What is the Semmelweis Effect? What is personality? What is sound character? What is a false morality? What is correct action? Day 739

I ask myself what is right action and a state of being in righteousness? Right action is focus of will on the practical, where there is no inner personality resisting or having expectations as the focus is always on solutions. What does it mean to no longer have a personality/ What does it mean to stand as the real value being present and here, focused as a movement of realizing there are no problems and only solutions, in a system that is based on addressing a wrong instead of initiating from a principle of causing no harm, always respecting all things on the plan-it ? What does it means to consider what is here, without resistance and desire, as nothing one physically accumulates can be taken with one when one leaves the present physical form that one is in this life? 

I was at a meeting, and individuals in the group were standing up and sharing their reason for being in that group. I noticed I started to become irritated, my body becoming restless. I noticed that the talk was filled with many positive words, that seem to say over and over again how wonderful the ‘ club’ was, without going into much detail.  For me, it was like an accordion being stretched out, the color of the emotion greater than the experience as a story of self direction in real time. I had stood up and talked too. Someone in the back had asked me a question in relation to what i was saying. This question was to direct me into lending a more detailed practice in relation to why this club was of benefit. I realized with hind-sight that I had been given the means to pull the emotional accordion back down to a size that lent more specificity in describing what practical actions one had learned from being a member of this club that in itself was about improving one’s capacity to create in this world. 

I was being of a morality, as my resistance as reaction as irritation and physical restlessness. Instead of being what I had been given, I went to control what I understood was not cool and the same as what I complained of around me, as moving into a value judgement about something and seeing only this lack instead of becoming a practical follow through that brought greater clarity in practical application within standing and creating a real value that could be being of a right action instead of a righteousness in self interest based on projecting value judgements as a persona of a right and a wrong, a more than and a less than. In my case, my reaction was a fear of myself being rejected as in not having played the political game of touting positive emotions. This irritation towards the touting of positive emotions, is a fear I have because this can become a wall, where a collective group stands as this drug high value instead of being practical and insightful. What is interesting, is that when real insight is shared, the listeners tend to have a greater quietness of presence than when an accordion of emotion is being touted into all of the space of a presentation. The difference is tangible in the space, as the contrast of silence and the restless excitment of the listening body, as though the greater whole reflects what I myself was doing within me. Mine was simply of resistance.

I have lead musical groups. Because of the system of money, rehearsals have only so much time, thus one cannot allow a personality game to come forward and occupy the space. One must be of a focus on what one is doing, much like an air traffic controller. There is no time for emotional justification, one must direct in practical space within our present measure as systemic timing. 

One time, after a rehearsal,  my peer called me a slave driver. I was shocked, because I did not see myself as that. I always moved the interaction of the group towards performing. This meant that if someone suggested adding some quality to the music, it was said, and then directed into application. I did this because the actual doing brought more insight than long periods of talking about the music. The time was dictated by cost, so my approach was to bring as much performing into the time frame as possible. I later found out that this partner that called me a slave driver, rarely practiced for extended periods of time, without multiple breaks  and thus, the rehearsals  seemed intense as they were not used to such consistent focus and self direction.  Yet, had we not practiced in this way, the performance would seem long, as most performances are a solid hour and a half of performing. 

Most of us in society are not confronted with extended direct focus. Most professions do not demand this, as one can take a break, or stand down when something has somehow become out of balance, yet in music, one cannot do this.  Such a thing makes it clear that direct practical application builds greater focus ability. Especially with something that is not the repetition of a singular action. This also shows that humans can expand their awareness when given the opportunity to do within a broad range of practical activity. Hence all yourself why television is so ubiquitous and cheap? It is a means to distracting one from discovering one’s real capacity when making the decision to focus on something, with engagement of all the sense in physical reality. A lack of practice within real engagement appears to be hard if that has not been lived consistently. The contrast from a state of complacency and emotional value touting only, becomes one comfort zone, and a change into what is of greater sense of presence, and awareness appears to be too much.  Thus, just as I realized and was shown in a moment, via a question, it is to share right action that is directing into practicing practical actions, as this is what one would want for one’s self. Then one is no longer a personality and instead a presence in physical space, sharing a time, as a measure that is equal to being aware and expanding one’s capacity in actual real doing. 

It is to say that the personas, as ideas, beliefs and opinions, are quiet, and that quiet has a presence of focus in awareness of self and this plan-it. A right action has no personality. Thus, it is to share and stand as real value creation. In this there are no wrongs, there are only solutions. When I become irritated, and restless, it is a red flag that I am not standing equal to value creation as asking the questions that define practical actions that focus one to become a presence in respect of physical planet living as who and what I am. 

Thus, I have looked at the wrong, and judged instead of standing as correct action, or right action.   My morality is somewhat like the Semmelweis Effect, where I fear standing up against a morality of self interest, and/or believe that standing up against the self interest of a collective Semmelweis Effect of fearing to lose how I have defined myself in terms of survival, believing that changing myself to move as what is best for all, as acknowledging a narrow focus, rejecting considering all outcomes, as consequences of my actions, to , as I said, avoid change, or believe that losing the gains I get from the mistake ( hidden under the guise of good) will be too hard to live through, or with no longer having the gains of mis-take, cannot see anything outside of my construct and compare myself to a potential situation where I may not survive ( based on a fear of becoming the lack I allowed and perceived in others through my acceptances! Like falling into a morass of less that were/was/is those not participating in a collective limitation). It is a myopic standing as accepted mis-information that when one views from this lack, on a physical and practical planet where all is visible,  that bubble of idea, a composed resonant entity, see only those not having that belief and their lack of participative ability, so there is  a fear in this singular contrast, so occupying, that what is missed overall, is seeing the corrective action that would remove the mis-take and balance out into a greater ease of movement not subject to disrupting insight into factions that cause conflict in what is more natural as interactions and relationships that move with greater communication.   And so this spins. A false morality, leading to heinous acts. Then, I believe there is no way out. Can’t speak up to the ‘ wrong’ action to correct ‘ wrong’ action hidden by pretty sounding words, because I will be Semmelweised! It appears to be a catch 22,  rejected if I do, by the collective. Yet, this action is completely unacceptable, and as someone said, it is not democratic. It is, as the system goes, an Oligarchy. 

Thus, when a group moves into a personality cult, and becomes a creed/greed as a Semmelweis effect, and hides behind using semantics as a good, like ‘ for the children’ to justify a change, based on an experience of not having walked correct action, or sabotaging action through taking correct action in a limited environment where it is difficult to make something work, because facing where such would work means really standing behind value creation which was feared overall. It is always easier to talk value to a social class one feels is inferior to self, and harder to do so with one’s own level, or place, in society.  This means to really stand as ‘ correct action’ no matter what.  This is a conflict  I have been facing it seems my whole life. I mean, really standing as the practical, means standing as value creation no matter what. And that means standing as such in price as well, because we are hard wired to believe that value costs. Or, when we stand as value creation, we also have the insight to realize that simple things cost something in this world, especially when the cost is much smaller than the cost of not being able to do the math in respect of causing a Semmelweis effect, which is a heinous act of self interest. In effect because we are not realizing how deeply engrained such an effect is in our society at the moment, in so many systems, is a fear of standing as a real value- that value being to take that which is good and does no harm.       How does one adapt to what is unacceptable?

The means of building understanding, be it mis-information of an in-formation that is a practice of direct seeing of all things, as being here, equal to the physical, as self was before a resonant seed of mis-information built itself, was the child who without any direction learned naturally to crawl.  Our bodies naturally resonate what we experience. We take in the form, as what a group of words strung together IS.  When we apply that information, that thing, that body of a string of sounds, representing perception, self discovered or imposed on self in a box, or heard by parents who are products of the present system, so engineered to allow selective information, we hear the resonance of said sound forms, and it moves through us, or we process it. We do, over time correct this, yet there is only so much time on this earth. 

To continue, we inform ourselves with what we do. We inform others with what we say. What we say is the information that we are exposed to.  It becomes a resonance of what we are doing. This is a building within, or this is building within us. It works both ways, we accept limited story of information, we become that, and we can only speak what we allow- thus it is always heard. Meaning we can do nothing but speak what we allow. Thus, we resonate all that we accept. A beautiful design overall. Nothing can be left behind, it is always heard because it is one’s focus, accepted and allowed. It is the simplest of things. 

I have a fear of facing this individual and collective outcome of mis-information in and as the Semmelweis Effect. It is  a fear of the paranormal. It is a fear of a metaphysical construct that is also a gift, and the beauty of the design of life as the physical, as sound. How we work works both ways. We can become a resonance of good and evil, get so caught up in this, that we see only through a lens of competition, as comparing two sides of the same coin. We can begin to realize this, as that same ability to process and see information, in the act of comparison, can, over the timing as the movement of mis-information, as the presence of self, catching glimpses of that math/song/construct/timed measure in the overall space of creation. We can realize the patterns, as calling something out by name, which is what the term Semmelweis is and does. And thus, as this begins to resonate in the collective, just as mis-information resonates, a clarity begins to form, to build as this is how awareness begins to unfold, this is how an innate awareness begins to expand and recognize its creations. In order to stop this, a bully of information must become more intense to counter the life, the expansion , the very nature of creation. Do we recognize ego? 

Remember it works both ways. The resistance, is that personification of mis-information that is a mis-use of the imagination, does not want to be let go. To realize that one’s value system, as one’s resonant value system, as one’s morality, as one’s creation, one’s outcome  use of the gift of life, is, overall, not equal to real creation, to real innovation, and upsetting to the system ( a consequence of not understanding this that is right in front of us) appears to be difficult. Yet, just as in death,  one will eventually let go of that mis-informed resonance because it has no real staying power but by bullying, by forcing, by constant reigniting, because that resonance has no real constant. Thus, the only way is to live what generates real value, sound value, clear resonance that rings into eternity, is using sound to realize what is clear, what causes no harm, the very nature and means of what we are as physical beings, moving as a collective to keep ourselves in tune with who and what we are, as life, that is made from nothing into movement, that movement creating a sound, so to speak. 

Thus, the way and the means to real value creation, as clear presence, of hearing what is here, what works, what does no harm, is the capacity of each and everyone of us. To build understanding, either of a clear resonance, or a mis-information song, is the same, thus, the correction is to stand as what is best for all, as what builds a clear resonance, which means to become a morality of what is best for all. This is standing as the will of life. We can do this, it is who and what we humans really are. Our intrinsic desire to participate, and what tends to follow only, is a natural presence unassuming overall, because it is pure in its desire to be. 

How we use semantics , as how we form words, becomes resonant within us. Thus we can use semantics for a good or a bad resonant construct, visible through the math one resonates as the words one speaks, creating personifications separate from life, from what is best, from what would be a resonance that mirrors respecting all physical forms around us. We can realize what is not a resonance of life, in space, in reviewing consequence of the forms we speak, that can, like a frog being placed in cold water, heated over 50 years eventually kills as cooks the frog, so does mis-information that is invisible yet present as the conflict and friction of presence from being in clear relationship to life, as movements and actions that do no harm. This heat, or energy of mis-information is the mendacity of a gossip, as what one focuses upon and speaks as we sound what we see, what we accept, as what we imagine, can become an entity, resonant within. We all know this, because we have all had relationships that ended in conflict, in disagreement, that we, in space, as we focus outside of this, that resonant entity, we see our own mis-takes, and realize our focus on wrongs, instead of a focus on real value creation, as building equal understanding, as correct action, that enables real potential to speak itself into creation, into life, into being what does no harm, and is in a state of considering all things, as being equal to the physical and realizing that the small practical movements are the means of building correct standing. This is a standing that can stand and enjoy a creation, as this is the real joy, where all steps are of that joy, not moved by limitation, by the challenge of mis-understanding. 

I find accelerated learning techniques a reflection of how we work. When we pay attention to what we say, what we hear, what we speak, and become involved in doing, in real physical time, becomes us. When we change up our focus, to what is in the distance, and what is near, we place ourselves in a math of perpetual movement, and here, we are exposed to form and function, the overall consequence is opportunity to do more than one math,  or to the flow of what we as humans create, and as such, get out of ourselves and realize, through a contrast of exposure, this reality and what effects our actions have in the big, as the distant, and the small, as the immediate. In this we create a more widespread focus, that is by design a listening to forms, as what is inherent in this is a practice of insight into form. It is expansive by design. and it describes being in contact with what is here, and the consequences of our actions. It leads direction in what to investigate, using the means of building understanding, done with sound, as ordering our words to speak with clarity and detail about how the big and the small move, as the inter-workings of the basic building blocks of this physical reality, I mean LOOK, too much mercury on our bodies has an ill effect of mis-firing neurological networks, just as it does in the big, as our rivers and streams.   It is not as complicated as the voice of a Semmelweis effect of self interest builds as mis-information, as it is the mis-information that is a chaos of separation from what is capable and natural in who and what we are. Have a look, is it hard to move outside of a resonant form without, does it feel life moving counter to a vibration within? Does this create a sense of internal shaking? What is that? Are you connecting to the people around you with a sense of ease, as not moving with friction? Can you remember what you did yesterday, or the day before, or last year? Are you present in the life inFORMation as the physical, or are you lost in a time, a memory in your own self accepted and created resonant seed of information that is so occupying that it becomes more and more difficult to place your presence in space and drive your car, or finish that project, or order some project from the beginning because focusing here, appears to be a huge effort, when that capacity is the most natural capacity within self, when self is present and here, doing what is natural as being a human being, in equal resonance to this physical creation where one actually gets things done and builds things that one can stand an be proud of to the extent that one would teach anyone the same, because that is the joy and simplicity of being life? 

Thus, ask yourself, what have you built, what are you speaking, what constructs of information have you accepted and allowed that cook the physical you over time if not aligned and resonant with what is this life, where you are focused on here, and as such are equal to life inFORMation and can remember you presence and awareness to living, a state that moves with ease, as a lack of resonant measure unequal to life expression is being in conflict wth life as who you really are?

The Semmelweis effect is the same as the HUMPTY DUMPTY effect, it is a self broken into pieces as limited information made a resonant seed of mis-information, causing conflict and friction with creation, with the physical world.  It is self scattered into a resonant entity as a ghost in the machine that cooks the frog that is you into a complete loss of the gift of being spatially aware of reality. It is felt as the reaction and resistance, of a false morality. It is a resonance of self interest, as a forgetfulness of who and what we are as physical and sentient beings on a physical planet. We can be a plan-it at most fear, or we can build as resonantly stand in measure of a plan-that-resonates at the most spherical expression of creation. It is up to us and we are all capable, and yes to correct the resonance of who and what we are, means forgiving acceptances and allowances, and becoming a right sound action to equalize ourselves, our presence, to creation. We can start this, to move into correction through allowing economic equality. What fun would it be to do this? What fun would it be to no longer exist in a resonance of rejecting and resisting your neighbors, what fun would it be to have the space to create a time, a resonance that is clear  where the perspective of your neighbor only expands your awareness in creation? What fun would it be to do what humans do naturally, as order and understand this living creation and being innovative in ways that unfold the nature within that is life, to create and discover the very essence of who and what one is, to resonate a pure sound information ? How fucking awesome would that be? Forgive what resonates within and rebuild. The means of misinformation is done the same way as the means to sound information. We know how, it is right here, right in front of us. Pay attention to this world, and your immediate world, investigate, realize each word you speak , you sound, you resonate shows the way not to go and the way to go. No one can do this for you but you, yet that is totally awesome, because it means that you are life. 

What is the three pronged fork? What is double speak? What is hiding in ' trade secrets"? What is personality? What is misinformation? What is entertainment? What is practicality? What is usury? What is economic determinism? What we are resonantly allowing within ourselves? Who and what is Humpty Dumpty?  What is sound character? Are we the words we speak? 

Day 651 The presence of a baby in nature; silent, stable, lite, fluid.

Yesterday I walked with my young three plus month old nephew. We walked around the house, his hands reaching out to touch what was before him, The baby also being aware of the spatial measure within the distance of his hand and what was before him. He would reach out, draw his arm back and try again. He also would move his arm in a circular motion, as though, as it appeared to me, to sense more than what was directly in front of him that he eventually reached to touch.

Then I went and walked outside in the gardens with him. There was this sudden change in him, in his presence. It was as though this silence to a greater degree became what he was. The degree of this change, into a presence of such silence, astounded me, as it was different than how he was when we walked in the house as how I sensed this in the moment. It was like he took a breath and lowered himself into an ease, as how I saw this, within such a differential degree, I just stopped. I realized in that moment, how that state of silence, was such a state of ease and wonder, I can understand why some gravitate towards babies.

It is not the baby, it is how the baby is within themselves that is what is peace inspiring and comforting. As this is showing the degree of separation from being present and aware of this physical world around us, where the very fabric of this physical world is a stability that is constant, and that moves with ease, the ease of expressing a sound of life information.

It also showed me the degree with which I am a mind consciousness, a shaky limited measure of belief, opinion and idea that considers my survival as knowledge and information without acceptance of life, life that is all around me and there to support me, to allow me to become equal and one with the physical to pass through the eye of the needle into life. 

Hence, the solution is to breath, to slow way down, to forgive the projections of blame and spite, calling something a bad, wanting an entity of mind consciousness to change, an impossibility, as each is the source of one’s own demons, and responsible to see, realize and understand the inner picture show that is the separation from seeing directly here, and being at ease with the very fabric of life that moves in an absolute purpose of expressing what does no harm and takes that which is good, to remain constant and stable, in the value being life in expression, This can only be here.

And, that fear, that sinking within, that sense of a vortex like spiral pulling inward, in protection and self defense in fear of a loss is as much a entity of no real value, and a negative value that manifests as petrification, hence a heaviness to it that has no fluid ease and presence equal to life as the physical fabric of life surrounding us and allowing us to be life here. That fear is what I fear to lose as an idea about myself, and if I slow down and look, I will see, realize and understand that this fear has no real substance and can only define me if I accept and allow it. This fear  has no self directive capacity into that awe and that ease that gives a simple and stable directive capacity. Hence the choice is only to take that which is good and does no harm if we as men want to build a solid and stable world and really become equal and one with creation, meaning if we really want to become the creators we were meant to be.

It is like, to use the constructs of belief we are immersed within and as, we are all ‘ artists’ and we either choose to understand the real art of life as the substance that builds the physical world, or we remain scattered and restless as energy- the by product of our separation. It is like money, as how we are using money, to allow access to a few instead of flowing money as the means to what sustains us and allows us to care for the world around is in common sense ways, to develop this innate ability to care for our environment directly seeing as each part what allows the full potential of all things to express their from and function as life.

As we can all realize, the limited monopolies, that are of a structural rigidity, are to order our separation, And these rigid structures tear apart the physical to build a pyramid scheme that creates our class warfare, and our war economy, and our war on health economy, all of which is ripping asunder the physical world to order and control this separation into mind consciousness. Mind consciousness is a limited story, that can layer within, and as knowledge and information without practical application, it does not fit into the physical, which is why we end up in a bed, shaking as our physical twitches of mis-alignment, our fears clenching us within, consuming the flesh as the physical. The way we are using our resources to support a limited system that is in separation from creation. We end up a shattering mess, in total separation from what we are when we are a baby, which is that silence, that ease, that ability to sense the space of here, and rest in a awe that is of ease, present, silent and expanding in awareness of the physical world, as the physical world is life/god/a gift/ expression of what is good and builds a sound stable existence to create within and as the same substance as what we are.

Accept yourself as life. Stand equal and one here with the physical. Time to get this physical world in order, realizing what is best for all, and becoming equal and one to the flow of life that is the substance of all things, around us in every moment, it is only ourselves that reject and resist, thus no one can bring you back to life but yourself. It is time to self forgive your self back into equality and oneness to and towards life, here.

Day 617 The measure of myself here.

The measure of myself

In dealing with people and presenting the measure of my understanding, I react. It is as though the patience to follow through, to let go and to move with the measure of what is here is not fluent. This means I am getting stuck on beliefs, opinions and ideas in and as the measure of my experience, the measure of my awareness. The gift of life is placed right in front of us, as this actual physical world, and I have abdicated that life in believing that what I think, as the composition of my thoughts as the measure of my experiences is more real. Really astounding- which is an interesting word, because it has the word sound imbedded within it, and the letters a and t . Like the alpha and the omega, where the a is the starting point as the alphabet, where I use the letters to create words to bet with others, to win, when the gift is already given, as the physical as life which is the value. And, the t is the choice, the crossroads of my choice, the apple of my eye, where I decide to respect the tree of life as the physical, or a belief in a good and or a bad in and as value judgements in and as the process of believing that one thing is bad and another is good which is creating a relationship to myself as my idea of myself as an accumulation of my experiences that I allow to begin to define me, as direct me, and then I, if I do not realize this, begin to blame the outside world because it is not moving as my experience manifest as my thoughts, created from comparison. Comparison is not necessarily a bad. When comparison is used in self interest and not realized as such, what is moved into is value judgements in defense of one’s experience instead of for what the qualities as the characteristics of what something is which is evident in the utility of the form. Thus, it is astounding that I sound my inner experience turned value judgement over remaining in equality to and with life, as the physical to sound in accord with this physical which is the means of life, the gift placed right here in front of us, as life would be and do, because this is how it would work in all practical common sense.

Thus, when I worry about rejection, or what someone might or might not say, I am separating myself from being here. I am not realizing the very gift of myself as life in practice in measure, in awareness of using this sense that reads/senses my experiential memory and directing this to practical physical reality and realizing that I can as this that can move from mind memory to here awareness is always right here in all ways, it is fluid, it is mutable, it can sense time and space, here, it can move with limitation, accept it, speak up, cross reference, double check, slow down and ground me back here, to as myself as life, realize the volume of practical reality - and the divisions and limited information of our present accepted and allowed system that dis-regards this in self interest, as this system is simply a reflection of the separation from using self as life to common sense physical reality as the formation of life. I am not going to go into this here, one can investigate this systemic form that is a smoke and mirrors show bullied through a media ( my god)  using the quality of human nature that takes in information and utilizes it- like being programmed- until it defines self, or, one could say, is believed to be a truth, and then the physical is forced into the limited construct, which overall is very destructive and cannot and will not work. Just think about how unpure the very air is in our world, and our waters, and realize that ripping apart the physical to fit into an idea about  what is more and what is less, is an abdication of self as life. Period. Can’t work. The sooner we realize this, the sooner we can change and equalize to life and work together to get this destruction cleaned up.  We have essentially allowed the majority of humans to serve the building of a pyramid. The moment a laborer is no longer useful they are turned out, and, as we can see, the laws are geared towards criminalizing the homeless- those who have been turned out. So, basically, if you as a human serve no purpose in the building of this pyramid, you are compost. lol Yes, that is basically what you are useful for. That idea of yourself as your mind, it is a sitcom that has become a program that is no longer wanted. Can you blame the pyramid? No, they are just another program, one that is in separation from life.  

Thus if I take the measure as another television, program, personally, I am fearing to not have my program, my television, my experience accepted. Yet, in understanding that I can change, because what I am within is only a measure of what I belief, I can reformat this and cross reference what might be the understanding of another and become a relationship to practical physical reality as my starting point and ground myself within all this to direct, with investigation of that which is good and does no harm, because nothing can define me unless I accept and allow it, and the physical is always right here, standing with me, always was, and always will be, as the physical is life information, it is the sound of what can withstand the test of time, it is the technology of life in formation.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to respect life.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to realize the value is myself as life equal and one to and as the physical here.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand that what I am within as a personification of my experience of reality as the physical need not define who and what I am here.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not let go, with every breath, in every moment, what I have accepted and allowed to define me, as value judgements of one thing being more than another, an act of comparison and competition which is ultimately an illusion, and myself in separation from myself as life, and for this I forgive myself for allowing myself to believe that what exists as myself within as a reflection which is a shadow of reality, defines who and what I am here.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to move into self pity, when and as I have no agreement with another in thought word and deed.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to slow down and ground myself here in practical reality, and to allow myself to not resist what is here, as what is here can change and move into understanding form and function as the practice of living in a physical manifestation of life as life would.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to become inferior to life, believing that what I construct as my experience as my inner selective value system, to be greater than life itself as life is physical and here, where I can live in the moment and become equal and one to and as it, to express myself life here, to focus here and direct myself in ways that do no harm.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to fear losing my experience as though in losing this I would not have any memory, like photo albums to show off my experiences to tout as what I  am, in fear that I would not survive in this system, when in all practical reality the value is being here, equal and one with and as life as the physical, because this is creation information, here.

When and as I find myself beginning to move into protection and self defense, which is myself constructing myself with in, as though I am grabbing onto my experience, memory that I have allowed to define me,  I stop and I breath, I slow myself down and I asses what measure I have accepted and allowed that is of energy, and I forgive that which I fear to lose, and I see, realize and understand that I am here, that the value is being physical as life, that what is within me can change and ground here, into and as what is of sound mind and as such can withstand the test of time, and become equal and one to the measure of space as the physical as life in expression that is eternal, and to then not fear change, as change is the process of transformation only, which is actually fun.

When and as I find myself moving into a stagnant self protective act of blame and spite, I stop and I breath and I slow myself down, and I cross reference my accepted and allowed measure as belief, that has embedded into the physical through repetition, and I forgive and change as direct in common sense of practical reality, to and towards that which is good and does no harm and becomes an expression of respect for all life as me in another life form here.

Day 553 A sound form begins with each of us.

What does it mean to captain, and can humans “ captain” anything else but what they are a their form and function as men?

Look at a captain of a ship, for example. Someone must care for the sails,  another the tiller, another the longitude and the latitude measure. And I am talking about a big ship. One must look to the horizon, as their measure of attention. Not one is more than another, they are each simply focusing on an aspect of running a ship. It is only a value judgement, that one carrying out one task is more than another. And all must learn, must have had the time and space to walk the experience of understanding/ having exposure to that which they attend with understanding.

On another, developmental level, each unit of focus as each man, and each measure of material used, for the ship etc. must be of a condition that is sound, meaning physically cared for from and through the process of inception, that the structure is solid and complete; in utmost capacity. As well, the abstract side as the focus and “ reading” mechanism of the man carrying out the task, which takes a process.

So, what would happen on earth, if our physical materials were all sound, meaning solid and sturdy? And what would happen is the men of earth realized the importance of all parts being equal, and simply being a point of reference, to care with the end outcome being to captain the physical world and all its parts, in ways that each part is a captain in its own right, as a physical form, in space and time, that is working with a group of men, where the collective tasks are because a man cannot do more than one thing at a time, within large endeavors, and must share the focus? If each part were respected for the simplicity of what it is, as a necessary part, there would be no need for a “ captain of industry.” To have such, and to allow “ more”  money to flow to such, having aggrandized such a position of focus, when in essence all such is doing is looking at the horizon, ( and perhaps not, just aligning the parts - which is another task ONLY ) is a value judgement. It is an idea that one is more than another, when in practical physical reality it is not, it is just another aspect of focus.  Would not the belief that one is more than another, or that one alone can make the decision to organize this world really be an impossibility? That we have a system of compound interest, usury, where structurally a belief is allowed that gives a few the ability to hold a form in place that flows what is decided to be the means to exchange material things  and services,  and then with this, to determine the development or lack of development in men despite the ability inherent in the capability of men, as all of the physical when formed in ways that are sound?. 

In many ways, there is a debt of lack, with many men on earth, where so many are never given access to physical development and abstract development, meaning understanding something enough to direct and captain themselves and as such enter those endeavors that happen when men come together and share the  function of the whole- which, actually, is every moment of life.

Also, the aggrandized, fear those in lack becoming aware that everything as life is capable over time of becoming aware, even when slowed down, due to physiologically needing time to take care of weaknesses in physical structure- and here, actually creating with the purpose of slowing down full awareness and capacity within and without as awareness allowance and structural soundness.

All of this, creates a busyness that takes away from what can be a solid and stable function, as life on earth, had it been accepted that no one thing on this earth is more than another, had no value judgements been made and then embedded into a system. This is how hierarchy is built, and it is of limitation, by the nature of it ordering and then having to maintain such order, through limiting access to sound structure, and clear measure of seeing practical reality as the forms that we create and use to captain ourselves as life, here.

Each person, on earth, at this point must forgive the accumulation of a belief that one thing is more than another. We must accept that we have become walking value judgements, in self interest, and stop.

Each person must realize that what we believe is a collection of values, that we are using to define us, where not all is “ bad” but that such values are aspects of what is means to exist as life, and that the order we have accepted over eons of time is one of value accumulation within realizing that awareness of understanding from all perspective is of value in itself . But it is the awareness of here that is the value, and not just becoming aware of something and then labeling oneself as being this value ONLY. And then, within this, placing one person who happens to have an awareness developed as more than another, and then creating a system that holds this value accumulation in place, to make sure that no one takes your inner value away as your awareness. I mean , it is being aware and as such interacting that is the value, so if one part is not respected and allowed development as this, the awareness becomes stagnant and the attention of maintaining a value gained is a stagnating act. I mean, if we were sound within ourselves,  and learned something new, and realized that this learning demanded in itself a mutable ability, then that changeability, that reformation ability, that transformative ability would mean that nothing could be lost, ever, because one can learn, one can transform, one can understand, one can focus, one can learn to captain oneself!  Humanity is really,  being petulant ( ill mannered- ill tempered) and as such immodest as in lacking humility. Petulant comes from petere, which means to aim at, and immodest is not being moderate, is being impudent. Impudent is not giving something respect, which is not focusing in common sense, as an agenda, an aim is allowed, without realizing one is of the same form as another, as life, and that the form must be sound in order for things to function and that nothing can be lost, so there need be no “ aim” because the only real aim is sound formation. Such a small measure of an inner usurious act, can compound over time, this inner wanting to bypass a connection to being in form that needs the total form to move a ship across the water of earth, where the very nature of the substance of self is one that is mutable, able to understand sound formations, within and without, that needs only the process of becoming aware of it, and as such there is no rush, there is only the joy of the being of sound formation. The irony of the illusion as mind as a belief is really one of limitation, and when and if we wake up, this illusion, this separation from life, will be realized the the petulance that it is.

If we look around at this earth, what we see is a stagnation of life to the point where the earth is dying, slowly but surely.  And, the laws being written, are to hold this stagnation in place, because of a value judgement that one part of a machine is more than another that is only a belief. 

But, this happened because each person, every human, had defined themselves as a value, instead of realizing that it was becoming aware of the physical, as sound formation being an expression, as being the value.  A system, as our present money system, is by design a system of lack to prevent awareness, when the solution is to cultivate awareness because awareness is how a respect for life is developed. Awareness of how each part is cared for with respect to the whole, and for each part to be a focus of care, each part must have the ease to express themselves as life.

As we stand now, each part is dealing with behavioral issues of the consequence of suppression of development, getting all jumbled up.  Instead of admission of this, what is presented is an idea - because the hope and “ positive” face value that if a good is touted, everything will even out eventually. But, things can only even out when an action is taken, that gives from the get go, what prevents suppression. The only way to awareness is to cultivate awareness.Practically, a direct democracy would focus us into considering all things as being of value because what happens on earth effects all of us and participating in what is going on directly, as the measure of resource use and movement, needs the insight of every point of the form of life, which is earth. As we can see, a few making decisions, is not working. We must all become equal to and one with what is the from of life, as earth and participate, which means supporting one another to have each become sound within and equal to our world without. It is the only measure, the only balance, the only way..

Because of what has been built as a system, based on value judgements of one thing being more than another, one human being more than another, based on the means to build as money, and the access to what develops awareness and express awareness as words - the secret code only a few have access to- is to flow the means of access to all, which is money at present. Money can be an organizational measure to do what it is presently doing in the opposite way. At present money is monitored to flow to a few, we simply change this unit of measure, and allow money to flow to all, enough so that the basic needs are met, so that each can become aware and slow down in dealing with accepted and allowed, structurally embedded, systems of suppression, which is limitation. Within this, so much fear is removed, and the ability to begin to take care, to captain oneself, as  a part of the machine of life, which is earth, can begin to wake up and become aware, so that each is a captain of industry, the expression of life- to be industrious, a “ formation” of dust that is in an expression of life in an order that is of sound structure in stability, harmony, communication. This is creation, this is life information. This is what we all really enjoy doing, which is giving, forgiving ourselves as life as our sound form, being creators, being captains of creation, stewards of earth.

Day 545 The Spin

The Spin

I went to this conference and this woman explained this system. She spoke for quite some time. But she said very little. It was like a deja vu in words, so to speak. Like there were phrases that one could make one statement, but instead went round and round as a follow through that was a repetition of the first phrase that used some different words but was the same thing. Again and again.

While she was talking, I listened, because I am practicing listening to another all the way without doing anything else but listening. I became very restless, squeamish. It was like I wanted to scream. I remember being this way as a child in a classroom. But I could not explain why.

Later as I looked back at this, it hit me how words are sound, how we are a sound movement, and  that when we are using our words to describe, as this woman did, that when words are energy, they are describing very little dimension, so they have no real volume. As such, words can fill the space, speak the same limitation again and again, and the limitation can be a lack of placing what the words describe into a context that sees the whole, that aligns with the whole, so the words and what they describe are not good or bad, but limited and lacking context in totality.

The positive and negative charge, as reactions, can be within a bubble as this when one wants to clarify within the limitation as the words of another because one can become lost in the spin of the limitation. Here it is to see the whole of what someone is saying and giving it perspective - as in standing back and remembering the context, as in what a schools and teaching is about, as in building a child that can become an effective adult. But, if this is not taught as a movement from the beginning, this is not the practice of men. The absence of which, if allowed to accumulate, would build conflict instead of resolution between men. As we can see, the state of being of men as a whole, is not aligned to the contest of the whole. The consequence is perpetual conflict. So, those who “ win” simply use the consequential conflict in self interest. If we understood that much, each of us would have done the same. This is why there is only self forgiveness, and forgiveness for all the limiting forces caught in this spin as each level caught in limited measure as the system around us imposed on the biggest part of the whole, the physical world that is life information.

I have been standing up and speaking with people, and at times I get restless, like I am rushing within, and at the same time, trying to be aware of what I am doing, how I am responding, how I am reacting. I have allowed myself to hold onto a goal, and raced with this. But in so doing, I conceptually missed the measure of another within the total insight as to what they were as a measure of expression.

Within and as this I lost the ability to conceptualize within the parts and the whole. I was too busy spinning around wanting to justify, to give justice to what I had to say, and in so doing began to race against space and time information conceptually. And within this, I mean being aware of where I was, who I was, what was moving as the world around me.

I mean , this can happen in music, where one is performing with others who have different parts. If the measure of each part is not hearing the other, there is no alignment happening within the piece, if there is a “ technical understanding” with each performer on each part and everything is aligned, the piece ends up being either chaos, or like different voices that are not aware of one another. When each is aware of the other, they are aware of the physical space and the moving parts, and can move as one, together. So, if there is a mis-step, all align within it. There is also the dimension of bringing one part forward and another becoming quiet, because music can be moving in many different ways, and the awareness of this as a whole can create the total form of the musical piece. And, lol, one can get to the point where one realizes the piece one is playing is really flat, as in not having much interplay or dimension use. It is interesting that in educational research, children who study music have a greater conceptual ability, and often are hired as managers because of this. Overall, this tells us how as humans we are able to see space and time, and we are able to read the movement of the world around us, as though we are the perfect machines/organic robots to do so. But this begs the question as to why there are any children who lack this innate capacity as what we are, and within this lack, exist as behaviors that are in essence destructive to this natural ability to be self directive in ways that do no harm? Such allowance is a crime against life.

If I am raging within ideas, as mind, I am not in common sense of here. I become a thin volume repeated again and again. I have to with every breath become the context of here, as physical reality, to see the spin as mind of another, who is not saying anything bad or good, just magnified within and on the context of physical space and time which in total is the sound of here as life, as this is the only place life could be information, living and breathing.

And, because, here withstands the test of the spin as the mind - which must repeat itself endlessly to survive because it has no real equality to life information contextually, I need not fear not understanding something because the spin of the mind is repetitive and as such there is eternity to grasp its limitation and to bring this back into balance with the physical. lol

So, in essence, there is no place to fall but here, no matter the emotional storm spinning around as mind, here. But, if I have one moment of wanting to win, or one moment of getting off kilter, I lose the capacity to realign and balance out within and as equality with the whole as the physical being life in sound motion, with myself as sound mind. Sound motion, is gentle and forgiving as it is building life, so to speak.

So, it is like to slow down to speed up, to stop the spin of the mind existent as a measure of judgement, and to become practical, the practice of remaining here, within the context, of the physical life information, the cutting edge of creation, here.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to believe that there is something to win, as i am here.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to dis-regard life, here.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to shame myself with stories as mind, and allowing and accepting myself to make this more real than the life around me as the physical, not seeing realizing and understanding that in my separation from life, I seek life, and it is here, cradling me with every breath, right under my feet.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not see, realize and understand that physically, as I allow myself to race forward as idea as mind, I create a friction, like a windshield in and as my chest area, that is myself racing forward in space and time as beliefs, opinions and ideas, as my heart is tied to belief, instead of equal and one, in measure of here, as the physical, in common sense of that which I ironically seek, which is life information, that is here with every breath.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to fear falling, and to not slow down within and as this, to see, realize and understand that this falling is a sensation within and as my mind, that is at times like a deceleration, in no longer allowing myself to exist as a fantasy in and as the mind, where the measure as an idea may not be good or bad, but is in separation from being equal to the physical, here, and that within this, when there is friction and conflict, it is to slow down and realize that the measure of separation is a limitation that speaks its separation again and again, like a deja vu, and as such is a gift exposing separation and can be brought back to here and placed into the context of the whole as the physical cutting edge of and as creation as life information.  Thus, when and as I react as an emotion of feelings based on idea as mind where the good projection hides the judgement of a bad, as overall what i am defining myself in and as, and because of am not stable and constant, gentle and humble, self directive and self responsible in ways that balance out conflict and friction, I am in effect, not equal and one to and with, and as life here.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to race against space and time.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not see, realize and understand that when and as I become reactive, I am in conflict with life, as the physical here.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not see, realize and understand that the “ smoke and mirrors “ show of the mind, as limitations that are not good or bad, but as limitations if carried out in deed can cause harm to physical reality, can become the directive of me, within and as the point of life information as a human being here, only if I accept and allow this, thus as this I am responsible for what I accept and allow with and as every breath, here.

i forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand that only as, as the point i am here, as a physical manifestation in and as life, can be the directive that is equal and one with the physical information of life, that is all around me, in every moment, and that within this the irony is that i am never alone, because I as life information as a physical entity, am all one, and thus, as mind, I am the creator of the spin of my separation from and as life, as I have accepted and allowed the construct of myself as mind, here.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not see realize and understand that the separation from life, as how mankind has lived has been going on for generations, and as such the separation “ measure” is imbedded within our DNA, as this is the imprint of our actions, which science is now measuring as it is realized that memories are carried through generations of men, which is a tradition understood in the words passed down from each subsequent generation as, “ the sins of the fathers” thus the measure of our separation must be forgiven and that within this there is no one to blame because blaming the dead, is not a solution, and the dead cannot be punished because they are dead. lol

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand that this separation, because it is intergenerational and carried within the physical, and continued through acceptance and allowance as the behavior of each of us, as points on the ground of what holds this separation within, manifest as thought and word, carried into deeds that are the consequence of each individual acceptance and allowance, and the collective generational acceptance and allowance,  that this has accumulated into a system design without as the present system, as it reflects the within separation of men, and as such must be realized as a reflection of the same separation within, as the starting point, thus, it is also to realize that the debt accumulation as the present fiat system of money, is one and as the same movement as what each is allowing and accepting within as the expression of ourselves into a lesser volume of life, that is energy spinning around and consuming the flesh of ourselves as we separate from life, instead of standing one and equal to and with the sound of life as the physical, to become what we are in equal measure to be able to walk through the eye of the needle which is the physical, and as such to become equal and one, to that what we seek, to and as life, here.

When and as I find myself moving within as any measure of restlessness, or squeamishness, I stop and I breath and I slow myself down, and I listen to the repetitive words as an energetic expression having no real volume in equal measure to the physical, as being the answer, the solution in the nature of its repetition, and I move into and as solution, within and as aligning/directing into the context of the whole, as consideration, as best as I am able because I have not been taught/ have not accepted and allowed life,  to be this which is no one’s “ default” but my own, and I use the principle of what is best for all, as being the consideration of the physical, which is the cutting edge of creation, which is what allows me to be an expression of life, here, and I use practical common sense to place a limitation - within and without- into and as the context of life, here.

When and as I find myself generating restlessness, as friction and conflict within and as me, I stop and i breath and I slow myself down, and I practice removing myself from the spin of the mind, as beliefs, opinions and ideas that I forgive myself for in the moment, and I stop the racing of my heart in relation to mind, and I bring myself here, to become of and as sound mind, equal and one with the sound movement of the physical, as that which is sound, meaning stable and constant and as such is what allows the physical form and function of life, that has remained constant because it stands in all its transformation, as that which withstands the test of time, here, and as this I slowly begin to circulate with and as life, as the physical, here.

When and as I find myself becoming uncertain within and as listening to another, I stop and I breath, and I slow myself down, and I speak only when I can place a limitation within the context of the whole, without any expectation of gain, or fear of loss, because it is only when I am equal to the measure of here, as life , as the physical can I become, in thought, word and deed, the living word, in and as what is best for all, as what is best for all, is best for self, here.

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Day 537 Going into Mind Consciousness Self Forgiveness

So much knowledge and information as what I have learned, as what I was taught to believe as how I measure this world, has me comparing and competing based on a limited framework of survival. The mechanism of the social contract accepted and allowed by men, where money determines one’s ability, one’s opportunity, and as such, one’s development. This happens by degree on so many levels, and as we are physically living in a relatively small circle, we get caught up in the immediate measure of our world only, and lose sight of the total structure of the world, the systems, the consequences in detail, about what is happening. And while we are in our daily lives, the apparatus of the world around us, as the system makes small incremental changes over time, and before we know it, as we see happening in America, the money system has shifted to one of extreme inequality.

Yet, this extreme inequality has been around for a very long time. Were it not then there would be no starving children. Since we have not taken care of the dis-ease, it has only grown. And this dis-ease has two forms, one of greed, and one of lack, one of excessive accumulation of money and goods, and the other side of this coin, children dying of starvation and environmental pollution.

This coin, of extremes, the consequential polarities the faces of this coin, are in total the limitation that in itself is a separation from common sense. And common sense is what is lost when we remain within small circles of understanding. This understanding ONLY in our immediate environment, without being responsible for what is happening all over this world.

This is really why the only solution is the realization that we are all equal in substance, because it will allow a respect for the whole, the full potential of an innate common sense that at the moment has only been trained to look at the immediate environment instead of this immediate environment and the events and movements going on around this world as a measure of what life as earth is.  Each part of this environment is connected to the one next to it, thus it is all connected. Our common sense is to be equal to the measure of the physical and its expression. Our words must be equal to a clear, living, measure of here, where we can then begin to see the patterns and thus form of not only what we have allowed within, but also, that which is the physical in expression, as this is the way to equality with what we are as life. The chaos of the mind, in a measure of very limited value judgement, as an idea that one thing is more than another, is very limited.

So, when I realize I have gone back into a limited awareness as the information in and as my mind, I stop and I breath, and I slow myself down, and I notice how I am moving. Am I comparing, am I existing as definition about another, in relation to myself, which means I am defining myself, judging myself in a bubble, based on taught criteria so I don’t fall into the extreme as the side of the coin of poverty and starvation. I see where I am fearing to lose opportunity, and or believing I have to defend some accusation that would limit me as a definition,  and realize that this in total is not what I am here. I exist on a physical planet, that is life in form, as this is how life would be, and I look here, in common sense, which is the principle of what is best for all, and realize that limitations cannot define me, so to let them go, and stand here. ALone. I mean, if I cannot create and interact with others in ways that allow communication and understanding in ways that are at ease, where there is security and trust, I am wanting another to be responsible for me, to accept my limited and as such unstable response, the asking for the state of being not equal to here. If I can’t be responsible for myself here with certainty, then how can another be responsible if they end up carrying my lack of responsibility? As the form of what we are here as humans, the only choice is to allow the full potential of each to stand as such, because this is how we each become responsible. And as this is a physical world, what is needed to be responsible, such as clean water, education, opportunity, shelter, food - solid food, the absence of such is us not looking at what we are in common sense. And if we are not existing in common sense then we become separated from that which allows us to simply be here.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not see, realize and understand when and as I go into mind, and begin to compare instead of look here at the common sense of physical reality.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to separate from here, from a common sense of here, into and as a very limited system of values, where I warp into an idea of a good and a bad, a loss and a gain, begin to compare, and compete, in ways that are protection and defense, instead of looking at the measure of the actual physical world that enables me to exist as life, and remeasure what exists as the whole, remediate to balance out the extremes of lack, as starvation, poverty, environmental degradation, limited insight from a lack of education and opportunity for development, to see, realize and understand that the very measure of the physical world as what I use to look here, has to slow down and breath to return to a sense that is a constant in all things as life and consider all things, that are the same as myself , of the same substance of and as life, and realize in thought , word and deed what would allow all men to stand in understanding of the whole, and in self responsibility for the immediate physical environment, to become a #waveofaction that withstands the test of time and builds an earthly existence that is in balance, realized in actually living on this planet where no matter where one went, the basic needs of every person was met, and as such, an earth that is living its full potential.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to believe that where I live and what I live in defines me, as myself as an American, where this is extremely limited, as there are those who live in extreme poverty, and have no moment to self discover in dignity themselves as life in full potential.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand that when and as I  compare myself to another, it is for me to slow down, to stop and to breath, and to realize the pattern of limited beliefs in separation from common sense of physical life formation and look at what is here and how what decisions I make can only be made in ways that are best for all.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not see, realize and understand when and as I find myself going into imagination to rebuild instead of remaining here, equal and one to and as the physical world as this is the real formation of and as life here.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not equalize myself to and as the physical, to become a sound mind awareness of and as the actual real physical world that is me, as I am it, as this is the very formation of life, here.

When and as I find I am no longer breathing I slow myself down, I look to what imagination, held tight, fleeting, I accepted and allowed, and I bring myself here, equal and one with and as the physical.

When and as I find myself fearing to lose some self definition based on a limited value system, I stop and I breath and I slow myself down, and I see , realize and understand that I can only be here, face what is directly here, and as such, to answer to here, which is to be responsible to here, the limited values in and as my mind, built in separation from a consideration of all life are an extremely limited measure of here and I see realize and understand that as such I separate myself from my full potential in and as life, here.

When and as I find myself allowing an emotional/feeling self definition, I slow myself down and I see, realize and understand the thought as an aspect of reality in judgement based on what is an idea only about one thing being more than another, and I stop and I breath, and I balance this into common sense of practical physical reality, within and as what would be best for all, as what would allow the full potential of life to exist.

When and as I find myself comparing myself to an idea, I stop and I breath, and I slow myself down, and I see realize and understand that values I believe will define me for better or worse as idea, and I attend to the emotions and feelings and the beliefs that define them, and I see realize and understand that such cannot withstand the test of time as what is best for all, as what allows the expression of life to exist as the very sound of life information, that works in ways that do no harm, as this is the way and the means as the measure of life here.

Day 514 through the veil - to be directive in the way of becoming of sound mind.

I have been looking at facing other people, talking with them, interacting with them and remaining non-reactive, non protection and self defense, non-paranoid of the supernatural energetic emotions, and feelings as the mind. I have to slow down and not react, and within this see myself and attempt through the veil - to be directive in the way of becoming of sound mind, which is life, which is in practice to do what is best for all.

So, two things, I want to pull together here. Aggression and this outline of how to consult that I read in another blog. It was a format of: Pain Spotting, Perspective Taking, Story Telling, Framing, and Probing, before consultation.

I have been working with some kind of knot/not in my heart. Last night it was so intense, so I looked at my day. I had spent some time talking with people. During this time I had remained within breath. I noticed how I wanted to move towards an agreement with the person with whom I talked. I had to breath, slow down and let myself “ agree” and then become “ divergent” in moving through my own habits, through monitoring NOT remaining in an emotion or feeling as in holding that emotion and/or feeling, and looking at the belief in terms of playing with the perspective, listening or telling a story/movement to show understanding, then framing a possible or ‘in development’ framing - as walking into what continued agreement- without any sense of rushing/gain/security allowance ( or my heart starts to react- like I want the ‘good’ love, lol),  and then probing to understand the attitude - lol - latitude of insight so that I can then walk together with the person into understanding.

So, it is to agree and understand in order to agree and understand. It is to face the aggression as the attitude of separation, the pain, and to agree and understand, to then frame an agreement and understanding that moves into a solution with rewards. I have to not fear facing the existent framework, and can agree with the aggression and realize it cannot hurt me to agree because  it is a session of agreement in a moment, to see an existential framework, to understand and build a framework of, because I cannot think in terms of solution until I have enough of an understanding to work with the attitude in ways that use divergent thinking ability, or a sound mind, a fluid, mutable, playful, directive process of latitudinal ( lol) perspective causing the pain/limitation.

I have carried a statement about aggression within me that I have allowed an emotion of anger towards. I have the thought, “ I can’t stand aggression.” I have even gone so far as to label people as “ aggresives.”  Like a catch word. And I have this because I become defensive when I am faced with what I call aggression.

But, aggression, is, for me, like a session of being forced to agree. And as this, I can agree, meaning I can acknowledge and make sure I understand the thing being lived as, as an agreement about something, so I can  frame an understanding, and make this clear, but this does not mean I must remain within that agreement in action. I can understand through agreement and then move/follow through into playing with the state of understanding and asking questions about it, probe the framework/understanding and then reformat and direct, as a process with the framework as the attitude of the other, together. So, the ghost in the machine, need not become my agree session, but can be agreed upon and played with, like a ball, probed and thrown to the wind - so to speak- lol- to be directed TOGETHER into solution. So, aggression is a session of agreement to discover and agree and then to journey into more awareness. In trying to understand something, as in coming into an agreement, there can be no rush, no desire, no fear of not being able to understand. Like, okay, lets reach an agreement of mutual understanding, lets see the pain, the friction and make sure we mutually understand the factors, and go from there. So, it is to suspend any idea and build a framework because no decisions or agreements can be made until the total framework has been understood.  I mean, I can only be, here, right where I am, and I cannot move in ways that are best for all, until I take the time to investigate. And this means, having a direct connection and understanding of the problem, and I can’t make any movement until this part is done, and whatever I agree to in understanding as a process of building a framework is not my self agreeing to continue to understand So, I let any reactions go, within or without.  I mean, at this point, there is nothing defining me because I am agreeing to understand only, I am not agreeing to action. This is careful interplay, before the process of creation. So, I can wear my heart on my sleeve and open it up and feel, without a fear of loss and hope for gain, without insecurity and rush for security,  in fear of self definition of lack based on idea, because I am taking the time to come to an agreement of understanding only of what is here.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to fear aggression.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to fear agreement.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to fear a loss, as in believing I am defined by one moment only.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to believe in aggression,

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to become passive in the face of aggression

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not question the state of being, the belief, opinion and idea behind aggression.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to face aggression from a starting point of protection and self defense.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to limit myself to agreeing with aggression.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to fear standing equal and one to aggression, believing that this can define me.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not see, realize and understand that aggression is  a scream of pain and as such can be understood and agreed to in a moment, to then be formatted and questioned again to then deconstruct/reformat/play with/looked at divergently in relation to practical application to become an agreement that can be stood with and understood in clarity and common sense and as such practiced.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not see , realize and understand that aggression can be a lie by omission, a preemptive strike, a one sided platform of presentation of knowledge and information, which is a crime against life, and that when reacted to and defined and touted as the blame of limitation, I stop and I breath, and I see realize and understand that it is to come together and understand and see the agreements made and agree the make the necessary changes that have accepted and allowed aggression instead of agreement.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to become intimidated by aggression and to remain within this state of being only, not looking through to consequence, and as such taking the time to investigate the starting point, bringing it back to self, realizing what I fear being defined as, what I fear losing as a self definition, what I use to hide as a consequence of believing what I have, how I have been educated, what experiences I use to validate myself as a more than, who I am culturally, class wise, gender wise as values used to define me, what I fear to be defined as, in relation to a limited system of order that is in separation from realizing that the physical world is life, equal and one and as such is to be valued, where life is the value.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand that aggression is a form of agreement, a presentation as an idea, opinion and belief, that cannot be agreed upon until all understand and agree in understanding what is agreed upon with self investigation that creates a common sense that enables self direction, self responsibility, self trust, thus, the way and the means to agreement on earth is to make clear what is agreed upon so that all may participate and create a society that creates through understanding what is here in form and function, to agree in session of and as a collective of men standing in respect, equal and one with the physical world as life, where life is the value.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to attempt to placate aggression, and as such agreeing with what is a coerced agreement not seeing realizing and understanding that in not investigating all consequence, realizing what has been made a statistical mean, has ignored extremes, and then rendered them as “externalities” to support a very limited design on earth, by men, that does not stop, slow down, and realize the systemic structure of money flow, as wealth flow created by generations of men/labor, must respect the form as the physical world, here as this is the real way and means of life, as the physical world is the manifested form of life, before any human structure of hierarchy, and as such the circulatory structure of earth as nature works , and is the model of life.