Day 468 Solicitation, TPP and Protest Laws. As Within So Without.

Someone said to me the other day , “ I don’t want to be solicited.” I stopped, this was a new response that I had not encountered. I looked at the man and said, “ how does one person speak with another, reach out? A person has to address people and through speaking bring what is new to them, for them to hear, it is how it is done, in all simplicity.” The man was not reactive, he did not bully, he simply looked at me with calm.

 But there, within me was a movement, initially, not, as I responded immediately, in calm, but as I spoke I noticed a tension, which was a fear, a reaction. As I spoke,  the common sense of what was physically happening as in a moment of communication with another I realized that the fear, as the inner uncertainty that was a warning based on some idea had no relevance in the moment. If anything, this fear was a pulling back within myself that protected and defended my action based on a belief that I could be labeled and judged and that this would remain with me, when such could not because I can only be here, in this moment. 

There is also a fear of standing as a directive structure, to stand through being a feminine person acquiescent as a belief within an accepted societal norm that really has no substantial responsibility within being here. If anything, one can only connect with that which allows self as life to move/flow/hear with ease and within this to remain steady as this. 

This is moving equal to common sense, to life, as is our natural ability as life as what we are, as self in absolute purpose within being aware of here, as what is best for all. Which in essence means communicating with one another, and realizing that we are only as good as the parts, as all of existence, around us. There is no other choice, and this is not an impossible choice, it is actually the easiest thing to be and do, if we only accept and allow this to be. The irony is that we, through believing that there is more than here, as idea as mind,  are existing in separation as judgement and not seeing what is here as what it is absolutely and the behavior of this is our state of confusion that appears complicated when it is not.

Our emotions and feelings that are the accumulation of thoughts that are a judgement based on an idea of one thing being more than another - which is what a survival game would be, where money has been allowed to determine life, -builds our characters, our cares, and becomes the program driving our wants, needs and desires, all of which in essence serves a machine of division/complication/suppression. The data going in serves the structure of judgement of having measured physical reality as being unequal, forcing hierarchy, a false god built on what is real beneath it, the real sustenance. All the while the gift of life is physical creation, giving equal measure of life to all as the very substance of what is the physical to allow equal understanding.

Interesting that, as I understand, the new TPP,  or Trans Pacific Partnership, is proposing keeping data secret, which is to say keeping justification “ secret”, and also, writing laws that punish protest. So, what is happening  within this structure of inequality is what we are doing within: our manifested expressed emotions that are the programs of accumulated judgement that we have accepted and allowed: beliefs that one thing is more than another: Our emotions and feelings hiding the thoughts that are the accumulation of a data  collection of values in self interest. These things that are supposedly more than values  really are of a limited selection of values and obeying them has taken from us our ability to stand in common sense, equal to life which we can see manifest in the cumulative acts based on our accepted/selected inner program/judgements/data as the amount of destruction happening to earth. 

And now we are proposing to not even be  allowed to protest our own demise, self created at that.  And so we live our own stagnation. We are slowly but surely leading ourself to our own stopping point, our own end. We are moving back, physically, to nothing because we refused to stand equal to life, which is the absolute purpose of common sense to be aware of here, and to do no harm, which is how one can equalize oneself to life, to the physical, and it would be  really fun thing to do, but instead we chase a separate program as the mind of limited values causing all manner of conflict because these values are based on ideas of good and bad and not what is the gift of structure to realize self as life as the physical world. It is right here in front of us, and yet we refuse to see that the physical world is the gift of life.

The physical is the  training wheels to equalize self to life. All those little atoms that compose a structure of life, so we can really “ play” and express ourselves as life.

And so much so, are we in self abdication that we manifest a law that disallows and punishes protest - in this case, the destructive pipeline that profits only a few at the expense of plants, animals, humans and water, and air on which we depend to be. 

Just as the law of profit takes everything, all consequence from not having considered all outflows, and turning the damage into a new profit making venture so can we as a collective take our mistakes and turn them into a good, as what is best for all. In the law is the answer: To no longer protest, and instead to stand as what is best for all, as in standing and placing/supporting a structure - in this case one that builds sustainable practices bypassing/redirecting the effort as our own impetus to protest, eliminating it as in  building something new with that movement through redirection within a sustaining principle.

We can, from within,  slow ourselves down and use our common sense and realize our thoughts of judgement have accumulated creating emotions and feelings that when looked at have no real value and can thus be self forgiven to bring ourselves here, to what is real, realizing that our past does not define us unless we accept and allow it. For this one can also walk the tools of self forgiveness writing and corrective application offered in a free course called DIPLite. It is a process to equalize self to life, as it was a process to build that concrete GPS system that was based on limited values that obeyed a god of profit in self interest which was a starting point of separation from self as life, but that which took that step is what is self as life, and it is there and can be redirected by self as self as life, here. The shift from following to self directing may seem impossible but it is not, and it will take practice but it can be done.

This is a process of walking the ordinary, a structure of order, that creates a supportive extra-ordinary earth that can become what realizes that the exception is the norm. Living Income Guarantee will accelerate this process because it will remove many of the behaviors of survival because money has been allowed to determine life  as what is here is what enables us to become equal to life. This is the gift of the physical world. It is your birthday present. 

Day 360 Self forgiveness cont. Lesser self.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to fear the movement of life here, to fear standing up an facing limitation
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to become knowledge and information only, forgetting to realize practical application using the directive of what is best for all, enjoying here, equal and one, having no expectation as I can only remain here in one breath at a time.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to separate from here from the physical here from making, allowing, the mind as idea, belief and opinion to become bigger than life here than the physical here.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to constrict in my back and into my legs
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to believe that I am less than, to feel that I am incapable, to believe that I am a limitation to feel that I cannot use words, to have thoughts that there is an end and then it is over.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to have distractive thoughts such as wanting to go and get a cup of coffee, to go and watch a TV show
I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand moving myself here
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to be moved through coercion. to become intimidated/intimate with an ideological polarity using opposition as either/or as the only choice of which I must accept where I must stop and breath, and slow down and bring back to self as life in common sense, to realize that such cannot direct me unless I accept and allow this, of which a fear within and as me, of loss is an underlying threat I allow as fear and within this to stop and see the supposed choice as illusion, and thus not a choice as there is only one choice and that is what is best for all of which is what is best for myself thus the answer is always right here in front of me as me as life.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to become nervous to have expectations of outcome
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not see realize and understand how much I project into expectations in the form of imagining the future
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to imagine an outcome to play out scenarios in and as my mind within an undertone of expectation towards an idea of success, not seeing realizing and understanding that I am creating a script to follow based on ideas and not standing equal and one with what is here, even when there is separation into and as idea in and as the survival suit of another where all that can be as the words that I am in response to here, as a human moving as mind in slow motion clinging to ideas, beliefs and opinions, stagnant and thus in separation from the space of here as the physical as the substance of life that supports all that is here as what is real.
I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand that becoming a lesser self as this act of projection in and as desire, want and need, based on a morality of culture, class, nationality, as being directed by comparison via such limited but not necessarily all “ bad”, where this allowing of judgement as good and or bad determined by selective dictates as the limited bubble of personifications as collections of manifested and accepted ideologies as self maintenance to present myself and place myself on a ladder of access to what has been allowed to determine life, as money, and to have allowed myself to chase this as life instead of placing myself on this earth as this ground on which I stand here as life, be there a god after this or not, what is here is what is supporting me, thus the ideas, beliefs and opinions as more-thans and less-thans are extremely limited and thus separate myself from what is all soooo real, as the actual physical world, as earth as the trees and the plants and the animals and the water and and and all the way to the micro-nutrients in the soil.
I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand that the process of consciousness as mind is a play out in imagination of building a survival suit, where if this suit does not provide as in conquering/con cure with the system of inequality I face death of myself physically this that started with myself fearing to lose an idea of myself inwardly, thus this suit is ideology as belief of what is needed to access money within the game of division into more than and less than which is each self as man not accepting here as self as life as moving with the actual physical world communicating with what is here as how the physical functions in form, the nature of which is revealed in the very form as the shape of the sound of the form as the physical, whereas my survival suit answers to the systemic hierarchy placed on earth by man displacing an inherent organizational capacity of men, into a system that represents an abdication of self as life here choosing an idea of self as being more, not wanting to then align self to here, which is a separation and thus an ignorance of life, of looking at how self is formed from as this that is equal in all that is physically here is of same starting point as being from nothing to form, to expression, and as this there is nothing that can be lost as it is the expression of self as life that is the value, and this system of hierarchy that uses money to maintain this is the outward manifestation of an inward forgetfulness of starting point of self from nothing to something where “ something “ is expression in and as life, this being the value and the flow, where alignment with such would mean an end to the limited stagnant behaviors of separation that one need only open a newspaper to read, to see, to realize that what exists on earth is a system of inequality that has created a suppression of life, this that it is time to put an end to to clean up this world, to get this world in order, functioning as it was meant to function as the gift of life that it is, which can be done by men through standing up and removing the idol of corporation, the golden cow, the false survival suit through changing the tool of money that built this false god into Equal Money, to give as one would like to receive and equalize self to and as life as what self is as this corporation confuses with a forked tongue, using truths coupled into a form that is acting in self interest and thus is in separation as it believes itself to be a one organizing hand which is to say this is lacking a detailed look at physical reality with common sense, as the actions of such corporations disregard life and make judgements that collateral damage of life is necessary when this is an ignorance and a separation into relatives of judgement as a more than- the spoke in the wheel- removed from absolute awareness of what is here as the very substance of what is the composition of here as life, that which is same in all, where since this is same, this substance can be developed in each one to allow each one each hand, each hoof, each claw, each tongue, each tail, each scale, each fin, each cell to be the expression of itself as life as the form of itself being the expression of itself and thus working with the physical in self responsibility as life, as all disconnect from this is separation causing limitation and when made authoritative, the voice of limitation and thus the cause of destruction, the manifestation of ignorance with consequence of abuse to life, of which is what exists on earth, for which we are all to blame. period. unacceptable. a crime.

Day 174 Quantum mind the road map back to self as life

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to have the thought today about a man being disgusting and how dare he talk to me and smile, with his puffy face, where i then immediately had a feeling of being unworthy, not so specific until I recognized it as this sinking feeling down through my back, where my lips started to feel like they were about to hang down to the floor.
I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand that as a child I would sit and listen to my mother, when ever she needed someone to talk to, where she would poor out her complaints, which I took silently, trying to placate her not seeing, realizing and understanding that I was taking on her very resonance, which, when I started process that very first month of doing self forgiveness, I began with this feeling of sadness, for two months I did this and suddenly it caused some kind of release and a feeling of lightness, no matter what I kept going, even though there were times of great resistance.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not see, realize and understand that I knew what I was listening to, within my mother, was not something to listen to, I remember being ashamed with myself at one point, yet this was better than being spanked, and also, it made me feel special, because my sisters would say I could ask my mother for things and she would give them to me, but I knew this was not something to be, there in the back somewhere this bothered me, as my twin sister was me, and she did not get the same treatment.
I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand that in listening to my mother and not looking at what i was in fact accepting, in favor of survival as not being spanked and incurring anger from my mother, I was placing myself with a resonance of self pity and sadness again and again and again, accepting what was not directive within what is best for all.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not see, realize and understand that when ever I react in a way I realize is not directive, that is judgemental, I immediately go into this emotion of believing myself to be unworthy, because I had accepted and allowed this without standing up within what I sensed was not productive, what diminished myself as life here,
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to have created a happy face of specialness within this scenario to justifying it in believing I was something special, like there were “perks” with this job, and that I gained something for my efforts without stopping and realizing that the starting point was based in fear - that if I sat and listened, my mother would not become angry and spank me- so the listening was a protection defense in self interest and what I could see was not something to place on a child, where later I would accept this as a gain and an indication of myself being special, but all the while I knew this was not what was really going on, but the praises and power I received gave me a feeling of superiority, as though I had something, which is another starting point in and as having a negative judgement of myself as being unworthy and a inward separation from myself as life.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to carry the shame of this action of survival with and as me throughout myself, never really seeing this clearly, having buried this so far back into the past, where the unresolved acceptance of this is carried until I stand and forgive myself for what I had accepted and allowed, to remove this resonantly from myself, correct this and walk until it is clear.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to connect this emotion to any judgement i make about another, as this judgement is a reminder of separation from myself as life in and as my past.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to judge myself as unworthy because I went against myself as a child in order to protect myself from a fear of punishment, where even as my mother would sometimes call my name, and I knew she wanted someone to come and give her attention, so I would dutifully go because I believed there was no way out.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to have turned this into a positive thing, when it was really the same dishonesty again and again, just covered with a happy, justifying reason and nothing else, thus are the emotions and feelings one and the same, one subsequent to the other, thus seeking positive feelings is merely an escape from looking at what is here, an abdication of common sense.
I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see realize and understand that there is nothing wrong with listening to others emotions and feelings again and again, and offering support, it is when this is expected and silently agreed upon to the point where it becomes automatic and habitual within and as a family construct, it is then no longer a support but an obligation that is perpetual, which means there is an acceptance of emotions and feelings and no directive, objective resolution within the patterns of behavior that are not being looked at for what they are and stopped.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to connect this self judgement as unworthy every time I become a protection defense reaction, as every time I accepted what was unacceptable i did so in fear of punishment and until I correct this I will be at the mercy of what I have accepted and allowed in abdication of myself as life, within and as common sense.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand that my self judgement as being unworthy was a separation from common sense, where I acted in dishonesty as myself as life to survive and avoid punishment, where the answer is within forgiving this separation and standing up within common sense.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not see, realize and understand that the whole scenario of my childhood within and as fear of being punished by my mother was absent of common sense, and thus the only choice is to stand in and as common sense of what is here, to become equal and one in and as life, within the principle of oneness and equality as what is best for all, where the mercy of emotions and feelings within limited thoughts, believed to be real which are illusion manifest as separation, made real and huge, used to control, within a system of inequality, and all this drama is, is fear, a fear that manifests in the being of self within and as a constant need for the mind’s story of validation, as the separation will appear to want validation, but it is what has been ignored as a separation screaming into energy-like a hell fire consuming the physical, aging the human, sucking them dry, until they realize this separation will be named for what it in fact is, a judgment of less than or more than, superior or inFEARior, a fork, a split, a division wanting to realign itself, to quest itself back into and as common sense in and as the very substance as life, absolute, equal and one.

I commit myself to seeing, realizing and understanding that my personifications are a manifestation of fear, the negative and the positive, one and the same, as one is a judgement and the other a justification for the judgement, both the act of separation from myself as life in common sense of what is practically physically real.
I commit myself to breathing, even when my emotions and feelings and thoughts become a storm, a cry of mercy as what they are in fact, myself in separation, realizing my separation, but not seeing it for what it is and forgiving this within a realization of what is best for all, is what is best for self, here.
I commit myself to seeing, realizing and understanding that my emotions, feelings and thoughts direct towards being validated, as what this validation in fact is, is an attempt to name the separation, to see, realize and understand the character and personification that self has allowed in separation, the road map back to self, to life, to common sense, to equality with and as self as life, as what is best for self is best for life.
I commit myself to every time I am walking down the street and a reaction within and as my physical body rises within I stop and I breath, and I realize what I am facing - accepting and allowing - is fear leading to the consequence of separation from equality and oneness in common sense as what I am as life, and I look at bring this separation back to self, humble and thankful that the gift in and as life, giving in every moment, is clearly showing me, should I stop and breath and look, what I am accepting and allowing that is not directive, one and equal to, in and as life, here

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Day 172 Self forgiveness into separation as being unworthy

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to desire success, not seeing , realizing and understanding that I have separated from myself, here into a belief of success and failure.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not see, realize and understand that within this separation I have accepted limited ideas that ignore myself as life, following limited presentations as what is more than and less than, accepted and allowed within an idea of superiority and infearority , lacking self responsibility as myself as life, not seeing realizing and understanding that the value is life, here.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to judge something separate from me as more than or less than, instead of realizing all that is here is an expression of life.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to separate from myself into and as competition, to compare and judge, to survive, fearing a loss should I not conform to what gets attention and validation.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to believe that there is such a thing as more than and less than, instead of realizing the all life is here, and if anything, a supposed “less than” is actually what is here not having been supported as life, within allowing the self perfection as life, as expression, full support and development in and as what life is, that which we all are, one and equal to and as.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to have an idea that I am unworthy because I have not succeeded, seeing only this consequence without actually looking, reading what is actually physically here and working with what is here, as the very substance in and as life, to allow myself as life to express.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to make a self judgement in and as being unworthy, which actually creates a value of worth within a limited belief, separating myself form as life from myself as the value of myself being life.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to have a thought, as a negative judgement of self as being unworthy when speaking with another and there is a moment of discord as being a moment of seeming disagreement as signifying an inability on my part to communicate effectively, instead of standing up and looking at what is being said, in seeing the wordsspoken and understanding what is being expressed and aligning it within a principle of what is best for all, as ensuring that there exists a clear communication and direction within the principle of what is best for all and not allowing myself to go into a belief that something can be lost, such as a perception of myself as having worth in another, which is myself standing within a limited view point within a desire to fit an idea of success, and as allowing myself to exist from a starting point of being conscious judgement in fear of loss, instead of looking at the divisions of perceptive ability as life, to see what is here as the very structures that divide into fears of survival, where this ego has forgotten equality and oneness with and as life as being the value, here.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to have the thought that, “if I could not stop my husband from killing himself, who am I to think I could teach children?” which in essence is only a self judgement and not myself actually looking at what is here, wherein such a belief, as limited label of myself would be, as what has not been understood and taught, what is stuck as what I am, like molasses, within a system that will use anything and everything to limit the expression of life to ensure its own success and control within itself being in separation from and as life, here, within a system of inequality and what I am accepting and allowing is one and the same, thus those who are on the “top” are themselves hiding from a sense of unworth as what they are, as the only worth is life in expression, thus an act that is not of what is best for all, as self, in self responsibility as life, that does not see this value as one and equal in all that is here, is the expression of a belief in not being worthy, fearing being self as life, as though one does not deserve to allow self as life to be, where judgement is the act of stagnation instead of actually looking at what is actually physically here, where what is here, this physical world is the very tool to equalize all in and as life, it is only the turning away form of beingness from what is here that is the cause of limitation and existence of separation into a more than and less than.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to have the thought that I deserve to be punished because one time as a child , I was so terrified of being spanked that I allowed one of my sisters to take the blame, and thus for this, I carry this shame in allowing abuse to another, when within this I had no understanding of myself as life, as this was not taught, and no understanding of my own separations into and as seeking more than and less than, as the moral code taught was in connection with limited insight to myself as life, and only taught to serve the insured survival of a few, in and as family, not seeing and understanding that what is best for self is best for all, where parents taught within limited values reflected only these limited values in absence of awareness of life being the value, and the very substance of what they are.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to have back chat reminiscent of this childhood episode of shame within and as me, a judgement of myself that is not what i am, as it was a moment in the past, a moment of self abdication in and as life, in fear of punishment and survival; a moment of wanting to hide, and not considering my sister as me as life, or my mother as me as life, where even had I considered this, chances are it would not have been heard and the punishment would have happened anyway either to myself or my sister, thus to feel shame about this situation, that is a past event and cannot define me unless I accept and allow this, has no bearing/ is not to bear, as what i am here, able to breath and become equal and one to what i am, life, to become equal and one to what is best for all and express myself as life here, in clarity, looking at what is actually physically here.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to believe myself undeserving because I sought to make myself more than a friend in middle school not having realized the changestaking place and instead becoming spiteful and competitive to prove myself more than one that had rejected me for another seemingly more crowd.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to have believed myself to be of less worth than my high school friend who suddenly disappeared from my life, not understanding that ideas and beliefs and opinions of more than and less than were being followed as what was taught to ensure survival within a system of inequality, all acts that were judgements and not directives within realizing the value of life, one and equal as what we all are, here, as this is what has been accepted and allowed without the development of the life as what self is.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to exist as thoughts in and as my mind, that are judgements of my own self worth and value, not seeing, realizing and understanding that this is non directive and ignorant of what is actually here, answering to what is here, looking at what is actually here, realizing that nothing can be lost, as nothing defines me but myself from one moment to the next in and as breath, as I can only see what is here and expand within what is here, as the act of judgement is not an act of actually looking here and seeing how here is in expression and functions in a practical way that is best for all.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to allow any and all back chat of judgement as what I am, and yes I as a human define and label as a means of communication, yet this is to describe what is in this moment, to direct, and thus cannot ever be etched in stone - so to speak- unless I accept and allow this, thus I determine whether I am one and equal to life and no one else. yet this act of judging has gone on for so long, a whole structure within this has manifest by the human as a reflection of what has gone on in abdication of self as life individually, that what determines life is money being used to support a few, as supporting ideas of more than and less than in separation of the value being life.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to judge my worth based on the actions of my parents, they themselves in separation from realizing the value is life.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to have a thought that I ‘do not have enough of this, or of that” be it in relation to how I look, what I think, what I “don’t understand”, to stop such thoughts as limited and to realize that allowing these thoughts to direct myself here is not supportive of life, and is simply finger pointing in a limited belief only.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to have positive thoughts, where I have gone from the negative into the positive thought, usually a fantasy in and as my mind of success and the same action of label in and as unworth into worth, not seeing realizing and understanding that both are actions of label, the positive the polarity of the negative, both the very same act of separation, into more than and less than, from what is communication with and as what is actually here, equal and one with and as life, here.

I commit myself to seeing realizing and understanding that I am here, I am life, that this is the value, as I do not allow separation into and as thought, and the moment I begin to find back chat in and as my mind, I breath, I bring this back to self and realize that which is directive to and towards a communication of oneness and equality in and as the value being life, here.

I commit myself to not judge myself when and as I become a thought of worth and unworth, I stop and I breath, and I sense where a past event continues to define myself here, and I realize that this is myself in separation from here, as it is what is here in this moment that is what can be walked and is what is real, as the memory was a past act in fear and separation, competition and limited belief, ignorant of here.

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Day 57 Turning away from the physical

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to want to run away from the ego of men,

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to fear the ego of men.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see that I am now an adult and that my fears are based on childhood conditioning that I need no longer burden myself with in and as habit, as a habit I carry, as this is no longer necessary, as I am able to stand and face the being of a human, as life, and to apply the principle of oneness in equality here, within what is best for self is best for life, as what is real is this physical world, and not the alternate reality of a mind consciousness system of programmed roles habitual play in a system that develops “attitudes” believed to enable success within a system of profit that does not support life, does not realize that the value is life.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not see realize and understand that whenever this feeling of physical comfort and desire comes up, I am in fact facing a habit of behavior, a “habit” of female subservience/ role play/personification of seeking emotional placating sympathy allowing a man to act the “knight in shining armor”/ helper/ manly man/ protector/ super hero/ big daddy/ show off/ rooster/ spiritual leader/ god head (lol)/  where I stop my self from being here and taking self responsibility, self honesty and interacting directly here in common sense with this physical world, as though I have some “blip” on some screen, as me, stopping my own physical oneness and equality common sense self here, where this “clinging/seeking/comfort/sympathy “blip” alternate reality has become an addictive need, and a picture show in and as my mind separating me from myself and causing me to develop personas to feed this desire that is in reality a blip on my life, where the blip has become greater than my self as life here, and the burden of this, the “entity” of this is consuming me and causing self disgust and self hatred as I abdicate myself as life,

Within this, I realize that the present system on earth places these constrictions to support a system of inequality, and separation from oneness and equality, uses these “habits” and “frocks” to bind the human to the needs of the “habits/frocks” to the point where the human becomes as the Barbie and Ken doll, the man being a personification of manly man-ness and the woman being the personification of the damself ( I meant to write damsel) in distress, where the man and the woman are not being here, one and equal to their human physical body in common sense of this physical world.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to have probably missed many things in running to comfort and support because I had learned that one little surprise in my environment, of little frustration, of sudden unexpected change, of interaction that was my self learning to work and understand this physical world, as I developed a response of running for comfort, where later in life this came to be associated with sexual desire, and thus do I connect sexual desire to comfort from men, where men are not really seeking comfort but ejaculation, energy release, and the coupling of this with the fitting of an image onto this physical world, and are probably disgusted with themselves when the woman, the physical actual women, does not meet the alternate reality picture show in and as their minds, where they have become their “frocked” self as children, separate from this physical world, as being in common sense, just as much as I.

I forgive myself for not realizing that this entity/persona/presence bubble/projection is in fact what I was then as what I am now, that I endlessly repeat, as myself in separation from myself in common sense, sensing the world here, standing and facing, being one and equal to, this physical world, where as my self as life I stand and face what is here, I do not allow what is here to  cause the reaction within myself  as allowing  a state where I become overwhelmed/ frightened/ non-seeing/ self justifying of my non-accepting of what is physically here in liu of some idea, belief, opinion/ constricted self., where within this even the tiniest of movement within myself as fear i stop and I breath and I forgive the labels as voices and fears of the mind consciousness system and I bring myself here, I do not allow myself to use the past as experiences to judge what is here, actually physically here, where I hear/see/ realize the mind speaks in loops making a singularity into a endless novel experience in and as energy and thus consumes my self, separates me from this physical world, and like a vampire sucks the life out of my human physical body leading  to death and not myself becoming one and equal to life. 

I commit my self to realizing physically, inwardly whenever i have this “pull” this emotional directive that is a separation from myself within my human physical body, which will also have a quality of fear and a conscious front of desire for that initial reception from the initial shock, moment of non-looking moving towards receiving of a petting sympathy outplay, where this habit must be walked through and removed to bring myself back to this physical world, and within this to realize that any and all emotions of self pity, are only a mind tantrum of not getting a tangental energetic loop that has in fact become the prison of life the separation of life from accepting what is here, physically here.

I commit myself to realizing the patterns of my behavior and to take this bull (shit) by the horns and becoming a self direct physical equal to this unconditionally giving earth, to speak about, write about, make comments about a system that allows life to bloom on this earth, to realize heaven on earth, to allow every child born to become one and equal to this physical world, to work in tandem with this physical world, to support what is the value here on this earth, life.

I commit myself to revealing the absolute atrocity of a profit based system, where there in no argument available in common sense as to why there exists starvation on this earth, where there is no excuse as to why men are killing themselves, as to why people are disfiguring and eating other people, as to why animals are being placed in a caged life of disease - and of that matter why humans are being fed rotten diseased flesh, as to why presidents get funding from pill makers seeking profits and stand on platforms with a devil shit eating grin saying they are bringing universal health care to the populace when their donations are coming from the pill makers, pill makers who create anti depressants that are mostly fluoride, when it is known that Hitler used fluoride to placate the unwanted, within this the goal is to create sustained income for the few and therefor not about health as health is not profitable or enslaveable.

I commit myself to, through writing , self forgiveness, corrective application, removing emotional/feeling polarities of more than and less than past influence as judgment, of the devil and the angel on my shoulder, of a morality play, as an unsubstantial story inconsiderate of this physical earth, of any and all righteousness as turning myself into a salvation voice of demanding immediate understanding of what the human has become to bring myself back to breath and the deconstruction process of my self as a construct of habitual energy, to walk the equalizing of life on this planet to realize the value is life, and thus to bring heaven on earth so that life can begin.

Desteni

The process of the mind

Starvation in a Land of Plenty