Day 330 Self Forgivemess Rejection Character

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to fear losing what is an idea in separation from actual physical reality, the gift given to simply be here, freely given at that, to not see, realize and understand that this world is a physical instrument that allows the expression of life, for all equally, and it is only ideas of what is more than and less than that separate common sense with and as self as life here, manifest as the mind, a consciousness of ideology that is in separation from what is real here,
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to fear facing reactions that are blind to the common sense of how here works and functions in and as the physical, where themind as a collection of values lacking equality and oneness with the context of physical reality, all elusive and meaningless when lost in a moment, where it is realized that what is real is what is here, and one realizes that one, as self, has never been here, and that it is here, within and as being absolutely forgiving of self that one is finally able to live, and yet within an outward accepted and allowed systemic inequality, manifest as behaviors of gain for a few, actually living here cannot exist, unless this system is stopped, throughstanding up and voting in a system that supports all life, is forgiving with what is freely given here, as the means to sustain life, will self as life become equal and one in thoughtworld and deed, the outward instrument equal and one to the nature of earth as a freely giving supportive form being the giving nature of life, right under our feet.
I forgive myself for wanting to be alone, to hide from facing what is here, for feeling ashamed and guilty for not realizing the value of simply being here, equal and one to what is here as this forgiving physical world, which we have all accepted and allowed the signature of ownership on freely given resources that are the gift of life, and thus have allowed abuse of life, within believing that life must be bought, an idea, imposed on earth that must be removed, as the nature of life is to forgive of itself as life, here.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to clench within myself in fear of the bully of ego, and then in protection and defense become angry , where instead of facing the storm of fear, as separation as a habit of limited ideologies, I stop and I breath, and I realize that here, is the directive in commons sense of what is best for all, within and as the principle of what is best for all is best for self.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to have wanted to be alone to not face what is here, to want to force changes without having looked to the whole as the present system to believe myself to be some kind of super hero within and as one small action making a change not seeing realizing and understanding that it takes many to stand and change what is here, as it is many who have allowed this present system of inequality to exist, this which is supported by a collection of values, that ignore the whole, and thus a manifest system of limitation which is obviously what is destroying this earth and causing unacceptable suffering to many of the plants and animals and humans on this earth, which is in essence disrespecting life , here.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not see, realize and understand that reaction as rejection of what is here, is not looking at what is here, what has been accepted and allowed, and this it is to work with what is here, as running from here is not a solution, it is to stand and to face here, in common sense of how the physical functions within and as what is best for all, where to deny, to not look at what is here, as becoming the same actions as our present accepted and allowed government agencies, that disallow studies that reveal what is in fact happening on earth, the response of, “ there is no proof” which is a crime in and as the behavior of ignorance, against life, by omission, unacceptable and an act of denial of life, here in common sense.
I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand that to omit what is best for all is a crime, a lie, as just as presenting false information, not presenting information is just as false, as both do not consider what is physically here, thus the statement of there being no “ proof” in and as itself a statement of conceptual lack, admitting and ending as ignorance, without investigation, as what is here that does not support all life, has not considered all life, and this must stop until all life is considered, as any anecdote that reveals a state of suffering is simply an indication that the physical world has not been considered,
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not see realize and understand that the moment I allow myself to go into righteousness, within and as knowledge and information, in and as my mind, I become blame and spite, and thus lose the directive principle of myself as life, here, where I within this, as my physical body, begin to have burning sensations in my thighs and in my head, and thoughts in and as questions as to why something has been allowed, which is a form of blame, as it is looking for ‘Who done it” instead of simply realizing the structure of what exists and correcting this within and as the realization that the only choice is what is best for all, as what supports all life, allows life to be the expression of itself.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not see, realize and understand how I reject facing here within becoming righteous, as I become frustration/recklessness within allowing myself to not look and then I begin to push back and thus to reject, this rejection and constriction in and as fear happening so fast, seemingly simultaneously it is actually hard for me to catch, I have to really slow way down, or immediately my back starts to hurt and my legs start to burn, and I lose an ease within and as myself, and become nauseous, this action I have been doing for so long, that to sense this, to realize this, to go into this and accept this as myself and what is interesting is that I kept entering a point of wanting to cry when I got to this point, and it is here that there is also this sense that I have had of feeling trapped, this fear of being trapped within a coffin and not being able to get out.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not see realize and understand how the mind loves meta-for, to impose idea onto reality, where self is not directed as self, sensing here as self as life, direct, and instead clings to idea, as pictures in and as the mind.
I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand how what I am is the sound of life, forgiving , here sensing here, sensing the commons as the physical here, the real picture the direct physical, where fear is in essence rejecting here, and thus rejecting life, and ideas are distancing myself from being one and equal to what is here, as an idea can become an I deify-cation of what it is that I am as a meta-for in self inner-rest.
I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand that thoughts are the voice of rejection, the spite and blame, the tantrum of not wanting to look here, and thus as long as I fear losing ideas, beliefs, and opinions of what I am, I cannot face what is here as I am chasing an idea and not paying attention to what is real, which is this actual physical existence, this gift of life, here,

I commit myself to slowing myself down, to when and as I find I am beginning to want to blame and spite another, I am existing within rejection and thus am not facing here, the moment I begin to label I am no longer here, equal and one to and as the physical, where I must look here as what exists and become brutally self honest with here, to see, realize and understand that there is nothing to lose except myself as life, unless I realize that what is best for all is best for the support and sustenance of this actual physical world, absolutely.
I commit myself to forgiving all opinions , ideas and beliefs, to take such back to myself as to align this to and as what is best for all here.
I commit myself to seeing , realizing and understanding that in facing an opinion, an idea of a belief, I am facing a limited insight and there for can only align this to and as what is here in and reality within and as how here functions physically, to bring thought, word and deed, back into and as common sense of what is here and how here functions within and as what is best for all.
I commit myself to slowing myself down, to breathing , to facing how I have separated from myself here, to realize that all that can be lost is a collection of ideas, beliefs and opinions, that are not looking here at practical reality.
I commit myself to seeing realizing and understanding that practically, usury, is interest lending, where one believes that one owns something, lends this and then expects more in return, as though one was good in lending and deserves something more in return, where even with the starting point of usury, of lending for personality gain of a personification that one is more and deserves more for having lent, this thing lent making one a god, when all one can “lend” is what supports the real gift the self expression of self as life and the means and way of directing within and without to and towards this understanding, that which is the gift of life, where it behoves one to give to support life, as what is best for all is best for self, in support of life, as life is the value, thus, to lend with interest, and within this to believe that one can own what is here that is freely given is delusional, and a crime against life, as it enslaves and does not support life within and as giving to allow life to become an expression of life, as life being the value, absolutely, and thus usury places confining conditions on life, and also believes that what is here can be owned, an illusion as all that can be “owned” is self equal and one to and as life, to live the experience of what is eternal, which is life. thus the mind as imagination at present is the story of fear for survival in self abdication of common sense of life.
I commit myself to seeing realizing and understanding that allowing a system that leads to one person owning everything is allowing a centralized regime to become the eye of what we are here, instead of becoming self responsible within and as working with the actual physical world in practical common sense, thus, corporations are delusional in believing that they are a person, that can own what is here, where even allowing an ambiguous entity to own something is delusional, yet as long as we all allow this form to condition our lives we allow the abuse existent on earth, and thus it is each and every one of us that is responsible for supporting a system that does not in fact support life, and it is the response of many standing and placing in a system that supports all life, that gives what is needed to live in dignity, as a person, plant or animal cannot live in dignity if the means are not available, thus to disallow self responsibility and blaming the child for not being responsible when what is needed to be responsible is taken in the name of material ownership by a few, is to not face the practical common sense of this actual physical world, and is absolute crime and ignorance of life, here. and as such as this system exists cannot stand against the voice of many, the collective organization of many standing and voting in a system of change, and just as each entity takes small amount of all of our earnings, the small amounts of many, even within their confined spaces of work, can give to a system of equality, as many giving accumulates to allow a system of equality to stand and place itself in an organized manner within the existent structures on this earth, peaceably and with ease, thus support Equal Money, to get this world in support of life, absolutely.

Day 329 More on Rejection Character: I am my own rejection

If I accept and allow myself to react to what another does or says, and take this personally I become a rush of a fear of rejection, of loss, but what is it that I am going to lose? Yes, if I were in a situation where I lived in an impoverished area and there was not enough food, all i would be able to think about is getting food, and I would probably not have the education, even, to realize that - should I live in certain areas of the world, areas of abundant resource in contradiction to the support systems available on earth - to see that what was right under my feet had be assigned with a piece of paper ownership to some distant entity hidden within a corporate name laundering the value of the resource under my feet through dirty practices where the labor in extracting that resource was made to pay for all aspects of acquiring that resource, while the value generated from that resource came out clean and beneficial for a few on another continent where there existed no starvation. But, I live where the resource has been laundered, and there is no starvation because of lack of something to put in my stomach, even though what is here that has been laundered in another way, has very little substance of physical support, like I am a bee on a lower level within a hive, and am only allowed what maintains a “lesser” physical state, which can be counteracted where I live, if one takes the time to investigate what is eaten. Even here, the amount of pollution in the world reaches into all of us. So, what we have created, accepted and allowed is here and has come back to us, the consequence of our human actions are here.
So how do I allow myself to be bullied, how do I allow myself to fear the energetic reactions of men, how do I allow this is touch me, because becoming affected by the emotions and thoughts and words that created, allowed this state on earth, actions that disregard practices that are not supportive of earth, how have I allowed them to affect me, where I get caught up in the storm of this disregard, this that does not allow/work with the expression of what is here as the physical, within and as how it functions within the form of itself in common sense, why is what is here ignored and not allowed to be what it is, how it is, why is it not worked with?
How can humans allow a system of usury, when it has been said that this will not work? When it is known that usury leads to enslavement? How is it that we have allowed chemicals to determine our health, to be touted as what heals, when right in front of us, there has not been healing? Why are we accepting what is unacceptable? The excuses have no validity, they are not facing here, an excuse if simply saying, I don’t want to look here. The problem with this is that this means that one is being a “ non-looking” and as such takes everyone else along. it is abusive because it effects everyone here, the plants the animals, the soils, everything.
So, when I become a fear in facing a non-looking state of being, I am in effect allowing myself to be bullied by a “non-looking” and if I accept and allow this, I perpetuate this. Such behaviors cannot be allowed.
I mean how can a president decide to pass practices that are being questioned all over the world with studies that reveal the detriment of such practices: here the rush to pass and allow such practices is a realization that such practices do not work, because the passing into allowance of such practices at a time when there is evidence that such practices are questionable reveals that this is known. It is like, hurry up and pass this or we are going to lose this, and then make a bunch of commercials and articles presenting goodness, hurry up and resonate goodness to block the reality that is gaining ground.
And then this same president takes away support for the elderly at a time when prices are rising. This is an act in direct contradiction to supporting life, and it exists on a world of abundant resource, thus it has no basis in reality. The President of the United States has no awareness of reality, he guides by ideologies, by ideas only. And this was clear with the initial presentation of hope without full disclosure.
I had this experience in my twenties where I saw a floating head in a room, a very angry expression in the face of this head. One of the things that “hit me” in the moment, was an absolute certainty that his “head” could not touch me unless I accepted and allowed this. Thus, I had no fear of this “thing” and looked at it head on - so to speak, even wanting to talk with this, which I did not do, which perhaps I should have done, but should have could have, would have is pointless at this moment, it is in the past. THis morning I thought , how could I have had a sense that this thing could not touch me unless I allowed it, and within this to not be affected with fear in the face of this, and here i am having a problem within someone in a group I am in, becoming all emotional and egotistical, thinking I am being abused - which maybe I am- but reacting to this within protection and defense and wanting to bully, to become angry, is simply more of the same and is not what steadily directs into a solution that resolves the friction and conflict, and the spiteful actions causing discord? I am becoming the same anger, the same frustration.
If I allowed this while I was performing or playing the violin, i would learn this this way, and then I would probably lose it during performance, or as I was playing I would see a subtle thing suddenly that i had not noticed, because i had not been looking while I practiced the piece. At such moments , I become regret because I has missed an opportunity to experience a subtle expression within a piece, and the moment was gone. I have had this happen, and sometimes just let it go, because in suddenly seeing such a thing, it was also a gift, it was to have had the opportunity to have seen it in totality.
This can only really happen with being forgiving of self, to be present here. Steady, constant, directed, accepting and listening to what is here, without hope for gain or fear of loss. Humans cannot be here if there is fear, is there is worry about food, if there is worry about shelter, which is a crime as there is enough. An example of this stares us right in the face, where the countries of incredible natural resource, are somehow the poorest. As I have said in other posts there is enough space on this earth for humans and animals, and we know how to build up soils and build structures that last, and we know what is needed, that the huge mansions with innumerable rooms cannot be lived in by a person, more than likely there are only a few rooms used, the rest is just a show, such space for a few is unnecessary, it is based on an idea that has no basis in physical reality. It is like building a huge instrument that does not fit the scale of the form of men, such things become useless, wasteful and unplayable. Some of the instruments built by men are useful, but many are a waste, and the waste is polluting the expression of life on this earth.
Why are we building things that are based on ideas that are so out of proportion of common sense of this actual physical world?
Why am I allowing myself to be out of proportion of what is physically real here, in and as how here works in common sense? Why am I allowing myself to take something personal, am I allowing myself to fear losing something that is out of proportion within myself as an idea i am holding onto that lacks perspective of how here functions, to the point where I exist within a warped reality? What this means is to walk in common sense of what is a solution, practically, to bring the reward of being able to “play”, having the human scale size instrument to “play” to be and exist as the gift of life.
In the end the person with the huge house and the person with no house have no instrument to play/express themselves as life, the extremes are in lack, one blinded by ideological-lack-of-reality common sense, and one without the sustenance means to use common sense. And those in the middle, we internet users, exist within limited means to the point where we do not really learn to read, we do not really learn to understand mathematically what is going on, we do not learn how to play a musical instrument, we do not learn to be able to direct ourselves within the simplest of tasks such as hammering a nail into a board. The middle is in petrification of being here, of standing up and realizing what is real as this actual physical world and the systemic structures that are not taking care of this earth, that are now directed by representatives that are directed by a monetary profit system that by its very nature is in direct opposition to what is best for all. Usury is a systemic form that is in direct opposition to what is a practice of what is best for all, To have such a form, a systemic action, and then to give others the ability to represent the voice of many will lead to the representatives choosing in their own self interest before what is best for all, what is good will be placed second to their own profit. Thus such a system cannot work, will not work, and must stop.
I have been taught to defend and protect within a bubble, I have not been taught to look to the whole. This I will have to do myself, as naturally, within such a system of profit such would not be in the interests of the law makers and representatives benefitting from this chance to direct within what gives them more, before what is best for all. And the structures they allow are not instruments that support life.
Thus my behaviors, what I allow must be brought back to self, and held steady within absolutely directing within and as what is best for all, as there is no gain until this earth is realized for the form that it is, and this understood and supported, because if we cannot learn to play this earth, then how can we be allowed to be given our own instruments to play? We have not mastered what is given as a gift to understand life here.
My inner ideologies are a warped reality, they are ideas made huge in separation from what is realistic and supportive here, as this gift of life here. They are myself spread out into pieces lacking peace with here. The only thing is to align the very substance of myself within and as what is best for all, to realize that the only thing that can be lost is not accepting the subtlety of what is here in common sense of how here works as what is here, as the physical and what is best for all within this, is what allows oneself to be.

Within this there would would be no need for a separate peace as in a separate heaven, a separate place where peace would be found, as this “state of being” would be here, everywhere, not needing to be there, not needing to be something sought, not needing to exist away from here, not needing to become a idea of something separate, dreamed about- taking attention from here- because here would be heaven on earth, equal and one, and this is what is best for all. In all common sense.
Thus it is to bring myself here, and direct this desire for gain to protect a fear of loss, and to realize that rejections that are reactive and thus not directive within common sense self forgiveness within and as what is best for all are based on a separation from what is real, which is the physical world here this which is self as life, as a forgiving natural expression of self as life, seen at moments within our children, that which we bully into generational cultivated behaviors for survival in a bubble, without consideration of how the present system is one of inequality, unsupportive, habituated, where the only choice is to stop and breath , and slow down and look and realize that the value is life.

Day 328 Rejection Character

Fear Dimension Rejection Character
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to fear being in common sense with and as life here.
I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to slow myself down, to breath and to become without desire here.
I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand that life is here, that all that I can do within this moment here, is physically apply myself in common sense with here, as I am one person, one body only able to do what I as a human can do physically here, on this physical world, thus, all I can be is the movement of myself here in relation with the life that is here, in common sense, thus looking at what is actually here, and interacting with what is physically here is all that i can be in this moment, thus the focus of myself can only be on what is here, to communicate with what is here as life realizing how here works, where if what is here is taken away from what I am as a human, I have no opportunity to be able to look here, to interact with here which is to say that if what is here is taken how can I become self responsible as life?
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to become angry with a system that is a construct of the taking of opportunity from men, through media, through education, by design, as design is understood to be a means and way to organize what is here, and thus the systemic design is a creation with a purpose of serving a few only, the same who design the media, the educational system, the prison system, the economic system, and thus the blame can only be on myself for having accepted and allowed my self responsibility to have been given/abdicated to a representative voice, despite the common sense that it takes many men to fight in a war, that it takes more than one human to grow food, that it takes more than one human to process animals in existent CAFOS, that it takes many men to present what is presented through the media, which is a group of men accepting and allowing disinformation, the dissing of the from of self as life, forgiving of self as life here.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to fear rejection should I allow myself to become equal and one with common sense, allow myself to be vulnerable as life,speaking up in common sense, here.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not see, realize and understand that common sense is not dirty.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to believe that the limited beliefs, opinions and ideas are impenetrable.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not see, realize and understand that to fear common sense is abuse of life.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to fear the emotional and physical abuse implied within the word , as the definition, of being vulnerable which means being in common sense of life, here.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to have an idea that being rejected by another means that I am somehow “dirty.”
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not see, realize and understand that the veil of consciousness is a veil of fear, a veil of separation, into self preservation within a system that acts in self interest without consideration of life as being the value here, a system that is the image and likeness of my own fear of self responsibility, self honesty, self directive principle in and as what is best for all is best for self here, where the common sense of myself is to take what is good, to stand as what is best for all, equal and one.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to fear pointing out a limited belief, because in so doing I am actually “killing” a limited belief, which will initially create a reaction from the carrier of such a limited belief, where that belief must be brought back to a common sense of this actual physical world, and thus this limited belief can no longer be what defines.
I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand how limited beliefs are the web holding the present system of inequality in place, a system that is abusive and brutal as it acts in the self interest of a few and does not in common sense realize itself as life, here.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not see, realize and understand that in rejecting common sense I am separating myself form life.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to reject common sense of here into and as accepting limited knowledge and information, into being and becoming taught knowledge and information that has no experience with application with the actual physical world.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to reject applying/ walking knowledge and information through common sense of the actual physical world, to fear asking questions that demand answers within and as realizing knowledge and information in relation to common sense of the actual physical world, such questioning often a confrontation for the allowing of oneself to a limited belief bearing no witness to what is systemically existent on earth.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to fear aligning belief, opinions and ideas to and towards common sense of what is best for all, which means understanding the present system, investigating how the present system functions, a system of self preservation for a few, so engrossed within this system that all common sense of earth has beed veiled and thus within this, it will take many to stand and move through the veil of inequality, of limited beliefs, opinions and ideas, to stand in common sense with and as the physical, to create a strong voice of common sense of life, and this voice of common sense to walk the land of earth to realign this earth, in gentle step, one step at a time, to create an earth that is self honest as life, self responsible as life, this that each and every human being longs for, where all that is needed is to accept self as life, to step out of themind/consciousness and to breath, to become equal and one to and as the physical.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to fear common sense.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to accept a system of one way communication, where as media exists that dictates instead of shares, a system where ourchildren sit and take dictations as how they spend their days as children, a system that does not allow the human child to interact, communicate, become one and equal to and as their physical body in common sense, a system that develops knowledge and information without practical application, thus creating robots that spew the ‘party line” of a centralized system of one way dictation without allowing the ability of humanity to become equal and one in understanding of self as life, as what self is a composition of, and thus able to self realize self as life, in common sense.
I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand that whenever I talk about children, I want to cry , as I become that child once again, and within this memory I am standing in front of my father believing myself to be dirty, and feeling so frustrated and somehow not having the words to express myself, and at the same time beginning to believe that perhaps I am dirty, that there is something wrong with me, and at the same time becoming so angry, and so self righteous, wanting to lash out towards my father,, with whom I spent may years fighting, to the point where when my mother would leave the house i was told that I was not to talk with my father so that a fight would not manifest, a verbal fight, as it was a verbal fight more than anything.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not see, realize and understand that somehow I did not want to accept this fact that I was “dirty” as somehow this made no sense, yet I did not know how to explain myself, as what i had been taught, was being taught to be, was a limited construct of knowledge and information and thus lacked the very learning of the movement of myself in common sense of myself as being equal and one to and as the physical, and within this fighting allowed myself to become the burning fires of righteousness, this a separation and blame of life, and thus did I veil myself from myself as life, in common sense of life, and within this, I was always chasing what I perceived to be gentle, as within my righteousness I came to feel that i lacked a gentle nature and thus would move towards men that I felt were gentle, believing this would somehow save me, projecting this onto an object in separation from myself , not seeing realizing and understanding that i am this, that this that is believed to be separate is available right here, as myself as life, that standing and being equal and one in common sense of life, does not need connection as separation into and as energy as mind to self righteous anger and fear, and that within myself my reaction as anger, manifest as fighting as righteousness is myself crying , is the movement of myself from myself, away from myself as the common sense of myself as life, into and as protection and defense in the face of the storm of emotions, feelings and thoughts as the mind of a con-sciousness as what my parents were within a system of inequality, a systemic fear of survival non supportive of life, here, where the only choice is to realize the value is life, and to create a system of equality, using the structures existent to begin to realign ourselves equal and one, through equal money, to finally live and create a heaven on earth.
I commit myself to seeing realizing and understanding that fearing rejection, is an illusion, where the fear becomes self, and thus within this looking here is no longer possible, where I must stop and breath, and look at here in detail and bring myself back here, stabilize myself in and as breath, to practically apply how here functions within and as what is best for all is best for self, where I do not allow myself to make an object as a person or idea a limitation, determining what i am here as the expression of myself here, I stand and I look and move and speak in consideration of what is best for all, as this is best for self, I essentially bring myself within my physical body and realize myself here, in common sense of here, where the words of another can be used to direct what is being expressed into and as what would support all life, equal and one, as life being the value here, where any belief, opinion and idea is simply a part/piece needing alignment into and as what is best for all, what would support all life as life being the value here.
I commit myself to seeing , realizing and understanding that what I face in fear, and/or in frustration are ideas being expressed, often again and again, when another speaks and reacts to what does not agree with limitation, will, just as with myself when learning something new, need repetition, restatement, time to consider, time for rebellion, as a limited idea made huge, in and as energy, does not want to change its view point and thus will react, such reaction will resist alignment within and as what works, within what is best for all, and will also react within not having agreement, as an idea in separation from life as limited insight in separation from equality and oneness to and as life seeks justification and will become reaction if it is not fed, and thus such behavior is simply a storm of separation from life here, not something to fear, simply something to walk into and as life, equal and one in common sense of life here.
I commit myself to seeing realizing and understanding that fearing the words of another, or fearing loss, as in fearing being rejected is simply myself fearing the loss of myself as an idea, and thus not what is real, as this physical world is what is real, and thus, all desires within and as myself, and without, can be brought back to self, equal and one to and as life here.
I commit myself to breathing, to slowing myself down, to becoming patient in the storm of energy, as separation from life here, to realize that myself as energy has a quality of “loopyness” that can be read, in and as the emotions, thoughts and feelings in and as my mind, which can then be forgiven back to myself as life here, realigned equal and one in common sense of what is best for all, where it is to recognize any and all blame and spite within and without, to stop and to breath and to not allow this energetic action, as it is an action of discord and ‘hunger” frustration and thus separation from life,, here.
I commit myself to slowing myself down and breathing, to not allow the anxiety within and as myself to become a search for justification in and as a morality of values taught in childhood and by a society if inequality partitioned into divisions of class, race, nationality, gender, age, to see realize and understand that such self definitions are limited as consideration of what i am and can only limit if accepted and allowed such expression, as the value is life, equal and one as what each and every one of us is, here.
I commit myself to slow myself down and breath, each and every time I notice and/or catch myself becoming frustrated and thus fearful of loss and rejection, moving into an energetic reaction of wanting to win, to see, realize and understand that in allowing myself to become a desire to win, I have already rejected life, here, and thus it is for myself to stop and to breath, to slow myself down and look here in common sense to align myself within and as the principle of oneness in equality, as what is best for all , to investigate what is here and to take that which is good, and to realize and make it clear that within a profit based system, a system of debt and usury, what has been allowed before life is the benefit of a few.
I commit myself to seeing realizing and understanding that in and as what I am as life here, am I able to use common sense through being equal and one to and as the physical to look and see what exists here and what is the course of action within and as what is best for all, through walking through ambiguity as the answer to and towards what is best for all is directly here, as this is the gift of life here.
I commit myself to taking the thought that I lack in gentleness back to myself as life, as this is not something separate from me, whether this self judgement of lack as a belief, is a cultural stance in and as something relegated within gender, or taken as being vulnerable, where within this belief, lies the strength of self as life, as it is the patience of gentleacceptance as a state of non-resistance that accepting and sensing what is here is the way and means of sensing the space here, as what is here is freely given in and as life, an act of gentleness by its very nature, as what life is here, thus has being vulnerable been made a behavior of ignorance and considered a weakness when in fact it is a strength, as the gentle patience of allowing oneself to be open and vulnerable is where self can sense what is here.

Thought Dimension Rejection character
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to have thoughts about another and about myself within and as I face anxiety in fearing rejection where I attempt to find redemption within seeking a point of like mindedness with another , to stop and to realize this is not a solution to oneness and equality here, where the solution is to stand here, stable within breath, to slow myself down and not allow myself to find a counter focus to hide my own fear of rejection towards another.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to peruse another person to look at how they dress, their mannerisms, their stance, their accent, their demeanor to gage a response to and towards them that will elicit an agreeable interaction, as this is myself shielding myself from an idea I have accepted and allowed that I will be rejected, where I have already become unstable into and as energy as a fear of loss, to at this moment stop and breath, and not react to any and all behaviors with which I encounter, to here, see, realize and understand that there are no answers within and as the thoughts, as the dialogue of limited values as what i was taught within defining another according to the morality within which I was born on earth, to here stop and to breath, and to simply see what is here as one and equal to and as me, and to direct within brutal self honesty within and as what is best for all.
I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand how myself as mind has no stability, is an act of separation, manifest as emotional and feeling reactions, and thoughts that attempting to talk with another is impossible.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to feel in the face of another talking that it is impossible to communicate with them in common sense.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to have the thought that another will not be interested in hearing anything but their own self validations.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to have the thought that I must hurry, within and as explaining myself when talking with another person.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to believe that actually looking at another person is too much to bear.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not see, realize and understand that the thought that actually looking at another person is too much to bear, as what this is is looking at myself, and/or looking at what is consciousness, a mind in separation in and as thoughts, emotions and feelings, consuming what is here in separation from life, where this is simply an energetic storm that within specificity is able to be walked back into equal and one, to and as life , here, through thus stabilizing as breath, slowing down, and utilizing common sense allowing myself to look at the physical world, as this is what is real, right here in front of me, as what is here is life, equal and one, to and as what I am here.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to have the thought that I cannot do this, I cannot stop the mind, of thoughts, and the emotions and feelings in and as myself here, and to forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to believe that i cannot change what is here, that I had not found the magic words to change actions that have transpired within and as my life and world, here.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to become impatient with myself within and as learning to see what i have accepted and allowed within and as myself as thought, emotions and feelings.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not see, realize and understand that all thoughts are of judgement, seeking a self validation, an escape from facing myself as life, here, to giving up ideas about who i am, and what i am here, to see, realize and understand that in understanding how the mind works, it is to recognize thoughts as a shield from facing self, where there are thoughts as:
idols, of pointing out a positive, to avoid a negative,
a memory “state” as a desire to be within comfort in not wanting to deal with facing here, making decisions within realizing what I fear facing believing myself incapable,
imagining a gloom and doom scenario, believing myself to not have a way forward, which is a belief that a past failure is what I am here, which is an ignorance of realizing how this physical world works, where ideas as labels become what i am, which I accept and allow,
To have thoughts of blame and spite, wanting to run from here, not face here, allowing a self judgement as believing myself to be inferior and thus a hopeless case
I commit myself to seeing, realizing and understanding that when and as I catch myself becoming frustrated, angry, self righteous I stop and I breath and I slow myself down, and I allow myself to become vulnerable within and as facing the storm of emotions, thoughts and feelings in and as energy, to become equal and one to what is here and forgive myself within looking at the energetic reaction , to become one and equal to and as it, gently, breathing, moving this through my chest, within and as compassion, in total forgiveness, without hope of gain or fear of loss, to give direction to and towards this within what is best for all, within what brings the gentle state in and as another accepting and allowing self forgiveness within allowing a vulnerable self to be open to whatever outcome leads to a solution within and as putting an end to the conflict and friction that is consciousness endlessly seeking self justification, to within being forgiving, as self as life, to realize that nothing can be lost but self as life, here, and thus the moment I find myself reacting in and as mind, within and as fear of rejection , I stop and I breath, and I find my own heart/earth and I allow myself to be and become vulnerable to stand as myself as life in self forgiveness to bearth/earth myself here, equal and one and to no longer allow my mind to become spite and blame, anger and fear, even if and when the storm of emotion and feeling and word as thought resists/becomes heated/bullies.
I commit myself to, when and as I sense a desire to become righteous, I stop and I breath, and I do not respond until I have brought myself back into the physical through breath, and slowing myself down, I remain here, stable and steady in and as being forgiving paying attention to what would be best for all, even admitting the need for investigation when necessary not allowing this to become a judgement in and as a weakness which is a belief that I must be perfect, an illusion as there is not perfection unless what is oneself in thought word and deed is what is best for all, in every moment here.
I commit myself to practice walking within and as breath, here, remaining vulnerable as in being open within and as being self forgiving within and as what is best for all here, this being an ability to answer within a state of ease, as the gift of life, is here, and this gift is freely given, here, right in front of us, thus the will of self need only forgive itself as life, to what is freely given here, which is life, given without any manner of condition, and thus the only rejection that exists is myself resisting life, as it is here, gently given, where the shame of myself is to not have seen this, right in front of me, this tool of self forgiveness to a gift given right in front of me, and within this it is for all to realize that somewhere, at some point everyone has been this for a moment, thus we all know this, all it takes is to become this as a constant, here, where this is right in front of us.

                                                       DIP Lite Forgive yourself back to life

Day 327 Orderly with Tulips yet NOT with men?

People talk about dogs as having had obedience training, I have even heard some say that “ that person has not trained that dog”, which means that dogs can be trained, and the dog’s behavior - dogs that are supposedly “less intelligent” then men,- is because the owner has not taken the time to discipline the dog. But then we blame a human for their behaviors! There is obviously a disconnect here in logic. A dog can be trained and the fault is not with the dog but the owner, or , for that matter the dog’s behavior is blamed on the dog having been neglected and/or abused. Why is not the same attitude used within looking at the human being? Obviously, if a human comes from a stable home, they are more likely to succeed, so a human that does not succeed, or is unable to “get a job” and take care of themselves, it becomes the fault of the human. Even plants are looked at for what they lack and what they need, even looking at the soils as what determines the health of the plant. But with humans, this is not practiced. What would make a healthyhuman is not what is sold in the stores, is not what is produced. Is creating an ideology that humans are “more than’ animals a ploy to hide the fact that they are actually the same, needing an environment of support and education to become all that they can be, and that it is the environment that creates the human? The fact that education exists admits that humans can change and develop , thus a lack of education disallows development, real education does develop the human, and that if this is not happening than something is not working within the system, something is not working for the human to be able to become self directed, self honest, self responsible. It is not being given.
This lack of development in the human, makes no sense, especially since we humans have developed a system that can cultivate fields and fields of seemingly identical and supposedly “perfect” tulips. This shows a systemic approach, developed and practically organized to consistently produce something. Yet, with humans, we have a belief that each individual human is to blame for their behavior, so on the one hand we blame the individual, and one the other we create systems to produce a consistent outcome overall. On the one hand we realize steps needed to create consistency and on the other we ignore this. But here is the “twist.”
Because we, as humans, are systemically able to organize what is here and developed what is wanted in an orderly fashion when it preserves the self interest of profit, would mean that the very behavior of the human, as it exists at present is of a systemic design. I mean, there are so many prisoners in the United States that it is now a profitable business, our prisoners are making all the war helmets, and the tax payers are paying for this, and a profit is being made, because these companies that now run the prisons are showing their profits! This would mean that prisoners are created in a systemic way. So, this can be nothing other than profit from abuse, profit from a measured disallowance of potential, which is a suppression of life.
Then we have this “star” quality we have turned into a carrot on a string, turning self development into some magical “state of being” that only a few have, as though we as humans are a hive society. Ironically, there is a place for all expression, but a forced expression, is not freely moving, it needs chains and dictates, and thus an indication that life is not understood.
With this system, we have allowed the “exception to the rule” a “rule” of separation from life, a “rule” of inequality, to be the norm, and the development of a person within self expression to be a special “star” quality, yet with our systems of production we show ourselves that we can organize consistent development. The two are at odds, and one admits the other ability, either being suppressed or allowed development. How does this make any sense?
This would mean that we are rejecting looking at what is here in common sense, and that we are all within limited insight of the actual physical world, choosing to look “here and not there”, it means that our media is selecting values and presenting them, building ideologies that can be deconstructed because they are not considering the life around them in totality. As long as money determines who gets what is for-life-given resources on earth for the profit of a few instead of being used to allow all life to develop as it is meant to function according to its inherent form, what will exist is abuse of life, abuse of the form of life here. No matter what is said in opposition to this, the evidence is everywhere in the destructive behaviors this present system creates.
Life is being completely rejected and then beaten with a stick - so to speak- and those doing the taking in self interest - are a robot of limited belief, limited insight, limited opinions and ideas. As long as we support this system, we, each of us, are to blame. And the solution is to change the system, to realize life as the value, to realize we can only be in one place at a time, and that we as the human being “form” can only deal with what is here right in front of us, thus what do we need to actually live here, in practical application here? What we all want, as life, is to interact here, with what is here, and in order to do this there are physical needs that must be met, and this does not need a huge home within innumerable cars and “stuff” for one person, and it does not need all the war machines we allow to be developed. The war machines are simply a bully stick in brutal suppression of ourselves as life, here. We punish ourselves as life in allowing this. This makes no sense. It reveals a lack in our sense of ourselves as life. And obviously, we know how to create “order” as we show ourselves this within the fact that a system exists!

So, as always, I look to the whole and then bring this back to self, as this starts with myself, as a human. This system is an accumulation of what I have accepted and allowed.
Within myself, in not allowing myself to be vulnerable, in fearing the voice of opposition to life, here and not speaking up in common sense, I become one and equal to the opposition to life, instead of allowing myself as life to speak. One of the things I have written about is that common sense is considered dirty. And as a child, I felt as though I was considered “dirty”, diseased, the bringer of disease. This was simply my parents wanting me to survive within the present system, being inferior to life, being in fear of survival, beating what was needed to survive through humiliation and denigration, which I accepted and allowed, as being a child, there really, as far as I could see within wanting to survive myself, no other place to go. In all common sense, one person cannot change this system, it takes many, just as the armies created to abuse life are composed of many men. And this is even turned into stories by Hollywood of one man being the salvation within some “created” conflict. This in the face of the fact that many many many men covered the beaches of Normandy. I mean really! Time to let go of an illusionary dream of being that movie star-super hero energetic orgasm, it is a sold carrot on a string, and within that carrot is a hook pulling you out of the water of life, taking you from yourself as your self as life. It is a marzipan carrot, it is not real, it is poison.

The solution is a system of equality, realizing the value is life and creating a system that allows all life to be and become , equal and one to and as life, here.

Day 326 One way communication without term defining

I have my back going in and out. I have a friend calling me saying he is in bed because he has aches and pains. I tell him, out right to walk self forgiveness, and what I get, again and again, is that he has pain, and that is all. He gets angry and no longer wants to talk. What he wants is sympathy for his pain, attention, which I give within directives, but they are not heard, he only wants to hear/here what will listen to himself as his woe. But I cannot give this, I can sympathize for a moment, but then move on. The moving on is not the interest of this person. All I can do is repeat myself.
I am talking on the phone with a neighbor, the conversation moves into politics. This person does not go onto the internet. She read periodicals, one sided publications only. While we talk I bring in some alternate view points, to which she reacts and starts calling me all kinds of names, making accusation, getting very emotional. I remain calm, the self corrections I have practiced within the desteni I process kicking in. Instead I listen and try to piece more examples of how this present system works to show what is going on in the world, At one point this woman asks me what I think a solution would be, the anger evident in her voice. I calmly give an answer. She balks, as though the very idea of a basic income grant is delusional. She equates this with “getting a hand out” that will only be abused by the user. I agree that there will be some abuse in the beginning, but that there are many that will be able to create changes within an entrenched system, many that have jobs that they know are not what is best for this world, the very things that they are asked to do just to survive. Which, clearly, tells us that someone that is doing something within their job that they know is abusive, is no different than someone robbing a store, both are the same, both are taking from another to survive, knowing they are taking without consideration of others in this world and the effects of what they allow.
As I talk with both of these people, I can feel a slight hesitation within responding in opposition to what they are presenting to me. I really have to breath and slow down. But there remains this desire to petrify within myself. And this “petrification” is thick, is heavy, it takes an effort to breath and to use common sense and counter reactions of limited insight. In another way, I have to use all of myself, breath, really remember myself here, the whole history of myself, within where I allowed myself to not see, to not look, to constrict within myself, as the past behaviors that are the story of me, as who I accepted and allowed myself to be.
I realize I still have blame within and as me, and spite. This desire for righteousness, masking/veiling a desire to find comfort, ensure this, and yet this kind of comfort I seek is not real comfort, I am 51, I remember having this and still there was something not being lived in some way for me. I felt trapped, even though there was nothing outwardly “wrong” with my existence, especially in comparison to the lives of many others on this planet.
In writing here at this moment, looking back, there is an obvious limitation within communication, and if I think of high school, especially, communication was very limited to certain types of conversations, that did not go too deep, meaning conversations were of a “pop” norm culture. And this was how one “fit in” socially. I remember shutting down to fit into the circle of students, even having back chat in my mind as the words, “ don’t look” which I have written about in other blogs. In this memory I am on a New York City street, 46th street to be exact. Between 6th and 7th avenues. Across the street is a huge corporate tower, and next door is a small gothic looking church, in between, in a cardboard box is the home of a bum. A microcosm of the world. The mexicans have a small cubby hole on the other side of the street where they serve rice and beans, of every color and shape. It was a cheap lunch served in a small white styrofoam cup. Mitzrahi, the famous designer, was probably standing in another circle next to mine, as flamboyant as he is on television, he has not changed a bit. lol
This “petrification” remains but is not as intense, the biggest behavioral change is to remain gentle to access responses that are in common sense of considering what would be best for all, and this means breathing, remaining here, not fearing not being able to respond even in the face of emotional resistance.
What slows me down, in dealing with here at the moment is making a change within my environment. Financially trying to move, which I have been doing for a long time, and seems elusive to me. it seems that no matter how hard I try to financially make a change it does not happen. I want to say it is as though nothing moves, no matter in what direction I look. And yet, within this I am thankful for what I have.

What does it mean to “define one’s terms” within a conversation? I remember one of the things taught to children in terms of teaching them to format a simple essay is to define their terms, and/or build a background, so that the context is grounded, understood, before any relationships are made - which should be realized as being pointed out only.
Do we as adults do this, and are our definitions and “background” building within the context of what is best for all, or even, within the context of really understanding the context?
Can “context “ really be built and/or understood - the two being the same- through description only to a child, in a classroom setting? Or would this be the perfect means of disinforming the real physical context of this earth in totality, teaching to take in knowledge and information without actual interaction with the physical world, this physical “text” within which we are supported in totality, like the trees being what takes one chemical and transforms it into what supports us as breath here?
Are we taught to phyically realize the supportive background through more than just knowledge and information? And if any destructive practice on this earth, towards the environment is made, for any reason, through any limited relationship given, promoted, does this not reveal that the context of this earth is not understood, which means some adult has not done their homework, they have not researched the “backGROUND” before deciding to make relationships, and interacting within the parameters of that relationship, within consideration for that supportive backGROUND/earth.
As adults we are taught to live within ambiguities, a fuzzy logic background has been built, meaning we have not really defined the terms in total understanding. When ever the words, “ it is complicated” or, “it is too hard to explain” are used them it is a state of being where the terms have not been defined, the background has not been investigated and understood, and thus respected.
I have taught and played violin for a long time, and the more I understand, the more I realize it is really about the details of where to apply pressure, where to follow the form. it is all really very mechanical. The students that I have taught have differing skill sets, which manifest as a “weakness” as some might say, or another way to say this, is that they do not have “awareness”/perception/ sensibility within some areas. Which is to say that what is lacking is simply an ignorance, a non seeing within certain areas. It is only, to follow the steps to develop the spreading of self awareness into these areas.
So when a government employee says that something is “complicated” it means they are in a state of ignorance. They are not looking, and have not looked, and thus have not defined what it is that is the system, they have not investigated and developed a background of understanding in detail. What is being said is that the ambiguous terms must simply be accepted, and that if one has not accepted these ambiguous terms then the fear, as the bullying , as the reaction, in and as being indignant, is really a hiding of being ignorance, and not wanting to take the time to define terms, as this means actually looking at what is here. So, there is this collective belief in the acceptance of limited “term”/”text” definition, investigation of what is actually the real form and function and movement of what is physically real, here. This is the disuse of self as the gift of life, able to sense what is here, as self within this physical body is the very substance of life, here, thus this ability is shut down during communication within defining terms, and investigating what is here is not actually done, using the ability of ourselves to sense.
All conflict and friction, all discord on earth is the outflow of such behavior. it is simply that we are not looking at here, at how this actual physical world functions.
Which brings me to the media. The media, presents things, stories, products, repeats them again and again,knowing that this will eventually be what is repeated again and again. This is used all over this planet, which means this has been developed because it works in conditioning the people of this earth. It is like it becomes what is resonant within each human. The human becomes the practice of what is preached, what is broadcast, they are both one and the same. What is broadcast, is not taking care of this earth, and it is not doing a good job of defining terms, had it then this world would not have the existent abuse happening all over the world. Thus, this means that the media spouts ignorance of life, the politicians spout their own ignorance. The present system has not looked at what is here, has not defined what life in fact is, and this is from a belief that is ignorant of life, based on ignorant ideas that one thing is more than another, that one thing here is more “divine” than another, an obvious ignorance, because all this supposed divinity has made a mess of this world, thus it is a state of ignorance. The supposed “enlightened” the supposed “leaders” have not taken the time to define the terms of existence, they have not built a background of understanding of the context of life on earth. And, within their limited understanding, limited knowledge and information, selected values lacking consideration of all values as being the expression of life one and equal, they have bullied this limited defining of life onto all life, and the life that is here, as the humans, have accepted this and allowed this. We are thus the same as them.
The way and means used as the system of the media, a system that allows more often than not, a one way communication, where one cannot interact and question what is preached/broadcast via this one way apparatus. This means that if one has a question, it cannot be answered. And we see this happening more and more, as automated answering systems take over within systems, to save money on personnel ( and it should be noted - as the prison population increases) - could one have a relationship to the other?) . So, we have allowed a system of representation that is a one way conversation, where there is a continued lack in imparting any defining of terms, any understanding being shared with humanity. Why would this be? Can one share, define what one does not want defined, what one does not in fact understand? How can understanding be given, terms defined if they are not looked at? the very movement of this is MO is limited and it will not lead to solutions. It is the problem.
As I interact with others the conversation is limited within the terms presented via the media, payed for by the products wanting profit in self interest, determining the one way CONversation, so when I begin to define what is here, in common sense, my terms are overwhelming the fuzzy logic imposed on this supportive physical world. Is this the way to respond to what the media presents, each human therefor must correct the limited one way conversation existent with the apparatus of the media imposed on life? The present voice in the media tools are not being considerate of life, and as the system exists in inequality, this voice will not be what chooses to take care of this world. It will take many standing to change the voice in this one way communication machine.
The solution is to really look at how this world functions, to take the time to investigate what is here, to realize that much of what we have been taught to believe is in fact limited, and has become beliefs, opinions and ideas, taught in schools, by parents, as what they learned, and preached as what “is” but , as we see within this world, what has been taught, what is preached is ignorant of life, of this physical world because this earth, the systems of this earth are not in fact taking care of this earth, they are in fact destroying earth. And the system of the media functions within a “one way” form of communication, thus it takes away opportunity of communication, of questioning, by its present way of functioning it does not give opportunity, that which is needed for a human to develop what they are as life. Such a simple thing, telling us that we must stand and interact, each of us. This system of representation in not working, it allows the opposing value of profit within the touted idea of common-good, to be how what is here to move, and yet present one sided words that cannot be questioned because the medium does not give opportunity to do so.
If when talking with another person, terms must be defined, and an allowance of questioning must be allowed, this is developing understanding and background of this physical world, this earth, to disallow this is to ignore what is here, and to react to this is to not want to change one’s sensibility into expanding an awareness of actual physical form and function.
The solution is to allow all people equal development, within building a background as being life, as a human, to understand the ground that is here as this earth. The physical form as the human, is by it’s nature a “machine” willing and able to interact with what is physically here. This is simply stopped when opportunity is not given, when interaction with this physical world is not allowed, not given access. Thus, the present system is a system of limitation. it is a system based on ideas and beliefs and opinions only, and not on actual interaction with and as the physical.
Thus it is for each of us, to begin to investigate what is here, to understand how this physical world works, to walk through our opinions and beliefs, and ideas taught within a system of one way communication, and to begin to take the time to define the terms of what is here in detail, to see, realize and understand, and respect the ground beneath out feet, to develop our own inherent sensibility to realize how this physical world in fact functions, as we are able to do this, as this is the gift of life, and this is what we are as life, being one and equal to and as the life that is the physical world/earth.
It is only the resonant clutter of ill defined terms that have been preached at us that are in the way. And for this there is the process of walking self forgiveness, to being this limited piecing of self into a mind of memorized terms taught in separation from physical sensibility as self as life back into being self as life, self directing self as life, here. Self forgiveness is giving self the gift of life. it is a process of making the mind “small” so that self as life, can step forth and become equal and one with a definition of self as life, here.
The rewards are removing the heaviness of separation from self as life, this heaviness a consequence of separation into limited parts as beliefs , opinions and ideas that lack an ease with self as life: it is this state of a lack of ease that is heavy seeming. Even this, conceptually out of the bounds of what has been taught, this taking some time to be understood, and even I have to work on this, yet this does move by degree and thus one can begin to sense this within walking this process of self forgiveness offered, to begin with, for free.
Remember, we were all at one time, children and within this there was a state of ease, and each of us, at one time or another have experienced this. This “state” is here, underneath the activity of the mind. Walk the process of stopping the mind, to experience a natural state of ease, of self as life.

Day 325 Self Commitments Forgiving Labels

Within being a pre-emptive strike against potential bullying, I create scenarios in and as my mind to deal with the potential attack, and within this I spend so much time away from here, from accepting what is here as life, here in my mind, as what i allow I am in comparison, judging, labeling, assigning a fixed nature to what is here, instead of seeingmovement and breath within and as the life that is here in the various functional forms of this physical world.
Thus it is for me to breath and realize what is here and to move within and as what is best for all. As choosing anything else is creating separation from equal and one consideration of life, this which sustains and is the gift of life, as the physical world, as all that is of the physical world, this that is me.
This is to essentially “own” the physical, to become one ( own-won-one) and equal to and as this, which means being here in every moment, bringing myself here, bring back to myself all the beliefs, opinions and ideas, that are parts made huge, not to be ignored or abandoned, simply realigned as equal and one to all aspects of this physical world, to become temperate with the actual physical, to become of a forgiving temper.
Temper is “ a character of mode of thought”. Character aligned within this definition as being the mode of thought of a person. Temper is also associated with anger, and anger is reaction, in fear of loss, in belief that something is being done to someone, nothing can be done to someone unless one accepts and allows this, on an individual scale and a collective scale, what we as a collective accept and allow becomes what is done onto the physical world. Thus if we allow a belief that some can have and others not, we accept and allow abuse, as we have assigned justifications in self interest without consideration of the life that is earth, a gift. If something is not working for all of life, than the method of operation does not work and must be realigned into what works.
The characters that support usury/ debt, the representatives of life that support this, are accepting and allowing a system that by its very nature accumulates debt, and we allow them to be this through giving a few control and then the consequence we allow as this state of owing to the owning of freely given material that no one can own, an illusion. This is abuse, as within a system of usury, there are never enough chairs to sit on with each division of the value into a less than, to minimize the debt, the waste, which is essentially what the creation of more money through debt does. So with each monetary digit created, the value of the total number decreases, making it impossible for some to repay their debt, thus we all accept and allow our friends and our neighbors to fall. We cannot blame then for having worked or not worked. Some work hard and will fall, and others simply realize the system by its very nature does not work and choose to give up. Do you blame them? It is not life to play this game of abuse. And participating in it is not acceptable either. The only choice is to stand and stop it. Our present representatives are not going to do this, it is like asking a hoarder to give something up, where their “temper” their “mode of thought” is so resonant within as being a hoarder that they are consumed, like Gollum in Lord of the Rings. They have wasted away in their obsessionof consumption. That which they use is consuming them.
Just as the imaginations within and as myself, imaginations that I believe are organizing my world, when they are really survival tactics to avoid being myself here. Being myself means considering all life, within and as the principle of what is best for all. So, I have to give up chasing limited values as what was taught, because they cannot be forced onto this world as all that there is. What happens within trying to fit into limited values is a lot of friction and conflict, and this accumulates into waste, taking the physical as myself and creating an alternate entity, a lesser shadow self, encasing myself into a less than awareness, a heavy, yet thinner presence, the “thinness” unable to move here at ease, as it has not the substance to more here, thus, being equal and one here, creates an ease with here, and then here is “easier” to move on and equal to and as. From my perspective, as mind, as what i was taught, this appears a dichotomy, a contradiction, and yes, it is a contra-diction, it is contra to the dictate of the mind, the mind reflecting the accepted and allowed systemic dictates of inequality, of ownership, of usury, of a more than and less than belief system that if looked at moves within constant comparison which is the weighing of more and less, a voice of judgement. A system created by men, existing within and as ego, a belief system that one thing is more than another, a system that believes directives can be only objectified, when it is self as life as the substance of life within and as form as object, being equal and one in realizing self direction in self honesty and self responsibility with what is here as the physical, being forgiving with what is here, which is giving to what is here, without judgement of what is here into gain and loss, as it moves with how here works in common sense.
I commit myself to slowing myself down, to breathing , here, to see, realize and understand what is here, to practice being here, equal and one within and as looking here,, to when the images of protection and defense as in countering potential threats, as in what might diminish a perception of what it is that I am, within and as/according to the values within class, culture, nationality, race, role play, financial status, I stop and I breath, and I do not allow such ideas, as beliefs presented through words, to define what it is that i am and then react within changing the topic, redirecting the conversation/going off on a tangent into another subject, within this using the limited viewing of existence as how the mind functions, where playing on the fears of another, the ego of another is used as distraction, leading another through energy, through belief, opinion and idea, which is following chains of thought of limited design, as how the mind works, as knowledge and information, to direct away from my own fear, my own self interest in protection and defense, and within this to remain here, breathing, re-moving myself from mind only, into moving myself into and as sensing here, which I must do slowly, here, breathing, learning to bring myself here, equal and one to what is here, in common sense of this physical world, to remember myself here, within and as the principle of what is best for all, to take what is good, to walk what will direct what is here as earth into and as what gives what is here as form and function equal and one, self honestly, self responsibly, in self forgiveness in and as expression of life, to own self as life expression, to won self as life, to become oneness and equality in and as life here.
I commit myself to, slowing myself down, to speed myself up, to be one and equal with and as the physical, to become at ease with and as the physical to realize a reaction in and as directing what is here in self interest only, within following dictates within a system of limited design, to maintain a position of survival within a shadow world destructive of life/of the physical, to realize the potential labels I fear being voiced, is an illusion, and such labels can never be addressed if hidden, never faced if ignored, thus it is to stand, equal and one to what is here, to allow/to face the storm of separation, realizing this is not all that exists, realizing that this can only be and become what i am if I accept and allow this, and within this whole scenario, as what presently exists on earth, it is to realize that what must be walked is this process of realignment, and that there may be manytimes that I fall, yet it is the only way to learn how to walk, equal and won to and as life here.
I commit myself to slowing myself down, to breathing, to facing limited beliefs, opinions and ideas, accepted and allowed, existent at present here, and to breath and move in common sense of what is best for all, to take what is good, and to not react, to realize a label as judgement is a shadow and thus limited, and must not be necessarily stagnant, and within this to also listen, to see, realize and understand the directives that come from realizing the lack in limited seeing as being what has not been “looked at” and to realize what might be pointed out within directives, where both scenarios actually directly and indirectly indicate what is here within and without through nonsense of space as what is between what is illuminated/made into import and how this becomes knowledge and information only. where a reaction, a physical reaction is of vertigo, as the pattern set, habituated to the point where it takes time to realize this as what self has become, and within this to recognize this emotion, this feeling leading into a trigger of reactive behavior as loss, and/or into chasing a more than, here the desire is the happy face presentation, a sheen of an energetic bling, where the heart quickens and loses all sense of forgiveness and equal and one realization into and as being directive leading to what allows movement at ease, the heart calm, un-driving as a will of temper and in -stead with being forgiving, here.
I commit myself to breathing, to slowing myself down and realizing, in detail, when and as I move in seeking distraction from here.
I commit myself to slowing myself down, to breathing, to realizing the distractions as imaginations in and as my mind, as self created barriers from being forgiving in equality and oneness to and as life here.
I commit myself to practicing accepting limited labels, name calling, delineation's, as being myself here, and within this becoming one and equal to and as these, to realize this limited value, or made huge value, can be walked into common sense, to and as what is best for all, that such labels can transform/change/move equal and one with this actual physical world, in common sense with this physical world, as the consequence of what is done with the physical world is visible.

Day 324 In unequal ownership of capital we all fall down

The consequences of human practice reveal what works and what does not work, and the system themselves are acknowledging that what has been created by humans does not work. In the medical world it is known that Chemo therapy is a temporary fix, one which does more harm than good in the long term. It is the same with CAFO production houses, and it is the same with the finance system. What we are doing is simply not working, it is creating more damage that support of life.
Despite awareness of this there is a complacency within standing up and changing this. What must be realized is that a web has developed on which we all depend, this “web”physically consists of transportation, communication, and man power- physical man power. What turns the “avenues” on and off is money. These avenues were created, built by men, thus they can be changed, reformed, transformed. What stops these avenues from being used is money. If not enough money is flowing into the hands of a few, then movement is stopped. It is an action of spite, yet it is seen as protection of ownership, and ownership determines how high one is on a pyramid, how much sustenance one has access to. All of this is a placement of relative values, thinking one thing is greater than another is a belief because it is a relative value based on an idea, and idea is a quality of this world being noticed. When this idea is made of more import, when a value is made greater than another, over produced, aggrandized it robs life because all the values, all the qualities of this world, are ignored. This is like diminishing the fabric of life, just as ignoring all the aspects that create fertile soils. Desertification is like deserting life.
Generations of ignoring all the values, making some more than others, is destroying life, within and without. This practice of making a few values our own is ignoring everything that is here, and realizing everything that is here is a composition of life, and everything that s here must be realized as us, as each of us, where we are nothing without it. So without life, without life being the value, and all existent as life, here on earth, we are at the point of being nothing. Here, there can be no fear of being nothing.
Those representing life, are representing limited interests because limited interests are what we have all collectively accepted and allowed, our interests are of limited values. And we know that our limited values are not working.
What stops us from moving out of this is not wanting to let go of ownership of such limited values, because the system is built on these limited values, so if we let them go, where would we be? We have allowed them to “ hold us up” so to speak. And the structure created is a pyramid.
So, we take the pyramid down. The medium maintaining the pyramid is money. To then take money and distribute it to all, so that all have enough to keep food on the table and keep a roof over their heads, would be a first step in removing this pyramid. In- stead of following limited values, we become stead - fast in supporting all life. Fashioning a system that is one and equal to how the physical world works, becoming aware of the physical fabric that is the expression of life.
The limited values presented within the consumerist society are idealistic , most of the pictures of farming, for example show bucolic cows munching on grass on a green field, but this is not what exists. What exists is confined cows in stalls, or in small fenced in lots of mud and feces.
What exists in my world, with the people around me consumed by cancer is that the majority of them die. The major majority of them die.
The taking of limited values and designing a system of owning them without realizing equality to what is actually physically here as this earth, is bypassing the very substance of life, and in so doing, an understanding of life is missed, passed by..
The complacency, manifest as an avoidance tactic, by the likes of those who manage the present profit based system, such a Bernanke, cannot see a way to keep what they believe they own, so they stall, and say it is complicated. It is not complicated, but if the belief that one can own something is all one can see, then there will be no solutionfound, because there is no solution there, inequality, ownership for a few, simply does not work. It will create an imbalance, where to one at the top of the pyramid, will perpetually want to control everything, until there is one single person against many, and that one single person will eventually stand against the many, all those at the base and then be consumed by them. This will be the lowest common denominator. The lowest common denominator we all share, each of us, no escaping this, is death. A life never lived, a live lived in diminishment, varying by degree as to when this occurs, for some it comes quick for others it lasts within seeming time, but in the end this lowest of this accepted and allowed common denominator is the outcome. A death, an absence of becoming equal and one, to and as life here. Thus we become what we allowed, a state of being in ignorance of creation, and since we are ignoring creation, we are not allowed creation, and are tossed back into nothing.
One can support a child within learning how to walk, but that point must come where the child must walk on their own. And all of us want children to be able to walk on their own. That is the joy of life, and each of us want this joy for ourselves as well.

Ring around the roses
A pocket full of POSES ( not poesies- or same difference?)
Ashes, ashes WE ALL FALL DOWN.

This is the outcome of a pyramid scheme.


The solution is equality.
The solution is a system that supports al forms of existence, allowing the expression of life, here.
The rewards are realizing ourselves as life, as we move in consideration of all life, that what is really a "more than" is simply being equal and one, forgiving ourselves as life here, with and as the physical, to birth ourselves into and as life, to stand equal and one in transformation with and as life, here.