Using change to understand in order to find solutions Day 799

I remember some years ago complaining when interacting with a public servant. I was irritated when an answer to a question went from the collective into the personal. Meaning, when I asked a question about a process, and the answer moved into “ I don’t know,” I became irritated, and more than likely triggered aggravation in the person in the public servant position, changing the whole mood of the situation into protection and defense behaviors. The person from whom I sought an answer was suddenly suggesting that I was rude. IN such situations, one has to agree and then move on. 

I would rant about such situations, allowing myself to become frustrated with a person who worked within a system to hide behind moving into things being personal. Yet, as well, this is a well know logistical fallacy. When one cannot answer a question, a smoke and mirrors wall comes up of and as moving into something having been done on a personal level. It is a form of changing dimensions. Distraction can be used for a good, to direct, or for self interest when one does not have enough information, or when one does not have a large enough vocabulary. Meaning, when one does not have the ability to do the math, and be more of what humans are so capable of, which is to come up with new ways of doing things. 

It is much like standing in a piece of music, as words are never the real thing, yet they are things. Words are a fluid math, they are a reflection of focus, in terms of revealing where one’s within state is in its ability to register and share what is the movement and expression of what is around one.  Is one in synch with what is here, or is one in a state of separation from what is here? Can one remember what one did last week? If not, is one in synch with this reality? I mean, things have a progression, or change over time, if one cannot remember that, and realize what is actual, then is one really focused on reality? 

What I am seeing today, this moment, is that past belief, that had a truth and yet had no real ability to point out the smaller equations that created what was a sense of changing tense, or mood, using words, to a degree that I realize with more clarity ( and which begs the question as to how much I really know! lol) today. And, to add to this, I realize that at times in my life, I have noticed some subtle changes in the physical natural world around me, like a sudden red flag coming up, as sudden deeper attention onto the environment, the physical natural environment around me- that vast space outside a window, for example. I have to ask what I noticed, and often what I sensed and yet could not specifically name. Thus, my ability to attend to changes is natural, my ability to interpret those changes effectively, warrants greater development in terms of communicating that, which is investigating what are the changes composed of and as, such as color, or pressure etc. It is the same with human beings, in terms of noticing subtle behavioral changes, such as that tense and mood changes in the dialogue. We all know this. Ask yourself how a simple conversation that may start with a discussion about something, suddenly turns into something completely different, where the object of discussion moves into being about what someone said, or suggested about the person instead of the subject being discussed? This happens a lot. Just read the comments on any news feed, it is rampant in our society. And it is a huge means of distraction away from an issue. It is time consuming. On another level, if one had access to large amounts of money, could one with such power actually use this? Yes, of course. Yet, that happens on the greater stage, from seeds planted on the ground. It is like a false resonant tree of occupying through distraction purposeful mis-take in reality. It is, not ‘ like’, an imposed super story of business to distract while all the resources freely given somehow continue their movements out of Africa while those displaced because of this action, starve with justifications that the bureaucracies are too slow moving to get aid. Aid moves slow, at one tempo, and resource  extraction moves more fluidly. The construct should be a huge thing of question. I mean, how many articles are about resources not getting out of a country? 

I find it interesting, to note, that colder countries hold more of the administrations, and warmer, resource rich countries have greater economic instability. It is a formula for a perfect storm. The colder climates must get money to pay for physical reality needs, perfect places to build paper work processing factories. The warmer places require less structure, as that would mean more effective education and one cannot have that is one is interested in grabbing the resources. Again, this a general description of a math, a mode, a tense, a pressure, creating a form, determining an expression. It describes the use of the physical reality. A story, is a series of movements, of actions. With hindsight, those actions create our outcomes, of which are visible, over time, unless one simply does not look. In effect we as humans are intrinsically able to understand this. Why, because we use this to our advantage, though limited, we use it, thus we see it. It is a matter of expanding our awareness to realize this to a greater degree, in all the moving parts of what is here around us. The moment we move into resistances, as self protections, or through self protections in a moment, we can understand how we are a math, an equation of an as our movements. Our words are things, we use them. They reveal in their equations, in what they bring forward, our alignment conceptually to this living reality, and even what distractions exist on local and more global stages/dimensions/platforms. I mean, why are conversations called narratives? And, in all common sense, what is a veil? Is a veil something composed of a distraction that is of memory, as resonant experiences or practices of movement within? Wouldn’t it be cool to acknowledge this and begin to move more in the direction of creating a more functioning physical reality? 

Within myself, how to change moving into frustration and irritation, in relation to this living reality, as reactions towards things based on inner beliefs, into being more playful within understanding this composition of reality with a superimposed , as above, or floating on, and extracting from, as that veil, of a false and limited story of more vague information. Limitation is composed of “ unfocus. “  Where the on-focus is a quantum practice of following practices of protection as resistance to who and what we really are. It, by design, is a form of violence as it is not in synch with the practical and living and physical reality that is what and who we are here. 

One must become in synch with the practical, to realize the more subtle actions, and then no longer move into reactions about them. It means moving more as always realizing the next step, the solution, that creates a lath of least resistance, because that path of least resistance is the place of acknowledgement to be effective in action. Effective action has no signature of violence. Effective action has more of a flow to it. In all, this is why in research in educational development, the greater one’s ability to use vocabulary, the greater a generation of successful action. 

Also, developmentally, and from my personal experience, things can move into what I would call, and others have called a plateau. This is where things are accumulating, and yet on the outside it appears that nothing is moving. I like to relate this to tree in the winter. They appear dormant, yet they are not, they are simply more busy underground. It is also similar to closing the circle, meaning one is busy filling in, or realizing the circle, to then make a leap into moving into greater understanding, or awareness. I can remember times when I did not see this, and become insecure, to the degree a level as a plateau, took longer than it might have should I have recognized this!  I became caught up in the distraction of resistance via fear, based on comparison and self judgement. I forgot the actual. I was not forgiving towards the process of development. Regret, guilt, or perpetual reiteration of such a story, a time-line of events, is in itself a form of distraction and an eddy of and as a state of inner resonant beingness, that can come to be one’s self definition as this, which is more of the same, because it is not being that development as an action of closing the circle, being pro-biotic, being aware of this reality, growing in awareness of the whole of and as what is here- just wanted to add that dimension too! ; )

Coming back to where I started, that state of becoming irritated by a mood change, that is a change in focus based on inner self definitions which are a composition, a resonant math of belief,  always recognizable in having pulls, or polarized values, I realize being a reaction to such a mood, is not calling the math out by name, is not recognizing the movement one is experiencing in relation to how all of this works. Usually, a change into the personal is within this context, a personal protection because of a lack of vocabulary, a lack of seeing the math, a lack of recognizing how much an inner resonance exits as a time-line of experiences that were in themselves more of that same action, practiced again and again until the entity of it becomes larger than the reality around it, as what one accepts persists, as what one resists persists until it is moved into greater understanding, a perfect means of self realization, to show what one is doing to one’s self. When I recognize a shift in tone, a shift in measure, within and without, I have to stop, slow down and breath, assess my information and reinform myself. I have to come down out of a resonant construct, and assess the reality around me, to realize where I am not in synch with who and what I am here, as a physical state of being on a physical planet. In this, my resistances are a gift to show me to myself. It is ultimately, my responsibility to use my changeability in effective ways and means. It is my responsibility to realize the vocabulary that is in synch with this reality. What I vocalize, what I focalize must be in respect of what is here and how all of this works. Becoming irritated with what is here, is like becoming irritated with a song on a radio. That song is a thing, that is all, it cannot define me unless I allow it and it is up to me to realize why I am reacting with irritation and to realize what are the steps that move myself into what would not be of that state of reaction. 

Protean is changeability. Day 798

More on what is means to be changeable

I am naturally able to change in a moment. The use of my words reveals my ability to change, as words are a reflection of my perspective about what is around me, they are the means of expression as me, because I am a human being. 

My skill with words, reveals the means and mode of my changeability in many ways. Yet, it is myself and on what I choose to focus, that becomes who and what I am, using this means of expression as my physical body, my instrument of and as being the life that is here that is me. I am physical, a physical embodiment of life, that is what I am here. It is for me to respect that which I am, all of it. If I allow my imagination to be larger than this life that is me here, I am disrupting life, a life that I cannot remember what lead me to be what I am here, thus, it is to realize and respect the physical that is the means of what I am here. My imagination, as the cumulative experiences I have embraced and followed, resonant within as me, can be a self created mirage,  which did not exist at birth and are the consequences of my environment, can become the mirage of information that I either realize as this, or believe to be more real than myself here, as the physical embodiment of what I am in totality. The physical is the reality of me, before imagination builds resonant mirages of information, with and as an inherent physical ability to absorb information, as my environmental information. Being able to absorb, as reflect the physical environment and the way the physical environment moves, even with imagined resonance, as mirages of belief, I come to absorb and either blindly accept or realize the differences and always look to the physical to ensure no harm is being done to what is real. I am an instrument that absorbs what is a perspective shared that is always about reality - a resonant construct about reality - maintaining a presence in the means as the physical instrument that is who and what I am here is my responsibility.

I can change that instrument with careful practice, informing the machine, as the physical instrument, to enable that instrument to move with presence as what I am as a physical state of being because what I practice can automate, and does come to automate me here. Or, I can allow myself to believe that my resonant mirage as beliefs, are larger than the life that enables me as the physical. It is interesting, because I remember creating music on an instrument. What could happen is that I would automate what I created, as specific forms. I could get caught in them, and not be able to change with ease, which meant that I had not developed a real processing of the means, as be able to instantly create new forms. I was repeating singular ways of expression. change from that appeared difficult, when the difficulty was moving counter to my own creations. A point of change is a point of most resistance, thus resistance is a way and means of realizing counter intuitive movements. Meaning, movement counter to one’s mirage. Or, what one expects, is not in alignment with practical reality. Same difference. What is friction but this? 

How I move, what I am able to do with ease, is a program of skills that I developed and utilized. This is changing the physical, or becoming a master of who and what I express with my physical body. Or, I can become an expression of abstracts about the physical, which is not being equal to the physical, as it is practicing changing only a resonance within me. Thus, change can be within my mirage, my mirror image of and as beliefs, a thing, a resonant object that is a form, and never the real thing, or I can be a real change as real skill development that brings the physical as me to move in practical applications with ease, being a master of me as who and what I really am in totality. This is respect of the physical.

I can see where I have allowed myself to believe the resonance, the mirage, within me is larger than reality, and how what I practice becomes the skills that are my capacity to effectively self direct as who and what I am as the totality of me here, as being a physical expression of and as life. What is interesting is how much a resonant construct when believed to be more real than reality, can be projected outwards, believed to be larger than life, and yet be so in separation from reality, it causes conflict in understanding and that conflict a distraction from the practical, consuming the life of the instrument, to the detriment of life, which is physical because this is the means of myself being here, in expression, as this came before the accumulated series of beliefs, opinions and ideas, that can create a separation from reality.  I am not processing what is life; the physical. Yet, I am the means to do so.

All of this reveals changeability. And it requires constant reference to this reality, to ensure skill sets ( a programing equal to communication with the physical, or probiotic resonance ) that are in respect of the physical reality. What I eat, what I think, what I choose, are all moments of change, and thus, my choices will determine who and what I function as within me, and what will be the effects of the physical instrument that is me here. The very resonant state of me, reveals what choices I have made, as the level of my synchronicity to life is reflected through the condition of my physical body. 

I am the creator of the change that is me, as this. And this is something that no one can be responsible for but myself. All of this reveals the very protean nature of who and what I am as a physical manifestation of life, where what I resonate shows me to myself. It is actually very simple. What complicates this is arguing for the state of lack that is the mirage made larger than life, which is a physical life. 

No one can be responsible for me but me, and I am the very means of being the necessary change to and towards what is best for me. What is best for me, is what is best for all, as I am the same, as equal, to all as who and what is the very fabric of me here, which is physical manifestation. In a sea of resonant mirages, the sea shore is always here, in plain sight. Thus, just as I realized my own automations within performing, as practiced and made resonant constructs, so can I be the necessary change to always relate to the resonance constructs within me, as my practices in the past, and cross reference the physical reality with and as every breath, here. I am protean.

Osho Tarot Card

Time frames of the mind Day 705

As we become what we practice, because we place our presence, our ability to sense a frame, a measure of time, a distance, a movement to do something, or order something, to sense its order.  Within this we essentially all learn the same way. 

We forget that our habits can become titles such as ‘ I am a visual learner’ which is secondary, and reveals more what movements and means and habits we have created, in a frame of time, as a structure that we then define ourselves as. We believe that the frame existed as what we define ourselves as, when that frame came after. Even though some of it was impulsed and passed down resonantly, in DNA, that seed of information. Or, because we in a sense, absorb so well, we absorb the measure, the morality of our parents. This is why religion is in the format that it is. It is structure, one must just question the structure, which is done through words and parables, or metaphors, the more one knows and can speak, on a soap box/podium/stage the more ‘ wise’ one appears. Key word: appears- in that bubble- away from the practical.

 The generations before us realized this, yet placed it in a metaphysical environment, as religion, within such statements as ‘ the sins of the fathers last for seven generations’  This is a truth that is right in front of us, yet it is connected to a threat of not getting into heaven- another televised vision, that matrix of energy that once the plug is pulled cannot withstand the test of longevity and was really the manifestation of our collective dissonance from real living, which is what bringing heaven to earth was all about. All practical. No Mumbo Jumbo! the real cells of life, are the physical things all around us. Science discovers this more and more every day. 

I make such statements again and again, because it is the means to the end. It is a mirage of separation, what we carry around in our heads, it is what was not grounded in practical reality, it is a within that is not equal to a without, it is why the child becomes all the faults of the parent. 

And so, the time frame of separation continues. This leads to a structural violence, prevalent in that life on the other side of the world whose time frame we ignore , or dare not to fathom, because it means we must realize how entrenched we are in our own individual time frames. It shows how much we fear being self honest. And yet, we see it, unless we are so far gone that we choose a very narrow existence, away from anything that counters our own time frames.

These time frames become reels of information, that bind us away from real living and real transformation. We become heavy with the rage of our own time frames, losing all spatial sense of reality, this physical existence. It begins with a tiny movement, that presence making a choice of using visuals, or kinesthetic learning, or what ever label one chooses. These are really justifications for not changing, and the screaming of limitation, to not become responsible.

The scream of limitation can manifest as voices running in the head, eating off the flesh.  If one’s back tempo of chat/ of voices/ of what one hides, are of comparison, one is jealous and competitive, comparing the smallest of things ( again revealing capacity of absorbing and understanding so much detail and measure- only misplaced with charged value judgements) within a relationship of survival and a feel good within an idea, or belief, that one is better. Sometimes it goes the other way, and one makes the judgement that one is less, hopeless, worthless. The measure, the song, the voice, that state is there, in the words, on one’s conception. It all becomes visible, as one speaks on parables/metaphors/value judgements silent or voiced, it is projected within or without, and it stems from the sea of potential within, as that starting point of creation, that begins with a movement. A very cool gift, it all depends on what one does with this, what one accepts and allows. The choices we make can do no harm, and can throw no one under the bus. 

Then, if one’s job/livelihood/MO is dependent on the limited structure of such belief, making a change is a threat to one’s existence, even at the expense of suppressing the real potential of another person within, especially a child. For this there is no greater crime, it is worse than anything any person in history has done, and it perpetuates the burden of seeded/noted information that is not what is best for those generations to come. All because I, or one, as the self, is not willing to stand up and speak of what is right here in front of us. We have become what we do, watch movies and entertainment running on reels - time frames of limited perspective. We are allowing this within. The moment one realizes that one has not heard what another person has said, is the moment one can live the extent of this of which I speak. I have to forgive myself all the time and ask another to please repeat what they have said. And, each of us are going to have to do this a lot, because this has been going on for a very very very long time. 

I can ask myself if i remember what I did yesterday. I can ask myself why I did not hear what another person said in a moment. I can ask myself why I cannot remember so many details about another life, a life I had with children in another country. I can ask myself why I have no sense of why when I wake a walk around the same island, that though I notice the plants are different every year, I cannot say why they are different, i have never used that great absorbent ability to sense why there are constant changes in the environment in which I live. It is because my presence is not here, it is up in a metaphysical construct, or lol, I wrote contract, of time frames, a morality, That I accepted and allowed, starting as a child, in a world that was of a society of men, in separation from creation. Walking back is a bitch, yet to hold the value of life within and as me, to become equal and one with and as it, is to live creation, to connect with the plants and the animals, first I must understand my own separation and the characteristics of that separation, and words and the processing and holding of numbers and words can help me to sort myself out, this and forgiving the time frames of limited values I have defined myself within and as. 

Also, the greater understanding I have of the money system, the greater understanding I have of the control mechanisms existent as the system on earth, I say ON EARTH because it is a construct that is not aligned with creation. It through control builds the survival game that is a busyness in a narrow focus. It is the outward manifestation of what each has accepted and allowed.  It uses the natural law in its own interest, the acceptance of a few determining what we thing, what we eat, and how we manage our health. None of it is working, thus it is time to become equal and one to the framework of the physical world, as it is life manifest, it is the real symbol. It is a living symbol.

When we can begin to hear the grass grow, then can we begin to work together and build heaven on earth. We have to get ourselves back to the real potential of who and what we are.  It is time to stand and accept only what does no harm, accept only what respects this earth, accept only that which is of no lie, meaning leaves no burden of justification, because it gives as we would receive, that which empowers each to see directly here. This means to process the information of life, which is physical. What we resist persists, what we ignore becomes an elephant in the room.  What we deny comes back to haunt us, and builds fire walls that consume our attention to such an extent, we leave this earth barely being able to walk because we have lost all spatial sense of what is real, the physical world. 

Day 681 Our greatest gift becomes our greatest weakness and is the means to change.

I had a moment yesterday where a woman arrived while I was working with a child. The child was taking an assessment and the woman came and called out her name from a distance. I went and said to the woman that the child would be done in a moment. The woman reacted. 

Yet she turned away and stopped calling out to the student. I paused for a moment and then went up to her. I apologized for coming up and with the means to ask her to stop. She said some words to me, in a quiet temper. I then agreed with her.  

I could see her quiet down. It is like embracing something and not reacting to it, believing that it is an indication of me in any way. 

I also noticed that there was some fear in me, because I did not want the woman to be angry with me, my fear was that she would remain in ill will.  Also, I did have the thought that her reaction was over the top.  Yet while these things were moving slightly within me, I placed myself her in shoes and in an understanding of how insecure we can get about ourselves. 

Before I can change, I have to admit what it is that I am.  This means slowing down and assessing outside of a reaction.  For me, it was to calm the waters, so-to-speak, no matter what.

Within this process, as I agreed with the woman, I could see the ‘ sound’ of her, the tenor of her change. It was watching a demeanor move into calm, the storm quickly calming.

I also spent time with a boy in a state of spite. The moment he went into any fear he went into spite. Everything “sucked” for him.  Many times within working with him,  he would become calm, quiet down, and move forward. The absence of spite within him, revealed a very gentle and willing person. That gentle person was much more receptive than the reactive person who had begun, for reasons I cannot fathom in exact detail,  to practice spite, again and again.

Within all of this, it makes it obvious that we become what we practice. What we practice, in measure, as belief about the world around us, is what we become. Hence, we all learn the same way, we learn through repeating what we use as a measure, and a belief is a measure. Again, this is why the media repeats the same information again and again, a story that is a lie by omission.  And because we as humans, absorb, which is how we take in measure in all ways, so it is quantum, if we take in a measure and repeat, to understand it , and we do not investigate the measure, or, place it into a real life context,  we become that.  

In this, our greatest gift becomes our greatest weakness.  And that gift enables us to assess what we have accepted and change it. And that ability to change, can be used to assess the world around us because this is our absorbent ability that is the same as our ability to assess. Thus, nothing can define us, but what we accept and allow.

Overall, this is why self forgiveness in every moment to and towards all energetic reactions, as emotions and feelings, is so important. This is why being patient until the waters calm, and the person becomes soft, in and as gentle and open, willing to change, is necessary to get to a starting point that can and will move as what is best for all, because ultimately, that greatest gift is by nature a willing participant in life as this is the real value.

Day 664 Becoming a Point of Change. From Nothingness into Creation as What is Best for All.

Becoming a point of change, where change is a starting point in every moment.

I am sitting with someone, and listening, I realize I am beginning to get tense, as though I am forming into something. The other day in a supermarket, I realized that I wanted to press a picture, as a form as an idea, onto something. The motivation was to protect against some idea of resistance that I believed was impossible to move through in my world/environment. The pull into this belief so real, or so I believed!

There are also times when I rush, as I have not cleared a structure to walk into within me, and I resort to my accepted and allowed experience. Here I have to not only realize my own habits, but also, take in what I resisted, as my fear, and a new movement as a measure to be a solution that remains within a law that is constant, a principle that realizes what can remain eternal, which is what is best for all, considering all things as much as I am able, as it is here that things are done, created, sustainable, synergistic, meaning easier to transfer understanding of means and ends.

I am so used to moving in defensive ways, that seeing my own defenses in terms of addressing fears, that are a mistake on reality, that moving through emotional veils is like realizing that underneath it all, one can find stability in being honest. Brutally self honest.

When anxiety comes us, I have to breath, slow way down, realize where I have accepted an idea, composed of a polarized fear that uses dimensions of reality, the personal, the collective, the direct and the indirect, to justify my separation from really looking at what is right in front of me as the physical to live self responsibility. What I have allowed is a huge smoke and mirrors show within and as me, to resist being present in this reality here. It is really insane what I have allowed. 

I had a dream the other day; People were assessing my house, and seeds were falling from the seams of my house - like where the ceiling meets the walls. In the dream I went to look at what I first perceived to be little black balls/shapes, and they were sunflower seeds and pumpkin seeds. I was anxious that the people assessing the house were going to find the seeds falling from the seams, yet I could see that the people had already been in that part of the house. Amazing the detail I can imagine, like filling in the shapes in a coloring book with color! Yet what is real? My imagination or the physical?

All the parts as the objects of the dream were of subjects I had encountered the day before in some way. And the underlying anxiety with the images my mind consciousness had used, was my own fear caused by a separation from considering all things, being grounded in reality.  I could spin around and around in the symbols or I could also bring this into the context of practical living, not aggrandizing some value trying to build some kind of meaning to define me because I accepted and allowed disrespect for all things, the physical. I am thus able to let go in every moment, and change with every breath, listening to here, grounding myself to see the next movement as my accepted and allowed imagination and what is real and here. I can remain equal and one with the physical life around me. I choose to be a disciple of life, the physical. I can quantumly change within, reform within and become the practice of equality to all things in every moment. Here, there is nothing to lose and everything to gain. I can be thankful for every moment, accepting it and taking that which is good and does no harm.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to separate myself from myself as life, as that which can assess all things, taking that which is good and does no harm.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not see, realize and understand that I can assess what I have accepted and allowed, and change this within and as speaking self forgiveness, to realize the measure I have accepted and allowed within, to name it, as like cures like, using dimensions of reality, as qualities of reality, inflated or ignored, hidden indirect or direct references, lacking cross reference to what is real, my owned thought words and deeds can be grounded in respect of life, which is physical.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to fear losing some value, as I have accepted and allowed such a value to give me meaning, all done in my imagination, in separation from respecting all things as what I am as a physical beingness, a seed information of the measure I accepted and allowed coming to fruition as a mind consciousness allowed to be larger than what is real as the physical world of the information of life, right here in front of me as me.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to have not seen realized and understand that the limitations caused by my separation from considering all things educed spite and blame behaviors of uncertainty and lack as my focus and what I allowed to direct me, here, and  are the result of my own compounding consequences of separation from myself as life, the presence of myself as life in respect of physical beingness.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to manipulate my awareness into a memory made larger than reality, an imagination made larger than reality, as I believed the inner measure to be more than the outer world, and for this I forgive myself.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not see, realize and understand that I accepted and allowed competition, believing my within to be more than the without as the consequence of my separation created an inferiority to life, and a desire for survival in fear of loss  and the ensuing uncertainty as a mind consciousness built of imagination, an abstract that was not equal to the practice of living.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to reject life, within and as believing my inner imagination to be more than the physical reality on which this imagination existed.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to fear being practical, as this, or so I believe, means that I must move against an enlarged imagination, a memory, a me more, when that me more cannot have the promise appearing to be real, as that promise has no real grounding in creation, as the physical, as the practice of living.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not see, realize and understand that the measure of my anxiety is equal to measure of my separation, and hence, I can assess my separation built of ideas, beliefs and opinions, and ground this back into a normal applicable practice that allows the expression of life , a participation in life, in ways that do no harm, here.

When and as I find myself tensing up within and as me, I stop and I breath and I slow myself down, and I assess what is here, within and without, asking question to define the terms, to then build an understanding from which to ground into a step by step practice that is a structure equal and one to the means of life, as physical reality, here.

When and as I find myself becoming anxious, I stop and I breath, and I accept the measure of my separation as a gift, to realize the definitions of my separation, the parameters of my metaphysical personality, to realize what I accepted and allowed as a measure, sensing the emotional pulls and the feeling justifications that in terms of withstanding the test of time, have no real sustainability, and hence I forgive them, define them, name them, ground them here, into and as what gives direction, into considering all things, here.

When and as I find myself becoming anxious, I stop and I breath, I assess, I investigate, I define terms, I understand, I take the time, I sense the space of here, until I discover my own accepted and allowed covering of imagination made larger than life, to become a beingness in oneness and equality here.

When and as I find myself becoming uncertain, I stop and I breath, and I take the time to investigate to understand a measure with clarity, as an awareness of not only myself, and my accepted and allowed separation into a mind consciousness, to ground myself in respect of all life as the physical reality that is life in expression all around me.

When and as I find myself becoming anxious, I stop and I breath, and I change, I accept the gift of life, as my own acceptances and allowances of belief, opinion and idea, my personification of limited values, in a belief that I had to compete to survive, and I stop, I slow way down, and I assess and investigate to understand, defining terms, until I self correct from a memory made larger than life, to one equal and one in consideration of all things, to see, realize and understand in thought, word and deed, that which is best for all, as this is what is best for self, here.

When and as I find myself fearing to lose something I believe defines me, I stop and I breath, and I return to silence, a point of nothingness, and I breath, I slow way down, I realize the value of life as physical beingness, and change within and as me, investigating the physical world, to see, realize and understand that which is best for all, here.

When and as I find myself becoming anxious, I realize my own accepted and allowed limitations as beliefs, opinions and ideas, and I realize I can change, thus I can accept what is expressed, understand, investigate, and self direct in ways that consider all things, taking that which is good, that which moves with ease, that which feels good, and become the living word in thought, in word, and in deed, here.

Day 658 Ideas need not define me, because what I am before ideas is physical.

I realize in so many ways how the habit of fear, of not looking here, can cause myself to want to hide or rush an idea into a situation. And all the while, that which is needed to solve problems is practical and measurable, right in front of me.

The other day, in a presentation, I slowed way down, breathed, and instead of rushing to reform I stopped and looked at the inform I allowed and the inform of those I presented to. I realize I had time and space.  It is like listening to a piece of music, the difference in not judging this.  I allowed the other person to complete their train of thought, to where it simply stopped, as I could see they began to answer their own question. 

This was a moment where I realized that nothing can define me but what I accept and allow, and how much ideas can drive one to the extend that an ideology is pushed without regard for all things, meaning to work with what is here, and to reform into building a focus that has responsibility in every moment. In this, any friction is getting stuck on a lack, where the limited form can be directed into what finds solutions, as what can lend ease to a situation.

I have allowed blame and spite to be the behavior of myself, instead of allowing assessment of reality, to gift myself self responsibility. Self responsibility is what each seeks, as in the desire to push one’s information out is a desire to respond, yet somehow the desire to participate has separated from real responsibility, which is to consider all things and take that which does no harm. To cause harm is to destroy a means of being responsible in a seemingly odd twist. One is chasing an ideological form without cross reference to reality. We have been told not to follow false idols, and a false idol reveals itself in actions that cause behaviors of harm in mankind.

Where does truth hide when idea is made greater than reality? Right here. If we look at the media at present, it is touting blame and spite onto a people who have fled a country that no longer has a infrastructure to support them, only to turn and propagate a fear of the same people under the guise of their religion. This is a stew of ideas and beliefs and opinions, streaming though a ubiquitous media owned by a few, in self interest, that is an idea that has no relevance to what it means to live. All those refugees are people, just like you and me, and they, just like you and me, want to feed their families and take care of their children, they want to enjoy life, they want to live. Anyway, the story makes no sense, as who would decide to get on a very thin boat and risk death unless the situation was extremely desperate? I mean, when Americans decide to help in this country, class barriers are forgotten, as well as religious differences, even species differences are forgotten because we will help animals - and they have no religion. 

Our media is buzzing with fear mongering, again and again. And, our congress in American, is passing ‘ mandates’ in the interest of the means of wealth accumulation and suppression of self responsibility in each, despite many standing up and pointing out problems with accepted practices in this age of information readily available on the internet. It is like the information of innovation and lack in current accepted practices is right here. Instead of using common sense, on the ground, we are the good students of imagination only, following information without question, as we accepted a schooling system that by design took us away from reality and forced information into a memory. We are zombified by information, accepted as a truth, despite the outcomes of lack surrounding us in every way. I mean just look at the health of Americans, and our children, we are not healthy and it is getting worse, despite what the media touts.

There are many in my world that say they can see this, and yet believe there is nothing they can do. And meanwhile, many jobs are tied to this system of dis-ease maintenance. So, in reality, there is no one holding this in place but each and every one of us, waiting for someone else to solve the problem, when is is only each of us that can solve this problem.

We can start by investigating our own accepted and allowed beliefs, opinions an ideas, and investigating the real measure of what supports us and what supports the men as the human refugees that no longer have homes because it has been bombed into a state of rubble. These men, these humans, are at the point where they simply want what we all fear losing, which is a stable shelter, clean water, nutritious food and an education.  A system that respects life is necessary in all measure, which means each must stand up and respect what it means to be a physical beingness.

As children we are not born with language and culture, this is what is impulsed afterwards. Hence we are all the same, it is only what measure of belief, opinion and idea that we believe defines us, that we learn, that causes discord and strife. What we are first is a form as a man/being on earth. The rest is a collection of values about life, based on an experience one was exposed to, like carrying information about how to live that can change from one climate to another, from one moment to another.  In this sense, religion is to justify not wanting to change, to project a blame onto something else, because a man has chosen an idea about something to define him, instead of realizing that what a man is, is a form that has two arms, a torso, a head, and two legs that are perfect mechanisms to interact on this earth, create things, build things, working with nature. And that men have the ability to assess the nature of the environment and understand it. Somewhere along the way, ideas became greater than reality, and the few who forced their ideas over others, in the temples of their minds as their memories, forced others to pay them to follow their memories, their measures of belief, opinion and idea! Within this, the followers accepted and allowed this despite the harm it has done and continues to do to so many living things on this earth. Our responsibility is to life on earth, to become what sustains and respects all life.

The things dividing us, are ideas made larger than reality, as the physical. That physical world, is the truth hidden right in front of us. As our refugees make clear, it is not ideas that sustain us, it is food, shelter, clean water and an education that equalizes us to being at ease on this physical world.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to become an idea before respect for life, as physical in form.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to believe the measure in and as the thoughts, ideas and opinions, within and as mu mind.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to believe that one value is more than another, and within this, to not see realize and understand that a value is a value, and has a name that fits into physical living, as in practicing being life, and respecting all things, taking that which is good and does no harm.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to place idea before life.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not ground myself equal and one to the physical world, in thought word and deed in every moment of breath here, to see realize and understand that what ideas exist within and as my mind are just this, ideas, beliefs and opinions in and a s my mind, where I can slow own and cross reference the physical reality to ground ideas, beliefs and opinions in measure to a practice of physical living that causes no harm.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand that self direction as mind, as idea only is energetic,  as this is the measure of that idea inflated and made larger than life, separating presence into an inferior state of being.

When and as I find myself ungrounded in reality, as in losing a sense of being self responsible with ease, I stop and I breath, and I slow myself down, and I cross reference my within to the without, my above as an accepted mind consciousness, to the below, to investigate and assess and consider all things as all things are me in another life, until I am calm, serene, at ease, to ensure in thought word and deed that which takes that which is good and does no harm, applying the golden rule to give as I would receive, and to build a world that is what is best for self, as this is what is best for all.

When and as I find myself having a shallow breath, I stop and I breathe, and I slow myself down, and I assess all things, taking that which is good, in this physical manifestation of life as life would, to ensure that no harm is done to plant, animal or man, to stand in responsibility with and as all life, to become equal and one with life as the physical, as this is the eye of the needle, the gift to birth myself in equality and oneness with life.

Day 657 Where am I constant?

I notice there are times when I do not react to another’s behavior. I noticed I become very patient  It is like water rolling off of me. More often, I either do not respond, or in the same calm way that I am within not reacting, I speak up and reform what is said, in the third person. It is as though I am not placing any blame on the person, it is more that I look at the information and reform it, or take it into something that is no longer inflammatory, or inflated into a polarity as some aspect being made a huge value.

So, I ask myself why I am not this way all the time? What triggers do I maintain that I then fear happening?

Reacting to information in a judgmental way, a self protective criticism is used like a shield, usually to point out a mis-take as an enlarged value that is stupid/stooped in its limited perspective.  And this is because I have done the same, or am wanting to hide how I did the opposite, and want the attention turned towards the other.

Meanwhile, I am aware that the mind consciousness of self interest, will scream it’s own limitation, thus what I am doing when I react, is screaming my own limitations, wanting to hide through projection of a wrong onto someone else. It is like a rise in energy, within, only to be followed by embarrassment, hoping no one realizes. Everyone usually does realize, they silently just want it to pass, not having to sort this all out. And I have done the same. Sorting this all out seems impossible, when it simply means realizing the game of self interest, a self within believing that some value defines self and the existence of a potential for that to be lost. 

Those times in contrast, when I listen, without judgement, and review the information presented, take the information as a form, something that is mutable, meaning, not something fixed and eternal, is done with more ease, calm, serenity and stability.

Naturally, within such a state of being, I am more fluid, more creative, more able to see from more than one perspective. I am more able to be self honest. I am not within an energy of needing to lie, thus the experience has no sense of being a burden.

One is more self directive and the other is more reactive. One has more of a sense of rushing, of forcing an opinion outward, and the other is more able to stop, slow down, hold onto a perspective, and maintain it within changing as one moves through a review of it. One has more a sense of constancy.

Thus, when I face a reactive environment, either self generated or happening around me, I have to slow way down and stop, until I have that sense of seeing the information in a non-reactive way, indicative in an ability to retain the information and either speak up about it, or if someone else should speak up, let it go. In this, the reforming of information, or adding perspective, is about the information and not the object from which the information comes, and this in relation to the information that comes from other men via descriptive language.

Those times when the information coming towards me, or a storm rising within me, appears to be too much, means that I have some investigative action to take. even when this information comes in the form of hope, as a positive energy, all dreamy like, like a potential is going to happen, when this is an expectation dream based on countering past mis-takes reordered to stand once again. 

Usually, this is accompanied by a tiredness of sorting this all out.

Interesting here, that I have this image of myself as a child, with all this information coming at me, like a huge weight and I am supposed to sort this out. And it appears really huge and indecipherable.  I remember also, before I started to walk the process of deconstructing the mind consciousness I accepted and allowed, was being so sick of this heavy thing within me, that one day I just went into it, just wanted it to go away, so I went into it, instead of trying to hide from it. I mean, I would wake up in the morning feeling like I could not move, knowing this was an illusion, and wanting to know what this was overall. Sometimes I would lie there sensing the weight of it, because it had this huge weight. What was this thing?

Now, there are times when I realize that this weight is an information that is what I have created, because it is what I access to direct me, as it is the information that is me, as what I have accepted and allowed.

Hence, this is the same on all of us, in those around me. So, within this understanding there are times when I am calm and do not react to this in others. So, there are moments when I address this as information, where somewhere I myself am aware of this. I am aware that the behaviors of others, is information that is then directing the person. I do not react, and even have a sense that this is a storm, something that will pass, and that listening to the words, will reveal the form, and that this can be reformed. And I do not feel threatened in such situations.

What I am doing when I react is battling for one personification of values to be more than another, instead of realizing that everything as information is a personification of values, and accept it as that, and learn from it, enjoy it. Yet, I either allow myself to be conditioned by a limited set of personified values, to survive, or I remind myself here as a man, with a set of values that is me, that is what I am here, as this including the physical world. And, to realize that what hued-men/humans have done is become a bubble of a storm of energetic personified values, like a walking picture show of values, usurious to the very life of the physical man walking under the weight of this “ heavenly’ personification. If this is how one has programmed oneself, because we do program ourselves otherwise how would anyone master the violin- for instance, then, I would wake up in the morning with this huge weight above me, that scared me and that at times was of an information that could not direct me - obvious in my resistance to other information around me! My behavior would be to react in protection and self defense when not fitting into this world or the same limited value personified behaviors in others because it is not equal to reality, as the value of life as the physical real information that is the real me.

Thus, when I find myself not being calm, and serene, and in a quiet assessment of information, I have to stop, to breath, and assess my own accepted and allowed information, even when feeling overwhelmed by a weighted form around me, until I have slowed enough to address it and move in a way that is stable, that can stand. A within what carries no weight, as what can remain eternal is always there as those times when I became a natural ability to assess. That “weight”, is but very thin, meaning of no real weight, it is only my resistance to it, that has it appear to be a weight. And also, those times when such information rolled off me like water, yet was readable, able to be reformed as though it was me, yet understood this was only for a moment.

Day 655 I am the nature of change.

I realize that I fear change, and yet this is a natural ability within me, and the physical world surrounds me to enable me to change to fit with what is here, and to work with in ways that do no harm.

I can see where television, imparts a vision that has nothing to do with the reality as the physical world surrounding myself here.

I also can see where the contrast of our present education system, moves at a much slower rate than the imagery on a screen, filled with possibility and excitement.

In a world where a child has little to no interaction with the physical reality surrounding them, and a communication system that use words to bring out detail, and a television that orders movements and picture that appear to defy reality, and an education system that micro manages in abstraction only, for many hours a day, can we see how we are in effect not educating our children to realize their full potential?

We understand that what we think can become automated in our behaviors, the measure we are exposed to, as media and the slow-motion of learning in our schools of a set body of information, abstractly, without practical application- as being away from using our immense common sense - eventually becoming what automates us, or, what directs us, or what we program ourselves to direct our physical bodies as.

I mean, look at the Harem effect in our schools. This is a program of a set body of values, that a person believes defines their value, or believes brings some excitement. If this is the information, as a series of values composed of measures, like data, or like ‘ tradition” which is a set of data based on a past,  then that is what that person attends to, has programmed their body to move towards. This is okay, yet when one’s set of values are made larger than other values, as they are all values, one not more than another, what is missed in perception and what directs that lacks a respect for all values? What is lost in the elimination of other values that are in no way more or less than one’s perceived values collected into what directs the person’s attention?

And, is one so busy chasing these limited values that the potential of other values is simply ignored? This is like wandering though a forest and ignoring anything that does not motivate one, when all those others trees have values, and together form the forest that is the very means of life, as the trees all emit oxygen for each part in this fabric of existence.

And if one is so busy following these limited values, is everything else no longer visible, as the imagination has become larger than life? I mean is this not what abstract teaching only and constant tele-vision in effect doing?

Have we allowed ourselves to become programmed with limited information and within the practice of that limited programming as what is our cognition/our directive map, lost sight of how we accepted that programming to the detriment of a natural spatial ability that is the very means to sense that forest and each individual tree? In other words, we have become a mind consciousness system, following an inner informative order on automaticity as what directs us, forgetting how this all works!

Imagine trying to explain this to a mind consciousness system that believes that mind consciousness is more real than that forest?

And meanwhile that program will say “ you are not listening” when that ‘ not listening’ is really that the program that is all that is seen, only wants acceptance of itself because it sees nothing else!

And yet, one can change, because that information was placed and accepted, a process of construction that can be deconstructed. Yet a principle must be what guides in the reconstruction, as this can create a constant, and that constant must be what can withstand all change. It must be that point of stability, reminding the person of that forest and the individual parts of that forest, down to the leaves on the tree.

This principle must be what is best for all, because this has that which follows a program, for a moment, to consider all things. We can sense that forest and the leaves on all the trees, as this is how great our ability to assess and absorb information is. We can retain what we assess as a form for a moment, and become an ability to change in every moment with that innate spatial ability. 

Given that what is programmed can become automated on another level through generations. As the parents become the program and physically direct themselves as this, and end up modeling this for the child, who then is exposed to this every day, because the child does not have enough information accumulated to realize what is happening.  Thus the parents model the limited information, as this is physically directing them.

We all know this is happening, as we ignore what is happening in the world, and are involved in our immediate environments, where television/entertainment and specialized jobs consume our attention. We move like we have visors on, and bury our frustrations in entertainment and drugs, because the suppression of our full potential is a lot of work. Thus we are allowing a fluid ability to assess ( learning to crawl) to direct in a very narrow focus.

If in every action we make, in this next moment, included the principle of what is best for all, we would begin to look outward,and realize the structures of, for example, our economic system as being what is not what is best for all.  We would begin to investigate the structures, and even begin to understand that we were never taught how the money system works because it would mean we would understand that by design it is not what is best for all and therefor cannot work. We would begin to realize the structural patterns within and without.

We are accepting a system that is acting in self interest, just as we each are lost in our own self interest, having forgotten to respect what we are, as physical beings living on a physical and finite planet.  This is  a planet that works in symbiosis, not as a monoculture. Look, are our bodies a monoculture? No, they are a system of many different parts that work together in symbiotic ways. Our bodies are not a monoculture.

Is it no wonder that the physical labor jobs are paid the least and the abstract-on-paper-work jobs are paid the most? This is because the paper work jobs can manipulate in self interest away from what is real -moving limited information. This is a building of structures far away from that forest, forgetting that fabric of the physical world that is the means of one’s life, as that forest is a part of one’s physical body- without it, one cannot live. The system reflects what each is allowing within.

In this, all jobs, no matter what, are equal in importance and within this, each one must move within the principle of what is best for all, in consideration of all things, as all things are you in another life, in another form. 

As one begins to realize one’s program composed of values that are essentially a measure about the physical world surrounding us, and begins to look not only at what one has accepted and allowed, and the distractions to not face this, as the television ( not a ‘ bad”) and the education system of a set body of information that does not teach how the system is structured  ( or we would not have starvation and environmental degradation) one begins to discern the without and the within. The without being the real  physical world around us as that forest and all the leaves on all the trees, and that within as what one has accepted as belief and idea and opinion that is an enlarged imaginary value only; a measure, a data about this symbiotic world. This is how a  mind consciousness system  is what has been accepted, where the imagination is in separation from reality, and that imagination is believed to be more real, than reality as the physical.

The means to begin to ground one’s self back into reality, is to move as the principle of what is best for all, as this is what is best for self, because self as life, exists because of what works and what works is what is best for all, which is how earth exists because it moves in symbiotic ways, which is respecting all things and taking that which is good and does no harm. 

One must be able to change, in every moment, assessing all things. One must be fluid as to what is formed within and what is formed without. Each has this capacity, or we would not have learned to crawl and to walk and to talk. For those who could not learn to crawl and walk and talk, it is because of the consequences of each, within each generation, not considering all things, taking that which is good and does no harm, in every moment of breath. We are all a part of creation as the physical. Our responsibility is to all things. What is best for us, here, is what is best for all.