The distraction of the #obstructionist Day 779

Usually, in the morning I wake up and something comes forward within me. This morning, subsequent to talking to someone the day before about learning, what came up is how what we inform ourselves, as what we allow to be placed within ourselves and comes to automate the body. Much like a vaccine is supposed to automatically protect us from a potential pathogen. 

We supposed a future event, and we supposed how something works, and we rush to prevent that event, or look for another way to inform us. Schools as they are now formed, are meant to prepare us for the ‘ real’ world ( of adults).  We go to memorize a form, as a scaffold, of information to ‘ ready’ us for the ‘ real world.’ How can integrating a set body of information, without real experience, lend real knowing? 

Juxtapose this to ‘ forms’ that have come to me in conversations as “ I can’t meditate,” or “ I tried to learn a musical instrument, but I just could not get it.”  Both of these responses show a lack of real self discipline, or, a loss of an ability to FOCUS. How is what is natural come to be believed as something impossible? 

What is it that distracts one from focusing? What is it that distracts one from what we do every day, as focus on something? Why is it that we cannot focus on something that is right here, right in front of us? Could it have to do with forcing something into us, as information without real living practical application? 

We understand that when we practice something, it begins to move with more ease, as automate, meaning, we do not have to “think” about it as much, meaning we do not have to focus on the movement as much because our ability in focusing on it, allows it to be so well known that we can move through it much faster. Our ability to process the form increases in tandem with our ability to place our presence within something. This would mean that we direct what we focus on, and that what we focus on integrates and expedites with recognition within and as our ability to move through it. 

This begs the question as to what we are informing our children as, as memorizing information in a box, in a school? Considering the compounding out of synch behaviors in so many children, can we not realize that a lack of real focus ability is and can only be a consequence of misinforming ourselves? Have you ever really slowed down to LOOK at an autistic child.

Would someone who was mis-informed, become increasingly frustrated to the degree that their lack of effective in - formation causes a reaction of violence/ resistance/ lack of ease, as what frustration is, because what has become to be automated does not allow real self direction in reality? And would a child by the time they are in their late twenties realize that a quarter of their life has passed - because they do have awareness - and that they have no real self control because the information they absorbed is not effective in tandem with their physical dysfunction that in itself is a mis-use of self as life as a starting point absorbed by body in reflecting this same state from one’s environment, that they become so angry, so frustrated there is nothing else but to express complete and udder con- fusion of their lack, because they are a CON- fusion of information that is not lending effective focus and self directive capacity leading to a real effective self creation?  If one really LOOKS is this not what one would see, or realize on some level? We are the most effective machines that can sense this, which reveals great capacity. By and as our real natures, we do want to sort this out, just as, as children, we move to sort, to understand, to absorb and frame, to desire to participate. These drives are natural. We know them. We can forgive what hinders this real nature. 

As well, why are we not using the function of the physical body, as that very thing informed, the way the body was meant to be, as processing viruses and bacteria through the lens of itself, as the layers of the body that “ read” and process what is physically here? Why are we forcing such, directly into the body, like a short cut, without realizing and respecting the functioning of the “ real world” as the physical world that we are supposedly “ preparing” out bodies for? 

Supposedly, the system makes of each a commodity, based on potential growth and “ creation” as a being on earth, via trading one’s projected potential and worth as a sum of money, as being one’s “ account” from which one borrows. Overall, this means that a financial system does the same, a future projection, as an entity, as a structure, assuming the life of one, for gain, of which one has no control, as one borrows on potential and pays back more than what one borrowed, causing a game of musical chairs where inevitably one does not find a seat as one has no control over one’s potential having abdicated it to some authority as a belief that one is not enough, yet that ‘ not enough’ is the false morality accepted and allowed, only seen through a rejection of reality, as the physical and real landscape called life in what it must be, which is creation, as what the physical world is. 

All of the above are scaffolds as forms, working to suppress and control each and every one. This can only have the authority we give it. If comes back to each not realizing effective use of what self as within and as how the physical world works and is the means to learn to express the life that is one. If one cannot master one’s focus, and one’s body is trying to move backwards in a way, against it own natural ability to process, and one is in a construct where the monetary digits of one’s “ creative worth’ are all forms of con-fusing who and what one is, and one does not realize this, as one is so distracted from a lack of real and equal structural awareness to the physical as mis-informed theory ONLY without practical application, where is the beingness of ourselves going to end up?  What is cognitive dissonance? 

Human beings are happy when they really know something. There is a calm sense of expression, and within that, a more clear way forward to the next step. When we really know something, we are no longer thinking, as nothing was ever done through thinking about it, it is, when effective, done with really KNOWING something, that ability to be the master of one’s self, and place one’s presence in something within an effective self direction of one’s presence into the real and living thing as the physical form. 

Thus, when we tell ourselves that “ we cannot do something,” as understand and KNOW something, within effective self direction, we are revealing ourselves to ourselves, as having lost an ability to focus effectively.  And, since we inform as automate what we practice, the lack of focus would mean that there are resonant forms within us, we follow, that are distracting us from real and effective and natural focus on reality. 

Within all of this, what would the proverbial “ eye of the needle’ really mean?  What would it mean when someone says “ we should be able to hear the grass grow” ? It would mean that who and what we really are, is the capacity to KNOW, to really sense, to really see what is that “ reality’ we are supposedly prepared for as adults! 

Therefor, hope without action is meaningless, faith without command is pointless, and knowledge and information without the experience of practical application is useless. Each without living awareness in practical application, is the outcome of a mis-informed set body of information, and a informed inner resonant scaffold that is mis-using the presence that is the means of focusing on the small, the large, and the relationships between physical things as expressions as life that are who and what we are, that are all of the same substance, that are all here in plain sight. 

The way to real happiness, is to focus on the physical, to the degree that one would understand that one could with steady and consistent practice, build a stable ability to place one’s presence into the form and function of that instrument, to effectively build the ability to be in union with that instrument, just as one did with one’s body before all the information of and as the dogma of religion and politics were absorbed as the limited forms of belief, from an environment where the human beings were already a construct of mis-information! ( which reveals to us the great sensibility that is inherent our capacity! ) 

We have to ask ourselves what we see when we have someone standing in front of us that we realize has a huge emotional firewall around them. We have to ask ourselves why there exists any form of conflict within all of this? As the resistance to becoming one with an instrument is a reflection of one’s natural ability not being in effective movement and focus. And, this means that one has lost control of one’s natural ability to be and do so. It means that one is not focused HERE. It means that what one ‘ thinks’ one knows, is distracting one from real presence in reality.  One’s within, is not equal to the without. One’s resonant information, is followed ABOVE what is real, as that instrument, as the grass growing. When one finds one’s self shaking, as a reaction to something - perhaps another form of resonant information- it means that one is reacting in the same expression as flight and fight mode within not realizing that one’s resonant information is being questioned or believed to be in threat where one is stuck in one’s resonant idol of information. That reaction, as resistance, is but a smaller form of that autistic child who has by the time they are in their late twenties, the same form of violence as frustration in not being able to move effectively in this “ reality” that we are supposed to be “ prepared for” within our present educational system. 

It is a math of inequality. 

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself  to abdicate my own and natural self responsibility as life.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not see, realize and understand this life, this reality, this physical expression of life, here, in plain sight.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to do the real math of and as the physical.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand that when and as I react, as shake within and as my body, I am revealing myself to myself, within and as not being in synch with who and what  I am as a physical being, as realizing all things in expression are relationships of and as values, composing life, as all that is, that is here, and would by design be physical.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand within and as me, as resistance to here, being a separation of and as limited values, as a picture, as sound components as words, allowed and accepted by me,in myself not realizing that all is me, here, of and as the same substance of and as what becomes expression in formation, here, as the physical.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not see, realize and stand equal and one to and with what is here all around me, as a living relationship in and of and as expressing life.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and stand with to correct what friction and conflict I allow within me, that has a nature of a subtle to greater movement of shaking, as behaviors of wanting to run away, or wanting to push against, or wanting to deny, or wanting to gain something, based on my own inner ideological idol of information , resonant and separate, moving more slowly, though appearing to move fast, as the story of information I accepted in separation from being in practical application with what is real and what is all around me, is a limited story line that I can move through as a construct with seeming speed, just as I am able once I really know an instrument, for example, as I gain mastery I can move with more ease within that form, so does my imagination of limited information as a construct of values of and as limited relationships charged with values and of and as a state of not really knowing something, and thus causing and living a dis-ease manifest in the very movements of and as my body, of which is now in extreme behaviors of separation existent in increasing degrees as the children with autism, that reflect lesser extremes of the same behaviors, in the world around me, and thus I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand my own separation from being present and equal to here, that which I am able to be, as the capacity towards separation can also be the capacity towards equality and oneness with what is real, as the physical.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see realize and understand that when and as I find myself complaining, I am not being present and in relation to what is real as the physical world here.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see realize and understand that movements within and as me as muscle tensions are myself living the information I accepted and allowed to define me, that does not automate my presence, into being at ease and in communication with and as what is here, that is the same as me, as the physical.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and stand with, inequality and oneness, what is here, and resisting this within and as ignoring what is right in front of me, here, as the physical.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand that  within and as my separation I am quite literally watching a shadow world in and as my mind, where the knowledge and information I accepted and allowed is within my physical body, in the very muscles as these muscles are what tense up, as restrict as the information I accepted and allowed as me, does not fit, is not equal to, what is real, as the physical, and when and as I focus on this limited resonant construct I lose all real focus on this reality, and move to force my resonant belief system onto this reality, to survive, in self interest, and in some place within myself, I realize what it is that I am doing, and the real shame within and as me, is this realization that I see, realize and understand what it is that I am allowing, and for this I forgive myself.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand that all my resistance in and as my behaviors of in effect self hate, as they are myself in resistance to life as the physical as the practical here.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see realize and understand that, for example, when I do not recognize a person I have known more from a distance, and upon meeting them up close without recognition, I am revealing myself to myself as living within set planes of time, as value judgements indicating a separation from being in awareness as being present, in this physical and practical reality here, as this is life, as this is creation here. 

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to trust myself, within and as realizing to some extent what I was seeing within my autistic nephew, before Desteni, where I asked the question through describing what I was seeing within him, that he looked like he was completely out of synch in some way, like a mix up of all the anxieties within my family, thus, I can see, realize and understand what is here as the separation from who and what we really are as life.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand that when and as I resist something, within and as seeing here, sensing something is out of tune, to stop and NOT ONLY define, and realize separation within and as my secret self, but to bring this forward and speak up, to speak out, beyond reactions as all reactions are the process of sorting things out, and are but a slow processing as a dimension of a sequence of belief, as a timed event, in a world of and as no time, as the physical as being present, and to see realize and understand by degree as the small ignored as the practical, to bring things back down into focus here, to rebuild presence in equality and oneness with and as what is real here, as the physical.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand that my nephew, in his teens when visiting walks around in his own world, having conversations with himself, as so many of us do, within and as not being present here, within and as not realizing that nothing was ever solved within thinking, but in practical application here, in respect of what is real as this ‘ reality’ we are ostensibly taught to function within and as as the ‘ good’ promoted by the present school design, which is a format that though touting a good, is acting in building a separation from this reality, and the means to cause separation as manipulation of information which if accepted is the responsibility of and as being in self abdication of and as self as life here.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to abdicate myself as life.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to investigate all forms as all actions from an authority as a system of men, that is a consequence of myself not being in self responsibility of and as who and what I am as life here.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand that consequence of my own lack of real presence in this reality, here.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to be present here, in this reality.

When and as I find myself resisting, within and as being tense, as opposed to being in focus, where I know and feel more stable, as a state we all know, I stop, I breath, I slow myself down and I realize a living relationship as who and what I am to this reality here, as the physical.

When and as I find myself believing that being here means a loss of something, I stop and I breath, and I slow myself down, and I ground myself here, equal and one to who and what I am, as a living relationship, as relating to what is here, in practical applicative terms to practice rebuilding the substance in and as who and what I am as life, to see directly here, to create equality and oneness in presence of this reality here.

When and as I find myself moving into anxiety, I stop and I breath and I assess and investigate the emotional pulls as the polarities within and as me as beliefs, opinions and ideas, and I forgive what is a hyper inflated value judgement to ground myself here, equal and one within and as breath, to here, to creation that is life in formation.

When and as I find myself acting in self interest, as not considering all things I stop and I breath and I ground myself here, in the physical to respect life.

When and as I find myself moving into self pity, I slow down, I stop and I breath, and I assess myself as the focus of what I am allowing within and as projections, resistances and self imaginations to realize consequential protections and defenses as reactions of and as fear, moving into judgement, as disempowerment, as hate, a actions of blame and spite towards others and against self, into my own constructed sense of and as feeling overwhelmed and a belief in the impossible when I am possible as the ability to transform and change in a moment to not act  in self interest, as an act of separation from this living reality that is physical, to instead realize practical applications in thought word and deed in accord with this reality as creation as the physical here.

When and as I find myself reacting within and as believing something to be impossible, I stop and I breath, and I see realize and understand how my own separations are a busyness in a narrow value judgement, as words moving nowhere, to see, realize and understand that patterns of value judgements of and as protection and defense, as a shadow world of a personification of limited values, here, I stop and I breath, and I realize the pulling of the strings of value judgements as a means of manipulation with few words, probably at a sixth grade level - so to speak- as separation is composed of limitation, thus to speak to the limited construct and lend real structure to and towards bringing hyperinflation as ideas, beliefs and opinions, back down to earth, as this is the ‘ zone of proximal development “ of and as separation from self as life, here, thus to speak to that, which means to manipulate, and yet in the order of what is best for all, here, to begin to journey to reverse life, into equality and oneness here. 

Every Moment is an Opportunity Day 750

I spent time with someone yesterday and had a cool moment in hearing their perspective, as what they have lived and done in their life. It was about being in a space where within the morality, a false morality, the voices in their head was that they should not be there, and yet, or, and also, a sense that of course they could be there. They were there, they were processing what was there, they were doing the doing of what being ‘ there’ involved.

This brought up this voice within me, that I have had before of and as ‘ this cannot be so”, meaning, somehow, what is before me, as what I am to believe, simply cannot be so. I was so involved in the thing I was seeing as something that should ‘ not be so’ and my own sense of that thing ‘ not being so’ , ONLY. It is like being stuck between two things and not seeing beyond them. 

And yet, if I look at music, at the process of building and expanding within music, I can move into more than what i allow within myself as my focus as a state of being within me, as ‘ it cannot be so.” I ask myself why I did not apply what I did with myself as my actions within playing, to the greater reality around me? How is it that I could be so stuck in a limited state of being in one area, and be doing what would be the way out in another? It is like having different languages going on, where one moves and another is stagnant. 

It is moving beyond what is, actually is, as a state of being, outside of a catch 22. 

In talking with the person, who realized they had a belief about their capacity, which was practical and common sensical, and at the same time be occupied with a firewall of belief, invisible, yet distracting, consuming, as the belief system around them, that made no sense in terms of real life doing and being, I realized how important it is for the instrument that is us, to be able to see more than reaction and nebulous acknowledgement within a narrow confines of a morality that is of polarized value judgements so consuming, and yet in living reality so intangible as a relationship, meaning, regulating behavior as the invisible and illusory is made visible, that to be able to do so, to be able to begin within a tiny movement, one must step into recognition of what self is, and what is believed to exist around one, as that invisible yet determining action held in place through the power of suggestion or presumption. 

In music, one must practice extension of the self into many forms, forms in synch and forms counter to what one is sounding, where that counter force actually helps define one’s shape and form thus counter action need not be resisted.  One must have the tools, and the momentum to catch the forms, to define the illusive and the practical, to be able to be present in the observation and movable in terms of being objective and subjective. This is the nature of self as utilizing one’s awareness and not allowing one’s self to get stuck in a narrow focus. Overall there is nothing wrong with moving into a narrow focus as this is how to check one’s self, and build a more perfect spell that becomes a sentence that one speaks to stabilize one’s self here. To be able to do this, is of such value. It is what so many pay so much for, and yet, it is so as of yet, clear but by more idea than practical application. Though the divide comes more into focus the more movement one makes, lives, applies into walking this within the simplest of things as practical applications that get the natural ability of men  moving through the eye of the needle as this movement implies, is a natural changeability, a natural insight ability, a natural presence.

This was what was so cool about what I experienced yesterday, to meet someone and to see them live a moment, though needing momentum, and the means to define, as remembering a state that questioned  the difference between common sense and a false morality that made no sense.

Day 514 through the veil - to be directive in the way of becoming of sound mind.

I have been looking at facing other people, talking with them, interacting with them and remaining non-reactive, non protection and self defense, non-paranoid of the supernatural energetic emotions, and feelings as the mind. I have to slow down and not react, and within this see myself and attempt through the veil - to be directive in the way of becoming of sound mind, which is life, which is in practice to do what is best for all.

So, two things, I want to pull together here. Aggression and this outline of how to consult that I read in another blog. It was a format of: Pain Spotting, Perspective Taking, Story Telling, Framing, and Probing, before consultation.

I have been working with some kind of knot/not in my heart. Last night it was so intense, so I looked at my day. I had spent some time talking with people. During this time I had remained within breath. I noticed how I wanted to move towards an agreement with the person with whom I talked. I had to breath, slow down and let myself “ agree” and then become “ divergent” in moving through my own habits, through monitoring NOT remaining in an emotion or feeling as in holding that emotion and/or feeling, and looking at the belief in terms of playing with the perspective, listening or telling a story/movement to show understanding, then framing a possible or ‘in development’ framing - as walking into what continued agreement- without any sense of rushing/gain/security allowance ( or my heart starts to react- like I want the ‘good’ love, lol),  and then probing to understand the attitude - lol - latitude of insight so that I can then walk together with the person into understanding.

So, it is to agree and understand in order to agree and understand. It is to face the aggression as the attitude of separation, the pain, and to agree and understand, to then frame an agreement and understanding that moves into a solution with rewards. I have to not fear facing the existent framework, and can agree with the aggression and realize it cannot hurt me to agree because  it is a session of agreement in a moment, to see an existential framework, to understand and build a framework of, because I cannot think in terms of solution until I have enough of an understanding to work with the attitude in ways that use divergent thinking ability, or a sound mind, a fluid, mutable, playful, directive process of latitudinal ( lol) perspective causing the pain/limitation.

I have carried a statement about aggression within me that I have allowed an emotion of anger towards. I have the thought, “ I can’t stand aggression.” I have even gone so far as to label people as “ aggresives.”  Like a catch word. And I have this because I become defensive when I am faced with what I call aggression.

But, aggression, is, for me, like a session of being forced to agree. And as this, I can agree, meaning I can acknowledge and make sure I understand the thing being lived as, as an agreement about something, so I can  frame an understanding, and make this clear, but this does not mean I must remain within that agreement in action. I can understand through agreement and then move/follow through into playing with the state of understanding and asking questions about it, probe the framework/understanding and then reformat and direct, as a process with the framework as the attitude of the other, together. So, the ghost in the machine, need not become my agree session, but can be agreed upon and played with, like a ball, probed and thrown to the wind - so to speak- lol- to be directed TOGETHER into solution. So, aggression is a session of agreement to discover and agree and then to journey into more awareness. In trying to understand something, as in coming into an agreement, there can be no rush, no desire, no fear of not being able to understand. Like, okay, lets reach an agreement of mutual understanding, lets see the pain, the friction and make sure we mutually understand the factors, and go from there. So, it is to suspend any idea and build a framework because no decisions or agreements can be made until the total framework has been understood.  I mean, I can only be, here, right where I am, and I cannot move in ways that are best for all, until I take the time to investigate. And this means, having a direct connection and understanding of the problem, and I can’t make any movement until this part is done, and whatever I agree to in understanding as a process of building a framework is not my self agreeing to continue to understand So, I let any reactions go, within or without.  I mean, at this point, there is nothing defining me because I am agreeing to understand only, I am not agreeing to action. This is careful interplay, before the process of creation. So, I can wear my heart on my sleeve and open it up and feel, without a fear of loss and hope for gain, without insecurity and rush for security,  in fear of self definition of lack based on idea, because I am taking the time to come to an agreement of understanding only of what is here.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to fear aggression.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to fear agreement.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to fear a loss, as in believing I am defined by one moment only.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to believe in aggression,

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to become passive in the face of aggression

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not question the state of being, the belief, opinion and idea behind aggression.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to face aggression from a starting point of protection and self defense.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to limit myself to agreeing with aggression.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to fear standing equal and one to aggression, believing that this can define me.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not see, realize and understand that aggression is  a scream of pain and as such can be understood and agreed to in a moment, to then be formatted and questioned again to then deconstruct/reformat/play with/looked at divergently in relation to practical application to become an agreement that can be stood with and understood in clarity and common sense and as such practiced.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not see , realize and understand that aggression can be a lie by omission, a preemptive strike, a one sided platform of presentation of knowledge and information, which is a crime against life, and that when reacted to and defined and touted as the blame of limitation, I stop and I breath, and I see realize and understand that it is to come together and understand and see the agreements made and agree the make the necessary changes that have accepted and allowed aggression instead of agreement.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to become intimidated by aggression and to remain within this state of being only, not looking through to consequence, and as such taking the time to investigate the starting point, bringing it back to self, realizing what I fear being defined as, what I fear losing as a self definition, what I use to hide as a consequence of believing what I have, how I have been educated, what experiences I use to validate myself as a more than, who I am culturally, class wise, gender wise as values used to define me, what I fear to be defined as, in relation to a limited system of order that is in separation from realizing that the physical world is life, equal and one and as such is to be valued, where life is the value.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand that aggression is a form of agreement, a presentation as an idea, opinion and belief, that cannot be agreed upon until all understand and agree in understanding what is agreed upon with self investigation that creates a common sense that enables self direction, self responsibility, self trust, thus, the way and the means to agreement on earth is to make clear what is agreed upon so that all may participate and create a society that creates through understanding what is here in form and function, to agree in session of and as a collective of men standing in respect, equal and one with the physical world as life, where life is the value.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to attempt to placate aggression, and as such agreeing with what is a coerced agreement not seeing realizing and understanding that in not investigating all consequence, realizing what has been made a statistical mean, has ignored extremes, and then rendered them as “externalities” to support a very limited design on earth, by men, that does not stop, slow down, and realize the systemic structure of money flow, as wealth flow created by generations of men/labor, must respect the form as the physical world, here as this is the real way and means of life, as the physical world is the manifested form of life, before any human structure of hierarchy, and as such the circulatory structure of earth as nature works , and is the model of life.

Day 476 Accessing Knowledge and Information

I notice that I access data within and as me as belief, opinion and idea, as a protection and defense mechanism to try and remain standing here, within my survival environment, and within this I become very anxious. Like I use listing as knowledge and information to counteract, to control, to avoid, to destroy what I perceive as allowing this, to be what exists here.

Like I am in full combat, and my knowledge and information is my gear, a game of elimination, which is blame and spite. If I do not have enough knowledge and information I will lose.

Many times I have read something with the intent to remember it to use it to validate myself, and prove some point that if I had looked, I might have noticed the lack of substance that it had in totality, because such beliefs, opinions and ideas, were answering to a limited culture and not what existed here in totality.

Within this, the fear became bigger than realizing here, than my own common sense, hence the anxiety, because common sense has more substance than any belief system that demands a game of associations and relationship building that serves ideologies of right and wrong, more than and less than, ideas about how something should be, this in separation from an inclusion of the physical world that is right here, that is what sustains us, thus what is needed to be considered in all action, in all movement.

Someone once told me that to master something it must be done with gentleness, meaning that sensing something requires being relaxed in order to sense the thing, embrace without harm, the action the movement. I notice that my anxiety is of a state of racing, of believing there is something I want, or need, in order to find order, when the opposite is what is needed, a slowing down, an acceptance in order to see here. Breathing can aid in this, especially when the anxiety comes, because within this I am believing that if I do not have enough knowledge and information, I will fall. Living is not a race.  Living is being here understanding how the physical world functions, how it works. 

The mind accumulates what is placed before it leading to a conscious, subconscious and unconscious mind, that becomes a map of one’s perceptions, thus what goes in is what comes out, and if the within is not equal to the without, a conflict accumulates within and builds conflict without until what does not work is discarded, by then, one is older and life has gone by.  This mind is like a spiraling mechanism of  counter point, it uses polarities of good and bad, right and wrong, this causing chaos, slowing down direct seeing.  Our choice is to eat this mechanical superficial apple of good and evil or we can breath, and forgive ourselves back to what we all long for, which is our common sense, an embrace of life without conditions as beliefs. Associations of knowledge and information, like our varying layered committees of “ professionals” create an answerless society, and it is all of us that are this web, thus it is all of us that are the cause of starvation and abuse to life.  The conflict, a game of hiding and blame and spite is rejecting embracing what does no harm. This need not exist and is, by nature, destructive. And it is all held in place because of how money has been allowed to determine life.

From the beginning, understanding of physical reality leads to life, not the cognitive dissonance and misnomers of one thing being more than another, not the borders of division as the developed suits of men used to define through comparison only, the whole shebang  that which only looks at differences and not similarities, and then blaming the differences for the problems, when being different is not the problem, it is not realizing the starting point of sameness, and from here enjoying the differences.

I noticed a web site where jewelry was a image of a chemical construct, like how chemists show diagrams of certain chemicals. One can wear this way of mapping a chemical construct around ones neck as a symbol. And then, during this time, I was soaking my feet in something to get a mineral into my body, and I did this because I have rubbed garlic on my feet to see if, as I had read, I could then taste the garlic in my mouth, and it worked. So, somehow, in the way that I move, I realized that gee, if our feet can take in/sense garlic and absorb minerals then our feet must be these amazing sensing mechanisms, and we are not even using them! I mean, what if we learned to name the things our feet sensed through our other faculties, such as the taste of something in our mouths? What if we learned to understand the composition of something on the ground with our feet? It is possible, even though no one can do this at present. 

So, here I am this mind system of knowledge and information and I am spouting this and existing within a very very limited culture that is a very very limited hierarchy of control , which would be the choice of control on top of what is real as the physical, and would also within this, over time become more and more and more limited, impulsing more and more limited perceptions to blind and suppress what is innate within the human physical body, just because of a starting point of a few that their differences were somehow more than another’s and within this deciding as a belief that they/we had to control this?. This is just simply a cycle of insanity. There really are no other words for it. I mean we build machines that are of parts that function, without one part the whole simply does not work. Earth is a “ machine” and this is the value, a computer would not work if every part was at war, it would destroy itself. Which is what humans on earth are in essence doing. My associative game in my mind, as my mind, is my separation. I am ignoring my gift, my physical gifts of life, my apps, the application of myself as my physical body, with life, to be life.

Thus, and what a thought, our feet are like the greatest apps ever created and we are not using them. Instead we have externalized our capacity into technology. But, we have already done this with a belief in a god - a previous generation of referring to something other than our innate physical capacity of common sense. What all of us need to do, is accept ourselves as life, and begin to equalize, or walk ourselves back into what we are as physical beings that are the greatest “ app” available , in tandem with this “ phone” of earth, this “ fun” as the physical, to be and become our bearth-rite of passage to life.

Thus, when and as this anxiety comes up within and as me, with knowledge and information whirling around, I stop and I breath, and I look to the beliefs as the knowledge and information, and the ideas of need and want and I forgive such ideas, and bring myself here, until I am at ease, until I am humble, until I am willing the giving up of all opinion and idea as the values of my culture ( as not being the only solution because there is good within this ) , the beliefs as my past that I use to define me, the sequences of events that as my past that I use to substantiate me, and I stop and I breath, and I do not allow myself to become inferior or superior, as this is myself in protection and defense in the order of a hierarchy that is unequal to physical reality, and within this state of accepted and allowed inequality to the physical world, I become an energetic movement of anxiety as I am within judgement of relating through associations that are consequences lived out for generations from a starting point of separation from physical reality.

So, within this,

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to fear living.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to separate myself from my human physical body, into a mind system that is a collection of ideas, opinions and beliefs that are a limited construct of what is real the physical reality, and as such an image and likeness that is not sustainable, and as such needs constant validation to keep the fires of itself burning, as this division via judgement of differences, is creating good and bad, instead of being equal to what does no harm and supports all life.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not see realize and understand that children are not born with personalities, and as such have no programs of culture, thus what it is that child becomes is impulsed into them, where an ability to have divergent thinking is lost as the programs accumulate and become the directives, creating a human being who is limited in what has gone within, and this within not being equal to common sense, causes the child to slow down and follow limitations instead of developing an awareness of physical reality in form and function.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to believe that I need my mind of ideas, beliefs and opinions, to direct me here, not seeing realizing and understanding and equalizing myself to the common sense that absorbed the knowledge and information of a culture of hierarchy that is in totality a separation from life.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to believe that facing the storm of separation as thoughts, opinions and ideas is a taboo, culturally.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to fear the reactions of a entity voicing limitations as ideas, beliefs and opinions be it myself within or another without, and within this to not see, realize and understand that the storm of separation as limitation as what has been impulsed by a system of inequality, as hierarchy is and does, is disrupting a habit that is in total unacceptable, and must be faced for which I as life have as common sense here.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to fear using common sense, to believe that common sense is somehow dirty, when from the mind’s perspective, common sense is destructive, but of the separation and limitation only, thus common sense is like a mechanism, a medicine for life, for this earth, for each cell, for each self, here.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to fear being in common sense, to fear being humble, to fear being at ease, here.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to fear limitation, to believe that limitation can exist.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to fear separation, to believe that separation can exist.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to believe that something can be lost.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not see, realize and understand that ease is like the warmth of the sun, nurturing and forgiving of what allows direct seeing, and thus self autonomy as life, here.

                                    

Day 415 The within is separate from the without. A Paranoise of the Unknown

If I allow the emotional/feeling body to become the directive, a game of matching the parts selected as self definition to substantiate ones global positioning system of limited values in totality, this that separates the use of self as a natural sensor, a natural learning ability, to realize the geometrical design of the physical reality, where instead of being here, I/we have constructed a limited value system based on cultural pasts and present systemic design on inequality, to survive. This is what becomes the concrete mind, so to speak, at seven, where we slow down and begin to direct ourselves based on a limited value system that is not, as parts, good or bad, but still, limited and in separation from sensing here, physical reality. This construct is a disconnect from our natural sense as life, our natural reader of physical form and design without judgement, as with practicality, and abdicate ourselves into directives to survive within a system that has been built from each of us having chosen a limited picture as mind as being more than reality. We have created false idols as ideas and judgements as one thing being more than another, and warped them into something to emulate and follow, instead of remaining equal and one to physical manifestation. We are, all of us, in essence walking judgements, we are de-manned, we are demons, abusing physical reality because we believe we are more than this that builds what we construct into ideological states of being, when the real state of being is here, one and equal to and as physical reality.

Thus, when our emotional/feeling states to not find a match, we have a hard time communicating. and this varies by degree in all manner of ways, creating all the misinformation touted by media, that causes so much abuse on earth, that creates so much lack, so much devastation. Our greed is us in a state of separation from practical physical reality. The only way back to life is to equalize with the physical, the bring back into alignment with what is real, what is so varied, so abundant, so giving, so clear geometrically, as this actual physical world.  Our emotional/feeling bodies are the accumulation of our separation, and they drain the physical as self, to maintain the illusion of limited value, and thus we age, become a “ wick” of our formal selves as life, because we did not use ourselves as life, we used an alternate reality created as mind, as consciousness, of limited selected values to define, an entity projected that sucks in what built this, as our natural learning ability, our common sense, our substance as life, our forgiving selves. We in essence rejected life for value judgements. And we were told not to do this. We were told to give as we receive, which is giving as ourselves as what we are as life, this that builds the ideological self.

Some may say, I have not done this, were this true than you would have become as Bernard Poolman, and realized that there is no choice but to clean all of this up. And since you did not become this, you are not equal and one to and as you as life, this substance that built the personification that consumes the flesh that supports you as life, the gift to realize and become equal and one to and as life. So, within the gamut of variation by degree, with all possible ways and means of measure, the development of men is within a very limited gamut of expression as life as what is possible for mankind to be and become. Within this, there can be no gurus, because the only choice is to allow each and everything here to be and become itself as life, as this is how the universe becomes a verse of life, each part functioning in its full potential, which is a capacity to understand the very essence and substance of what we all are which is life. Everything can develop an awareness as being self directive as the substance of life, here, as sensing life as life. This self that is there under the construct of limited values that is self in constant measure of good and bad, as we accepted and allowed instead of the tree of live the belief that choosing good and bad, was a choice, when it in totality was the choice of separation. Thus we move as good and bad, a constant measure of right and wrong, balancing our selves via values judgement, instead of physical reality exhibiting form and function, we rejected the structure of life, of the physical for an imposed structure of lack. If we continue to blindly accept the present system, we are the abusers of what abuse exists on this world. What must be done is to look at the abuse that exists and no longer accept it, because the acceptance of what is abusive, is a rejection of life. 

I can see where my own constructed value system I allow myself to focus as, makes communication here with physical reality so difficult, because I cannot move, as my concrete mind values system consumes me, and I have no space to be here, to move with physical reality in constructive ways. And I become frustrated when my value system is not matched, or I remain within a limited social strata, limiting myself as life, never really living because I am so busy projecting I am not here. Them I blame that which is without, outside of me for not matching me, for not being equal to my inequality. I spite what does not meet my standards as my concrete mind, built in the first seven years of life by parents of same background, of same system of separation. All of this varying by degree and measure, some more capable than others or so it appears in youth, but in time the accumulation of limited values unequal to life substance dissipate the physical body, and thus we die from our mirage not having anything to burn anymore, and our lives are lived as projections instead of as life. And all the while the truth was right in front of us, our natural sensibility as life, is there under the voices of separation as thoughts touted again and again and again building and constructing our personalities, our characters in thought, word and deed, as what we have placed/selected within, of limited design, instead of becoming equal and one, respecting the physical, a life giving gift to equalize and realize the value of life, the expression of life.

Our stories are our separations, our system is our separation manifest. And as we die a wick consumed, so will this earth. It is time to realize ourselves as life, to stand equal and one in respect for this physical world, and bring a system that supports all life, to create a system that in design and structure gives as we receive from this earth, the physical support to be an expression of life. We need to bring our minds back down to earth, to realize the mind is dependent on earth, and simply takes a picture of life, it is not the thing to make idol, it is a false idol, what is real is physical reality. Thus, to allow any child to be sexually abused, any one on earth, is a crime against life, to allow any animal to be confined in a cage is a crime against life, to dis-allow development of full potential is a crime against life. To allow any politician to vote in self interest is a crime against life. To allow a system of usury is a crime against life. To allow monoculture is a crime against life. We are walking zombies of ideology before life. We are our own self created bubbles supporting this system of inequality, we are the people in the bubbles as shown in the matrix movie. We, humans are in separation from life, we are the abusers, we are demons.

Our emotions and feelings are our separations. our thoughts are the builders of this separation.

We accepted and allowed this, and we can stop. This appears hard to begin with, and it is a process, one I continue to walk, I mean , it took seven years to build this, so it is going to take time to deconstruct this. The tools are given by a man who walked this for all, and in the end he may never be remembered, nor any of us, but this does not matter, as what matters is that this mis-take is corrected, that we clean this separation and abuse up. To begin this would not be as difficult as we have been indoctrinated to believe, and as our constructs as mind would appear, it simply takes a steady and slow awareness of what we are behaving as in every breath we take. We can forgive our stories and realign them in common sense through voicing them through self forgiveness until they are no longer so huge, and thus with self corrective writing create a construct/structure that enables us to see here, to focus here, to once again begin to move here. It really is much lighter than carrying around an emotional/feeling body and incessant dialogue in and as the mind. When we exist as mind we are out of balance with life, and we visibly shake, like a vibrato, as we allow ourselves to exist within polarities of comparison, always measuring what is good and bad according to our limited value system, this inequality to here creates instability. If we slow down enough we begin to see this. Energy is heavier than sound/equality/life substance and yet less dense that physical reality.

Meanwhile, I have been walking around, understanding that something is out of whack so to speak- but not being able to pin point it, and even having said this, I realize that I have been so wanting to explain this that I create more ideas and run into friction and conflict as I face humans in separation protecting and defending their ideological selves, running into conflict as I do not match their emotional/feeling bodies as what they believe themselves to be in totality. It is like we are constantly running to validate our emotional/feeling bodies as built up ideas, instead of being at ease here, like real “ singing” here. In all this must be done, equalizing ourselves here.

Practically, this means changing the present system, to one that supports all life, equally. A living Income Guarantee is to allow the values created from limited resources, that will prove to be enough to support our physical selves to become the gift of full potential life expression,  as money, to be distributed to support each of us, eliminating so much behavior of frustration because of lack, and eliminating a huge bureaucracy that is  like a damn, but also stagnating the expression of those locked in a cage of pushing papers ( another form of waste). There are transport system that can certainly move what is needed to areas devastated by design to allow land grab ( as those indigenous peoples have lived there for eons and survived - why are they suddenly in starvation?)  for a destructive monoculture that moves principle value to a few, leaving the liability with the many ( and we are liable because we have accepted and allowed it through abdication as life- believing that representatives would chose what is best within a system of usury!), thus we can blame no one, and there is no time for blame because if we don’t get this earth in order, we will suffer the consequences of the abuse we have accepted and allowed, and ignorance of what is happening on this earth is no excuse.. This will also end the bully of war, which is another form of greed and unacceptable. Even if we ended the war/grab machine, there is enough to support life. There is no excuse for any of this. Time to become equal and one, responsible as life, in common sense, it is right here in front of us, we need only stand and begin the journey to life. 

Watch out for the shifting dimensions of knowledge and information presented that are misinformation. where, everything must be questioned.  The full story must be told. Just look at Fukushima, this is a disaster that is being hidden which is unacceptable,  because it damages the animals on this planet, where this being hidden is said to supposedly not cause havoc with the people, but in effect it is to protect profit before life. When disasters strike, people do stand up, but if they are hidden how can we stand up? Thus the main interest in hiding is to ensure profits, a crime against life. The same is done with massive starvation in Africa, there is no excuse why planes and support are not immediately sent, there is no excuse why bureaucracies say they have to have the “ right paper work” in order, this is a smoke screen of bullshit, which the leaders up the ladder are using as justification, where at the end of the story some peon is blamed, and supposedly justice has been served. An illusion, as that plane and that grain, of which there is more than enough, can reach those in need. What is in the way is the fear of loss of profit, I want my money first. Criminal. Thus, money must be used to support all life as no one hand has created that value. No man is an island. 

 Time to get this world in order, as it is an order of life, what has been is a rejection of this order, a rejection of structure. And we wonder why our children are so reactive, they simply have been denied a structure, this which they crave as their natural learning ability senses but is warped into a character that is misinformed  through limited perspective/dimension only, in the interest of eliminating competition to maintain an idea that one thing is more than another where ideas are made a god as a more than as mind, as consciousness the signifier of our separation leading to a lack of equality as the within with the without as what is of same substance that is in total the formation of life. Let’s birth life into the physical, there is no other choice.

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Day 138 What happened to the potential in our children?

English: Humpty Dumpty visits Wimpole Wimpole Hall walled garden. (Photo credit: Wikipedia)

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Humpty Dumpty Sat On A Wall (Photo credit: doug_wertman)

English: Cover of a 1904 adaptation of Humpty Dumpty by William Wallace Denslow. (Photo credit: Wikipedia)

Humpty Dumpty scenery of broken Humpty Dumpty (Photo credit: Wikipedia)

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Egg 103: Humpty Dumpty (Photo credit: smokeghost)

I had to drive a distance today. In the car, in a lot of traffic. So many thoughts coming up, daydreaming. Stop.  Knowing the thoughts will just loop around and go nowhere, not solve anything, much like anger, an act of tantrum and not an act of direction. Simple common sense. The daydreaming, suddenly there, so habitual. So consuming, so pointless. like anger, as I said.

To get on top of my thoughts, emotions and feelings as myself in separation, myself with no direction, just storming away. That is what they are. No substance at all. This takes time. How mush more is there. A lot, because I am not absolutely directive. I had the heavy feeling of not wanting to write tonight. But the writing gets this out, pulls it out, to the point where there is no choice but to write, to get more of this separation back into self, so that self can begin to have some substance and not be so divided and conquered by the mind, by the storms,  of no substance.

How much further can one go, to the point where this can be brought up in the children?

Imagine children, no longer loosing potential, as what I have heard so many parents say. I have heard my father and another man, say that their child showed so much potential as children and then go on to describe how their children were. And then the solemn look on their faces, like the longing for the feeling of the potential of the child is all there is, instead of the question as to what happened. This must not be part of the program, to ask such questions. Here one must face a fear, it is more comforting to wallow in the memory of the child’s potential, and to wallow in the pity of lost opportunity. This makes one feel as though one has meaning? The drug of emotion, the memory of hope. What is this, does this do anything? It is pointless. And obviously, it can have no substance, as it is a wallow and not directive, it is a wishing, about as productive as throwing a coin in a well and uttering some words. Has superstition, placing/projecting a want, need and/or desire onto something worked with absolute accuracy? No, definitely not, or this world would be a different place. Obviously.

There is nothing wrong with the want within this scenario of children, but asking an invisible force to comply is ridiculous, because the magic is in doing this as self, being this as self, living this potential, thus how can someone else do this for the child? They can’t, it has to be realized, physically realized, self directed, lived.

And this is not happening. Instead the child grows up and becomes the same as the father, sighing and imagining a moment of seeing potential. And so it goes, the sins of the fathers. Generation after generation. Is there a message in the use of the word “generation” within signifying the past?

I mean, by the time parents have aged, they have become such good factory workers, for this system, that they choose to file into a church, a place of worship, and stand or sit in rows and listen to one voice tell them what they are, what to do, how to be etc. Just as they began, in school, so many years ago. 

Is there any self direction developed in this scenario? Is there any substance to this scenario? Is this bringing forth the potential of that child, seen and forgotten, wallowed away into seeking direction instead of being direction? Is not the answer right here? This absence of directive, self directive development?

Wouldn’t it make sense that within a profit based system, this very self development would not be a good idea, as self developed and thus self able, and thus self directed in common sense people/children would emerge and no longer file in line to school, file in line to the grave, from the school door to the church door. There is a lot more on this earth than these man made doors.

Wake up. Become something of substance. bring up that spark of potential in the child seen, make not of it a dream, but an actual physical, healthy reality, as what it is in fact.

This is what is life, this is the value, that unique spark in that child, ready for direction. This system of inequality will not develop this, as this is not profitable for a few, because this is allowing all to be life, to live the value, the substance of life as what we are in fact. Thus this system must change, to support this as the value. What is here is given freely to allow this to be, as this is what here is! This system of inequality denies this, and it has gone on for so long that we can no longer see this. This is the separation that exists as the human. Only Humpty Dumpty can put this back together again. We have been told in so many ways.

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