Showing posts with label accepting and allowing. Show all posts
Showing posts with label accepting and allowing. Show all posts

Monday, March 4, 2013

Day 300 Thought dimension Disgust character

Interesting that those times when “speaking up” came in with calm, with a voice strong yet steady, no blame, no spite, really expressing understanding with here, these are thetimes, I remember myself being effective in calming my outer world, being listened to. This silences the back.Am I so addicted to reactions and desires that this contrasting calm seems like nothing?
Here comes the shame. A shame for all the times I wanted more, wanted/desired a “more”, and within this simply not being here, going into chaos as division as separation, coming out the other end into self disgust because I was ashamed of myself for wanting some excitement, as in imagining an illusive winning “something” and nothing was won.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to desire something, to believe that something outside of myself will create me as a “more than” in comparison to others.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to feel that there is something outside of myself that will give me more: I am here, as life, which in common sense means simply being here, and yet there are others, who suffer from such actions as those believing this and that somehow makes a “greater than” and so driven to become this, in separation from self as life, that many animals, plants, and people suffer on this planet.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not see, realize and understand that there is no such thing as a “more than” as all I can do, is be with what is here in and as myself here.
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I commit myself to slowing myself down, to breath, to stop the separation into and as belief, opinion and idea of there being a “more than” scenario, as what I am as a human being, is always with what is here, as myself, even if I were on some stage and there are massive amounts of people in the audience, it is still simply myself being here, this idea of something “more” is an illusion.
I commit myself to seeing realizing and understanding that the rush to be more within and as this world, as the behaviors of the human, is causing massive abuse to life on this earth, and it is all in reckless disregard of life, both within and without.
I commit myself to seeing realizing and understanding that all I can ever be is here.
I commit myself to seeing, realizing and understanding that my memories of disgust, are myself realizing that I had accepted a belief, as a more than that something outside of myself defined me as more.
I commit myself to stop, to breath with ease, to no longer allow myself to believe that I am less than, to be a judgement of myself as less than in actions as blame and spite, an outward manifestation as a behavior of myself disgust, masking my own shame for believing I can lose myself as life - make myself a more than, not seeing, realizing and understanding that all there is, is to speak in common sense as the substance of life as the fabric of what is here.

Saturday, January 12, 2013

Day 256 Behavior Dimension : Abdication Character

I notice when I go into abdicating myself to a behavior of care that my lower back tenses up immediately, telling me what I am accepting and allowing. It is like something heavy falls down into my back, a weight. And my back stiffens. I have to breath and walk through all the forgiveness I have done, look at what I understand myself to have separated into, as in having distorted my reality as I allow myself to become fearful of being myself here, as the character I allow in protection and defense. It is like the back/behind part of me is the back chat/spite/shame/petrification and the front chest part of my physical body is a “postive” shiny/grinning/glarish/ obsequious/ shield like/ clinging to/hanging onto/ fuzzy feeling/syrupy feeling. And then as I breath it is like I have to move through past actions of judgement from moments in my life, all the way back to before elementary school and correct through forgiving the actions and the fear that was the limitation/distortion of and as being within common sense of reality, sound reality.
There seems to be one fear that i reached recently that is really warped, like it is surrounded by some monster existence, really weird shit, I can’t quite see it. I think if a child’s story of the grotesque.
Which begs the question, why would we tell children scary stories of monsters under the bed. I mean what is this? why? There is this whole natural world out there moving and swaying and interacting, and we humans sit in a bed with a child and tell wicked stories. Are we really talking about ourselves? Is this an addiction to an energetic adrenaline rush? Look at what exists on this earth! So much abuse, brutality. Even lions and tigers are more considerate, they attack their prey, go for the jugular until the animal stopsbreathing and then rip into the flesh. A quick still death. Not like what the humans do. Humans skin dogs alive, cut off the legs of large cows while they are alive, cluster animals in cages so they cannot move, stuff them and never allow them to move. We, the humans are brutal, much more so than nature and the animal kingdom. I mean, even spidersinject a paralyzing venom that kills. I would rather death by spider than death in the ways that man inordinately kills.
Anyway, the steps walked through within self-forgiveness become a blueprint of correction to stop the fear and the physical consequences of self accepted fear through equalizing judgements into common sense of life, into an absolute sound mind sense. In a way it is using the map maker of the mind to map a self distorted reality back into sound mind. I highly recommend this. You will never, ever, never, ever, ever, ever look back. Qaranteed. But it is not an easy path. Resistance is a B I T C H . Yet a bitch worth fighting with to ensure this never happens again.
I/we are a mind inflamed with morality that is a protection/defense within fear/survival lacking common sense with and as the physical gift of life. And the flame is consuming us within and without, as the systems of men, without, are a replication of what man has accepted and allowed within.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to exist in and as ambiguity in and as fear, a lack of common sense of this actual physical world.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to become a composition of unsound morality, of more than s and less than s, as fuzzy ideas, beliefs, and opinions, in separation from common sense of what is real and physical here.
I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to slow myself down, into and as breath, within and as every moment , to touch something physical, to remain here, equal and one, with and as the actual real physical world, where the joy is being in touch, equal and one, with and as the physical, in common sense, to exist within a real reality, a real story, and not as images and running thoughts, and pictures in and as some hallowed separate existence in and as my mind.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not sense what physically exists within and as myself here.
I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to realize how what appears to be exiting within and as my physical body, is of imagery, in tandem with judgements, as emotions, and feelings, where the emotion is the separation into and as fear, and the feeling is a compound of this fear/separation/emotion/negative feeling, that is considered apositive value, where it is really a projection in and as self validating self within and as fear, accepting a superior onto an inferior awareness within common sense of what is real here.
I commit myself to seeing realizing and understanding in detail what is every movement within and as myself , within and as my human physical body here.
I commit myself to, when and as I find myself moving physically within as a sense of energy moving within my upper back, to stop and to breath, and to become one and equal as this, grounding myself equal and one as breath, touching something physical, to realize within the in breath, what images - as belief, opinions and ideas are existent within from my past of learned morality judgement taught within a fear/survival system, to see, realize and understand a negative reaction as protection defense in fear of loss as a judgement of loss within a imposed belief of a more than I project in separation from myself as a belief that I am in lack, and thus less than, to then realize the movement within my front chest area as that which I project as a face value of having meaning, being socially acceptable, that is actually an act of self interest, of which is limited and lacking awareness of common sense of this physical world, as thus a displacement of myself as life, into a distortion of reality as I fear standing up equal and one, to and as myself as life, thus the consequence of this is a live never lived, as a life of longing, where what is longed for is right here, self as life, ease as life, common sense with and as life.
I commit myself to utilizing breath, to bring myself back in focus to here, as the physical, to realize the parts and patterns established from the parts, to see what has been accepted and allowed and the within this to place the parts and the patterns, into and as an understanding of what i have allowed myself to exist as within and without, where I realize what is existent without as the structure of this physical world as the accepted and allowed systems of men, as products of what has been allowed in ignorance within each, and to build from here an understanding within realizing the text of what is physically actually here to then begin to stand, equal and one to what is here, as this actual physical world, to begin to move with ease with what is here as I become familiar with what parts and patterns I have accepted and allowed as a determinant of what I am in expression here, as the mind/physical relationship, to correct my fear/separation into and as being within common sense of what is real, which is this actual physical world.
I commit myself to realizing that unless I am at ease within common sense, here I am in separation from the simplicity as what a state of ease would exist as, as one can only be self directive and self honest, here, where no past or future as imagery exists loaded with emotions and feelings of loss and longing, this, in a sense, a state of humility, as self forgiving of self equal and one to and as life here.

Thursday, December 13, 2012

Day 234 Consequence Dimension : Despair Character

Consequence Dimension : Despair Character
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to move into and as seeing only the morality placed before me, without any reference to the actual physical world, where I become caught up in a right and a wrong within the confines of the dictates of family, not seeing realizing and understanding the totality of existence as the physical, life, being the value, where not only as a child, did i not reference life, as the physical, as that which is equal in all existent, I allowed and accepted a singular reference point and thus became caught in the friction and conflict within and as the polarities presented, there by essentially not being able to bridge the gap, as the division, as judgement of more than and less than, this act in and as itself as separation from what is constant and real, the substance of life existent as this earth, given freely.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not see, realize and understand the impetus to exist what to move myself within what was given as how this world exists, is not a right or a wrong, but an indication that myself as life is able to move and be responsive in and as life, thus, I am able to change myself here, to move in consideration of all life in this planet, as what is best for all, and within this, the best cure is prevention of accepting polarities of more than and less than in separation from what is best for all, where considering an idea, such as children are to be seen and not heard, is an idea accepting the structure of a hierarchy, ignorant of what is same as a primary point of movement, equality and oneness as life as the physical.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to realize the simplicity of breathing and bringing myself back to the physical in common sense of what is actually physically here.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not see, realize and understand that when and as i go into despair, I am actually looking for answers within reasoning asmind separate from the starting point of realizing the actual physical world, where ideas and opinions presented are limited consequences in separation from the starting point of the actual physical world.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not stand up for total consequence, bringing myself back to the actual physical world and directing myself one and equal in and as breath, here.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to believe that I cannot know something, at least as far as how this present system functions, and to look and realize that how it is functioning is unacceptable, and that the words, “That is the way it is”, are a fear of self responsibility until the devastation such ignorance allows forces the human to stand and realize the consequence of the be-hav-ior of ignorance.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not see, realize and understand that despair is really believing oneself, as myself, to be stuck in a trap, seeing no way out, which means I have accepted and allowed an ignorance of this actual physical world and the substance of life as being what is same in all, as being the value.

When and as I feel myself becoming a character of despair, I stop and I breath, listening to the “stream” of my own constriction, until I hear/here what separations I am accepting and allowing as fear, as despair, as anxiety, as anger, as judgement, and I stop, I address what is physically here and direct myself within a solution within what is best for all, which is what is best for myself as life.

I commit myself to realizing that going into despair is not a prevention, that the only prevention is the cure as myself as life, being self responsible within what is best for all with and as the physical, as it is the physical which is real and not ideas of more than and less than, as being seen and unheard, or that one race is more than another, or that an animalis less than life- manifest as the abuse given to animals, or that a vaccine is a cure - which it is not as it does not address the development of the virus and only seeks to supposedly remove the existence of it as a secondary step - ignoring the total consequence as to why such a virus manifests, or the consequence of poverty and starvation being that what is actually physically here has become second to money, money that in and as itself is dependent on trees ( or other plants) to exist, thus what is real is the actual physical, as the accepted divisions of men into more than and less than, allowing money -dependent on the physical- to assume superiority over life, thereby ignoring life and thus abusing life within allowing life to be seen yet unheard, the consequences of which, in not being here, are actually seen all over this earth, within disease - as a virus, within child sex trafficking, within the deaths of trees that have been around for generations, within the development of man into a machine pushing papers, within the slavery in China so some child who has no knowledge of itself as life can speak on some cell phone or play with a piece of plastic, none of which could be considered life but actually life in decay, in separation, in limitation, in fragments, instead of expression within the full potential of what children are in fact capable of, I mean they learn to walk and speak, what would they beyond this within support and development, and as a collective of men what would this create on earth were this given to all men, all children?

I commit myself to see, realize and understand that the choice, as the only choice, is to realize that separation from the physical world, is fear, is friction and conflict, creating wants , needs and desires, is actually what has manifested on earth, a society of wants , needs and desires, to placate a starting point of separation from what is real, the actual physical world, as this world is then being used to placate fear, as want, need and desire, instead of actually each and every one who is able to stand up and use common sense, within investigation of how this system actually is functioning as a separation from life.

I commit myself to seeing , realizing and understanding that my own fears, are based on a fear of loss, with myself having separated from myself as life, and thus has earth been created as the consequential outflow of a development of a mind consciousness system to place man into a system where values of more than and less are lived as this is what man has created, the consequence of inequality being abuse and destruction as what is presently happening on this earth, where this can end, within mankind standing up and realizing equality and oneness as life, here, to within this support all life, as the value being life.



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Wednesday, December 5, 2012

Day 226 Behavior Dimension : Apprehension Character

English: Onychophagia. REALLY bad nail biting....
English: Onychophagia. REALLY bad nail biting. Over 6 years of biting down MUCH too far. (Photo credit: Wikipedia)
Behavior Dimension Apprehension Character

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand changes within and as my human physical body as thoughts, emotions and feelings as energypossess and become a persona of judgements in fear of loss or desire for gain, that manipulates me into separation from responsibility of equal and one interaction with what is actually physically here.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not see, realize and understand that when and as I change from not biting my nails, it becomes obvious that I do not need to bite my nails, as a moment before I was not biting my nails.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand what thought , emotion and feeling precipitated nail biting, to have realized the motivation to bit my nails and thus investigate what I was accepting and allowing that would distract me from remaining here, equal and one , as breath.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not see, realize and understand that biting my nails, is like eating myself, thus it is a physical reaction to what I am accepting and allowing when and as I become mind, and how this separation into and as mind, is myself absent of life, and diminishing myself into energy, turning myself into a shattered Humpty Dumpty, that only I can piece back together again.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand there is a tension that comes just as I go to pick at my fingers and/or bite at my finger nails with my teeth, obviously as this movement of myself in itself produces this, which is not good or bad, but when repeated again and again as a habit then it is indicative of tension and compression within and as me here, means I am suppressing myself as not being here, as ease.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to allow myself to go into a sate of dis-ease physically as I move into and as a personality of myself wondering about the future within a “what if” scenario, based on my past, where I become the personality of apprehension, a state of dis-ease and fear, which in common sense is not being direct here, investigating how here works and directing myself in self honesty, equal and one with and as the physical in common sense of here.

I commit myself to remaining here, to no longer allowing and accepting myself to step into a personality, via tensing up and biting my nails, allowing myself to go into apprehension, to see, realize and understand what I am in fact doing as my human physical body, as it responds to apprehension as thoughts, emotions and feelings within tensing up, where as I tense up and go into my mind, I begin to resonate with and as the apprehension as the fear and dis-ease, as separation from here, being one and equal with and as the physical here, that which supports life here.

I commit myself to slowing myself down and remaining here, in and as breath, to see, realize and understand the movement of myself here, in detail, with specificity, remaining in and as breath, to see, realize and understand what i am in fact allowing myself to exist as in separation from becoming one and equal in and as life, here.

I commit myself to seeing, realizing and understanding, that just as without, so it is within, where investigation to how things move as myself here, with and as the physical will reveal what has been accepted as self here within suppressing self from being as at ease, forgiving as self as life, and as within so without, as what is here, accepted and allowed as a system can be investigated as how what as this system functions, to see , realize and understand that what is here as the resource of life, composed of the substance of life, is not in fact flowing/moving/being forgiving and supportive of life, allowing life as what is here as earth to move in oneness and equality, as a profit based system, where men subjectively place a name of ownership onto resource and then have what is here as life pay to be life - this that is the value- to exist within struggle and fear is in essence to place the life on this earth into and as struggle and fear, to thus limit expression of life here, which is a crime against life, as life is the gift and not something to be rejected into and as being suppressed within a system of a so(u)ld existence as personality and memories of past events.


The Century of Self : Part 1 Happiness Machines
Psywar
The Trap
The Power Principle
Human Resources: Social Engineering in the 20th Century
Catastroika - Greek Documentary
The Marketing of Madness


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Monday, November 5, 2012

Day 196 Beyond face value

I commit myself to realizing when the slightest thought as blame comes up in and as my mind, I stop and I breath, and I realize I am no longer here but in an idea as what I believe should be, which is in essence abdicating myself as life here without any directive as the substance of life in being what is in consideration of all existence as what is best for all, as I am lost within a fear, where this state of fear is all that is known as all presence of myself has been programmed/conditioned/ developed into and as what serves a hierarchy in and as a profit based system of more than and less than, which I accepted and allowed as I separated myself within a definition as more than, justifying/believing a perception of less than as I lost touch with the physical as being my own creation as life.
I commit myself to breathing, to realizing that I cannot judge anything or anyone, as all that is, is one and equal to me as life, and thus in order to share myself with myself, must I give as life in directing all life as what is best for all, which does not “stop” life behind walls of laws which are really just designs of stopping life, grabbing and confining life into a moment of non-awareness, using this for gain instead of allowing self realization as life, which is all that there is, complete self forgiveness in every moment, here.
I commit myself to not allow myself to go into shame about what has been accepted and allowed, when it is realized what humans have done to life, as this is not going to get this world moving in self forgiveness as self as life as what is best for all, where even those who have ruthlessly the most physical comfort will be one and equal in realization when it is realized that all there is is self forgiveness within what is best for all, as this is what self forgiveness is in essence.
I commit myself to realizing that when a corporation has someone they have payed off sign a “gag-order” it is an admission that the person signing will eventually realize what they have accepted and allowed in denial of common sense, in being in fear of survival and overwhelmed by a group of humans who have gained power simply by signing a scribble onto a piece of paper, that this human will realize what has been accepted and allowed, which means all humans have the ability to exist within common sense and realize the abuse of the wall of laws as signatures that protect practices which are not what is best for all.
I commit myself to realizing that when I am in blame and judgement I am simply no longer considering existence and what caused behaviors of greed and frustration, as these are behaviors in separation from an understanding of this physical world.
I commit myself to realizing that all blame, all competition, all comparison, all judgement is fear, where thought is showing me where I am accepting and allowing a face value only in ignorance of the totality of the picture of what this actual physical world exists as and is, thus have i been taught to only see parts of what is this physical world through the image maker of the mind and not sensed the commonality of life existent as what is here as the substance of what is here one and equal in all, as what I see is a compound image of my own design and I “read in” the rest with my experiences, where my experiences are generated from perceptions that were generated within the same limitations of insight into the whole, as following the mind without really remaining here in and as the physical world.
I commit myself to seeing, realizing and understanding that what is of the mind in how I have been taught to utilize the mind, is to see a tiny portion of a picture, and within this never even been taught, which I abdicated as this is what I am, to utilize my physical self to sense what is physically here, thus have I no relationship with this physical world, and only built relations with limited ideas, beliefs and opinions.
I commit myself to seeing, realizing and understanding that when someone says to me . “ Oh, you are an empty nester” and I react in fear, what I am doing is reacting in fear of judgement, but if I look at what was said, I realize it is just a statement, which could be factual, but this does not hold a positive or negative value, unless I accept and allow this, it is what it is, maybe I am maybe I am not, and what precipitated this statement makes no difference, because I am here, moving within what I believe at this point is best for myself, where I need not fear any change, as it is what i am within what I am doing and not an idea about what I am, as I am life, here.

I commit myself to revealing that in essence the idea of change can cause fear, which would be a condition of the condition of not knowing self as life, as the substance of life, as one has not been taught to move self as self as life, and only known behaviors of survival as protection and defense, thus are many reactions a petrified “face value’ and not an enjoyment of being life, here.
I commit myself to breathing when statements are made and I see the habit of myself as my mind reacting in fear, to stop and breath, and to look to the whole, as all that exists, to bring myself back to myself here, in self forgiveness of myself as life, to direct myself in and as what is best for all, as I no longer allow myself to become a “petrified face value” in fear as the eternal is a constant.