Confusion and fear is not enough information Day 765

I sense a weight in my cheat, that slowing becomes more and more defined as what builds and creates this presence within and as me.

The best approach at the moment, and also to solution is to acknowledge this and to stand in the practical as what lends effective movement within and as me. It is, as the best means at the moment, self focused on a lack, as that lack being something impossible to change, and yet, to stand as the change is the means towards the end of this presence as information within and as who and what I am, here.

What I am going to look at today, is how much this weight is a habit of a con-fusion of fear, as not being able to process the spin of value judgements of good and bad, that is myself in a shadow world lost to what is real, as the practical. I cannot respect myself if I allow this, this con-fusion of value judgements protecting an idea of who I am in some belief that I must have a limited set of values to define me. This a consequence of a belief that I am not enough, as perhaps starting as comparison without investigation, without regard for simply being and living as who and what I am, which has great potential to understand life, and experience the many qualities that compose life. This life is physical and all around me as me. 

I must realize that this existence is in a state of lack, which is a state of diminishment, and that what is best is not being lived, or being lived by small degree, as that same life within and as me, that motivates correction is also wanting of correction to experience life. It is balancing out, standing as being here, and realizing the consequences of what I have accepted and allowed means standing up as what respects this world and how a mind consciousness of limited information is the separation from being present in this reality. 

Always in the words are the means and the correction as we tell ourselves as our projections what and who we are standing as. This is always visible in plain sight.

What I am here being and living, is standing as seeing, realizing and understanding acceptances and allowances and the means of seeing this lack and who and what I am, as life, here, which is physical.

Thus, this weight on my chest is the habit of and as the confusion of and as focusing only on a lack creating polarities of good and bad, and the way forward is to acknowledge it and change the focus of myself onto simply being here. This means standing as what is best for all, which is what is best for self. 

I notice, if I slow down and LOOK at what information flows as me, as energy, as a quick movement - in a way- as a storyline, a lot of the imaginations are of doom and gloom, worst case scenarios, fear of punishment and mistake. It is like having a haunting shadow around me as me. This is what accumulates around the top of my chest. I have to catch it, or ‘ read it’ and process it. This means taking it apart and correcting the focus of and as this onto the practical real living actions in tune with this reality, because this is what I am, and this is myself respecting all things. 

Since we are exposed to, so much media and story telling from books ONLY ( written information is not a bad) and our parents and others around us, are of the same, do we really learn to respect the natural world around and do we have examples around us who are able to do this? Perhaps animals can, more than any human. 

If one is reading a text, with information as pictures, as stories, and cannot remember what one has just read, or what someone has just said, and you can’t remember how you made the switch how are you going to read the things that distracted you from remaining present, taking in information with ease? And, do you think you are going to be able to change this in a moment when this was built over time, just like a frog placed in cold water, that when heated over time, say 50 years, or even seven, that when the water finally kills the frog - and the frog not even realizing it is being cooked to death- the people in that environment just stand there, because they believe that hot water to be NORMAL because it is all they have ever known, these people are going to be able to SEE what killed the frog? And, could someone who has continued time and time again to say the water is heating up and will kill the frog, for which all the oblivious people will say, “ conspirator!!!” , lol.  Can something like this not be realized but by deconstructing it, which means increasing one’s processing speeds because this was done through dumbing one down into a slow measure that has no sustainability and rushes like an energetic electrical burn through the body, using the flesh to project the belief that is the mis-information separate from reality? 

Birthing one’s self into real life means standing up again and again until one becomes aware of self and this world, this physical world. This means re-cognizing one’s self to reality. This means stepping out of the bubble of mis-information ( mind con-sciousness) that is a distraction through limited info, causing cognitive dissonance that is really a stagnation. 

It is like, or is, one must stand within one’s self and blow up what is zipped filed, or compressed within one’s self, as what has accumulated into a layered onion, and forgive the value judgement that is fear, and walk the correction, which is a practical application that is a state of being focused here on the physical, in reality. The elite of this world have simply used this that is accepted by the collective, to build a structure that allows them control, which is what a state of separation is constantly trying to be and do. They use our abdication of common sense of reality to do this, thus we cannot blame them. Yet we can change from separation into equality and oneness, with reality. 

What I notice about myself, in relation to this, is that the pressure in my chest, which at this point feels like a film over my chest, on the top of my chest, is a form of anger, which is fear. I notice the habit of becoming angry, in my case it comes out in a verbal form.  This is a form of disempowerment, of my own creation. I look only at the punishment of myself, as suppression, as not being present in reality, doing the real math of common sense as me, in expression. 

When I focus, and ‘ do the math’ or ‘ look at the numbers’ as the measure of what I am allowing myself to be, in relation to the principle of what is best for all as what is the best for me, is that my lower back moves with more ease. Mankind is unhappy when unfocused and happy when they are focused and present in the practical. 

Today, in relation to the present system, someone said to me, “ But that is how nations build their wealth’ This is true, yet if that wealth moves into  supporting conflict for supposed gain, driven by self interest, as a dogma of ideas, and, instead does not flow the means of what  lends stability and growth on every level, a real wealth is not being considered, and only a very limited thing as an idea that is in itself a state of separation from a common sense of the real machine as the physical. 

My physical body reveals what I am doing. If there is pressure on my chest, I am moving into fear and anger over solutions within the principle of what is best for all.  Fear is a practice of protection, which means comparison, which means judgement instead of applied practical discernment. 

The Starting point is the ending point, morality and the holographic of memory Day 735

The starting point is the ending point, morality and Facing holographics of memory.

I notice that at times, processing what I have accepted and allowed as a math, as a measure as a form, memorized within and as who and what I have accepted myself to allow myself to be, as a projection of values, some call morality, ahead of myself through my head, a bubble shrouding a natural ability to sense here, this reality, moves like a molasses in processing this ghost in the machine of myself as a hued-man, is focus in separation from the gift of life, here, this earth. It can so easily move into knowledge and information. Yet this is where I am as I process m¥ own separation and breath myself back into being present in the physical. It is interesting, because a greater pattern recognition comes forward, and yet, I am still not present, because this has not been lived, for eons, thus I cannot assume I am done. In so many ways, it is a process that is never done, as it is learning to be self forgiving, in every moment, moving into recognition of myself as all that is around me as the physical. 

I have not reconciled facing the storm of separation, around me, as others,  and yet, a rejection of this reality is always a self hate. It is a rejecting of what is resisted, and since life is always here, that resistance will persist until what is rejected, through projection, as unresolved acceptance, is the very substance of life, giving itself as how life works, ever present and never ending. Life is eternal, that which is eternal.

I must realize that in standing up, what will happen, as our present system, will be the voice of separation. That voice is a morality in separation from practical common sense. I somehow want this to magically go away, yet this reveals a resistance within myself. I am not embracing what is here, thus I am that of which I speak, in a state of morality in separation from life. My starting point is still hued with fear, when I as life am capable of processing the math, the divide, of closing the gap, and creating a current of life moving between the banks of belief, opinion and idea. 

The separation is only an apparition, and no apparition can define who and what I am unless I accept and allow it. For example, if I point out hurt and damage, instead of solution, as there are no problems and only solutions, I am focused on the lack and not equal to it, as being equal to something is not only seeing he limitation, but also realizing the movement, as words, as sequences of steps, that lead to a balance. That balance creates an open window into the ineffable grace and gentleness of sounding what imparts a willingness to take the reigns of being a self willed equal with all things. Here, I even notice myself becoming knowledge and information. 

I cannot fear facing separation into a morality, As this morality is simply a form, a simulation of measure, of belief. It is one of those things that once it is understood in practice, or enough to be a consistent practice, a realization with hindsight, will be a state of ‘ Why did I not see this?” And then the shame, and the realization of the damage one allowed within allowing a morality of self interest without consideration of all things.

I am avoiding facing the storm, taking back my joy, as a sense that I am not allowed to be joyful. I am not allowed to play. I am supposed to work on the false technology of playing god so evident in what is a commerce of informed consent that offer products that by design suppress a natural sense of space and time, of and as who and what I am as life, here.

Yet, with practice, a little every day, what accumulates if a greater sense of walking mis-information and a mis-use of the imagination back into respecting this physical reality all around me. Those subtle and ineffable tiny movements, that appear to not have any significant difference, build, just as they do within a mis-use of who and what I am, the reverse is also the same. Thus, I am in a process of reversing a false positive, a limited morality that cannot materialize because it has not real sustainability in what supports and considers all things- and that is always here, as it is the real platform of life, the physical. It tells its story, sings it, as a math, as a song, all around me, I need only listen, and even this through a static that is really loud in some moments when I am calm and quiet. So, I walk back into being present, facing the storm, crying when I really want to express joy, because somehow I have turned joy into a suppression within myself, as though this is not allowed- even when right in front of me, a moment of not hating, of not resisting, of accepting separation as well as solution, is something I am capable of, and deserving of, because I am life. 

The simplicity of the smallest of movements, that how such tiny movements of self correction into self forgiveness, are the beads of joy that can create a river, if I can forgive the shame for not having realized such a thing. The practice, of self correcting, with the very smallest of things, as words, to focus myself outside of my accepted and allowed holographic-ed morality, to rebuild, realizing the living value of each measure as each word, can be tiny movements of joy, of re-scripting the very sound of and as me, that I can in what is seemingly of no significance, rebuild an equality to life, instead of an elephant in the room that can lead to a death of a life never really lived, such as hanging from a rope in an attic, leaving the most precious of things behind as a child of life, a breath of life, within and without. The false morality, filled with the pain of hate, suppressing a natural gentleness within, that morality consuming the presence of life in that person, there is no way this can continue, none.  It is realizing that a court uses verbs to create a fiction, an area of no go zone because it is a box of a false use of imagination, instead of focusing on the consequence of such forms. It is to take that which is good to show because pointing out the lack is another form of fear tactics which is wanting control more than building self willed equals. It is showing how ego can take a good and create a circus show, all eyes on the display of magic instead of following through and using what is discovered to suppress for the benefit of all things.  It is like a librarian holding onto a library, and wanting to control the information of separation, when that in itself must be forgiven, as the real library is the physical world all around us, the greatest technology, as it is the technology of life. it is to focus on what is good and does no harm, to have faith in this.  Such an act of pointing out the limitation would be the suppression of one’s joy within, that suppression causing a lot of pain. 

I suppress myself when I fear facing the false morality around me. The storm must be faced, and it needs be feared. 

The way out , as I see it in this moment, is to follow the joy within, to remind of the medicine taken in small tiny doses, as realizing the joy of self correction in grounding words back into a living word that recognizes the physical world with every movement, to script one’s self back into life, back into the real starting point as being a living presence, with full spatial skill, here. That would mean that life would increase in value, and awareness though out life. That would mean there would not be death, only the transformation into life, here.

Day 679 Opening the Chest To Heaven on Earth.

At the moment I read books where I realize there are comparisons that appear to spin in  a contradiction, making some things within the association have meaning that is not at all clear. Defining the words and making sense out of a spin as an idea, means speaking up and pointing out the discrepancies.  It is a process of defining the parts , which is defining the words, and aligning them with practical reality. I can see where a child would meet with more of the same spin even if they tried to catch all the words and the sounds and align them, having to work with the words and order them and then speak up. This design would be very difficult for any child.

For this reason we cannot really blame anyone, we can only go back, and sort out the layers of information ourselves. And the information is in every move we make, in every word we speak, in every thought we have moving through our conscious minds, as this is a reflection of the measure of what we have accepted and allowed; we personify what we believed, we personify our stories that are based on the past of ourselves and those that came before us. We are the creators of what is here as the present system. 

We can decompose this and equalize ourselves to the physical world, respecting it as the same as us, as the starting point and build heaven on earth. It would be like being born into heaven, removing the gap of separation from being equal to creation as the physical. We can remove the suffering and the belief that holds it in place that we learn through suffering.  Suffering is really just that baby missing a step, to then right themselves and move into walking. We have aggrandized the fall, and built a religion around it. That is the illusion. 

Within myself I can move into joy, the joy of expression of life, through breathing, through slowing down, through walking through the layers of the information that is the personality I live in every moment, so visible and so forgivable, to ground myself here, equal and one within breathing-in with a presence of myself here, and taking the time to sort out the information so that I am clear in respecting this real actual physical world around me. I need not fear the confusion, as the information of survival in separation from who I really am here.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to hate myself for participating in limited knowledge and information.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to rush, through my chest area, in an excitement that is a fear, and a desire to understand, and yet even within this initial drive, from my hard drive, as my breath and presence here, to see realize and understand that as a young child sorting this out with a cross reference, would have been very difficult, within using the code as words to order, which I probably did not yet have enough of and as within me, to do so.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to feel depressed within and as this, as a sense that I am pressing down on myself from my eyes and the back of my head.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not see, realize and understand that even in high school I could see that I was doing this, moving into the story around me, via the voicings of the people around me, to get along and go along. where as I walked up to the group, I took a breath, and stood with the story, imitating it, to be able to participate.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to believe that wanting to participate made it all okay.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to move within and as my chest area, in a kind of rushing, upward-like to stand in a construct of information in order to participate in the world around me, as though this upward thrust within and as my chest area,  was me stepping into a survival suit, where this took a huge effort, because this was myself suppressing myself in fear of facing the storm of the personality of and as this in others.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not see, realize and understand that within and as my eye area, there is this sense of pity, like a ‘ I am sorriness’ which is really a sense of suppression to only see limited values as I choose information to direct myself in an effort to get along and go along as somewhere in my past I believed sorting things out was not possible.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not see, realize and understand that my shame is a sense of futility where I sink in and as my chest area, as what I expected within self directing in limited knowledge and information of ideological values,  as somehow this was not moving into expectations in a narrow focus or in a sense of reaching mutual clarity, as though somehow I realized the connection was not sound, stable, clear and within this I accepted less than believing it would be sorted out at some point not seeing realizing and understanding that deconstruction and reconstruction takes time and equal participation from a separation as a starting point.

Thus,

When and as I find myself ‘ pushing myself up’ as a movement within and as my chest area, I stop and I breath, and I assess the measure of personification I have accepted and allowed within and as me, remaining in breath and grounded, and walk, in respect of this real physical world that is the information of life in expression, here, as this is me, and this is recognizing the means of myself as life here into eternity.

When and as I find myself approaching another, within and as ‘ lifting myself up’ within and as my chest area, I stop and I breath, and I slow myself down, and I asses how I am, as a measure of belief, opinions and ideas, directing myself as though I am moving into limited and separated knowledge and information to self direct, and I sense the suppression of being present, and I ground myself here, until the pressure building in and as my chest area beings to clear, realizing that I can listen, and understand and practice directing in ways that bring an intimacy as a clearness in being present here, a presence that senses racing in values, and ignoring the ease of being grounded here,  as much as I am able to remove the view of ideas, beliefs and opinions I have accepted and allowed to define me.

When and as I find myself moving within and as rising up in my chest area, I stop and I breath, and I no longer allow myself to suppress myself into only moving as knowledge and information as a measure of values, as I assess what I have accepted and allowed, and what is the movement around me, and the physical, until I become the practice of understanding within and as what allows an absence of suppression and racing into a projection of an end goal as the self interest I accepted, and instead enlightens myself into ease and clarity, calm and stability here, as that which is equal and one to here, the physical to realize in thought word and deed heaven on earth.

Day 605 Self Forgiveness on this Morning's Rant. I am what I accept and allow.

SF on Suppression

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to fear following through, to fear moving out of agreement within a narrow focus in perspective of reality with others.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to have made the mis-take of reality, in my dealings with others, as I allowed myself to remain within self interest based on a fear of thwarting what was around me as the focus of other’ within my world.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not see, realize and understand my own stuckness conceptually within which limited my perception of reality without, and lead to stagnation within and as me into and as a lesser expression composed of value touting within a very narrow focus, an entity within the machine of and as me as my human physical body as a mind consciousness of limited structure that became physically integrated as the information of and as me, this that I accepted and allowed, where there is no one to blame, no one to spite, simply to become a directive principle of being aware, using my common sense, to respect all life as the physical and to see, at this point, the structures manifest as the present financial system that limits access to exposure and opportunity to grow and accept/ become the innate ability of men, to care for their world around them and to develop in awareness of the practical physical world here.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to tout a good, in a very narrow focus, in self interest and gain, without looking at the consequences of my narrow self interest and what such ignores and does not consider within the broader physical world in which I live, to see, realize and understand the total machine of life as the physical, to connect with this unawareness, as mind,  I have allowed and to bring this into awareness as this is real living, here.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not see, realize and understand the inner conflict of limited values where the good touting is what defines me, this based on ignoring the whole, creating a bad of my own common sense, in and as not looking at the whole and the parts, and suppressing/ignoring/resisting/ shutting down/ running from/ fearing to face/ my own sensibility as my natural ability as life to absorb the world around me, my natural learning ability, my common sense, my own ability to conceptualize the form and function of this means of life as this physical world, which necessitates a direct connection to, awareness of, respect for, direct seeing/being in connection with.

I forgive myself for not seeing realizing and understanding that the suppression of myself as life, has become a habit, like a broken record, like a dis-eased entity, like a fearful ghost, like an angry demon, like a embittered man, like a lack of connection, like a slow-moving-conceptually- blob of spewing value over practical reality - stuck in this persona of embroidered justifications, creating a techno colored dream coat of pictures justifying my own existence consuming the very flesh of me as life, continuing the separation from life that I accepted and allowed until that life is gone, a life that never connects to life, and as such ends up trespassing on life instead of becoming one and equal with what is eternal, which is realizing the value is life, here, as life the substance of life which is nothing into expression/movement as informing as the physical world.

I forgive myself for not seeing realizing and understanding that I must as an expression of life forgive my trespasses as ego against life, which is the act of deconstruction of myself into reconstruction through writing and self corrective measurable sounding and action as accepting life through self forgiveness of what self has accepted and allowed to define self in self interest in separation from self as life as self as the sound of common sense here.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to  believe that there is conflict in expressing life awareness.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to believe I must answer to limitation to survive.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to fear moving in common sense of here, as this is the only choice.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to fear resistance to change.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to fear to  look at comfort zones in fear of the slowing down to look movement and redirection movement in changing the awareness platform as idea made comfortable conceptually to define, embedded and as such a process of walking the movement into change, to rebuild, to return to self as life to connect to the physical world, to realize practical reality, to find the ease of self here, no longer trespassing on life, but becoming one and equal to and as life here.

I forgive myself for not seeing realizing and understanding that reaction is reaction to change, where the process is to realize one’s starting point and to expand in awareness to and with the whole as the physical.

Self Corrective Writing

When and as I find myself  becoming a falling liquid as mind, from my head area, a heavy unclear syrup that is not of ease, like  pristine water, like a clearness that is like a lens of seeing directly and becoming that of direct seeing as conceptually being able to move with ease into the only choice in and as solution within awareness of what is best for all, I stop and I breath and I assess what I am allowing as belief, opinion and idea, and I stop, I slow down, and I evaluate what I am perceiving as this accepted and allowed entity of limited insight and personification of limited values and resisting common sense as the bad entity that will pop the bubble of self definition that I accepted and allowed, and here to see realize the conflict as my resistance to being and doing and moving as self as life here, which is in application, the directive as the principle of what is best for all is best for self.

When and as I find myself feeling loopy within and as me, I slow way down and I breath, and I do not allow myself to feel unworthy or less than, or guilty, or ashamed, I accept and forgive what I have accepted and allowed, and I walk myself back into being connected with practical reality in accepting myself as life, and realizing that that which I had made a bad as an idea is of a different quality other than my own cultural constructs only and does not define me- thereby becoming limited in and as a belief that this negating could cancel my own self definitions - and to also realize that undercurrent of my own common sense, which I have allowed myself to suppress in fearing to look at the whole as the physical  and be  myself as life, within  myself  my common sense ability to accept self responsibility as life, here.

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Day 577 Suppression: believing the entities of belief are real.

Suppression Character

I have had some problems in my chest, it feels like there is this shield there. The pressure from this has been bothering me for some time.

So, I looked at this point as a point of suppression. This suppression comes in a form or constriction, and if I go to look at the fear, there really is nothing there but ideas and beliefs, and opinions about things I never really took the time to investigate in practical common sense terms. Meaning, I separated myself from what I am here, a physical state of being as this is where I live and move and breath and exist. Here is what is real. If I am in separation from this, I am actually living in a mind construct, a projected idealism that separates the within of and as me from the without as this physical world that is the expression of life. Without this physical world I cannot exist, as this was here, and will be here when I am no longer here. And I can only continue as life, and life accepts all things, because the nature of life is creation. Creative ability is a transformative ability as this is how things are formed. And form reveals function. Form is both the particle and the wave. Makes sense. Thus, the physical world is life and must begin to move in ways that respect all of it.

Last night as I talked with someone, I looked at the movement in my chest area. I looked at where I created ideas about a situation more than just being here, at ease, realizing that I have the capacity to direct myself in ways that  allow myself to determine what I am. Meaning, what am I allowing to define me, more than taking anything personally being said, or being believed - as idea, and within this realizing that change is a  natural part of life and that all around me is transformation in every moment.

So, within my chest I could let the “ rise” of needing to protect, in this moment, go, and breath, I was here.

To some extent, I realized that what is considered the mundane, is what is real, and within this that realizing the mundane allows me to have the space and the time to participate within the slow physical movement of transformation, because there is plenty of space to be here, to take the time to see, and realize what is here. It is only the busyness of the mind that appears to have no time, and a consequence of having allowed this on earth as what men have been doing, is what has created the systemic structures that have all running after money to survive, as an idea as a self definition in ignorance of the practical physical world, has been defining us, and manifesting a projection as our present system that is overall, in separation from life, from being equal to creation. 

It is like allowing myself to become the beLIEf I allowed and letting it fall as me, back down to the ground here, like accepting it, and realizing there is really no place to fall. It is letting the self definitions go and then beginning to stand here, in common sense of that which I am that is life as this actual physical world.

Interesting that the habituated self, remains and as this, sadness is letting one thing go, this projected personality, and turning into rebuilding, because any equality to life has not really been lived. Earth, our hearth, our heart, must be aligned here in expression with and as accepting the physical as creation. What we believe as mind, is meta-physical, not good or bad, but a projection from the physical world, dependent on it.

This one incremental movement, to just let this “ down” as my heart area, as not reacting, as not constricting, opened up the shield, lessened its intensity and gave direction that was of more ease than that act of tension in protection and self defense based on an abstracted idea of reality. Is this what Christ meant when he said “ though I walk in the valley of the shadow of good and evil, I see no evil”?  and within this, what I see is the potential of life, of creation being denied and that it is here within us, right in front of us? Are there many who realize that war is not the answer, war is an act that bears no witness to life, is only  a system of profit based on an idea that one projected self definition of more exists than another idea of more in separation of the context of creation? This really is a melodramatic movie happening in the minds of men that destroys to allow an egotistical construction that is a bubble self only.

I can decide what defines me, I can shape what I am within, and the physical world is me, and is what stabilizes me here, as I am of the same substance and as such, a part of creation. So, it is to bring myself back down to here, equal and one with and as what has been labeled as “ mundane” to accept the gift of life as the physical. 

Thus.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to constrict in and as my chest area, to tense up based on an idea in and as my mind, in fear and reaction as protection and self defense, overall a separation from being equal in common sense of creation as the physical here.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to believe that an abstract entity as a thought is more than reality as the physical, as the physical is life information, life in expression here.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to fear losing an idea of what i am here, not a good or  a bad but a selection of the qualities of what is here, where one quality is made less than another, and where according to exposure and opportunity more self direction has been learned but even this overall, is in limitation of creation as the physical,  as were it not so, then this world would be heaven on earth, an expression of the physical world at ease, communicating, interacting in ways that do no harm and create in respect of what is best for all, realizing we are all the same, of the same means of life information as the physical.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not let myself go, as in letting go of an idea, and cross referencing reality in every moment, using the ability of myself as life to sense what is here, realizing the mind is a projection that becomes a personality that I accept and allow that is a separation from  life and has no real directive capacity and is idealized thought, and thus, I stop and I slow down and I breath and I see, realize and understand that I am here.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to take things personally, which is myself believing that an idea can define me, and I slow myself down and investigate the actual real physical world to see, realize and understand that I exist here, respecting the physical world as creation information.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand that in this letting go there is what might be called a “ sadness” and as this movement, I see, realize and understand that this is simply change, a form of transformation only, like the changing of the turning from one direction to another, and that in moving through this if I resist this, the sadness - which is only a slowing down - will persist, as in this being a slowing down, there is, just as in a car slowing down, a sense of resistance, where on the other side of this resistance is the point of change, and as this I realize I have accepted and allowed this resistance that is myself allowing inferiority to life here, and for this I forgive myself.

When and as I find myself tensing up in and as my chest area, I stop and I breath and i allow myself to “ fall” to accept the change, the moving from chasing an idea, to coming back down to earth, and realizing the sense of slowing down is only a sense of slowing down, and that when I allow this, there is an ease and a realization that a personification does not define me here and that a personification as mind, can only define me if I accept and allow it, if I believe this to be more than myself as life here, as a physical state of being-ness as what life is and would be in common sense.

When and as I find myself tensing up in my chest area, I stop and I breath and i slow myself down, and I see realize and understand that I can “ fall” as in letting go of self defining ideas, because I am here as physical being-ness where I am equal and one to the very substance of life, and as this i can slow down and investigate what does no harm, and investigate what sustains the physical and allows expression, and the means of expression here as what circulates and shares understanding of practical physical reality, here.

When and as I find myself tensing up in and as my chest area, I stop and I breath and I slow myself down and I investigate all things, meaning paying attention to what I buy, for instance, to realize what supports all life, and also to realize myself as a creator, that is able to stand with others to create a change that supports all life on earth, which is, at the moment because of what has been accepted, to allow money to flow, as the wealth created, to flow to all men to enable men to become custodians of the physical world, in and as realizing the value is life here, where all forms of life are respected and supported.

Day 576 The consent to be governed

Cartoon depiction of the United States, its territories, and US controlled regions as a classroom with belligerent Philippines, Hawaii, Puerto Rico, and Cuba (Photo credit: Wikipedia)

The consent to be governed.

I noticed in a speech that a remark was made about “ the consent to be governed’ and how this has happened in my state in relation to the American “ common core” standards being implemented. I was at a  meeting and one of the speakers in support of this said that the people, “ we” had consented to this, and yet in this room were educated people who were there to speak up against this. If the governed consented then why was there so much dissent. Obviously , there is a disconnect here.

What I also have noticed, because I called my local school district to ask them for the research backing common core, that there was no research. The paper work I received was about some “ committee”  of supposed professional people who were signified by some collective group name, and that the governors had worked in tandem with these ambiguous named officials to implement common core. AND, within this, there was a note that the governors were asking the federal government to do more research/study into what were “ best practices” being used in countries where educational levels were greater than the states.

To me, that these deciding institutions and these governors are making a decision about implementation and then, in double speak, turning around and abdicating responsibility in making a statement that on a federal level more research needs to be done is a contradiction, one that shows no real governance, so how can any statement be made about the collective being a consenting-to-governance-body, where there is no real substantial governance made being so obvious in asking for research?

THis whole thing is like a smoke and mirrors show of no substance, and the administrators have no answer because I have asked them, what I get is abdication, as one refers me to another, and so it goes round and round. Meanwhile the children suffer, confined to a room where the directives have no substance, no real research, and the administrators answer questions by referral to another.

It reminds me of calling a company one time to find out how skim milk is actually made, because I was told that it was made from powered milk, and I could not believe this at the time. So, I called and I asked the first person who answered, and she sent me to another, who sent me to another, and so on and on it went until eventually I suddenly found myself talking with the first woman ( some were men) with whom I had spoke.

I brought this up to this woman, that I had been traveling around being passed from one to another, and that here I was back again. So, I asked her the question again. What she said in response to me asking if skim milk, that bottled/packaged milk on the store shelves, was made from powder, she said to me, “ no, it is made from milk that has had the water taken out of it”

Yes, I know, I was astounded. It is like a word game, where the meaning of the words have no significance, it is the sequence of the words that must be said. Quite astounding. One cannot say, skim milk is made from powered milk, one has to say, skim milk is made from milk that has had the water taken out of it. 

So, in effect, this is what the consent of the governed has become. And I ask myself here, as all of this is done through a play of words, does the consent of the governed mean that those who have the label of “ governors” mean that any decisions they make become by default a statement directed to those who ask questions for what makes no sense and has no real research or substance as “ the consent of the governed”?

So, we are all allowing this META-physical form govern us, and as we can see, it has no real substance, and then, within this, we become angry that solutions are not happening and the problems are growing. It sounds like a cancer does it not? It is a form that has no answerability and passes responsibility around to end up with a set of words that admit to what we see is going on.  And yet, we keep asking this meta-physical system of no real responsibility to continue to govern us! 

I mean, this is a very thin veil, one that can be removed and realized with little effort is we simply make the decision to do so. But it will have to be made by the many, standing together, investigating here on the ground and having the courage to use our common sense and take actions that actually change this metaphysical smoke and mirrors show that admits to not having any real, substantive research. The parts are here, and we can see them. Tantrums about how ridiculous this is is just more metaphysical-smoke-blowing around the smoke that has accumulated! lol, I have to laugh it is so silly. But in the end it limits all our lives, and it is us who have accepted and allowed it.

How can any research and proposals of efficacy come from such a system? There is too much smoke here to really see, so it is not going to happen. The veil must be lifted, and common sense the choice made. Obviously, the very from and design of our schools is not working, and has to change, among other things. 

If, as Obama has said, that we are the consent of the governed, and yet we have perpetual war making a few a lot of profit, and children that are starving and lacking in education, and animals that are filled with tumors and packaged up and placed into our supermarkets, and starfish melting off the coast of California - another scenario where no one seems to know what is causing this despite vast amounts of plastic floating in our oceans and radio active material streaming in currents, and bees dying off, and fracking waste not being allowed to be proved to be what is blatantly within an environment and as touted as “ no proof” simply because there is no ostensibly “ real” research given public voice. I mean the list can go on and on. This is the “ consent of the governed” that we are all accepting and allowing, so as the consequences come, we can really blame no one but ourselves because we consented to it and became complacent within it. In the end, we are the same as the administrators who try and abdicate any responsibility. They simply mimic what we are, those who consented to be governed, which was, as a starting point, a abdication of responsibility.

Thus the solution is to become responsible. And to ensure that all have the means to become responsible. If one human can do this, so can all, as we are all the same. Our economic models define what creates a somewhat more responsible human being through our admissions of lack, and that is proper food, an education ( opportunity and exposure, full exposure , not just 50 minute music classes one day a week in elementary school type thing - as an example ) stable shelter, and clean water.

In the end, war is really a form of suppression, it takes and consumes what is here, and all it is is the same mechanism, that of not being responsible. Being responsible is the way out of this, and how to be responsible is what makes sense, as what does no harm, as what is best for all. We decide, and the power is in standing up and creating a system that allows each a direct voice and ability to take care of ourselves as physical beingness, because this is what we are here.

It is a practical world, a physical state of being. When each is given what supports the physical, each can then stand as life, in full potential as this is the way to responsibility. Support a Living Income Guarantee, time to become responsible. We all have common sense, it is right in front of us, we need only remove the veil of inferiority to it.

Day 554 Apathy and Sound Mind. The Journey of Limitation into Common Sense.

Apathy,

I am looking at where and when I first wanted to participate and could not because I could not express myself. I remember being in the elementary schools and the middle schools, realizing that what children wanted more than anything was to be able to participate, and not having the means, and thus not having the measure to respond to what was being taught, not being able to point out what they could see, and or understand their own behaviors.  And all the teachers, the adults who were so set in their ways that they, more often than not because it is not all so,  did not notice the child struggling to make sense, and instead looked only at the reactive behaviors.

Apathy is really ending standing up no matter what. So, perhaps one stood, and then did not continue to stand, continue to question, continue to ask that something be explained again, or point out verbally what did not make sense to oneself, which is to take the time to reveal what does not make sense over all. If our schools teach a one size fits all story, then there is going to be reactions, because people see different perspectives, and that point of view will expression. If we do not allow this we actually limit awareness, and limit the expression of a child, suppressing the life in the child. I mean, we teach that there are master’s of industry in our schools, tying a name to this invention or that invention, when this cannot be so, as it is what came before as all the layers of human networking that built industry. It could not have been done by one person, or even one generation. The nouns used in limitation are ‘ Rockefeller and Factory workers” - which is very limited. So, what our schools teach makes no sense and the conceptual ability of children see the discrepancy but lack the vocabulary to express this, and this state of being, unable to voice itself is suppressed and labeled as difficult, when it is simply  a sense of an accepted limitation that is not overall sound. There are going to be children, who do not have an ease with language use, that will understand this, and want to speak up. And in many ways, they cannot accept this that is unacceptable.

Apathy is really, the end of making sense, of using common sense, because the voice lacking common sense and choosing limitation is allowed voice instead of the overall expression of a sound measured and balanced whole. Limitations that are really suppressions of sound mind, can be brought out of apathy and given opportunity for a voice of common sense, being of sound mind equal to physical reality in form and function.  The solution to apathy is to stand and to speak up about what does not make sense and to change what is taught and what is allowed as the present design of the system, through following through to what would be best for all. 

In all the real path of least resistance is the path of what is best for all. In our busyness with suppression of our innate empathy, going into endless detail to justify limitation, we become stagnant and apathetic, and the answer is to equalize with practical physical reality, to see directly what does no harm and allows each to direct in common sense of the means of life, which is the physical world.

Day 515 The worth and quality of life is earth in equality.

I was looking at the word ‘judges.” and the verb of this word is ‘ to estimate worth or quality.” The noun being an authority who is able to estimate worth or quality. To judge is to form a critical opinion of something.

So, our authorities set these laws to follow because they have critical skills and authority, which means they see and they author what worth and quality is, and the form playout of this on earth.

Earth/worth. They sound the same. And the word ‘quality’ is very similar to ‘equality.’

We have so much authority in our system, it is the process of writing laws, deciding what is of worth, and how to create a balanced quality of life.

Yet there are protests all around the globe at present. So, our authorities are not doing their jobs, and we keep protesting and asking those who are not doing their jobs to do their jobs. Which means that overall something is  missed ( mist=insubstantial). Our authorities are not seeing the worth and the quality that is here and ordering this in ways that sustain balance. Were there balance on earth then there would be no protest.

Can’t blame the consequence, can’t blame the protestors alone. Punishing the protestors is not addressing the reactive behaviors, it is just seeing all this reaction that is happening around the globe/earth as some annoying movement that will not behave correctly. It is like the supposed authors/authority  simply do not want to look at the whole and realize where the problem is, a picture/idea has been authored and they ‘know’ and if things do not fit into that ‘knowing’ then it is the fault of this thing not fitting in, when it is to realize something is not being looked at. 

The answer is always in the sound, in the words. Worth. Quality. Earth. Equality. All things of this physical world must be considered. Humans can be ‘happy’ with enough food, enough room to become aware of this earth. Basic Income studies show that they will send their children to school/educate their children, and will take care of their homes/shelter and will be creative - meaning solve problems and find innovative ways of doing things when at ease, and some point out that humans work less with a basic income, a mis-take, because there is more to life than work that brings in income, there is the work of practical living, and in our present system, practical living does not always bring in money. So more attention is given to family. A basic income does not stop men from working, and what we have allowed to be work as bringing in money, is not the only ‘work’ of life.

We can look at our production capacity, it over time becomes more efficient, freeing one up from that aspect of reality.This is the process of creation, understanding and fine tuning new forms. But if a human cannot be this and is confined, naturally the life within will protest, will seek new forms to expand, will survey its world and realize the limitations. This is the nature of life, even greed uses this to move forward. Because creation is a physical manifestation, as it would be in common sense, creation would self regulate, seeing what has formed and how to form new things that are efficient and author full potential of life expression. 

So, one cannot suppress life, it will inherently protest and seek expression, but at the same time, it does not need excess to be itself as life.So, our authorities are stagnant and blame the consequences of life being itself, which makes no sense.

Our so called authorities have to give up the ‘golden egg’ and let it hatch. The structures of our government system must allow the potential of life to develop. This is life in self regulation, and the protests will end.

The worth and quality of life is the quality of life information as the physical world known as earth. It is each point of the physical manifestation of life that when allowed its life expression would regulate earth. It is the limitations imposed that are of limited values that thwart and cause discord. These values are not good or bad, but limited and as such suppress life because we need only look at earth and see that there are many many many values. If we ignore these values, and call them externalities than why can’t we see that these externalities will protest and that were they not protesting life as this physical manifestation of life as earth, would be in balance, self regulating as is the real nature of life because life would creation!

One cannot create a limited image and likeness of what man should be and then try to force that form as man into a monocultural ideology. It will not work. Moving all the capital of earth, as the resources into this ideology will create massive protest from life, of which men are a quality of and as.

Our authorities have to give back to all parts of earth what is needed for men to live in dignity, where each man has what allows the life that is that man to fulfill itself, and an environment that is cared for and allow men to self sustain themselves , which the human machine is capable of doing and being. It is only suppression that causes the expression of life that is that formation of life to react and become behaviors of venting limitation. LImiting life will end up as all focus being regulating that suppression. All expression moves towards regulating suppression and consumes the principle that is life in the process. We see this happening all over the earth. This is the consequence of a limited idea of what worth is, a selection of values that are not all values, and the physical is the value because it is the manifestation of life.

If one cannot see this, then one has become zombified with limited values, One must begin to see the limited values accepted as a self definition, an illusion as a belief that these values is all there is. This is an inner construct that pushes away anything that is not that monopoly of a limited collection of values. And our authorities are blaming life for not conforming to these limited values, when life cannot do this, it simply will not work.

Practically speaking, money must be allowed to all, enough to meet basic needs, to give life its expression back, because this is the best regulation of life. 

Regulation of the environment can only happen on the ground, someone in an ivory tower, built of the tucks of elephants ( thereby destroying the elephant), cannot see what is needed on the ground, and data that uses a means to decide ignores all aspects because it defines through division into what appears to be a common denominator on paper but not on the ground. This is simply trying to move earth into easily controlled bits, which is someone playing god, and one, or a few, cannot be a god, because ‘god’ can only be that which creates, is creation and creator at the same time, which is the manifestation of life, as the physical, composed of and as creator and creation in equality as the gift of life, in movement, breathing, sensing, being, here, all of this substance working in tandem as all as one as equal, where each part is individual, yet one at the same time. A measured  limited value system as being a worth of quality is limited,  life and creation as men regulates as self awareness capacity allowed full expression/comprehension, which is each individual part respected and individual yet one in respect of all values, as this is how one value can exist to join and create an expression of life, here.

I suggest those in ivory towers, come out and equalize with the ground as the physical earth. the story of the tower of Babel ( a babel of limited values - many call ego) is ourselves revealing to ourselves what we have accepted and allowed that is ourselves in separation from life.

Each human has an innate ability to see what sustains and as such what is of worth and creates quality, which can only happen with direct interaction with the physical world. 

Day 489 The babble of limited association.A tool of suppression self accepted.

What is suppression and how does it work?

I look at myself and what I allow in total to occupy myself here, what values do I chase, what parts of here do I choose to look at, to see. What do I avoid? What am I direct about and what do I place out of the picture as though it is not something to consider because it does not directly influence me in the moment, or is considered inappropriate to discuss socially? 

We are taught in school to make associations and to use this to build understanding. There is nothing bad about this. But what if this is controlled within only allowing certain associations to be expressed?

Also, if we look, for example at our schools, using this “ not bad” practice in the setting of the school as our society overall, without addressing the developmental abilities of each child and their socio-economic conditioning, we allow a situation where there is already inherent inequality and thus competition and fear of survival and place this into a lesson that spends time playing an associative game to ostensibly build understanding or “ critical thinking” we end up with an agenda based learning system where those who have had more exposure to language to excel.  This just ends up perpetuating inequality and the distraction of such as we are a society that endlessly compares because we have allowed a profit based system that by design will choose limited qualities to chase because this is a way to manage inequality. If one has more, then another must have less, and then the less, the one’s in lack have needs, so we place religion and spirituality to have one believe there is a reason for suffering, and then have the jobs that pay a somewhat decent wage be those that serve the structure of inequality. And all done through constant association making without ever realizing the interconnectedness of all physical life in total. It is like a rhythm of a slow steady beat the slows down space and then adds all this babble of limited association so that by the time the whole is realized life has passed. 

I find I want to get angry, but this is not going to do anything. It really is to teach to see the whole, to bring in all consequence as everything that exists  on earth, how every move leads to an outcome and to use this ability to see to transform what is here into what would create interaction of life on earth that is supportive and values being an expression as life. It would make sense that this is the ONLY way to life. One must make the physical world equal to all, and as all, life. No rejection, no blame, no spite, no finger pointing. What is here as the physical must be considered as much life as any alternate reality as pictures as mind. If we allow limited association making we allow a construct of separation to build as mind, and then we end up in a tower of babble that bears no witness to reality. As such that tower will fall because it is not equal and one to the test of time as that physical ground on which it is built.

This has me asking questions. Is the testing done in our schools really to monitor development to ensure a controlled limit in moving beyond a certain ability to connect the steps of consequence through stringing associations in such a way that the whole is realized as being interconnected. By this I mean a controlled connection making ability, which is a suppression overall?

If I could read more than 250 notes per minute by the time I was seventeen, then why was I not taught this with words?

Why is our ability to process information not done in such a way that we develop the means to carry through with associations as the outplay of consequence to the extent that we can read the whole of what exists on earth? 

We must learn to understand how our human minds function. There are interviews on Eqafe.com that explain this. Take the time to understand, especially if you want your children to be able to support themselves in this system until it is realized for the dysfunction that it is by design, within and without.

Parents need to realize that only a parent can ensure that the child realizes that knowledge and information without practical application only builds a game of limited association making as mind, and that this will lead to all kinds of mistakes that take money and time to correct. In a society where pensions no longer support us in old age, our pensions become how well we have developed our children and if we look at the falling status of American school children in a world where China and India are moving up the ladder and provide a huge profit stream for American water and gas and coal,  ( time for nationalization?) the interests of the profit model are not going to be an old horse put out to pasture. Just read up on how our veteran’s are really being treated. You are next.

Definitely, time to wake up before consequence ignored is on your door step. The power is in the collective to transform the system in a gentle humble way, which is to take what is here as the values created from resources which includes labor, and to create a Living Income Guarantee before it is too late. We can do this, and we can do this calmly and efficiently. But it will take all of us, and even if there is some chaos, it is going to be much much much less than what presently exists on earth because of our allowance at existing within a bubble of babble of limited association instead of looking out at earth in total, our home.

                         Time for Desteni I Process Lite!

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