Behaviors of separation are visible if we take the responsibility to look and do the math Day 719

Yesterday, I walk talking with a man when I noticed how a conversation can bounce, like  a ball moving back and forth in and as knowledge and information. Not all the ‘ knowledge’ is necessarily ‘ bad’ yet it being knowledge and information of and as itself, it is separated from using , or being focused in a real relationship to what exists in form as our system. Meaning, really looking and seeing what is said again and again, to follow the money. 

Money has become a current that is revelatory of what we place value on, and where we then direct our labor, our efforts, our creative force, in the mis-order that is survival based instead of creative based. This order of survival, that chooses to tout knowledge and information - this in itself a dogma of limited insight into the physical reality of what it means to be the potential of self as life. 

This process is one of separation instead of living the potential to assess and relate directly to what actually physically exists around us. How much do we reflect on the present system and what we are, meaning our basic needs? Can we ask ourselves before we go to watch some entertainment on the tele-vision why we are choosing this? Do we do this because we are bored? Do we do this because the current of money flow, which we accept and allow, limits access to materials to possibly follow through with an idea, or a desire to investigate how something works to improve something and eliminate economic stress in our lives, or just because we have a moment where a natural desire to understand something comes up, then when we think about the cost to possibly investigate, we draw back into limitations and instead choose what is cheap, as our entertainment system?

That system not revealing its true cost because it is subsidized via our taxes and insurances- taken control of by another? This would mean that that seemingly ‘ free’ entertainment is not free, because it is taking a natural desire to explore and filling that space, to placate. And the economic system,, which we hold in place, through the actions of our municipalities and service industry as the rank and file system demands no questioning of practices or else one loses that income that is not enough for one to investigate a moment of a desire to investigate and self discover that end ups leading one to the tele-vision and thus loss of potential of self as life. And so the web continues. This has an outcome of a life never lived.  This is a circulation, a flow of suppression. 

What I noticed in my conversation with this person that I started this blog with, was not only how the space appeared to funnel into a narrow focus, but also an absence of the ease that comes with not getting ‘ intense’ , like creating a projected vortex of ‘ vision’ in relation to the information being expressed that was not all ‘ bad.’  I stopped, I looked at myself, because I have been getting angry as of late, in sorting something out, and I allowed myself to let that go, a habit, one of frustration. I decided to accept where I was and what was happening, to process this as it could not define me unless I accepted it. I listened and used my own experiences to attend to the moment. I looked at the space like a piece of music, like a math, of different forms, and realized that it need not define who and what I am, that I am, just as when I performed with a group, processing measure, form, quality, duration, etc etc. It was in this moment that I sensed the focus of the person and at the same time listened to them. I also looked at myself, and that anger suddenly seemed useless. Ironically, later that day, I read a post by Osho, where he states that one need never apologize unless one has become mad. And then, another post where mad was defined as multiple addictions disorders. lol, it was much like this, those dis-orders of anger a projected ideological polarized chain of past events that I have allowed to define who and what I am, my own puppet strings that can suddenly appear before me, when I slow down enough to realize I am in deed projecting knowledge and information to substantiate a limited in-formed entity that is in itself lacking a respect of what is here. Another way to say this is that I have rejected my right to life. 

I realize within this, that I can develop a processing ability, that is a natural ability, in relation to information. And this being a project ( -ed set body) of information as knowledge and information. And then realize its form and measure, its math with or without cross reference and focus onto what actually exists having done and understanding that development into real investigate work is ongoing and within using follow how money flows as a reference point for a moment. It is to say, in so many ways, the current of money shows what is supported, and the banks of this river showing the debris by what is a consequence not shared in the paper castles of this present system. One must actually look at the details of one’s life and what suppresses a natural ability and desire to understand and investigate how things work. 

Making the choice to watch tele-vision, as it now stands, is making the choice to suppress potential and override this potential with a busy-ness of distraction to placate. This appearing to cost little monetarily yet at the expense of one’s real potential and by extension the potential of everything around one.

In having slowed down and walked this process of realizing my own projections, imaginations, reactions, suppression, thoughts, back chats, entities of self definition in a game of survival, I can begin, to see, realize and understand how when another person speaks with me, that they are expressing knowledge and information lacking a real connection to what is here, and a consequence of a lack of this kind of practice overall in human existence. It is like a math, it is like a piece of music, all the parts moving around, some in tune, as some stable and focused and clear, and others coming and going having no real substantial consideration of creation as this physical reality all around us- this that we can reference in every moment if we let go of being mad, as all those chains of ideas and beliefs and opinions that we believe define who and what we are, when that is the ghost in the machine that is a limitation and as an acceptance and allowance of suppression of a natural potential to investigate and understand what is here, even behind this curtain of mathematical manipulations employed by a system that flows money to a few, just as we flow our focus on a limited entity of belief to define us, to allow us to survive, a cheap and destructive and violent suppression of the right to life given as what we are the day we were born. 

I walk away from this event yesterday realizing that getting mad is a distraction, and that I have the capacity to begin to process both separation and the measure of the physical.  Also, that what is free or cheap is not free. Someone somewhere has not received a living wage.  That what is simple, as myself expressing the real potential of myself, is not financially supported, and most probably not as much, economically, as I may think. Right outside my door, is so much. And, there are things that are not costly, that can benefit me. 

Most of what costs is allowing a metered payment, a little bit at a time, over a long period of time, supporting the present system that touts support and yet suppresses potential, a mirror of what we are allowing within ourselves. We allowed this, this has accumulated into a system, this is the consequence of our state of being. The way out, is to see this, to understand this, to realize the need for change, to realize the means of change. That river of money can flow to support the infrastructure of physical reality. The innovations are here, and the ability to sense that desire to discover is here. The paper castle is an illusion, it can only have the power we allow it to have. It is up to us to get the rivers that are drying up, going again and it starts with us, each of us.

This means using one’s will to focus here. This means slowing down and seeing the movements of imagination within one’s self and seeing this as the past, as not who one really is. This means realizing that we absorb what we are exposed to, and that this need not define us, yet can influence us, if we do not take the time to process this, it accumulated and causes cognitive dissonance with seeing the music of here, as this consequence of separation from what is real. It really is not a rocket science, and as all things, it appears to be hard, as change tends to be and do when moving from a set body of measures that have become habituated, into something new. Yet, this is a process of cleaning up mis-takes on life, on living and instead accepting life. One will make mis-takes, as is natural, as what the process of self discovery is and does. Yet to be focused here, in the abundance of reality as the physical, removes the separation dis-orders and by extension the processing dis-orders. Within this, conversations that are a ball of information bouncing back and forth, existing within an alternate reality, meaning  lack of respect for what is here in equality and oneness, will no longer reign and instead our rivers will flow once again with pure water, that is the currency of life.. It is, after all, natural to hear the music of the physical.  Look how naturally we absorb the limited information on the television? 

Day 695 The allowance of self discovery.

The allowance of self discovery.

In slowing down and learning to listen, I realized a point in building relationships with others. It is also a relationship with myself. I slow down and  listen to what thoughts, opinions and ideas accumulate and are allowed that then define experience.

In this, listening to another is to bring self discovery forward. It is seeing what is here, as this physical world, and living the value being life. The means is to define one’s words as a starting point, to ensure that everyone is of equal measure in understanding. 

Within this, if I react within wanting acknowledgement for information I am already acting superior, and creating a state of inferiority and control of information. I am  racing ahead within this desire for acknowledgement. I am abdicating my presence to here, in effect.  I am allowing  information to become more than the value being understanding a clear measure that lends self responsibility. 

Why? Because the physical world is given, it is us, it is right here, and it reveals by its nature, freely, its own form and function. In other words its measure is right here in front of us. The only quest in this regard is to discover the physical for oneself. No one can be that discovery but one’s self. 

Listening to another person is a lot like listening to one’s self, as each is a measure of values accepted and allowed as how one defines what has been discovered in their world, or resistances towards understanding the simple, what is the same in everyone, and that is that we are physical beings on a physical planet.  After all, words are esoteric by design. Words reflect one’s accepted measure within. Only self can change this.

Day 631 Acceding to the words/measure of another. Self Responsibility

Authority.

Accede, to agree to another’s opinion. When one agrees without evaluation of what is being acceded to, means that one, by not reflecting on what is presented, understanding the form and investigating to become self responsible, will lose one's authority of self as life. Everything presented within and as the speech of men, is, overall, a metaphysical construction, because human language, is a picture of something. This means that when something is expressed through words, as human language, as it now stands, is an expression of the form of something in reality - or an idea about an alternate reality that no one has ever lived to describe in great detail. Thus, when another person speaks, through written, spoken or televised form, if not reflected upon and checked, and instead only accepted, what each of us is essentially doing , is accepting a description of this physical world. The very basis of human language is a meta-physical construction. Perhaps this is why dogs and animals can find their way across thousands of miles of terrain, and yet, humans would need all the lettered signs along the way. I mean, are dogs using the signs of the physical world in ways that us worded sign readers are not? I do not think that dogs are reading the signs on the road, but then I could be wrong, perhaps they, the dogs, read both. lol

Thus in reality, when we only listen to what someone says and do not self honestly investigate what is communicated from another person, we accede through inaction. This means that we are not being the authority of our ability to sense the world around us. We must be capable of this, because after all, we did learn to crawl, and to walk, and to talk. This development, is , overall, a signature of being able to sense. 

There have been many times in my life, where I only listened, as I was taught this action- to sit down and shut up. I did not stop to realize that in accepting without question, or reflection, that I was acceding to what was spoken. When someone speaks, it is a form, it is defining here, thus, what another speaks is my responsibility to cross reference and consider what was being said and to investigate overall.

In business, it is said that a good leader, includes all the employees in the running of a business. This would empower the employees and, of course, develop the employees, asking them to look and to question and to participate. Since stress and boredom tax the human spirit, the non-use of our ability to sense form conveyed abstractly through words,  means that a man who is focused is more at ease, as this is that same ability that, when developed, can convey clear forms of description through words, which means that each would feel more self empowered and fulfilled if what is presented via words as human communication, would be an action of assessing the form, investigating its implied or direct description and making a decision about that presented. This means, that each of us has the ability to do what is best for all, as in perhaps using a mean to find a common denominator, but also ensuring that no externalities existed.  One can ignore what does not fit into an equation, as what words become as a description of something, yet, eventually, those lose ends will accumulate and lead to the eventual outcome of reorganizing to clean up the accumulated elements that have gone no where.

Overall, we all have the ability to consider what is presented, and only accede after assessing and investigating practical application of abstract forms communicated as words. If we accede to another’s words, time would need to be spent with the person we accede to, because we have no other way of realizing someone is worth following. Yet even here, it is our responsibility to be self responsible.

Unfortunately, we all have acceded our ability to be responsible, and a system has built up around this lack, that to change this, would mean that many will have to stand together, consistently, to build trust to have the sound structure as words, as forming abstract reflections of reality that cannot be broken down, in order to change into a system that realizes the importance in every action, of doing what is best for all. This would mean every point could be trusted. It also means that each is in full focus here. This would manifest as great joy, because we are fulfilled when we are using our innate capacity to sense the world around us. This would mean not only hearing the words of another, but also hearing their relationship to all things, meaning, how what is metaphysically presented, as how humans speak at the moment,  considers and respects this practical reality, this reality that is physical and where we are living/being/existing.

A brilliant design if used and respected. Yet, would this not be what life would be? 

Day 576 The consent to be governed

Cartoon depiction of the United States, its territories, and US controlled regions as a classroom with belligerent Philippines, Hawaii, Puerto Rico, and Cuba (Photo credit: Wikipedia)

The consent to be governed.

I noticed in a speech that a remark was made about “ the consent to be governed’ and how this has happened in my state in relation to the American “ common core” standards being implemented. I was at a  meeting and one of the speakers in support of this said that the people, “ we” had consented to this, and yet in this room were educated people who were there to speak up against this. If the governed consented then why was there so much dissent. Obviously , there is a disconnect here.

What I also have noticed, because I called my local school district to ask them for the research backing common core, that there was no research. The paper work I received was about some “ committee”  of supposed professional people who were signified by some collective group name, and that the governors had worked in tandem with these ambiguous named officials to implement common core. AND, within this, there was a note that the governors were asking the federal government to do more research/study into what were “ best practices” being used in countries where educational levels were greater than the states.

To me, that these deciding institutions and these governors are making a decision about implementation and then, in double speak, turning around and abdicating responsibility in making a statement that on a federal level more research needs to be done is a contradiction, one that shows no real governance, so how can any statement be made about the collective being a consenting-to-governance-body, where there is no real substantial governance made being so obvious in asking for research?

THis whole thing is like a smoke and mirrors show of no substance, and the administrators have no answer because I have asked them, what I get is abdication, as one refers me to another, and so it goes round and round. Meanwhile the children suffer, confined to a room where the directives have no substance, no real research, and the administrators answer questions by referral to another.

It reminds me of calling a company one time to find out how skim milk is actually made, because I was told that it was made from powered milk, and I could not believe this at the time. So, I called and I asked the first person who answered, and she sent me to another, who sent me to another, and so on and on it went until eventually I suddenly found myself talking with the first woman ( some were men) with whom I had spoke.

I brought this up to this woman, that I had been traveling around being passed from one to another, and that here I was back again. So, I asked her the question again. What she said in response to me asking if skim milk, that bottled/packaged milk on the store shelves, was made from powder, she said to me, “ no, it is made from milk that has had the water taken out of it”

Yes, I know, I was astounded. It is like a word game, where the meaning of the words have no significance, it is the sequence of the words that must be said. Quite astounding. One cannot say, skim milk is made from powered milk, one has to say, skim milk is made from milk that has had the water taken out of it. 

So, in effect, this is what the consent of the governed has become. And I ask myself here, as all of this is done through a play of words, does the consent of the governed mean that those who have the label of “ governors” mean that any decisions they make become by default a statement directed to those who ask questions for what makes no sense and has no real research or substance as “ the consent of the governed”?

So, we are all allowing this META-physical form govern us, and as we can see, it has no real substance, and then, within this, we become angry that solutions are not happening and the problems are growing. It sounds like a cancer does it not? It is a form that has no answerability and passes responsibility around to end up with a set of words that admit to what we see is going on.  And yet, we keep asking this meta-physical system of no real responsibility to continue to govern us! 

I mean, this is a very thin veil, one that can be removed and realized with little effort is we simply make the decision to do so. But it will have to be made by the many, standing together, investigating here on the ground and having the courage to use our common sense and take actions that actually change this metaphysical smoke and mirrors show that admits to not having any real, substantive research. The parts are here, and we can see them. Tantrums about how ridiculous this is is just more metaphysical-smoke-blowing around the smoke that has accumulated! lol, I have to laugh it is so silly. But in the end it limits all our lives, and it is us who have accepted and allowed it.

How can any research and proposals of efficacy come from such a system? There is too much smoke here to really see, so it is not going to happen. The veil must be lifted, and common sense the choice made. Obviously, the very from and design of our schools is not working, and has to change, among other things. 

If, as Obama has said, that we are the consent of the governed, and yet we have perpetual war making a few a lot of profit, and children that are starving and lacking in education, and animals that are filled with tumors and packaged up and placed into our supermarkets, and starfish melting off the coast of California - another scenario where no one seems to know what is causing this despite vast amounts of plastic floating in our oceans and radio active material streaming in currents, and bees dying off, and fracking waste not being allowed to be proved to be what is blatantly within an environment and as touted as “ no proof” simply because there is no ostensibly “ real” research given public voice. I mean the list can go on and on. This is the “ consent of the governed” that we are all accepting and allowing, so as the consequences come, we can really blame no one but ourselves because we consented to it and became complacent within it. In the end, we are the same as the administrators who try and abdicate any responsibility. They simply mimic what we are, those who consented to be governed, which was, as a starting point, a abdication of responsibility.

Thus the solution is to become responsible. And to ensure that all have the means to become responsible. If one human can do this, so can all, as we are all the same. Our economic models define what creates a somewhat more responsible human being through our admissions of lack, and that is proper food, an education ( opportunity and exposure, full exposure , not just 50 minute music classes one day a week in elementary school type thing - as an example ) stable shelter, and clean water.

In the end, war is really a form of suppression, it takes and consumes what is here, and all it is is the same mechanism, that of not being responsible. Being responsible is the way out of this, and how to be responsible is what makes sense, as what does no harm, as what is best for all. We decide, and the power is in standing up and creating a system that allows each a direct voice and ability to take care of ourselves as physical beingness, because this is what we are here.

It is a practical world, a physical state of being. When each is given what supports the physical, each can then stand as life, in full potential as this is the way to responsibility. Support a Living Income Guarantee, time to become responsible. We all have common sense, it is right in front of us, we need only remove the veil of inferiority to it.

Day 543 The limited measure of projecting values.

Today I feel tired. I realize I have to go and do something and I fear the outcome not being directive, not being clear in leading to understanding of how we are formed within, that is causing so much anxiety and malfunctioning within out society. How can I allow another to discover the separation that exists that is so evident in the very practices we are all accepting and allowing that is creating the lack of communication and practical problem solving skills in each of us? I mean we need only look at the systemic structural design to realize that any lack is simply a disconnect from being in common sense. In other words, common sense is the biologic of each of us as the formation of the substance of what we are, it has to exist, or the very formation of physical life would be non-existent. It is what we are, so it is what we as humans are able to be and do. It is right here in front of us and we cannot see it, we are too busy projecting ideas that are based on limited values, missing the common sense of how this world works in interconnected ways, and how we are the perfect biological machines to be in common sense with that which is us.

So, this tiredness within me is a feeling that this is impossible. And I can feel this energy coming up that is a distraction from common sense. I have to stand, stable here, breathing, slowing down, bring this back to myself and realizing what is best for all.

There are videos on the internet of babies singing, crying, and dancing. What these very small children are doing is imitating everything they see. If a mother sings an emotional song, the baby imitates every movement, down to the tears flowing. Thus, the baby, who in reality has had no sorrow, ( I mean having a mother who can post on the internet, means the existence is pretty stable and thus basic baby needs met) is modeling the facial physical expression of sorrow simply through imitation.

Now, when we learn to play an instrument, for example, we have to remediate until the movement is understood. This is the same when we learn to drive a car. once the physical behaviors/movements are learned, the movement does not take up so much of our attention, and we can add more awareness. The behavior, the movement, the being and having of movement and directive capacity within this is learned and becomes automatic.

So, we know what is repeated as a behavior becomes automatic.

So, what happens when an emotional value is impulsed? The same. So, if emotional values are imitated, and we learn to form all our muscles in ways that imitate the emotional value, do we then  become this in response to our world? I mean this is a learned expression of our physical imitative expression. So, in essence, we can exhibit sorrow when we have never lived sorrow.

So, how directive do we really become, when we learn such? Is this not like learning play acting, without having any context of reality, that very physical form that enables this imitation - so to speak?

Is this what we are being taught, to begin with, the emotions of our parents?

It is that we are using a biological sensing machine to imitate within a behavioral bubble, one of self defining values that are in themselves in separation from realizing that what we are has an incredible ability to sense the world around us. So, one could say that our common sense as biological beings, is being used to imitate emotions instead of realizing that we are that sensing machine.  We believe that showing emotion is maturity, but in essence it reveals the measure of our separation from practical reality, physical reality, which is what is doing the imitating.

What if this biological ability to imitate were used to sense all of the physical world, to realize the workings of being physical beings on a physical planet?

What if, in tandem with this, we realized that the present system was one where banks, printed money out of thin air, lent it, with interest, knowing full well that the interest was impossible to repay, because what was lent was a certain amount overall, so what would return was only what was lent, so the interest could never, ever be repaid in total, and that with each printed-out-of-thin-air bill, the other bills lost value in a inverted division of placing the overall value within a narrow limited confined amount overall. I mean to say, with each printing, the total is divided into smaller measure, it is an illusion of more, that is not more. And the ones at the bottom bear the loss of value in pensions etc.

Yet, if we are all caught up in emotions, as the measure within as what we have remediated ourselves in and as, and that this has some meaning that is of a value greater than common sense, like we are existing as movies of emotional values in and as our biological imitative beingness, and so occupied with this, that we have no ability to measure in common sense what is going on right under our noses? We have lost, or not developed from the get go, a sense of the measure of reality here, and how our systems are structures that play with the measure of here in ways that support a separation that places an idea of value judgements before common sense?

And, overall, some, that are lost in their value judgements, which are a separation, that layers as emotions, that builds a character that becomes the expression of the person, who buys the airwaves of media, and impulses this value, which is imitated and programmed within each, that what is real, and what is common sense is completely lost.

And then, the structural design, economically naturally causes a lot of stress because that debt based on imaginary money made real accepted as real, by the borrower, has each of us running on a treadmill of limited values imitated to survive within this limited scenario, that we are so caught up in, we can no longer realize that a cup is a cup. Period.

What we see, is that the cup is purple, and based on our memories of comfort, or culture, that the cup’s value is based on its color because it triggers emotions of security of one’s place on a grid on inequality, where one’s cultural beliefs, are touted because they maintain one’s value that defines one placement. Our common sense tells us it is a sup, our emotional sense tells us that the value is based on other - and very very limited- qualities - and of course, these values are not good or bad, but they are made self defining values. A real smoke and mirrors show. I mean, this is how a natural divergent thinking ability is lost, that ability to look at an object and realize the real value as what the form can be used for beyond allowing one limited characteristic to become the value. And even here, to realize that the values are commodified, so one believes that there is choice. But the choice is very limited. I mean  walk into a department store and see all the shapes and sizes and believe that you have a choice, and that your choice is the “ real” choice and the best choice, when it really in no choice, because that cup is a cup.

So, my tiredness is the thought of having to face this paranormal system of limited values that humans have allowed to define themselves as. And, also to realize that because these limited values have been allowed to define us, and we are not taking our heads out of the illusion, that these values can be used to direct us into realigning ourselves back into our common sense. It is being responsible and non-reactive, to and towards the separation, because emotional reactions are  myself being the same, placing limited values before reality. And, I am such a program of this, that my automated reactions are not all clear, because it took a long time to build this inner-value-before-life-common-sense, that I have to bring myself back, breath, slow down, forgive the values, step out of the paranormal reality and ground myself here. And, once again, to realize that the only place that I can be in common sense, is equal and one with and as the physical, so the answer is always right in front of me, as there is no place to “ fall” but here.

I notice that when I become an emotional reaction, my legs physically become heavy, the muscles in my thighs become tense, constricted. This is the morality system of values I have defined myself as. This has accumulated into my flesh and defines my character, because it is of limited values, that are not good or bad, just aspects of qualities about the physical, not something to be allowed a more than status. And the loss of this, I fear would mean the loss of myself, but it is not the loss of myself, it is the loss - so to speak- of my separation from the gift of life, which is my common sense. I fear standing as the responsibility of and as this.

In all, it is very much like the logi-rhythm of a violin sting, where the divisions are placed within redividing space into a time of measure within a limited framework, and within this system, the division are of  commodified different measures, but the string length stays the same and it is composed of physical substance, so it is to become flexible, mutable, without fear of what underlies changing, it is only the pressure that changes the sound, 

What remains is the physical world and to get myself back is a process because it took time to build the separation from myself as life, here. And, for this separation I forgive myself, which means, re-scripting myself through writing, self forgiveness, and corrective application to become response-able as life.

Day 506 Reacting to words of blame: addressing limitations.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to feel that the words of others define me.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to believe that words of others are my responsibility.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to believe that I am responsible for the focus of another.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to believe that the focus of another can determine what and who I am.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand that the words of another point out characteristics of what is here, and as the mind works, when the mind as a system of value judgements, speaks as an authority, it pushes away the bad through projecting the bad outward and bringing what it believes is of value to hold self in self interest, where self is believed to be the center of existence, the consequence of a system of competition within and as believing that each man is an island despite the obvious; that man is on a physical planet, the form and function of which all life on earth is dependent.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to believe that the paranormal projections of the mind are real.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to believe that I must react to the words of another as the voice of what it is as what I am here.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to feel responsible for the words of another.

I forgive myself for not  allowing and accepting myself to see words as like a preliminary sketch of the physical world - so to speak- which means that they are not definitive unless I accept and allow them.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see words as a description of what is here, where this can be a good in that it draws attention to looking here, or can be used to protect and defend a “ make believe” reality, through citing values of more than and less than, as self aggrandizement and projected blame instead of solution to here in common sense, as in speaking that which does no harm and takes that which is good.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see words as sound, as an initial description, that can change with each moment, and as this the significance of words can then be taken and directed, or investigated, or transformed to become more concise, or suggestive, but that words, as such, cannot define me, and as such cannot burden me unless I accept and allow them to.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to believe that I must accept the focus of reality that a series of words describe

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to want to protect myself from words.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not see, realize and understand that words paint a picture, so to speak, and that that “ picture” is just this, a paranormal image of reality, and as such are not reality, even though words can be a vehicle into becoming aware of reality.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to allow words to confuse me.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to fear words.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to believe that the blame projected onto me is real.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to believe in blame - to be the lie of being lame.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand that blame in no matter what shape and form is not solution, and thus blame is an ignorance of the context of physical reality, a practical physical reality that is the expression of life as what the expression of life would be in all common sense, as this is form, a gift given to be and understand life, equal and one.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to see blame as a burden to carry

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to become definitive within blame, referencing knowledge and information based on past experience only without a balanced reference to practical physical reality within and as what directs oneness and equality in communication and respect for all life, as the gift of being equal and one in substance.

I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand that blame is a limitation, as a end game, ignorant of practical physical, space time reality and as such can be addressed with practical common sense.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not see, realize and understand that righteousness is  self wanting validation which is an act of not addressing blame but rather reacting to it instead of addressing the limitation of and as blame into solution, which is to place self equal and one to and as the practical physical world, the expression of life, as life would be a form in order to express itself, here, and as such would operate in practical common sense.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not see, realize and understand that being righteous is a separation because it is an act of self validation instead of common sense as self can only give insight when in common sense of that which is the expression of life which is the physical form which operates in visible common sense ways as this is the way and the means of the expression of life.

I forgive myself for not seeing realizing and understanding that being righteous is always/allways a separation from life, from the gift of and as life, as life is in support of itself an act/expression of absolute giving, thus life as expression is to give absolutely of self as life,anything else is separation.

When and as I find myself believing I have not been clear with my words as a reaction of accepting blame in/through protection and self defense, I stop and I breath and I bring myself here,  to become one and equal within the texture of the physical world.

When and as I find myself reacting in protection and self defense I stop and I breath, as this projection of righteousness, a self accepted entity of pushing away the blame as within this I have accepted and allowed myself to become infearior to life as I have taken the blame personally believing that i am responsible for the blame or will be labeled as the blame and as such an act of separation from the physical practical reality, and I see, realize and understand that blame as limitation and I direct myself within and as what is best for all, which is what is best for the physical world, even if this means taking the time to investigate a solution

When and as I find myself reacting within in protection and self defense, as moving into inferiority into righteousness as the mask of superiority, I stop and I breath, and I slow myself down until I can remain within a modicum of ease within and as breath.

When and as I find the corners of my mouth sinking way way down, I stop and I breath, and for the moment, I practice placing myself in humble gentleness within and as breath, here.

When and as I find behaviors of others as criticism, as an emotional storm as what is present around me, directly, I stop and I breath, and at this point I allow this storm to crest and remain equal and one with and as breath, and practice walking the limitation as best I can into what directs the movement into and as grounding one practically equal and one with and as the information of sound as life in common sense of physical reality.

When and as I find a wave of righteousness welling up from my solar plexus, I stop and I breath and I slow myself down, and I see realize and understand that at this point I have accepted and allowed myself to judge another and not addressed limitation and separated myself from being a direct memory of life, which is being equal and one in common sense of practical physical reality.

When and as I find myself reacting, I stop and I breath, and I see, realize and understand my own expectations as myself believing in a gain that separated myself from common sense and lead into a protection and self defense as a fear of loss, and I stop and I breath, until I stabilize myself within and as breath, here, as the energy of reaction must be forgiven, and within this to realize that the entity as mind as judgement and the consequences of such must be forgiven, walked and as such cannot be the definition of myself unless I accept and allow it.

When and as I find a weight on my chest, I stop and I breath and I slow myself down, and I see , realize and understand that this is going to take some practice and time to unknot.

When and as I find myself weighing myself down in and as a belief of more than and less than, I stop and I breath, and I see, realize and understand that the ease and gentleness to stand within and as what is best for all, is always/allways right here in front of me, and as this I slow myself down and I breath and stabilize myself within and as what is best for all of which moves with ease here.

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Day 176 The care of wanting immediate change

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to place myself into a drama of judgement when change does not happen immediately.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to judge myself as a failure when things do not change within a development desired immediately.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to fear remaining where I am without development happening immediately.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to wish for a change to happen, this being an admission to wanting a future to be here and not actually being here, looking at what is practically here, where things take time within this physical world and thus this idea of a miracle as though some magnificent change is going to happen is an illusion and is ignorance into and as what the process of change and development actually means within this physical existence.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to fear that a change is not going to happen just because it does not happen immediately.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to not see, realize and understand that in becoming anxious about my own development within a change is a separation from practical reality and thus I am the cause of my own insecurity where by I am focused on the non-change happening and not actually being here using the time here to enjoy what is actually here as I become obsessive within judgement and fear in and as a belief that a change is not going to come because it has not immediately manifested.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to start picking and biting my nails when I become anxious within a change and/or development happening immediately.
I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to see, realize and understand that in wanting an immediate change I realize that my starting point was of expectation and when this as not met my fantasy crashed and I begin to doubt instead of being here, looking at what is here and realizing that the fairy tale idea in and as my mind did not include actual practical reality, thus I slow myself down, breath and self forgive ideas separate from practical physical reality, as the answer is here and not there in some projection/dream.

I commit myself to breathing, to slowing myself down, to forgiving myself to what i actually physically am here, and correcting myself within realizing how this physical world functions, and within this to look at what is actually existent on this physical world that reveals the ignorance of this physical world by the human who has become separate from this physical world, as the greed of men who desire more than another, which is all men, having developed a system of self interest and self religion composed of ideas , beliefs and opinions, in separation from what is actually real, physically here and thus ignore that the abuse on this earth and to self is the cause of discord on this earth which is eventually going to catch up to each and every one of us unless we wake up and realize that we, the human are, each and every one, the cause of the destruction on earth as we are not working with , one and equal to, this physical world as what is real, a world abused, in decay that is going to come to our doorstep, where waiting for someone else to stand is not going to work as it will take all of us to change this system of inequality as it is all of us that support it through inaction as well as action, both actions of allowance, as silence and inaction are not mechanisms of change.
I commit myself to slowing myself down and practically looking at what is here, to see, realize and understand that change is a process that requires actions, where consistent action manifests results, realizing that worry and fear are not the makers of change that is in awareness of what is actually here, where self is existing in self direction, self honesty and self responsibility, as a dream of the future is fantasy and not actually being here, equal and one with what is here, as it is only here than self development and self direction actually takes place as life existing equal and one.

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