundant money, that benefit the most, they are going to have to give up power and all their possessions, of which they cannot possibly use at once.
This is why the structure of the system must change, as what exists creates fear, and thus does not work. cannot work, will never work, and asking this form to change itself, when it is composed of many not being able to see anything else, will, obviously not work. The blueprint of fear of loss and the action of self interest are too busy being held onto in desperation, as how fear acts. If you have ever taken a lifesaving course, and had to save someone from drowning,, that person will fight for their life, and is they are stronger than you, you must know how to turn that body around and lock the arms in such a way to suspend them from behind until they calm enough to start floating and thus breathing. I think I was sixteen, and I failed the first time, my instructor was bigger than me, and I did not understand how hard i had to fight. The people who have found a point in the grid of inequality, are not going to just give up their position of security, their life investment.
Rebellion and protest is just going to create more reactive behaviors, and the barricades we stand behind to protest will only be placed further and further away. And I understand that this has happened at the White House in Washington. The barricades are further away, and the army stand guard against its own people. The landscape is the people against the state, that is the picture, that is the reality.
The solution is to stand up and place a new system through a collective vote, as it is the people who have formed this system, and thus it is the people who must stand and change this. In a way, what is here on earth is a systemic public corporation, it is the cooperation of the collective as the human, as the “public”. It will take an “army” of the collective to realize a change, to actually walk, in detail the structure and form needed to end this drama of screaming mobs and protecting self defensive hierarchies who have managed to get the profit.
This reminds me of my local school district again. The superintendent is hired by the school committee ( this body representing the public “common good”) and this superintendent handles the money, which means this administrator can decide that he needs a raise and thus give himself one, which means that he can decide that he is doing a good job, and give himself a raise. THis actually happened here, during a supposed “override” the superintendent said the school needed money for the budget and asked the community to vote in more money for the schools, and then promptly gave himself as raise. And this, in the face of private salaries not growing over the last 15 years. That action of that superintendent, did it consider the community within this lack in other areas of the community, did that superintendent consider the stressed out parents of thechildren in the households of parents whose cost of living was increasing and salaries or profits were not? Does this person who represents the children, consider the children? As what he/she stand for? No they did not, they considered their own survival only, and not what was for the common good of the community.
So, those government administrators are not going to consider anything else but their own survival, and any questioning, is, as I said, just going to create a greater divide, a bigger distance. Which begs the question on another level, what is going to pay for the bodies standing in the “no man’s land zone? Your are, you the protestor, you the blamer, you the rebel. This is not the means to stop the abuse of inequality.
What exists as inequality, was built brick by brick by brick by humans, the generations of humans that have been here on this earth. Thus, it is the collective, in organization, that must stand and realize a systemic change, through networking and structuring and voting in a system that never allows what presently exists to happen again because it does not work. Unless the system takes care of life, absolutely, it is not a functioning system. And the one we have has been going on for so long, and it is not working, it keeps trying to force what it is to work, and naturally this is not working. It will never work.
And, since what is here has been created by generations of men, no one person can say that they did something all by themselves, because they did not. What is here has been built by many, and what has been built is not good or bad, it is simply how what has been built is being used, so, there is much here that is good, and this can be used to begin this journey towards becoming life here on earth, to ensuring that all that is here is cared for with absolute specificity as what is best for what is here.
Waiting for someone else to stand will not work, as self will and must forgive self as life here, I can forgive you, but this will not work, someone else forgiving me for myself will not work, eventually we will all have to realize that the only choice is to forgive one self to life, which means becoming one and equal to and as life. Thus must the illusion in and as this mind system of consciousness, of competition, comparison within a measure of seeking gain, seeking a more than someone else, this action within self as thoughtas the judging that it is, that when compounded becomes emotion and feeling bodies layered within creating dis-ease , which is the physical showing the extent of separation one has become from life in abdication of self as life. All ideas, beliefs and opinions must be looked at for what they are, are they a preference or are they used to compare within being more than something else, are they comforts that are simply habitual that need not really be an experience that define self here?
Obviously, usury does not work as a practice. It is presented as supportive but the outflow of this is really “taking from Peter to pay Paul” it is presenting “giving” but it is really and act of taking, ensuring the ownership of - eventually - everything to that level of competition and desire for more than, which is what greed is, to one person, or a few people. Usury is a system of control, it is not a system that allow self empowerment, self determination, self expression, self honesty with and as life, self responsibility in and as life, this equalizing of self to and as life, being a self realization experience of what life is in fact. I mean if life is what is here that supports everything, would not realizing this be the real ultimate value? The behaviors of earth at present are of conflict and friction, disease, and war, destruction of nature, this all a physical, visibly recognizable outflow of destruction, it is not taking care of this earth, it is not an act of being forgiving as life here.
The waters of this earth should be gentle, soft, clean, life giving, and they are not. They are heavily polluted, stormy, carrying toxins that are suffocating our oceans and our rivers. All of this is through the actions of men in self interested, self ignorant gain. Self ignorance is not being life. Consciousness is the manifestation of ignorance, as this is what separation is, and it exists as a less substantive form than life, in and as energy, and energy consists of poles of positive and negative, spectrums of a singular action in and as separation from what is substantive and this is the sound of life. Thus, self seeking positives, as what is driven as supposedly being positive within the consumerist presentation are limited, blown out of proportion distortions of reality, and this overblown value is in separation from life. This is why it must be understood that everything ( as the warped reality) will be lost should one walk the desteni process, and yet nothing will be lost, it will simply be brought back to life.
The living word is self in equality with life. It is self equal and one with and as life, simply being, ending the chasing of the addictions of energy based behaviors, that will never be satisfied as they are unequal to what is of substance.
The rewards are the end of fear. Is there really any other reason, especially for those of us that live in the west who have some level of stability - that by the way is not real stability- needed other than to remove fear from existence, is not this enough of a realization to stand and participate and build a system that realizes that all life is the value, and that there is no real life until all become self honest, self responsible, self directive, in and as life? Equal Money Capitalism is to make sense of this world, to bring this world back into common sense. The divisions of belief, opinion and idea, and the propagation of needs, wants and desires that are often partial truths coupled with layers of diversions, to avoid facing reality, and to maintain inequality, are the compounds of a just-I-see-loss/justice of loss as a protection and defense system wanting gain in absence of being practical here in common sense of this physical world. The answer, as the reward, is to realize in common sense what functions as what is best for all on this physical planet. The physical world flourishes with clean water, proper nutrients, stable environments. Taking in self interest creates instability when done within ignoring the physical world, and this is the condition of those continents abundant in resource, and indication that this is a system that is not working with life, that is acting in self interest in ignorance of practical consideration of what supports life, within the realization that life is the value.
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Day 262 Fear of speaking : Thought Dimension

Fear of speaking thought dimension
If I am creating a idol, meaning having an idea outside of myself that I believe will define what it is that I am here, I separate myself into a part and become the “ not having of that part” that I then as mind create an image of, a compound of, as I take a picture to signify what part I believe I need to express my self, something I believe I need to simply be. This is the creation of myself being inferior, lacking in some ability, capacity. I am in essence separating from the source of creation directly, constricting within myself to project outside of myself what I believe I need to be. I am taking the value of life and dividing it and separating it into parts, spreading the substance of myself all over the place into one big picture show. A personality of energy.
And all the time I am here. I can only be here.
I feel like a child, I am that child so frustrated, so confused, to uncertain, not understanding, or maybe at one point understanding and nothing is working, I cannot speak to all the parts, I cannot pull them all together. What child could do this in a world of adults all so separate from themselves in chasing ideas, beliefs and opinions? So to protect myself from the walking movie makers in my childhood world, I find a cloak, I project a persona to survive. Same thing , different angle. What started out as survival became a like practice that in itself was still consuming flesh, as it used the substance of my human physical body to exist as a shield or as a means of communication/interaction in a world of walking projections. Non-directive zombies in separation from self direction as life. In separation from primary source, using secondary sources, and then accumulating secondary sources for expression.
Then all this projected part as a thing believed to be needed becomes “isms” , knowledge and information, divided, and refracted endlessly creating a soup of chains of the same endlessly recycled, and all of it was ill use of resource to begin with, as it was not here, self directed, equal and one as life. It is like the substance is here and cannot be lost, thus does not need to be grabbed onto and filed away for future reference, as it is here in all ways, always. It is primary and the nature of it moves as what is best for all, unless divided. Thus, we are the creators of our own demise, our own dispersement into billions of pixels blown out of proportion and projected at vast distances in separation from ourselves, taking so much effort to maintain, the flesh turns to a colorless ashy empty sack of no substance, as we gave it all away to ideas , beliefs and opinions of more than and less than a double of energy, limited. We refracted ourselves into oblivion. Definitely a fucked up scenario.
And what is here on earth is a reflection of this misuse of self as life, and other life suffers in each of us being negligent of ourselves as life. We are not allowing life to express itself, with every thought, word and deed that is based on idea and not the principle of what is best for all, the very manifestation of life as the physical, here, the gift to allow us to find ourselves as life.
How do you tell someone their chasing a carrot on a string? Which is myself being the same, chasing a carrot on a string. lol
I feel like the children I work with in reading, having to bring them here. I am here constantly breathing, bringing myself back here. All I have learned is to follow beliefs, opinions and ideas, and not directed myself here, as life. Always wanting something outside of myself to take the responsibility for myself as life. A CONsumerist society ready and willing to use this in self interest - a mere reflection of what each of us allows in self abdication as life. This is really rejecting the gift of life. Insanity. And all the disease in the west is the consequence. Wake up - there is no way out but to become yourself as life, here.
Most of this is characters as what I am supposed to be within a cultural tradition. So, busy with these ideas that being here in common sense is forgotten. I am projecting outward what I believe will fulfill me, and what is fulfilling is being here, focusing here, directing myself here in common sense, realizing what is the structure of the present system, created in the image of mankind in separation of itself as life. What is really an archaic ignorance of what science has discovered about this planet that indicates that nature operates symbiotically and that disruption of this has massive consequences. This in itself indicating that humans have created a consumerist, profit based hierarchy on earth that ignores how the physical world functions, in self interest before common sense of what is physically right in front of us. Nature does not exist within a superficial and limited monoculture. And yet, man is trying to stamp this on earth, force this.
So, not being able to speak is thinking that some form of knowledge and information is needed, an imitation of what is acceptable, when it is simply being here, seeing what is here (ear-hear) for what it is. At present it is a system of war, of creating conflict for profit, using fear to create friction and uncertainty, all the present systems that we have allowed; religions teach us to follow some higher guidance - a separation, governments tell us they are caring for us while the governors own more, health systems that will lose need if ease is before disease, without usury/slavery there cannot be more debt than money. Thus this system cannot work. If one has more than another, that will build a hierarchy of more than and less than which naturally breeds in self interest before life. This will not work, The moment a relative value is used to support, as an idea, a belief , or an opinion, there is division, thus only absolute value can be used when making decisions, and the absolute value here on earth is life. This is what is here, this is what is same. One entity being a more than value is a belief, an opinion , or an idea. Such judgement is separation from this substance. Period.

Fearing to speak is fearing to look, is not pulling all this together, to see these separations and then standing here. Obviously, unacceptable. The illusion must be given up. Humpty-Dumpty must be brought back together again. A refracted life is a life being lost in a hall of mirrors. This is not life. Thus a so called “heaven” must be more of the same, because the hall of mirrors must be realized. There is no escape, like the only way out is to remove the mirrors, as they are just smoke screens anyway. An avoidance tactic using the positive, which is just more of the negative that caused the consequence of separation, the consequence of rejecting self as life, which is rejecting life.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to have the thought that if I speak up in common sense I will be rejected, which is actually myself showing myself what I amaccepting and allowing , which is myself rejecting myself as life. lol
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to believe that what is considered a ‘positive thought/statement/reply” is in fact what has been taught by a system that is the epitome of an abdication of life, as the reflection of what humanity has allowed individually, which is self abdication of life, thus the only way back is for each to stand and become self responsible as life, and to stand in organizing this world into a system that supports life, all life, absolutely, which means supporting a system of equality, to remove all hierarchies of division, here.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not see, realize and understand that when I cannot speak, I am within and as my own house of mirrors in separation from common sense here.
I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand that when I am existing as belief that i cannot speak I have abdicated myself as life, have allowed myself to exist within and as my mind.
When and as I begin to believe that I cannot speak, I stop and I breath, until I am stable here in and as breath, I realize that I am attempting to use the mind only in search of a response as what has been taught within this present system where there is not taught any understanding as to how the mind in fact works.
I commit myself to slowing myself down, breathing, speaking self forgiveness, and corrective application to bring myself back to here, to focus here, in common sense to see, realize and understand what it is that I am resisting giving up as an idea of what I am that i fear losing, as I have allowed myself to define myself through projecting a want, need and desire, separate from me as who I am as life, here.
I commit myself slowing myself down when and as I have a thought that also contains an idea that what I think cannot be said as it is socially unacceptable.
I commit myself to breathing, to slowing myself down and realizing that the only choice is to face and walk through what resistances come up as fear, to practice this until I am here, focused here, in common sense of what physically exists and directing within the principle of what is best for all.

Day 255 Abdication Character Reaction Dimension

I feel lost without having something to “care” about as I am addicted to this energy as it is a behavior, that makes me feel special and more than, when this,. if stood up within is chasing a carrot as an idea, a “state of being” as a noun that will bring renoun/renown, where I “own” something, I am “one” with something instead of being myself as life, as being one with life, as life is the value, as what to stand up and as here. Interesting how all these words, are within this one word. I have turned a state of being into an idol. My own personal god, to make me have some kind of meaning, where I am the very substance of life, as i am here, thus, I need to “state a being” to renoun myself. I already am. I am here, and here is all I can be.
Makes me think of the schools and the children, where parents, and students, state, i am ocd, or adhd, or I am bi-polar, or, or, or. Even in human discussions it is as though there is the need to have a label. And in our current presentation of more and more pharmaceutical drugs the catch phrases used to describe self are in association with an illness that now has a drug to match. So who is directing who? Are we here as ourselves as life or are we here defined by the dictates of what is making a very few a large dividend? A new science based cult of supposed scientific chemical analysis, devoid of any real understanding of life, even in the face of research suggesting that modern autoimmune dis-ease did not exist before the advent of grains and processed foods. This is knowledge and information, this self labeling as a dis-ease, only, without investigation into this actual physical world.
My preferences are limited to cultural values, to cults, instead of to this physical world. This would mean that all cults are a collection of limited values, where the values themselves are not good or bad, yet become more than’s if they bring renown to a group, as the cult, and then used to direct as this “collection” where this, unless it is aligned with all as this world, as the physical as nature, is a separation from life, from what actually supports that as what is here. And instead of looking at this, a group is criticized for presenting something that has supposedly been said, and that is supposedly the same as any other “cult” but desteni is the cult of life, of the physical, the physical world is what is life, the physical world is what actually cultivates life, the physical world if the culture of life, and not the moral beliefs of men assembled into selective right and wrongs in terms of how and why things should be done a certain way, and how, within gender and taboo, individuals should act and be within limited class and gender roles, as these are created in the self interest of men believing themselves to be more than nature, and we are not more than nature. It is like we are denying the culture of life as nature as this physical world. We are one and equal to it. Some of the behaviors of men are of attack to nature, to the animals here, could this be because we realize that we have in fact become less than nature because we have separated ourselves from it to such a degree and we realize our own accepted ignorance and want to attack that which shows us how much we are in effect lying to ourselves? And because we do not want to give up our addictions to sex, and drugs, and entertainment, to energetic bliss, to self abdication as life? Because we do not want to give up what crutches of renown we are sucking on like infants? These “ nouns” as “ state of beings”, such pacifiers composed of ourselves? Which we suck until we are dry and shriveled prunes? Ignoring ourselves as nature, the same as this physical world? This is toys-r-us instead of life-is-us. Desteni is life-is-us and the culture is the physical world. Earth is a culture of animals and plants, water and air, soil and rocks, and the present system is not respecting this, it is using this to support renoun in self interest based on imaginary “states of being” made idol, crutches in fear of facing self as life. Thus ALL blame and ALL spite, as behavior is self blame and self spite done in self interest and self abdication as life. All justification is not wanting to forgive self as life, having turned fear of self into a habitat comforting a belief that something will be lost, when the loss is that self has lost self as life.

SO, everything that is here on earth is life, thus if I have a preference , I am in separation from life. And, yes, within this present system, the life that is here is not allowed to be itself as life, and is being abused, forced to serve personifications in separation of life, as what man has become,where what man has created is the real sub-cult, and this sub-cult has been made huge, thus the idols of this sub-cult are advertised incessantly on the walls of churches, on the screen of TV, on billboards, in stories, in movies. I mean what are the genres of film? Romance/love/religion ( yes - religion is often giving up within personal relationships to love/care-for an invisible object), War/crime, Sport/competition. How much detail within mainstream media is there ( documentaries are often NOT mainstream media ) about how the natural physical world functions?

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to believe that preferences define me, as in myself validating myself within and as selective preferences to give myself meaning in separation from what is real, as this actual physical world, the source and sustenance of life , here.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to become a subculture of life, thereby allowing and accepting myself to become and be a parasitical behavior ignoring what is real as this actual physical world, abdicating respect for life, as respect for life can only exist within simply being here, equal and one with and as life as what the physical is.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to define myself within and as being a “state of care” wanting renown for a limited only presentation in and as care, where this “state of being” is determined by a culture of morality that is in separation from what is real as this actual physical world.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to become a behavior, as an emotion - energy motion- with the dictates of what was learned through a subculture in and as men believing themselves to be greater than nature, this physical world, a more-all -ity storied existence turned into a hierarchy in separation from being one and equal to and as this actual physical supporting-of-life-as-life world called earth, this heart of life, as is what the letters in this word sound, are the equation of, thus is what is real placed right in front of man and yet he refuses to see.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not see, realize and understand how the mind in fact functions, in tandem with the water within and as the human physical body, this body holding resonances of inequality in and as separations as judgements of more than and less than value divisions made huge as thought disrupting equality as life, as these are what has not been realized/equalized to and as life, these behaviors of men, as the mind images accepted and allowed as what is practiced, and thus is equality with and as what is real as this physical world, and respect for this actual physical world, not lived, our water holding what has not been equalized to and as life within self causing dis-ease with life, thus does the physical teach through application what is in separation from what is real, and is as such the means and the way to becoming equal and one in and as life, this made clear within the words moving through the “eye of a needle”, meaning to stop judgements of beliefs as a more than and less than value system self accepts in separation from working with/as equality and oneness with life, which is what this physical world is in fact the gift for.
I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand that any dis-ease within and as myself is this, myself in separation from life, here, where here is all that exists, and the mind as the past of memories, is the message of accepted and allowed separations in and as judgements as beliefs in preferences, in accord with the morality taught, that is not equal and one, respectful of this actual physical world.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to have become a morality composed of learned preferences in separation from life as a behavior of survival generated as fear, to the extent that in my allowed ignorance of life, all I know is running after a “state of being” as belief, opinion and idea, which means a lot of forgiving myself to this actual physical world before I realize myself as life here.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting the existence of myself as ego, as beliefs, opinions and ideas of more than and less than, a behavior of not seeing, realizing and accepting myself as life, where any and all reactions to what is here, must be faced, stood up within and as, to remove the fear of separation that is the protective/defense behaviors as ego existing within loss and not utilizing the substance of self as life in common sense, remaining here, equal and one as what is best for all in totality, meaning all that is of earth, the physical.

I commit myself to recognizing my own abdication in and as life, through pretending care within human morality, within the specific human subculture I was born, to stop and to breath, and to bring myself back to myself as life within and as the physical, to see, realize and understand in practical common sense what is here as life and within this to stand for what is best for all, including this actual physical world.
I commit myself to stand up within and as any movement within myself and the voices in and as my mind, that are a more than and/or a less than in and as judgement to and towards what is here as this physical world, a morality learned in separation from inclusion of what is actually physically here.

I commit myself to seeing, realizing and understanding that my fear is exhibited through polarities of a negative and a positive, where the positive is the justification for the negative moral, this the separation from myself as life, a picture presentation within a cultural value being what I believe will enable/hide my own survival/fear, my presentation a protection defense mechanism of selected and limited values consuming the presence of myself as life, and thus creating a presence divided through imagery, lacking/limiting/losing common sense of physical hereness.
I commit myself to respecting myself as life here, through breathing and bringing all thoughts,emotions and feelings back to self and forgiving this division/separation into common sense of what is physically here and place myself as life into an application within a principle of what is best for all.

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